Stephanie Cianfriglia / Sapphire Crimson Claw / Yarrow Brown / the-ghost-fucker / transmascdruid / anarchoenby77 / darktwistedpussy / Druid of Endicot - Xe/xyr ghost-fucker, womb wizard, hand sanitizer sommelier, trans-boomer, violently abuses her elderly parents, has sexual fantasies about raping children

[Pee Your Pants]

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This entire Thing in queer spaces about men fucked me up for YEARS.
My gender identity has always been partially agender. I knew that from the get-go. But it's taken me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I'm also partially a man.
I use a lot of various niche and specific labels, but it's easiest to explain myself using either bxy or nonbinary man. I'm a blend of agender, man, and xenogenders. To cis people, I explain it as if I were a flamboyant gay man in a woman's body or as feeling "boy flavored."
But because of The Thing (which, let's be honest, is transandrophobia), I couldn't call myself a man even though I used to believe that I was a binary trans man. My confusion came into play when I still felt different than cis men and when I discovered the concept of nonbinary.
So, I initially came out as an agender demigirl.
Some years later, I identified as a nonbinary futch, because I felt both feminine and masculine. I thought that my masculinity was just a part of my expression rather than my gender.
People were ALSO noticing that I was obviously attracted to men, which I was in denial about, as well, because "ew, men."
Which brings us to, oddly enough, 2022 and the Dahmer series on Netflix. I find that, despite that he's a serial killer, I can relate to some aspects of his life. He's lonely, he feels like a freak, and he can't accept that he's a gay man.
I haven't had such a "brick to the head" moment since I realized that I was trans back in 2015.
He can't accept that he's a gay man.
He can't accept that he's a gay man.
He can't accept that he's a gay man.
I was like, oh, shit.
Even though I have since clarified that I am mostly aroace, I definitely am attracted to men. They're my exception and my weakness. It usually happens with fictional characters or celebrities, but sometimes, I enjoy flirting with them and the whole fetishist idea of being a big chested transmasc who could pull a straight man. They're fantasies I will probably act on, but I enjoy them.
So, that's my weird little journey of discovery.

I am mostly aroace, I definitely am attracted to men. They're my exception and my weakness.

What an absolute lunatic statement. That's called being a straight woman. Someone being a man isn't some super special criteria. It's not like she said, 'I make an exception for fat men with no arms', or even 'blonde men with glasses are my weakness.' It's just 'men.'

I enjoy flirting with them

a big chested transmasc who could pull a straight man.

LMAO.

 

[The Salt Mines]

I'm really hoping that she gets into that new apartment with the super special LGBTQ floor. An entire wing dedicated to Gyro-level speds obsessed with gender and sexuality all crammed together?? If someone set up cameras, I'd pay for a stream.

It's a pity she is a horrible narrator/storyteller. If she does move in, I doubt we'll get extra milk just due to her inability to acknowledge anything or anyone outside of herself.

 

[RonRiot]

I'm really hoping that she gets into that new apartment with the super special LGBTQ floor. An entire wing dedicated to Gyro-level speds obsessed with gender and sexuality all crammed together?? If someone set up cameras, I'd pay for a stream.

It's a pity she is a horrible narrator/storyteller. If she does move in, I doubt we'll get extra milk just due to her inability to acknowledge anything or anyone outside of herself.

I hope so too, but that it’s all bitchy old gay men so she can more fully embody the pooner at the sex party meme. She could read them her sexuality essay. I’m sure they’ll sew a patch on the quilt for the queer plight of a straight woman with a short haircut.

 

[Aunt Carol]

It's a pity she is a horrible narrator/storyteller. If she does move in, I doubt we'll get extra milk just due to her inability to acknowledge anything or anyone outside of herself.

My hope, and I know this is foolish, is that there's organically something like your previous paragraph.

Stephanie has zero OPSEC, and she doxes friends regularly. Imagine finding a handful of young Boomers online, all vaguebooking about the same problem neighbor.

 

[Pillar Of The Community]

I knew she trooned out for Dahmer.

 

[it's pronounced gif]

Someone please explain The Thing About Men for someone who isn't suffering from terminal tumblritis

 

[Aunt Carol]

Someone please explain The Thing About Men for someone who isn't suffering from terminal tumblritis

It's not our job to educate you, sweaty!

Generally the Tumblr queers do not like men. Some of them will have disclaimers about how they only mean they don't like straight, non-troon men, or they're attracted to everyone except "cishet men."

And then there's self-flagellating as well as transman bitching about how that means they clearly aren't seeing transmen as men, if they don't hate/fear them the same as real men. You see the term "man lite" a lot.

Of course this is followed by "transmascs" complaining that they're alienated from queer spaces for passing too well, or that they want to be back with the lesbians.

In less-rotted Tumblrinas, there's a lot of word salad cope for being a woman who likes men. For Stephanie, she feels she has to justify her halfhearted attempts at transitioning, because she's transitioning to adjective-adjective-adjective-male.

 

[Meredith Swift]

The best thing that could happen to her is if the super special LGBTQ floor is just full of regular normie guys who just happen to like sucking cock in private and have no time for her womb wizarding

 

[Pillar Of The Community]

Bear with me.

There is a concept, Trans Misogyny Exempt, part of a broader ideology referred to as “Baedellism” [sic]. It comes from a uniquely and comically ugly troon by the same name, Baedellia. Anyway, it’s the idea that pooners are inherently more privileged than troons because they don’t experience misogyny as “men”, and that trannies experience doubleplus special misogyny on account of being trannies. Of course, it really boils down to jealousy and the MTFs exerting dominion over the FTMs, but still. This ridiculous idea somehow broke containment and became discourse (specifically on tumblr, bluesky, and xitter) for at least a year or two.

Naturally, the TME label made a lot of pooners cry online and desperately try to ingratiate themselves with the troons, who in turn made really ironically misogynistic and cruel memes about them and justified it as striking against the patriarchy. While they’d sneak into their Reddit dms to ask for nudes and call them stupid for cutting off the tits they’re so lucky to have.

Now ask yourself: how can so many contradictory and nonsensical ideas exist at once?

I don’t know if Staph is referring specifically to this but it’s part of the grander scheme of “man” hate in the Qrazy Queer Qommunity. Because there was a big argument about it a few years ago it’s part of the ideology forever, and now everyone hates pooners for being oppressors.

 

[Aunt Carol]

It comes from a uniquely and comically ugly troon by the same name, Baedellia.

I would not put it past troons, but do you have a source for that origin?

I know a lot of them had "baeddel" in their screen names/blog names, but it was from extremely, extremely questionable etymology that claims Old English bæddel is the root of bad.

And also that bædling used to mean a third-gender role in OE that ~~we've all forgotten about~~ but troons were totally respected priestess-queens before the Christians ruined everything, I tell you hwæt.

I came to my senses before I got further along the Medieval Studies academic track, but this is unsourced speculation about the level of black people explaining how the word "picnic" is racist. Any sources before 2000 say bæddel was used in a sketchy translation to begin with and only appears a few times in extant OE writing, so it might be a ghost made of poor penmanship and iffy spelling. Modern scholars? Take one single word and spin it into an empire of queer.

 

[Pillar Of The Community]

I know a lot of them had "baeddel" in their screen names/blog names

Yes, you’re right! I definitely got my wires crossed here, because the fellow that introduced the concept to me was autogynamelia in the Sideshows thread and I assumed he was the spearhead. His user did indeed have Baeddel in it. I also recall tumblr posts that talked about him and some drama around the same time.

Lol shame on me.

 

[FuckMeGentlyWithAChainsaw]

She looks like all the Dursley's mushed together and Harry Potter will certainly not be allowed to attend that horrible terf school!

 

[often puzzled]

She's going to be disappointed if she does get moved to the LGBTQ floor/building. It's new construction, for one thing, so she's going to be able to hear every single tiny sound from every apartment. She doesn't realize that it's better, sound-wise, to be in an older building.

She's also excepting a floor of fellow Tumblrites, but it's just going to be a bunch of old gay people with low incomes. I'm sure she thinks that these will be a "better" class of people than her current neighbors, but it'll be the same thing all over again (now with paper-thin walls!). It will also probably be easier for these neighbors to scam her once they realize what angle to work.

She sounds bored as all get out. I didn't even realize she'd been in that apartment going on four years, and it's amazing how much she's declined in that time. She does nothing besides scroll on her phone (and give herself neck pain), so it's no wonder she's bored.

 

[Pee Your Pants]

LOL.


Must have got one of her pals to leave that review to counteract all the evil nAtzis. Not TERFs or antis, for once.





It wasn't a 'joke' that was taken 'the wrong way.' It was a comment you left to talk about your ghost fetish. It made ZERO sense as a reply, so the person let you know it was obviously weird.


Trans people using KF to stalk her, huh? Where has that fable come from?


Ridiculous.


Come on, we have seen 'The Mountain' and you mean, 'I have plans to walk up a hill.'


The time might come if she acknowledges and accepts herself for who she is. The Frigs have had to deal with her rapidly changing identities over many years, so I don't blame them.


What... You wish ICE shit was going on in your town just so you could join in protesting (as if she would anyway)?


She ignored the fact that this person was talking about reading... But it seems like Staph has been doing some writing, so yay!


OK...


uwu.

 

[JaneThough]

It wasn't a 'joke' that was taken 'the wrong way.'

To be fair, it was a joke just a bad one. The other person didn’t laugh so rather than laugh at herself and move on we’ve got another suicide watch.

 

[Stan]

“Balldoism” [sic]. It comes from a uniquely and comically ugly troon by the same name, Balldo

 

[Aunt Carol]

Ridiculous.

Aren't her friends dead already?

 

[Wigger Rights Advocate]

It's so funny that her new year's resolution is posting more on social media. For normal people, the usual resolution is to become LESS chronically online. Also I feel so bad for her mom and it's so off-putting how Staph just gives us that kind of news mixed in with trivial crap. This bitch is so fucking odd.... I'm super excited to see what she'll deliver to us in 2026 though!

 

[BoobWhiskers]

Also I feel so bad for her mom and it's so off-putting how Staph just gives us that kind of news mixed in with trivial crap.

Especially because she's a chronic oversharer (the anecdotes about people tweeting every time they have a bodily function were JOKES, Stapphy, not a suggestion!), and also because she probably interacts with her parents more than most people do just by merit of having nothing else going on.

Honestly though, this is a situation where I'm happy for it not being talked about. Let her mom's business stay private for once.

 

[A random street in Duluth]

Bear with me.

There is a concept, Trans Misogyny Exempt, part of a broader ideology referred to as “Baedellism” [sic]. It comes from a uniquely and comically ugly troon by the same name, Baedellia.

There is more to it.

Bæddel and bædling[ii] are Old English[a] (Anglo-Saxon) terms theorised to refer to non-normative sexual or gender categories. They occur in only five medieval glossaries and penitentials (guides for religious penance). Scholars debate their exact meanings (and their distinction, if any), but both are linked to effeminacy and adultery. Bæddel appears in one glossary, where it glosses "hermaphrodite" and a "man of both sexes", while bædling glosses an "effeminate" or "soft" person. The Oxford English Dictionary states that bæddel may be related to the Modern English adjective bad; scholars have proposed that bad shares a common ancestor with both bæddel and bædling.

Its what saxons referred weak, effeminate faggots as, and literally the source of the word "bad" from the original meaning of weak, evil, immoral, degenerate, worthless, effeminate, a pederast etc. and used as an insult worth drawing swords over Trannies of course, eagerly slurp up every single negative and degenerate thing in history to refer to themselves, either out of a desire to shock daddy and mommy, our out of genuine ontological evil and malice. Maybe both.