A TiF who had plans of enlistment discovers that there are certain barriers of entry into the military, including having reproductive issues and being on birth control; in despair, she debates spending the last of her meager savings on steroids so that even if she dies homeless, at least she will die "somewhat more content with myself." If that's the sort of decision-making you display outside of the battlefield, perhaps you're better suited to civilian life.
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Being born female ruined, has ruined, and is still ruining my life. The amount of money I could still have if I didn’t need it for this top surgery. The money I could have save looking in the future because I will need to spend it on an endless subscription of T and hysterectomy because I so fucking badly want it, atp need on top of my already present uterine issues that have been dismissed and ignored by countless doctors. Don’t get me wrong, getting top surgery was the best thing that happened to me in my life so far and no doubt further gender-affirming care will continue to improve my wellbeing. But if I just wasn’t fucking female, it’s not only that, I wouldn’t have to go thru all this, everything else. Financially, mentally, physically, the discrimination, the hate, etc etc etc etc
My last option in this miserable life was military but even now that is fucking out of the goddamned window because in doing more research out of desperation, because I was going to just throw all my mental health away and join as a girl (at least the ACFT standards are lower), you can face problems with enlistment if you have reproductive issues and boy I am full of those. All the more reason to get a damn hysto. And even then it said having a hysto puts you at risk of DQ or in need of a waiver. The HELL??!!! And I can’t find WHY the fuck it puts me at risk of disqualification or why it needs a waiver so
it almost seems like complete misogyny. And yes, according to my research, simply birth control also can make it difficult to get in, not that birth control ever fucking works for me. So I would be extra miserable on top of presenting female, I’d be constantly bleeding out of my ass, if I ever got in but likely not because abnormalities ALSO kick you out. So I really fucking can’t.
I am borderline homeless. I’m not exactly at 0$ so
I guess another damn option is to recklessly start T so if I die from starvation or whatever, at least I’ll die somewhat more content with myself, I fucking guess
Fool for the summer: during a trip to her local pool, a pooner's crap-ass Shein binder does little to hide the reality of her anatomy, drawing attention from strangers around her as they openly gawk and speculate about what box to sort her into. This is one of those posts that feels like it's borderline schizoposting because I really doubt
this many strangers accosted our heroine in a single day, but then again, it's still funny to imagine a willful clown being upset that merely walking around makes everyone laugh.
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I tried to go to the pool with my friends and that wqs awful.
Im pre-op and pre-t so i dressed an tshirt with a thank top bellow and a shitty binder from shein.I usually pass really well so i wqs really confident to go there.I tried to go swim and that feeling when i get out of the pool with my shirt really close to my chest was awful. That really was enough to destroy my day but id didnt end here.
I was already really sad and then one girl that was besides me whispered to her friend “that girl has hairy legs” and her friend answered “that is a boy i think”, after that they wouldnt stop watching me to try to understand if i was a boy or not.After that i was at the bus station waiting for my bus to go home and
one old lady with her friends started laughing at me and getting close whispering “is that a boy?” “Oh i think thats a girl because of her voice”.And then
when i get down to the bus and was walking back home i saw 2 colleagues that used to bullied me for being trans.I already im really anxious but my depression has really get worse so when i have the chance to go out i try to go,
today i was really confident but i ended up being sadder.
Though she's completed as much of her transition as she feels personally comfortable with, a FTM is still full of fury and bluster over the aberrant accident of her chromosomal makeup. This is a good example of how for many of the tranny tribe, there is simply
no amount of surgical or medical modification that can save them, because look at how much she's still fucking whining! If there's any proof that these procedures have no merit, it's posts like this.
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It genuinely feels disabling to me and I hate being trans so much. I’ve been out for like eight years, I’ve been on hormones for almost as long, I’ve gotten top surgery, I’ve had a full hysterectomy, I’m basically as far into my transition as I’ll ever get unless they come up with new ways of going about bottom surgery that function and look the same as cis men’s. While I’m so glad I got top surgery and it saved my life I still hate it so much.
I hate having scars across my chest, I hate having nipples that are uneven and shaped differently with little sensation. I hate that my chest doesn’t look normal. I hate how I’ll never be cis. I hate dysphoria so much and it’s gotten so much better over the years but it still sucks.
I haven’t been misgendered in years, I have a full on beard, and yet it still feels like I’ll never be man enough to not feel like something is wrong. I constantly feel like I’m being violated by my own body because it’s just so wrong. And while this obviously is different for everyone,
I personally hate how my transness is associated with the rest of the whole lgbt community. I mean I’m gay as well and that feels natural and normal and not something that causes any harm outside of what society causes because of it,
but being trans has inherently harmed me and regardless of what society thinks about me it’s going to suck and it’s not going to be a good thing. I hate how people expect me to be proud of being trans or view it as just a difference.
I hate how me being trans is considered in the same vein as being gender nonconforming. I hate how people constantly call being transgender a gender identity, like it’s part of my identity of who I am as a person, and not something that’s been forced upon me. I hate how it’s like im not allowed to view being transgender as a disability when to me that’s what it’s felt like my entire life. It affected my ability to interact with others, to keep myself healthy, and it constantly negatively affects my quality of life. And while that’s not every trans person, I wish there was a place for feeling like it’s a bad thing.
I hate how this is going to be my entire life. I’ll never be cis. I’ll never not be trans and I hate it so much. I don’t want to constantly be reminded of how I’ll never be normal every single time I have to take T. I hate how my doctors know I’m trans. I wish I could entirely erase me being trans from anyone’s knowledge. I don’t want the government to have any record ever of me being female, I don’t want my doctors to know I’m trans at all, I want it completely erased so only me and my family know.
After a bathroom heroine confronts him in the women's loo, a troon humiliates himself by becoming a hysterical sobbing mess in front of over 30 new coworkers at a warehouse; he was so upset, in fact, he made everyone late for lunch. Great first impression for sure!
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trans fem,today i went to the bathroom and
i guess this lady had seen me in there before? because not a minute after i locked the stall she came in and yelling hello and i instantly knew it was for me even though there was someone else in there. when i answered back she asked if i was a man or a woman and i replied ‘im transgender’ in a panic due to my very deep very unresolved fear of confrontation. i dont fully pass irl.
i came out and she layed into me. she kept on for a minute but i couldn’t take much more so i just left. she gave a jaded sorry and i replied ‘don’t be sorry, you’re not sorry’ to which she replied with a ‘what the fuck’ tainted with major disgust in her voice. after i came back
everyone in my section was staring, i was super embarrassed not to mention very very hurt by what just happened. i came back out and a tear fell it didn’t stop i tried to not make the cry face and hold it together but it was getting harder and harder i was so embarrassed. i was crying in front of my coworkers not only the ones on my line but every single person in the warehouse… absolutely humiliating. it wasn’t until one of my coworkers patted me on the back and told me it’s okay im doing a good job(im new, i think she thought i was overwhelmed) i lost it, i told her i had to go and walked out sobbing. i had to go through the break room to get outside that’s where the lady was but she was gone thank god my supervisor came after me asking me what’s wrong but i couldn’t talk(in seven years ive cried once for like five minutes lol!)so i apologized and just left when i got outside i called my bf and sobbed into the phone before walking past the managers on break after a couple minutes i pulled myself together and went back in but i didn’t have a key card so one of the managers let me in. one of them came inside and told me they just heard what happened, word traveled fast i guess but makes sense considering someone walked out crying lol she ended up being really cool she was apologizing and was telling she was pissed for me cause i told her i was fine and it was all good. when i went back i wanted to cry but i held it together,
my eyes watered for the next hour before our lunch break which we ended up going to late im pretty sure because of me
at lunch i broke down again and my main manager who was gone that day texted me apologizing. we had two hours left but she let me go home i
was mostly embarrassed i cried in front of my brand new coworkers all thirty of them lol but also hurt by the situation. i feel like the ugliest monster alive and i never want to leave the house again, until my next shift saturday morning sigh, lol.
edit: chopped it up a little and added - TLDR; i got scolded out of the women’s bathroom and now im the girl that cried at work lol
Tinklin' Timmy: a MTF is rendered speechless when his clueless girlfriend asks why, since he's supposedly a lady now, that he continues to leave the toilet seat up despite the fact that there is "a lady" in the house (referring to herself). This comment was so offensive, he drove nearly 3 hours to his old place, which is an extremely reasonable and totally not insane reaction to such an innocuous comment.
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My girlfriend got upset with me a couple days ago because I was in the bathroom and left the seat up on accident because I wanted to clean it and
said “why are you peeing like a guy” and that its “common courtesy to put the seat down when theres a lady in the house”. I was speechless. I literally didn’t know what to say.
So I left the house we stay at and went back 2 1/2 hours to my old place. Am I overreacting or was what she said really that bad?
Lastly, a TiF flattens herself into a pancake so often and with such severity that it has allegedly induced mild scoliosis; this diagnosis changes nothing for her, admitting that she will simply keep popping pills even though "shit is so bad for you" because the alternative is far too painful to bear. I'm sure those bleeding stomach ulcers will be very gender affirming for you, OP, so best of luck!
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Back in July,
I got an X-ray on my ribs and back to just check up on ‘emCuz I do bind “unsafely”I bind 247 except for showering.Please don’t barrier me on it, I know, and yeah I knew the risks, and kind of figured something like this would happen.But I thought I’d be able to get top surgery before anything like this would happen.The results came back, and today I was informed that
I have mild scoliosis.I am fucking devastated man.And I’m not going to stop binding any less frequently.I actually cannot, my dysphoria is too bad and I genuinely fear I will harm myself.No one will help drive me to appointments.I’m stuck in a paradox of: there’s no jobs that are hiring in a walkable distance, I don’t have a car, and I can’t get a car without money from a job, but I can’t get a job, because I don’t have a car.
I’m just feel like I live at nothing but a dead end.I’m fucking 20 pre everything, and I’m told I pass really well, and that dose make me feel good and all, but it’s a constant silent battle.And now it’s my body getting worse and worse over the years,
it hurts to wake up in the morning, it hurts to go up and down stairs, I can’t lift anything too heavy without my back hurting, I can’t work out, I yell out in pain at multiple points in the day. Sometimes my back will have flare ups, we’re the pain is unbearable, and all I can do is shove more meds down my throat, and shit is so bad for you. Sometimes they make my stomach hurt.
I just feel so hopeless sometimes man.
All trannies are autists but not all autists are trannies
