📚 Megathread Trannies posting their L's Online - Heckin valid people posting their funny misfortunes on the internet

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The disgusting amounts of sexism, pornographic obsession, pedo-adjacent beliefs, and general personality issues of Poons and Troons never fails to disgust me. What absolute wastes of air. Genuinely. For all the faults of every ethnicity, age group, sexuality, and the two sexes, never has a population been made of all the most deplorable of traits festering within humanity's bowels.

How. How. I do not mean to be MOTI, but it is impressive how utterly parasitic and wretched these people are, before, now, and evermore. I've heard some awful things (here, in other online spaces, and irl), but nothing compares to the absolutely vitriolic hatred that exists within these tranny spheres. I'd genuinely rather have to spend a month in the same room getting to know a regular sexist, racist person than ever have to deal with whatever these human-adjacents for even a week. Cause at least the former has to have some good qualities and understand objective realities.

These people are so utterly deranged that I wouldn't trust them to not murder any innocent "cis" person just for existing as they envy, if given the oppurtunity get away with it. The minds of these people are so corrupted that I think someone who regularly dish out hatred on "nigger, fags, and bitches" or whatever who would flinch at the absolute ease trannies and pooners live and breathe beliefs that are often ten times worse. And we let them infect the minds of children. Holy shit.

I can't even be upset with Reddit, Twitter, 4Chan (RIP), and the like because at least those sites give everyone a clear-cut view of this death cult in action. I'm sorry, it's all so absord. Like a bad fever dream that's only beginning to end.

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I apologize for the previous rant. Here is some tax for the thread:

A) "Men are weird" These self-hating homosexual men piss me off to no end. It's not enough to skin walk the opposite sex (who they are repulsed by), but they need to dictate the actions of other men, too. Of course, tranny-chasers are absolutely degenerate so sympathy is nonexistent, but wow. The hypocricy of it all. To be able to see how homophobic the "black community" is, but then hijack the black female existence because you can't come to terms with that and live free, despite it all. No one looks down on you and your partner because a black, trans"woman" is seen as masculine and dom because "she" is black. Everyone sees it for what it is: two men, lying to themselves and making a mockery of heterosexuality to avoid being called "faggots." His poor daughter (if she's even real). This troon-lover sounds like a jailbait pursuer, too.


B) More bitching and whining, that's all these people ever do. This time, troony complaining that he never got to live out the coom in his teen years. Blames "bigoted family" for failing in life, despite it being 100% in his power since he's nearly (pardon me) fucking thirty. How about you nut up, shut up, and try harder and stop reminiscing on a fantasy that wouldn't even happen if your parents had given up on you in your teen years?


C) "Boundary of passing" You will never pass, everyone can tell who and what you are. The ones who laugh are just honest about the clown in the circus. Your "untrained voice" isn't the problem, no amount of surgery or fakery will make you sound anything female-esque. Just a man doing his best flaming drag queen impression.


D) Two of the same issue. More and more of these chicks learn that most people don't want to be with a partner that is on a self-mutilation journey. "21, I'm literally a kid" and yet here you are. Making life-altering situations and only now realising how fucked a big portion of your future will be.



E) Meek Tif thinks hairy legs somehow make her a man. Woman proves her wrong and when Tif goes (in her bravest, softest, frog voice): "...i-it's h-he/h-him..." gets a middle-ground "they." Thinks this is somehow affecting anyone else, but her. Lol.


F) Not even trannies like other trannies. Undeniably, the other trannies treat her like the girl she is because (once more), they have more power than her. Best you all her "cis" friends are liberal chicks who walk on eggshells to avoid setting off the pooner landmine.

 

[healing rain]

A deplorable troon working in healthcare thinks the answer to a nursing and CNA shortage is clearly to snitch on them when they rightfully identify your birth sex and play no games about the reality of it, thus robbing patients of much needed additional support due to a crossdresser's fragile ego. I do not understand why you'd work in healthcare if you have pronouns, because healthcare is a bit synonymous with "having your shit kicked in by old men" and "getting your organs pummeled by autistic children during routine specimen collection." I mean, really, you'll take old men flashing you inappropriately or junkies threatening to stab you over being called a guy? Come on.

I pass well and literally NEVER get misgendered in real life, even when I’m not wearing particularly feminine clothing.

I love going back through these people's accounts to verify the veracity of their claims.

Spoiler

He's a supposed Christian. He has threads on r/Christianity praying for God to give him a husband.





Bare-faced. Imagine being his future chaser husband and you wake up to this.

Every. Single. Time.
Fun fact: it's a gay guy so I bet you he's using troonery to drown out the shame and self-loathing he feels for being same-sex attracted. You're not supposed to say this as a Christian, but I'd rather these people simply apostatize than try to pervert a religion's teachings to soothe their own conscience.

 

[femboy fart huffer]

A deplorable troon working in healthcare

Why must it be someone 'snitching' that you're trans. Are people not allowed to make up their own mind? Do they all have to learn from a database who is trans? They have eyes and yea you look like a guy. Your old supervisors and managers did it, so why must this new person magically not be able to 'misgender' you without first being informed? If you never get misgendered in real life then why was there so much 'rampant misgendering' in Texas? And if that's what ruined your day then idk, if you're a nurse and the worst thing you experience in a day is 'someone said "he" to me' then you're doing your job wrong. By your own admission you had to wipe the shit off a random old guy's ass. From fucking experience there are seldom few things grosser than that. And that's the nicest version. There are few things that I would want less than that, yet somehow no it was a single missing 's' that was the worst part of your day. You are too mentally weak to deal with vulnerable people and should quite immediately.

Also they just fucking forgot to include half the context of their post apparently.

 

[Otterly]

deplorable troon working in healthcare thinks the answer to a nursing and CNA shortage is clearly to snitch on them

I’ve no idea how she found out
Functional eyeballs?

 

[Sean Andalou]

Troon needs grooming advice. No not that kind of grooming you Fascist!


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I've been wanting to get a couple lip piercings for a while now, specifically angel fangs, but im still at a point where im shaving pretty much daily and getting laser on a monthly basis. im just wondering if there are any girls who can share how it is shaving around and getting laser around a lip piercing so i can decide if now is a good time or if i need to wait awhile longer

No answers yet.

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Self conscious, but still not quite getting it.


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Any anyone else relate to this? I feel like sometimes I get stares or just looks because I look like a woman to people. I live in Kentucky so not super great but it’s like I find so many eyes looking at me. It feels like some animal in a zoo sometimes

Emphasis added.
Could it be stares because he looks like freak not a woman?

 

[Waffle Iron]

That eye contact telepathy that women have with each other where they said your escape from pushy men. Ironic.

Wait, women have telepathic powers? No wonder women expect men to read their mind.

I just wanna be a boring annoying nasty guy who loves piv sex.

What does this even mean. How fried does your brain have to be to think wanting to have sex with your partner makes you boring, annoying and nasty?

 

[SoleniyKraut]

This is a breaking story - as in, within the last 24 hours - so we will see how things continue to unfold. One thing's for sure: if you want tranny tears, look up itch.io (or itchio) on Bluesky and watch the milk fucking flow. You'd think they were getting hung one by one at the gallows, for God's sake.

Who knew that water is wet? Perhaps minors getting exposed to pornography will be somehow halted, at last.

 

[and 304 others]

i sort of just realized that it’s been a while since i made a general update so i figured i would do that. my last update was sort of negative and i was really struggling with loneliness, but i’ve been doing a lot better recently!

for those i don’t know, i’m j. i’m a trans guy and college student, and my dad and i are expecting a baby together! i’m currently 6 months pregnant.

not much has changed, which isn’t bad! all my ob appointments and diagnostics have been good. baby is healthy. we’ve decided we don’t want to know the sex until birth (but i’ve got a strong gut feeling that we might have a boy lol)

currently feeling cranky, lethargic, a little bored, and uncomfortably huge. dealing with the summer and the heat while heavily pregnant and with not much to do before the fall semester starts has me feeling a little listless. we’ve had a lot of fun getting the nursery space put together and decorated, talking about names, and doing so much reading and research. we’re gonna have the baby here at home with the support of our midwife, so i’m both super nervous but also super happy about that!

i’m also sort of nervous to start the fall being so visibly pregnant and dealing with even polite curiosity from people, but i am just so eager and excited to get the rest of this pregnancy over with and have this baby and meet them!!!!!!

i hope all of you and your partners and families and such are doing well

even when i’m not posting, i’m probably lurking and enjoying the solidarity and community here that doesn’t really exist anywhere else. i’m so grateful.

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u/prey-animal - might be a fetish roleplayer

 

[Dolly Brooks]

Oh no, Stinky Princess! Why would the parents think you’re some bathroom pervert?

Some of these may be out of order time-wise but you get the idea.

Spoiler: Gross

Nudist but okay…I guess it could be worse.

CURIOUS ABOUT BEING A LITTLE, DEF NOT A SEXUAL THING THOUGH…

POSTS ABOUT HIS POOP A LOT

FINDS DRESSING LIKE A WOMAN AROUSING BECAUSE HIS MOM LAUGHED AT HIM ONCE

There were A LOT of poop posts.

3 troons and a pear tree or however the song goes

Top question is a CJ question but it’s a good one.

Of course, MTF friend is a rapist, MTF partner is cool with it, this MTF says “she” makes them all look bad. “They still can’t sit with us” but they can live with you?

Feels so much better, even though they post about being depressed constantly.

It wasn’t even that big of a shit tbh, not sure why he made that comparison. I guess add pregnancy to the fetish list.

Literally the meme

One thing I’ve noticed about MTFs is they rate the women in their lives on a serious curve. Like “my dad was a mean drunk” and then “my mom laughed at me once.” In a recent story, an MTF’s male friend was rude as hell and his friend’s gf politely said she didn’t think dressing as a woman would make him happy, guess which one stung him more? It’s…interesting.

Idk why anyone would think this guy is some bathroom pervert!

 

[Intel Core Ultra 7 265k]

Of course, MTF friend is a rapist, MTF partner is cool with it, this MTF says “she” makes them all look bad. “They still can’t sit with us” but they can live with you?

I mean who's surprised here? Being a sex offender basically comes free with trooning out

 

[Cholesterol Gremlin]

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u/prey-animal - might be a fetish roleplayer

Congratulations, this is the worst thing I have seen on this website and I clicked on the videos of people dying thread one time

 

[Magic Pickle]

u/prey-animal - might be a fetish roleplayer

Good news: it's just a sick fuck LARPing. Unfortunately, troons 'n' poons alike are very strongly incestuously inclined - just look at how often they burn with a simultaneous envy and desire towards their siblings. (In my experience, troons tend to gravitate towards sisters and mothers whereas pooners are mostly lean towards father figures. Make of that what you will.)

Oh no, Stinky Princess! Why would the parents think you’re some bathroom pervert?

Why, indeed. I can only hope one of the families of the children involves stumbles upon my phonebooking of him so that they may properly expose him for being the grotesque freak that he is.

Thread tax:
I can't put my finger on why, but the simpering little whinge this tranny wrote up reminds me of Simple Plan's classic hit "Perfect." Could it be because it's a young man stamping his feet impotently at a parent he's too immature to understand the thoughts of? Who knows.
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Dear Mom...​

Try living as a boy when you don't want to, that breaks you. Try telling your mother, one of 4 people you have that after years of therapy and medication and searching I've finally come to the conclusion I'm trans, and being told no, I feel like you're wrong so I don't care. It breaks me the way you are handling this. Yet as I sit here crying I still text you because you're the only parent I have left and I love you even if you hate me and I can't stop because that would hurt too much, I just want you to care...

A man dumber than a canteen full of squid shit decides to become a tranny prostitute out of jealousy towards other tranny prostitutes; what happens next would only shock you if you, too, were dumber than a canteen full of squid shit.
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Did SW out of jealousy, Attempting to heal​

Disclaimer: This is not an anti SW post or intended to hate on anyone who does SW. I am sharing my personal experience and how it affected my mental health and healing. I continue to support and be there for many of my sisters in that field, and any Anti anything comments will be ignored. Also Trigger Warning for SH and SA
Trans Influencers and Unreasonable Beauty Standards
At the start of my transition, I was being very active and vocal on social media, documenting my experiences, and attempting to connect with the trans online community. I looked to a lot of trans women there for advice, inspiration, etc. It felt quickly discouraging though considering 9/10 of them were

Passing
Conventionally attractive
White
Had a presence built around SW in some way, which worked well for them, but made me feel even more disconnected from the space
Attained financial stability through their content

I found this to be so overwhelming as a non passing, black trans girl with a non conventional body, no money, not much push or positive attention, and at the moment I never had any plans to create any erotic content or anything like that (just wasn't how I wanted to express myself), but I became increasingly jealous and depressed over how I would never be able to get the attention and appreciation that they had, meanwhile I was constantly being met with loads of transphobia, actual threats, and racism for being who I was online. It just didn't feel fair.

The Attention/Validation Trap​

I spent a lot of time dooming and hating myself and even indulged in a lot of SH, and was still dealing with a lot of harassment while watching other people thrive and that bitterness made me do so many things I wish I didn't.
I started editing my photos heavily, making my face look prettier and more passing with FaceApps and whatnot, taking very anglefrauded selfies and sometimes editing my body, because in my mind I didn't think I was gonna have a chance, but wanted to pretend I could enjoy being trans for even a second. Doing this on Grindr got me a lot of attention and praise in my area, and even on dating apps (I never met up in person so it worked out)
I sexualized myself a ton from that point on to the point where my phone was full of men fetishizing me (chasers as you'd call them maybe) and I spent more time talking to chasers than my actual friends or family for the next 6 months. The attention was addicting and the most affirmed as a woman I ever felt at that point. I felt less alone, and more appreciated.
At a point financially I was doing very bad and couldn't afford food as much and couldn't pay rent easily because of hour cuts, and no other jobs were hiring. I did eventually start passing and ended up making a plan to do actual SW, and so I made a lot of content, advertised to people, started doing all the free stuff (advertising on my Snapchat, sneakily on Grindr, and had a pretty good SC roster) and then selling later. At the time I felt like I was finally gonna be like one of those tgirls people loved and appreciated and not just be treated as some cringy abomination and maybe get paid for my existence, which in my mind at the time was gonna make my transition feel less worthless.

Dehumanization/Harassment​

During that very short time alone I was:

Assaulted
Referred to by my body parts and constantly being talked to with dehumanizing language
Met with multiple very violent threats
Having to compare myself to those girls more than I ever did which drained my spirit

Atp I shut everyone off. I felt like a failure, bc even though I felt so disgusting about myself, I still wanted to live that life so bad. I just wanted to feel anything close to appreciation, even if it hurt and destroyed me mentally. I was so obsessed and I let it define one of the most important parts of my transition.

Healing​

Eventually the bitterness just kind of grew too painful and I couldn't hold my feelings in anymore and I had a very destructive mental breakdown and ended up crying for hours. I deleted everything, eventually started working out again, talked to my family again, moved back in with them, and told some of my family what happened.
I slowly started getting back into my passions, and now I kinda just spend my time online reminding other trans people who don't see themselves in Tiktok or IG trans influencers or content, that they matter too and also deserve to be appreciated and seen and heard. Social media is so dangerous for us as trans people, especially for us young trans people, and they deserve to know even they belong here too. This also may be a 100% original experience and I'm the only one who was sucked into that, but I doubt it sincerely.
P.s I didn't know where to post this, and I don't mean any harm to anyone by posting here nor do I necessarily want to start a debate. I kinda just would like to be seen/heard atm and know if anyone could relate. I never really brought this entire issue up online before.
For the mods, I made sure when writing this that I adhered to all of the rules listed. I hope your day is going okay

 

[Dolly Brooks]

Damn it! I somehow missed your post. I looked at all of that literal shit for nothing.

 

[Sneed's Feed n Seed]

You ever look at someone and just instantly know that they have autism?

Yes. It's actually rather well understood.

Less distance between eyes and mouth, flatter cheekbones.
Increased space between inner corner of eyes, cheekbones wider relative to face height.
Reduced nose length from ridge to tip.
Wider mouth, flatter philtrum (groove between nose/upper lip is less distinct) .
Flattened or undeveloped Jaw, smaller chin.
Wide-set eyes (well already said that more or less); downturned outer eye corners.

IOW, opposite of a chadface/stacyface.



(Per safety protocols for troon threads these are AI generations, not real children)

 

[femboy fart huffer]

Good news: it's just a sick fuck LARPing.

/r/InbreedingIsTheAnswer
Somehow I don't feel any less disgusted knowing it's a larp.

you're the only parent I have left

A transgender without a father figure. Gee golly gosh what a surprise.

black trans girl with a non conventional body

That's not non conventional. Just fucking say you're fat like 80% of black 'women'. A thick black woman is possibly the most conventional body type you retard.

Yes. It's actually rather well understood.

Looks fucking uncomfortably close to an autistic relative lol. Another thing that I notice is the little mouth corners too. There's something about lips where the tops and bottoms are parallel but the actual mouth crease whatever the fuck it's called has a noticeable downward curve.

 

[Apustajan apustaja]

I don't buy this female inherited baldness thing. I'm bald, brother is going bald, father is bald, son is going bald in the exact same pattern at the exact same age. Every male on my mom's side kept a full head of hair to their deathbeds.

There are about 280 genes that may cause male pattern baldness. The majority of them are situated in the X-chomosome, but not all. So it is more often than not inherited from the mother, but not all the time.
Another factor is speed, by age 70 a large majority of men are experiencing some male pattern baldness, but how fast it goes is also down to genes.

My boomer dad had a full open mop-top by 23, I expected the same, so I shaved it all off at the first signs at 22, but now approaching 50 I could have pretty ok hair for someone my age (better than many troons), but "pretty ok for 50" is not something you grow out when you already have the compensation beard and have learned to shave your head every time you shower.
I had severe dysphoria over this between ages 15-25, I even thougt about suicide. Now I think I would look dumb and silly with hair, even if it were perfect. Funny how that goes.

https://journals.plos.org/plosgenetics/article?id=10.1371/journal.pgen.1006594

 

[YouTube Autist]

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Oh no, Stinky Princess! Why would the parents think you’re some bathroom pervert?

Some of these may be out of order time-wise but you get the idea.

Spoiler: Gross

Nudist but okay…I guess it could be worse.
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CURIOUS ABOUT BEING A LITTLE, DEF NOT A SEXUAL THING THOUGH…
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POSTS ABOUT HIS POOP A LOT
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FINDS DRESSING LIKE A WOMAN AROUSING BECAUSE HIS MOM LAUGHED AT HIM ONCE
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There were A LOT of poop posts.
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3 troons and a pear tree or however the song goes
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Top question is a CJ question but it’s a good one.
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Of course, MTF friend is a rapist, MTF partner is cool with it, this MTF says “she” makes them all look bad. “They still can’t sit with us” but they can live with you?
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Feels so much better, even though they post about being depressed constantly.
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It wasn’t even that big of a shit tbh, not sure why he made that comparison. I guess add pregnancy to the fetish list.
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Literally the meme
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One thing I’ve noticed about MTFs is they rate the women in their lives on a serious curve. Like “my dad was a mean drunk” and then “my mom laughed at me once.” In a recent story, an MTF’s male friend was rude as hell and his friend’s gf politely said she didn’t think dressing as a woman would make him happy, guess which one stung him more? It’s…interesting.
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Idk why anyone would think this guy is some bathroom pervert!

Re: those nudes, wow. What a total lack of effort has gone into that body. I'm no health nut, but you can just tell his lifestyle is one that involves a lot of sitting down indoors and a lot of fatty, processed, sugary crap food. Is he really only 34? That's the sort of physique you'd end up with if you were raised in a lightless underground dungeon.

 

[Magic Pickle]

Peein' with envy: a 25-year-old pooner watches little boys urinate outdoors and is beside herself with jealousy.
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Jealous of cis boys that can pee anywhere​

I went fishing tonight with some friends and their young boys (6 and 8 years old). We were there for a few hours and both boys ended up pissing off the dock because there were no bathrooms available. I was already jealous of how easily they could go literally wherever they wanted, not to mention when I had to pee and we ended up having to leave because of it.
I thought my pee dysphoria had subsided recently but this really brought it all back up again and it sucks.

A tranny's testicles decide to revolt against him by allegedly developing cancer in a bid to get the hell out of dodge before he cuts them off himself. Appallingly, it isn't death that OP fears, but the indignity and shame of being bald, stating that he will "not survive" if he loses his lovely locks. With the way these base varlets act, you'd think going bald puts you on the same tier as lepers.
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How do I get through testicular cancer without losing my hair​

Hey all, deeply struggling. I’m almost certain I have testicular cancer, I could not go to the doctor pre acceptance due to shame and now that I feel confident enough to go to the doctor I can’t help but truly hate myself for waiting this long.
I can’t help but think that chemo is a certainty due to how long I waited and I don’t what to say other than I will not survive if I lose my hair. I’ve been growing it out for so many years, it’s my only link to femininity until estrogen is an option, which it will not be for many years as I was hoping to have children first.
Every day lately I feel an ache in a place that I desperately try not to think about. Every day I’m faced with potentially losing my womanhood in its entirety and I can’t help but feel like giving up now, while I am still pretty, while I still have control. Someone please make this feel a bit less scary.
Edit: also I’m on out of state Medicaid I’m actually so fucked

A whiny little TiF is upset because her friend isn't playing her part correctly by being a handmaiden; she feels especially threatened because her friend suggested that she be more grateful, as others might assault OP rather than simply dissent as she did. Good for OP's friend! Come to the farms, sister, you'll love it here.
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My best friend turned out to be transphobic and I'm grieving our friendship.​

CW: mention of physical violence in the 6th paragraph.
Hey everyone, I'm new here but I wanted to talk about my feelings with people who'd understand me. I (21) came out this year as agender to my closest friends, pronouns they/she but not genderred terms. I had been struggling for years, trying to figure myself out, but agender is a label I feel represents me and I feel comfortable with. When I came out to this particular friend (20), I was playing a video game with her and my other best friend. I talked about my feelings, how I don't feel like a woman but not like a man either, and I said I was open to questions and didn't mind mistakes, as this is a learning curve for all of us. I noticed that my other friends were all trying their best to refer to me in my preferred pronouns, preferred language etc and asked questions when they weren’t sure about things. However, she kept calling me 'girl', 'queen' and other terms even though I had mentioned I don't like those. These are all things I noticed after the next events.
On Monday, I was playing the same video game with the same two friends, when my friend mentioned one of her NB friends. She had used 'her', so I asked if she meant 'them'. She went on to say that she didn't really care about pronouns and that she only respected them because we asked, but she wouldn’t do it for strangers. I said it was really invalidating, because not respecting people’s preferred pronouns is harmful for the entire trans community, not just for the strangers. Then she proceeded to say that she has to consider everyone’s feelings all the time, and she was tired of it. I said using someone’s preferred pronouns isn't about their feelings, but basic respect for this person.
We had left the conversation and she later texted me to say why she didn’t care about gender, that there is enough misery in the world, that she has to work a lot to provide for her family and she doesn’t have the time and energy to care about all that. I said that her reasoning doesn’t matter, I’m just a little disappointed to hear that she doesn’t care and willingly calls people by their wrong pronouns. Not to mention that trans rights have always been a political issue.
She then blamed me for never asking her opinion, which I think is super weird. Why would I need her opinion for something that is personal and affects me? My gender isn't going to change because she sees the world differently.
I tried telling her that my issue is that her view doesn’t just clash with my values, but also my personal feelings and that's why I can't let go. I also tried telling her that it seems like she doesn't take me seriously. She said she did, but then I found out how she felt about the entire thing so I don't believe it at all. For some reason, she also kept calling gender non conforming related things 'problems', and said I'm forcing my beliefs (my personal feelings and disappointment) onto her. There's a lot more she said, but it's too much to go into that.
Now here is where it gets icky, and I felt literal disgust. Around the end of the conversation, she said 'if you wanna live your life like that, you'll have to grow some bigger balls. there are people who would literally beat the shit out of you, instead of me just saying me opinion.'
Now when I read that, I had literal chills. I don't think she'd ever beat me up, but that message made me feel so scared and disgusted. I told her that it seems like she was threatening me, to which she laughed and said she was gonna block me because I was being ridiculous. I said she can go ahead, but I will never forget what she said to me.
This all happened yesterday, and today she mentioned to my friend that was I said was super low and that I know she's struggling with anger issues at home. Well, I can't react to things you don't say, so why bring up physical violence in the first place?
She unblocked me this morning to ask for her money back, since we were going to a concert and event together. It took her a while to pay me back, so I won't do it immediately either. Not to mention the amount of money she owes me from other occassions.
This has been super long, but I genuinely needed to vent. I feel so sad, disappointed and angry and I never would've thought that one of my own and closest friends would think this way. This was way more than a difference of opinions, but a fundemental value that I cannot get over.
I genuinely don't know what to do. I don't want to drag my friends into this, and I grieve the friendship we had. We were super close for 4 years, I have seen her at rock bottom, and she has supported me through some things as well. I can't believe it's over just like that.
Sorry if I made any mistakes, I'm pretty emotional and English isn't my first language.

No man is more cheated than the selfish man: a FTM is considering burning every bridge she has in favor of living the life of a con artist, one which never permits a hand too close lest the mask fall. Despite claiming that her partner is "the perfect significant other," she fears he, too, remains too much of a liability for her lying abilities.
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I'm going to disappear and start a new life to be stealth.​

Too many people know that I'm trans, so I've decided to change my name again after I graduate university, move somewhere else, and start what is essentially a new life somewhere new without all the people I've been outted to.
My biggest issue is my partner, I want to take him with me but I really don't think he'll want to go, or that since he's with me people will still know I'm trans which really sucks.
Like I hate having to choose between a life that's free from the societal pressure being trans puts on you, and the perfect significant other.
I haven't figured out what I'll do with my family either, I guess wait for the grandparents to die off and slowly exit the extended family by just not showing up to events (funerals, anniversary parties, ect).
Maybe I'm being a bit dramatic but it really sucks being paranoid about who those people told about me and stuff like that, how eventually that knowledge will spread if I don't nip it in the bud somehow.

 

[Sean Andalou]

The cure for masturbation?

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Spoiler: Long rant, agonizing detail.

Please excuse the rant, it’s very long but I’ve just got a lot to let out, and fair warning this will get a bit explicit. TL;DR - Struggling with high desire and low fulfillment.

I rarely masturbate anymore, at this point I do it less than once every week, or two, or three, even though I really crave it. Last night I finally had a proper session that I’ve been waiting for and putting off for months, listening to a perfectly fitting audio and comfortable on my bed, and it just didn’t work. It rarely works anymore. I was left feeling hollow and broken as always, and just emotionally collapsed.

Touching myself is such an uncomfortable activity for me yet one I really want to enjoy. I wish it could be something spontaneous and fun like I’ve heard so many cis women talk about, but for me it’s necessary to involve careful planning and locked-off positions due to my anatomy and disgust. I’ve been on E for over 15 months and yet I still ejaculate just the same as before, even though many others I’ve heard almost stop it completely. I also have yet to experience the elusive full-body orgasm, for my pleasure is always so muted and it never feels like enough. I try so hard and put in so much effort and most of the time it ends in a crash and crying. Afterwards I’m left feeling gross for the rest of the day.

Coming to terms with my sexuality has been one of the most difficult parts of transition to navigate, because it’s one of those things where no matter what I do, I’ll never have a perfect outcome.

I’ve come to realize I’m a lot more sexual than I’ve always considered myself. I used to figure it’s not something I need, that it’s disgusting or unnecessary, and I still do find aspects of it to be like that, preferring emotional connection, but as I learn more about what I want, I’ve also been forced to look at how badly I do actually need more, and what I can’t have. I get extremely horny now, but never have enough of an outlet.

Simply the feeling of being aroused is now strong enough that often I just let myself soak in the desire rather than act on it, it lets me feel good with less disgust. I now feel this full-body warmth and this frosting feeling in my tummy, but that feeling goes away when I become more aware of my parts or interact with them.

When I do masturbate, it takes a lot of effort to distract myself and forget, and even then it just isn’t enough. Most of my sessions end in ruined orgasms or are just plain unsatisfying, so I just don’t do it much. I need a vulva in order to even feel okay with the action, and especially to be involved with a partner, that much is clear.

I have been working to learn to indulge myself in more “feminine” ways, with what I consume, the atmosphere I create, and the actions i perform. (I still haven’t had the courage to buy a vibrator) Though it is very affirming, it still doesn’t feel any better. It still feels so “male”, my orgasms are still genital-focused and end in ejaculation, I still have a long refractory period, and the feeling of shame and doom that comes over me after I finish. Having a dysphoric breakdown afterwards is becoming more common. I was afraid my HRT hasn’t been doing enough, and I pleaded with multiple physicians to give me more, but they all said this is the best dose for me and it’s all I need, so now a worse fear has emerged that the issue can’t be fixed with hormones, that I’m stuck.

One of the troubles is that everybody’s body works in different ways, so much of it is just luck of the draw. some are able to experience overpowering and consistent ecstacy, some are almost completely anorgasmic. Some have no desire and are able to be happy without, some are constantly needy. I’ve been stuck with an unlucky combo: I have a lot of desire, but not nearly enough capability for pleasure to fulfill that desire, and it’s lead to a lot of frustration.

There are physical differences that are simply insurmountable barriers. A clitoris has far more nerve endings and is far more sensitive than it’s possible for me to be, especially given that I was circumcised at birth, without necessity or consent, which removed a significant number of nerve endings and removed a protective layer, reducing sensitivity even further. It was also the most valuable piece of material for reconstruction during bottom surgery, which really limits my potential results.

Bottom surgery is not something I’m looking forward to. I wish, I wish I wouldn’t have to go through it, but it is necessary for me, I’ve become sure of that. Even without sex, bottom dysphoria is still a constant struggle for me, at this point I’m pretty much constantly aware of it, how uncomfortable it is, worrying about what other people see. It makes standing, sitting, moving around, existing, a constant battle. I need to be rid of it, this disgusting, almost cancerous growth.

I’m still unsure which direction to go with it. I always figured just vulvoplasty would be enough, that I don’t need much more, as long as I have no bulge I’m happy. “I’m lucky I’m a lesbian,” I thought, “I don’t need penetration.” But recently I’ve taken a step back and examined and explored more of what I really want, and had to admit that I really do wanna be fingered, to have a woman inside me. And so now I have to make a choice, because vaginoplasty is far more intense, risky, requires much more grueling recovery, and will require me to dialate painfully every day for years. I feel shallow depth may offer a good enough compromise but I’ll have to look further.

But of course, I’m unendingly squeamish about even a cut on my toe, even researching surgery makes my bones ache, I don’t know how I’m even going to manage to survive it. And of course it’s an extremely complex and risky procedure, with almost an entire year of recovery required, plus at least one revision surgery after that. There’s also risk of strong nerve damage, of complications, of disfigurement, I there’s a small but real chance I could permanently lose what little pleasure sensitivity I have now. It’s going to be absolute hell, but I can only live with this for so long. Either way I imagine it’s not something I’m gonna have access to for many years. I really feel I should probably start making an effort to move towards that, though, I just have no idea where to begin.

And even at the end of all that, I still will never have anything close to what I could’ve, had I just been born a cis girl. I’m likely never gonna be able to feel as much pleasure as wish, and it’s never gonna look or feel or function quite right.

All of this is just so much I really wish I didn’t have to deal with. Years of mental and physical pain and exhaustion just to barely approach what I could have had if one damn chromosome had only remembered to grow a tail while I was forming. I don’t need any of this complication, please just leave me alone. I wish I could just… BE. Let me have a body I can feel good in, that I can share with somebody else, that’s the bare minimum. On top of EVERYTHING ELSE, it’s just too much. I’m not a strong enough person.

I still have been struggling so much to figure out how my romantic attraction works, sexual desire is just a mess for me. But i do believe all of it would definitely be so much easier if I weren’t trans. The existential disgust I feel with myself and my body is such a huge barrier, making me feel gross for even wanting this.

Like with my height and bone structure and voice, it’s so hard to let go of things that I can’t change, at least yet, and to stop wanting something so badly. I feel so broken, I just don’t know how to function as a human being anymore. I don’t think I ever have.

Key quote

Bottom surgery is not something I’m looking forward to. I wish, I wish I wouldn’t have to go through it, but it is necessary for me, I’ve become sure of that. Even without sex, bottom dysphoria is still a constant struggle for me, at this point I’m pretty much constantly aware of it, how uncomfortable it is, worrying about what other people see. It makes standing, sitting, moving around, existing, a constant battle. I need to be rid of it, this disgusting, almost cancerous growth.

One commenter suggests anal play.

 

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but the indignity and shame of being bald, stating that he will "not survive" if he loses his lovely locks. With the way these base varlets act, you'd think going bald puts you on the same tier as lepers.

- Long hair is his only link to femininity

- Talks about giving up "while he's still pretty".

Interesting; normally I would say he's going to have a hard time when he starts estrogen and it changes absolutely nothing, but he seems like he's already deluded himself into looking in the mirror and seeing a mermaid instead of a manatee.