Syikeblade
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- Joined
- Dec 17, 2019
This trannies just wants to live in his fantasy
I'm 24, and been transitioning since 18, and since then I knew I wanted to date a guy. I lost my V card as well a while back, which made me feel more confident that I had lost my virginity, since I had never lost any cards at all before that. Well it turns out that I don't really desire sex THAT much. What I really want is a guy to spend the rest of his life with me, and sleep next to me every night so I can smile and breathe knowing he's right there. Ever since I turned 17 or so I've felt this way, and I think it's just a normal part of growing up for me. I'm not sure if there's any scientific explanation, or anything like that, but especially after I started losing muscle mass I just *Craved* being right next to a guy who was *strong* and *fully* accepted me as his weaker half, even though I *am* strong I just want him to make me feel strong in his strength, because I never got much muscle into adulthood since I had my orchiectomy when I just turned 19 around my birthday time in January. I recently got the colon vaginoplasty to update my previous peritoneal vaginoplasty, so just in case a guy wants sex I can give it to him without much need for dilation anymore (my colon vaginoplasty was very successful,) but I just really want him to talk to me for hours and hours and just talk about the whole world and how everything is and how life is until he just sees me pouting and crying and smiling and screaming about his sunshine. I love my dad, but I really wanna find a guy my age to see how bright this day really gets. Like how warm and beautiful a 24-28 year man really is to be around, and show my full love, and go to the beach together, and stuff, without any worries that he's ever going to want to leave me for someone else, because we can both have friends but we just can't cheat. And I want to tell him I love him every night and go to sleep and hear him either talk or breath. I'm going to love how deep and calming his voice is when he tells me its time to sleep, and im going to let out the softest moans i always do in my bed, but he will hear them because he'll be right there and i'm sure it will make him feel very strong and confident to hear and to know that his strength is the thing that makes me feel warm inside
I'm just worried that my body isn't good enough, and that's why we'll date, maybe it'll be a year, or maybe 2, but he'll eventually leave because he always knew I wasn't attractive enough. That's not going to be it, is it? Maybe he will help me grow closer to God, and through him I will find the faith, both in him (my husband) and in God to become a better girl and woman.
I'm just worried that my body isn't good enough, and that's why we'll date, maybe it'll be a year, or maybe 2, but he'll eventually leave because he always knew I wasn't attractive enough. That's not going to be it, is it? Maybe he will help me grow closer to God, and through him I will find the faith, both in him (my husband) and in God to become a better girl and woman.
It's really creepy how childish they act online and real life.
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