- Joined
- Oct 30, 2019
I never had an ED, but thru a mixture of shit parents, poverty and growing up in wartime, I was a very underweight / malnutritioned child. looking back at my medical records, I became underweight few months after birth, and remained underweight until 20.
my BMI was fluctuating from 16-18, I didn't go thru proper puberty until much later, and had numerous minor health issues like constant infections, fainting, GI problems etc.
while I never got to a shockingly low weight like an Ana, i stayed underweight for about 2 decades
thankfully the body's capacity for healing is amazing, and I am now in my 30s and perfectly healthy, with BMI of 23-24. thru proper nutrition and slowly building up exercise, 90% of my health issues are gone.
I'm mostly sharing this to demonstrate I'm not talking out of my ass re: long term starvation
my BMI was fluctuating from 16-18, I didn't go thru proper puberty until much later, and had numerous minor health issues like constant infections, fainting, GI problems etc.
while I never got to a shockingly low weight like an Ana, i stayed underweight for about 2 decades
thankfully the body's capacity for healing is amazing, and I am now in my 30s and perfectly healthy, with BMI of 23-24. thru proper nutrition and slowly building up exercise, 90% of my health issues are gone.
I'm mostly sharing this to demonstrate I'm not talking out of my ass re: long term starvation
from my experience with long term starvation (in the powerlevel above), once you sustain it for long enough, it much less painful to simply not eat. when you don't eat, the hunger is low and in the background, and can even feel comforting given the alternative. once you do eat, even a small amount, you start a cycle of nausea, ravenous hunger and stomach cramps. pain can last for hours, and will restart again whenever your slow digestive system gets around to a BM.
even if you genuinely want to gain weight, it is a big mental effort to force yourself to go through the pain cycle every time you eat.
not to mention your digestive system is now fucked, so you will randomly switch between diarrhea and constipation, if you don't end up puking because your body just randomly rejects food now.
i believe that for Eugenia, maintaining is much less mental effort than recovering, and she has sustained her low weight long enough she no longer feels hungry except right after meals.
but I might be completely wrong, feel free to roast me in response.
a hoe is never cold
I don't think she went thru enough puberty to develop a sex drive
