Hey Andrew. I was reading stories about people who got HIV and I found one that Id like to share. Its on a website called forums.poz.com.
"I'm a 50 year old gay guy and recently tested positive. Here's my story...... for about 15 years now I've been having a lot of sex. Bathouses, sex clubs, on line, where ever I can find it. I used to be mostly bottom (with condoms) but about the past 12 years or so it's been me on top...and 90% of that time it's bare...I just don't like condoms...I know, stupid and I knew the risks. I would get tested about every 6 months and figured I was doing something right if I was topping the amount of guys I was topping and still testing negative. I knew a majority of the guys were poz...or assumed so if they were taking anonymous loads at sex clubs they sure weren't virgin boy scouts! :-) My partner is poz. I have a lot of friends that are poz. It was a big part of my life but like I said I was doing what I was doing and remaining negative. If I bottomed I made them wear a condom. I would sometimes swallow but that was rare and I assume that's fairly safe. I was just going along having a great time. Everything in my life is going pretty smooth....I have a great partner, a nice paid for house, a car, a great job and I just turned 50. I was in Hawaii on business and was bored. I was on a hook up site and this massage therapist was on there trying to get clients, I wanted a massage and thought it was going to be just that. I was wrong. I would have liked a little happy ending but got much more than that. He massaged me for about 10 min then started playing with my ass....it was nice...but then it turned very violent. He held me down and stuck it in, fucked me really hard and would not let me up. There was blood and it hurt. I could have probably overpowered him but I was playing along with what I assumed was his fantasy. I didn't really think he would cum in me and if he did just assumed he would be neg. since he didn't talk about that. He left and I was sore and bleeding and worried. I should have gone to the Dr. right away but I was out of town and I really thought he wouldn't have done that to me if he was poz. I was wrong.....I took the home oral test about a month later and it came back neg. But it must have been too soon because I then went to the dr. and tested poz. I think he was trying to poz people...I don't know why but I think he was mad at himself for having it and wanted to pass it on. So, now my life has changed. I feel so stupid that after all this time and seeing so many people die of this disease that I have it too. I should have known better. Even with all the sex I had and topping I didn't think I could get it.....all it took was that one time."
