I'm on bluesky, which is normally pretty chill in my experience.
I post something that was honestly pretty tame but about trump.
Then someone in the comments replied "YWNBAW" paired with a gif. I look it up, if you don't know what that is don't bother it's not even that creative. Then I go back to reply and thats when I see the gif play out, and this is the part that fucked me up,
it was a soyjak with added pink hair that then flashes between it hanging itself.
So yeah, instant block.
I go to tell my bf about it but he's never even heard of 4chan, and normally I'd explain the internet lore, but I kinda just wanted to spare him from most of it. I did try to explain it with only the necessary information of what was traumatizing but idk.
I just needed to talk about this to someone who knows wtf I'm even talking about without having to actually see it.
I changed my settings on bsky so only people who follow me and that I follow can reply on that post and from now on.
I've dealt with suicide a lot before I knew I was trans. Knowing I'm a woman and taking steps to make my body reflect that saved my life.
I know they just wanted to rage bate me and troll, but naw that shit was evil.
So yeah I'm probably gonna report them cuz holy fuck
Edit: Thanks for your support in the comments.
This really fucked me up,
i can't get the imagery out of my head. I can't sleep.
What's crazy is not long before and after this event I'd seen other similar imagery and themes but in reference to actually funny jokes.
This wasn't funny. It wasn't a joke. It was aimed at me because I was trans, it was unrelated to the post it was commented under.
I know people are telling me not to think about,
But I already sometimes have existential crisises over what could've happened if I didn't figure out I was trans in time. I felt like I was dying and life was nothing but suffering and I didn't at all connect that with dysphoria but it was!
I'm afraid of what could happen if I lose the ability to transition and where I'll be mentally.