Been away from the board for all kinds of reasons, and I've missed you all.
I've been feeling really depressed about things, and unsure about a lot of things going on. Been not sleeping, worried, and making myself ill. Especially after my holiday with my friend in Ireland, we had a great time, but I fainted a couple of times and in front of Cillian Murphy and his wife, as well as outside the theatre because of an anxiety attack. Not my proudest moment. But I did enjoy the trip, and I miss being there ad being with my friend away from all the crap.
Yesterday though I had to go to the hospital to have surgery on my lump, which went better than I thought, but hurt as hell. I was awake the whole time, which was cool, because I got see what they were doing.
Here's a picture of my my lump:
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They took the top layer off first, and then went in for the second layer. I am bandaged up and have a hole in my leg, which I am having plastic surgery on next Monday. Though I still have to go back today to see if they need to take out more, and to talk about the biopsy they had done on the pieces taken out yesterday.
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Didn't get much sleep though, die to the pain and soreness. I have codine but it doesn't do anything, and so I end up just falling asleep and waking up in even more pain. It's really difficult to find a position in bed to get comfortable, and I'm sure I have a few more days of this, and then more to come on Monday after the plastic surgery.
This is my leg bandaged up:
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And this is what the lump was called:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dermatofibrosarcoma_protuberans