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Between 26/07/2022 6:00 pm and 30/07/2022 11:00 am
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My next layover is in chicago, if my flight tonight gets cancelled I'm gonna come abduct you somehow kk
7:28 pm
(:
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How was the flight
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Flying out of Chicago now! 2 hours to DCA
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Landed!
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Hihi
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You excited for today?
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Nothing at all yet
10:12 am
Should I?
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Don't you get to see Lauren?
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What
1:59 pm
What was my response LOL
1:59 pm
I think I texted you that in my sleep
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I was so confused
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Yeah lmao
2:00 pm
Not yet, her flight got cancelled so I'm driving 3 hours to another airport to get her lol
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That's sweet
2:02 pm
Ive never had a flight cancelled is this a normal thing
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We'll see ahahaha
2:03 pm
And the last few weeks have been a nightmare for airlines
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Is there a specific reason as to why
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Complicated economic things lol
2:05 pm
We can chat if you want in too last to text it all while I'm driving
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it's fine I probably won't understand it lol
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Nah it's not complicated just too much to text lol
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I can't really call rn :(
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But okay later (:
2:07 pm
Yaya it's fine
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I'm excited for you to see Lauren ik it's weird but you made me invested in you two now
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lol, did I send you the last set of messages
2:11 pm
About the other dude
2:11 pm
You lucked out lol
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Oh yeah and you said it could all be a big meme
2:11 pm
Two days ago I was super depressed and feeling dark about everything
2:12 pm
But yesterday I was feeling really cold and detached, and kind of fucked with, I just have no idea
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Fucked with how?
2:12 pm
Like she's fucking with you or
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I guess I'll figure it out when I see her but I can't understand how she went from so hot to so cold on me in just two weeks
2:13 pm
I don't ever feel like I'm the person who's more obsessed in a pairing, it's really scary to me
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I guess I haven't seen any of your chats before two weeks ago, but it seemed like she was pretty hot on you in the ones you sent me
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I mean 3-4 weeks ago we were chatting a ton, but in the past two weeks she's been really withdrawn
2:15 pm
That's what prompted me to ask if I should get a second room
2:15 pm
And then she came out with everything related to the other guy
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Was she in a relationship with the other guy or were they just casually dating
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Well like initially when she saw him she was making comments to me like "I wish I was with you instead" and "I'm only doing this because you told me lol"
2:16 pm
But then she stopped talking about it, so it sounds like (now) it was getting more serious
2:17 pm
Maybe I obsess over people harder or something but I feel like there's no way j could flip a switch on her in just a couple weeks like that
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I can see how it seems weird she can go from being obsessed/inlove with you, to acting like you're like a side lover who she's conflicted about being inlove with
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I just don't really know much about her or your relationship with her so I don't know
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My side is deleted so you can't see my responses but maybe it's enough to tell lol
2:21 pm
Yeah I understand
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It's hard to get the full picture so I can only go off what you've told me
2:22 pm
Yeah it seems more personal if that makes sense
2:24 pm
Damn you text a lot back and forth too
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We used to a ton yeah
2:24 pm
But like I said last two weeks have been way way colder
2:24 pm
I thought something was up, it's so hard not to double text her and shit lol
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My only thought would be she felt guilty talking to you while she was with that other guy (she said that a lot in your other messages) but I don't know enough to know if it's actually that big of a deal for her
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It seems to be yeah
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That she would switch up so hard just from guilt
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We almost ended things a few months ago because of a similar thing but she changed her mind
2:26 pm
It's just so hard for me to tell
2:26 pm
Maybe because I have no self control
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Yeah I think this is quiet normal feelings for most people, it's just new to you
2:32 pm
When you feel like double texting which category does it fall under A. I have more to say B. I want this person's attention right now but they aren't giving it to me
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Probably a bit of both
2:33 pm
Like I'll come across a meme or something and want to share but she hasn't responded to my last message for a few hours so it feels dumb sending something
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I think double texting always feels like a needy thing to do, but one of these categories is probably more destructive than the other lol
2:36 pm
I think once you see her and are able to talk + sense out how she's reacting physically to you things will be a lot easier
2:36 pm
Honestly thinking about this stuff is just poison on your mind
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Yeah for sure that's what I'm counting on
2:36 pm
I'm prepared for either outcome at this point so it should be fine
2:37 pm
Just 2.5 hours left lol
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Feels like the longest drive of your life I bet
2:37 pm
Lol
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Nah two days ago was the worst feeling for sure, at this point whatever happens happens
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You can only do so much on your end I guess its up to her
2:40 pm
Long distance shit sucks so bad lol
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Hihihi
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How's it going?
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It's GOING
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You feeling any better?
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Almost
2:39 pm
Two more walls to get through
2:39 pm
1. She still feels some emotional responsibility to this loser guy she's seeing
2:39 pm
And 2. She hates that I'm still married
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What's the plan ?
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I dunno I'm WORKING on it lol
2:40 pm
This is my last full day with her
2:42 pm
Oh oops left a letter in the box
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Do you feel good about this all, like does it feel like you'll get a good resolution?
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I have no idea it's like 50/50 or worse atm it's hard to say
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You got this ❤️
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Good morning (edited)
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Good EVENING
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How have you been?
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I've been okies, getting on flight home in about 45 minutes
10:35 am
Was another super fun/magical two days, but she said she needs 30 days to sort through and think about her life stuff, which I'm 99% sure is going to end up being a no, so just trying to erase her from my head now x.x
10:36 am
How've you been doing?
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I've been okay, playing league again though so not sure how long that will last lol
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Based, I thought about doing another league bender lol
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You should with mouton, think of all the new rage memes to come lol
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True true
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Do you only play adc?
10:43 am
I'm just an ADC kind of person, y'know
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That's rough
10:45 am
Imagine being adc player, looking at bot wr and seeing the highest wr for adc role is an ap support
10:45 am
Rough
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ADC truly teaches you that life is only pain
10:46 am
That's why it's the best role
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When your support gives two kills and ruins your wave so you have to farm under tower for 20 minutes to recover, truly the best role
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True actually
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What did you do on your 2 days, anymore fun activities?
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Just hung out, talked a lot, drank a lot, cried a lot, drove around a lot
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Do you still feel obsessed?
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Yeah unfortunately
10:52 am
I'll make a list of bad traits and just go over them over and over again until I lose attraction to her
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Damn wtf lol
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Well what else am I supposed to do lol
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I suppose, I think just over time naturally you'll feel better
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Yeah I think so but if I keep like stalking her Twitter and shit it'll never go away
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LOL don't do that
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Yeah I won't that's why I gotta convince myself that she's bad
10:56 am
Hence the list
10:56 am
:)
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But I think the immediate nature of what's going, has probably been a big reason you're feeling this way
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Yeah it almost certainly is
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You got any plans for when you're home?
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Probably just gonna sulk for a day or two, eventually I'll wake up and feel normal
10:58 am
Need to break up with Melina, that's gonna be a disaster
10:58 am
Well I can bring feet pics to the equation see if that helps any :3
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lol thanks I appreciate it
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