23:06
Tamino
if i could find antidepressants that worked for me, i would definitely want to take them, but not because it'd "make me happier with the ignorance of society" but because... really, at the end of the day, my first and primary goal is to help spread more love in the world and hopefully leave the world better than i found it. that's *it*. that's what i want to do with my life. if i can do that and be happy and snuggly and content, myself, so much the better.
but at a certain point i just have to shrug and be like, fine, okay, let's get me to the point where i can be functional enough to fulfill my primary goal, and forget about the secondary one.