<2022-09-26T07:49:46.000Z> Blueknight: It's been almost a month
<2022-09-26T07:50:15.000Z> Blueknight: I am gonna talk how well I improved you can ask the fellas for proof
<2022-09-26T07:50:34.000Z> Blueknight: I been following a list given to me by sid
<2022-09-26T07:51:15.000Z> Blueknight: I made a whole note pad about how to improve mself and have followed up with ut
<2022-09-26T07:52:15.000Z> Blueknight: I been "do better" and solve my own problem
<2022-09-26T07:53:00.000Z> Blueknight: That's all
<2022-09-26T18:53:26.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: well there you go
<2022-09-26T18:53:31.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: i knew you could do it
<2022-09-26T18:53:35.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: but don't stop now
<2022-09-26T18:53:42.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: there's a whoooole way to go
<2022-09-26T18:53:48.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: don't stop believing
<2022-09-26T18:53:51.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: gnbare
<2022-09-26T18:53:56.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: :konata_thumb: 
<2022-09-28T12:59:49.000Z> Blueknight: I won't give up I learned my lesson the hard way 
<2022-09-28T13:00:02.000Z> Blueknight: I came this far afterall
<2022-10-02T17:00:10.000Z> Blueknight: Well it's 4 days after I occasially feel like not want to go on
<2022-10-02T17:00:31.000Z> Blueknight: But something new happened and I remembered the good times on auto
<2022-10-02T17:00:43.000Z> Blueknight: I felt that was amazing
<2022-10-02T17:01:09.000Z> Blueknight: I think this is good enough news to report
<2022-10-02T17:01:52.000Z> Blueknight: That and I came up with non shitty topics alot lately. My banter is fun albeit in a weird way
<2022-10-02T17:02:09.000Z> Blueknight: Well atleast it's funny
<2022-10-02T21:02:12.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: keep in mind, it's not bad to have negative thoughts
<2022-10-02T21:02:20.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: just don't let them take over you
<2022-10-02T21:02:27.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: THAT'S when the problem starts
<2022-10-02T21:02:49.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: treasure the good thoughts, and live on to get even more of them :flan_yea: 
<2022-10-04T14:36:28.000Z> Blueknight: Thank you
<2022-10-04T20:02:25.000Z> Blueknight: I feel likr you're being obvious that I am still not someone you want to deal with ever again with those remarks byt ai am just gonna add that as just me beinh paranoid
<2022-10-04T20:03:10.000Z> Blueknight: I felt gratitude to still have my friends as I hang out with them alot this days
<2022-10-04T20:03:33.000Z> Blueknight: With good interaction happens more often
<2022-10-04T20:04:11.000Z> Blueknight: I can't shake off that some thing are just more difficult then other
<2022-10-04T20:04:22.000Z> Blueknight: It's like it was never meant to be
<2022-10-04T20:04:42.000Z> Blueknight: But hey folks stick around atleast thats what matters 
<2022-10-04T20:04:48.000Z> Blueknight: It's the best they can do
<2022-10-04T20:05:10.000Z> Blueknight: As we don't know each other irl
<2022-10-04T20:09:55.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: good interactions are especially important
<2022-10-04T20:10:06.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: don't make others get away from you just because of your attitude
<2022-10-04T20:11:16.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: especially not those that are helping you
<2022-10-05T05:52:07.000Z> Blueknight: I am not doing that
<2022-10-05T05:52:50.000Z> Blueknight: I think the issue is that some still need more evidence of my change
<2022-10-05T05:54:10.000Z> Blueknight: Cause they think what I am still same ole
<2022-10-05T05:54:54.000Z> Blueknight: I am not trying to say names but you know that I know 4 people including
<2022-10-05T05:55:01.000Z> Blueknight: Only know*
<2022-10-05T05:55:11.000Z> Blueknight: Incliding you*
<2022-10-05T05:55:32.000Z> Blueknight: I am gonna say his name anyway
<2022-10-05T05:55:57.000Z> Blueknight: Koko thought me asking him to hang is me being dependent again
<2022-10-05T05:56:17.000Z> Blueknight: I am pretty sure despite more frequent hangouts
<2022-10-05T05:56:36.000Z> Blueknight: I am not doing it for theraphy or attention
<2022-10-05T05:57:06.000Z> Blueknight: I just wanna hang and know the fellas better
<2022-10-05T05:57:34.000Z> Blueknight: Heck I been doing it with fupa I hang with him alot this days
<2022-10-05T05:58:27.000Z> Blueknight: Well the other 2 too
<2022-10-05T05:59:00.000Z> Blueknight: And then I rest off and play my gacha games when they are not avalainle
<2022-10-05T06:00:32.000Z> Blueknight: I am trying best 
<2022-10-05T06:01:59.000Z> Blueknight: And use mine and theirs time wisely
<2022-10-05T20:36:10.000Z> Blueknight: I want to hang out again 
<2022-10-06T02:02:33.000Z> Blueknight: Unfortunately some people are just people are naturally hard to have good interaction with
<2022-10-06T02:03:58.000Z> Blueknight: Trying takes too much I'll have to stop
<2022-10-06T08:58:18.000Z> Blueknight attached file https://bae.st/media/8e948865788805bbc188e9eb9a4bf4dbce8215e1eb32a44d2bee495c9ad682aa.png?name=__nobeta_little_witch_nobeta_drawn_by_nyatrix__33d88612b69d15be86334c8f162abe6f.png
<2022-10-06T08:58:33.000Z> Blueknight: Been seeing nobeta alot
<2022-10-06T14:36:48.000Z> Blueknight: Report I messed up and reseted 
<2022-10-06T14:37:03.000Z> Blueknight: I don't think it's a long way to go tbh
<2022-10-06T14:37:30.000Z> Blueknight: Despite getting better my best is still shit
<2022-10-06T14:37:56.000Z> Blueknight: It's way longer Almost impossible
<2022-10-06T14:38:35.000Z> Blueknight: I gain a full trust and lose a trust
<2022-10-06T15:08:51.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: i think you're the same, because the evidence points towards that
<2022-10-06T15:08:57.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: you treat koko like shit for nothing
<2022-10-06T15:09:09.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: yet again
<2022-10-06T15:09:21.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: you're not fooling me, blue
<2022-10-06T15:09:30.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: you will fucking not
<2022-10-06T15:19:33.000Z> Blueknight: I am not fooling you ask the other I don't lie
<2022-10-06T15:20:06.000Z> Blueknight: That's the only trait I am proud of 
<2022-10-06T15:20:21.000Z> Blueknight: Since I was a kid
<2022-10-06T15:22:03.000Z> Blueknight: I am changed but I still have alot the apple is still covered in shit and rot
<2022-10-06T15:22:59.000Z> Blueknight: I crossed out 2 out of 8 of the shit I an
<2022-10-06T15:24:41.000Z> Blueknight: Well if you still don't believe me I'll came back when I am done I shouldn't report when it's on 1/4 clean
<2022-10-06T15:24:50.000Z> Blueknight: I'll see you later
<2022-10-06T15:26:50.000Z> Blueknight: I was actually not expect to believe me at all and blocked me in baest too when I first report
<2022-10-06T15:27:50.000Z> Blueknight: Yet you didn't. No I shouldn't hope again only evidence matters
<2022-10-06T15:29:49.000Z> Blueknight: The evidence is that I am still not fully clean and changed
<2022-10-06T15:34:11.000Z> Blueknight: Until I am confident that I don't want to reset my progress
<2022-10-06T15:41:41.000Z> Blueknight: Beside from your messages I doubt you actually believe me you keep telling me my flaws and I "was" paranoid/aware of it you didn't ask the others or maybe you just ask koko it doesn't matter even for just one person or 100 I have to better myself
<2022-10-07T18:34:11.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: i'll believe it when i see it, and yes, you've got a long way to go
<2022-10-07T18:34:14.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: so don't stop now
<2022-10-07T18:34:25.000Z> GreatestGori@varishangout.net: there's still stuff left to take care of
<2022-10-15T20:04:16.000Z> Blueknight attached file https://bae.st/media/aa2e23b0aba538333f7e3d1bf1ed6cc27cd739d9c09d9a60161de91ad4965d7a.png?name=unknown-3.png
<2022-10-15T20:04:33.000Z> Blueknight: Actually proud of the guy on the left
<2022-11-11T04:16:33.000Z> Blueknight: It's been another month
<2022-11-11T04:16:56.000Z> Blueknight: At best I just know when to shut up and keep it in.
<2022-11-13T18:33:30.000Z> Blueknight: I guess folks are close enough for banter and friendship bullying
<2022-11-13T18:35:31.000Z> Blueknight: Oh well 