<2023-02-17T20:18:02.000Z> wwothrya: wow look i am talking to you now, your poast worked!!!!
<2023-02-17T20:18:06.000Z> wwothrya: hello!
<2023-02-17T20:20:55.000Z> Jello: Lmao 
<2023-02-17T20:20:59.000Z> Jello: Hows it going
<2023-02-17T20:21:08.000Z> Jello: Weird actually good way to find talk people
<2023-02-17T20:22:18.000Z> Jello: How does jim have no pics online of his face yet, seriously, makes no sense
<2023-02-17T20:22:43.000Z> Jello: No i just dont want to talk about jim but lmao whats up with that 
<2023-02-17T20:22:52.000Z> Jello: How youre having a good day
<2023-02-17T20:23:11.000Z> wwothrya: idk who jim is but if ure up for some explaining im down to listen man
<2023-02-17T20:23:19.000Z> Jello: Oh wrong post 
<2023-02-17T20:23:23.000Z> Jello: I see which one now lol
<2023-02-17T20:23:24.000Z> wwothrya: im having quite a mundane day tbh not so much happening
<2023-02-17T20:23:36.000Z> Jello: No lol boring
<2023-02-17T20:23:52.000Z> Jello: I thought that guy was only reason anyone used poast
<2023-02-17T20:23:57.000Z> Jello: Or at least a percentage
<2023-02-17T20:24:26.000Z> Jello: I just used to read his stuff, but now I think i might use as legitimate platform. Twitter is kinda gay, idk tho
<2023-02-17T20:24:45.000Z> wwothrya: is this not a legit platform?
<2023-02-17T20:24:49.000Z> Jello: Haha yeah would be a normal day for me but finally took the last speed pill i had left from a while ago
<2023-02-17T20:24:58.000Z> Jello: God bless these dopamine pills
<2023-02-17T20:25:01.000Z> wwothrya: well, certainly not mainstream but its legit to me lol
<2023-02-17T20:25:11.000Z> wwothrya: oh those are real?
<2023-02-17T20:25:15.000Z> wwothrya: dope pills?
<2023-02-17T20:25:22.000Z> Jello: Oh i didnt even mean that. Dont take that word literally lol i shouldnt have used it 
<2023-02-17T20:25:28.000Z> Jello: But like as a platform i use i mean
<2023-02-17T20:25:42.000Z> Jello: Yeah man you can get them down at the alley 
<2023-02-17T20:26:07.000Z> Jello: No need to go to a doctor and spend like 20x more, probably 
<2023-02-17T20:26:14.000Z> Jello: For same thing essentially lol
<2023-02-17T20:26:22.000Z> Jello: Weird world
<2023-02-17T20:26:53.000Z> wwothrya: i guess its not that bad of a drug that you can buy it somewhere other than a pharmacy lol
<2023-02-17T20:27:01.000Z> wwothrya: whyd u take them exactly?
<2023-02-17T20:33:29.000Z> Jello: Lmao that comment i left
<2023-02-17T20:33:34.000Z> Jello: Holy shit the hyperfocus
<2023-02-17T20:33:39.000Z> Jello: Hehe funni
<2023-02-17T20:34:00.000Z> Jello: Just bored. I know what to expect, they just feel good and make doing things fun 
<2023-02-17T20:34:13.000Z> Jello: So went and bought some stuff to design room a bit more 
<2023-02-17T20:34:22.000Z> Jello: And actually just did it and enjoyed it 
<2023-02-17T20:34:30.000Z> wwothrya: damn you really did comment
<2023-02-17T20:34:35.000Z> Jello: Now typing and feeling high reward for doing so lol
<2023-02-17T20:34:35.000Z> wwothrya: that was a long ass comment
<2023-02-17T20:34:37.000Z> Jello: Right lol
<2023-02-17T20:34:48.000Z> wwothrya: sounds schizo too but ill take your advice
<2023-02-17T20:34:52.000Z> Jello: Exactly
<2023-02-17T20:34:55.000Z> Jello: LOOOL
<2023-02-17T20:35:08.000Z> Jello: Im just fucking around but at the same time...
<2023-02-17T20:35:12.000Z> Jello: Who knows 
<2023-02-17T20:35:19.000Z> Jello: Schizoposting
<2023-02-17T20:35:35.000Z> wwothrya: do you have any pills left
<2023-02-17T20:35:41.000Z> Jello: If you believe in the elites and people who just control things and program people, then yeah lol
<2023-02-17T20:35:53.000Z> Jello: Haha nah theyre all gone, only had 2 left
<2023-02-17T20:35:55.000Z> Jello: Sucks
<2023-02-17T20:36:05.000Z> Jello: It all returnsss to nothingggg...
<2023-02-17T20:36:10.000Z> Jello: Sadtearemoji
<2023-02-17T20:36:19.000Z> wwothrya: go take em too lol
<2023-02-17T20:36:26.000Z> wwothrya: whats stopping you
<2023-02-17T20:36:39.000Z> Jello: Once last year when i actually did drugs, i was smoking meth in a shitty pipe i made, and it kept literally tumbling down while listening to that song
<2023-02-17T20:36:44.000Z> Jello: It was perfect
<2023-02-17T20:36:51.000Z> Jello: But i was annoyed at the time lol
<2023-02-17T20:37:14.000Z> wwothrya: lole sounds like a chore
<2023-02-17T20:37:33.000Z> Jello: Its always like that lol, you want more when on it. But my guy lost his phone or something, cant get hands on any. 
<2023-02-17T20:37:39.000Z> Jello: Yeah lol
<2023-02-17T20:37:44.000Z> Jello: Was fun though
<2023-02-17T20:37:52.000Z> Jello: Dont smoke meth, nasty, bad for teeth
<2023-02-17T20:38:02.000Z> Jello: Literally so gross lol but was something to do
<2023-02-17T20:38:13.000Z> wwothrya: i have no plans on doing so
<2023-02-17T20:38:15.000Z> Jello: Nothing like they say or you would imagine
<2023-02-17T20:38:23.000Z> wwothrya: ive watched breaking bad to know
<2023-02-17T20:38:26.000Z> Jello: Literally feels completely normal and actually calming
<2023-02-17T20:38:30.000Z> wwothrya: what it does lol
<2023-02-17T20:38:41.000Z> Jello: Like you just feel normal but more functional or willing to do things 
<2023-02-17T20:38:48.000Z> Jello: Anyways
<2023-02-17T20:38:55.000Z> Jello: I can keep typing is the thing 
<2023-02-17T20:39:02.000Z> Jello: Thanks for messaging lul
<2023-02-17T20:39:08.000Z> wwothrya: then keep typing guy lole
<2023-02-17T20:39:10.000Z> Jello: Soooo how old are you
<2023-02-17T20:39:17.000Z> Jello: Im a girl btw lol 
<2023-02-17T20:39:21.000Z> Jello: No joke
<2023-02-17T20:39:25.000Z> wwothrya: nah u aint
<2023-02-17T20:39:35.000Z> Jello: Do you actually not believe?
<2023-02-17T20:39:37.000Z> wwothrya: I'm 24
<2023-02-17T20:39:41.000Z> Jello: How much like a guy do i sound? 
<2023-02-17T20:40:10.000Z> wwothrya: yea why would i believe you're a girl? this is not like an incel response, right? 💀
<2023-02-17T20:40:16.000Z> wwothrya: im just skeptical is all
<2023-02-17T20:40:33.000Z> Jello: I'm very balanced with internetguy personality traits because...well, ive used computer since I was 12
<2023-02-17T20:40:41.000Z> wwothrya: you kinda sound like most of the guys ive talked to
<2023-02-17T20:40:46.000Z> Jello: Probably that and other things, I'm just very normal guy sounding lol
<2023-02-17T20:40:52.000Z> wwothrya: ah, figures
<2023-02-17T20:41:02.000Z> Jello: I mean on speed i want to prove it
<2023-02-17T20:41:04.000Z> wwothrya: how old are you?
<2023-02-17T20:41:05.000Z> Jello: Oh why not who cares
<2023-02-17T20:41:39.000Z> wwothrya: how old are you then????
<2023-02-17T20:42:20.000Z> Jello: Look like a guy room? Lol https://i.poastcdn.org/26b4af10f079807b26c204b977853b625126eb1251755d2f70f7f70cf63ad6e4.jpg
<2023-02-17T20:42:27.000Z> Jello: Haha without showing face 
<2023-02-17T20:42:41.000Z> Jello: See even in pic half guy room
<2023-02-17T20:42:45.000Z> Jello: Balance
<2023-02-17T20:42:52.000Z> wwothrya: tbh yea. it kinda does look like a guy room 
<2023-02-17T20:43:05.000Z> wwothrya: hey you're the one with the dog right?
<2023-02-17T20:43:13.000Z> Jello: I put pink binder as a joke for evidence https://i.poastcdn.org/48cd0cc4aba195c490f7ccaa538f42a9978fe0d0ba4770e7fc03168f142d31b0.jpg
<2023-02-17T20:43:21.000Z> Jello: Yeah lol
<2023-02-17T20:43:31.000Z> wwothrya: dang alright
<2023-02-17T20:43:32.000Z> Jello attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/42d850f099f31368bd4ac5f2c6261378801e09e950febd71e55eabf56d3173ce.jpg
<2023-02-17T20:43:44.000Z> Jello: Jk its all deepfakes 
<2023-02-17T20:43:50.000Z> Jello: /joke ???
<2023-02-17T20:43:54.000Z> wwothrya: nah, cant be
<2023-02-17T20:43:59.000Z> wwothrya: writings are legible
<2023-02-17T20:44:17.000Z> Jello: Im an attractive girl too 
<2023-02-17T20:44:19.000Z> Jello: Weird
<2023-02-17T20:44:22.000Z> wwothrya: okay, ill believe you're an actual female person if you show me your handwriting
<2023-02-17T20:44:30.000Z> wwothrya: bro, no girl says that at all
<2023-02-17T20:44:43.000Z> wwothrya: no girl says "im attractive"
<2023-02-17T20:44:47.000Z> Jello: Not particularly interested in relationships, just saying, I feel like guys might get that idea in mind
<2023-02-17T20:45:01.000Z> Jello: And change uhh behavior or intentions
<2023-02-17T20:45:09.000Z> Jello: Right lol
<2023-02-17T20:45:16.000Z> wwothrya: cool that you think that, good for u dude lol
<2023-02-17T20:45:22.000Z> wwothrya: anyways, handwriting now
<2023-02-17T20:45:27.000Z> Jello: Confident ones do who had like 3 years alone in room having just time to think and look at self
<2023-02-17T20:45:33.000Z> Jello: Through the hourglass...
<2023-02-17T20:45:49.000Z> Jello: Glad i get that if its true
<2023-02-17T20:46:01.000Z> Jello: See i have no idea if my ideas are true so
<2023-02-17T20:46:04.000Z> wwothrya: but they don't just bring it up randomly on a convo
<2023-02-17T20:46:18.000Z> Jello: I have understanding in the guy experience or care and want to know
<2023-02-17T20:46:23.000Z> Jello: So thats why im this way
<2023-02-17T20:46:29.000Z> Jello: Im 30 since jan 6
<2023-02-17T20:46:35.000Z> wwothrya: ah, that's very cool of you
<2023-02-17T20:46:40.000Z> wwothrya: oh 30, nice
<2023-02-17T20:46:40.000Z> Jello: Lol meme day that i dont even know what happened
<2023-02-17T20:46:45.000Z> Jello: 24 right? 
<2023-02-17T20:46:50.000Z> wwothrya: me yea
<2023-02-17T20:47:15.000Z> Jello: Yeah i look 25 imo though. I hung out with dealer and friends who were all 19 to 21, and they all said i looked 19 though
<2023-02-17T20:47:20.000Z> Jello: One said 22
<2023-02-17T20:47:25.000Z> Jello: I was like wow k lol
<2023-02-17T20:47:41.000Z> wwothrya: god fucking damn it i feel like internet has ruined my brain, i seriously do not think youre a fed, i know its a meme, but my brain keeps saying youre a fed godfuckin dammit
<2023-02-17T20:47:52.000Z> Jello: 24 is dope age lol, when you get 27 you start to finish mentally developing 
<2023-02-17T20:48:00.000Z> Jello: Like really time to know yourself
<2023-02-17T20:48:03.000Z> Jello: Late 20s
<2023-02-17T20:48:03.000Z> wwothrya: 30 who looks 19? get yo ass outta here
<2023-02-17T20:48:13.000Z> wwothrya: damn that's scary
<2023-02-17T20:48:20.000Z> wwothrya: I don't wanna lke
<2023-02-17T20:48:21.000Z> Jello: Apparently lol. Ive used sunscreen for years now, no makeup anymore 
<2023-02-17T20:48:22.000Z> wwothrya: like
<2023-02-17T20:48:27.000Z> Jello: I know the tricks
<2023-02-17T20:48:34.000Z> Jello: Plus im like young at heart also
<2023-02-17T20:48:43.000Z> wwothrya: i dont wanna finish mentally developimg
<2023-02-17T20:48:47.000Z> wwothrya: thatll suck
<2023-02-17T20:48:51.000Z> wwothrya: im fucking dumb
<2023-02-17T20:48:55.000Z> Jello: So it just shows. Also round face lol sort of. Like anime girl face shape no joke
<2023-02-17T20:49:11.000Z> Jello: Haha right its interesting you say that
<2023-02-17T20:49:28.000Z> Jello: Literally hitting 30 and now i feel like I can FEEL that there is no more growth
<2023-02-17T20:49:43.000Z> Jello: Its good in a way but also like, thats it lol, no personality change
<2023-02-17T20:49:55.000Z> Jello: Nah so am i and always was
<2023-02-17T20:50:02.000Z> Jello: By societal standards and school
<2023-02-17T20:50:07.000Z> wwothrya: at this point i feel like you're larping actually. sorry 😓 i actually want to believe you're this cool almost middle age woman on poa.st but its kinda hard not to be skeptical 
<2023-02-17T20:50:13.000Z> Jello: Didn't finish high school, was too busy getting high 😂
<2023-02-17T20:50:15.000Z> wwothrya: but anyway, if that's what happens
<2023-02-17T20:50:18.000Z> Jello: Right???
<2023-02-17T20:50:21.000Z> Jello: I thought the same
<2023-02-17T20:50:32.000Z> Jello: Just now lol that it probably soubds like that
<2023-02-17T20:50:37.000Z> Jello: I have weird awareness
<2023-02-17T20:50:40.000Z> Jello: And on speed lop
<2023-02-17T20:50:42.000Z> wwothrya: yea, it does lmao
<2023-02-17T20:50:51.000Z> Jello: 10+ intelligence
<2023-02-17T20:50:59.000Z> Jello: Or ability to communixate flowingly
<2023-02-17T20:51:02.000Z> Jello: Lol, flowingly
<2023-02-17T20:51:14.000Z> wwothrya: i wonder how conversation would work on you if youre not on drugs lol
<2023-02-17T20:51:18.000Z> Jello: I have no reason not to be a girl
<2023-02-17T20:51:22.000Z> Jello: I dont particularly want bf
<2023-02-17T20:51:27.000Z> Jello: Or money lol
<2023-02-17T20:51:38.000Z> Jello: Well i need money saving for my own place first time by next year
<2023-02-17T20:51:43.000Z> Jello: But no 
<2023-02-17T20:51:47.000Z> Jello: Not yours lol
<2023-02-17T20:51:54.000Z> Jello: So what would be the point
<2023-02-17T20:52:04.000Z> wwothrya: own place, you living with whom?
<2023-02-17T20:52:06.000Z> Jello: Oh yeah ill prove it
<2023-02-17T20:52:09.000Z> Jello: This nigga
<2023-02-17T20:52:19.000Z> Jello: Parents...Lol sigh 
<2023-02-17T20:52:28.000Z> Jello: no cap
<2023-02-17T20:52:31.000Z> Jello: 😂😂😂
<2023-02-17T20:52:35.000Z> Jello: Lol too edgy
<2023-02-17T20:52:45.000Z> wwothrya: that's not too bad
<2023-02-17T20:52:46.000Z> Jello: Now this niggas like damn shes schizophrenic tho
<2023-02-17T20:52:56.000Z> Jello: She wont stop typing
<2023-02-17T20:53:02.000Z> Jello: I didnt even say what my name was
<2023-02-17T20:53:12.000Z> Jello: But i kinda have nothing to say anyways and im sober
<2023-02-17T20:53:16.000Z> Jello: Havin a mundane day
<2023-02-17T20:53:17.000Z> wwothrya: well, you did say youre on speed so i kinda expected youd be rambling all over
<2023-02-17T20:53:37.000Z> wwothrya: and i still went here talkin to you, cause idk
<2023-02-17T20:53:41.000Z> Jello: Haha as long as you feel like replying
<2023-02-17T20:53:44.000Z> wwothrya: maybe I'll find a friend or something 
<2023-02-17T20:53:51.000Z> wwothrya: well why not?
<2023-02-17T20:54:00.000Z> Jello: Oh youre gay 
<2023-02-17T20:54:01.000Z> wwothrya: im not the type of person to ghost someone 
<2023-02-17T20:54:06.000Z> Jello: Cus you thought i was guy originally
<2023-02-17T20:54:09.000Z> wwothrya: not really 
<2023-02-17T20:54:10.000Z> Jello: And talked tp me
<2023-02-17T20:54:12.000Z> wwothrya: nope
<2023-02-17T20:54:15.000Z> Jello: Joking btw loo
<2023-02-17T20:54:20.000Z> wwothrya: lol
<2023-02-17T20:54:33.000Z> Jello: Oh yeah me neither, but at the same time like, whats the point
<2023-02-17T20:54:37.000Z> Jello: Is how i feel usually
<2023-02-17T20:54:41.000Z> wwothrya: i talked to you cause you said you want someone to talk to and i want someone to talk to so that's it
<2023-02-17T20:54:51.000Z> Jello: Oh yeah normal internet things
<2023-02-17T20:55:00.000Z> wwothrya: yep, very normal
<2023-02-17T20:55:02.000Z> Jello: People want more relationships 
<2023-02-17T20:55:10.000Z> wwothrya: come on, man, show me your handwriting
<2023-02-17T20:55:23.000Z> wwothrya: if you don't I'll really refuse to believe you're an actual person
<2023-02-17T20:55:28.000Z> Jello: Im just in a phase of life where I cut everyone off, no more friends, and went on ny own personal journey
<2023-02-17T20:55:35.000Z> Jello: Oh
<2023-02-17T20:55:48.000Z> wwothrya: damn, personal journey
<2023-02-17T20:55:56.000Z> Jello: Didn't see that, too occupied with typing. I thought i read you say "im hand writing". I was like k? lol
<2023-02-17T20:56:01.000Z> Jello: Anyways heres more speed talk
<2023-02-17T20:56:05.000Z> Jello: Basically
<2023-02-17T20:56:08.000Z> wwothrya: okay cool hit me with it
<2023-02-17T20:56:21.000Z> Jello: No im going to do the habdwriting thing
<2023-02-17T20:56:44.000Z> Jello: Lmao this feels so weird hahaha the idea of like feeling like youre taking pics for a guy
<2023-02-17T20:56:48.000Z> Jello: And all of that
<2023-02-17T20:56:58.000Z> Jello: Dont want to give the wrong idea
<2023-02-17T20:57:10.000Z> wwothrya: nah, youre cool
<2023-02-17T20:57:12.000Z> Jello: In a way im like, i can send face? 
<2023-02-17T20:57:19.000Z> Jello: But its poast and the internet
<2023-02-17T20:57:20.000Z> Jello: So 
<2023-02-17T20:57:30.000Z> Jello: Anonymity is actually important lol
<2023-02-17T20:57:35.000Z> Jello: Seems like
<2023-02-17T20:57:36.000Z> wwothrya: uhhh idk that's your choice, dude
<2023-02-17T20:57:43.000Z> Jello: Oh right
<2023-02-17T20:57:50.000Z> Jello: Let me go a notch down 
<2023-02-17T20:57:54.000Z> Jello: Haha
<2023-02-17T20:58:08.000Z> wwothrya: that's true though, anonymity is a really important thing especially here on the internet
<2023-02-17T20:58:15.000Z> Jello: Frentime
<2023-02-17T20:58:31.000Z> Jello: Yeah and for girls in my case, if you think about it
<2023-02-17T20:58:39.000Z> wwothrya: oh yea absolutely 
<2023-02-17T20:58:47.000Z> Jello: Who knows what guys do. They put peoples pics up on forums
<2023-02-17T20:58:50.000Z> Jello: Like wtf lol
<2023-02-17T20:59:04.000Z> Jello: And who knows what kind of nefarious things
<2023-02-17T20:59:08.000Z> wwothrya: fr i cant imagine myself being that vile
<2023-02-17T20:59:10.000Z> Jello: Actually scary to imagine
<2023-02-17T20:59:15.000Z> Jello: Not really but like
<2023-02-17T20:59:19.000Z> Jello: Just hypothetical
<2023-02-17T20:59:26.000Z> Jello: Right lol, not good
<2023-02-17T20:59:36.000Z> Jello: Bad people out there doing weird degenerate things
<2023-02-17T20:59:42.000Z> Jello: Like just be normal bro
<2023-02-17T20:59:50.000Z> Jello: Stop looking at child p
<2023-02-17T20:59:55.000Z> Jello: Lmao 
<2023-02-17T20:59:58.000Z> Jello: These people
<2023-02-17T21:00:00.000Z> wwothrya: idk if its human nature or just like.. a weird factor mixed in but yea that's people
<2023-02-17T21:00:12.000Z> Jello: Habdwriting
<2023-02-17T21:00:16.000Z> Jello: Im not even joking...
<2023-02-17T21:00:24.000Z> Jello: I had a funny hand writing thing today 
<2023-02-17T21:00:34.000Z> Jello: Let me explain lol before replying
<2023-02-17T21:00:48.000Z> Jello: It makes me go all over the place, but this is interesting
<2023-02-17T21:00:49.000Z> wwothrya: alright hit me with it
<2023-02-17T21:01:12.000Z> wwothrya: i actually kinda starting to like you rambling around and typing shit
<2023-02-17T21:01:22.000Z> wwothrya: gets rid of the dead air, no awkward shit
<2023-02-17T21:01:25.000Z> Jello: My mom works with old friend from elementary, he wore his t shirt from graduating school today, with all signatures from classmates
<2023-02-17T21:01:30.000Z> Jello: BREATHESIN lol
<2023-02-17T21:01:40.000Z> Jello: My mom took pic
<2023-02-17T21:01:43.000Z> Jello: And literally
<2023-02-17T21:02:04.000Z> Jello: My handwriting signature is there. And today I was thinking how neat and nice my handwriting is, even back then
<2023-02-17T21:02:07.000Z> Jello: So it's funny
<2023-02-17T21:02:19.000Z> Jello: So without even getting up to finally write, ill send this first lop
<2023-02-17T21:03:40.000Z> Jello: Bruh im dying because this pic looks deepfaked, or like it could be, especially my writing because its so perfect looking lol
<2023-02-17T21:03:43.000Z> Jello: Schizoposting
<2023-02-17T21:04:03.000Z> Jello attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/5caba1c6e6b15aed7d525012b189f92baa3f77b87b79199f29826661883bc17e.jpg
<2023-02-17T21:04:09.000Z> wwothrya: i can tell if its fake or not  trust me
<2023-02-17T21:04:19.000Z> Jello: Right to the tail, Sara
<2023-02-17T21:04:23.000Z> Jello: No guessing games
<2023-02-17T21:04:39.000Z> Jello: Thats from grade 6 though lol
<2023-02-17T21:04:49.000Z> Jello: NOOOOOOO
<2023-02-17T21:04:52.000Z> Jello: Looo
<2023-02-17T21:04:55.000Z> Jello: LOOOOOOL
<2023-02-17T21:04:59.000Z> Jello: DOXXED MYSELF
<2023-02-17T21:05:03.000Z> wwothrya: Sara Angelo? that's a cool name 
<2023-02-17T21:05:06.000Z> Jello: CUS IM ON SPEED, IDIOT!!!
<2023-02-17T21:05:08.000Z> Jello: hahahaha
<2023-02-17T21:05:13.000Z> wwothrya: nah, dw, i aint gonna dox you
<2023-02-17T21:05:18.000Z> Jello: I legit didn't even notice or think about iy
<2023-02-17T21:05:24.000Z> Jello: Too friendtime
<2023-02-17T21:05:31.000Z> Jello: But theres not much you can find online lol
<2023-02-17T21:05:43.000Z> Jello: Its all old stuff and not even my full name, ita shortened haha
<2023-02-17T21:05:44.000Z> wwothrya: i have no need for your info, just here to keep you company throuh your speed tip lol
<2023-02-17T21:05:46.000Z> Jello: Just more info 
<2023-02-17T21:05:50.000Z> Jello: I know lol
<2023-02-17T21:05:54.000Z> Jello: Im kind of just joking
<2023-02-17T21:06:02.000Z> wwothrya: okay cool 
<2023-02-17T21:06:04.000Z> wwothrya: ypu 
<2023-02-17T21:06:06.000Z> wwothrya: you uhhh
<2023-02-17T21:06:11.000Z> Jello: Im in a speed state of mind where the paranoia thoughts are there but you dont actually care
<2023-02-17T21:06:14.000Z> wwothrya: that was grade 6??
<2023-02-17T21:06:19.000Z> Jello: Just thinking a lot
<2023-02-17T21:06:27.000Z> wwothrya: you wrote that when you were in Grade 6?
<2023-02-17T21:06:31.000Z> Jello: And theories and conspiracies are fun to think about
<2023-02-17T21:06:38.000Z> Jello: So its like my mind just goes there
<2023-02-17T21:06:53.000Z> wwothrya: oh yea? what's your favorite conspiracy then?
<2023-02-17T21:06:59.000Z> Jello: Yeah just find it interesting how nice my writing is compared to especially
<2023-02-17T21:07:03.000Z> Jello: Very neat
<2023-02-17T21:07:05.000Z> Jello: Aesthetic
<2023-02-17T21:07:17.000Z> Jello: Uhhh simulation theory because I think its real
<2023-02-17T21:07:21.000Z> Jello: Out of all things
<2023-02-17T21:07:29.000Z> wwothrya: oh damn yea me too
<2023-02-17T21:07:32.000Z> wwothrya: that's my favorite
<2023-02-17T21:07:32.000Z> Jello: Also that god exists
<2023-02-17T21:07:39.000Z> Jello: Or there is a god lol
<2023-02-17T21:07:52.000Z> wwothrya: maybe there is, who knows
<2023-02-17T21:07:55.000Z> Jello: Like I think those people are on to something
<2023-02-17T21:07:58.000Z> wwothrya: okay here's my piece
<2023-02-17T21:08:02.000Z> wwothrya: let me ramble too
<2023-02-17T21:08:06.000Z> Jello: A little wacky and way off the mark in a way
<2023-02-17T21:08:11.000Z> Jello: But they got the idea
<2023-02-17T21:08:21.000Z> Jello: Its a simulation so the truth is out there
<2023-02-17T21:08:29.000Z> Jello: God loves you poast friend
<2023-02-17T21:08:45.000Z> wwothrya: you cannot believe something that you know. you can't have faith on something that is objective. so God is purposefully vague
<2023-02-17T21:08:47.000Z> Jello: He wants you to know there is weird synchronicity and you can see intelligent design in that
<2023-02-17T21:09:09.000Z> Jello: Such as in this whole convo you can find bits and pieces
<2023-02-17T21:09:18.000Z> Jello: Like the hand writing thing lol
<2023-02-17T21:09:39.000Z> Jello: I used to be fully atheist agnostic. Maybe in a way still agnosticis because we cant know anything for sure
<2023-02-17T21:09:51.000Z> Jello: Just have experiences and evidence and personal truths and proof
<2023-02-17T21:10:01.000Z> Jello: Anyways
<2023-02-17T21:10:09.000Z> Jello: Who knows amirite 😂😂
<2023-02-17T21:10:18.000Z> Jello: Handwriting eh 
<2023-02-17T21:10:46.000Z> wwothrya: speaking of, where is your handwriting now??
<2023-02-17T21:11:01.000Z> wwothrya: like you're actual handwriting right at this moment
<2023-02-17T21:11:03.000Z> wwothrya: show me
<2023-02-17T21:11:20.000Z> wwothrya: that way i can verify your  authenticity
<2023-02-17T21:11:23.000Z> wwothrya: as a person lol
<2023-02-17T21:13:57.000Z> wwothrya: did you die or something? i hope you didn't die lol
<2023-02-17T21:14:46.000Z> Jello: Lmao right
<2023-02-17T21:14:51.000Z> Jello: Im so in to it
<2023-02-17T21:14:59.000Z> Jello: But as you keep going its like
<2023-02-17T21:15:05.000Z> Jello: Maaaann drug in system
<2023-02-17T21:15:10.000Z> Jello: Maybe should stop lol
<2023-02-17T21:15:13.000Z> Jello: Here
<2023-02-17T21:15:27.000Z> Jello: In reality was like 2 minutes, youre obsessed with me 
<2023-02-17T21:15:29.000Z> Jello: Trust
<2023-02-17T21:15:49.000Z> wwothrya: no im not lole, just concerned maybe 
<2023-02-17T21:16:01.000Z> wwothrya: do you know what will happen when the drug wears out eventually?
<2023-02-17T21:16:32.000Z> Jello: Ill even say it, youre lucky to talk to me, lol. I don't talk to anyone. I like to imagine im entertaining
<2023-02-17T21:16:50.000Z> wwothrya: well, good news, you kinda are
<2023-02-17T21:16:54.000Z> Jello: Lol nothing, you kind of feel like mehhhh sober is boriinggggg and i need to sleeep
<2023-02-17T21:16:57.000Z> Jello: But thats it 
<2023-02-17T21:17:19.000Z> wwothrya: not like tired? or like exhausted?
<2023-02-17T21:17:25.000Z> wwothrya: thirsty?
<2023-02-17T21:17:26.000Z> Jello attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/ef3a6fed909654028bda34e43d0c1b13c77770d1df788790711953ec3101058b.jpg
<2023-02-17T21:17:33.000Z> Jello: Not really i didn't do much
<2023-02-17T21:17:41.000Z> Jello: Im getting tired now though haha 
<2023-02-17T21:19:01.000Z> wwothrya: that's good handwriting actually
<2023-02-17T21:19:02.000Z> wwothrya: wow
<2023-02-17T21:19:07.000Z> wwothrya: you're an actual person
<2023-02-17T21:19:14.000Z> wwothrya: who wouldve thought lol
<2023-02-17T21:20:21.000Z> wwothrya: okay, gotta admit, you have a really nice handwriting 
<2023-02-17T21:20:44.000Z> wwothrya: like totally, I'd give it a... uhhh
<2023-02-17T21:20:54.000Z> wwothrya: 8.9/10 rating
<2023-02-17T21:27:23.000Z> Jello: Ok I chilled out haha
<2023-02-17T21:27:31.000Z> Jello: Like the peak now its just normal 
<2023-02-17T21:27:39.000Z> wwothrya: good for you then
<2023-02-17T21:27:49.000Z> wwothrya: are you like sitted? or laying down?
<2023-02-17T21:27:59.000Z> Jello: Lol saying that 
<2023-02-17T21:28:00.000Z> wwothrya: seated i mean fuck
<2023-02-17T21:28:05.000Z> Jello: Im not even gonna say hahaha
<2023-02-17T21:28:09.000Z> Jello: That got creepy fast 
<2023-02-17T21:28:15.000Z> wwothrya: oh 
<2023-02-17T21:28:17.000Z> Jello: Bad timing the drugs wore off! Lol
<2023-02-17T21:28:19.000Z> wwothrya: oh fucking hell
<2023-02-17T21:28:24.000Z> Jello: Are you seated
<2023-02-17T21:28:33.000Z> wwothrya: okay yea that sounded weird as fuck 
<2023-02-17T21:28:35.000Z> Jello: Are you seeted
<2023-02-17T21:28:37.000Z> Jello: Lul
<2023-02-17T21:28:47.000Z> wwothrya: I didn't even like think of it i was just asking 
<2023-02-17T21:29:08.000Z> Jello: I dont have the dopamine feel to continue typing so much lul
<2023-02-17T21:29:16.000Z> Jello: Me neither lol 
<2023-02-17T21:29:16.000Z> wwothrya: like yk, the drugs wore off, and you feel okay  are you like seated or like laying down on the floor lol
<2023-02-17T21:29:26.000Z> Jello: I just kinda noticed for a sec and found funny
<2023-02-17T21:29:45.000Z> Jello: Oh its nothing like that lol dunno if trolling 
<2023-02-17T21:29:52.000Z> wwothrya: if you feel like not typing, go drink water for a bit
<2023-02-17T21:30:00.000Z> wwothrya: and im seated yes
<2023-02-17T21:30:04.000Z> Jello: Its just back to more baseline, i wasnt that high, just a feeling
<2023-02-17T21:30:13.000Z> Jello: Nice 
<2023-02-17T21:30:22.000Z> Jello: Seated
<2023-02-17T21:30:30.000Z> wwothrya: okay, cool
<2023-02-17T21:30:37.000Z> wwothrya: go drink water or something 
<2023-02-17T21:33:36.000Z> Jello: I drank a bit 
<2023-02-17T21:33:51.000Z> wwothrya: water, hopefully 
<2023-02-17T21:34:23.000Z> wwothrya: anw, now that the rush feeling wore off, how are you feeling now? like what do you feel like doing?
<2023-02-17T21:48:39.000Z> Jello: Just watching stuff lol
<2023-02-17T21:48:54.000Z> Jello: Super in to it and laughing at how absurd it seems to me right now 
<2023-02-17T21:49:01.000Z> Jello: Like suspiciously absurd 
<2023-02-17T21:49:06.000Z> Jello: youtu.be/Ms6hSPRgMec
<2023-02-17T21:49:21.000Z> Jello: Like wtf is this lol. Just so many weird things to that one video
<2023-02-18T01:47:29.000Z> wwothrya: wild that i say i don't ghost people and then proceeded to just fucking  crash to sleep 💀
<2023-02-18T01:47:32.000Z> wwothrya: sorry lole
<2023-02-18T01:51:29.000Z> Jello: Lmao I spent all day typing, still
<2023-02-18T01:51:38.000Z> Jello: Pretty much done now
<2023-02-18T03:48:17.000Z> wwothrya: what's your wpm?
<2023-02-18T03:55:41.000Z> Jello: Actually dont know what that is
<2023-02-18T10:29:14.000Z> wwothrya: bruh
<2023-02-18T10:29:21.000Z> wwothrya: WPM means words per minute
<2023-02-18T10:29:31.000Z> wwothrya: like how many words do you type in a minute
<2023-02-18T10:29:43.000Z> wwothrya: i type probably like 80-90 words per minute
<2023-02-18T10:29:47.000Z> wwothrya: 120 on a good day
<2023-02-18T10:30:10.000Z> wwothrya: try doing typing test courses online to see how fast you type and how good are you
<2023-02-18T12:33:35.000Z> Jello: I forgot that was a thing 
<2023-02-18T12:33:41.000Z> Jello: Thanks haha
<2023-02-18T12:33:57.000Z> Jello: Pretty fast, maybe I'll check tomorrow
<2023-02-18T12:34:02.000Z> Jello: Whats yours
<2023-02-18T15:34:09.000Z> wwothrya: mines averaging from 80-97 wpm
<2023-02-18T15:34:25.000Z> wwothrya: I can do 120 though if i try hard enough
<2023-02-18T16:34:55.000Z> Jello: Man I took phenibut and its basically like drinking too much alcohol, took too much hours ago and got that dizzy feel... yuck 
<2023-02-18T16:35:25.000Z> Jello: I want to try later haha. I remember being in elementary and showing a teacher how fast i typed and she didn't believe it 
<2023-02-18T16:35:32.000Z> Jello: Literally just didn't believe it lol
<2023-02-19T07:50:35.000Z> wwothrya: Elementary, no fuckin way. you got keyboarding classes in elementary, thats awesome
<2023-02-19T07:50:51.000Z> wwothrya: What's a phenibut? sounds like a made up drug
<2023-02-19T07:51:02.000Z> wwothrya: show me your wpm, let's compare lol
<2023-02-19T15:10:44.000Z> Jello: On computer I type fast even with two fingers. I literally type with 2. But keep that in mind lol 
<2023-02-19T15:10:57.000Z> Jello: Might be even faster
<2023-02-19T15:11:05.000Z> Jello: Lol and people call it phenibutt
<2023-02-19T15:11:39.000Z> Jello: Meh I have to get on laptop to do that, whichI don't do lately... Gotta open that thing 
<2023-02-19T15:11:42.000Z> Jello: Up lol 
<2023-02-19T15:11:50.000Z> Jello: Maybe later 
<2023-02-19T15:25:36.000Z> wwothrya: that's cool
<2023-02-19T15:25:40.000Z> wwothrya: anyway uhhh
<2023-02-19T15:25:53.000Z> wwothrya: okay so you a phone poster 
<2023-02-19T15:26:00.000Z> wwothrya: or poaster idk lol 
<2023-02-19T17:12:08.000Z> Jello: Poaster... lmao, I always don't know whether to type poster or poaster, poaster seems gay but it's a good play on words lol 
<2023-02-19T17:12:40.000Z> Jello: So what do you do on a day to day basis
<2023-02-19T18:19:58.000Z> wwothrya: >poaster seems gay
<2023-02-19T18:20:01.000Z> wwothrya: lmaooooo
<2023-02-19T18:20:12.000Z> wwothrya: yea, it's kinda like.. toaster
<2023-02-19T18:20:20.000Z> wwothrya: which is idk, poaster looks weird
<2023-02-19T18:20:36.000Z> wwothrya: what do I do on a day to day basis. alright
<2023-02-19T18:20:53.000Z> wwothrya: i was actually gonna ask you that
<2023-02-19T18:21:17.000Z> wwothrya: I still go to school, so I do that most of the time.
<2023-02-19T18:21:32.000Z> wwothrya: I'm about to graduate college this year, which is really cool, I'd say
<2023-02-19T18:21:45.000Z> wwothrya: I mostly just play video games and read shit on the internet
<2023-02-19T18:22:02.000Z> wwothrya: sometimes finding people on the internet to talk to
<2023-02-19T18:22:14.000Z> wwothrya: but yk, it gets pretty scarce
<2023-02-19T18:22:43.000Z> wwothrya: like, there's not much ppl online anymore that's not into social media fame chasing
<2023-02-19T18:22:59.000Z> wwothrya: that's why im into niche stuff, like thos
<2023-02-19T18:23:02.000Z> wwothrya: *this
<2023-02-19T18:23:55.000Z> wwothrya: I eat, I take a nap, take a walk sometimes
<2023-02-19T18:24:50.000Z> wwothrya: I'm actually kind of a normie, if I wasn't at home all the time
<2023-02-19T18:25:02.000Z> wwothrya: damn i typed a lot
<2023-02-19T18:25:22.000Z> Jello: Gotcha, I'm the same. I just lay in bed (to answer that question lmao) watching youtube videos or scrolling through videos. Other than that, I'm out of work on social assistance for a year, surprisingly got accepted lol without anything medically wrong. So just saving money and doing reselling on the site to get an apartment later this year or by next year
<2023-02-19T18:26:07.000Z> Jello: Just watching stuff is very boring now, I've been using the internet and doing this same shit for years and years, like my entire childhood and younger adult life, so it's just pointless and meaningless now
<2023-02-19T18:26:16.000Z> wwothrya: oh, cool, howd you get accepted on social assistance? man, i wish i got accepted on shit like that too
<2023-02-19T18:26:23.000Z> Jello: You get to a point you would rather be out in the real world doing real things with real people
<2023-02-19T18:26:30.000Z> wwothrya: yep
<2023-02-19T18:27:05.000Z> Jello: Right lol, free money. We also had all those covid relief benefits here in canada. Past 3 years Ive been able to get so much free money from government to support myself easily 
<2023-02-19T18:27:29.000Z> wwothrya: Canada is cool like that huh
<2023-02-19T18:27:31.000Z> Jello: I just wrote a letter with application basically lying about how I'm depressed and that it's final resort
<2023-02-19T18:27:34.000Z> wwothrya: so you're canadian
<2023-02-19T18:27:43.000Z> Jello: Yes 
<2023-02-19T18:27:51.000Z> Jello: The normal version of americans
<2023-02-19T18:27:53.000Z> wwothrya: ohhh, so you used the mental health card
<2023-02-19T18:27:59.000Z> Jello: Who are too programmed and brainwashed
<2023-02-19T18:28:05.000Z> wwothrya: >normal version of americans lmaoooo
<2023-02-19T18:28:08.000Z> Jello: They have a weird little country 
<2023-02-19T18:28:12.000Z> wwothrya: i agree on you on that one
<2023-02-19T18:28:16.000Z> Jello: Right lol
<2023-02-19T18:28:29.000Z> Jello: Like whats with the guns, so strange. People be living in fear out there
<2023-02-19T18:28:39.000Z> Jello: The school shootings. That's not normal lol
<2023-02-19T18:28:57.000Z> wwothrya: said it's in the amendment or smth idk im not an american
<2023-02-19T18:29:24.000Z> wwothrya: lmao, fr though, like only america has this one problem and they cant seem to solve it
<2023-02-19T18:29:59.000Z> wwothrya: school shootings only ever happen on US soil and they still cant figure out how to solve that shit 💀 
<2023-02-19T18:47:43.000Z> Jello: Lmao, plus I think at least some of it is set up, to ultimately take away gun rights and keep people living in fear 
<2023-02-19T18:47:48.000Z> Jello: Where do you live
<2023-02-19T18:59:34.000Z> wwothrya: i aint telling you, agent 🤨
<2023-02-19T19:00:39.000Z> wwothrya: i aint gonna doxx myself 🤨
<2023-02-19T19:01:02.000Z> wwothrya: anyway, are you actually 30?
<2023-02-19T19:06:55.000Z> Jello: Yes 
<2023-02-19T19:07:05.000Z> Jello: I cant imagine any other place you could live
<2023-02-19T19:07:14.000Z> Jello: British people are weird as hell
<2023-02-19T19:07:19.000Z> wwothrya: then that's cool, you don't have to
<2023-02-19T19:07:25.000Z> Jello: Cant be british, but maybe, hard to tell
<2023-02-19T19:07:27.000Z> wwothrya: good thing im not British 
<2023-02-19T19:07:47.000Z> wwothrya: Can't you tell by my accent that am note Bri'ish?
<2023-02-19T19:07:58.000Z> Jello: Yeah but where else is there
<2023-02-19T19:08:07.000Z> Jello: Youre american or canadian
<2023-02-19T19:08:20.000Z> wwothrya: no for real though, im not british
<2023-02-19T19:08:31.000Z> wwothrya: nor am i an american or canadian
<2023-02-19T19:08:37.000Z> Jello: Probably live in Wisconsin
<2023-02-19T19:08:49.000Z> wwothrya: what the fuck is wisconsin?
<2023-02-19T19:08:51.000Z> Jello: Australian 
<2023-02-19T19:08:54.000Z> Jello: Lmao 
<2023-02-19T19:08:59.000Z> wwothrya: (jk i know what's Wisconsin is)
<2023-02-19T19:09:08.000Z> wwothrya: (or rather, where it is)
<2023-02-19T19:09:30.000Z> wwothrya: man, i ain't telling you where i live
<2023-02-19T19:09:50.000Z> wwothrya: what time is it now on you?
<2023-02-19T19:14:25.000Z> Jello: So I wont continue to share either lol
<2023-02-19T19:14:40.000Z> Jello: I don't wanna dox myself more than I have lol
<2023-02-19T19:14:50.000Z> Jello: It was a lie, entirely fake
<2023-02-19T19:14:58.000Z> wwothrya: ah, man
<2023-02-19T19:15:01.000Z> Jello: Deepfaked
<2023-02-19T19:15:09.000Z> wwothrya: alright ill let you in on one info of me
<2023-02-19T19:15:20.000Z> wwothrya: yea i live in australia 
<2023-02-19T19:15:25.000Z> wwothrya: i shit upside down
<2023-02-19T19:15:28.000Z> Jello: Man that was fun the other day lol. I was typing non stop for hours
<2023-02-19T19:15:34.000Z> Jello: Really haha
<2023-02-19T19:15:41.000Z> Jello: See there's only like 4 options
<2023-02-19T19:16:08.000Z> Jello: Based on the way you type, I think I did pretty good if that's true, but I still somehow don't believe australia
<2023-02-19T19:16:28.000Z> wwothrya: your intuitions are good
<2023-02-19T19:16:32.000Z> wwothrya: I give you that 
<2023-02-19T19:16:39.000Z> wwothrya: maybe it comes with age? lol
<2023-02-19T19:16:42.000Z> wwothrya: just kidding
<2023-02-19T19:16:54.000Z> wwothrya: what exactly are you doing rn?
<2023-02-19T19:33:10.000Z> Jello: Maybe, lol. Probably in fact. 
<2023-02-19T19:33:39.000Z> Jello: When you hit 30 you gain ultimate wisdom, at least, if you are generally introspective and care and value that sort of thing
<2023-02-19T19:33:51.000Z> Jello: Im shook how adult I feel just hitting 30
<2023-02-19T19:33:53.000Z> Jello: Big change
<2023-02-19T19:34:23.000Z> Jello: You stop caring about this retarded world and the people. Everything seems meant for younger people, because theyre easy to program and sell to 
<2023-02-19T19:34:35.000Z> Jello: Other than that the world is for mothers to buy diapers
<2023-02-19T19:34:50.000Z> Jello: Watching danny mullen on YouTube lol
<2023-02-19T19:34:55.000Z> wwothrya: i guess i can say im introspective i care about a lot of things and is very sentimental when it comes to personal stuff
<2023-02-19T19:35:06.000Z> Jello: Same 
<2023-02-19T19:35:12.000Z> wwothrya: i guess ill learn more as i grow up
<2023-02-19T19:35:19.000Z> wwothrya: hopefully, I mean
<2023-02-19T19:35:45.000Z> Jello: Yeah I always felt stupid or felt like I had issues communicating or having things to express like interests and etc 
<2023-02-19T19:36:17.000Z> wwothrya: yes, exactly, it feels like no one would like.. totally try to understand.
<2023-02-19T19:36:24.000Z> Jello: But now you learn you're actually really smart, probably at the top level of the best sorts of people of the world
<2023-02-19T19:37:05.000Z> wwothrya: heh, i wish
<2023-02-19T19:37:09.000Z> Jello: If you can be honest and genuine with yourself and live that way I think confidence eventually comes naturally, as long as you choose to be a good person and not hurt others
<2023-02-19T19:37:28.000Z> wwothrya: wow, that is
<2023-02-19T19:37:31.000Z> Jello: And find value in that
<2023-02-19T19:38:05.000Z> wwothrya: i can't find the right words, im too dumb. I guess ill say your words are profound and i totally understand 
<2023-02-19T19:38:12.000Z> wwothrya: yea, i try to be kind every single day
<2023-02-19T19:38:14.000Z> Jello: Usually we feel we need to compare ourselves to other people in society. Especially when we are younger. But you come to learn thats bullshit and no one is necessarily better than you
<2023-02-19T19:38:25.000Z> wwothrya: even though it's so easy to like, be evil and do shit
<2023-02-19T19:38:25.000Z> Jello: I was never like this 
<2023-02-19T19:38:32.000Z> Jello: Maybe all the speed helped, no joke
<2023-02-19T19:38:46.000Z> wwothrya: damn, maybe i should take speed too
<2023-02-19T19:38:59.000Z> Jello: When you have fun typing for hours, it's like training yourself to express yourself, without the people, which you then apply more socially
<2023-02-19T19:39:09.000Z> Jello: Lmao, or adhd medication
<2023-02-19T19:39:13.000Z> Jello: Same thing
<2023-02-19T19:39:43.000Z> Jello: Yeah it's weird when you are a balanced person you can relate to being an evil person, as in you are capable and see things from that perspective
<2023-02-19T19:39:50.000Z> Jello: But its about choosing not to be
<2023-02-19T19:39:57.000Z> wwothrya: yea, exactly 
<2023-02-19T19:40:07.000Z> wwothrya: it's that everyday decision to not be evil
<2023-02-19T19:40:14.000Z> Jello: And finding value and reward in being a good person, and choosing good over evil, because you are just as good at understanding that
<2023-02-19T19:40:33.000Z> wwothrya: its so so easy to fucking punch a kid in the face but i suppress that feeling lmao
<2023-02-19T19:40:34.000Z> wwothrya: jk
<2023-02-19T19:40:44.000Z> Jello: And good is just objectively better than evil. You know even doing one evil thing sticks with people, it just eats them up and they rot
<2023-02-19T19:41:10.000Z> wwothrya: you're not on anything are you? you sound very articulate and wise
<2023-02-19T19:41:13.000Z> wwothrya: that's really cool
<2023-02-19T19:41:21.000Z> wwothrya: and yea, I agree 
<2023-02-19T19:41:26.000Z> Jello: Like even punching someonw you might feel bad after, like it lingers and effects you more acting out in anger than uf you just learn to not react in that way and practice stoicism or not caring
<2023-02-19T19:41:34.000Z> Jello: Theres so much more reward in that
<2023-02-19T19:41:45.000Z> Jello: Nah no drugs this time
<2023-02-19T19:41:46.000Z> wwothrya: Good is just really objectively better than evil
<2023-02-19T19:41:58.000Z> Jello: I think I was pretty much the same lol, but feels more intense high
<2023-02-19T19:42:09.000Z> Jello: Evil is just stupid 
<2023-02-19T19:42:36.000Z> wwothrya: if youre like that even without drugs, then you're pretty cool to talk too. full of substance
<2023-02-19T19:43:11.000Z> Jello: Reminds me of Hollywood pedophile elites, there are really people out there with power and money, and yet what they choose to do is hurt others and be pedophiles and are so proud of it they secretly share their shit subliminally and symbolically with the masses
<2023-02-19T19:43:33.000Z> Jello: Like wtf lmao absolutely delusional retards. You find pedophilia and hurting children cool? 
<2023-02-19T19:43:36.000Z> Jello: So lame 
<2023-02-19T19:43:55.000Z> wwothrya: idk about that, that shit is really hard to believe, but the evidences are out there and its sickening
<2023-02-19T19:44:12.000Z> wwothrya: it cant be shoved under the rug no more 
<2023-02-19T19:44:34.000Z> Jello: Bye felicia... these people rot and if hell were real they would end up there. Im near certain satanism and lucifarinism is like a trick by god. Really shows the terrible people in the world and they think they're getting reward from it. 
<2023-02-19T19:44:43.000Z> Jello: Oh yeah theres proof lol
<2023-02-19T19:44:50.000Z> Jello: With the whole pizzagate thing
<2023-02-19T19:45:06.000Z> Jello: And its kinda common sense no shit that happens with rich people with power
<2023-02-19T19:45:08.000Z> Jello: Men 
<2023-02-19T19:45:18.000Z> wwothrya: do you believe in hell?
<2023-02-19T19:45:22.000Z> Jello: Lame ass people lol
<2023-02-19T19:45:25.000Z> Jello: No 
<2023-02-19T19:45:29.000Z> wwothrya: ah
<2023-02-19T19:46:10.000Z> Jello: I believe we live in a simulation and I do believe god or something exists that has control over reality and can manipulate things to achieve some goal for people, everything is very human focused in this reality
<2023-02-19T19:46:25.000Z> wwothrya: imagine being so fucked up that doing fucked up things to adults doesn't satisfy anymore and you move on to children 
<2023-02-19T19:46:28.000Z> Jello: We can even see exclipses, very based on the human experience and point of view
<2023-02-19T19:46:47.000Z> Jello: Stars like little dipper, lol, just so obvious when you realize more intelligent design
<2023-02-19T19:46:58.000Z> wwothrya: okay but what if
<2023-02-19T19:47:11.000Z> wwothrya: what if its all just coincidence?
<2023-02-19T19:47:21.000Z> Jello: But could be like aliens, scientists, people doing experimentation simulation. Or like some smart guy with access to technology in the future created like a virtual reality
<2023-02-19T19:47:31.000Z> Jello: So this is all god but not traditional
<2023-02-19T19:48:00.000Z> Jello: But a lot of things make it obvious everything is designed by someone that understands human and human experience
<2023-02-19T19:48:17.000Z> Jello: Maybe AI just created all of it, but still something there to program it, probably
<2023-02-19T19:48:53.000Z> Jello: Nah not all coincidence. When you experience so much synchronicity as I do, you come to learn there are probably no coincidences actually, probably
<2023-02-19T19:49:03.000Z> Jello: Everything is all perfect, or can be 
<2023-02-19T19:49:16.000Z> wwothrya: ykw I think? where gonna reach a point somwhere in the future where we'll be able to simulate civilizations within our computers and then that's when we'll realize that maybe we're all just simulations as well
<2023-02-19T19:49:30.000Z> Jello: Its like all the mistakes in the world and universe and from human perspective are intentional to give the idea of something or balance
<2023-02-19T19:49:33.000Z> Jello: Who knows
<2023-02-19T19:49:44.000Z> Jello: Yeah and its not far off
<2023-02-19T19:50:11.000Z> wwothrya: yep, with the progress of AI and shit
<2023-02-19T19:50:20.000Z> wwothrya: i wonder how the future is gonna be like when I die
<2023-02-19T19:50:38.000Z> wwothrya: dyk that film, Johnny Depp, Transcendence or something like that?
<2023-02-19T19:51:04.000Z> Jello: That's why i think that. I also have a relationship with god, which sounds gay, and maybe schizo to those with no experience. But in past 3 years just being focused and more aware, you just notice things and when you start to notice you start to be more observant and aware of how it all works and something "doing magic" or manipulating your experience and life
<2023-02-19T19:51:05.000Z> wwothrya: that's gonna be our version of immortality in the future
<2023-02-19T19:51:10.000Z> Jello: As if to prove they exist
<2023-02-19T19:51:18.000Z> Jello: Its definitely next level ill tell you that much
<2023-02-19T19:51:26.000Z> Jello: Probably peak human knowledge lol
<2023-02-19T19:51:30.000Z> Jello: Secret knowledge
<2023-02-19T19:52:02.000Z> wwothrya: im not gonna lie, saying it that way, you do kinda sound crazy and schizo, but I'll give you the benefit of the doubt, I believe you.
<2023-02-19T19:52:09.000Z> Jello: Lol love Johnny depp. My dads name is john too. That name is everywhere, and my favorite character in a movie fear and loathing 
<2023-02-19T19:52:19.000Z> Jello: Yeah that movie made me laugh lol transcendence
<2023-02-19T19:52:27.000Z> Jello: Kinda exactly how my experience feels
<2023-02-19T19:52:32.000Z> Jello: 😅
<2023-02-19T19:52:36.000Z> Jello: 🙃
<2023-02-19T19:52:53.000Z> wwothrya: I haven't really watched it, i just know he uploaded his consciousness into a computer lol
<2023-02-19T19:53:02.000Z> Jello: Well yeah logically when so and so happens multiple times and often and increasing frequency
<2023-02-19T19:53:25.000Z> Jello: Its just rational to know and understand that yes this is a real thing in reality than I get to witness and understand 
<2023-02-19T19:54:25.000Z> Jello: Through experiences and observations you just rationally can come to a conclusion about something. Even though its personal and has to be kind of secret in that way, because explaining these things to normies, they have no way of comprehending or wrapping their heads around it
<2023-02-19T19:54:44.000Z> Jello: If you have ever experienced one crazy synchronicity maybe then you could sort of kind of get it
<2023-02-19T19:55:02.000Z> Jello: Imagine that crazy chance but like, literally every day, 24/7
<2023-02-19T19:55:09.000Z> Jello: Like you're living in the matrix
<2023-02-19T19:55:10.000Z> Jello: Lmao 
<2023-02-19T19:55:13.000Z> wwothrya: explain synchronicity then
<2023-02-19T19:55:38.000Z> wwothrya: like give me an example of your experience 
<2023-02-19T19:55:44.000Z> wwothrya: experiences, I mean
<2023-02-19T19:55:46.000Z> wwothrya: one example
<2023-02-19T19:55:51.000Z> Jello: Let's say you think if so and so and an image appears on your screen exactly of so and so 
<2023-02-19T19:56:03.000Z> Jello: Imagine this happening all the time
<2023-02-19T19:56:20.000Z> wwothrya: ain't that just a funny coincidence all the time?
<2023-02-19T19:56:24.000Z> Jello: Its actually insane and I don't like to explain, I would never to an average person, because I know better lol
<2023-02-19T19:56:33.000Z> wwothrya: try ke
<2023-02-19T19:56:35.000Z> wwothrya: me
<2023-02-19T19:56:37.000Z> wwothrya: try me
<2023-02-19T19:56:42.000Z> wwothrya: I'd really love to know
<2023-02-19T19:56:45.000Z> wwothrya: for real
<2023-02-19T19:57:00.000Z> Jello: No. It shows that its a person (supposedly) doing it. Its very hard to explain unless you experience this thing in particular over a period of years
<2023-02-19T19:57:45.000Z> Jello: A good way to know is that your life and experiences teach you lessons. And everything turns out wrapped up like a little package in the end
<2023-02-19T19:57:55.000Z> wwothrya: like, idk, when you put it like that, it sounds like finding patterns in things that aren't particularly related. it's like connecting the dots that isn't there. I'm not saying you're a crazy person, but yk. I experience shit like that, once in a while, it's kinda like manifestation even.
<2023-02-19T19:58:46.000Z> Jello: But that's not all. Its like intelligent design life lessons where god manipulates your life and shows through synchronicity that they exist. But god its hard to explain unless you know. It's like having a thought or feeling, like thinking something funny, and someone laughs, in real world or on tv
<2023-02-19T19:58:54.000Z> Jello: Just consistently stuff like that
<2023-02-19T19:59:05.000Z> Jello: Like god is laughing with you
<2023-02-19T19:59:10.000Z> wwothrya: >A good way to know is that your life and experiences teach you lessons. And everything turns out wrapped up like a little package in the end // This i believe since everything we do or say, what we choose to do, even the smallest of decisions affect the end result of everything 
<2023-02-19T19:59:32.000Z> Jello: Certainly sounds schizo but hey you learn that it's just simply really not. And more of a pattern, very rational and obvious
<2023-02-19T19:59:51.000Z> Jello: But of course im the type to understand anything is possible, and things we cant possibly understand
<2023-02-19T20:00:12.000Z> wwothrya: yea it does kinda sound schizo, but yk, it makes it all interesting 
<2023-02-19T20:00:17.000Z> wwothrya: have you watched the truman show?
<2023-02-19T20:00:25.000Z> Jello: Yes lol
<2023-02-19T20:00:28.000Z> wwothrya: is that how you feel like you are?
<2023-02-19T20:00:35.000Z> Jello: No. Ive been there though
<2023-02-19T20:00:39.000Z> wwothrya: ah, cool
<2023-02-19T20:00:42.000Z> Jello: So past that concept
<2023-02-19T20:01:00.000Z> Jello: Its like a spiritual journay that went from lvl 1 Truman show real world grounded
<2023-02-19T20:01:12.000Z> Jello: To more bigger and spiritual relating to god
<2023-02-19T20:01:20.000Z> Jello: And the universe and how it functions
<2023-02-19T20:01:57.000Z> wwothrya: yep, definitely sounds schizo, but it's really interesting, yk? doesn't it overwhelm you?
<2023-02-19T20:02:01.000Z> Jello: So when you experience schizo ideas and experiences first time, as a human always having a normal life, very rational and used to be agnostic atheist... Your mind immediately goes to like, gang stalkers
<2023-02-19T20:02:02.000Z> wwothrya: this synchronicity?
<2023-02-19T20:02:20.000Z> Jello: Like someone or something is msnipulating your reality nefariously, in the real world
<2023-02-19T20:02:29.000Z> Jello: Irs only logical to think that
<2023-02-19T20:02:44.000Z> Jello: People lose their minds at that point and get trapped in that
<2023-02-19T20:02:52.000Z> Jello: If they experience it
<2023-02-19T20:02:59.000Z> Jello: I think thats why truman show exists
<2023-02-19T20:03:08.000Z> Jello: Its actually very woke and maybe shares that truth
<2023-02-19T20:03:15.000Z> Jello: The truth in plain sight as they say 
<2023-02-19T20:03:30.000Z> Jello: I mean all the big hollywoos elites hypothetically understand these things right
<2023-02-19T20:04:29.000Z> Jello: Oh yeah im at a point Im very tired of how this all works lol. But it's been so long that I'm used to it. It's like being in flow with the true nature of reality, like living in a simulation, matrix, where everything is perfect, and supposed to happen
<2023-02-19T20:05:05.000Z> Jello: So it's fine. Also I'm a better more balanced person on the other side. I would describe past 3 years as a literal spiritual journey
<2023-02-19T20:05:28.000Z> Jello: With god or whatever it may be manipulating and being the creator or "producer"
<2023-02-19T20:05:38.000Z> Jello: Its all like a script, very intense
<2023-02-19T20:05:57.000Z> Jello: Im aware its like Im absolutely on some next level shit compared to others
<2023-02-19T20:06:17.000Z> Jello: Need to find people who can relate even a little
<2023-02-19T20:07:00.000Z> Jello: Im sure there are others out there who have experienced the same. I mean spiritual journeys are a thing people have. Dont know what they have experienced though lmao 
<2023-02-19T20:07:52.000Z> wwothrya: damn, i wish i can. i mean, i do on a certain level. i do try to find the intelligent design in every single occurences thats ever happen. and I get aware most of the time about the futility of everything in this big space rock. maybe we are the same but with really vastly different perspective lol
<2023-02-19T20:08:09.000Z> Jello: Like I can know and predict that synchronicity will happen in conversations or when Im typing sometimes. But god is selective. Sometimes its like Ill be in the zone and flow typing something, and I will create language and reality as I type
<2023-02-19T20:08:50.000Z> Jello: Like words will be a play on words with the original topic, or it will end on bringing its way back to my original point, with one word or joke in a funny way. Its all funny and comedy too. 
<2023-02-19T20:10:13.000Z> Jello: Only thing I can think of right now, is one time that song "mamma mia!" Just popped in my head, those exact words, then I walked in the living room... and my mom was there, with my dog, whoa name is literally mia lol
<2023-02-19T20:10:18.000Z> Jello: I was like lol
<2023-02-19T20:10:38.000Z> Jello: Its all like that. Crazy synchronicities like that. Where all you can say is just lol
<2023-02-19T20:11:01.000Z> Jello: So imagine having your reality like this, where you feel there is a god that exists and they script your life
<2023-02-19T20:11:33.000Z> Jello: And its generally all good and positive, and you strongly feel they care and are ultimately good, and also are funny and like to make things funny
<2023-02-19T20:11:46.000Z> Jello: Its like you know nothing can really be that bad
<2023-02-19T20:12:02.000Z> Jello: Imagine that mentality, its very healthy and positive
<2023-02-19T20:12:19.000Z> Jello: Weird i somehow can understand christians now. But don't believe in that god
<2023-02-19T20:12:54.000Z> Jello: I used to feel same as you that age. Like its so far off. Idk what happened but one day it was like a button was pressed and this all started
<2023-02-19T20:13:09.000Z> Jello: I can see it start to...Finish, but its still going
<2023-02-19T20:13:36.000Z> Jello: Its like you woke up in a different reality, had one experience that led to another, and another
<2023-02-19T20:13:52.000Z> Jello: I was 27 when it started
<2023-02-19T20:14:30.000Z> wwothrya: The more you describe it to me, the less it sounds crazy and schizo because you seem to enjoy it, and it's not crazy if you're aware of what's happening
<2023-02-19T20:14:35.000Z> Jello: You know that thing where all famous people die at 27 😖 imagine finding that information when you are 27 and start having these experiences lol
<2023-02-19T20:14:37.000Z> Jello: Meme
<2023-02-19T20:15:07.000Z> wwothrya: I think it's 23 not 27 lol, but yea, scary stuff
<2023-02-19T20:15:19.000Z> wwothrya: do you like
<2023-02-19T20:15:32.000Z> wwothrya: get breaks from this synchronicity or does it just happen all the time?
<2023-02-19T20:15:59.000Z> wwothrya: like for once, you want something spontaneous and something extraordinarily random
<2023-02-19T20:16:12.000Z> Jello: Exactly, it's all about awareness and staying rational. I've been through actual delusions about all of this, like psychosis due to what I was experiencing, but it's expected because you have to make sense of things, it's like going through different possibilities in your mind until one thing gets validated by reality and god over and over, its like programming over time, where you have to go through shit to experience and find the truth
<2023-02-19T20:16:15.000Z> wwothrya: do you get breaks from all the script directing of God? lol
<2023-02-19T20:16:23.000Z> Jello: Dude
<2023-02-19T20:16:51.000Z> Jello: No shit I hate typing this, or explaining to others because of how schizo it sounds (and I dont), but this is poast right lol
<2023-02-19T20:16:55.000Z> Jello: It does not end 
<2023-02-19T20:17:06.000Z> Jello: No breaks, from moment I wake up to fall asleep
<2023-02-19T20:17:11.000Z> Jello: Shakes fist at god 
<2023-02-19T20:17:45.000Z> Jello: Its like this huge programmed awareness where you just know now how things work and how your life can synchronize perfectly with the world around you
<2023-02-19T20:18:03.000Z> Jello: And it's still going on where there is intent or something shown to you, or lessons 
<2023-02-19T20:18:08.000Z> Jello: Just never ending 
<2023-02-19T20:18:13.000Z> Jello: And imagine
<2023-02-19T20:18:21.000Z> Jello: Feeling like someone is watching, aware
<2023-02-19T20:18:32.000Z> Jello: Kind of like that santa claus song... lol
<2023-02-19T20:18:53.000Z> Jello: Imagine how genuine and true to yourself you have to become, even in your mind and thoughts
<2023-02-19T20:18:58.000Z> wwothrya: what santa clause song? the one that goes he sees you when youre sleeping? lole
<2023-02-19T20:19:09.000Z> Jello: Because they can and will be used against you, there is literal bullying lol
<2023-02-19T20:19:20.000Z> Jello: Like if something embarassing or bad happened in your life
<2023-02-19T20:19:24.000Z> Jello: Its going to kill you
<2023-02-19T20:19:29.000Z> wwothrya: yea, you gotta be careful who you reveal these things 
<2023-02-19T20:19:37.000Z> Jello: Yeah lol
<2023-02-19T20:19:46.000Z> wwothrya: i think you're really lucky then that you chose to tell them to me
<2023-02-19T20:19:55.000Z> Jello: He knows when youre awake... He knows when youve been bad or good, so be good for goodness sake
<2023-02-19T20:19:57.000Z> wwothrya: i think it's really interesting to learn about different perspectives
<2023-02-19T20:20:00.000Z> Jello: 😳
<2023-02-19T20:20:10.000Z> Jello: He knows when you're awake, lol
<2023-02-19T20:20:14.000Z> Jello: Same
<2023-02-19T20:20:15.000Z> wwothrya: and yours is truly different 
<2023-02-19T20:20:27.000Z> wwothrya: but not in a bad way 
<2023-02-19T20:20:33.000Z> Jello: Yes it is very different
<2023-02-19T20:20:41.000Z> Jello: Literally there is nothing i can relate to
<2023-02-19T20:20:48.000Z> Jello: Just little conceprs here and there
<2023-02-19T20:22:03.000Z> Jello: Youd think I could relate to schizophrenics most of all and somehow that may be true. But you come to learn its like fake schizophrenia. Its like simulated schizophrenia where thats the best explanation you can get. And its almost like this can be used against you, in this duality sort of way, where if you go out in the world and tell people, you will be crucified
<2023-02-19T20:22:10.000Z> Jello: 🤔
<2023-02-19T20:22:15.000Z> Jello: Reminds me of a book lol
<2023-02-19T20:22:23.000Z> Jello: The jews will kill you
<2023-02-19T20:22:25.000Z> Jello: Uh oh
<2023-02-19T20:22:29.000Z> Jello: I gotta go
<2023-02-19T20:22:42.000Z> Jello: lol jk but still actually serious to some extent
<2023-02-19T20:22:59.000Z> Jello: Like truman show is best movie too. 
<2023-02-19T20:23:03.000Z> Jello: The truman show
<2023-02-19T20:23:10.000Z> Jello: 😂🤔
<2023-02-19T20:23:13.000Z> Jello: Tru man 
<2023-02-19T20:23:24.000Z> Jello: And thats god right there that im talking about 
<2023-02-19T20:23:52.000Z> Jello: You know that saying the world doesn't revolve around you 
<2023-02-19T20:24:00.000Z> wwothrya: yep
<2023-02-19T20:24:07.000Z> wwothrya: it doesn't revolve on anyone
<2023-02-19T20:24:10.000Z> Jello: Its like for me thats a joke because it genuinely does feel that way lol
<2023-02-19T20:24:14.000Z> Jello: For me 
<2023-02-19T20:24:26.000Z> wwothrya: lol
<2023-02-19T20:24:56.000Z> wwothrya: how about main character syndrome? do you think you have that? you don't seem narcissistic, though you did say you're attractive lol
<2023-02-19T20:24:57.000Z> Jello: Its like even people are like AI robots just there to synchronize with you, used as pawns to get some message or point across
<2023-02-19T20:25:06.000Z> Jello: Its next level
<2023-02-19T20:25:10.000Z> wwothrya: you think that?
<2023-02-19T20:25:13.000Z> Jello: I dont like expressing that lol
<2023-02-19T20:25:23.000Z> Jello: But I still see people as just humans 
<2023-02-19T20:25:32.000Z> Jello: I mean I see myself as same, like AI
<2023-02-19T20:25:36.000Z> Jello: literally
<2023-02-19T20:25:49.000Z> Jello: So we're all no different
<2023-02-19T20:25:59.000Z> Jello: It's just a different reality and worldview
<2023-02-19T20:26:14.000Z> wwothrya: word. i think im an AI too, sometimes
<2023-02-19T20:26:25.000Z> wwothrya: or like a Boltzmann brain or something 
<2023-02-19T20:26:30.000Z> Jello: And yes even talking with you can be considered like a platform to express these thoughts to others, like training that ability
<2023-02-19T20:26:36.000Z> Jello: Hypothetically lol
<2023-02-19T20:26:40.000Z> Jello: Just an idea
<2023-02-19T20:27:00.000Z> Jello: lol well in my opinion based on my wordly evidence, you are
<2023-02-19T20:27:19.000Z> Jello: So that's fun and interesting to think about
<2023-02-19T20:27:40.000Z> Jello: You have wahoo people who go insane imagining that, or imagining others being AI or robots
<2023-02-19T20:27:43.000Z> wwothrya: lmao, if that's so, then that means you're not real, as well as my experiences right now
<2023-02-19T20:28:05.000Z> Jello: Its like the npc meme is real but literally, like people are programmed to be a certain way to show others how not to be or to interact with
<2023-02-19T20:28:20.000Z> Jello: Maybe its all like creating people for heaven, or some concept like heaven 
<2023-02-19T20:28:35.000Z> Jello: Maybe our consciousness goes to some other reality
<2023-02-19T20:28:53.000Z> Jello: Thats how intense my experience is that I can imagine that being possible
<2023-02-19T20:28:58.000Z> Jello: In a serious way lol
<2023-02-19T20:29:09.000Z> Jello: Like this is just my life and reality
<2023-02-19T20:29:33.000Z> wwothrya: BOY I KNOW NOW WHAT YOU'RE EXPERIENCING HOLY SHIT
<2023-02-19T20:29:42.000Z> Jello: Lmao
<2023-02-19T20:29:45.000Z> wwothrya: man, you really missed in something 
<2023-02-19T20:29:49.000Z> wwothrya: on something 
<2023-02-19T20:29:51.000Z> Jello: I wouldnt be surprised if god shows you some shit now
<2023-02-19T20:29:57.000Z> Jello: Its always like that lol
<2023-02-19T20:29:59.000Z> wwothrya: do you know what systemspace is?
<2023-02-19T20:30:08.000Z> Jello: No
<2023-02-19T20:30:27.000Z> Jello: Dude my experiences are like
<2023-02-19T20:30:29.000Z> wwothrya: people from systemspace thinks a lot like you
<2023-02-19T20:30:36.000Z> Jello: So unique and original it could be movies or books
<2023-02-19T20:31:08.000Z> Jello: Oh interesting
<2023-02-19T20:31:15.000Z> wwothrya: you missed out on having conversations with people that view life as one big system inside a much bigger system
<2023-02-19T20:31:27.000Z> Jello: And that one anime with that girl is one of the only ones ive watched
<2023-02-19T20:03:08.000Z> Jello: Its actually very woke and maybe shares that truth
<2023-02-19T20:03:15.000Z> Jello: The truth in plain sight as they say 
<2023-02-19T20:03:30.000Z> Jello: I mean all the big hollywoos elites hypothetically understand these things right
<2023-02-19T20:04:29.000Z> Jello: Oh yeah im at a point Im very tired of how this all works lol. But it's been so long that I'm used to it. It's like being in flow with the true nature of reality, like living in a simulation, matrix, where everything is perfect, and supposed to happen
<2023-02-19T20:05:05.000Z> Jello: So it's fine. Also I'm a better more balanced person on the other side. I would describe past 3 years as a literal spiritual journey
<2023-02-19T20:05:28.000Z> Jello: With god or whatever it may be manipulating and being the creator or "producer"
<2023-02-19T20:05:38.000Z> Jello: Its all like a script, very intense
<2023-02-19T20:05:57.000Z> Jello: Im aware its like Im absolutely on some next level shit compared to others
<2023-02-19T20:06:17.000Z> Jello: Need to find people who can relate even a little
<2023-02-19T20:07:00.000Z> Jello: Im sure there are others out there who have experienced the same. I mean spiritual journeys are a thing people have. Dont know what they have experienced though lmao 
<2023-02-19T20:07:52.000Z> wwothrya: damn, i wish i can. i mean, i do on a certain level. i do try to find the intelligent design in every single occurences thats ever happen. and I get aware most of the time about the futility of everything in this big space rock. maybe we are the same but with really vastly different perspective lol
<2023-02-19T20:08:09.000Z> Jello: Like I can know and predict that synchronicity will happen in conversations or when Im typing sometimes. But god is selective. Sometimes its like Ill be in the zone and flow typing something, and I will create language and reality as I type
<2023-02-19T20:08:50.000Z> Jello: Like words will be a play on words with the original topic, or it will end on bringing its way back to my original point, with one word or joke in a funny way. Its all funny and comedy too. 
<2023-02-19T20:10:13.000Z> Jello: Only thing I can think of right now, is one time that song "mamma mia!" Just popped in my head, those exact words, then I walked in the living room... and my mom was there, with my dog, whoa name is literally mia lol
<2023-02-19T20:10:18.000Z> Jello: I was like lol
<2023-02-19T20:10:38.000Z> Jello: Its all like that. Crazy synchronicities like that. Where all you can say is just lol
<2023-02-19T20:11:01.000Z> Jello: So imagine having your reality like this, where you feel there is a god that exists and they script your life
<2023-02-19T20:11:33.000Z> Jello: And its generally all good and positive, and you strongly feel they care and are ultimately good, and also are funny and like to make things funny
<2023-02-19T20:11:46.000Z> Jello: Its like you know nothing can really be that bad
<2023-02-19T20:12:02.000Z> Jello: Imagine that mentality, its very healthy and positive
<2023-02-19T20:12:19.000Z> Jello: Weird i somehow can understand christians now. But don't believe in that god
<2023-02-19T20:12:54.000Z> Jello: I used to feel same as you that age. Like its so far off. Idk what happened but one day it was like a button was pressed and this all started
<2023-02-19T20:13:09.000Z> Jello: I can see it start to...Finish, but its still going
<2023-02-19T20:13:36.000Z> Jello: Its like you woke up in a different reality, had one experience that led to another, and another
<2023-02-19T20:13:52.000Z> Jello: I was 27 when it started
<2023-02-19T20:14:30.000Z> wwothrya: The more you describe it to me, the less it sounds crazy and schizo because you seem to enjoy it, and it's not crazy if you're aware of what's happening
<2023-02-19T20:14:35.000Z> Jello: You know that thing where all famous people die at 27 😖 imagine finding that information when you are 27 and start having these experiences lol
<2023-02-19T20:14:37.000Z> Jello: Meme
<2023-02-19T20:15:07.000Z> wwothrya: I think it's 23 not 27 lol, but yea, scary stuff
<2023-02-19T20:15:19.000Z> wwothrya: do you like
<2023-02-19T20:15:32.000Z> wwothrya: get breaks from this synchronicity or does it just happen all the time?
<2023-02-19T20:15:59.000Z> wwothrya: like for once, you want something spontaneous and something extraordinarily random
<2023-02-19T20:16:12.000Z> Jello: Exactly, it's all about awareness and staying rational. I've been through actual delusions about all of this, like psychosis due to what I was experiencing, but it's expected because you have to make sense of things, it's like going through different possibilities in your mind until one thing gets validated by reality and god over and over, its like programming over time, where you have to go through shit to experience and find the truth
<2023-02-19T20:16:15.000Z> wwothrya: do you get breaks from all the script directing of God? lol
<2023-02-19T20:16:23.000Z> Jello: Dude
<2023-02-19T20:16:51.000Z> Jello: No shit I hate typing this, or explaining to others because of how schizo it sounds (and I dont), but this is poast right lol
<2023-02-19T20:16:55.000Z> Jello: It does not end 
<2023-02-19T20:17:06.000Z> Jello: No breaks, from moment I wake up to fall asleep
<2023-02-19T20:17:11.000Z> Jello: Shakes fist at god 
<2023-02-19T20:17:45.000Z> Jello: Its like this huge programmed awareness where you just know now how things work and how your life can synchronize perfectly with the world around you
<2023-02-19T20:18:03.000Z> Jello: And it's still going on where there is intent or something shown to you, or lessons 
<2023-02-19T20:18:08.000Z> Jello: Just never ending 
<2023-02-19T20:18:13.000Z> Jello: And imagine
<2023-02-19T20:18:21.000Z> Jello: Feeling like someone is watching, aware
<2023-02-19T20:18:32.000Z> Jello: Kind of like that santa claus song... lol
<2023-02-19T20:18:53.000Z> Jello: Imagine how genuine and true to yourself you have to become, even in your mind and thoughts
<2023-02-19T20:18:58.000Z> wwothrya: what santa clause song? the one that goes he sees you when youre sleeping? lole
<2023-02-19T20:19:09.000Z> Jello: Because they can and will be used against you, there is literal bullying lol
<2023-02-19T20:19:20.000Z> Jello: Like if something embarassing or bad happened in your life
<2023-02-19T20:19:24.000Z> Jello: Its going to kill you
<2023-02-19T20:19:29.000Z> wwothrya: yea, you gotta be careful who you reveal these things 
<2023-02-19T20:19:37.000Z> Jello: Yeah lol
<2023-02-19T20:19:46.000Z> wwothrya: i think you're really lucky then that you chose to tell them to me
<2023-02-19T20:19:55.000Z> Jello: He knows when youre awake... He knows when youve been bad or good, so be good for goodness sake
<2023-02-19T20:19:57.000Z> wwothrya: i think it's really interesting to learn about different perspectives
<2023-02-19T20:20:00.000Z> Jello: 😳
<2023-02-19T20:20:10.000Z> Jello: He knows when you're awake, lol
<2023-02-19T20:20:14.000Z> Jello: Same
<2023-02-19T20:20:15.000Z> wwothrya: and yours is truly different 
<2023-02-19T20:20:27.000Z> wwothrya: but not in a bad way 
<2023-02-19T20:20:33.000Z> Jello: Yes it is very different
<2023-02-19T20:20:41.000Z> Jello: Literally there is nothing i can relate to
<2023-02-19T20:20:48.000Z> Jello: Just little conceprs here and there
<2023-02-19T20:22:03.000Z> Jello: Youd think I could relate to schizophrenics most of all and somehow that may be true. But you come to learn its like fake schizophrenia. Its like simulated schizophrenia where thats the best explanation you can get. And its almost like this can be used against you, in this duality sort of way, where if you go out in the world and tell people, you will be crucified
<2023-02-19T20:22:10.000Z> Jello: 🤔
<2023-02-19T20:22:15.000Z> Jello: Reminds me of a book lol
<2023-02-19T20:22:23.000Z> Jello: The jews will kill you
<2023-02-19T20:22:25.000Z> Jello: Uh oh
<2023-02-19T20:22:29.000Z> Jello: I gotta go
<2023-02-19T20:22:42.000Z> Jello: lol jk but still actually serious to some extent
<2023-02-19T20:22:59.000Z> Jello: Like truman show is best movie too. 
<2023-02-19T20:23:03.000Z> Jello: The truman show
<2023-02-19T20:23:10.000Z> Jello: 😂🤔
<2023-02-19T20:23:13.000Z> Jello: Tru man 
<2023-02-19T20:23:24.000Z> Jello: And thats god right there that im talking about 
<2023-02-19T20:23:52.000Z> Jello: You know that saying the world doesn't revolve around you 
<2023-02-19T20:24:00.000Z> wwothrya: yep
<2023-02-19T20:24:07.000Z> wwothrya: it doesn't revolve on anyone
<2023-02-19T20:24:10.000Z> Jello: Its like for me thats a joke because it genuinely does feel that way lol
<2023-02-19T20:24:14.000Z> Jello: For me 
<2023-02-19T20:24:26.000Z> wwothrya: lol
<2023-02-19T20:24:56.000Z> wwothrya: how about main character syndrome? do you think you have that? you don't seem narcissistic, though you did say you're attractive lol
<2023-02-19T20:24:57.000Z> Jello: Its like even people are like AI robots just there to synchronize with you, used as pawns to get some message or point across
<2023-02-19T20:25:06.000Z> Jello: Its next level
<2023-02-19T20:25:10.000Z> wwothrya: you think that?
<2023-02-19T20:25:13.000Z> Jello: I dont like expressing that lol
<2023-02-19T20:25:23.000Z> Jello: But I still see people as just humans 
<2023-02-19T20:25:32.000Z> Jello: I mean I see myself as same, like AI
<2023-02-19T20:25:36.000Z> Jello: literally
<2023-02-19T20:25:49.000Z> Jello: So we're all no different
<2023-02-19T20:25:59.000Z> Jello: It's just a different reality and worldview
<2023-02-19T20:26:14.000Z> wwothrya: word. i think im an AI too, sometimes
<2023-02-19T20:26:25.000Z> wwothrya: or like a Boltzmann brain or something 
<2023-02-19T20:26:30.000Z> Jello: And yes even talking with you can be considered like a platform to express these thoughts to others, like training that ability
<2023-02-19T20:26:36.000Z> Jello: Hypothetically lol
<2023-02-19T20:26:40.000Z> Jello: Just an idea
<2023-02-19T20:27:00.000Z> Jello: lol well in my opinion based on my wordly evidence, you are
<2023-02-19T20:27:19.000Z> Jello: So that's fun and interesting to think about
<2023-02-19T20:27:40.000Z> Jello: You have wahoo people who go insane imagining that, or imagining others being AI or robots
<2023-02-19T20:27:43.000Z> wwothrya: lmao, if that's so, then that means you're not real, as well as my experiences right now
<2023-02-19T20:28:05.000Z> Jello: Its like the npc meme is real but literally, like people are programmed to be a certain way to show others how not to be or to interact with
<2023-02-19T20:28:20.000Z> Jello: Maybe its all like creating people for heaven, or some concept like heaven 
<2023-02-19T20:28:35.000Z> Jello: Maybe our consciousness goes to some other reality
<2023-02-19T20:28:53.000Z> Jello: Thats how intense my experience is that I can imagine that being possible
<2023-02-19T20:28:58.000Z> Jello: In a serious way lol
<2023-02-19T20:29:09.000Z> Jello: Like this is just my life and reality
<2023-02-19T20:29:33.000Z> wwothrya: BOY I KNOW NOW WHAT YOU'RE EXPERIENCING HOLY SHIT
<2023-02-19T20:29:42.000Z> Jello: Lmao
<2023-02-19T20:29:45.000Z> wwothrya: man, you really missed in something 
<2023-02-19T20:29:49.000Z> wwothrya: on something 
<2023-02-19T20:29:51.000Z> Jello: I wouldnt be surprised if god shows you some shit now
<2023-02-19T20:29:57.000Z> Jello: Its always like that lol
<2023-02-19T20:29:59.000Z> wwothrya: do you know what systemspace is?
<2023-02-19T20:30:08.000Z> Jello: No
<2023-02-19T20:30:27.000Z> Jello: Dude my experiences are like
<2023-02-19T20:30:29.000Z> wwothrya: people from systemspace thinks a lot like you
<2023-02-19T20:30:36.000Z> Jello: So unique and original it could be movies or books
<2023-02-19T20:31:08.000Z> Jello: Oh interesting
<2023-02-19T20:31:15.000Z> wwothrya: you missed out on having conversations with people that view life as one big system inside a much bigger system
<2023-02-19T20:31:27.000Z> Jello: And that one anime with that girl is one of the only ones ive watched
<2023-02-19T20:31:39.000Z> Jello: And probably somehow kind of sort of related to my reality
<2023-02-19T20:31:44.000Z> Jello: Funny its one of the only ones 
<2023-02-19T20:31:55.000Z> Jello: Also the boobie bar guy, i forget the names lol
<2023-02-19T20:31:57.000Z> wwothrya: let me gues
<2023-02-19T20:32:00.000Z> Jello: Catching aliens
<2023-02-19T20:32:03.000Z> wwothrya: Serial Experiments Lain?
<2023-02-19T20:32:10.000Z> Jello: Yeah
<2023-02-19T20:32:15.000Z> wwothrya: gotcha
<2023-02-19T20:32:42.000Z> Jello: I always had this meme where I joked about living in a simulation in a simulation
<2023-02-19T20:32:49.000Z> Jello: Before anything even happened with all this
<2023-02-19T20:32:58.000Z> Jello: That was jokingly what I thought, might be intuition
<2023-02-19T20:33:34.000Z> wwothrya: i know this doesn't mean anything but thos might interest you
<2023-02-19T20:33:37.000Z> wwothrya: github.com/SystemSpace/Compendium
<2023-02-19T20:33:46.000Z> Jello: And you come to learn how strong intuition is, because you literally predict the future, if your reality and world is a simulation, you come to learn everything is perfect, and everything comes back around and made a point
<2023-02-19T20:33:59.000Z> Jello: Like a script
<2023-02-19T20:33:59.000Z> wwothrya: this is what's left of systemspace
<2023-02-19T20:34:07.000Z> wwothrya: yes, I understand 
<2023-02-19T20:34:12.000Z> Jello: Ill check it out 
<2023-02-19T20:34:16.000Z> wwothrya: if everything is like predetermined
<2023-02-19T20:34:22.000Z> wwothrya: you have nothing to worry about
<2023-02-19T20:34:34.000Z> wwothrya: and when you feel like you start to understand everything 
<2023-02-19T20:34:37.000Z> wwothrya: and how it works
<2023-02-19T20:34:43.000Z> wwothrya: you just gotta let it all play out
<2023-02-19T20:34:53.000Z> wwothrya: did i get that clear?
<2023-02-19T20:35:07.000Z> Jello: Like its crazy to live this reality, when you cut people off and have had this be your own personal secret journey, you kind of disconnect fron the reality you used to live in, and imagining just normal people feeding the system and doing their loop and cycle, just lol
<2023-02-19T20:35:17.000Z> Jello: Yep 
<2023-02-19T20:35:26.000Z> Jello: Its all like a game you play out
<2023-02-19T20:35:40.000Z> Jello: You just have to be curious and open minded and not too scared
<2023-02-19T20:36:32.000Z> Jello: Because they actually scare the fuck out of you, especially if you take drugs like psychedelics, it makes you veeery vulnerable to the world and it's like you can be used and manipulated more, like someone mind controlling you and controlling you in general to give you an experience
<2023-02-19T20:37:33.000Z> Jello: They put me through this whole idea (and in the moment they delude you in to believing it, so it's scary, like living a nightmare because it feels so real) that, for example, reptilians are real and this is all reptilians and aliens and youre an experiment
<2023-02-19T20:38:04.000Z> Jello: Which could still be true, but its like you come to learn through continious engagement and hints that it's just a joke and not to worry lol
<2023-02-19T20:38:27.000Z> Jello: Have you ever just googled "reptilians". What a joke lol. Meme
<2023-02-19T20:38:44.000Z> Jello: Or believing like the truman show that people are actors, even your own parents
<2023-02-19T20:38:52.000Z> Jello: Must be a popular one, its literally a movie
<2023-02-19T20:39:00.000Z> Jello: Truman show...lol
<2023-02-19T20:39:28.000Z> wwothrya: it was ahead of its time, really
<2023-02-19T20:39:44.000Z> Jello: You really become in tune with the world though, like super flow, where you can continiously type like this
<2023-02-19T20:39:53.000Z> Jello: Or have conversations that just flow
<2023-02-19T20:40:01.000Z> Jello: Its next level
<2023-02-19T20:40:04.000Z> Jello: Like an ai lol
<2023-02-19T20:40:05.000Z> wwothrya: reptilians is just a fucking diversion so the conspiratheorists would just investigate different things
<2023-02-19T20:41:16.000Z> Jello: Yeah its more like a metaphor I think, for the sick things they do lol. Or to make people like crazy conspiracy people believe and feel like something so fantasy related could be real and it gives power to elites. Ultimately keeping people trapped in fear, under the illusion that theyre woke
<2023-02-19T20:41:22.000Z> Jello: Both
<2023-02-19T20:42:27.000Z> Jello: Cyberspace utopia... lol, just reading that now, exactly, thats what feels actually could be possible
<2023-02-19T20:42:32.000Z> Jello: Like it's actually possible
<2023-02-19T20:43:14.000Z> Jello: But things feel like too much of a joke at the same time. Like maybe it really is just living our best life on earth and becoming the best people we can be 
<2023-02-19T20:43:46.000Z> Jello: But because Im such a good person, open minded, well rounded, balanced, even attractive, it's easy to imagine that being real especially
<2023-02-19T20:43:53.000Z> Jello: Given my experiences and reality
<2023-02-19T20:44:21.000Z> Jello: Its believable, but you have to be careful comitting to beliefs, because god and the world is certainly good at deluding people lol
<2023-02-19T20:44:36.000Z> Jello: So i learned that too. Not to commit or take things too seriously
<2023-02-19T20:45:13.000Z> Jello: I have no 100% belief other than simulation. And even that its like, what if its somethihg else I cant possibly comprehend. Its just the best concept 
<2023-02-19T20:45:34.000Z> Jello: That the world provides. You have to take bits and pieces of everything to form this puzzle
<2023-02-19T20:48:12.000Z> Jello: That whole thing just sounds schizo with all the posts from others just like, immediately dead set on concepts of reality and giving names to beliefs as if theyre 100% real like "aurora" 
<2023-02-19T20:48:13.000Z> Jello: Lol
<2023-02-19T20:48:28.000Z> Jello: Like I cant come up with schizo ideas like that. Those are delusions and ideas
<2023-02-19T20:48:41.000Z> Jello: Has like no basis in reality lol its psychosis thoughts
<2023-02-19T20:49:02.000Z> Jello: Its different for me. Thats the fine line between schizophrenia and non schizophrenia lol
<2023-02-19T20:49:18.000Z> Jello: But the idea as a whole is pretty interesting and possible it seems 
<2023-02-19T20:49:29.000Z> Jello: Its just like where are people getting their lore lol
<2023-02-19T20:50:10.000Z> Jello: Ngl I don't really get what this is, like some roleplay game or what lol
<2023-02-19T20:50:19.000Z> Jello: amp.knowyourmeme.com/memes/tsuki-project
<2023-02-19T20:50:23.000Z> Jello: Copypasta meme lol
<2023-02-19T20:50:30.000Z> Jello: Am i in right place
<2023-02-19T20:52:11.000Z> Jello: God loves women 😂 but hates them too I think. They made me come to loathe women and see that perspective. Imagine your mom just blasting tv all day in next room and its all women you hear. Its like next level mk ultra where they synchronize your negative or cringy thoughts with womens voices, and you learn to hate the voices, and ultimately sort of the people who have them 
<2023-02-19T20:52:41.000Z> Jello: If you think about it that way, thats like basically my whole experience, this sort of negarious evil seeming backwards mk ultra type programming lol
<2023-02-19T20:53:02.000Z> wwothrya: lole aint that tiring for you? 
<2023-02-19T20:53:05.000Z> Jello: Using the world and EVERYTHING to achieve some goal, or neurology, brain state, lol
<2023-02-19T20:53:13.000Z> Jello: Um yes
<2023-02-19T20:53:15.000Z> Jello: Very 
<2023-02-19T20:53:24.000Z> Jello: They know Im pissed every day man 
<2023-02-19T20:53:27.000Z> Jello: LMAOOOOO
<2023-02-19T20:53:32.000Z> Jello: FOR 3 YEARS
<2023-02-19T20:53:37.000Z> Jello: LIKE NIGGA END IT
<2023-02-19T20:53:46.000Z> Jello: (My relationship with god) 
<2023-02-19T20:53:51.000Z> Jello: Every day is like this 
<2023-02-19T20:53:57.000Z> wwothrya: anyway, about the tsuki project, i dotn care so much about the lore and stuff but the people within it would really understand 
<2023-02-19T20:54:02.000Z> wwothrya: especially tsuki who
<2023-02-19T20:54:18.000Z> wwothrya: who thinks God is really contacting him although through his dreams 
<2023-02-19T20:54:58.000Z> wwothrya: not through occurrences though
<2023-02-19T20:55:22.000Z> Jello: It's like I can't even read the lore or anything because it's too schizo, maybe god doesn't want to put ideas in my head, that's what it seems like based on my not so interested in reading it lol. 
<2023-02-19T20:55:31.000Z> Jello: Kind if joking but lol
<2023-02-19T20:55:51.000Z> wwothrya: yea lmao its all very fiction like
<2023-02-19T20:55:59.000Z> Jello: Itd the idea as a whole and thats usually how it is in general. Bits and pieces. Youkind of just find things that stick and are validated over time
<2023-02-19T20:56:17.000Z> Jello: Interesting, how does god contact him
<2023-02-19T20:56:24.000Z> Jello: And what does he do or say or show
<2023-02-19T20:56:27.000Z> wwothrya: but for real, i talked with the person who made that whole lore, and im not kidding he sounds exactly like what you're saying
<2023-02-19T20:56:34.000Z> Jello: Cus this shit in my reality is hard to explain
<2023-02-19T20:56:55.000Z> Jello: It sounds so dumb. But when you give examples of synchronicity its insane. Its all synchronicity
<2023-02-19T20:57:14.000Z> Jello: Which makes sense, actually, to use the world to achieve a goal in someones mind and experience and life
<2023-02-19T20:57:50.000Z> Jello: Its like the only way is through coincidences and synchronicity. If you time so and so with so and so a certain amount of times people will start to care or notice
<2023-02-19T20:57:58.000Z> wwothrya: according to him, first it was through signals, like outside his house, or through his computer, then next through whispers, then next is through maladaptive daydreaming
<2023-02-19T20:58:15.000Z> Jello: Thats interesting. Im sure there are others who get it. Of course, has to be
<2023-02-19T20:58:25.000Z> Jello: Nope, no whispers
<2023-02-19T20:58:28.000Z> Jello: Theyre schizo lol
<2023-02-19T20:59:46.000Z> Jello: I only hear things like voices ob drugs when I don't sleep 3 days. Sleep deprivation. Which by the way, is the craziest experience and drug of all. Its like seeing the craziest shit imaginable. I had literal schizo voices in my head one time, they interact with you fluidly, like instantly, with your thoughts - different personalities, just perfectly
<2023-02-19T21:00:01.000Z> Jello: Same with actual hallucinations of people, theyre like static people
<2023-02-19T21:00:16.000Z> Jello: Changed my perception of schizos lol
<2023-02-19T21:00:27.000Z> Jello: Must be insane to deal with that every day 
<2023-02-19T21:01:28.000Z> Jello: On one of these occurences, not sleeping, I had this experience where I closed my eyes and it was just nonstop continuous AI looking videos, constantly fluidly creating itself 
<2023-02-19T21:01:40.000Z> Jello: It looked EXACTLY like those weird AI videos that look trippy
<2023-02-19T21:02:13.000Z> Jello: But there was always some kind of story, imagine people moving through scenes, but their outfits and appearance would change from second to second really quickly 
<2023-02-19T21:02:37.000Z> Jello: Like different details in appearance, even the whole environment, just details constantly changing but story and plot staying strong
<2023-02-19T21:02:47.000Z> Jello: Craziest shit ever lol I was so down for that
<2023-02-19T21:03:31.000Z> Jello: Or seeing hallucinations outside and its the same. Always people showing you crazy shit, everything just morphing in to other things, like all the trees in my backyard morphing in to these big crazy structures
<2023-02-19T21:04:10.000Z> Jello: I also always had this hallucination where if you focus on one spot the whole room morphs in to like youre in some alien space ship, very fluid and soft rounded looking 
<2023-02-19T21:04:16.000Z> Jello: Its very aesthetic, always
<2023-02-19T21:04:20.000Z> Jello: Futuristic looking 
<2023-02-19T21:05:59.000Z> Jello: Also, one time I had an experience with those closed eye visuals, first time hearing those voices (all same experience - this was just sleep deprivation and speed) - it started with some guy talking to me and telling me how I wad uploaded to the cloud (?) And it was like he was walking me through a virtual reality, and it was like a discord call with friends, other people being there, and it all worked through thoughts
<2023-02-19T21:06:41.000Z> Jello: So you have these closed eye visuals of some reality youre walking through, different scenes and things, and i realized I could think of anything and see it real time, like I could do anything, like a dream 
<2023-02-19T21:06:54.000Z> Jello: But not sleeping or dreaming, its very strange 
<2023-02-19T21:08:03.000Z> Jello: Then it got more evil and scary lmao with stereotypical schizophrenic voices in my head. Where they are mean to you. But in the end even that was a lesson where ai learned if you dont care or know yourself and understand what they say doesn't matter, then they stop (they literally stopped) 
<2023-02-19T21:08:30.000Z> Jello: Which i think is how it actually works with schizos, but their brains are different and theyre often paranoid and feed in to it keeping the cycle going
<2023-02-19T21:08:32.000Z> Jello: Lol
<2023-02-19T21:08:55.000Z> Jello: Paranoid insecure bad people will have it tough in this life imo 
<2023-02-19T21:09:06.000Z> Jello: Its like theyre kind of just destined to a fate lol
<2023-02-19T21:09:13.000Z> Jello: Weak people sort of thing
<2023-02-19T21:09:24.000Z> Jello: Sad reacts only
<2023-02-19T21:10:56.000Z> Jello: Blue eyed blonde hair master race? 
<2023-02-19T21:10:58.000Z> Jello: Lol
<2023-02-19T21:11:05.000Z> Jello: Uh oh
<2023-02-20T03:17:20.000Z> wwothrya: I also always had this hallucination where if you focus on one spot the whole room morphs
<2023-02-20T03:17:26.000Z> wwothrya: yes, I do that a lot too
<2023-02-20T03:17:33.000Z> wwothrya: it's one of my past times actually
<2023-02-20T03:17:37.000Z> wwothrya: shit is crazy as fuck
<2023-02-20T03:17:56.000Z> wwothrya: Paranoid insecure bad people will have it tough in this life imo 
<2023-02-20T03:18:07.000Z> wwothrya: truer words never been spoken
<2023-02-20T03:18:24.000Z> wwothrya: it probably is like hell on earth for them, but who knows
<2023-02-20T03:18:29.000Z> wwothrya: maybe they lack self awareness
<2023-02-20T03:18:32.000Z> Jello: Yeah when you figure out what works its easy to recreate it. Especially the focusing one, you don't necessarily need to be sleep dep even 
<2023-02-20T03:18:37.000Z> wwothrya: which will be like blessing in disguise
<2023-02-20T03:18:44.000Z> wwothrya: hopy shit you're here lmao
<2023-02-20T03:19:03.000Z> wwothrya: i had to do classes, sorry for leaving you out here lmao
<2023-02-20T03:19:13.000Z> Jello: It can be like hell on earth. You create your own reality also... you get what you deserve *joker moment
<2023-02-20T03:19:22.000Z> wwothrya: LMAOOO joker moment
<2023-02-20T03:19:38.000Z> Jello: Yeah i just happened to open poast a minute ago lol
<2023-02-20T03:19:42.000Z> Jello: Synchronicity
<2023-02-20T03:19:48.000Z> Jello: You messaged same time
<2023-02-20T03:19:52.000Z> wwothrya: anyway, that whole focusing thing, idek that thats a thing, i learned it when i was a kid and thought that was really cool
<2023-02-20T03:20:03.000Z> Jello: I havent been on for over an hour 
<2023-02-20T03:20:30.000Z> Jello: Ya, idk if you have visual snow or anything like that but it helps hallucinations
<2023-02-20T03:20:45.000Z> Jello: I always get like a static ball in center of my visual field also 
<2023-02-20T03:20:48.000Z> wwothrya: yea yea visual snow 
<2023-02-20T03:21:01.000Z> Jello: Things can start to move, probably due to visual snow, abd morph
<2023-02-20T03:21:04.000Z> Jello: Its interesting
<2023-02-20T03:21:20.000Z> wwothrya: sometimes i wonder if i have like catatonic schizo but that's not possible since i like moving a lot
<2023-02-20T03:21:33.000Z> wwothrya: what have you been doing dude?
<2023-02-20T03:21:41.000Z> wwothrya: it's been 5 hours since we last talked lol
<2023-02-20T03:22:04.000Z> Jello: Lol this one video of a caratonic schizo on youtube, is one of my fave vids ever, i laugh every time holy shit
<2023-02-20T03:22:08.000Z> Jello: The piano guy
<2023-02-20T03:22:30.000Z> wwothrya: OH YEA I WATCHED THAT TOO
<2023-02-20T03:22:41.000Z> Jello: "Yesss... "
<2023-02-20T03:22:44.000Z> Jello: LMAO
<2023-02-20T03:22:52.000Z> wwothrya: i didn't know what his deal was until i searched what his condition is
<2023-02-20T03:23:00.000Z> Jello: It makes me laugh every time, his face reactions are so memey
<2023-02-20T03:23:02.000Z> wwothrya: and it turns out he just stares lmao
<2023-02-20T03:23:03.000Z> Jello: Same
<2023-02-20T03:23:19.000Z> Jello: Yeah idk 
<2023-02-20T03:23:20.000Z> wwothrya: but who knows, maybe he's really suffering 
<2023-02-20T03:23:27.000Z> Jello: I think different time period especially
<2023-02-20T03:23:30.000Z> wwothrya: one comment even said he didn't even know how to play piano 
<2023-02-20T03:23:32.000Z> Jello: Idk 
<2023-02-20T03:23:36.000Z> Jello: LMAO 
<2023-02-20T03:23:39.000Z> wwothrya: he just sits there
<2023-02-20T03:23:44.000Z> wwothrya: and imagine he can 💀
<2023-02-20T03:23:52.000Z> Jello: Yeah there has to be some weird shit 
<2023-02-20T03:24:03.000Z> Jello: He seems like hes hiding some shit idk lol
<2023-02-20T03:24:12.000Z> Jello: Hes funny
<2023-02-20T03:24:14.000Z> wwothrya: we shouldn't be mean to ill people lmao but he does look memey
<2023-02-20T03:24:17.000Z> Jello: But yeah 
<2023-02-20T03:24:27.000Z> Jello: He really, really does to me, lmao 
<2023-02-20T03:24:37.000Z> wwothrya: and the way he speaks too
<2023-02-20T03:24:47.000Z> Jello: Its not even mean, its a good thing because its funny. Like he doesnt look like hes suffering to me
<2023-02-20T03:24:54.000Z> wwothrya: it's kinda pitying in a way, but also, chuckle inducong
<2023-02-20T03:24:59.000Z> Jello: He looks like hes on some next level shit and its funny
<2023-02-20T03:25:24.000Z> wwothrya: haha yea, next level shit of staring and standing
<2023-02-20T03:25:26.000Z> Jello: He only seems like hes suffering cus hes forced in hospital is whatever that place is
<2023-02-20T03:25:40.000Z> Jello: Probably just an introvert and sits and thinks idk lol
<2023-02-20T03:25:46.000Z> Jello: And piano delusions
<2023-02-20T03:25:53.000Z> wwothrya: hmmm, that's a new perspective 
<2023-02-20T03:26:06.000Z> wwothrya: what if he just seemed ill cause they put him in a hospital?
<2023-02-20T03:26:28.000Z> Jello: He didn't seem that unhappy to me or anything, but I would need to rewatch anyway 
<2023-02-20T03:26:32.000Z> Jello: He just looks smug lol
<2023-02-20T03:26:42.000Z> Jello: Yeah idk 
<2023-02-20T03:26:56.000Z> Jello: I think hes smug cus hes genuiely convinced of delusions he has
<2023-02-20T03:27:07.000Z> Jello: In other words actually happy or confident
<2023-02-20T03:27:09.000Z> Jello: Lol
<2023-02-20T03:27:11.000Z> Jello: Maybe
<2023-02-20T03:27:36.000Z> Jello: Ignorance is bliss for some
<2023-02-20T03:27:39.000Z> Jello: Anyways lol
<2023-02-20T03:30:38.000Z> wwothrya: ignorance is indeed bliss for some
<2023-02-20T03:30:46.000Z> wwothrya: anyways what? 💀
<2023-02-20T04:01:55.000Z> Jello: Why do you think youre catatonic schizophrenic lol
<2023-02-20T04:10:16.000Z> wwothrya: just a thought actually, i get really quiet and still for long periods of time. like i get lost in my thoughts and build castles out of clouds lol. but im p sure im not that schizo. im not schizo at all.
<2023-02-20T04:10:52.000Z> wwothrya: the reason why im certain is because i can snap out of it at will
<2023-02-20T04:10:55.000Z> wwothrya: which is great
<2023-02-20T04:11:20.000Z> wwothrya: i build grand schemes in my head while i daydream then as soon as i snap out of it, i lose all of it. i should keep a notepad next to me lol
<2023-02-20T04:17:29.000Z> Jello: maladaptive dreaming? lul
<2023-02-20T04:18:33.000Z> Jello: Cant say the same for me. I think a lot but not really of any fantasy sort of things. I do think of a lot of ideas sometimes though, mostly a lot of introspection
<2023-02-20T04:19:53.000Z> Jello: Definitely would be like reaching full potential and building a different ability to write down your thoughts instead of just staying in your mind for so long 
<2023-02-20T04:20:17.000Z> Jello: Its also cool to look back on those things 
<2023-02-20T04:21:18.000Z> Jello: And I feel like if you forget everything then it may not be very productive or beneficial sorts of time dedication haha. Its good to remember things and keep things in your sphere
<2023-02-20T04:21:22.000Z> Jello: And consciousness
<2023-02-20T04:21:31.000Z> Jello: Just a thought, idk about that
<2023-02-20T04:21:53.000Z> wwothrya: yea, you're right it is a big waste of time and potential 
<2023-02-20T04:22:42.000Z> Jello: Its good to be mindful of thoughts. Daydreaming might be a different kind of thing though. I don't really know if I know the difference, but there have been times I have kind of disassociated and imagined things like almost a dream state. Its really enjoyable so theres that
<2023-02-20T04:22:55.000Z> Jello: So in other words maybe calming 
<2023-02-20T04:22:57.000Z> wwothrya: to be honest, holy shit, the ideas i make are mostly garbage, but once in a while i make this very convoluted idea complex and very complicated that would be the next odyssey or something then i forget it 💀💀
<2023-02-20T04:23:09.000Z> Jello: Which ultimately is a good thing. But maybe like a form of escapism
<2023-02-20T04:23:09.000Z> wwothrya: calming, indeed
<2023-02-20T04:23:19.000Z> wwothrya: it is a form of escapism for me
<2023-02-20T04:23:20.000Z> Jello: Same lol
<2023-02-20T04:23:39.000Z> Jello: I come up with all kinds of great ideas. If I feel like it 
<2023-02-20T04:23:52.000Z> Jello: Its like, will never be put in to action though
<2023-02-20T04:24:13.000Z> Jello: I know things would work but actually going through with those things is not my will lol
<2023-02-20T04:24:42.000Z> Jello: Unless it came easy. I wrote down the other day it would be dope to just have an assistant to do everything lmao
<2023-02-20T04:24:59.000Z> Jello: Just tell people your ideas, record them, and get others to do it... Lol
<2023-02-20T04:26:33.000Z> wwothrya: yea, lol, an assistant would be really cool
<2023-02-20T04:26:42.000Z> wwothrya: ykw, sometimes
<2023-02-20T04:26:52.000Z> wwothrya: this connects to the whole everything is a simulation thing
<2023-02-20T04:27:11.000Z> wwothrya: sometimes, i think there's like a log of some sort where all my thoughts and ideas are recorded
<2023-02-20T04:27:40.000Z> wwothrya: like if im an asset in a large simulation, im probably gonna have all of my actions logged
<2023-02-20T04:27:56.000Z> wwothrya: sometimes i wish i can look at the log and just make stuff with my ideas lol
<2023-02-20T04:28:09.000Z> wwothrya: but yea, an assistant would be good
<2023-02-20T04:28:25.000Z> wwothrya: we be like "hey, assistant, write this for me, this and that"
<2023-02-20T04:29:02.000Z> Jello: It's weird having an understanding that everything is probably set in stone and we are just living it out. That means all our information and all the thoughts we will ever has is there, somewhere
<2023-02-20T04:29:09.000Z> Jello: I think that's what you just meant
<2023-02-20T04:29:12.000Z> Jello: But yeah lol
<2023-02-20T04:29:26.000Z> Jello: It's like... Can I just have that thought now then? 
<2023-02-20T04:29:58.000Z> Jello: Also wanting neurolink. Or for this reality to just align entirely with what I know is possible
<2023-02-20T04:30:33.000Z> Jello: As in everything can be perfect, better ways to do things
<2023-02-20T04:31:16.000Z> Jello: It's like a perfecr utopian world already exists, the future alreadt exists, all the technology, but we're here at a weird point in the timeline where we can see both the past and the future
<2023-02-20T04:31:44.000Z> wwothrya: yea, like that one meme that goes like
<2023-02-20T04:32:08.000Z> wwothrya: born too late for (x), born too early for (y)
<2023-02-20T04:32:15.000Z> wwothrya: born just in time for (z)
<2023-02-20T04:32:22.000Z> wwothrya: idk what our z is for though 
<2023-02-20T04:32:39.000Z> wwothrya: we were born too late for cheap housing prices lmao
<2023-02-20T04:34:57.000Z> Jello: Born just in time to figure out we live in a simulation
<2023-02-20T04:34:59.000Z> Jello: lul
<2023-02-20T04:35:04.000Z> Jello: Yep
<2023-02-20T04:35:13.000Z> Jello: Cost of living is so gay abd irrational
<2023-02-20T04:35:16.000Z> Jello: Or unreasonable
<2023-02-20T04:35:21.000Z> Jello: Very aggrevating
<2023-02-20T04:35:38.000Z> wwothrya: very much so
<2023-02-20T04:36:14.000Z> wwothrya: man, that must mean we're born too early to fully realize that everything is a simulation and that we'll be able to talk to our creator/programmer lol
<2023-02-20T04:36:36.000Z> wwothrya: im killing myself if our simulations programmer turns out to be a huge neckbeard discord mod lmao
<2023-02-20T05:06:36.000Z> Jello: I communicate with the creator  
<2023-02-20T05:06:41.000Z> Jello: That's god, lmao 
<2023-02-20T05:07:02.000Z> Jello: Not exactly communication, hard to explain, but its back and forth interaction, and works
<2023-02-20T05:07:53.000Z> Jello: But after this long they're a little obsessed with me. I'm not gonna lie. Like crush level shit lmao 
<2023-02-20T05:08:08.000Z> Jello: Maybe has matrix girl voyeur mind control fetish. I'm not sure
<2023-02-20T05:08:25.000Z> Jello: But no it's very loving. Hey people talk about gods love so there's that
<2023-02-20T05:10:03.000Z> Jello: Yeah they are definitely a nerd and I'm pretty sure they like anime
<2023-02-20T05:10:18.000Z> Jello: They are big trolls and jokesters, so
<2023-02-20T05:10:33.000Z> Jello: You can see the comedy in literally everything. Its all a joke in a lot of ways lol
<2023-02-20T05:11:06.000Z> Jello: I sound schizo but yeah went over this already. Its certainly interesting 
<2023-02-20T05:11:53.000Z> Jello: What if some people just have like, handlers, matrix handlers, lmao. I can't even get on board with this because its all created by one person I'm near certain of it
<2023-02-20T05:12:12.000Z> Jello: So maybe they just focus on some lives or something like that
<2023-02-20T05:12:40.000Z> Jello: Or starts to pay attention to those that start to become more aware or notice their intent and design 
<2023-02-20T05:13:04.000Z> Jello: They seem to care about people and they are very smart when it comes to the human experience and psychology. So
<2023-02-20T05:13:19.000Z> Jello: Aliens. Meme
<2023-02-20T05:42:42.000Z> wwothrya: lol, crush level type shit. if you're talking to someone that isn't open-minded about all this, they'll probably just disregard you and call you crazy
<2023-02-20T05:42:54.000Z> wwothrya: i guess all this synchronicity you're talking about led to this conversation 
<2023-02-20T05:43:30.000Z> wwothrya: maybe they do have some crush level type shit on you, because they'd have made you suffer by giving you to someone who would just mock you
<2023-02-20T05:43:33.000Z> wwothrya: but I don't lmao
<2023-02-20T05:44:34.000Z> wwothrya: anyway, i know poast is kinda racist, but i try to distance from all that nazi shit. more like conforming a bit without actually taking their ideologies to heart, but can i ask you this, i mean no offense 
<2023-02-20T05:44:40.000Z> wwothrya: are you black or white?
<2023-02-20T05:44:53.000Z> wwothrya: not that it matters, I just wanna ask
<2023-02-20T06:22:48.000Z> wwothrya: do you know how to look at magic eyes?
<2023-02-20T06:22:53.000Z> wwothrya: this one's cool as fuck
<2023-02-20T14:31:36.000Z> Jello: White lol
<2023-02-20T14:31:43.000Z> Jello: For sure
<2023-02-20T14:32:22.000Z> Jello: No idea what magic eyes are
<2023-02-20T14:32:46.000Z> Jello: Are you black? Not that it matters, would never imagine that
<2023-02-20T14:33:11.000Z> Jello: Its like assuming all people are guys online, even I do it, everyone is white too lol. White 20 something old male
<2023-02-21T03:50:36.000Z> wwothrya: I am white, yep
<2023-02-21T03:50:50.000Z> wwothrya: I'm a white 20 something old male
<2023-02-21T03:51:16.000Z> wwothrya: Bro, you're missing out then. Though, for the longest time, I thought magic eyes don't work on me
<2023-02-21T03:52:26.000Z> wwothrya: anyway, sorry for ghosting you again lol, im starting to hate college but im almost done and i actually enjoy my course so i aint quitting
<2023-02-21T03:52:45.000Z> wwothrya: did you go to school, dude? or like, are you done with it?
<2023-02-21T13:53:44.000Z> Jello: Wtf is magic eyes
<2023-02-21T13:54:05.000Z> Jello: No lol thats why I can reply so often
<2023-02-21T13:54:26.000Z> Jello: I didn't even finish highschool, was too busy getting high
<2023-02-21T13:54:31.000Z> Jello: Smoking weed, lol
<2023-02-21T13:54:56.000Z> Jello: School is like a differently reality for me
<2023-02-21T13:55:03.000Z> Jello: College is gay
<2023-02-21T17:24:18.000Z> wwothrya: College is most certainly not gay
<2023-02-21T17:24:34.000Z> wwothrya: so you didn't finish highschool and college damn
<2023-02-21T17:24:46.000Z> wwothrya: you're missing out fr
<2023-02-21T17:24:58.000Z> wwothrya: though, idk, some classes do kinda suck
<2023-02-21T17:25:28.000Z> wwothrya: but yk, schools are where you get to at least socialize a bit and score something
<2023-02-21T17:25:49.000Z> wwothrya: be it friends or idk, other valuable things, i dont fucking know
<2023-02-21T17:26:03.000Z> wwothrya: im not one to tell you though, i aint someone that matters to you lol
<2023-02-21T17:26:20.000Z> wwothrya: why did you stop though? just cause of weed and stuff?
<2023-02-21T17:26:47.000Z> wwothrya: or was there like a more serious reason
<2023-02-21T17:27:27.000Z> wwothrya: while i do believe that most of the learning is outside the confines of schools
<2023-02-21T17:27:47.000Z> wwothrya: having finished highschool and college, kinda do make a big difference in terms of 
<2023-02-21T17:27:57.000Z> wwothrya: idk, more relaxed lifestyle, i guess?
<2023-02-21T17:28:17.000Z> wwothrya: like it could be a tool to score some shit, like.. a job or something 
<2023-02-21T17:28:41.000Z> wwothrya: ik it sucks that you need school to succeed but that's what it is
<2023-02-21T18:06:18.000Z> Jello: Yeah I guess, but I'm 30 now you don't really need that kind of socializing lol. Just need basic friends and a relationship 
<2023-02-21T18:06:42.000Z> Jello: Well no, stopped because lazy, parents too easygoing didnt push me to finish
<2023-02-21T18:07:00.000Z> Jello: School is expensive too, family not exactly rich 
<2023-02-21T18:07:36.000Z> Jello: School is absurd though, get in the white wall fluorescent lighting box while someone talks at you for hours upon hours on end 
<2023-02-21T18:07:46.000Z> Jello: Better to do school online in a fraction of the time
<2023-02-21T18:08:40.000Z> Jello: You don't necessarily need school to succeed, you could get lucky, know the right people, have particular skills, but yeah in general thats how it works
<2023-02-21T18:08:43.000Z> Jello: And its lame
<2023-03-01T19:48:21.000Z> wwothrya: oh shit its march now
<2023-03-01T19:48:26.000Z> wwothrya: what's up
<2023-03-01T19:48:40.000Z> wwothrya: i was neck deep in college shit i forgot to breathe
<2023-03-01T20:01:56.000Z> wwothrya: anyway, how are you dude? 
<2023-03-01T20:02:13.000Z> wwothrya: damn i really ghosted you didn't i lmaoooo
<2023-03-01T20:02:21.000Z> wwothrya: but eh, it's not like you really care do ya
<2023-03-01T20:02:32.000Z> wwothrya: anyway, let's catch up to speed sometime 
<2023-03-01T20:02:46.000Z> wwothrya: not like speed speed lol
<2023-03-01T20:02:57.000Z> wwothrya: i mean catch up, idk 
<2023-03-01T20:03:07.000Z> wwothrya: what the fuck am i even saying at this point
<2023-03-01T22:08:10.000Z> Jello: Lmao 
<2023-03-01T22:09:01.000Z> Jello: since we last talked (I think it was you) I'm scheduled for another speed day. So you're on point
<2023-03-01T22:09:12.000Z> Jello: Hope youre doing good despite all that shit
<2023-03-01T22:09:48.000Z> Jello: I'm doing good, always :) 