<2021-05-07T00:34:31.000Z> Xeraser: Ssshh. https://img.poast.org/567b51d1b89916e8a08587b9149e475b086e3c69d3bc593c778bc2979550dc63.png
<2021-05-07T00:37:19.000Z> weebdivision: mmm nice
<2021-05-07T00:50:08.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/8d8e1983746c1deec966c4677cee7ee8f91a909d489c95e18063b69c8aef88f1.png
<2021-05-07T00:54:26.000Z> weebdivision: mmm long hair, i should post some of that too
<2021-05-07T00:58:27.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/24e10d1e31ea4faf4d52624ef75479b7f8d11c6b050e15e6d9f3d4ef0dac3302.jpg
<2021-05-07T01:05:52.000Z> weebdivision: life goals https://img.poast.org/e5f811a0d31db9fbb705a8873cd329bb4571fe81796155006be5128e04c0b9a6.png
<2021-05-07T01:06:41.000Z> Xeraser: no
<2021-05-07T01:06:48.000Z> Xeraser: you're supposed to cum on it first
<2021-05-07T01:07:15.000Z> weebdivision: haha cum pizza
<2021-05-07T01:07:31.000Z> Xeraser: yes
<2021-05-07T01:07:33.000Z> Xeraser: best topping
<2021-05-07T01:08:16.000Z> weebdivision: fuck it id eat it lol
<2021-05-07T01:08:44.000Z> Xeraser: same
<2021-05-07T01:09:26.000Z> Xeraser: better yet
<2021-05-07T01:09:37.000Z> Xeraser: get a friend or two or three or ten and cover it
<2021-05-07T01:10:26.000Z> weebdivision: yea why not
<2021-05-07T01:11:45.000Z> Xeraser: and by cover it i mean put it on a table, gather in a circle and jerk each other off until everyone's dry
<2021-05-07T01:13:14.000Z> weebdivision: new meaning to pizza party
<2021-05-07T01:13:25.000Z> weebdivision attached file https://img.poast.org/c8c145e308fe052e89678833f566ee7c85b1ff41b00a862147cebb98d10ccab7.jpg
<2021-05-07T01:14:59.000Z> Xeraser: hell yeah https://img.poast.org/546b2510dfe8b09e71ef5f58a0c732934956ce9a5fa5cfa78c3f4d639b945cbc.PNG
<2021-05-07T01:18:15.000Z> weebdivision: thats a good artist
<2021-05-07T01:18:36.000Z> weebdivision attached file https://img.poast.org/a2749daa05d64e79e4faec3a4028d37f46bb8715f6e2543aa8da16d4b0611934.jpg
<2021-05-07T01:18:44.000Z> Xeraser: damn right he is
<2021-05-07T01:19:05.000Z> Xeraser: god i'm hungry now
<2021-05-07T01:19:42.000Z> weebdivision: haha nice
<2021-05-07T01:19:57.000Z> Xeraser: Also sorry for the random dm, I was bored and I liked the r63 stuff
<2021-05-07T01:22:13.000Z> weebdivision: haha no worries
<2021-05-07T01:22:28.000Z> weebdivision: slow night overall tonite
<2021-05-07T01:22:48.000Z> Xeraser: yeah same
<2021-05-07T01:24:44.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/b0965650067856b90fe2b8d01830fd0294dde4f0aeabf99c9b8b9fdad175ec7c.PNG
<2021-05-07T01:26:30.000Z> Xeraser: wait did you send something
<2021-05-07T01:26:40.000Z> Xeraser: i heard the notification sound while i was uploading that
<2021-05-07T01:27:29.000Z> weebdivision: no i think it's poast being bugged lol
<2021-05-07T01:27:43.000Z> weebdivision: my collection on this computer sucks lol
<2021-05-07T01:28:01.000Z> Xeraser: yeah could be poast itself 
<2021-05-07T01:30:15.000Z> weebdivision: everybody knows dross but i still like 'em lol
<2021-05-07T01:30:39.000Z> Xeraser: dross is good
<2021-05-07T01:32:01.000Z> weebdivision attached file https://img.poast.org/c6ccf0b5ca929a714fbfd883effe33a87441bf82cf0818161601681098ca228c.png
<2021-05-07T01:32:26.000Z> Xeraser: yeah that's good
<2021-05-07T01:32:48.000Z> weebdivision: and idc what people think i still like astolfo lol
<2021-05-07T01:32:51.000Z> weebdivision: have him on my car
<2021-05-07T01:33:08.000Z> Xeraser: wtf i love astolfo
<2021-05-07T01:34:13.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/60aec879820c12092f4a2e5a9fc213833e9d68ad8e176fc8e5d5dfb32a2f03e3.png
<2021-05-07T01:34:17.000Z> Xeraser: also what car
<2021-05-07T01:35:39.000Z> weebdivision: heh, broken img somehow
<2021-05-07T01:35:54.000Z> weebdivision: my shitbox hyundai lol
<2021-05-07T01:35:56.000Z> Xeraser: astolfeet are too strong for poast
<2021-05-07T01:36:12.000Z> Xeraser: could be worse
<2021-05-07T01:36:16.000Z> Xeraser: could be european
<2021-05-07T01:36:21.000Z> Xeraser: could be a ford
<2021-05-07T01:36:25.000Z> Xeraser: could be a miata
<2021-05-07T01:36:50.000Z> weebdivision: this one made me laugh https://img.poast.org/a18ffdc21940dc483f393bf47d43597b4705a6b26827a4fc3df364691f6b82bf.png
<2021-05-07T01:37:20.000Z> Xeraser: that's cute
<2021-05-07T01:37:42.000Z> Xeraser: i like felix too but i like astolfo more 
<2021-05-07T01:37:43.000Z> weebdivision: haha yea, i'm gay and wanta  tesla
<2021-05-07T01:38:02.000Z> Xeraser: smh and to think i was starting to like you
<2021-05-07T01:38:04.000Z> Xeraser: /s
<2021-05-07T01:38:11.000Z> Xeraser: files.catbox.moe/nvdqmx.png
<2021-05-07T01:38:20.000Z> Xeraser: here's that pic btw
<2021-05-07T01:40:01.000Z> weebdivision: ah, lol, i've seen that one
<2021-05-07T01:40:04.000Z> weebdivision: i like the eyebrows
<2021-05-07T01:40:29.000Z> weebdivision: i know teslas are lame but i'm lazy and want it to drive me on road trips lol
<2021-05-07T01:40:50.000Z> Xeraser: but that's what friends are for
<2021-05-07T01:40:59.000Z> Xeraser: also
<2021-05-07T01:41:04.000Z> Xeraser: FEET LITERALLY IN YOUR FACE
<2021-05-07T01:41:09.000Z> Xeraser: "i like the eyebrows"
<2021-05-07T01:41:11.000Z> Xeraser: SMH
<2021-05-07T01:41:57.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/fe31daddf25c08fdbcaba1eff757abd8b79ae7b14b524e902833499c97ad0f92.png
<2021-05-07T01:42:34.000Z> weebdivision: lol, not a footfag what can i say
<2021-05-07T01:42:58.000Z> Xeraser: fair
<2021-05-07T01:44:48.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/c49683d39d8c82a5fbaca4e3572c4b822a993cd4dc1721b7a1499695e69c1be6.png
<2021-05-07T01:46:29.000Z> weebdivision: mmm good stolfo
<2021-05-07T01:46:39.000Z> weebdivision: my friends drive like maniacs and will sully the reputation of my car
<2021-05-07T01:46:40.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-05-07T01:47:36.000Z> Xeraser: damn
<2021-05-07T01:47:39.000Z> Xeraser: get better friends
<2021-05-07T01:49:38.000Z> weebdivision: easier said than done
<2021-05-07T01:50:30.000Z> Xeraser: true https://img.poast.org/e47a1ada150043da96d062f20a80d0c9fa9c3982fb3bb1f0c18a34ca4013e661.png
<2021-05-07T01:52:28.000Z> weebdivision: man i wish i could have hair like that lol
<2021-05-07T01:52:43.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-05-07T01:53:50.000Z> weebdivision: thought about dying it but that's expensive and a hassle lol
<2021-05-07T01:53:56.000Z> Xeraser: ass-long silky smooth hair https://img.poast.org/9f5f258fa343469bde1fc63fdfd075b5329cd7dcc608712d44d4d90ca91eb46c.png
<2021-05-07T01:54:00.000Z> Xeraser: would be cute tho
<2021-05-07T01:54:41.000Z> weebdivision: longer than that due to braid
<2021-05-07T01:54:52.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-05-07T01:55:20.000Z> weebdivision: i was thinking a white stripe would be cool lol
<2021-05-07T01:55:24.000Z> weebdivision: friends would think i'm insane
<2021-05-07T01:55:44.000Z> Xeraser: probably
<2021-05-07T01:55:46.000Z> Xeraser: would be cute tho
<2021-05-07T01:56:16.000Z> weebdivision: would at least be interesting
<2021-05-07T01:56:27.000Z> weebdivision: been too lazy to cut it so idk what to do with it
<2021-05-07T01:57:05.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/376ea24e3f9820908137d3583fe741feefbfee849c923e3d7010487b650562f1.png
<2021-05-07T01:57:07.000Z> Xeraser: braid
<2021-05-07T01:57:09.000Z> Xeraser: definitely
<2021-05-07T01:57:35.000Z> weebdivision: will be months before i can do that
<2021-05-07T01:57:58.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/c7d0cb464c6649f812c6dbd625d9e2b4a0f9abfa2f38e7d03e145c16ee113e32.png
<2021-05-07T01:58:03.000Z> Xeraser: hey, it's a goal
<2021-05-07T01:59:55.000Z> weebdivision: yeah might be an interesitng change of pace, still need to get hair cut for bangs tho https://img.poast.org/43191d4b3c9f30430644c21bfd8cada92a977a5d677b0a28300c0e9a1a1850ab.png
<2021-05-07T02:00:20.000Z> Xeraser: one step at a time
<2021-05-07T02:00:39.000Z> weebdivision: lol male OL
<2021-05-07T02:01:04.000Z> Xeraser: male what
<2021-05-07T02:02:05.000Z> weebdivision: office lady
<2021-05-07T02:02:20.000Z> weebdivision: the one you sent
<2021-05-07T02:02:23.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-05-07T02:02:24.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-05-07T02:02:25.000Z> Xeraser: cute af
<2021-05-07T02:03:32.000Z> weebdivision: i'd say sex at the office is wrong but uhhh seeing as i've done it...
<2021-05-07T02:03:34.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-05-07T02:03:40.000Z> weebdivision: but it wasn't where *I* work at least
<2021-05-07T02:03:44.000Z> weebdivision: i have some standard
<2021-05-07T02:04:04.000Z> Xeraser: damn that's hot
<2021-05-07T02:05:08.000Z> weebdivision: it was kinda weird
<2021-05-07T02:06:17.000Z> Xeraser: bad weird or good weird
<2021-05-07T02:06:58.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/c4c57f840af9e87854e5654b2406c306419271c13fc5cb41016ff54a9bce17f8.jpg
<2021-05-07T02:07:35.000Z> weebdivision: neutral weird
<2021-05-07T02:07:53.000Z> weebdivision: the big uncovered window was a bit nervewracking
<2021-05-07T02:08:17.000Z> weebdivision: for some reason that reminded me of anchovy
<2021-05-07T02:08:24.000Z> weebdivision: wonder if there's genderswap of her lol
<2021-05-07T02:08:30.000Z> Xeraser: probably the hair
<2021-05-07T02:08:33.000Z> Xeraser: lemme check
<2021-05-07T02:08:58.000Z> Xeraser: yes
<2021-05-07T02:09:05.000Z> Xeraser: got rid of the twintails 
<2021-05-07T02:09:16.000Z> Xeraser: fucking underwhelming/10
<2021-05-07T02:09:20.000Z> weebdivision: haha
<2021-05-07T02:09:23.000Z> weebdivision: yeah
<2021-05-07T02:09:38.000Z> weebdivision: i never finished GuP
<2021-05-07T02:09:39.000Z> weebdivision: rip
<2021-05-07T02:10:57.000Z> Xeraser: here, have my wife https://img.poast.org/7fb23d5ab236a093ded5e6f26930911371c7de960fb40c74e7ced3ea6949678f.png
<2021-05-07T02:10:59.000Z> Xeraser: you should
<2021-05-07T02:11:03.000Z> Xeraser: it's fucking amazing 
<2021-05-07T02:11:33.000Z> Xeraser: also all the pics i sent are fucking massive so open them in another tab to see the full res ones
<2021-05-07T02:12:22.000Z> weebdivision: save as on preview seems to save full vers
<2021-05-07T02:12:25.000Z> weebdivision: yea
<2021-05-07T02:12:38.000Z> weebdivision: i'm a huge fag for real and even I have a akiyama yukari daki lol
<2021-05-07T02:12:57.000Z> weebdivision: most anime males are personalityless clones
<2021-05-07T02:14:55.000Z> Xeraser: 2nd best girl
<2021-05-07T02:14:57.000Z> Xeraser: good choice
<2021-05-07T02:15:20.000Z> Xeraser: if you couldn't tell i'm a massive fucking fag
<2021-05-07T02:15:28.000Z> weebdivision: haha, nice
<2021-05-07T02:15:49.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/821d3c71a404e9a1005cb44d2956898937d15f276f8e4bb8178505df5390b2ba.png
<2021-05-07T02:15:57.000Z> weebdivision: it's hard to tell b/c i'm hopeless
<2021-05-07T02:16:18.000Z> weebdivision: i wish mussolini was around to see this lol
<2021-05-07T02:16:31.000Z> Xeraser: same
<2021-05-07T02:17:27.000Z> weebdivision: need to finish reading his biography
<2021-05-07T02:17:41.000Z> weebdivision: used to read it on planes before CORVID 
<2021-05-07T02:19:25.000Z> Xeraser: "hopeless" boy you have no idea
<2021-05-07T02:19:26.000Z> Xeraser: also
<2021-05-07T02:19:49.000Z> Xeraser: to be fair, he was not-so-secretly a socialist
<2021-05-07T02:19:54.000Z> Xeraser: but he genuinely cared for his people
<2021-05-07T02:20:23.000Z> weebdivision: yeah he seems pretty genuine
<2021-05-07T02:20:28.000Z> weebdivision: if a bit self-agrandizing
<2021-05-07T02:20:36.000Z> weebdivision: but i guess at the time he wrote it he could be lol
<2021-05-07T02:21:09.000Z> Xeraser: yeah he was a bit like that but
<2021-05-07T02:21:15.000Z> Xeraser: most of it is justified tbh
<2021-05-07T02:21:47.000Z> Xeraser: tens of thousands rallied to attend his speeches
<2021-05-07T02:21:50.000Z> Xeraser: it was unreal
<2021-05-07T02:22:36.000Z> weebdivision: woulda been nice if he hadn't chosen the wrong side lol
<2021-05-07T02:22:52.000Z> weebdivision: i mean he would have but i think churchill slighted him somehow IIRC
<2021-05-07T02:22:52.000Z> Xeraser: what wrong side? the germans?
<2021-05-07T02:22:56.000Z> weebdivision: yea
<2021-05-07T02:23:12.000Z> weebdivision: tho not sure they coulda held them off really
<2021-05-07T02:23:40.000Z> Xeraser: yeah thing is
<2021-05-07T02:23:59.000Z> Xeraser: italy was still recovering from ww1 at the time
<2021-05-07T02:24:10.000Z> Xeraser: and the germans' morale was at an all time high 
<2021-05-07T02:24:40.000Z> Xeraser: i'm not a hitler groupie by all fucking means but
<2021-05-07T02:25:02.000Z> Xeraser: do some research and you'll find out why and how hitler came into power
<2021-05-07T02:25:12.000Z> Xeraser: germany was absolutely fucked at the time
<2021-05-07T02:25:21.000Z> weebdivision: oh yeah
<2021-05-07T02:25:26.000Z> weebdivision: for sure
<2021-05-07T02:25:32.000Z> weebdivision: i mean basically what's happening in europe now
<2021-05-07T02:25:34.000Z> Xeraser: like
<2021-05-07T02:25:38.000Z> weebdivision: and the western world lol
<2021-05-07T02:25:41.000Z> Xeraser: they were slaves to the kikes in all but name
<2021-05-07T02:26:11.000Z> Xeraser: it wasn't even germany anymore
<2021-05-07T02:26:37.000Z> weebdivision: yeah they were a joke
<2021-05-07T02:26:43.000Z> weebdivision: surprise surprise
<2021-05-07T02:26:49.000Z> weebdivision: you fuck people over hard enough
<2021-05-07T02:26:51.000Z> weebdivision: shit goes down
<2021-05-07T02:26:55.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-05-07T02:27:29.000Z> weebdivision: lol i played ww1 scenario in civ 2 back in the day as italy
<2021-05-07T02:27:38.000Z> weebdivision: conquered the world except for russia
<2021-05-07T02:27:59.000Z> Xeraser: damn russians 
<2021-05-07T02:28:17.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah
<2021-05-07T02:28:38.000Z> Xeraser: also
<2021-05-07T02:28:44.000Z> Xeraser: according to my grandma
<2021-05-07T02:29:03.000Z> Xeraser: hitler was really envious of mussolini
<2021-05-07T02:29:30.000Z> weebdivision: i thought i heard that somewhere
<2021-05-07T02:29:39.000Z> weebdivision: or read rather
<2021-05-07T02:30:11.000Z> Xeraser: yeah it's kinda funny
<2021-05-07T02:30:12.000Z> Xeraser: also
<2021-05-07T02:30:13.000Z> Xeraser: fuck
<2021-05-07T02:30:15.000Z> Xeraser: i gotta pee
<2021-05-07T02:30:18.000Z> Xeraser: leg hurts
<2021-05-07T02:30:20.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-05-07T02:30:29.000Z> Xeraser: open your mouth
<2021-05-07T02:30:31.000Z> Xeraser: jkjk
<2021-05-07T02:30:32.000Z> Xeraser: brb
<2021-05-07T02:30:45.000Z> weebdivision: haha
<2021-05-07T02:51:34.000Z> weebdivision: gn gn
<2021-05-07T02:54:40.000Z> Xeraser: back
<2021-05-07T02:55:07.000Z> Xeraser: went to get some drinks and stuff
<2021-05-07T02:56:05.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-05-07T02:56:07.000Z> Xeraser: goodnight
<2021-05-07T02:56:09.000Z> Xeraser: sleep tight
<2021-05-07T02:56:27.000Z> Xeraser: send me a message if you feel like talking and whatnot
<2021-05-08T01:45:39.000Z> Xeraser: by the way
<2021-05-08T01:45:56.000Z> Xeraser: i forgot to send these
<2021-05-08T01:55:56.000Z> Xeraser: ibb.co/album/n7HkCQ
<2021-05-08T17:22:21.000Z> weebdivision: mmm very useful
<2021-05-08T17:22:52.000Z> Xeraser: saw that you were lusting after male momiji and i went "hey i have some of that"
<2021-05-08T17:23:33.000Z> Xeraser: first two are my favorites 
<2021-05-08T17:23:58.000Z> weebdivision: yup, always good - i hadn't seen those before
<2021-05-08T17:24:10.000Z> weebdivision: love the artist for the 3rd and 2nd to last
<2021-05-08T17:24:22.000Z> Xeraser: good, good
<2021-07-19T15:01:37.000Z> Xeraser: still kicking?
<2021-07-25T23:30:02.000Z> weebdivision: been too depressed to get on shitpost computer for a few months
<2021-07-25T23:30:20.000Z> weebdivision: finally got depressed enough to actually do it lol
<2021-07-25T23:31:01.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-07-25T23:31:02.000Z> Xeraser: damn
<2021-07-25T23:31:25.000Z> Xeraser: hope you climb out of that pit
<2021-07-25T23:32:06.000Z> weebdivision: thx we'll see
<2021-07-25T23:32:34.000Z> Xeraser: feel free to message if you need anything
<2021-07-25T23:33:42.000Z> weebdivision: i'll try to be around instead of dead but i am barely alive outside of work anymore
<2021-07-25T23:35:07.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-07-25T23:35:09.000Z> Xeraser: no vacations?
<2021-07-25T23:35:54.000Z> weebdivision: burned most of it being too depressed to get out of bed or too tired to stay awake more than 15 min at a time lately
<2021-07-25T23:36:15.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-07-25T23:36:17.000Z> Xeraser: yeah i feel you
<2021-07-25T23:36:28.000Z> weebdivision: drs are so useless lol
<2021-07-25T23:36:48.000Z> Xeraser: drs?
<2021-07-25T23:36:55.000Z> weebdivision: doctors
<2021-07-25T23:37:00.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-07-25T23:37:01.000Z> Xeraser: yeah most are
<2021-07-25T23:37:29.000Z> Xeraser: dumb question but have you tried taking some vitamin d
<2021-07-25T23:37:48.000Z> weebdivision: yeah i take a multivtamin every day with a lot of it in it
<2021-07-25T23:37:57.000Z> Xeraser: i have literally zero vitamin d and taking some seems to help 
<2021-07-25T23:38:21.000Z> weebdivision: i need to ask if they run it because i've been low on it in the past but taking too much can also be bad i think
<2021-07-25T23:38:28.000Z> weebdivision: like when they do blood work
<2021-07-25T23:38:46.000Z> Xeraser: yeah don't overdo it
<2021-07-25T23:40:23.000Z> Xeraser: i should take like
<2021-07-25T23:41:06.000Z> Xeraser: a single 250k units/whatever vial a month but it's oily and bitter as shit so i literally never take it
<2021-07-25T23:41:30.000Z> weebdivision: holy crap that's a big dose
<2021-07-25T23:41:34.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-07-25T23:41:37.000Z> Xeraser: like
<2021-07-25T23:41:39.000Z> Xeraser: i wasn't kidding
<2021-07-25T23:41:42.000Z> Xeraser: i have NO vitamin d lmao
<2021-07-25T23:41:55.000Z> weebdivision: that's crazy but i've heard of that before
<2021-07-25T23:42:29.000Z> weebdivision: i might start taking the 2k unit pills again daily
<2021-07-25T23:42:43.000Z> weebdivision: i'll try anything
<2021-07-25T23:42:45.000Z> Xeraser: yeah i'm taking 2k a day too
<2021-07-25T23:42:49.000Z> Xeraser: but they aren't pills
<2021-07-25T23:42:50.000Z> Xeraser: they're uuh
<2021-07-25T23:43:09.000Z> Xeraser: you know those tiny mint flavored sheets that melt in your mouth
<2021-07-25T23:43:09.000Z> weebdivision: i'd up my antideperessants but i have no spares because they're so stingy with them
<2021-07-25T23:43:22.000Z> weebdivision: that's cool
<2021-07-25T23:43:30.000Z> Xeraser: yeah same thing but they're orange flavored
<2021-07-25T23:43:37.000Z> Xeraser: they actually taste pretty good lmao
<2021-07-25T23:43:44.000Z> weebdivision: haha
<2021-07-25T23:43:55.000Z> weebdivision: i liked the anti nausea drug that was under the tongue
<2021-07-25T23:44:04.000Z> Xeraser: oh yeah
<2021-07-25T23:44:08.000Z> Xeraser: had that so many times
<2021-07-25T23:44:11.000Z> Xeraser: mine was like
<2021-07-25T23:44:14.000Z> Xeraser: strawberry flavoree
<2021-07-25T23:44:17.000Z> Xeraser: flavored*
<2021-07-25T23:44:26.000Z> weebdivision: i couldn't taste it well casue i only used it when i had the flu lol
<2021-07-25T23:44:32.000Z> weebdivision: so i didn't barf on the plane back home
<2021-07-25T23:44:59.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-07-25T23:45:00.000Z> Xeraser: ow
<2021-07-25T23:45:23.000Z> weebdivision: best flights ever i just passed out immediately after sitting down and woke up when the plane touched down again
<2021-07-25T23:45:35.000Z> weebdivision: across the country in like 30 min being awake total
<2021-07-25T23:45:35.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-07-25T23:46:04.000Z> Xeraser: never been on a flight
<2021-07-25T23:46:19.000Z> Xeraser: i can't stand more than like 4/5 hours in a train/car
<2021-07-25T23:46:54.000Z> weebdivision: i used to just fly to get status miles before covid lol
<2021-07-25T23:47:12.000Z> weebdivision: i hate driving more than 7 hours in a day but i've done like 8-9 before
<2021-07-25T23:48:43.000Z> Xeraser: still need to get my license 
<2021-07-25T23:48:47.000Z> Xeraser: probably won't though
<2021-07-25T23:49:46.000Z> weebdivision: well if you don't need one
<2021-07-25T23:50:19.000Z> Xeraser: kinda do
<2021-07-25T23:50:29.000Z> Xeraser: but i have the reflexes of a dead goldfish
<2021-07-25T23:51:05.000Z> weebdivision: lol i dunno i've driven 6 hours and only been conscious for about 2 hours of it and lived
<2021-07-25T23:51:14.000Z> Xeraser: how
<2021-07-25T23:51:17.000Z> weebdivision: not that i recommend that
<2021-07-25T23:51:30.000Z> weebdivision: basically just sleep drove following the cars in front of me
<2021-07-25T23:51:40.000Z> weebdivision: i was sick as shit but had to go home for christmas
<2021-07-25T23:51:44.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-07-25T23:51:52.000Z> Xeraser: well at least you got there safely 
<2021-07-25T23:51:53.000Z> weebdivision: stopped for gas like 7 times
<2021-07-25T23:52:06.000Z> weebdivision: pro tip don't do that
<2021-07-25T23:52:13.000Z> Xeraser: yeah i won't
<2021-07-25T23:52:23.000Z> weebdivision: i had like kidney failure for 2 days because i had a flu and drank myself into oblivion
<2021-07-25T23:52:42.000Z> weebdivision: was fun
<2021-07-25T23:52:49.000Z> Xeraser: damn
<2021-07-25T23:53:00.000Z> Xeraser: even i can't drink that much
<2021-07-25T23:53:13.000Z> weebdivision: shoulda gone to hospital
<2021-07-25T23:53:26.000Z> weebdivision: i don't now because i'm on meds that would roast my liver
<2021-07-25T23:53:49.000Z> weebdivision: i may be depressed but i don't wanna go out that way
<2021-07-25T23:53:57.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-07-25T23:54:09.000Z> Xeraser: well
<2021-07-25T23:54:21.000Z> Xeraser: try not to go out regardless 
<2021-07-25T23:54:53.000Z> weebdivision: well
<2021-07-25T23:55:14.000Z> weebdivision: if i ever throw out the sex toys and womens clothing and gay flags
<2021-07-25T23:55:24.000Z> weebdivision: then i probably am gonna off myself after the next trash day
<2021-07-25T23:55:26.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-07-25T23:55:35.000Z> weebdivision: until then, i don't wanna be dead and have people find that shit
<2021-07-25T23:57:45.000Z> Xeraser: yeah don't
<2021-07-25T23:58:36.000Z> Xeraser: just cum your sorrows away
<2021-07-25T23:58:45.000Z> Xeraser: (it's a joke i tried it it doesn't work)
<2021-07-25T23:58:58.000Z> weebdivision: haha yeah
<2021-07-26T00:01:17.000Z> weebdivision: i'm pretty much too lazy/tired for that most times anyway
<2021-07-26T00:05:24.000Z> Xeraser: rip
<2021-07-26T00:05:30.000Z> weebdivision: i thoght you were into cars tho
<2021-07-26T00:05:49.000Z> Xeraser: yeah i am
<2021-07-26T00:06:10.000Z> Xeraser: i can drive, i just can't trust myself to do it with other people around
<2021-07-26T00:06:20.000Z> weebdivision: i mean there gonna ban them in a few years lol
<2021-07-26T00:06:28.000Z> Xeraser: what
<2021-07-26T00:06:30.000Z> Xeraser: cars?
<2021-07-26T00:06:41.000Z> weebdivision: yea gotta go electric or whatever lol
<2021-07-26T00:06:48.000Z> Xeraser: nah fuck that
<2021-07-26T00:07:18.000Z> Xeraser: they're gonna have to pry my honda's keys from my cold dead hands
<2021-07-26T00:08:06.000Z> weebdivision: i gotta get a car that isn't a shitbox lol
<2021-07-26T00:11:29.000Z> Xeraser: get an integra gsr
<2021-07-26T00:11:34.000Z> Xeraser: they're cheap and really good
<2021-07-26T00:12:03.000Z> Xeraser: wait are you in the us
<2021-07-26T00:12:09.000Z> weebdivision: yea
<2021-07-26T00:12:16.000Z> Xeraser: nvm don't get an integra
<2021-07-26T00:12:25.000Z> weebdivision: they're all riced anyway
<2021-07-26T00:12:33.000Z> Xeraser: worse
<2021-07-26T00:12:36.000Z> Xeraser: they're all stolen lmao
<2021-07-26T00:12:42.000Z> weebdivision: i look for pre '93 stuff frequently
<2021-07-26T00:12:55.000Z> weebdivision: won't have money for a few years
<2021-07-26T00:13:11.000Z> weebdivision: i saw an opel gt for sale lol
<2021-07-26T00:13:16.000Z> Xeraser: 4th and 5th gen civics are pretty nice
<2021-07-26T00:13:17.000Z> Xeraser: wow ew
<2021-07-26T00:13:42.000Z> weebdivision: i would like a pre 93 civic or corolla
<2021-07-26T00:13:50.000Z> weebdivision: the corollas were all initial d tho
<2021-07-26T00:14:06.000Z> Xeraser: nah just the 85/86
<2021-07-26T00:14:12.000Z> weebdivision: anything boxy is cool
<2021-07-26T00:14:18.000Z> Xeraser: then yeah
<2021-07-26T00:14:21.000Z> Xeraser: 4th gen civics
<2021-07-26T00:15:39.000Z> weebdivision: i'll look for jdm too
<2021-07-26T00:15:46.000Z> weebdivision: may be less beat
<2021-07-26T00:15:57.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/60746f22fbc04a2b5be2d3726d17fb1102581736ae6a7496b0b9fd1925a746ea.jpg
<2021-07-26T00:16:02.000Z> Xeraser: this is a factory color
<2021-07-26T00:16:05.000Z> Xeraser: it's fucking gorgeous
<2021-07-26T00:16:26.000Z> weebdivision: those were the days
<2021-07-26T00:18:27.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah, 4th gen civic/1st or 3rd gen prelude are usually cheap as fuck
<2021-07-26T00:18:57.000Z> Xeraser: if you like hatches there's the crx
<2021-07-26T00:19:10.000Z> weebdivision: ahh crx right
<2021-07-26T00:19:15.000Z> weebdivision: i haven't seen one in a long time
<2021-07-26T00:20:00.000Z> Xeraser: yeah crxs are really cool
<2021-07-26T00:21:34.000Z> weebdivision: lol an old supra
<2021-07-26T00:21:37.000Z> weebdivision: 80s
<2021-07-26T00:21:45.000Z> Xeraser: the good ones
<2021-07-26T00:21:49.000Z> weebdivision: body's ok but interior is in pieces
<2021-07-26T00:21:52.000Z> weebdivision: and doesn't run
<2021-07-26T00:22:03.000Z> weebdivision: doubt i could fix it
<2021-07-26T00:22:11.000Z> Xeraser: yeah just leave it there
<2021-07-26T00:23:46.000Z> weebdivision: lol 92 svx
<2021-07-26T00:24:05.000Z> weebdivision: those are cool but weird
<2021-07-26T00:24:19.000Z> weebdivision: prob needs $5k in head gaskets and timing belts
<2021-07-26T00:24:22.000Z> weebdivision: fuckin H6 engines
<2021-07-26T00:24:39.000Z> Xeraser: ah yes the saabaru
<2021-07-26T00:25:55.000Z> weebdivision: rip saab
<2021-07-26T00:26:08.000Z> Xeraser: rip saab owners
<2021-07-26T00:27:15.000Z> weebdivision: i liked their convertibles
<2021-07-26T00:27:49.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-07-26T00:31:02.000Z> weebdivision: well time to drug myself and sleep
<2021-07-26T00:31:05.000Z> weebdivision: have fun
<2021-07-26T00:33:07.000Z> Xeraser: i'll try
<2021-07-26T00:33:09.000Z> Xeraser: goodnight
<2021-07-26T00:35:25.000Z> Xeraser: get on sometimes, might distract you a bit
<2021-08-05T01:03:17.000Z> Xeraser: waddup
<2021-08-05T01:03:38.000Z> weebdivision: sup
<2021-08-05T01:04:19.000Z> weebdivision: prob ruined a friendship today
<2021-08-05T01:04:29.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-08-05T01:04:31.000Z> Xeraser: how
<2021-08-05T01:04:35.000Z> weebdivision: becuz i'm tarded
<2021-08-05T01:05:03.000Z> Xeraser: who isn't
<2021-08-05T01:05:33.000Z> weebdivision: idk dudes been distant and shit and i freaked out in th emorning
<2021-08-05T01:05:42.000Z> weebdivision: on ambien and shit
<2021-08-05T01:06:07.000Z> weebdivision: then he got mad cause i was trying to ake him feel bad
<2021-08-05T01:06:08.000Z> weebdivision: idk
<2021-08-05T01:06:13.000Z> weebdivision: i dunno what to do
<2021-08-05T01:06:17.000Z> weebdivision: i always do this
<2021-08-05T01:07:53.000Z> Xeraser: apologize and tell him you freaked out
<2021-08-05T01:07:57.000Z> Xeraser: and obviously didn't mean to 
<2021-08-05T01:08:17.000Z> weebdivision: i mean
<2021-08-05T01:08:37.000Z> weebdivision: that doesn't work
<2021-08-05T01:08:51.000Z> weebdivision: tried
<2021-08-05T01:09:01.000Z> Xeraser: same guy?
<2021-08-05T01:09:09.000Z> weebdivision: i can't stop being retarded so i just uninstalled discord lol
<2021-08-05T01:09:17.000Z> weebdivision: i've done this like three times before
<2021-08-05T01:09:27.000Z> weebdivision: different people
<2021-08-05T01:09:42.000Z> Xeraser: you'd be surprised by how many people would rather accept a bad but sincere apology than no apology at all
<2021-08-05T01:09:57.000Z> weebdivision: well i sent one
<2021-08-05T01:10:12.000Z> weebdivision: tbh idk
<2021-08-05T01:10:21.000Z> weebdivision: how can you be too busy to even say good morning or good night
<2021-08-05T01:10:37.000Z> Xeraser: happens sometimes
<2021-08-05T01:10:51.000Z> Xeraser: although it heavily depends
<2021-08-05T01:11:10.000Z> Xeraser: best friend was away for like a month
<2021-08-05T01:11:25.000Z> weebdivision: began to just feel like i was pulling teeth with chatting
<2021-08-05T01:11:48.000Z> weebdivision: w/e
<2021-08-05T01:11:52.000Z> Xeraser: uninstalled discord and forced himself to take a break after his bosses scolded him to hell and back
<2021-08-05T01:12:01.000Z> weebdivision: wow
<2021-08-05T01:12:02.000Z> Xeraser: if he's truly busy then it can't be helped but
<2021-08-05T01:12:18.000Z> Xeraser: idk it depends
<2021-08-05T01:12:22.000Z> weebdivision: man i'm busy as shit
<2021-08-05T01:12:25.000Z> weebdivision: but i made the time
<2021-08-05T01:12:41.000Z> weebdivision: just sucks because we even did a vacation together
<2021-08-05T01:12:47.000Z> weebdivision: i just put the ball in his court
<2021-08-05T01:13:06.000Z> weebdivision: he can have the time he needs but i can't be around because i'll get huffy and bitchy again
<2021-08-05T01:13:35.000Z> Xeraser: well
<2021-08-05T01:14:31.000Z> Xeraser: maybe it's best if you two take a short break from each other
<2021-08-05T01:14:48.000Z> weebdivision: im gonna try that
<2021-08-05T01:14:58.000Z> weebdivision: it's hard cause i'm useless
<2021-08-05T01:14:58.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-08-05T01:16:51.000Z> Xeraser: i'm useless too but i learned to just ignore it lmao
<2021-08-05T01:16:54.000Z> Xeraser: anyway
<2021-08-05T01:17:01.000Z> Xeraser: just be like
<2021-08-05T01:17:17.000Z> Xeraser: "hey sorry for freaking out, i'll be here if you need me"
<2021-08-05T01:17:27.000Z> weebdivision: i kinda said that
<2021-08-05T01:17:32.000Z> weebdivision: in my special tard way
<2021-08-05T01:17:50.000Z> weebdivision: literally i will never be able to have an actual bf lol
<2021-08-05T01:18:04.000Z> weebdivision: need to get more drugs from the shrink prob i'm totally nuts
<2021-08-05T01:25:32.000Z> Xeraser: could be worse
<2021-08-05T01:25:34.000Z> Xeraser: much worse
<2021-08-05T01:25:53.000Z> Xeraser: yeah i don't have anything encouraging, sorry
<2021-08-05T01:26:19.000Z> Xeraser: although you should probably get better friends before you aim for a boyfriend 
<2021-08-05T01:26:33.000Z> weebdivision: haha
<2021-08-05T01:26:36.000Z> weebdivision: yea
<2021-08-05T01:26:40.000Z> weebdivision: idk i got irls
<2021-08-05T01:26:47.000Z> weebdivision: but i don't really tell them personal shit
<2021-08-05T01:26:56.000Z> weebdivision: they can't even figure out i'm a fag
<2021-08-05T01:27:12.000Z> weebdivision: i even got a fuckin pride colors olympic shirt and wore it around them lol
<2021-08-05T01:28:01.000Z> Xeraser: irls can be fun to hang out with 
<2021-08-05T01:28:07.000Z> Xeraser: idk if i'd open up to the ones i have
<2021-08-05T01:28:13.000Z> Xeraser: but i'd miss them if i were to lose them
<2021-08-05T01:28:57.000Z> weebdivision: idk if they'd still hang out yea
<2021-08-05T01:29:20.000Z> weebdivision: but i'm also kinda past caring to some extent lol
<2021-08-05T01:29:52.000Z> Xeraser: yeah it sounds like you need better friends in general 
<2021-08-05T01:30:45.000Z> weebdivision: haha
<2021-08-05T01:30:52.000Z> weebdivision: people don't really like me that much
<2021-08-05T01:31:40.000Z> weebdivision: i mean they do to an extent but i'm always like second tier you know
<2021-08-05T01:32:13.000Z> Xeraser: join the club
<2021-08-05T01:32:30.000Z> Xeraser: .
<2021-08-05T01:33:09.000Z> Xeraser: either i'm going fucking crazy or i've caught like five lightnings with the corner of my eye 
<2021-08-05T01:33:43.000Z> weebdivision: storms?
<2021-08-05T01:33:58.000Z> Xeraser: no it's not even raining
<2021-08-05T01:34:02.000Z> Xeraser: at least i don't think so
<2021-08-05T01:34:04.000Z> Xeraser: lemme check
<2021-08-05T01:34:12.000Z> Xeraser: and get hit by one lmao
<2021-08-05T01:34:18.000Z> weebdivision: hahaha
<2021-08-05T01:34:25.000Z> weebdivision: got storms today it was great
<2021-08-05T01:43:52.000Z> Xeraser: yeah it's a storm
<2021-08-05T01:44:09.000Z> Xeraser: but it's distant enough that i can't even hear the thunders 
<2021-08-05T01:44:54.000Z> Xeraser: every time there's a lightning strike one of the street lamps goes out for a minute or two
<2021-08-05T01:44:57.000Z> Xeraser: same one every time
<2021-08-05T01:47:52.000Z> weebdivision: that's cool
<2021-08-05T01:48:03.000Z> weebdivision: i like when street lights are unreliable
<2021-08-05T01:48:06.000Z> weebdivision: adds a nice effect
<2021-08-05T01:48:12.000Z> weebdivision: well before the LED shit ones at least
<2021-08-05T01:48:49.000Z> Xeraser: ours are absolute garbage
<2021-08-05T01:49:04.000Z> Xeraser: my monitor probably puts out more light
<2021-08-05T01:51:24.000Z> weebdivision: actually you know
<2021-08-05T01:51:32.000Z> weebdivision: the ones here are pretty weak too now that i think about it
<2021-08-05T01:51:46.000Z> weebdivision: i don't even pay attention most of the time
<2021-08-05T01:52:13.000Z> Xeraser: ours are like
<2021-08-05T01:52:20.000Z> Xeraser: some limp-dicked orange
<2021-08-05T01:52:28.000Z> Xeraser: doesn't actually light up anything 
<2021-08-05T01:52:41.000Z> Xeraser: some of them keep flickering 
<2021-08-05T01:53:16.000Z> weebdivision: oh i like the sodium ones
<2021-08-05T01:53:28.000Z> weebdivision: old school orange din
<2021-08-05T01:53:29.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-08-05T01:55:03.000Z> Xeraser: we used to have nice white ones that actually worked but nah, gotta cut corners 
<2021-08-05T01:55:56.000Z> Xeraser: there's a ""secret"" shortcut that connects this street to the opposite one
<2021-08-05T01:56:08.000Z> Xeraser: it gets pretty damn dark there at night and i think a few people got mugged 
<2021-08-05T01:56:31.000Z> Xeraser: they still refuse to install brighter lights
<2021-08-05T01:56:36.000Z> weebdivision: wow
<2021-08-05T01:56:39.000Z> Xeraser: also it just started raining here
<2021-08-05T01:56:54.000Z> weebdivision: i saw like some towns in uk started turning off the street lights at like 2am or midnight or something
<2021-08-05T01:56:55.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-08-05T01:57:01.000Z> weebdivision: nice
<2021-08-05T01:57:30.000Z> Xeraser: oh nah ours are on from i think 8-10 pm to 7-8 am
<2021-08-05T01:59:48.000Z> weebdivision: i remember somewhere i used to live we had to pay for the street lights
<2021-08-05T01:59:59.000Z> weebdivision: like it was cheap but it was on the bill
<2021-08-05T02:00:34.000Z> Xeraser: tbh i can't remember whether we pay for these or not
<2021-08-05T02:00:36.000Z> Xeraser: we probably do
<2021-08-05T02:03:51.000Z> weebdivision: i know i do
<2021-08-05T02:03:53.000Z> weebdivision: with taxes lol
<2021-08-05T02:03:59.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-08-09T01:21:18.000Z> weebdivision: POTAT
<2021-08-09T01:21:23.000Z> weebdivision: OF JUSTYS
<2021-08-09T01:25:53.000Z> Xeraser: what
<2021-08-09T01:26:11.000Z> weebdivision: dunno lol
<2021-08-09T01:26:13.000Z> weebdivision: sup
<2021-08-09T01:26:31.000Z> weebdivision: you see the barabot pic i rt? lol
<2021-08-09T01:26:42.000Z> Xeraser: uuh no
<2021-08-09T01:29:00.000Z> weebdivision: poa.st/@barabot@hunk.city/posts/AA8Isn9M0mFenaZWKW
<2021-08-09T01:29:38.000Z> Xeraser: uuh
<2021-08-09T01:29:40.000Z> Xeraser: don't know him
<2021-08-09T01:29:59.000Z> weebdivision: i don't either but surprisingly nice from that bot lol
<2021-08-09T01:30:23.000Z> Xeraser: looks like some ripoff overwatch character or something idk
<2021-08-09T01:30:39.000Z> weebdivision: hahaha you're right
<2021-08-21T00:08:46.000Z> Xeraser: how's life
<2021-08-21T00:09:03.000Z> weebdivision: im drunk lol
<2021-08-21T00:09:11.000Z> Xeraser: then it's good
<2021-08-21T00:09:33.000Z> weebdivision: idk about that but whatever
<2021-08-21T00:09:51.000Z> weebdivision: guy i like and took trip with stopped talking to me but it isn't my fault i guess
<2021-08-21T00:10:05.000Z> weebdivision: finally got used to being alone again
<2021-08-21T00:10:29.000Z> weebdivision: BIG EXCITE
<2021-08-21T00:10:32.000Z> weebdivision: how is you
<2021-08-21T00:12:26.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-08-21T00:12:33.000Z> Xeraser: i'm sorry to hear that
<2021-08-21T00:12:44.000Z> Xeraser: but nah
<2021-08-21T00:12:46.000Z> Xeraser: you tried
<2021-08-21T00:12:49.000Z> Xeraser: not your fault 
<2021-08-21T00:14:06.000Z> weebdivision: yea well i live in hope
<2021-08-21T00:14:09.000Z> weebdivision: maybe lol
<2021-08-21T00:15:34.000Z> Xeraser: i mean yeah you sperged out a bit but you did apologize and hopefully it came across as genuine
<2021-08-21T00:15:37.000Z> Xeraser: if it did then it's his loss
<2021-08-21T00:15:56.000Z> weebdivision: p sure i have borderline personality disorder lol
<2021-08-21T00:16:03.000Z> weebdivision: but there's no treatment
<2021-08-21T00:16:05.000Z> weebdivision: so w/e
<2021-08-21T00:16:10.000Z> weebdivision: just how i am
<2021-08-21T00:16:23.000Z> weebdivision: idk maybe he'll be back
<2021-08-21T00:16:34.000Z> Xeraser: nah don't let the kikes and their psyops get to you
<2021-08-21T00:16:50.000Z> weebdivision: idk i need to get more drugs
<2021-08-21T00:16:57.000Z> weebdivision: i'm losing my mind fr
<2021-08-21T00:18:34.000Z> Xeraser: why don't you just take a week or two for yourself
<2021-08-21T00:18:39.000Z> Xeraser: do shit you like and relax
<2021-08-21T00:18:48.000Z> Xeraser: try to use your phone/pc/etc as little as possible
<2021-08-21T00:18:52.000Z> weebdivision: that's the thing i can't even do that
<2021-08-21T00:19:03.000Z> weebdivision: well i've minimized computers for a few weeks
<2021-08-21T00:19:08.000Z> weebdivision: or a ybeweek ma
<2021-08-21T00:19:40.000Z> Xeraser: why not
<2021-08-21T00:19:42.000Z> Xeraser: covid shit again?
<2021-08-21T00:19:51.000Z> weebdivision: nah
<2021-08-21T00:20:02.000Z> weebdivision: i dont know i cant do anything productive
<2021-08-21T00:20:14.000Z> weebdivision: i cant even pay my bills on time anymore
<2021-08-21T00:21:04.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-08-21T00:21:39.000Z> weebdivision: yea
<2021-08-21T00:22:21.000Z> weebdivision: we will see what psychiatrist says
<2021-08-21T00:22:27.000Z> weebdivision: lied to therapist last time lol
<2021-08-21T00:23:00.000Z> Xeraser: yeah don't do that
<2021-08-21T00:23:08.000Z> Xeraser: and try to find one that doesn't have a big nose if you can
<2021-08-21T00:23:22.000Z> weebdivision: haha mine is based he doesn't give a shit about masks and wahtever
<2021-08-21T00:23:33.000Z> Xeraser: well good
<2021-08-21T00:23:34.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah
<2021-08-21T00:23:38.000Z> Xeraser: don't lie 
<2021-08-21T00:23:41.000Z> Xeraser: won't really help you
<2021-08-21T00:23:53.000Z> weebdivision: yeah i know i try not to but i know im being stupid i just cant help it
<2021-08-21T00:24:31.000Z> weebdivision: idk i mean
<2021-08-21T00:24:39.000Z> weebdivision: i feel like im just lazy but i literally cannot do things
<2021-08-21T00:27:22.000Z> Xeraser: yeah join the club
<2021-08-21T00:27:25.000Z> Xeraser: i get like that sometimes 
<2021-08-21T00:27:30.000Z> weebdivision: it sux
<2021-08-21T00:27:55.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-08-21T00:28:15.000Z> weebdivision: i just feel like im whining all the time
<2021-08-21T00:28:30.000Z> weebdivision: dont trust any friends with how i really feel or am either, not irl
<2021-08-21T00:28:31.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-08-21T00:28:43.000Z> Xeraser: yeah i get that
<2021-08-21T00:30:21.000Z> weebdivision: man i drank too much
<2021-08-21T00:30:36.000Z> Xeraser: don't puke
<2021-08-21T00:30:48.000Z> weebdivision: at least i didn't have to drive home lol
<2021-08-21T00:30:56.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-08-21T00:33:22.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah
<2021-08-21T00:33:27.000Z> Xeraser: hope you can get your shit together
<2021-08-21T00:34:15.000Z> Xeraser: just try making new friends 
<2021-08-21T00:34:43.000Z> Xeraser: it won't do you any good if you keep thinking about the one guy that won't talk to you
<2021-08-21T00:35:06.000Z> weebdivision: kinda hard after a year of exclusivity lol
<2021-08-21T00:35:09.000Z> weebdivision: but yeah
<2021-08-21T00:36:34.000Z> Xeraser: nothing worth doing is easy
<2021-08-21T00:37:16.000Z> weebdivision: i know deep down i have to find a way to live for myself instead of others
<2021-08-21T00:37:22.000Z> weebdivision: but thats fuckin hard
<2021-08-21T00:37:27.000Z> Xeraser: yeah 
<2021-08-21T00:37:32.000Z> Xeraser: that's exactly what you gotta do
<2021-08-21T00:37:42.000Z> Xeraser: knowing it is a start 
<2021-08-21T00:45:30.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-08-21T00:45:30.000Z> weebdivision: hashtag want to go back
<2021-08-21T00:51:16.000Z> Xeraser: nah
<2021-08-21T00:51:19.000Z> Xeraser: go forward
<2021-09-07T23:44:48.000Z> Xeraser: how's you
<2021-09-07T23:46:34.000Z> weebdivision: siccish
<2021-09-07T23:46:37.000Z> weebdivision: hbu
<2021-09-07T23:46:55.000Z> Xeraser: exhausted
<2021-09-07T23:48:01.000Z> weebdivision: why's that?
<2021-09-07T23:48:41.000Z> Xeraser: can't sleep
<2021-09-07T23:48:43.000Z> Xeraser: back hurts
<2021-09-07T23:48:46.000Z> Xeraser: probably need a new leg
<2021-09-07T23:50:22.000Z> weebdivision: ahh
<2021-09-07T23:50:27.000Z> weebdivision: do they make those? lol
<2021-09-07T23:50:40.000Z> weebdivision: i'm on so many drugs for sleeping and nothing works
<2021-09-07T23:54:25.000Z> Xeraser: need a new femur
<2021-09-07T23:54:28.000Z> Xeraser: they kinda make those
<2021-09-07T23:57:32.000Z> weebdivision: oh wow
<2021-09-08T00:00:01.000Z> weebdivision: amazing they can do that
<2021-09-08T00:00:08.000Z> weebdivision: i got sucked into orthopedic youtube last month lol
<2021-09-08T00:00:30.000Z> Xeraser: it's nowhere near as good as a bone but
<2021-09-08T00:00:54.000Z> Xeraser: it's either that or constant agony and crutches/a wheelchair
<2021-09-08T00:01:07.000Z> weebdivision: yeah it's worth a try then
<2021-09-08T00:01:13.000Z> Xeraser: already got one
<2021-09-08T00:01:20.000Z> Xeraser: had to get the other one
<2021-09-08T00:01:23.000Z> Xeraser: but muh covid
<2021-09-08T00:01:34.000Z> Xeraser: it got put on hold
<2021-09-08T00:01:35.000Z> weebdivision: oh yeah they canceled a lot of surgical stuff I guess
<2021-09-08T00:01:43.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-09-08T00:01:45.000Z> weebdivision: dang is this cause of your vitamin d thing?
<2021-09-08T00:01:54.000Z> Xeraser: nah
<2021-09-08T00:01:58.000Z> weebdivision: i had to take a friend to a non critical surgery soon lol
<2021-09-08T00:02:02.000Z> weebdivision: er, i mean recently
<2021-09-08T00:02:18.000Z> weebdivision: it was creepy made me want to quit smoking lol
<2021-09-08T00:02:33.000Z> Xeraser: i mean
<2021-09-08T00:02:40.000Z> Xeraser: that's kind of a good thing isn't it
<2021-09-08T00:03:12.000Z> weebdivision: yeah i guess but it's a delicious bad habit
<2021-09-08T00:04:37.000Z> weebdivision: nobody cares when you go through withdrawl tho lol
<2021-09-08T00:48:14.000Z> Xeraser: back
<2021-09-08T00:48:17.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-09-08T00:48:27.000Z> Xeraser: i don't smoke but my best friend does
<2021-09-08T00:48:40.000Z> Xeraser: tried to quit during a bad period and the withdrawal was hell for him
<2021-09-08T00:48:48.000Z> weebdivision: tbh im sick of it
<2021-09-08T00:48:58.000Z> weebdivision: but it is fairly easy for me to quit thankfully
<2021-09-08T00:49:30.000Z> weebdivision: still get withdrawl for a bit tho
<2021-09-08T00:50:10.000Z> weebdivision: i dunno how people in other countries afford it lol
<2021-09-08T00:50:19.000Z> weebdivision: in canada it was crazy expensive for a pack
<2021-09-08T00:59:11.000Z> Xeraser: friend's in mexico
<2021-09-08T00:59:19.000Z> Xeraser: used to smoke a carton a week if not more
<2021-09-08T00:59:28.000Z> weebdivision: haha oh i guess mexico would be cheap
<2021-09-08T01:00:25.000Z> weebdivision: my lungs hurt after like 2 packs a week
<2021-09-08T01:02:40.000Z> Xeraser: that's still 40 a week 
<2021-09-08T01:10:40.000Z> weebdivision: yeah and bad with my other health problems lol
<2021-09-08T01:11:16.000Z> Xeraser: yeah don't do that thanks
<2021-09-08T01:11:37.000Z> weebdivision: haha, yeah
<2021-09-08T01:11:48.000Z> weebdivision: sux lots of time to wait before seeing shrink again
<2021-09-08T01:13:04.000Z> Xeraser: watch stuff
<2021-09-08T01:14:02.000Z> weebdivision: well i mean like 4 months
<2021-09-08T01:14:15.000Z> weebdivision: just seeing nurse in a few months lol
<2021-09-08T01:14:39.000Z> weebdivision: i got higher dose and feel worse yay
<2021-09-08T01:15:49.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-09-08T01:15:53.000Z> Xeraser: that really sucks
<2021-09-08T01:16:02.000Z> Xeraser: i'm sorry to hear that
<2021-09-08T01:16:07.000Z> Xeraser: what if you go back to the previous dose?
<2021-09-08T01:16:35.000Z> weebdivision: i could for a while but they moved me from 3 capsules to 1
<2021-09-08T01:16:43.000Z> weebdivision: so until i run out of 10mgs
<2021-09-08T01:17:08.000Z> weebdivision: i'm fairly pragmatic about it
<2021-09-08T01:17:38.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-09-08T01:17:39.000Z> Xeraser: i see
<2021-09-08T01:17:40.000Z> weebdivision: need a supplementary drug
<2021-09-08T01:17:54.000Z> weebdivision: hoping to get some wellbutrin maybe
<2021-09-08T01:18:09.000Z> weebdivision: or maybe an antipsychotic idk
<2021-09-08T01:18:17.000Z> Xeraser: doesn't that help with smoking too
<2021-09-08T01:18:24.000Z> weebdivision: yeah wellbutrin does
<2021-09-08T01:19:35.000Z> weebdivision: it's really weird
<2021-09-08T01:19:58.000Z> weebdivision: like actually not being able to get out of bed or do anything or even take a shower
<2021-09-08T01:21:22.000Z> Xeraser: take a shower stinky
<2021-09-08T01:21:35.000Z> weebdivision: haha i finally did like an hour ago or two
<2021-09-08T01:21:38.000Z> weebdivision: after 2 days
<2021-09-08T01:22:58.000Z> Xeraser: yeah good boy
<2021-09-08T01:23:52.000Z> weebdivision: need hair cut lol
<2021-09-08T01:24:13.000Z> weebdivision: hair below shoulders because i've been lazy lol
<2021-09-08T01:24:41.000Z> Xeraser: long hair works on some guys
<2021-09-08T01:25:45.000Z> weebdivision: idk i hate myself so i can't judge lol
<2021-09-12T18:30:56.000Z> Xeraser: how're you?
<2021-09-12T18:32:18.000Z> weebdivision: HELLO
<2021-09-12T18:32:37.000Z> weebdivision: trying to make it out alive lol
<2021-09-12T19:08:01.000Z> Xeraser: out of what
<2021-09-12T19:08:21.000Z> weebdivision: the weekend
<2021-09-12T19:08:33.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-09-12T19:08:36.000Z> Xeraser: yeah right
<2021-09-12T19:09:56.000Z> weebdivision: paying bills lol
<2021-09-12T19:10:02.000Z> weebdivision: for my mom
<2021-09-12T19:10:04.000Z> weebdivision: sux
<2021-09-12T19:11:09.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-09-12T19:11:21.000Z> Xeraser: why are you paying them for her
<2021-09-12T19:12:22.000Z> weebdivision: she has severe dementia
<2021-09-12T19:12:26.000Z> weebdivision: and is in a home
<2021-09-12T19:13:05.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-09-12T19:13:13.000Z> Xeraser: i'm sorry to hear that 
<2021-09-12T19:13:31.000Z> Xeraser: also sorry if you already told me i have the memory of a goldfish
<2021-09-12T19:14:01.000Z> weebdivision: same here lol
<2021-09-12T19:14:07.000Z> weebdivision: it's pretty awful
<2021-09-12T19:14:11.000Z> weebdivision: oh well
<2021-09-12T19:14:26.000Z> Xeraser: i usually have a good memory but it's been getting worse thanks to the pandemic
<2021-09-12T19:15:36.000Z> weebdivision: my mind is slowly going
<2021-09-12T19:16:05.000Z> Xeraser: mind_break but not the good kind
<2021-09-12T19:16:56.000Z> weebdivision: dude i swear
<2021-09-12T19:17:02.000Z> weebdivision: fr im gonna lose it soon
<2021-09-12T19:18:39.000Z> Xeraser: no don't
<2021-09-12T19:22:25.000Z> Xeraser: poast needs its resident trap 
<2021-09-12T19:23:29.000Z> weebdivision: lol i wish i was one but that'll never happen
<2021-09-12T19:24:03.000Z> Xeraser: put on the astolfo cosplay RIGHT NOW
<2021-09-12T19:24:09.000Z> Xeraser: fuck where's that image i need it
<2021-09-12T19:24:11.000Z> weebdivision: never bought it
<2021-09-12T19:24:18.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-09-12T19:24:21.000Z> Xeraser: hold on this will have to do
<2021-09-12T19:25:21.000Z> Xeraser: good enough  https://img.poast.org/624b284be6b6f253ae0ba5ee2bc1739dce9b3b5cfa9c50b25c5de7ed39a91e75.jpg
<2021-09-12T19:26:31.000Z> weebdivision: hahaha that's awesome
<2021-09-12T19:26:45.000Z> weebdivision: i was trying to upload astolfo feet but vpn got slow
<2021-09-12T19:27:11.000Z> Xeraser: what the fuck i hate vpns now
<2021-09-12T19:30:46.000Z> weebdivision attached file https://img.poast.org/0ed41e75fd8289831e0a9d3acbc0daf87ef66b022ca79e8adca879d385ddc88a.png
<2021-09-12T19:30:59.000Z> weebdivision attached file https://img.poast.org/514d26b97093375b2668c59e84e68b2dc48546a1a394237f389acba7c56775df.png
<2021-09-12T19:32:19.000Z> weebdivision: wow
<2021-09-12T19:32:25.000Z> weebdivision: astolfo feet band from poast
<2021-09-12T19:40:42.000Z> Xeraser: >astolfo feed banned from poast
<2021-09-12T19:40:44.000Z> Xeraser: that's it i'm moving
<2021-09-12T19:44:36.000Z> weebdivision: haha
<2021-09-12T19:44:41.000Z> weebdivision: tested it and it worked on tl
<2021-09-12T19:45:38.000Z> Xeraser: lmao i was gonna send you that same image before i opted for this one https://img.poast.org/7c450f67a4c78dbf9c017a9c8ca89e28ad651b9a9e34ac5dba1e5287be11ea57.png
<2021-09-12T19:47:06.000Z> weebdivision: because i got it from you lol
<2021-09-12T19:47:54.000Z> Xeraser: oh yeah that makes sense
<2021-09-12T19:48:09.000Z> Xeraser: i was like "HEY THAT'S MY FAVORITE HOW'D HE KNOW"
<2021-09-12T19:48:11.000Z> Xeraser: lmao
<2021-09-12T19:48:26.000Z> weebdivision: haha
<2021-09-12T19:48:57.000Z> weebdivision: luckily ive been too lazy to run my nas with pron on it lately so its still in download folder
<2021-09-12T19:49:02.000Z> Xeraser: it's probably cause
<2021-09-12T19:49:04.000Z> Xeraser: it's like uuh
<2021-09-12T19:49:08.000Z> Xeraser: 50mb or something?
<2021-09-12T19:50:11.000Z> weebdivision: oh yeah it is 20
<2021-09-12T19:50:12.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-09-12T19:50:45.000Z> Xeraser: yeah found it
<2021-09-12T19:50:48.000Z> Xeraser: 35.6
<2021-09-12T19:51:03.000Z> Xeraser: god bless upscaling
<2021-09-12T19:51:18.000Z> weebdivision: interesting, it got smaller when i got it
<2021-09-12T19:51:31.000Z> Xeraser: huh
<2021-09-12T19:51:37.000Z> Xeraser: oh yeah
<2021-09-12T19:51:45.000Z> Xeraser: poast resizes images when you upload them directly
<2021-09-12T19:51:50.000Z> Xeraser: maybe it does that for the chat too
<2021-09-12T19:53:12.000Z> weebdivision: kinda frustrating
<2021-09-12T19:53:26.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-09-12T19:53:50.000Z> Xeraser: just use catbox
<2021-09-12T19:54:00.000Z> Xeraser: or imgbb with private albums
<2021-09-12T19:54:47.000Z> weebdivision: hmm
<2021-09-12T19:58:13.000Z> weebdivision: i was gonna look into the open source e2ee discord equvalent
<2021-09-12T20:14:40.000Z> Xeraser: the what
<2021-09-12T20:15:08.000Z> weebdivision: uh, element
<2021-09-12T20:15:10.000Z> weebdivision: i think
<2021-09-12T20:15:11.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-09-12T20:15:13.000Z> Xeraser: that garbage
<2021-09-12T20:15:19.000Z> weebdivision: is it shit?
<2021-09-12T20:15:31.000Z> Xeraser: idk 9 times out of 10 it doesn't work right
<2021-09-12T20:15:35.000Z> Xeraser: ui is a mess
<2021-09-12T20:15:38.000Z> Xeraser: gives me eye cancer
<2021-09-12T20:15:54.000Z> Xeraser: i'm using xmpp with a few friends 
<2021-09-12T20:15:59.000Z> Xeraser: most clients suck ass too
<2021-09-12T20:16:05.000Z> Xeraser: but it's better than matrix
<2021-09-12T20:16:12.000Z> Xeraser: matrix/element/whatever
<2021-09-12T20:16:37.000Z> weebdivision: element is from the matrix people
<2021-09-12T20:17:20.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-09-12T20:17:21.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-09-12T20:17:22.000Z> Xeraser: that
<2021-09-12T20:17:23.000Z> Xeraser: fuck that
<2021-09-12T20:17:27.000Z> weebdivision: haha
<2021-09-12T20:17:29.000Z> weebdivision: it looks lame
<2021-09-12T20:17:32.000Z> weebdivision: actually
<2021-09-12T20:17:35.000Z> weebdivision: too bad
<2021-09-12T20:17:42.000Z> weebdivision: the signal folks need to make a hotline equivalent man
<2021-09-12T20:21:18.000Z> Xeraser: i literally just want windows live messenger but encrypted 
<2021-09-12T20:21:25.000Z> Xeraser: some people revived it but i doubt it's encrypted 
<2021-09-12T20:22:20.000Z> weebdivision: too bad irc is a pita
<2021-09-12T20:22:40.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-09-12T20:22:43.000Z> Xeraser: but it's nostalgic af
<2021-09-12T20:24:22.000Z> weebdivision: its a pain i still idle on a few channels
<2021-09-12T20:24:30.000Z> weebdivision: but rarely do i ssh in to look at it lol
<2021-09-12T20:30:03.000Z> Xeraser: just use pigeons
<2021-09-12T20:30:25.000Z> Xeraser: cons: slow
<2021-09-12T20:30:28.000Z> Xeraser: pros: birb
<2021-09-12T20:30:40.000Z> weebdivision: haha true
<2021-09-12T20:32:26.000Z> Xeraser: broke: put up with loud masturbation sounds
<2021-09-12T20:32:28.000Z> Xeraser: woke: join in
<2021-09-12T20:32:33.000Z> weebdivision: haha
<2021-09-12T20:33:07.000Z> weebdivision: dude i hate my house there's no sound isolation at all
<2021-09-12T20:33:18.000Z> weebdivision: glad im alone again
<2021-09-12T20:33:31.000Z> Xeraser: so you can jerk off all day?
<2021-09-12T20:33:43.000Z> weebdivision: yeah
<2021-09-12T20:33:48.000Z> Xeraser: hot
<2021-09-12T20:33:51.000Z> weebdivision: or use loud toys lol
<2021-09-12T20:33:57.000Z> Xeraser: also hot
<2021-09-12T20:39:54.000Z> Xeraser: do what a friend of mine does
<2021-09-12T20:40:20.000Z> Xeraser: either sit on a pillow or do it under the blankets lol
<2021-09-12T20:40:46.000Z> weebdivision: haha well doesn't matter now
<2021-09-12T20:41:07.000Z> weebdivision: but seriously even that would be hearable for half the house at least
<2021-09-12T20:41:10.000Z> weebdivision: its crazy
<2021-09-12T20:41:26.000Z> Xeraser: ..
<2021-09-12T20:41:34.000Z> weebdivision: i should clean up my bedroom more could get back on tindr/grindr lol
<2021-09-12T20:41:37.000Z> Xeraser: what the fuck do you stick in your ass
<2021-09-12T20:41:39.000Z> Xeraser: a powerdrill?
<2021-09-12T20:41:51.000Z> weebdivision: no my house is that crazy with sound transfer
<2021-09-12T20:42:03.000Z> Xeraser: buy acoustic panels
<2021-09-12T20:42:11.000Z> Xeraser: the foam ones
<2021-09-12T20:42:23.000Z> weebdivision: i just want to put in carpets
<2021-09-12T20:42:25.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-09-12T20:44:40.000Z> Xeraser: or carpets yeah 
<2021-09-12T20:48:20.000Z> Xeraser: btw
<2021-09-12T20:48:26.000Z> Xeraser: send a message when you wanna talk 
<2021-09-12T20:49:28.000Z> weebdivision: im bad at that
<2021-09-12T20:49:29.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-09-12T20:50:16.000Z> Xeraser: who isn't
<2021-09-12T20:50:59.000Z> weebdivision: haha true i guess
<2021-09-12T20:51:12.000Z> weebdivision: I <3 anxiety and paranoia tho
<2021-09-12T20:52:38.000Z> Xeraser: pretty sure that's stockholm syndrome 
<2021-09-12T20:53:24.000Z> weebdivision: hot
<2021-09-12T20:54:01.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah
<2021-09-12T20:54:10.000Z> Xeraser: here if you wanna talk 
<2021-09-12T20:55:01.000Z> weebdivision: same here when im here, i keep fedi quite isolated so dont monitor it all the time :-)
<2021-09-12T20:55:56.000Z> Xeraser: noted
<2021-09-12T20:56:21.000Z> Xeraser: tbh i don't have much to talk about, i'm fairly okay-ish at the moment
<2021-09-12T20:56:49.000Z> weebdivision: that's impressive to me
<2021-09-12T20:57:55.000Z> Xeraser: there's stuff but it's stuff that i'd rather not think about lmao
<2021-09-12T21:00:05.000Z> weebdivision: yeah i get that
<2021-09-12T21:00:22.000Z> weebdivision: i got fuckin stressed out yesterday because they coerced me into seeing my mom
<2021-09-12T21:00:30.000Z> weebdivision: and she just got worked up and thought she could come home with me
<2021-09-12T21:00:37.000Z> weebdivision: so it sucked
<2021-09-12T21:00:41.000Z> weebdivision: and took an hour
<2021-09-12T21:00:42.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-09-12T21:03:36.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-09-12T21:03:43.000Z> Xeraser: that really sucks, i'm sorry to hear that
<2021-09-12T21:04:14.000Z> Xeraser: i'm guessing she doesn't understand where she is and why?
<2021-09-12T21:05:05.000Z> weebdivision: not really, she doesn't make much sense
<2021-09-12T21:05:16.000Z> weebdivision: just sorta rambles
<2021-09-12T21:05:30.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-09-12T21:05:43.000Z> Xeraser: yeah that's depressing
<2021-09-12T21:05:43.000Z> weebdivision: she gets some stuff which is weird
<2021-09-12T21:05:47.000Z> weebdivision: and then it doesn't make sense
<2021-09-12T21:05:52.000Z> weebdivision: like she said she was thinking of having a child
<2021-09-12T21:05:58.000Z> weebdivision: and i'm just like lol i'm not sure its a great idea
<2021-09-12T21:06:05.000Z> weebdivision: but then she's on to the next thing that makes no sense
<2021-09-12T21:06:27.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-09-12T21:07:18.000Z> Xeraser: yeah that's really depressing, i'm sorry you have to go through that  
<2021-09-12T21:07:24.000Z> Xeraser: and for her ofc
<2021-09-12T21:07:29.000Z> weebdivision: im kinda numb about it
<2021-09-12T21:07:35.000Z> weebdivision: brain doesn't process it properly
<2021-09-12T21:07:48.000Z> weebdivision: but it doesnt help with everything else
<2021-09-12T21:07:56.000Z> weebdivision: there's nothing to be done
<2021-09-12T21:08:03.000Z> weebdivision: and nothing that probably could have been done really
<2021-09-12T21:08:25.000Z> Xeraser: did it come out of nowhere?
<2021-09-12T21:08:33.000Z> Xeraser: also how old are you i forgot
<2021-09-12T21:08:48.000Z> weebdivision: she started having memory problems gradually and progressively but woudln't see doctors about it
<2021-09-12T21:08:53.000Z> weebdivision: but it accelerates exponentially
<2021-09-12T21:08:55.000Z> weebdivision: i'm old as shit
<2021-09-12T21:09:02.000Z> weebdivision: i don't even know like 36 or something
<2021-09-12T21:09:46.000Z> Xeraser: wow wtf pedo
<2021-09-12T21:09:49.000Z> Xeraser: i'm kidding
<2021-09-12T21:09:57.000Z> weebdivision: hahaha
<2021-09-12T21:10:14.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah, that really sucks 
<2021-09-12T21:10:28.000Z> Xeraser: at least they're taking care of her though
<2021-09-12T21:10:38.000Z> weebdivision: yeah for $$$$$$$$$$
<2021-09-12T21:10:54.000Z> weebdivision: im burning through all her money paying for it
<2021-09-12T21:11:06.000Z> weebdivision: its almost 6k a month
<2021-09-12T21:11:18.000Z> weebdivision: so we'll see
<2021-09-12T21:11:29.000Z> weebdivision: im saving up for a 3rd year of being there
<2021-09-12T21:12:38.000Z> Xeraser: holy fuck what
<2021-09-12T21:13:23.000Z> weebdivision: yup
<2021-09-12T21:16:40.000Z> Xeraser: yeah okay i get why you're so stressed 
<2021-09-12T21:17:55.000Z> weebdivision: well and the friend i almost exclusively talked to for over a year and went on a trip with stopped talking with me a month ago
<2021-09-12T21:18:21.000Z> weebdivision: so its the 3rd time ive met or tried to meet up with someone and they disappear
<2021-09-12T21:19:00.000Z> weebdivision: before that i had like 2 abusive online relationships in one way or another
<2021-09-12T21:19:05.000Z> Xeraser: yeah you told me about that
<2021-09-12T21:19:15.000Z> Xeraser: honestly fuck him
<2021-09-12T21:19:38.000Z> weebdivision: and that was about the time that i started losing my ability to focus on anything at work and started getting so depressed i stopped taking care of myself
<2021-09-12T21:19:49.000Z> weebdivision: idk he has his own set of problems
<2021-09-12T21:20:01.000Z> weebdivision: so im not to that stage
<2021-09-12T21:20:18.000Z> weebdivision: but i feel sad seeing him online in discrode and stuff
<2021-09-12T21:20:24.000Z> Xeraser: not that kind of fucking
<2021-09-12T21:21:15.000Z> Xeraser: if he won't talk to you
<2021-09-12T21:21:27.000Z> Xeraser: just unadd him
<2021-09-12T21:21:31.000Z> Xeraser: out of sight mostly out of mind
<2021-09-12T21:21:37.000Z> weebdivision: i cant
<2021-09-12T21:21:47.000Z> weebdivision: he was there through the entire mom shit going down
<2021-09-12T21:21:52.000Z> weebdivision: and a lot of other shit
<2021-09-12T21:21:55.000Z> weebdivision: i cant give up yet
<2021-09-12T21:22:02.000Z> Xeraser: hmm
<2021-09-12T21:22:14.000Z> Xeraser: is it worth it though
<2021-09-12T21:22:20.000Z> weebdivision: i mean i have fuckin vacation pics of us together
<2021-09-12T21:22:36.000Z> Xeraser: yeah but
<2021-09-12T21:22:37.000Z> weebdivision: and a birthday present he sent me
<2021-09-12T21:22:41.000Z> Xeraser: he's not here for you now is he
<2021-09-12T21:22:57.000Z> weebdivision: i know but idk
<2021-09-12T21:23:26.000Z> Xeraser: i have quite a few good memories of my ex but that doesn't mean i want to keep chasing her 
<2021-09-12T21:25:47.000Z> Xeraser: he's been ignoring you for a while and you tried to get him back
<2021-09-12T21:26:03.000Z> Xeraser: don't keep him on a high pedestal 
<2021-09-12T21:26:24.000Z> weebdivision: thats what hed tell me to do probably
<2021-09-12T21:26:38.000Z> weebdivision: but i cant give up :(
<2021-09-12T21:27:14.000Z> Xeraser: how about
<2021-09-12T21:27:24.000Z> Xeraser: you switch targets 
<2021-09-12T21:27:32.000Z> Xeraser: you clearly got some resolve
<2021-09-12T21:27:38.000Z> Xeraser: use it on yourself first
<2021-09-12T21:28:35.000Z> weebdivision: i can do stuff for others but not myself generally
<2021-09-12T21:28:49.000Z> weebdivision: I know i should just not be a pussy lol
<2021-09-12T21:30:36.000Z> Xeraser: if you can fuck yourself you can take care of yourself
<2021-09-12T21:31:08.000Z> Xeraser: start treating yourself the way you want other to treat you
<2021-09-12T21:33:42.000Z> weebdivision: well, don't do that much anymore either lol
<2021-09-12T21:33:44.000Z> weebdivision: but yes
<2021-09-12T21:33:50.000Z> weebdivision: self esteem is 0
<2021-09-12T21:34:00.000Z> weebdivision: trying to get better
<2021-09-12T21:34:16.000Z> Xeraser: so is mine most of the time
<2021-09-12T21:37:32.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah idk i'm not good at motivating people
<2021-09-12T21:37:55.000Z> weebdivision: i mean i pay people to do that for me lol
<2021-09-12T21:38:00.000Z> weebdivision: imma smoke
<2021-09-12T21:38:30.000Z> Xeraser: no that's prostitution 
<2021-09-12T21:38:33.000Z> Xeraser: it's different 
<2021-09-12T21:43:28.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah
<2021-09-12T21:43:47.000Z> Xeraser: stop focusing on him and work on yourself first
<2021-09-12T21:44:41.000Z> weebdivision: no i mean therapist shrink etc. lol
<2021-09-12T21:44:55.000Z> weebdivision: im working on a server rn at least
<2021-09-12T21:44:59.000Z> weebdivision: instead of being a total potat
<2021-09-12T21:46:39.000Z> Xeraser: that's good
<2021-09-12T21:46:41.000Z> Xeraser: also i meant like
<2021-09-12T21:46:44.000Z> Xeraser: physically and stuff
<2021-09-12T21:47:05.000Z> Xeraser: plus you know just keeping yourself busy with shit 
<2021-09-12T21:47:19.000Z> weebdivision: im slowly getting better thanks to drugs wiwth that
<2021-09-12T21:47:23.000Z> weebdivision: lost 40 lbs lol
<2021-09-12T21:47:33.000Z> Xeraser: damn
<2021-09-12T21:47:37.000Z> Xeraser: that's a lot
<2021-09-12T21:47:43.000Z> weebdivision: yea got more to go
<2021-09-12T21:47:54.000Z> Xeraser: ight order that astolfo costume
<2021-09-12T21:47:58.000Z> weebdivision: hahaha
<2021-09-12T21:48:09.000Z> weebdivision: maybe next year
<2021-09-12T21:48:45.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah like shrink and drugs aside just keep working on yourself 
<2021-09-12T21:49:49.000Z> weebdivision: its the only good thing from all this i guess
<2021-09-12T21:50:21.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-09-12T21:50:38.000Z> Xeraser: if your self esteem won't let you do it think about it this way
<2021-09-12T21:50:47.000Z> Xeraser: fix yourself so you can be someone people want to be friends with
<2021-09-12T21:51:11.000Z> Xeraser: scummy trick but it might work
<2021-09-12T21:51:55.000Z> weebdivision: eh in person people tend to like me as a friend i guess
<2021-09-12T21:52:07.000Z> weebdivision: idk
<2021-09-12T21:52:28.000Z> weebdivision: if i can clean up a bit i might try the tinder again lol
<2021-09-12T21:52:33.000Z> weebdivision: see if its any better
<2021-09-12T21:52:52.000Z> Xeraser: idk
<2021-09-12T21:53:07.000Z> Xeraser: try to get some friends you can rely first with
<2021-09-12T21:53:15.000Z> Xeraser: .
<2021-09-12T21:53:17.000Z> Xeraser: brain
<2021-09-12T21:53:20.000Z> Xeraser: why did you do that
<2021-09-12T21:53:28.000Z> Xeraser: holy fuck my brain farted while i typed that
<2021-09-12T21:53:33.000Z> weebdivision: hahaha
<2021-09-12T21:53:48.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah
<2021-09-12T21:53:53.000Z> weebdivision: dont have any irls that arent work related is the main thing
<2021-09-12T21:54:07.000Z> weebdivision: that are in the same state anyway
<2021-09-12T21:54:18.000Z> Xeraser: they don't -have- to be irls
<2021-09-12T21:56:18.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah idk, if i were you i'd try to get a few stable friendships first before i try to date anyone again
<2021-09-12T21:58:06.000Z> weebdivision: more like grindr hookups amirite
<2021-09-12T21:58:07.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-09-12T21:58:18.000Z> Xeraser: no
<2021-09-12T21:59:59.000Z> weebdivision: i did that once lol
<2021-09-12T22:00:20.000Z> Xeraser: if you're gonna fuck with someone at least do it with a friend
<2021-09-12T22:01:16.000Z> weebdivision: its so scummy lol
<2021-09-12T22:01:50.000Z> Xeraser: what, casual grindr hookups?
<2021-09-12T22:01:56.000Z> weebdivision: yea
<2021-09-12T22:02:04.000Z> weebdivision: the people on there in general
<2021-09-12T22:02:32.000Z> Xeraser: yeah i bet
<2021-09-12T22:03:07.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah
<2021-09-12T22:03:18.000Z> Xeraser: take care of yourself please
<2021-09-12T22:04:48.000Z> weebdivision: we'll see lol thanks
<2021-09-12T22:05:22.000Z> Xeraser: np
<2021-09-12T22:05:38.000Z> Xeraser: anyone who's nice to me and isn't a niggerkiketranny is automatically a friend of mine
<2021-09-12T22:06:46.000Z> weebdivision: hahaha
<2021-09-12T22:06:49.000Z> weebdivision: yea same
<2021-09-12T22:07:02.000Z> weebdivision: back in the day everyone was freinds
<2021-09-12T22:07:13.000Z> weebdivision: twitter was full of mean spirited people
<2021-09-12T22:07:21.000Z> Xeraser: still is lol
<2021-09-12T22:07:24.000Z> weebdivision: and retards
<2021-09-12T22:07:27.000Z> Xeraser: i mean i'm an asshole
<2021-09-12T22:07:31.000Z> Xeraser: but i care about my friends 
<2021-09-12T22:07:37.000Z> Xeraser: so take care of yourself 
<2021-09-12T22:08:11.000Z> weebdivision: i mean if someone isnt an asshole thats kinda sus
<2021-09-12T22:08:13.000Z> weebdivision: tbh
<2021-09-12T22:08:15.000Z> weebdivision: XD
<2021-09-12T22:08:47.000Z> Xeraser: >sus
<2021-09-12T22:08:47.000Z> Xeraser: ok
<2021-09-12T22:08:50.000Z> Xeraser: get away from me
<2021-09-12T22:08:55.000Z> weebdivision: haha
<2021-09-12T22:08:56.000Z> Xeraser: you ANIMAL
<2021-09-12T22:08:58.000Z> Xeraser: jkjk
<2021-09-12T22:13:22.000Z> Xeraser: but yeah
<2021-09-12T22:13:27.000Z> Xeraser: here whenever you wanna talk
<2021-09-12T22:16:15.000Z> weebdivision: im glad i found poast at least
<2021-09-12T22:16:39.000Z> Xeraser: yeah, it's funalso here https://img.poast.org/231c9e14fda7ece0a21cc214d0d8c7105df35331b204ab7b1ac8d2774eb4d447.png
<2021-09-12T22:16:47.000Z> Xeraser: i swear i lost most of the astolfo stuff i upscaled
<2021-09-12T22:17:45.000Z> weebdivision: aw
<2021-09-12T22:17:59.000Z> Xeraser: yeah idk it's just not here
<2021-09-12T22:18:19.000Z> weebdivision: I need to setup my storage again and write some scripts and stuff to dedupe it
<2021-09-12T22:18:40.000Z> Xeraser: there's uh
<2021-09-12T22:18:42.000Z> Xeraser: a thing
<2021-09-12T22:18:46.000Z> Xeraser: to find duplicates
<2021-09-12T22:19:07.000Z> weebdivision: eh i can write something myself pretty easily
<2021-09-12T22:19:11.000Z> weebdivision: would be a nice distraction
<2021-09-12T22:19:26.000Z> Xeraser: oh yeah why not
<2021-09-12T22:23:35.000Z> Xeraser: if you wanna waste some time maybe try to mess around with software synths and shit
<2021-09-12T22:25:37.000Z> weebdivision: i've forgotten all my music theory lol
<2021-09-12T22:25:50.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/8214aaf081b7364268860d176eca66816843a05151c5aecfd54b718f5f19b9b6.png
<2021-09-12T22:25:56.000Z> Xeraser: to be fucking honest
<2021-09-12T22:25:58.000Z> weebdivision: if it gets colder i can do more computer stuff at home since it wont get so hot
<2021-09-12T22:26:04.000Z> Xeraser: music theory is fucking overrated lol
<2021-09-12T22:26:36.000Z> Xeraser: at least anything more than the basics 
<2021-09-12T22:30:26.000Z> weebdivision: I think my right brain is uh
<2021-09-12T22:30:28.000Z> weebdivision: broken
<2021-09-12T22:30:52.000Z> Xeraser: have you tried sleeping
<2021-09-12T22:31:19.000Z> weebdivision: havent slept properly in over a year
<2021-09-12T22:31:24.000Z> weebdivision: on many drugs for it
<2021-09-12T22:31:37.000Z> Xeraser: oh
<2021-09-12T22:31:38.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-09-12T22:31:38.000Z> Xeraser: right
<2021-09-12T22:32:05.000Z> Xeraser: have you tried draining your dick until you pass out
<2021-09-12T22:32:08.000Z> Xeraser: jk
<2021-09-12T22:32:11.000Z> Xeraser: strong alcohol?
<2021-09-12T22:32:27.000Z> weebdivision: cant drink enough to pass out due to meds im on lol
<2021-09-12T22:32:46.000Z> Xeraser: god damnit
<2021-09-12T22:32:55.000Z> weebdivision: yeah
<2021-09-12T22:32:58.000Z> weebdivision: welcome to my joyful life
<2021-09-12T22:33:13.000Z> weebdivision: i'm on like 13-15 medications rn :D
<2021-09-12T22:33:42.000Z> Xeraser: damn i wasn't on that much shit even when i had cancer
<2021-09-12T22:35:49.000Z> weebdivision: oh god you had cancer?
<2021-09-12T22:36:03.000Z> Xeraser: leukemia
<2021-09-12T22:36:06.000Z> Xeraser: three times lmao
<2021-09-12T22:36:13.000Z> weebdivision: oh i think you told me before jesus
<2021-09-12T22:36:45.000Z> weebdivision: yea my body is super resistent to treatments
<2021-09-12T22:36:57.000Z> weebdivision: but super sensitive to some stuff
<2021-09-12T22:37:09.000Z> Xeraser: yeah makes sense 
<2021-09-12T22:45:44.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-09-12T22:45:47.000Z> weebdivision: i love getting deep on the tl
<2021-09-12T22:56:48.000Z> Xeraser: yeah it's fun
<2021-09-12T23:03:35.000Z> Xeraser: FUCK
<2021-09-12T23:04:23.000Z> weebdivision: ??
<2021-09-12T23:04:25.000Z> weebdivision: sup
<2021-09-12T23:05:15.000Z> Xeraser: i have the bad habit of drinking like half a liter of water from a bottle in one go then immediately regret it
<2021-09-12T23:05:37.000Z> weebdivision: hahaha i used to do that with pellegrino
<2021-09-12T23:05:48.000Z> weebdivision: but now i cant get it cheap unless i drive half an hour each way
<2021-09-12T23:05:54.000Z> weebdivision: and its only plastic bottles
<2021-09-12T23:06:27.000Z> Xeraser: pellegrino?
<2021-09-12T23:06:33.000Z> Xeraser: .. the fucking
<2021-09-12T23:06:36.000Z> Xeraser: bottled water?
<2021-09-12T23:06:40.000Z> weebdivision: yea
<2021-09-12T23:06:47.000Z> Xeraser: .
<2021-09-12T23:06:49.000Z> Xeraser: what the fuck
<2021-09-12T23:06:54.000Z> Xeraser: i didn't know they exported it lmao 
<2021-09-12T23:07:06.000Z> weebdivision: hahaha
<2021-09-12T23:07:16.000Z> weebdivision: yea its fancy or whatever
<2021-09-12T23:07:23.000Z> weebdivision: price has gone up a lot though
<2021-09-12T23:07:52.000Z> Xeraser: nah it's overpriced here too
<2021-09-12T23:08:59.000Z> weebdivision: hm too bad
<2021-09-12T23:09:12.000Z> weebdivision: i do crave it but it tastes bad out of plastic
<2021-09-12T23:10:22.000Z> Xeraser: yeah most things do
<2021-09-18T14:39:29.000Z> Xeraser attached file https://img.poast.org/bafe8d8d6206c90a9b028c6bb251a5dd21e4d9249669aacbcc207862d9260d35.jpg
<2021-09-18T22:24:40.000Z> weebdivision: ooh nice one
<2021-09-18T22:24:54.000Z> weebdivision: i've been on phone so no chat, just got on desktop :D
<2021-09-18T22:35:17.000Z> Xeraser: oh, hello 
<2021-09-18T22:36:02.000Z> weebdivision: what's up!
<2021-09-18T22:36:29.000Z> Xeraser: MY DICK
<2021-09-18T22:36:31.000Z> Xeraser: jkjk
<2021-09-18T22:36:41.000Z> Xeraser: nothing much been feeling quite nauseous all day
<2021-09-18T22:36:51.000Z> Xeraser: probably shouldn't have had dinner earlier 
<2021-09-18T22:37:00.000Z> weebdivision: ha
<2021-09-18T22:37:11.000Z> weebdivision: that sucks
<2021-09-18T22:37:47.000Z> weebdivision: been a bit ticky for two weeks myself
<2021-09-18T22:41:47.000Z> weebdivision: need to start starving myself again fr
<2021-09-18T22:42:03.000Z> Xeraser: starving bad
<2021-09-18T22:43:46.000Z> weebdivision: I DESERVE STARVATION
<2021-09-18T22:43:47.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-09-18T22:44:04.000Z> Xeraser: no
<2021-09-18T22:48:17.000Z> weebdivision: i wish i was disabled enough to have time to write my own os
<2021-09-18T22:48:19.000Z> weebdivision: lol
<2021-09-18T22:48:25.000Z> weebdivision: that'd be fun
<2021-09-18T22:48:54.000Z> Xeraser: eh even i got bored of playing games and shit all day 
<2021-09-18T22:49:07.000Z> Xeraser: probably burnt myself out with everything lol
<2021-09-18T22:49:36.000Z> weebdivision: yeah i'm burnt out on life
<2021-09-18T22:49:47.000Z> Xeraser: same
<2021-09-18T22:49:57.000Z> weebdivision: its terrible... just hoping drugs work at some point
<2021-09-18T22:50:10.000Z> Xeraser: nah
<2021-09-18T22:50:15.000Z> Xeraser: honestly force yourself to do stuff
<2021-09-18T22:50:41.000Z> Xeraser: stuff
<2021-09-18T22:50:45.000Z> Xeraser: not taking dick
<2021-09-18T22:51:24.000Z> weebdivision: hahaha
<2021-09-18T22:51:30.000Z> weebdivision: i try but it doesn't work honestly
<2021-09-18T22:51:45.000Z> weebdivision: at least dr appts are next week
<2021-09-19T01:12:42.000Z> Xeraser: might not work at first but it'll work eventually
<2021-09-19T01:12:55.000Z> Xeraser: still better than doing nothing honestly, if anything it'll make you feel better later
<2021-09-19T16:27:50.000Z> weebdivision: yeah :/
<2021-09-29T00:18:42.000Z> weebdivision: are you on discrode
<2021-09-29T17:57:38.000Z> Xeraser: yeah
<2021-09-29T17:59:39.000Z> Xeraser: Xeraser#4741
<2021-09-29T23:28:32.000Z> weebdivision: oooo cool
<2021-09-29T23:41:40.000Z> weebdivision: poa.st/@weebdivision/posts/ABq03ceHHaFan4isrI