<2022-11-28T09:57:53.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: do you remember back 2 or 3 years ago on the kiwi discord when we'd butt heads over the whole porn and whores topic? you flipped absolute dogshit at me multiple times for giving scoldings and lectures or just my views and learnings about the harms of porn and other promiscuous behavior alongside other misc incel type shit. you'd disagreed with me strongly, called me retarded and all that. at some point, you stopped doing that. later on, you'd even joined me in my stance a few times. it's been surreal hearing and reading how your values have changed since back when i thought for sure you were going to ban me for digging my heels in on this topic. this isn't me taking credit. this isn't me having an "i told you so" moment. this is just me being some random chick on the internet who used to piss you off with the truth being happy for having gotten to see one of her favorite personalities grow as a person in real time. if i've ever weirded you out for seeming too emotionally invested in your well being, well now i've finally told you why. i don't know if you remember anything i'm talking about and i haven't said any of this to you before because i'm sure i must sound like a parasocial case gone wrong if you don't remember. anyway whatever. i'm worried and relieved to finally tell you this and i hope you don't think i have some kind of creepy fixation on you like the kid who used to follow me home from school every day for a year when i was 13. not a lot of people are changing in the direction you have, including almost everyone who's ever been in my life, so it warms my cold dead heart, not to see you anguishing over this modern degenerate bullshit, but because you're making the conscious choice to be above it. thank you for evolving as a person while still being the real you. alright, now i'm going to go try to distract myself from how worried i am that finally saying this is just going to get some kind of bad reaction from you. goodnight. 
<2022-11-28T13:19:18.000Z> josh: i honestly don't remember any of this so don't take it personally
<2022-11-28T13:20:15.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: i don't take that personally at all. i'm well aware that i'm just one of thousands of voices in your world. 
<2023-01-17T08:43:26.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: dude, i'm getting fucking nervous for you. idk if you have a gf and you're getting horrible at not dropping hints or if you're dragging a red herring. it's bad enough that faggots fuck with you as hard as they do, but it's a whole other ballgame if they go after someone who's more vulnerable that you have an objective obligation to protect. please be more aware about the hints you're dropping. if you've got a s/o, i'm so goddamn happy for you, to hell with the bucket of incel crabs, congratulations on how far you've come and a person since those early kiwi discord days. please don't fuck it up, please don't let psychos fuck it up, and please don't get yourself fucked over in the meantime. 
<2023-01-17T09:15:35.000Z> josh: I don't know what you're talking about.
<2023-01-17T09:15:54.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: good answer
<2023-01-17T09:16:07.000Z> josh: I'm not playing a game 
<2023-01-17T09:17:07.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: look, i'm not expecting the truth if the clues line up. if it's just been you getting sentimental/worried about your future/whatever, then no big deal
<2023-01-17T09:17:37.000Z> josh: I legit have no fucking clue what you're talking about. You might want to take a step back.
<2023-01-17T09:18:23.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: i'm not the only one who's noticed, it's just weird. i'm not trying to cause problems
<2023-01-17T09:18:41.000Z> josh: bro
<2023-01-17T09:18:42.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: either way, take care, alright?
<2023-01-17T09:18:46.000Z> josh: imagine if i emailed you out of nowher
<2023-01-17T09:18:50.000Z> josh: STOP TALKING ABOUT THE SHEEP
<2023-01-17T09:18:53.000Z> josh: and then refuse to elaborate
<2023-01-17T09:19:07.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: alright, i will damn
<2023-01-17T09:19:17.000Z> josh: or elaborate what the fuck you mean
<2023-01-17T09:19:20.000Z> josh: jesus
<2023-01-17T09:19:26.000Z> josh: people are fucking dense
<2023-01-17T09:21:48.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: you've brought up wanting to move someone from ukraine in the same timeframe of the topic of you having a gf has been brought up by you and a few other ppl. then you start fixating on vague and large monetary numbers without context when all i (and some others) can ever remember you talking about that is in the context of specific site costs. there were some other tidbits here and there that i'm struggling to get to the top of my head
<2023-01-17T09:22:45.000Z> josh: i've been trying to move my friend out of Ukraine for like 2 years, I mentioned it before elsewhere.
<2023-01-17T09:22:50.000Z> josh: also i've been talking about buying a house for years
<2023-01-17T09:23:26.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: then the convo w/ that trannysucker tom was a bit weird regarding his current and future shit. it's just been getting a bit weird lately and it made me nervous for you
<2023-01-17T09:23:49.000Z> josh: what did I say with turkey tom besides general dating advice
<2023-01-17T09:23:53.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: i know, i just worry about ppl, i have no Y chromie, sue me
<2023-01-17T09:24:29.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: it sounded as though you were speaking to him from your own position of present and future
<2023-01-17T09:25:42.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: look, i know you wouldn't be able to say so if it's the case and i don't want you to. the possibility at all however small is reason enough to point it out. get it?
<2023-01-17T09:26:03.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: a lot of fucking ppl want to see you succeed
<2023-01-17T09:26:12.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: does that not mean shit?
<2023-01-17T09:26:57.000Z> josh: sure but like i said
<2023-01-17T09:27:03.000Z> josh: "don't talk about the sheep" ok, well explain
<2023-01-17T09:27:19.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: sheep?
<2023-01-17T09:27:25.000Z> josh: yes
<2023-01-17T09:27:26.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: did i make a typo?
<2023-01-17T09:27:31.000Z> josh: you randomly message me saying "DON'T TALK ABOUT X"
<2023-01-17T09:27:36.000Z> josh: and refuse to elaborate without serious prodding
<2023-01-17T09:27:39.000Z> josh: man i feel like im talking to a wall
<2023-01-17T09:28:08.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: dude, i made it clear it sounds like you have a gf and that was the topic
<2023-01-17T09:28:24.000Z> josh: yes
<2023-01-17T09:28:27.000Z> josh: nevermind
<2023-01-17T09:28:30.000Z> josh: cheers, thanks for the concern
<2023-01-17T09:29:20.000Z> nonconsentual_pronouns@chudbuds.lol: i thought it was clear and elaborated enough