<2023-04-28T02:05:06.000Z> johnbudd1350: You're a good sport, I wish you luck in your love life endeavors 
<2023-04-28T02:10:30.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Thanks! I appreciate your kind words. And I wish you luck as well. You seem like a nice guy. We need more good fathers. 
<2023-04-28T02:19:28.000Z> johnbudd1350: Appreciate it. I do mean it too btw, I'm all about making good connections irl 
<2023-04-28T02:22:53.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Yes! I like making those connections with like minded people. 
<2023-04-28T03:50:45.000Z> johnbudd1350: Well I'm going to a concert in Cincinnati if you're free May 8th (my tab), other than that I'm good for anything (concerts, food, working out, climbing, w/e)
<2023-04-28T11:53:59.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: I’m in Texas! But thank you for the pffer 
<2023-04-28T11:54:18.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: *offer. Stupid fingers haha
<2023-04-28T14:45:39.000Z> johnbudd1350: Bro I was literally just in Texas last weekend. I will definitely be back 
<2023-04-28T14:46:20.000Z> johnbudd1350: Either way we need to do a plane ticket 
<2023-04-28T14:47:17.000Z> johnbudd1350: I did say "my tab", remember 
<2023-04-28T16:27:22.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: What were you in Texas for?
<2023-04-28T23:16:51.000Z> johnbudd1350: Seeing an egirl lol 
<2023-04-28T23:17:08.000Z> johnbudd1350: Went to some concerts, met her family, etc 
<2023-04-28T23:17:17.000Z> johnbudd1350: Was a great time 
<2023-04-28T23:18:45.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Aww that’s sweet. Was she nice?
<2023-04-28T23:25:54.000Z> johnbudd1350: Yeah it really raised the bar for my self confidence and hope for finding a good woman 
<2023-04-28T23:26:22.000Z> johnbudd1350: A relationship doesn't look like it's happening with her, but I'm still very happy 
<2023-04-28T23:27:30.000Z> johnbudd1350: Her family really wants her to find a husband though lmao 
<2023-04-29T00:25:05.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Why no relationship? Too far away?
<2023-04-29T00:41:41.000Z> johnbudd1350: No she's just emotionally unavailable. She's never had a relationship, and her capacity for human contact is very low. She describes herself as asexual and aromantic 
<2023-04-29T00:42:15.000Z> johnbudd1350: But at the same time we both clearly enjoy spending a lot of time together, so I'm just gonna keep doing that but try to keep my expectations low 
<2023-04-29T00:42:39.000Z> johnbudd1350: Like I barely got her to hold my hand this weekend lol, and she was clearly struggling while doing it 
<2023-04-29T00:43:12.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Aww sounds like she just needs to come out of her shell
<2023-04-29T00:43:33.000Z> johnbudd1350: Yeah that's my reasoning as well, which is why I'm still kinda hanging on 
<2023-04-29T00:43:56.000Z> johnbudd1350: There's also a big age gap, she's much younger than me and in college 
<2023-04-29T00:44:19.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: That’s awesome that you went to see her though. Age gap smage gap
<2023-04-29T00:44:49.000Z> johnbudd1350: I know right? I've never felt this way about a girl before. Maybe my high school sweetheart over a decade ago 
<2023-04-29T00:45:50.000Z> johnbudd1350: God that trip was so fun though. Already planning another one, but this time she'll see me. So I guess she's interested but has no idea what a relationship even is 
<2023-04-29T00:46:57.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Well, I’m rooting for you two! Do you mind if I pray for you?
<2023-04-29T00:47:14.000Z> johnbudd1350: That would be awesome, thank you 
<2023-04-29T00:48:11.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Absolutely! Did her family like you?
<2023-04-29T02:03:26.000Z> johnbudd1350: Her family absolutely adored me. They want to find her a husband so badly lol 
<2023-04-29T02:12:01.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: That’s cute. Ugh it warms my heart. 
<2023-04-29T02:20:25.000Z> johnbudd1350: Me too, I like her a lot. Might not be actually "dating" but I enjoy my time with her. One day at a time 
<2023-04-29T02:23:13.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: You’re dating. She just doesn’t know it yet :)
<2023-04-29T03:04:30.000Z> johnbudd1350: LOL I needed to hear that, thank you 
<2023-04-29T03:07:50.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Goodnight and sweet dreams!
<2023-04-29T03:36:48.000Z> johnbudd1350: You too :) 
<2023-05-03T03:06:48.000Z> johnbudd1350: I will no shit take you on a rock climbing date, no joke 
<2023-05-03T03:09:12.000Z> johnbudd1350: dinner, exercise, make new friends, what could go wrong 
<2023-05-03T03:25:47.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: That’s a really generous offer! And I’m flattered. But I’m not looking to date anyone right now. I have a lot going on. And I literally don’t have any free time. Kinda sad but it’s the truth!
<2023-05-03T03:33:46.000Z> johnbudd1350: To take your own advice:
<2023-05-03T03:33:57.000Z> johnbudd1350: "Be romantic and she’ll realize that she likes it. Then 20 years from now she’ll complain that you’re never romantic anymore like you used to be" 
<2023-05-03T03:34:21.000Z> johnbudd1350: You're just getting me to be more persistent now lmao 
<2023-05-03T03:34:52.000Z> johnbudd1350: But for real I appreciate the candor; just know that your grace here is only more fuel to try harder next time 
<2023-05-03T12:19:13.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Awww, but I’m already a hopeless romantic! You don’t have to convince me haha
<2023-05-03T15:15:36.000Z> johnbudd1350: I'm trying to convince you to go on a date!! Much harder, but it seems totally worth it. Whatever the outcome, you seem like a person worth getting to know. 
<2023-05-03T15:19:43.000Z> johnbudd1350: And about the time and energy thing; I don't have to be your boyfriend and take up all your energy. Just getting to know you is good enough for me. 
<2023-05-03T18:44:37.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: I’d like to be friends! That sounds nice. When shit hits the fan, we’re gonna need all the friends we can get. And you know, as we build those relationships, we’re really building a community. 
<2023-05-03T18:45:17.000Z> johnbudd1350: exactly my thought process too. I've met people irl like this before and it usually turns out really well. Long term friends with some to this day, years later 
<2023-05-03T18:46:28.000Z> johnbudd1350: I was gonna suggest we chat on matrix but it seems registrations are still closed 
<2023-05-03T18:46:49.000Z> johnbudd1350: if you're good with a discord alt we can do that 
<2023-05-03T18:48:29.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Oh I’ve never used discord
<2023-05-03T18:48:47.000Z> johnbudd1350: it's better than giving out your phone number lol 
<2023-05-03T18:49:13.000Z> johnbudd1350: just use a different email account 
<2023-05-03T19:17:17.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Haha yeah no kidding. I have an account on the NCD chat server on Element. I talk to people there. 
<2023-05-03T19:18:33.000Z> johnbudd1350: Ah neat. Could I join you there? 
<2023-05-03T19:19:19.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Uhh I guess so. Matty has the information on the chat page for NCD. 
<2023-05-03T19:22:04.000Z> johnbudd1350: Ok I'll reach out to him, thank you 
<2023-05-03T19:28:20.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: https://nicecrew.digital/about/chat
<2023-05-03T19:29:02.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: You’re welcome! We’ve got a group chat that a lot of us use. 
<2023-05-12T02:21:29.000Z> johnbudd1350: lol poa.st/objects/7125e1b6-de49-494e-a0f2-08409502a6eb
<2023-05-12T02:41:41.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Haha
<2023-05-12T07:19:11.000Z> johnbudd1350: I'm gonna join that chat server soon btw, I've really just been insanely busy although that sounds like a cope
<2023-05-12T07:19:19.000Z> johnbudd1350: parenting + work is a fucking slog lol 
<2023-05-12T12:22:56.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Oh you have kids? That’s nice 
<2023-05-12T16:10:26.000Z> johnbudd1350: Yeah single dad life. I've posted about it before, but yeah that's why I'm so serious about dating/finding a wife. Getting older now and I still want my own nuclear family 
<2023-05-12T16:13:47.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: If it’s not inappropriate to ask, where is the mother?
<2023-05-12T16:26:17.000Z> johnbudd1350: It's fine I've talked about this before. She cheated and left me to marry her boyfriend. Got joint custody now, just trying to put my life back together. 
<2023-05-12T16:26:30.000Z> johnbudd1350: Things are much better now though! Still hard 
<2023-05-12T16:44:58.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Oh wow. That’s horrible. Is she at least good to the kids?
<2023-05-12T16:54:58.000Z> johnbudd1350: Yeah she does love them. She just hated me 
<2023-05-12T18:03:04.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: Agh, that’s so sad. 
<2023-05-12T18:10:51.000Z> johnbudd1350: Life is moving on, I'm picking up some seriously good hobbies and have lost 35 lbs. Also talking to some nice girls online!! 
<2023-05-13T00:27:02.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: What kinda of hobbies?
<2023-05-13T00:42:17.000Z> johnbudd1350: Cycling, gardening, rock climbing, lifting, swimming with the kids and volunteering for their sports teams 
<2023-05-13T00:42:51.000Z> johnbudd1350: Oh yeah and I sing and play music for church now 
<2023-05-13T00:43:50.000Z> johnbudd1350: The receptionist at the gym asked if I lost weight, she had me look at my original picture for my ID and I don't even recognize him 
<2023-05-13T01:27:22.000Z> Impaler@nicecrew.digital: I’m glad you’re taking care of yourself and finding new joys in life :)