<2021-05-25T17:18:11.000Z> hard_no: Okay. Am here. Hate mobile typing. 
<2021-05-25T17:24:03.000Z> hard_no: Np
<2021-05-25T17:24:58.000Z> hard_no: Really? Like removing how
<2021-05-25T17:26:04.000Z> hard_no: Eli 5 am retarded today
<2021-05-25T17:27:26.000Z> hard_no: That's dumb. I wonder if it's from the "upgrade" 
<2021-05-25T17:27:35.000Z> hard_no: Or may
<2021-05-25T17:27:40.000Z> hard_no: K
<2021-05-26T06:13:46.000Z> hard_no: yeah
<2021-05-26T06:14:11.000Z> hard_no: no, I'm up tonight for whatever reason. 
<2021-05-26T06:14:49.000Z> hard_no: eh, it's whatever. It happens. 
<2021-05-26T06:15:05.000Z> hard_no: right?
<2021-05-26T06:15:23.000Z> hard_no: we had a good thing over there
<2021-05-26T06:16:44.000Z> hard_no: I think it was a bunch of stuff, tbh, but yeah, there was some ego in there, we got insta blocked all the time for the degenerates thing, which cracked me up.
<2021-05-26T06:17:19.000Z> hard_no: oh for ffs. don't tell me that about the smileys!
<2021-05-26T06:17:55.000Z> hard_no: no. should I?
<2021-05-26T06:18:13.000Z> hard_no: And if so, short dissertation and why, pls
<2021-05-26T06:19:01.000Z> hard_no: hmm.... 
<2021-05-26T06:19:35.000Z> hard_no: I'll give it a look then. I do appreciate being able to actually talk to people, you know?
<2021-05-26T06:20:01.000Z> hard_no: excellent. I do enjoy meme theivery.
<2021-05-26T06:21:28.000Z> hard_no: Well, see, if the ADL hates is, I'm in
<2021-05-26T06:23:58.000Z> hard_no: right. 
<2021-05-26T06:24:56.000Z> hard_no: WI now. 
<2021-05-26T06:25:25.000Z> hard_no: Hey! Me too!
<2021-05-26T06:25:48.000Z> hard_no: My town is alright, but fucking niggers everywhere.
<2021-05-26T06:26:39.000Z> hard_no: It's so fucking ridiculous with the politics. 
<2021-05-26T06:26:55.000Z> hard_no: No. I don't do netflix
<2021-05-26T06:27:10.000Z> hard_no: I'll pirate that shit tho, what's the title?
<2021-05-26T06:29:16.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, i remember the name, the story, just never watched it. I'll go find it later. 
<2021-05-26T06:29:34.000Z> hard_no: That's some shit about the law school stuff.
<2021-05-26T06:30:20.000Z> hard_no: Oh lord, what a fuckin shit show joke that whole thing was. I couldn't watch either. 
<2021-05-26T06:31:03.000Z> hard_no: Awesome. 
<2021-05-26T06:33:39.000Z> hard_no: Grew up in Mt. 
<2021-05-26T06:33:47.000Z> hard_no: I suck at staying totally anon.
<2021-05-26T06:34:57.000Z> hard_no: Nah, I'll end up in the gulag anyway, so it's cool
<2021-05-26T06:35:53.000Z> hard_no: Married the military, and then moved to SD, then WA, then WI. 
<2021-05-26T06:36:19.000Z> hard_no: Oh shit!
<2021-05-26T06:37:43.000Z> hard_no: I was worried about the husband's security clearance checks when we first got married, because I got into some trouble when I was 19. It was supposed to get wiped of my record, but I never went back to check if it was. Must have been, because he always made his clearance with no problem
<2021-05-26T06:38:19.000Z> hard_no: Before I got married my name was def google-able. 
<2021-05-26T06:38:25.000Z> hard_no: Not so much now. 
<2021-05-26T06:38:46.000Z> hard_no: Nice!
<2021-05-26T06:39:34.000Z> hard_no: I bet. Do you practice now?
<2021-05-26T06:40:41.000Z> hard_no: Damn. I worked with kids like you for awhile.
<2021-05-26T06:41:22.000Z> hard_no: So all that time and effort and money and you hate it.
<2021-05-26T06:42:38.000Z> hard_no: No, I think I get it. The way you poast, I think I get it. 
<2021-05-26T06:53:34.000Z> hard_no: There's gotta' be more here...don't leave me hangin'
<2021-05-26T07:01:10.000Z> hard_no: No, no, I didn't mean to pry, just seemed like there was more to the explanation of the not practicing thing. That's all. 
<2021-05-26T07:01:59.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, you've lived some life. 
<2021-05-26T07:02:44.000Z> hard_no: That makes perfect sense. 
<2021-05-26T07:03:16.000Z> hard_no: I hate hearing all these good dudes on gab and here talk about not having families, and how hard it is to find decent women. It kills me. 
<2021-05-26T07:06:05.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I can see the appellate writing. I love reading your posts. 
<2021-05-26T07:07:35.000Z> hard_no: Well, doesn't it take a certain amount of ego to just survive a childhood like yours? And then law school? I mean, seriously. 
<2021-05-26T07:08:03.000Z> hard_no: And yes, NPD and BPD go hand in hand a lot. Like, mis diagnosed as each other a lot. 
<2021-05-26T07:09:14.000Z> hard_no: nice.
<2021-05-26T07:10:49.000Z> hard_no: This makes so much sense. 
<2021-05-26T07:14:32.000Z> hard_no: np
<2021-05-26T07:20:42.000Z> hard_no: Oh my god that's hilarious!!!!   Hahahahahaa!!!
<2021-05-26T07:22:44.000Z> hard_no: That's fucking hysterical. Oh my god, this kid was spitting mad!
<2021-05-26T07:23:54.000Z> hard_no: I love the whole "happen to be hanging from a giant oak tree in your backyard". That'd gold. 
<2021-05-26T07:24:19.000Z> hard_no: Oh the lulz.
<2021-05-26T07:25:24.000Z> hard_no: Early internet was the best internet.
<2021-05-26T07:26:06.000Z> hard_no: Yep.
<2021-05-26T07:26:34.000Z> hard_no: Smooth transition. 
<2021-05-26T07:27:44.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I don't buy into the whole northwest plan or whatever so much, but everybody needs a dream.
<2021-05-26T07:28:52.000Z> hard_no: I don't think so.
<2021-05-26T07:33:51.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha! That's pretty funny. I'm going from basically zero social media to being all over the fucking place in the span of a year. Good lord. 
<2021-05-26T07:35:37.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I just pulled it up; that was the *first* social media, Mat, that's what those message boards were. The boards, the chat rooms, that's what that all was. 
<2021-05-26T07:36:13.000Z> hard_no: Fediverse is a weird place, man. 
<2021-05-26T07:41:01.000Z> hard_no: I'm gonna' bookmark that for later. I'm actually getting sleepy finally. 
<2021-05-26T07:41:49.000Z> hard_no: I'm reading that with my coffee in the morning. 
<2021-05-26T07:42:38.000Z> hard_no: No, my kids are still virtual, plus they're in high school. They are old enough to make their own damn lunches (actually, they've been doing that since they were like 10).
<2021-05-26T07:43:40.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha! I have raised very independent, capable children. 
<2021-05-26T07:44:08.000Z> hard_no: They even made their own dinners tonight, cuz the Mr was at a work thing. 
<2021-05-26T07:45:11.000Z> hard_no: One of each. Girl is 17, boy is 15. Freshman and Jr. 
<2021-05-26T07:46:59.000Z> hard_no: Some. I wrote a paper using his theories on introversion/extroversion etc. and how it relates to finding appropriate matches in therapist/client relationships. 
<2021-05-26T07:47:16.000Z> hard_no: My prof wanted me to expand it into a doctoral thesis. 
<2021-05-26T07:48:54.000Z> hard_no: yeah. It's cool, the soldiers have no say, and his army was vastly different than now, even though it was still al fir Israel. 
<2021-05-26T07:49:08.000Z> hard_no: all for
<2021-05-26T07:49:35.000Z> hard_no: typing one handed so i can smoke. such a fucking addict. 
<2021-05-26T07:51:18.000Z> hard_no: Hit 45 and it will... probably.
<2021-05-26T07:51:51.000Z> hard_no: I love smoking. Adore it. I'm awful.
<2021-05-26T07:53:00.000Z> hard_no: Not like a chain smoker, and no one ever knows I smoke until they see me do it, but god I love it.
<2021-05-26T07:54:22.000Z> hard_no: Growing up in MT every boy dipped by high school. It was kind of gross at a point, like, I don't want to kiss you if you have to spit first. 
<2021-05-26T07:55:49.000Z> hard_no: No, just a decent dude who wants to kiss girls. 
<2021-05-26T07:57:15.000Z> hard_no: Me too. Wimmen are the worst. Except me, I'm a fucking treasure. And probably like 7 others world wide. 
<2021-05-26T08:02:27.000Z> hard_no: Eh, I refer to myself as a "girl" more often than a "woman" for whatever reason. I think you're probably right about LMA being older though, I don't know why I thought she was so young. I guess I always thing people are younger than I am now. 
<2021-05-26T08:03:23.000Z> hard_no: HAhahaha!
<2021-05-26T08:04:04.000Z> hard_no: I miss MT something awful. It was really a great childhood. I had one set of grandparents who had horses and a farm/ranch, and another set who lived on a lake close to a big ski hill. I had it pretty good. 
<2021-05-26T08:04:28.000Z> hard_no: I did. 
<2021-05-26T08:04:52.000Z> hard_no: I could probably still saddle up if I tried.
<2021-05-26T08:06:03.000Z> hard_no: We rode bareback when we were really little. I have some great pictures of me and my brother all brown like little indians with bleach blonde hair on the back of a beautiful Chinook horse. 
<2021-05-26T08:07:05.000Z> hard_no: No. Last time I was on a horse I was 14. 
<2021-05-26T08:08:10.000Z> hard_no: It's an expensive hobby, and once my grandpa passed, the horses were too much to care for and they couldn't earn their keep (he was a cowboy of sorts), so that was that. 
<2021-05-26T08:09:22.000Z> hard_no: Alright Mat, I'm done for the night. 
<2021-05-26T08:09:41.000Z> hard_no: That's generally how that goes. 
<2021-05-26T08:09:55.000Z> hard_no: I gotta go get some sleep. I'll talk to you tomorrow?
<2021-05-27T14:40:23.000Z> hard_no: What did you do now? 
<2021-05-27T14:41:46.000Z> hard_no: Use your words 
<2021-05-27T14:42:29.000Z> hard_no: Yes... 
<2021-05-27T14:44:57.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha! I love the internet. Totally believe it. 
<2021-05-27T14:45:47.000Z> hard_no: Right
<2021-05-27T14:46:03.000Z> hard_no: No, that's good.
<2021-05-27T14:47:25.000Z> hard_no: Pretty funny, too. She knew who you were the whole time? 
<2021-05-27T14:47:48.000Z> hard_no: I think she might follow me? 
<2021-05-27T14:48:30.000Z> hard_no: I se
<2021-05-27T14:48:44.000Z> hard_no: Fukn fingers on phone
<2021-05-27T14:49:56.000Z> hard_no: I totally stalk my friends pages. Gab doesn't show me poasts, i'ma stalk. 
<2021-05-27T14:54:24.000Z> hard_no: I need some coffee first. I
<2021-05-27T14:56:04.000Z> hard_no: Literally just getting up. Gimee like 10min
<2021-05-27T14:59:23.000Z> hard_no: Ugh. I'm actually a Karen. 
<2021-05-27T14:59:54.000Z> hard_no: It was before the meme
<2021-05-27T15:00:52.000Z> hard_no: Right? 
<2021-05-27T15:01:41.000Z> hard_no: Ahahaha! 
<2021-05-27T15:02:23.000Z> hard_no: You can call me whatever you like. 
<2021-05-27T15:03:15.000Z> hard_no: Joe's are good, never met a Steve who wasn't a complete fucktard in one regard or another
<2021-05-27T15:04:06.000Z> hard_no: I need a drum and cymbal ba dum cha meme for that Virginia joke 
<2021-05-27T15:04:57.000Z> hard_no: Get rid of the. Ide
<2021-05-27T15:05:05.000Z> hard_no: Fuk
<2021-05-27T15:05:56.000Z> hard_no: Get rid of the mid wits and retards and geniuses are on equal footing
<2021-05-27T15:06:17.000Z> hard_no: Fukn Satan phone keyboard 
<2021-05-27T15:09:59.000Z> hard_no: Oof
<2021-05-27T15:10:42.000Z> hard_no: Probably not. 
<2021-05-27T15:12:07.000Z> hard_no: I have a fucked up mil med story for you when I'm not on the phone. Too much typing 
<2021-05-27T15:12:41.000Z> hard_no: Wink wink
<2021-05-27T15:13:17.000Z> hard_no: That's fucked up though 
<2021-05-27T15:14:16.000Z> hard_no: Yikes. Never had a bad trip. 10/10 would shroom again
<2021-05-27T15:15:38.000Z> hard_no: Acid if it was clean, and not too speedy
<2021-05-27T15:16:08.000Z> hard_no: Fukn steves
<2021-05-27T15:18:20.000Z> hard_no: I had so many good trips. Concerts, camping, just screwing around with my buddies. We weren't degens, but we did stuff
<2021-05-27T15:19:07.000Z> hard_no: That's hardcore though
<2021-05-27T15:21:25.000Z> hard_no: Never did either. Likely would have enjoyed. Am very good at drugs. 
<2021-05-27T15:23:36.000Z> hard_no: Damn. 
<2021-05-27T15:23:46.000Z> hard_no: Ti
<2021-05-27T15:23:57.000Z> hard_no: Totally does 
<2021-05-27T15:25:14.000Z> hard_no: We probably wouldn't be friends if you had 
<2021-05-27T15:26:07.000Z> hard_no: Maybe, but not necess
<2021-05-27T15:26:15.000Z> hard_no: Necessarily 
<2021-05-27T15:27:00.000Z> hard_no: You'd love Israel. Can you even imagine 
<2021-05-27T15:27:41.000Z> hard_no: Your soul would be broken 
<2021-05-27T15:28:09.000Z> hard_no: Your kids would be gay and trannies
<2021-05-27T15:28:39.000Z> hard_no: Best goy ever
<2021-05-27T15:29:24.000Z> hard_no: You're like deep cover 
<2021-05-27T15:29:59.000Z> hard_no: No kidding
<2021-05-27T15:30:36.000Z> hard_no: Christ, man, what didn't you do? 
<2021-05-27T15:31:05.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! 
<2021-05-27T15:32:26.000Z> hard_no: No... 
<2021-05-27T15:34:27.000Z> hard_no: Familiar name
<2021-05-27T15:36:20.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! Serious damages there. That must have been a fucking trip. 
<2021-05-27T15:37:32.000Z> hard_no: The whole thing was so... 
<2021-05-27T15:39:37.000Z> hard_no: You are most likely the most interesting person I currently know. 
<2021-05-27T15:40:44.000Z> hard_no: Oh man. Fucked that one up
<2021-05-27T15:43:49.000Z> hard_no: What would you do if you could go back 
<2021-05-27T15:44:36.000Z> hard_no: We're all immortal when we're young
<2021-05-27T15:45:04.000Z> hard_no: Either or
<2021-05-27T15:48:23.000Z> hard_no: You are "intriguing", I'll grant you that
<2021-05-27T15:49:57.000Z> hard_no: You're fine. 
<2021-05-27T15:52:30.000Z> hard_no: It was a total set up!
<2021-05-27T15:53:11.000Z> hard_no: Nice.
<2021-05-27T15:54:27.000Z> hard_no: That's actually a really good story though
<2021-05-27T15:55:39.000Z> hard_no: No weirder than usual
<2021-05-27T15:57:56.000Z> hard_no: Some of us are magiv
<2021-05-27T15:57:58.000Z> hard_no: magic
<2021-05-27T16:03:06.000Z> hard_no: I hate when girls do that "plan" crap and change for dudes. It's not cool
<2021-05-27T16:03:14.000Z> hard_no: No. I love a good story. 
<2021-05-27T16:05:11.000Z> hard_no: I hate stupid women. Why do they have to do that shit? 
<2021-05-27T16:05:27.000Z> hard_no: Like, if you feel inferior for the man you're with, make yourself better, dumbass.
<2021-05-27T16:05:50.000Z> hard_no: So not okay.
<2021-05-27T16:07:19.000Z> hard_no: Oof. BPD is one of the worst personality disorders there is. 
<2021-05-27T16:08:54.000Z> hard_no: I briefly dated a borderline in college and it was too much.  Just fucking intense
<2021-05-27T16:10:45.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. It was... bizarre. Like bipolar, but with a whole lot of other crazy mixed in. BPD is almost a catchall of sorts. 
<2021-05-27T16:12:53.000Z> hard_no: Yep.
<2021-05-27T16:13:48.000Z> hard_no: Yep.
<2021-05-27T16:14:10.000Z> hard_no: I'm not being short, just, you know, not much to add here. 
<2021-05-27T16:20:01.000Z> hard_no: What a fucking disaster
<2021-05-27T16:20:27.000Z> hard_no: That's just a mess dude.
<2021-05-27T16:21:20.000Z> hard_no: Oof. Well, someone had to do it, right?
<2021-05-27T16:21:53.000Z> hard_no: If she was BPD, I imagine it was pretty much all crazy with a tiny bit of normal sprinkled in. 
<2021-05-27T16:22:56.000Z> hard_no: That's very bizarre. 
<2021-05-27T16:24:05.000Z> hard_no: It is sort of curious though, the whole explosion of BPD in the last generation or so. I mean, there's always been crazy women, it's kind of what we do; but this particular set of characteristics, the why's and wherefore's always kind of bugged me. Like with autism. 
<2021-05-27T16:25:46.000Z> hard_no: I think there's more to it than that though, I think there's something to the explosion of the psychological  mass marketing of therapy and normalization of mental illness/therapy. But yeah, broken homes are a huge factor. 
<2021-05-27T16:26:50.000Z> hard_no: Undiagnosed isn't even a factor though, it's more like  you don't have to handle your own shit anymore, it's okay to be crazy.  
<2021-05-27T16:27:46.000Z> hard_no: God I hate women. 
<2021-05-27T16:28:43.000Z> hard_no: It's like so many of them believe that having a vagina gives them a complete pass for being a cunt. It's not that magical, lady. 
<2021-05-27T16:29:13.000Z> hard_no: The smart ones are always crazier in my experience
<2021-05-27T16:31:36.000Z> hard_no: It was never  *not* goiing to be your fault.
<2021-05-27T16:32:25.000Z> hard_no: That's more than fair.
<2021-05-27T16:35:04.000Z> hard_no: Christ man
<2021-05-27T16:35:51.000Z> hard_no: wow
<2021-05-27T16:36:13.000Z> hard_no: Of course they did
<2021-05-27T16:36:52.000Z> hard_no: Good friends always do
<2021-05-27T16:37:17.000Z> hard_no: Or a woman
<2021-05-27T16:38:00.000Z> hard_no: You shouldn't be. Just do it. 
<2021-05-27T16:39:23.000Z> hard_no: I'd have to be ultra deep cover with all the antisemitsms and raycisms I post.
<2021-05-27T16:41:43.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha!
<2021-05-27T16:44:02.000Z> hard_no: I give you my word as a misogynist. 
<2021-05-27T16:44:38.000Z> hard_no: Mat, whatever you want to do. 
<2021-05-27T16:45:24.000Z> hard_no: I have no reason to ruin anyone's life.
<2021-05-27T16:45:32.000Z> hard_no: I have like three.
<2021-05-27T16:45:40.000Z> hard_no: kmr3@pm.me
<2021-05-27T16:47:19.000Z> hard_no: Meh, I honestly don't think it was as good as my prof thought it was. I'll see if I can dig it up though. Mostly it was a lot of psychobabble. 
<2021-05-27T16:47:21.000Z> hard_no: Sure.
<2021-05-27T16:47:42.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I can write the shit out of an academic paper.
<2021-05-27T16:48:15.000Z> hard_no: It's been like 13 years since I wrote that paper. 
<2021-05-27T16:50:09.000Z> hard_no: Many such cases! My bachelor's thesis... it wasn't even a full paper; it was on peer pressure type shit - group dynamics, and my prof basically stole it. 
<2021-05-27T16:50:18.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I like you.
<2021-05-27T16:51:04.000Z> hard_no: No, but I put me email up there right before you posted yours. Did you see it?
<2021-05-27T16:51:39.000Z> hard_no: Eh, it's whatever.
<2021-05-27T16:51:54.000Z> hard_no: Bossy pants
<2021-05-27T16:53:00.000Z> hard_no: No. I'm slow. 
<2021-05-27T16:53:25.000Z> hard_no: Bet me.
<2021-05-27T16:58:22.000Z> hard_no: Whatever. You're a dork.
<2021-05-27T16:59:30.000Z> hard_no: Ooooh!!! I'm making more coffee. I'm very excited now. 
<2021-05-27T17:00:08.000Z> hard_no: Shutup
<2021-05-27T17:00:25.000Z> hard_no: You're not wrong. Also, stawp.
<2021-05-27T17:00:51.000Z> hard_no: I know. I'm on to you.
<2021-05-27T17:01:46.000Z> hard_no: Thumbs up emoji
<2021-05-27T17:25:40.000Z> hard_no: Oh ffs. Got it, read it, liked it. It's very coherent, which is weird, you know, coming from you. It's an excellent article. 
<2021-05-27T17:26:04.000Z> hard_no: Also, bix is a fucking disaster most of the time. good god. 
<2021-05-27T17:30:33.000Z> hard_no: I like the True Ignorance, but I seriously want to take a red pen to it and correct the fuck out of it. You wrote that in high school, right?
<2021-05-27T17:34:27.000Z> hard_no: This would be why.
<2021-05-27T17:35:26.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, that feels right. 
<2021-05-27T17:36:56.000Z> hard_no: It's not *that* bad, I mean, the message is good, and it's directed at a specific audience, but yeah, red pen.
<2021-05-27T17:37:34.000Z> hard_no: Oh jesus.
<2021-05-27T17:38:36.000Z> hard_no: Oh man, no kidding. Anything more than like  7 sentences and they're like tl;dr, and I'm like fucking read, you moron. It won't kill you.
<2021-05-27T17:39:54.000Z> hard_no: 90's internet was the best internet. 
<2021-05-27T17:41:06.000Z> hard_no: Nice!
<2021-05-27T17:41:29.000Z> hard_no: You've had some kind of life, man. 
<2021-05-27T17:43:07.000Z> hard_no: Except, it kind of is; you've had more life than most people. Accept that. 
<2021-05-27T17:44:10.000Z> hard_no: It's pretty obvious at this point, tbh, has been for awhile
<2021-05-27T17:45:04.000Z> hard_no: Which is sort of good and bad at the same time? Or am I just being retarded?
<2021-05-27T17:45:29.000Z> hard_no: I have a harder and harder time telling when I'm being a complete midwit these days.
<2021-05-27T17:47:16.000Z> hard_no: yeah. The left has moved so far to the left, it's fallen off the fucking cliff. 
<2021-05-27T17:47:48.000Z> hard_no: I know
<2021-05-27T17:47:59.000Z> hard_no: The polarization is kind of unreal these days
<2021-05-27T17:48:44.000Z> hard_no: damn
<2021-05-27T17:49:11.000Z> hard_no: I mean, it's not wrong. Anyone who's seen a dead Irishman...
<2021-05-27T17:49:46.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha!
<2021-05-27T17:50:15.000Z> hard_no: Well, he's got that shit down
<2021-05-27T17:51:13.000Z> hard_no: It's all so tiresome. 
<2021-05-27T17:51:32.000Z> hard_no: I get exhausted trying to weed through the bullshit
<2021-05-27T17:52:17.000Z> hard_no: And on that comment, I think I won't. unless I really feel like hating myself
<2021-05-27T17:52:25.000Z> hard_no: ewe
<2021-05-27T17:52:27.000Z> hard_no: and icky
<2021-05-27T17:53:39.000Z> hard_no: I mean, what's not these days? Like, seriously? 98.8% of everything is fake and gay.
<2021-05-27T17:55:02.000Z> hard_no: They'd probably kill themselves before finishing
<2021-05-27T18:01:42.000Z> hard_no: I think this same grift has been around for a long time, right? It's just more obvious now with the speed of information and the lack of intelligence/criminal smoothness of the grifters. I could be wrong though.
<2021-05-27T18:25:18.000Z> hard_no: Nah, you're good. No worries.
<2021-05-27T18:58:57.000Z> hard_no: It was just a paper that my prof really liked and wanted me to turn into a dissertation. It was 13 years ago now. I probably have it on a 3x5 disc somewhere for sure, maybe on a drive. 
<2021-05-27T19:00:02.000Z> hard_no: What was it? If you don't mind me asking
<2021-05-27T19:42:56.000Z> hard_no: Yes. Twice, actually. 
<2021-05-27T19:43:20.000Z> hard_no: Oh, dude, I want to read THAT paper. 
<2021-05-27T19:54:43.000Z> hard_no: eh, no big
<2021-05-27T19:55:57.000Z> hard_no: I would love that. 
<2021-05-27T19:56:00.000Z> hard_no: Fucking yahoo
<2021-05-27T19:57:49.000Z> hard_no: The town I grew up in in MT had a HUGE Irish population. We had the Lace Curtain Irish, and the regular Irish. It was still quite a rift even 100 years later between the Hill and the Flats. 
<2021-05-27T21:11:24.000Z> hard_no: Thumbs up emoji
<2021-05-27T22:12:09.000Z> hard_no: Yeah
<2021-05-27T22:12:33.000Z> hard_no: The whole damn thing. I love that shit. 
<2021-05-27T22:13:40.000Z> hard_no: I am an incredible nerd. I didn't go through all the footnotes, but I did have a strong urge to print it out so I could go back later, take notes and do so. 
<2021-05-27T22:14:19.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. I wanted to be a writer when I was younger, I still toy with that idea sometimes. 
<2021-05-27T22:15:09.000Z> hard_no: hahaha!
<2021-05-27T22:16:11.000Z> hard_no: I've lived a sheltered enough life that I have a hard time distinguishing my asians. 
<2021-05-27T22:16:47.000Z> hard_no: Wow. I would have thought chock full of the jooz
<2021-05-27T22:17:23.000Z> hard_no: wow. Maybe they were all at Harvard
<2021-05-27T22:18:00.000Z> hard_no: Not so much though. You really write well. 
<2021-05-27T22:19:48.000Z> hard_no: Hey, whatever gets you there. Getting out of school without debt is a bit fucking deal
<2021-05-27T22:20:32.000Z> hard_no: I knew it was a great Law school, didn't know it was *that* great. Very cool. 
<2021-05-27T22:21:08.000Z> hard_no: I'm sure. Your LSAT must have been spectacular. 
<2021-05-27T22:22:20.000Z> hard_no: Interesting. You really don't strike me as the self conscious type. But online is different, I guess. 
<2021-05-27T22:23:04.000Z> hard_no: You're one of *those* guys. Not in a bad way
<2021-05-27T22:24:33.000Z> hard_no: Large situations are very uncontrollable and unpredictable. 
<2021-05-27T22:26:18.000Z> hard_no: Maintaining a comfort level of control can be extraordinarily difficult. It does take a lot of energy and focus for a lot of people. Most people, in fact. 
<2021-05-27T22:27:03.000Z> hard_no: In large groups, I mean. 
<2021-05-27T22:29:26.000Z> hard_no: You were also on defense, the crowd bit, so there's that.
<2021-05-27T22:32:17.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, no, most smart ambitious women are not pretty; this is why they're so ambitious. 
<2021-05-27T22:33:28.000Z> hard_no: Cats, wine, and whatever the e-hookup thing is that I can't remember the name of at the moment
<2021-05-27T22:34:10.000Z> hard_no: So gross. 
<2021-05-27T22:35:22.000Z> hard_no: I'm so disgusted with human beings.
<2021-05-27T22:36:48.000Z> hard_no: Right? I'm sure the Game dudes do it all the time. 
<2021-05-27T22:37:04.000Z> hard_no: He does seem pretty genuinely reformed.
<2021-05-27T22:37:35.000Z> hard_no: Most everything is at this point.
<2021-05-27T22:38:45.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, chicks love witty banter. Can confirm, am chick.
<2021-05-27T22:38:58.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-27T22:39:51.000Z> hard_no: Listen to you all with the normal masculinity and shit. Dying breed.
<2021-05-27T22:41:04.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. It's tragic what's happened to the men. It pisses me off, quite frankly. 
<2021-05-27T22:41:37.000Z> hard_no: Single mothers, absent fathers, "toxic masculinity"
<2021-05-27T22:42:34.000Z> hard_no: Mothers have failed their children in the last couple generations. It makes me so angry I can't even put it into coherent words most of the time.
<2021-05-27T22:43:29.000Z> hard_no: Usually it ends up as "fucking women"
<2021-05-27T22:44:47.000Z> hard_no: The whole thing is just a fucking disaster
<2021-05-27T22:45:39.000Z> hard_no: Which also pisses me off. Good lord I'm just angry today maybe
<2021-05-27T22:47:04.000Z> hard_no: Are you fucking kidding me?
<2021-05-27T22:47:11.000Z> hard_no: Of course she is.
<2021-05-27T22:48:31.000Z> hard_no: Education for me but not for thee. Sounds right though
<2021-05-27T22:49:11.000Z> hard_no: If my kids were little now, I would be homeschooling them. I wish I'd been this redpilled 15 years ago.
<2021-05-27T22:49:48.000Z> hard_no: I'll look him up.
<2021-05-27T22:50:05.000Z> hard_no: I do. i so do
<2021-05-27T22:50:16.000Z> hard_no: Albert Jay
<2021-05-27T22:51:33.000Z> hard_no: I'll be buying that later tonight. 
<2021-05-27T22:52:37.000Z> hard_no: Any other recommended reads while I'm at the bookstore? Not Amazon, I've got a small one out of Alabama that I can use to ship stuff.
<2021-05-27T22:55:20.000Z> hard_no: From what I've seen, they're kind of specialized though. store.mises.org/Mission.aspx
<2021-05-27T22:56:32.000Z> hard_no: If you've got rec's on other mainstream stuff, I'll find another place. I refuse to use big box anything anymore. Fuck them all. 
<2021-05-27T22:57:19.000Z> hard_no: Econ stuff?
<2021-05-27T22:58:21.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. The Mises site has a bio on him
<2021-05-27T22:59:00.000Z> hard_no: probably
<2021-05-27T23:00:24.000Z> hard_no: Damn. He had his fingers in everything.
<2021-05-27T23:00:29.000Z> hard_no: just not big box
<2021-05-27T23:01:57.000Z> hard_no: I will read anything. Seriously
<2021-05-27T23:02:57.000Z> hard_no: Yeah,  she's not dumb by a long shot
<2021-05-27T23:04:00.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha!
<2021-05-27T23:05:12.000Z> hard_no: Looks like I can read Yockey online through the wayback machine.
<2021-05-27T23:05:53.000Z> hard_no: I'm preddy good with the google machine myself, sir
<2021-05-27T23:06:15.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I'm pretty partial to actual physical books tbh
<2021-05-27T23:06:22.000Z> hard_no: Okay fine, show off\
<2021-05-27T23:07:47.000Z> hard_no: This is actually great. I have like 400$ of play money from birthdays and Im going to spend it on based books
<2021-05-27T23:09:48.000Z> hard_no: I would never
<2021-05-27T23:10:19.000Z> hard_no: Oooh. This looks lovely! (arktos)
<2021-05-27T23:11:26.000Z> hard_no: I'm a fucking unicorn, Sean. What do I keep telling you? Why does no one believe me in this? I'm also fairly attractive. Whole fucking package.
<2021-05-27T23:13:25.000Z> hard_no: no. Am unfamiliar
<2021-05-27T23:15:16.000Z> hard_no: boo. That's just not cool. 
<2021-05-27T23:15:51.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! 
<2021-05-27T23:17:01.000Z> hard_no: the Mr is a fan, he used to watch it with his granddad. You and he have some similar history with the being raised by grandparents. I give him crap about it, call it his soap operas. 
<2021-05-27T23:17:36.000Z> hard_no: He wrestled in high school, so does the son. 
<2021-05-27T23:17:45.000Z> hard_no: will do
<2021-05-27T23:18:29.000Z> hard_no: He (Mr) actually does some coaching for one of the leagues for the younger kids
<2021-05-27T23:18:52.000Z> hard_no: Well after that, what is there?
<2021-05-27T23:18:54.000Z> hard_no: Nice
<2021-05-27T23:19:28.000Z> hard_no: I gotta go make dinner. I'll be back in like an hour or so
<2021-05-27T23:19:49.000Z> hard_no: or periodically once things are cooking
<2021-05-28T00:39:04.000Z> hard_no: Back.
<2021-05-28T00:40:17.000Z> hard_no: So Benoit... Mr says: Totally one of his favorites; still on the fence about what happened, hasn't seen definitive proof one way or the other, but believes he would have been found innocent by a jury due to the brain injury. 
<2021-05-28T00:40:52.000Z> hard_no: He totally lit up when I asked him, too. I never ask him about the wrestling stuff. He talked for like 15 minutes about it. It was kind of funny.
<2021-05-28T03:10:08.000Z> hard_no: Just hanging out, waiting for the coffee to wear off.
<2021-05-28T03:10:52.000Z> hard_no: I also now know what a chick heel manager is, or however you say that
<2021-05-28T03:12:03.000Z> hard_no: Mr was really pointed in the bit about how he's been completely erased
<2021-05-28T03:12:31.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! Yes, I would probably excel at that.
<2021-05-28T03:13:26.000Z> hard_no: The whole thing sounds just super tragic.
<2021-05-28T03:14:20.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I imagine. 
<2021-05-28T03:14:54.000Z> hard_no: ?
<2021-05-28T03:15:23.000Z> hard_no: Other drama?
<2021-05-28T03:17:19.000Z> hard_no: gotcha. I'm sure he does then. Like I said, it was a thing with him and his granddad, he still watches sometimes, I don't give him too much crap about it. 
<2021-05-28T03:18:09.000Z> hard_no: Yes, I believe I would. 
<2021-05-28T03:18:55.000Z> hard_no: Yes, I've seen some the women and I can imagine that it might be, uh, rated.
<2021-05-28T03:19:13.000Z> hard_no: Dang!
<2021-05-28T03:20:39.000Z> hard_no: The things we never forget...
<2021-05-28T03:20:59.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T03:23:02.000Z> hard_no: Oops! You were a kid, what did you know?
<2021-05-28T03:25:21.000Z> hard_no: Ohio
<2021-05-28T03:25:48.000Z> hard_no: Probably. 
<2021-05-28T03:25:58.000Z> hard_no: Pretty sure I'm a good 10 years older than you
<2021-05-28T03:26:37.000Z> hard_no: And he's 2 years older than me, so chances are good.
<2021-05-28T03:27:25.000Z> hard_no: Like, I know all the names, but I always thought it was fake and gay. 
<2021-05-28T03:27:38.000Z> hard_no: Well not all the names, but some of them
<2021-05-28T03:28:57.000Z> hard_no: Right. I mean, it's still super athletic and everything, just staged and more drama than sport.
<2021-05-28T03:29:12.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T03:30:50.000Z> hard_no: Of course they were. Anywhere money is to be made...
<2021-05-28T03:31:12.000Z> hard_no: That's kind of cool about the carny bit though
<2021-05-28T03:34:13.000Z> hard_no: That's crazy. UFC used to be completely legit. WTF
<2021-05-28T03:34:40.000Z> hard_no: Probably. 
<2021-05-28T03:35:12.000Z> hard_no: We have an askren club in the next little town over.
<2021-05-28T03:35:34.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. It's pretty legit. Pricey as fuck though
<2021-05-28T03:35:57.000Z> hard_no: I have no idea
<2021-05-28T03:36:07.000Z> hard_no: Maybe?
<2021-05-28T03:36:56.000Z> hard_no: All I know is that their kids beat our kids pretty much every single match. They were hardcore. 
<2021-05-28T03:37:16.000Z> hard_no: Fun fact, my kid actually won a national title the second year he wrestled.
<2021-05-28T03:38:11.000Z> hard_no: He only had one opponent in his weight class though, so it wasn't as big a deal as it might have been. But he's got bragging rights.
<2021-05-28T03:39:02.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I worry about him tbh. 
<2021-05-28T03:39:40.000Z> hard_no: Oh, we are def not that
<2021-05-28T03:39:56.000Z> hard_no: not really white trash either though, pretty middle of the road
<2021-05-28T03:40:06.000Z> hard_no: yeah
<2021-05-28T03:40:17.000Z> hard_no: I know what you mean
<2021-05-28T03:42:11.000Z> hard_no: Yeah - how much of a shitshow is Philly these days? or are you elsewhere in PA now?
<2021-05-28T03:42:25.000Z> hard_no: Not so much
<2021-05-28T03:42:47.000Z> hard_no: I think he watches some maybe, but he doesn't have the connection to it, you know what I mean?
<2021-05-28T03:45:11.000Z> hard_no: Other side? 
<2021-05-28T03:45:43.000Z> hard_no: No. 
<2021-05-28T03:47:14.000Z> hard_no: Sure... uh huh... okay... 
<2021-05-28T03:47:14.000Z> hard_no: Nah, you're good
<2021-05-28T03:47:40.000Z> hard_no: I miss the emotes man, they came in handy
<2021-05-28T03:48:45.000Z> hard_no: Hahahahaha! See, that would have been my first question too, though
<2021-05-28T03:50:16.000Z> hard_no: Guess I'll be finding that to pirate. 
<2021-05-28T03:50:57.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I do like a good psych-o story, true crime, super abpsych stuff, I would have made a pretty decent profiler, tbh
<2021-05-28T03:51:59.000Z> hard_no: Excellent.
<2021-05-28T03:53:15.000Z> hard_no: Nice!
<2021-05-28T03:54:51.000Z> hard_no: You *are* a talker
<2021-05-28T03:55:21.000Z> hard_no: That actually sounds very familiar
<2021-05-28T03:55:38.000Z> hard_no: okay, yeah. 
<2021-05-28T03:56:06.000Z> hard_no: Crazy shit. Yeah
<2021-05-28T03:56:50.000Z> hard_no: It shouldn't be forbidden. Psychedelics could do a lot of good for a lot of people. 
<2021-05-28T03:57:35.000Z> hard_no: There is a fine line between doing the drugs and the drugs doing you, esp with the psych stuffs
<2021-05-28T03:58:45.000Z> hard_no: Like the original mdma trials were really great, except for the docs then joining in and the whole thing becoming a weird orgy. If it's controlled properly, all kinds of good shit can happen
<2021-05-28T03:59:06.000Z> hard_no: You are correct.
<2021-05-28T03:59:53.000Z> hard_no: I cannot tell you how pissed it makes me to hear people talk about being "triggered" and their "ptsd" from some pansy ass events. 
<2021-05-28T04:00:25.000Z> hard_no: Like, there are serious events that happen to people that actually cause these things to happen, and for you to take these words makes the whole thing a fucking joke
<2021-05-28T04:00:38.000Z> hard_no: Some of us went through some shit 
<2021-05-28T04:00:46.000Z> hard_no: That's why they called it shell shock
<2021-05-28T04:00:52.000Z> hard_no: That never should have changed
<2021-05-28T04:01:47.000Z> hard_no: no...
<2021-05-28T04:02:32.000Z> hard_no: I am intrigued for sure. 
<2021-05-28T04:03:33.000Z> hard_no: Anything traumatic enough... but actual trauma. Like the kind that rearranges synapses and fucks with the chemical processes. THAT is trauma. 
<2021-05-28T04:03:55.000Z> hard_no: I get a little hot on that shit.
<2021-05-28T04:04:50.000Z> hard_no: You had a pretty fucked up childhood, and long term trauma stuff can mess with you in the same way that brief intense trauma can
<2021-05-28T04:05:02.000Z> hard_no: Right
<2021-05-28T04:06:40.000Z> hard_no: You experienced?
<2021-05-28T04:08:22.000Z> hard_no: Did you have other manic stuff going on at the same time?
<2021-05-28T04:09:08.000Z> hard_no: It is, it's like hyper memory. But it's common in manic episodes.
<2021-05-28T04:09:28.000Z> hard_no: Common is maybe an overstatement, but yeah. 
<2021-05-28T04:10:03.000Z> hard_no: Are you familiar with hypo mania?
<2021-05-28T04:10:48.000Z> hard_no: Well, some do, mania is different for every person. It's a lack of inhibition basically.
<2021-05-28T04:11:03.000Z> hard_no: So hypo mania is... 
<2021-05-28T04:12:14.000Z> hard_no: it can feel like being super productive and just really good. Like, not manic or "unwell", or abnormally "good", just really, really, good.
<2021-05-28T04:12:25.000Z> hard_no: I don't know if I'm explaining the very well.
<2021-05-28T04:12:35.000Z> hard_no: this
<2021-05-28T04:13:16.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, okay, and maybe you sleep a little less, and don't eat as much or quite the same, and maybe you smoke a little more than usual.
<2021-05-28T04:14:14.000Z> hard_no: But it doesn't necessarily feel like anything is wrong. That's the bottom line. You're different, but it's kind of subtle, and there's not the same destructive behaviors that go with true mania
<2021-05-28T04:15:25.000Z> hard_no: It's really common in people with any sort of episodic depression, even really mild.
<2021-05-28T04:15:51.000Z> hard_no: Yes. 
<2021-05-28T04:16:19.000Z> hard_no: And, is very common (most often found, in fact) in trauma survivors.
<2021-05-28T04:19:44.000Z> hard_no: I have no room to judge anyone on that kind of shit. I spent most of my teens and 20's in some sort of therapy. I went through some stuff. 
<2021-05-28T04:21:43.000Z> hard_no: Wellbutrin is pretty mild, but yeah, it can kill you sex drive. 
<2021-05-28T04:23:16.000Z> hard_no: Maybe it's a girl thing...
<2021-05-28T04:23:40.000Z> hard_no: Norepinepherine
<2021-05-28T04:24:32.000Z> hard_no: Right? And honestly, most people don't need them. It's just easier to pop a pill than to deal with your shit
<2021-05-28T04:24:52.000Z> hard_no: Hahahha!
<2021-05-28T04:25:38.000Z> hard_no: So sad. 
<2021-05-28T04:27:16.000Z> hard_no: If it helps it helps
<2021-05-28T04:29:01.000Z> hard_no: So when you finally read it, did it feel familiar?
<2021-05-28T04:29:32.000Z> hard_no: gotcha
<2021-05-28T04:31:48.000Z> hard_no: Self discover in the pages, eh?
<2021-05-28T04:31:52.000Z> hard_no: discovery
<2021-05-28T04:32:00.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T04:32:41.000Z> hard_no: That's Melville, isn't it?
<2021-05-28T04:33:20.000Z> hard_no: Weird sense of humor that one. 
<2021-05-28T04:34:23.000Z> hard_no: Maybe I'll read that one tomorrow. Or at 3 am when I'm still awake tonight. 
<2021-05-28T04:34:44.000Z> hard_no: Yeah
<2021-05-28T04:34:56.000Z> hard_no: are we same time zone or are you an hour ahead
<2021-05-28T04:35:12.000Z> hard_no: I such with time zones
<2021-05-28T04:36:03.000Z> hard_no: Nice.
<2021-05-28T04:37:21.000Z> hard_no: I have so little to do these days if the weather isn't good, and it's crap right now, I'm basically just an unemployed loser who spends her days drinking coffee and fucking around online. 
<2021-05-28T04:38:25.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! You're very generous.
<2021-05-28T04:38:38.000Z> hard_no: That's true, but I'm kind of a feral housewife, so...
<2021-05-28T04:39:31.000Z> hard_no: Actually, not even a little. I'll go back to writing.
<2021-05-28T04:39:38.000Z> hard_no: I will totally remote parent you
<2021-05-28T04:40:08.000Z> hard_no: Yay!
<2021-05-28T04:40:28.000Z> hard_no: Not enough. 
<2021-05-28T04:41:28.000Z> hard_no: We're actually planning to head back to montana and buy 40-120 acres and build once the kids are gone. I have dreams of a compound remote enough that I won't ever have to see people again if I so choose.
<2021-05-28T04:41:53.000Z> hard_no: I guarantee you, I've done at least as bad, probably worse. 
<2021-05-28T04:42:59.000Z> hard_no: Right next door. Like a day's drive. You could totally stalk LMA from my compound
<2021-05-28T04:43:23.000Z> hard_no: It's pretty hilarious
<2021-05-28T04:44:05.000Z> hard_no: She's working all the time, so she's not nearly as engaged as she was,
<2021-05-28T04:44:50.000Z> hard_no: That's pretty sweet, actually
<2021-05-28T04:45:40.000Z> hard_no: Yes.
<2021-05-28T04:46:05.000Z> hard_no: I blame him and the whole texting thing
<2021-05-28T04:46:46.000Z> hard_no: you're an absolute mad lad
<2021-05-28T04:49:06.000Z> hard_no: Sideways eyeballs...
<2021-05-28T04:49:46.000Z> hard_no: Do you really think that low of me? Seriously. 
<2021-05-28T04:50:25.000Z> hard_no: Risk mitigation
<2021-05-28T04:51:35.000Z> hard_no: That sounds right
<2021-05-28T04:51:58.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T04:52:44.000Z> hard_no: I will google that shit. But not joogle, you know what I mean
<2021-05-28T04:53:16.000Z> hard_no: dang
<2021-05-28T04:53:30.000Z> hard_no: zogbucks are handy...
<2021-05-28T04:54:11.000Z> hard_no: I'll check into it. 
<2021-05-28T04:54:24.000Z> hard_no: I have my moments.
<2021-05-28T04:55:16.000Z> hard_no: That's the trick, isn't it
<2021-05-28T04:56:07.000Z> hard_no: If I find the magic words or whatever, you'll be the second to know. Me being the first and all...
<2021-05-28T04:57:45.000Z> hard_no: It's good, it is. But it's hard having kids who are almost out there, knowing what the world is right now, and I get... frustrated, and sad, and angry about all of it, and I sink sometimes.
<2021-05-28T04:58:09.000Z> hard_no: Just because I'm a fucking unicorn, does not mean I have super powers. 
<2021-05-28T04:59:12.000Z> hard_no: Ideal. Like, my fantasy is that they stay with me and the Mr, come live on the compound, and find good and decent people to marry and have a million white babies.
<2021-05-28T04:59:33.000Z> hard_no: Oh yeah. Sometimes I talk a pretty good game, I do. 
<2021-05-28T05:00:05.000Z> hard_no: It's the new american dream
<2021-05-28T05:01:02.000Z> hard_no: No... I don't watch a whole lot of video anything these days
<2021-05-28T05:01:33.000Z> hard_no: On the list it goes
<2021-05-28T05:02:17.000Z> hard_no: So tomorrow, between the hours of 5 and 7pm my time.
<2021-05-28T05:02:38.000Z> hard_no: No really, kid has an lax game
<2021-05-28T05:03:02.000Z> hard_no: Lacrosse
<2021-05-28T05:04:26.000Z> hard_no: I would totally fake adopt you
<2021-05-28T05:05:32.000Z> hard_no: I will TOTALLY adopt you now. I played hockey as a kid. LOVE hockey
<2021-05-28T05:06:04.000Z> hard_no: I was the first girl to play in the league
<2021-05-28T05:06:55.000Z> hard_no: Brother played, dad coached some, the Mr loves is, was actually the mascot for a farm league before we got married...
<2021-05-28T05:07:07.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! Oops.
<2021-05-28T05:08:42.000Z> hard_no: I do. It's less fun since they outlawed most of the hardcore stuff,  but yeah. I'll watch on tv, but I LOVE a live game.
<2021-05-28T05:09:10.000Z> hard_no: It's ben a weird couple of seasons
<2021-05-28T05:10:14.000Z> hard_no: Nice! The Mr will be stoked if he doesn't already know this one.
<2021-05-28T05:10:52.000Z> hard_no: Dang
<2021-05-28T05:11:15.000Z> hard_no: Why not both?
<2021-05-28T05:11:23.000Z> hard_no: That's awesome fr
<2021-05-28T05:12:56.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I don't know that I'd necessarily use the chat, but to be able to watch the games would be great. I wouldn't have to get him the NHL subscription every Christmas! lol
<2021-05-28T05:13:29.000Z> hard_no: Plus, we don't get the games that show on local stations in MN or IL, which sucks. 
<2021-05-28T05:13:56.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha. Dude, I suck at LARPing. I'm honestly a terrible liar.
<2021-05-28T05:14:48.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I'm not much for live chat like that. It distracts from what's going on.
<2021-05-28T05:15:13.000Z> hard_no: I'm horrified and disappointed. Go sit in the corner
<2021-05-28T05:15:44.000Z> hard_no: Very cool
<2021-05-28T05:17:06.000Z> hard_no: I don't mean to be a distraction, go do baseball
<2021-05-28T05:18:26.000Z> hard_no: Goddamn.
<2021-05-28T05:19:04.000Z> hard_no: I have my moments. 
<2021-05-28T05:19:59.000Z> hard_no: And fuck you very much for accusing me of compliment fishing. Except, I think I actually might do that accidentally sometimes. It's never on purpose though. 
<2021-05-28T05:20:47.000Z> hard_no: I hate girls that do that. I seriously just want to punch them in the face. Like just right in the mouth. It's just gross.
<2021-05-28T05:20:52.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T05:22:04.000Z> hard_no: I kind of suck at it as well. I don't believe people, or am sure they're being sarcastic, or trying to throw some sideways dig or something. 
<2021-05-28T05:24:42.000Z> hard_no: We translate things through our lens of experience. Which is psychobabble for, the  life you've lived dictates how you respond to things.
<2021-05-28T05:25:24.000Z> hard_no: I don't know that it repulses people, but it makes you less accessible. 
<2021-05-28T05:25:59.000Z> hard_no: It's hard to tell a lot of times, especially online. 
<2021-05-28T05:27:08.000Z> hard_no: He follows me. I find it... odd.
<2021-05-28T05:28:46.000Z> hard_no: I try not to get into all that stuff too much. 
<2021-05-28T05:28:51.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T05:28:58.000Z> hard_no: What did you do?
<2021-05-28T05:29:36.000Z> hard_no: That doesn't go over well there
<2021-05-28T05:30:19.000Z> hard_no: I lurked for like two or three months and then slid right the fuck into 14/88, repeal the 19th, all that.
<2021-05-28T05:30:39.000Z> hard_no: No
<2021-05-28T05:31:10.000Z> hard_no: I am always astounded at the absolute stupidity of the general public
<2021-05-28T05:31:40.000Z> hard_no: I am forever overestimating the actual minimum intelligence it takes to simply function
<2021-05-28T05:32:05.000Z> hard_no: I look forward to that shit. It sounds golden
<2021-05-28T05:32:51.000Z> hard_no: I mean, seriously, how little brain function can you actually have and still maintain the ability to breathe? Because that seems to be what we're working with most of the time
<2021-05-28T05:33:27.000Z> hard_no: You'll have to copy it into an email or something and give me back story so I don't feel like a complete retard
<2021-05-28T05:33:57.000Z> hard_no: Oh noes
<2021-05-28T05:34:25.000Z> hard_no: Oh shit
<2021-05-28T05:34:49.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha!
<2021-05-28T05:35:16.000Z> hard_no: He's actually in a discord chatroom that some of my gap pepo set up.
<2021-05-28T05:35:35.000Z> hard_no: That's kind of a scream
<2021-05-28T05:35:47.000Z> hard_no: it's the #nicecrew
<2021-05-28T05:35:54.000Z> hard_no: it's some goofy shit man
<2021-05-28T05:36:31.000Z> hard_no: It's so gay. You're not wrong
<2021-05-28T05:37:02.000Z> hard_no: Makes more sense now, yeah?
<2021-05-28T05:37:32.000Z> hard_no: I'll just be over here to chat with, well, you, and whoever else wants to be kind of a grown up.
<2021-05-28T05:37:56.000Z> hard_no: Yes. The memers. 
<2021-05-28T05:38:10.000Z> hard_no: All those 2016 accounts
<2021-05-28T05:40:01.000Z> hard_no: Oh shit. I completely forgot about that! I'ma go stalk that right now...
<2021-05-28T05:40:45.000Z> hard_no: Gotdammit. I got caught up with something. 
<2021-05-28T05:40:52.000Z> hard_no: Well give me the tl;dr
<2021-05-28T05:41:48.000Z> hard_no: And I fucked that up. Story of my life. I disappoint people. I'm really good at it, fyi. 
<2021-05-28T05:44:29.000Z> hard_no: I just completely forgot about it. It was early this morning when you told me, wasn't it? I was on my phone, and it took forever to get my laptop started, and I just completely forgot about it by the time... ugh.
<2021-05-28T05:44:36.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, women suck.
<2021-05-28T05:45:00.000Z> hard_no: Well, we follow each other now.
<2021-05-28T05:45:37.000Z> hard_no: Oof. 
<2021-05-28T05:46:28.000Z> hard_no: But BPD ex, it didn't matter what you really felt. She decided  something, therefore it was.
<2021-05-28T05:47:49.000Z> hard_no: Exactly. You weren't a complete dick to here, therefore... 
<2021-05-28T05:50:45.000Z> hard_no: That's pretty funny. I get flung into from time to time when people are in certain psychological places. I'm bad at maintaining relationships.
<2021-05-28T05:51:07.000Z> hard_no: I am vaguely familiar
<2021-05-28T05:53:10.000Z> hard_no: I'll do some stalking later and see what's what.
<2021-05-28T05:53:56.000Z> hard_no: What I've seen of her on my tl today, I wouldn't know she was a chick. I would, however, wonder if it was an alt of yours from the linguistics.
<2021-05-28T06:07:44.000Z> hard_no: Looking at her tl, I think we'd get along, but I'm not sure we'd be like chatty friends, necessarily? Maybe. She responded to my post about my kid's high school thing, and she's on my level there, but she might be a few notches above my pay grade on the political stuff. To be fair, a good deal of people are, imo. 
<2021-05-28T06:10:35.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. She's harder than I am for sure.
<2021-05-28T06:11:11.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. She's seems cool though, for sure.
<2021-05-28T06:11:47.000Z> hard_no: What's not to hate? I mean really. 
<2021-05-28T06:12:29.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, there are a few of us, but that's NAXALT, and I think we all know how I feel about *that*.
<2021-05-28T06:12:51.000Z> hard_no: I
<2021-05-28T06:14:11.000Z> hard_no: This is correct. However, when discussing generalized populations, NAXALT cannot be applied, else the conversation becomes pointless, and nonsensical. 
<2021-05-28T06:14:28.000Z> hard_no: But yeah. I'm totally not a retarded woman.
<2021-05-28T06:15:06.000Z> hard_no: There actually are. 
<2021-05-28T06:16:22.000Z> hard_no: Things have changed though, yeah?
<2021-05-28T06:17:46.000Z> hard_no: This is good and hopeful.
<2021-05-28T06:20:08.000Z> hard_no: What do you mean "not that it matters" - like, the state of current affairs renders it all null and void?
<2021-05-28T06:24:01.000Z> hard_no: Sorry if I'm retarded here and you have to eli5 all this
<2021-05-28T06:24:03.000Z> hard_no: no
<2021-05-28T06:25:18.000Z> hard_no: Wow. 
<2021-05-28T06:25:28.000Z> hard_no: I do.
<2021-05-28T06:27:00.000Z> hard_no: Your life would make a crazy good book. Not even kidding.
<2021-05-28T06:27:44.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! That's bonkers.
<2021-05-28T06:28:07.000Z> hard_no: I yam
<2021-05-28T06:28:29.000Z> hard_no: Yep. He's in La Crosse
<2021-05-28T06:28:56.000Z> hard_no: Not super close, no. 
<2021-05-28T06:30:17.000Z> hard_no: That's crap
<2021-05-28T06:30:57.000Z> hard_no: Most of what I see is all professional stuff. Nothing about kids
<2021-05-28T06:32:03.000Z> hard_no: "currently the chairperson elect for the Civil Rights and Liberties Section for the State Bar of Wisconsin"
<2021-05-28T06:32:47.000Z> hard_no: In WI? Duuuuuuude.
<2021-05-28T06:33:26.000Z> hard_no: Bernardo focuses his current practice at  in business law, civil rights, criminal defense,  general litigation, landlord/tenant law, and employment discrimination. He has attended the National Litigation Academy and became an allied attorney with the Alliance Defending Freedom a Christian legal rights organization.
<2021-05-28T06:33:41.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T06:34:37.000Z> hard_no: That, for sure. It looks like he does a whole lot of stuff, probably pretty center right, except for the civil liberties bit... 
<2021-05-28T06:35:00.000Z> hard_no: Right.
<2021-05-28T06:35:36.000Z> hard_no: Thus, your avoidance of practice?
<2021-05-28T06:36:01.000Z> hard_no: Hahhaha!
<2021-05-28T06:36:18.000Z> hard_no: I think so
<2021-05-28T06:36:56.000Z> hard_no: Yeah I did
<2021-05-28T06:39:07.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! Racist dad. 
<2021-05-28T06:40:23.000Z> hard_no: hahaha! Good lord. 
<2021-05-28T06:41:39.000Z> hard_no: It was still pretty early days though, I mean, the libtardation hadn't taken hold hard enough to turn the good ones yet
<2021-05-28T06:43:33.000Z> hard_no: You're good. Take a breath.
<2021-05-28T06:45:55.000Z> hard_no: Well send that shit. Call it a late birthday present - mine is 4/21
<2021-05-28T06:48:09.000Z> hard_no: Fucking Steve
<2021-05-28T06:49:57.000Z> hard_no: I honestly don't know at this point. 
<2021-05-28T06:50:13.000Z> hard_no: I don't. I have others, couldn't tell you which ones
<2021-05-28T06:50:51.000Z> hard_no: Why would I take offense? 
<2021-05-28T06:51:02.000Z> hard_no: There is always room for improvement
<2021-05-28T06:52:17.000Z> hard_no: I did a lot of editing for friends at school. 
<2021-05-28T06:52:39.000Z> hard_no: I may take up on that at some point.
<2021-05-28T06:53:04.000Z> hard_no: you up on that
<2021-05-28T06:55:22.000Z> hard_no: That's not bad work though.
<2021-05-28T06:55:28.000Z> hard_no: The editing I mean
<2021-05-28T06:55:38.000Z> hard_no: I'm always curious about people. 
<2021-05-28T06:55:53.000Z> hard_no: But I don't like to pry
<2021-05-28T06:56:20.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. That makes a lot of sense
<2021-05-28T06:57:23.000Z> hard_no: Usually people just start to word vomit their lives at me. Like, within minutes irl. It's kind of weird, tbh. 
<2021-05-28T06:57:48.000Z> hard_no: Well you're pretty fucking cryptic on the gabs, dude
<2021-05-28T06:58:17.000Z> hard_no: It's been more than 10 minutes, you don't word vomit at me, you're good.
<2021-05-28T06:58:25.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T06:58:52.000Z> hard_no: Nononononono...
<2021-05-28T06:58:56.000Z> hard_no: It's like...
<2021-05-28T06:59:43.000Z> hard_no: Reading one of your posts for the first time, is like WTF is this? But then after two or three, you get the cadence and the language, and it all makes sense. 
<2021-05-28T07:00:01.000Z> hard_no: You are a bit of an acquired taste, as are all my favorite people. 
<2021-05-28T07:01:12.000Z> hard_no: stg, you end of on a talk show or atop a clock tower, I will completely disavow any knowledge of you or your gabs. I know nothing.
<2021-05-28T07:02:01.000Z> hard_no: Um, that sounds like most intelligent people I know at this point, me included.
<2021-05-28T07:02:03.000Z> hard_no: Sorry
<2021-05-28T07:02:54.000Z> hard_no: So is talking to your stove, but I do that shit all the time. 
<2021-05-28T07:03:17.000Z> hard_no: Now that I would love to see. I would salute right the fuck back.
<2021-05-28T07:05:03.000Z> hard_no: Let's see... there was drinking on the Jr high band bus trip, that was super fun. Well, I mean, it was actually. It was the getting busted part that wasn't so great. 
<2021-05-28T07:06:06.000Z> hard_no: just by adults, not cops.
<2021-05-28T07:06:10.000Z> hard_no: That came later
<2021-05-28T07:06:47.000Z> hard_no: Oof. 
<2021-05-28T07:07:37.000Z> hard_no: No, did a stupid thing for a very bad boyfriend, because I was a stupid girl.
<2021-05-28T07:07:58.000Z> hard_no: I never got caught for the stupid shit like shoplifting and whatever, I was very sly.
<2021-05-28T07:08:44.000Z> hard_no: Isn't that always the way
<2021-05-28T07:08:53.000Z> hard_no: So super retards
<2021-05-28T07:10:06.000Z> hard_no: They're such good kids. I worked so hard to make sure they didn't have the high school experience I did.
<2021-05-28T07:10:26.000Z> hard_no: Yes. Like, everything I experienced. From parenting on up.
<2021-05-28T07:10:43.000Z> hard_no: Yep
<2021-05-28T07:11:23.000Z> hard_no: No, it definitely is. Parenting is not a slap dash kind of thing if you really want to do it right. It takes a lot of fucking effort.
<2021-05-28T07:12:14.000Z> hard_no: And none of this "i want to be friends with my kids" bullshit either. If you raise them right, you'll get that at a certain point, but that is not how you raise a child.
<2021-05-28T07:13:42.000Z> hard_no: No, if you love your kids, love them hard, they will love you for it. No matter what you encourage them into.
<2021-05-28T07:14:54.000Z> hard_no: Eh, it's more like daydreaming. When girls do it, it can get pretty stupid and gross, and some guys, but a lot of times it's just hoping for something and almost like planning for the future, and that's not a bad thing.
<2021-05-28T07:16:09.000Z> hard_no: This week went poof
<2021-05-28T07:17:23.000Z> hard_no: It's kind of reassuring that it's not just me, tbh, the speedy time thing. 
<2021-05-28T07:17:42.000Z> hard_no: I don't ever really feel old. Maybe I should. Probably not though.
<2021-05-28T07:18:14.000Z> hard_no: That's a lie. I see young people at the bar and they look 12 and I'm like damn, I'm old as fuck
<2021-05-28T07:18:36.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, this last year just... 
<2021-05-28T07:18:58.000Z> hard_no: The whole thing pisses me off to no end.
<2021-05-28T07:20:02.000Z> hard_no: I totally noticed it. Suddenly, everyone was home, all the time, I had no quiet, there were people everywhere all day, every day. It was fucking unsettling.
<2021-05-28T07:21:06.000Z> hard_no: Mr didn't go back to the office until late January. 
<2021-05-28T07:21:37.000Z> hard_no: And the kids did this whole year virtual because the fucking schoolboard mad masks mandatory, and I refuse to play that shit
<2021-05-28T07:22:02.000Z> hard_no: Oh, he was fine working from home. 
<2021-05-28T07:22:34.000Z> hard_no: Funny
<2021-05-28T07:24:41.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. My days were absolutely my own. I would get up early, get kids off to school, and then sit with coffee and a book for a while, do some housewifery...
<2021-05-28T07:25:33.000Z> hard_no: It was nice. I could sing my heart out while I did the laundry or whatever, and just have time.
<2021-05-28T07:26:06.000Z> hard_no: I don't have any time that's mine now. I mean, like right now, the middle of the night, this is mine, but damn. It's just not the same.
<2021-05-28T07:26:49.000Z> hard_no: Kids come and go all throughout the day, which I love, because I adore them, and they are great kids, but yeah. I needs my fucking quiet times. 
<2021-05-28T07:27:09.000Z> hard_no: all good. 
<2021-05-28T07:28:13.000Z> hard_no: Oh christ. like nobody's business. It's no wonder I'm just surly all the fucking time these days.
<2021-05-28T07:28:28.000Z> hard_no: Yes it does.
<2021-05-28T07:29:08.000Z> hard_no: Some decent sleep wouldn't hurt either. I can't remember the last good night of sleep I had. 
<2021-05-28T07:29:52.000Z> hard_no: I think it should. I don't know. 
<2021-05-28T07:30:28.000Z> hard_no: today I did, but not usually.
<2021-05-28T07:32:03.000Z> hard_no: You do a lot of that 
<2021-05-28T07:33:21.000Z> hard_no: Dude, if weed was legal here, I'd be high frequently. 
<2021-05-28T07:35:12.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. When I was in WA and they legalized, it was very handy. I had a decent stash when we moved out here, but it's been like 5 years now so... I gots nothin. If I did, I would have done that hours ago. 
<2021-05-28T07:36:03.000Z> hard_no: It's legal in IL, I could probably just go over the border no problem. But once you have kids, it's like... 
<2021-05-28T07:36:49.000Z> hard_no: The thought of mom getting busted for interstate drug crime is just too horrible to contemplate. 
<2021-05-28T07:36:58.000Z> hard_no: Yes.
<2021-05-28T07:37:04.000Z> hard_no: I have two.
<2021-05-28T07:37:34.000Z> hard_no: You know so much more about me than I ever intended.
<2021-05-28T07:38:26.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. I actually had a very part time job working for a lady whose husband owned on of the pot shops in WA. 
<2021-05-28T07:38:34.000Z> hard_no: I know all the stuffs.
<2021-05-28T07:38:54.000Z> hard_no: I promise I won't out you as a non-harcore nazi.
<2021-05-28T07:39:03.000Z> hard_no: hardcore
<2021-05-28T07:39:42.000Z> hard_no: Absolutely. 
<2021-05-28T07:41:40.000Z> hard_no: I poasted that sesame street meine kampf meme last night and some dude was like "I'm on pg 57" and I almost commented back "has he met the cat yet?" just to fuck with him. 
<2021-05-28T07:42:03.000Z> hard_no: Weed is not bad. I am a firm believer in natural curatives. 
<2021-05-28T07:42:32.000Z> hard_no: Can you imagine him reading the rest of the book like "where's the fucking cat?"
<2021-05-28T07:43:32.000Z> hard_no: My town is so tiny, the chances of my *not* getting busted are tiny. It's cool. I appreciate it though
<2021-05-28T07:44:19.000Z> hard_no: It's because you care. 
<2021-05-28T07:45:08.000Z> hard_no: Fuck you. 
<2021-05-28T07:45:11.000Z> hard_no: Yes
<2021-05-28T07:47:02.000Z> hard_no: I *AM* paranoid. That thing I did for the bad boyfriend? I let him mail some not weed to my parent's house when I was 19 and I got busted picking it up. 
<2021-05-28T07:47:29.000Z> hard_no: Yeah
<2021-05-28T07:47:47.000Z> hard_no: It was so fucking dumb, but I was so in love with that asshole
<2021-05-28T07:50:21.000Z> hard_no: No, it was I don't remember how much meth shipped UPS in a jar of peanut butter. Tried and true method, I was reassured. Wouldn't be a problem. 
<2021-05-28T07:50:29.000Z> hard_no: Well, it was a problem. 
<2021-05-28T07:52:10.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. It was a fucking mess. 
<2021-05-28T07:52:37.000Z> hard_no: Yeah I do.
<2021-05-28T07:52:52.000Z> hard_no: I know. Like I said, stupid girl
<2021-05-28T07:54:52.000Z> hard_no: It's weird, I haven't actually ever talked about this. It's cool though
<2021-05-28T07:55:58.000Z> hard_no: Oh no, i was a mess before this. 
<2021-05-28T07:56:20.000Z> hard_no: delinquints!
<2021-05-28T07:57:51.000Z> hard_no: you're just a bad kid, huh?
<2021-05-28T07:58:35.000Z> hard_no: Sure you were. 
<2021-05-28T07:59:33.000Z> hard_no: no shit
<2021-05-28T08:00:11.000Z> hard_no: Crashing into trouble
<2021-05-28T08:01:01.000Z> hard_no: What a little bitch
<2021-05-28T08:01:57.000Z> hard_no: I didn't even snitch.
<2021-05-28T08:02:39.000Z> hard_no: Trying to get you to talk
<2021-05-28T08:03:32.000Z> hard_no: Still though, that's just... fucking cops
<2021-05-28T08:04:26.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I bet.
<2021-05-28T08:04:37.000Z> hard_no: That'll happen
<2021-05-28T08:05:00.000Z> hard_no: Wow
<2021-05-28T08:05:39.000Z> hard_no: The bad element in the 'burbs
<2021-05-28T08:06:19.000Z> hard_no: Makes you sound like mafia
<2021-05-28T08:07:33.000Z> hard_no: Oh man
<2021-05-28T08:08:23.000Z> hard_no: Why would anyone consent to that?
<2021-05-28T08:09:07.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha!
<2021-05-28T08:10:25.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha. 
<2021-05-28T08:11:05.000Z> hard_no: Such a delinquent!
<2021-05-28T08:12:07.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha! I'm picturing this now, and I'm finding it just a little hilarious. Maybe because it's late, but the "pondering my life" just...
<2021-05-28T08:13:03.000Z> hard_no: Damn Sean. 
<2021-05-28T08:15:58.000Z> hard_no: So what did you do with the massage table? Like, did you have a fence or what?
<2021-05-28T08:17:08.000Z> hard_no: You ran with a dangerous crowd, man. 
<2021-05-28T08:18:01.000Z> hard_no: It's the feds
<2021-05-28T08:18:45.000Z> hard_no: lol
<2021-05-28T08:19:02.000Z> hard_no: hahahhaha!!
<2021-05-28T08:19:19.000Z> hard_no: I'm dying
<2021-05-28T08:19:38.000Z> hard_no: Oh I'm sure!
<2021-05-28T08:20:10.000Z> hard_no: That was someone's lively-hood you chucked out the window during a police chase.
<2021-05-28T08:22:11.000Z> hard_no: I couldn't help it. C'mon. seriously
<2021-05-28T08:22:26.000Z> hard_no: nonononono.
<2021-05-28T08:22:40.000Z> hard_no: I do not find you to be a sociopath in the slightest. 
<2021-05-28T08:23:18.000Z> hard_no: I just couldn't not. I get a little squirrelly. 
<2021-05-28T08:24:16.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha! 
<2021-05-28T08:24:35.000Z> hard_no: lmfao
<2021-05-28T08:25:44.000Z> hard_no: Oh christ. That's just too funny
<2021-05-28T08:27:05.000Z> hard_no: That might have been the tip off for the coppers. I mean...
<2021-05-28T08:27:42.000Z> hard_no: Massage table flies out of car... 
<2021-05-28T08:28:06.000Z> hard_no: I'm gonna' laugh about that for days.
<2021-05-28T08:29:08.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, that was retarded. Someone should have slapped the retard out of that one. 
<2021-05-28T08:29:39.000Z> hard_no: Of course it wasn't. But later... and now...
<2021-05-28T08:30:24.000Z> hard_no: Right?
<2021-05-28T08:31:46.000Z> hard_no: If you ever decided to write any of this, and let me be clear that you should, I want first dibs on editing. Mostly so I can read it as soon as it's on paper.
<2021-05-28T08:32:41.000Z> hard_no: how long was your internment?
<2021-05-28T08:34:01.000Z> hard_no: So it could have been so much worse.
<2021-05-28T08:34:23.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, that's not happening in a military situation
<2021-05-28T08:37:45.000Z> hard_no: Yes.
<2021-05-28T08:38:09.000Z> hard_no: Losing connection with nature is rough
<2021-05-28T08:38:39.000Z> hard_no: human beings were not designed to live like this
<2021-05-28T08:40:22.000Z> hard_no: Not soon enough. We're supposed to go out west this summer, spend some time on the Oregon coast and go thru MT, but who fucking knows if that's going to happen
<2021-05-28T08:41:07.000Z> hard_no: No. We were planning to look at some places when we were out this summer.
<2021-05-28T08:41:12.000Z> hard_no: So do I.
<2021-05-28T08:42:28.000Z> hard_no: They've been priming everyone for gas shortages since April though, and fuck me if we got out there and couldn't get back? Or stuck somewhere in the middle? And all the fucking nonsense that's still going on in WA and OR
<2021-05-28T08:43:34.000Z> hard_no: Do you seriously think I would still be all chatty with you like this if I thought you were a sociopath?
<2021-05-28T08:43:39.000Z> hard_no: Wait... 
<2021-05-28T08:43:46.000Z> hard_no: ARE you a sociopath?
<2021-05-28T08:43:54.000Z> hard_no: I'm kidding
<2021-05-28T08:44:10.000Z> hard_no: Well that's not cool
<2021-05-28T08:44:49.000Z> hard_no: No, that shit was hilarious
<2021-05-28T08:46:10.000Z> hard_no: You were a kid. Of course you did. And you gave zero fucks about it, right?
<2021-05-28T08:46:26.000Z> hard_no: Obviously
<2021-05-28T08:48:27.000Z> hard_no: sounds very irish, tbh
<2021-05-28T08:49:15.000Z> hard_no: "It was just casual terrorism. No big deal."
<2021-05-28T08:50:15.000Z> hard_no: I'm having the worst time not laughing out loud right now.
<2021-05-28T08:51:25.000Z> hard_no: Oh my god. Just for fun.
<2021-05-28T08:51:59.000Z> hard_no: By all rights you should be dead or in prison. That's just...
<2021-05-28T08:52:40.000Z> hard_no: You totally were a fucking terrorist in minecraft!
<2021-05-28T08:55:24.000Z> hard_no: You were a horrible human being. 
<2021-05-28T08:56:21.000Z> hard_no: In minecraft
<2021-05-28T08:59:08.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha!!!
<2021-05-28T08:59:19.000Z> hard_no: I mean...
<2021-05-28T09:00:01.000Z> hard_no: HAHAHAHAHA!!!
<2021-05-28T09:00:34.000Z> hard_no: The anti-nigger
<2021-05-28T09:02:53.000Z> hard_no: I absolutely get that post you made about people not believing half the shit you did/happened when you were a kid.
<2021-05-28T09:03:16.000Z> hard_no: It all comes back to the boomers
<2021-05-28T09:04:07.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I'm pretty black sheepish as well. 
<2021-05-28T09:05:36.000Z> hard_no: That's kind of crazy though
<2021-05-28T09:08:13.000Z> hard_no: I can buy that as well. 
<2021-05-28T09:09:29.000Z> hard_no: No, I can totally see it. 
<2021-05-28T09:09:37.000Z> hard_no: Survival is tricky sometimes.
<2021-05-28T09:11:26.000Z> hard_no: Which seems very backwards, tbh
<2021-05-28T09:12:46.000Z> hard_no: There's a huge Russian population in my tiny town. Well, huge in relation to the size of the town. It's only 11,000 people, and my son has like 4 really good Russian friends from different families. 
<2021-05-28T09:13:09.000Z> hard_no: Being smart helps in all kinds of ways.
<2021-05-28T09:13:19.000Z> hard_no: It's... odd.
<2021-05-28T09:13:48.000Z> hard_no: No. They're not into sports at all. They're all math and computer nerds. 
<2021-05-28T09:14:15.000Z> hard_no: I think... 
<2021-05-28T09:14:30.000Z> hard_no: I think I might actually be able to sleep now.
<2021-05-28T09:14:48.000Z> hard_no: Now that I've kept you up all night.
<2021-05-28T09:14:57.000Z> hard_no: Thanks for keeping me company.
<2021-05-28T09:16:04.000Z> hard_no: yeah. night. er, morning. Whatever
<2021-05-28T09:16:26.000Z> hard_no: later
<2021-05-28T17:00:22.000Z> hard_no: *clears throat* Hellooooooooooo
<2021-05-28T17:03:18.000Z> hard_no: Hey hi how are ya.
<2021-05-28T17:03:46.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! 
<2021-05-28T17:03:53.000Z> hard_no: Well, I'll tell ya, I
<2021-05-28T17:03:59.000Z> hard_no: 'm a little tired today
<2021-05-28T17:04:47.000Z> hard_no: I can't. Like, literally. I'm up now. 
<2021-05-28T17:04:58.000Z> hard_no: It's not so bad, actually, it's kind of like...
<2021-05-28T17:05:16.000Z> hard_no: just a little off center? Not quite where I should be? You know that feeling
<2021-05-28T17:05:24.000Z> hard_no: Oh hell yes I do. 
<2021-05-28T17:06:13.000Z> hard_no: I'll just be kind of squirrelly today is all. It's usually rather entertaining, tbh
<2021-05-28T17:07:06.000Z> hard_no: People enjoy laughing at me, and I'm good at laughing at myself, so it works. 
<2021-05-28T17:07:14.000Z> hard_no: Ooooh. That sounds pretty good
<2021-05-28T17:08:51.000Z> hard_no: I'm not familiar, but his name gets thrown around a lot. I need more history, tbh
<2021-05-28T17:09:19.000Z> hard_no: That's up my ally
<2021-05-28T17:10:39.000Z> hard_no: I'm gonna need a bigger piece of paper for my list. i just grabbed a scrap I could find at hand, and it's pretty full now
<2021-05-28T17:10:59.000Z> hard_no: Gotcha
<2021-05-28T17:11:13.000Z> hard_no: I miss actual used book stores. They physical ones, i mena
<2021-05-28T17:11:14.000Z> hard_no: mean
<2021-05-28T17:11:53.000Z> hard_no: Of you course you did. 
<2021-05-28T17:12:34.000Z> hard_no: There was a really great one in Oly (that's where I was in WA). Like two stories, crammed full, just amazing.
<2021-05-28T17:13:36.000Z> hard_no: You realize I can't hear what you're listening to, right?
<2021-05-28T17:20:11.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. I'm here for most all day.
<2021-05-28T17:25:05.000Z> hard_no: I listened to a lot of them when I worked a the record store, a lot of that sort of softcore punk stuff
<2021-05-28T17:25:26.000Z> hard_no: I'm think I have at least 2 of their albums somewhere
<2021-05-28T17:26:31.000Z> hard_no: go drive. GO!
<2021-05-28T17:34:22.000Z> hard_no: Are you driving yet? Are you texting and driving? SEAN (middle name) O'NEIL!
<2021-05-28T17:34:32.000Z> hard_no: yes
<2021-05-28T17:35:09.000Z> hard_no: You can even come hide in my small WI town.
<2021-05-28T17:35:12.000Z> hard_no: I knew it. 
<2021-05-28T17:35:24.000Z> hard_no: Are you driving yet? Are you texting and driving? SEAN (middle name) O'NEILL!
<2021-05-28T17:37:37.000Z> hard_no: god you're so fucking cryptic. I think I know where it is tho
<2021-05-28T17:38:42.000Z> hard_no: Michael
<2021-05-28T17:40:20.000Z> hard_no: I feel I deserve a prize now.
<2021-05-28T17:46:43.000Z> hard_no: Here too. Again. It's been like three days.
<2021-05-28T17:57:12.000Z> hard_no: Oh god no. As little as possible. I hate my phone with a burning passion
<2021-05-28T17:57:52.000Z> hard_no: Yes, we very much are.
<2021-05-28T17:59:01.000Z> hard_no: It's whatever.
<2021-05-28T17:59:35.000Z> hard_no: Kid has a pretty big crush on me tbh
<2021-05-28T18:00:13.000Z> hard_no: It happens. I'm pretty awesome
<2021-05-28T18:01:05.000Z> hard_no: sort of? colon D
<2021-05-28T18:01:12.000Z> hard_no: :D
<2021-05-28T18:01:18.000Z> hard_no: There it is!
<2021-05-28T18:02:33.000Z> hard_no: Fedi we weird.
<2021-05-28T18:03:01.000Z> hard_no: You can't attach stuff on your pc? I can attach stuff on my laptop
<2021-05-28T18:04:03.000Z> hard_no: Once you start typing, it's just the send, but when it's just the curser, I see the paperclip
<2021-05-28T18:04:56.000Z> hard_no: 😈 He totally knows I'm married
<2021-05-28T18:05:08.000Z> hard_no: You can copy and paste emojis!
<2021-05-28T18:05:17.000Z> hard_no: That was just random
<2021-05-28T18:05:36.000Z> hard_no: I'm retarded. Don't crash my high here
<2021-05-28T18:06:33.000Z> hard_no: Truly
<2021-05-28T18:08:17.000Z> hard_no: What happened to it?
<2021-05-28T18:08:27.000Z> hard_no: Fingers crossed
<2021-05-28T18:09:16.000Z> hard_no: Nice. 
<2021-05-28T18:10:15.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha. Poor guy.
<2021-05-28T18:10:45.000Z> hard_no: dude. yikes.
<2021-05-28T18:11:11.000Z> hard_no: Have they done a biopsy yet?
<2021-05-28T18:11:44.000Z> hard_no: That's kind of terrifying. I'm really sorry.
<2021-05-28T18:11:52.000Z> hard_no: You guys are close?
<2021-05-28T18:12:53.000Z> hard_no: Families usually are
<2021-05-28T18:13:31.000Z> hard_no: So three brothers, you the oldest?
<2021-05-28T18:14:42.000Z> hard_no: Gotcha
<2021-05-28T18:15:32.000Z> hard_no: I mean, just... hang on, coffee disaster, brb
<2021-05-28T18:21:12.000Z> hard_no: Damn.
<2021-05-28T18:21:35.000Z> hard_no: Sorry about that, kid knocked over a cup of coffee and it went all over everything. 
<2021-05-28T18:22:25.000Z> hard_no: You're not close with much of your family, right?
<2021-05-28T18:22:47.000Z> hard_no: Fuck dude, all over the satan phone, the table, the chair, the floor...
<2021-05-28T18:24:38.000Z> hard_no: Somehow...
<2021-05-28T18:25:36.000Z> hard_no: oof
<2021-05-28T18:26:42.000Z> hard_no: I'm thinking most of your family is
<2021-05-28T18:28:44.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! Oh, you kill me
<2021-05-28T18:29:54.000Z> hard_no: She was a big turning point for you, huh
<2021-05-28T18:31:21.000Z> hard_no: Right, so kind of shined some light on things
<2021-05-28T18:34:35.000Z> hard_no: Sometimes I wonder if that's part of the reason I lost some of the drive to finish my degree; I got my own shit straight (finally) and didn't have that intense need to fix other people so much any more. Maybe, maybe not. I don't know. 
<2021-05-28T18:36:48.000Z> hard_no: Most of them are. Most people go into the psych stuff because they're screwed up; the irony is, they never get their own shit straight, they just fix other people, which I always found... odd.
<2021-05-28T18:36:58.000Z> hard_no: Right?
<2021-05-28T18:38:37.000Z> hard_no: That's kind of ugly
<2021-05-28T18:38:56.000Z> hard_no: And not even a little okay.
<2021-05-28T18:39:57.000Z> hard_no: That's just bad parenting is what that is
<2021-05-28T18:40:14.000Z> hard_no: But, tbh, MFALT
<2021-05-28T18:40:55.000Z> hard_no: Are you *still* booting your pc? or did you give up on that
<2021-05-28T18:41:37.000Z> hard_no: Just no. 
<2021-05-28T18:42:05.000Z> hard_no: I hate that crap. Almost as much as I hate my phone
<2021-05-28T18:43:35.000Z> hard_no: No, it was the autocorrect comment
<2021-05-28T18:43:55.000Z> hard_no: YES
<2021-05-28T18:44:55.000Z> hard_no: I hung onto my ancient BB Classic until just a few months ago. It was so obsolete for everything but talk and text and I loved it. 
<2021-05-28T18:45:30.000Z> hard_no: If the screen hadn't shattered and didn't catch my hair when I used it to talk, I'd still be using it.
<2021-05-28T18:45:47.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. They're the devil. Hence, the satan phone. 
<2021-05-28T18:46:41.000Z> hard_no: I intentionally leave this one in the car, or on another floor of the house so I don't have to see it. They're like fucking crack. 
<2021-05-28T18:47:02.000Z> hard_no: Dude. If they'd been around when I was in high school... 
<2021-05-28T18:48:19.000Z> hard_no: Hahahahaha! 
<2021-05-28T18:48:40.000Z> hard_no: That's awesome though. 
<2021-05-28T18:49:04.000Z> hard_no: Nice. 
<2021-05-28T18:49:32.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. 
<2021-05-28T18:50:40.000Z> hard_no: People are so fucking uptight anymore. It's just sad. No sense of humor. 
<2021-05-28T18:51:43.000Z> hard_no: Nope. Sorry.
<2021-05-28T18:52:39.000Z> hard_no: One of the kids at my the group home where I worked was a true sociopath. He was fucking creepy. 
<2021-05-28T18:53:41.000Z> hard_no: No, this kid... he was all of 13 and had already tried to kill his mom twice. Once by stabbing her, and the second time he locked her in a closet and set the trailer on fire.
<2021-05-28T18:54:35.000Z> hard_no: Like Dexter? That one?
<2021-05-28T18:55:14.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, kind of creepy that it's such a popular theme, imo
<2021-05-28T18:55:50.000Z> hard_no: My kids like that one
<2021-05-28T18:57:11.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, it's not my thing. They talk about it all the time, I just smile and nod.
<2021-05-28T18:57:19.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T18:57:40.000Z> hard_no: So flattering!
<2021-05-28T18:58:14.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I could see that.
<2021-05-28T18:58:25.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T18:58:43.000Z> hard_no: You might be screwed there pal
<2021-05-28T18:59:07.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T18:59:49.000Z> hard_no: I don't know, social media is weird. 
<2021-05-28T19:00:59.000Z> hard_no: I know them, I sold the crap out of them at the record store. 
<2021-05-28T19:01:12.000Z> hard_no: And their t-shirts, and posters, and stickers
<2021-05-28T19:01:33.000Z> hard_no: That's relatively hard core of you. Nice
<2021-05-28T19:02:10.000Z> hard_no: Maybe?
<2021-05-28T19:02:59.000Z> hard_no: Oh yeah, I know that one. I have that album
<2021-05-28T19:05:12.000Z> hard_no: Well that's a theme I fully endorse
<2021-05-28T19:06:11.000Z> hard_no: I'm totally listening to the carnivore
<2021-05-28T19:08:21.000Z> hard_no: It's what we would, at the store, refer to as "happy music". Whenever there was some yahoo looking for something totally top 40 or mainstream that they could find at the local Hastings or whatever, we'd put on something like this, or Sepultura, or Cannibal Corpse or some Nordic death metal until they got irritated and left. 
<2021-05-28T19:09:37.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. Totally endorse. Kill it all with fucking fire. "LEt's go"
<2021-05-28T19:09:38.000Z> hard_no: "
<2021-05-28T19:10:05.000Z> hard_no: Not bad. 
<2021-05-28T19:10:18.000Z> hard_no: Gah
<2021-05-28T19:11:15.000Z> hard_no: Ewe
<2021-05-28T19:11:37.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I suppose
<2021-05-28T19:12:22.000Z> hard_no: So many things are.
<2021-05-28T19:12:30.000Z> hard_no: Gone now, I mean.
<2021-05-28T19:13:06.000Z> hard_no: It was one of like 3 food joints in the town I grew up in
<2021-05-28T19:13:21.000Z> hard_no: We didn't even have a McDonalds until I was 13
<2021-05-28T19:14:19.000Z> hard_no: I haven't eaten pizza from there in literally decades
<2021-05-28T19:14:39.000Z> hard_no: so you loved your employees
<2021-05-28T19:14:50.000Z> hard_no: Well yeah, I'm not LMA dude
<2021-05-28T19:15:55.000Z> hard_no: If you were hot, I mean, those uniforms, were you asking for it?
<2021-05-28T19:16:01.000Z> hard_no: jk
<2021-05-28T19:16:33.000Z> hard_no: And as manager, all that power...
<2021-05-28T19:17:47.000Z> hard_no: I probably would have harassed you then, too. I mean, dress uniform AND Johnny Rebel on MLK day? What's wrong with you?
<2021-05-28T19:18:12.000Z> hard_no: Right? That's too funny
<2021-05-28T19:20:03.000Z> hard_no: That's a good thing
<2021-05-28T19:20:27.000Z> hard_no: I like it so far...
<2021-05-28T19:22:13.000Z> hard_no: Not bad...
<2021-05-28T19:24:09.000Z> hard_no: His voice reminds me a little of Geoff Tate. Like, I would have sold this to dudes who bought that.
<2021-05-28T19:25:23.000Z> hard_no: Oh, I like this one. Snow Fell
<2021-05-28T19:26:26.000Z> hard_no: Eh, not so big on the chick singers/bands, but I'll look it up.
<2021-05-28T19:28:01.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T19:28:37.000Z> hard_no: Which one-snow fell?
<2021-05-28T19:28:46.000Z> hard_no: I love it.
<2021-05-28T19:30:25.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, this is like kind of hear wrenching
<2021-05-28T19:30:27.000Z> hard_no: heart
<2021-05-28T19:30:47.000Z> hard_no: What with the violins and all in the beginning
<2021-05-28T19:33:48.000Z> hard_no: Listened to Snow Fell.  Ode to a dying people is loading. It's got the lyrics at the bottom. 
<2021-05-28T19:34:23.000Z> hard_no: Jesus christ those lyrics. That's fucking rough. Accurate and rough.
<2021-05-28T19:35:25.000Z> hard_no: Why would you do this to me? I thought we were friends! 
<2021-05-28T19:35:37.000Z> hard_no: I'm joking, but damn. The feels in those lyrics.
<2021-05-28T19:37:38.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. Not bad. The music is good. I want to tune his voice a little, but I have a pretty picky ear, so that's no surprise.
<2021-05-28T19:38:44.000Z> hard_no: Oh, yeah, totally get that.
<2021-05-28T19:40:36.000Z> hard_no: That's wacky
<2021-05-28T19:41:49.000Z> hard_no: You have quite the library
<2021-05-28T19:44:00.000Z> hard_no: I don't know, maybe I'm all fake and gay, but I love books. They bring me comfort. I will be sad when they're not feasible anymore
<2021-05-28T19:44:46.000Z> hard_no: Many such cases!
<2021-05-28T19:45:56.000Z> hard_no: I have them all over my house. There are at least a dozen in every room, and the office has an entire wall of bookshelves. I think I might have a problem
<2021-05-28T19:46:18.000Z> hard_no: Keep the good ones
<2021-05-28T19:46:52.000Z> hard_no: I'm gonna need a bigger wall
<2021-05-28T19:47:25.000Z> hard_no: God I hope so. 
<2021-05-28T19:47:30.000Z> hard_no: oof
<2021-05-28T19:48:47.000Z> hard_no: We looked at on online that was 40 acres, totally undeveloped, gorgeous, for like 120k. 
<2021-05-28T19:49:26.000Z> hard_no: Damn. 
<2021-05-28T19:50:06.000Z> hard_no: That looks like a really cool area to vist though, maybe not live...
<2021-05-28T19:50:39.000Z> hard_no: That does suck
<2021-05-28T19:50:43.000Z> hard_no: hard
<2021-05-28T19:51:36.000Z> hard_no: I'm pretty easy to impress, tb
<2021-05-28T19:51:38.000Z> hard_no: h
<2021-05-28T19:52:02.000Z> hard_no: Dicks
<2021-05-28T19:52:35.000Z> hard_no: Nice. That's kind of like my little town
<2021-05-28T19:53:31.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, there's a lot of people from Milwaukee who are anxious to move here. It's about 40 minutes from downtown MKE
<2021-05-28T19:53:45.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, you need to get out
<2021-05-28T19:54:16.000Z> hard_no: Good lord, man
<2021-05-28T19:54:37.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha!
<2021-05-28T19:54:46.000Z> hard_no: Gross
<2021-05-28T19:55:22.000Z> hard_no: The things we do for the ingrates
<2021-05-28T19:56:54.000Z> hard_no: It's too bad there's no legal way to have her declared retarded and get control of things
<2021-05-28T19:57:26.000Z> hard_no: I kind of got that
<2021-05-28T19:57:29.000Z> hard_no: that too
<2021-05-28T19:57:58.000Z> hard_no: There would be serious fall out though, right?
<2021-05-28T19:59:29.000Z> hard_no: Right.
<2021-05-28T20:00:06.000Z> hard_no: But, and correct me if I'm wrong here, I get the impression that this would be like a no-coming-back-from-it situation
<2021-05-28T20:02:21.000Z> hard_no: You know that bit about the right thing and the easy thing hardly ever being the same thing... it sounds like a full on shitty situation.
<2021-05-28T20:03:36.000Z> hard_no: Your life is complicated
<2021-05-28T20:03:53.000Z> hard_no: yikes
<2021-05-28T20:04:10.000Z> hard_no: So super Catholic then?
<2021-05-28T20:04:39.000Z> hard_no: Yeah
<2021-05-28T20:05:11.000Z> hard_no: damn
<2021-05-28T20:05:47.000Z> hard_no: sounds safer, tbh
<2021-05-28T20:05:58.000Z> hard_no: hahahaha
<2021-05-28T20:07:19.000Z> hard_no: lol. Yep
<2021-05-28T20:08:34.000Z> hard_no: It is a pretty cool name. Super Irish. 
<2021-05-28T20:09:35.000Z> hard_no: Show off.
<2021-05-28T20:10:13.000Z> hard_no: But akshully... 
<2021-05-28T20:10:53.000Z> hard_no: The husband is related in some distant way to Scottish royalty I'm told. There's even a castle involved. 
<2021-05-28T20:11:29.000Z> hard_no: no, my husband
<2021-05-28T20:13:36.000Z> hard_no: No.. How am I missing all these posts?!?!?\!
<2021-05-28T20:15:43.000Z> hard_no: That pretty cool
<2021-05-28T20:16:12.000Z> hard_no: Maybe. I miss a lot on Poast.
<2021-05-28T20:16:39.000Z> hard_no: I missed a shocking amount on there, too.
<2021-05-28T20:16:58.000Z> hard_no: of course
<2021-05-28T20:18:31.000Z> hard_no: I don't have nearly the clarity of family lineage that you've got. Like, on my dad's side I do, it's just dutch and german
<2021-05-28T20:18:45.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. it's a wonder she even ever logs in any more
<2021-05-28T20:19:58.000Z> hard_no: Right?
<2021-05-28T20:20:22.000Z> hard_no: Sometimes it's hard to say no to things that are bad for us
<2021-05-28T20:23:00.000Z> hard_no: I think she gets so mad at the people who are still spouting the same rhetoric even after all this time because it just so obviously dumb, and those people jump into her comments and are just really rude. Like, some of the things they say to her? oof!
<2021-05-28T20:24:45.000Z> hard_no: Maybe. I don't know. Like, you are light years ahead of me. I'm not stupid, but I'm not even close to your level. 
<2021-05-28T20:25:29.000Z> hard_no: yeah, that I do. 
<2021-05-28T20:26:22.000Z> hard_no: Social media is hard. 
<2021-05-28T20:26:42.000Z> hard_no: I gotta go drive a kid to a place. back in like 20
<2021-05-28T20:40:08.000Z> hard_no: Fucking slow child.
<2021-05-28T20:40:14.000Z> hard_no: Let's go mom. Oh wait...
<2021-05-28T20:41:05.000Z> hard_no: 17 year old girls. what're ya gonna do.
<2021-05-28T20:41:56.000Z> hard_no: wait. You're going to wait for them. That's what.
<2021-05-28T20:44:17.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. She's an incredibly good kid, but there are still times I want to beat her with a chair. And she is totally not retarded, she's smart, no social media, not a whore, good head on her shoulders, I am terrified as to what the world will be for her in the next two years.
<2021-05-28T20:44:54.000Z> hard_no: I'm working so hard on that. 
<2021-05-28T20:45:24.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. We've worked on that one for sure. 
<2021-05-28T20:45:54.000Z> hard_no: We talk constantly about relationship stuff, I do NOT want her to make the same bad choices with men that I did before I met her dad.
<2021-05-28T20:46:01.000Z> hard_no: Exactly.
<2021-05-28T20:46:33.000Z> hard_no: And she's a tiny pretty little thing, people think they can take advantage 
<2021-05-28T20:46:36.000Z> hard_no: YES
<2021-05-28T20:47:12.000Z> hard_no: She's been working since she was 14, and still has issues with wielding her authority.
<2021-05-28T20:48:27.000Z> hard_no: I'm kind of trying to convince her to skip college and just get married to a nice white boy and start popping out nice white babies.
<2021-05-28T20:49:23.000Z> hard_no: She's really smart though, loves chemistry, I don't know. I have another year to help her figure things out. It's so hard. 
<2021-05-28T20:51:05.000Z> hard_no: It's going to depend on who gives her the most money. She's on her own to pay for it, and has already decided against taking out loans.
<2021-05-28T20:51:24.000Z> hard_no: Yep
<2021-05-28T20:51:46.000Z> hard_no: Probably. 
<2021-05-28T20:51:59.000Z> hard_no: We are not rich people. 
<2021-05-28T20:53:07.000Z> hard_no: She's open to living at home, or whatever, for sure. I'd be very happy with that.
<2021-05-28T20:53:29.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. Just... safer.
<2021-05-28T20:53:59.000Z> hard_no: She's got her temporary license. Never met a kid less enthusiastic about learning to drive.
<2021-05-28T20:54:05.000Z> hard_no: Yes
<2021-05-28T20:55:07.000Z> hard_no: Also has her blackbelt in tae kwon do, but that pretty passive for martial arts
<2021-05-28T20:56:01.000Z> hard_no: hahah! glock
<2021-05-28T20:56:10.000Z> hard_no: She's finally ready. brb
<2021-05-28T21:14:50.000Z> hard_no: Back
<2021-05-28T21:22:11.000Z> hard_no: fuck. 
<2021-05-28T21:22:23.000Z> hard_no: browser not refreshing
<2021-05-28T21:22:43.000Z> hard_no: is good now
<2021-05-28T21:24:05.000Z> hard_no: Is it cold up there? It's cold AND rainy over here.
<2021-05-28T21:26:05.000Z> hard_no: global warming my ass
<2021-05-28T21:27:10.000Z> hard_no: That I'd buy
<2021-05-28T21:32:46.000Z> hard_no: Uh, yeah
<2021-05-28T21:33:10.000Z> hard_no: Do you really think I don't pay attention to the things you send me? What kind of asshole do you take me for?
<2021-05-28T21:33:37.000Z> hard_no: Fair enough. 
<2021-05-28T21:33:54.000Z> hard_no: Super fair
<2021-05-28T21:34:51.000Z> hard_no: Not much. I'm very under read in general  for history
<2021-05-28T21:36:49.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! Those fuckers!
<2021-05-28T21:37:26.000Z> hard_no: That's some shit right there.
<2021-05-28T21:38:27.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. 
<2021-05-28T21:38:36.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-28T21:39:00.000Z> hard_no: That's probably a good fucking thing
<2021-05-28T21:39:41.000Z> hard_no: Well, all things considered, I think the not drinkng can be forgiven
<2021-05-28T21:39:53.000Z> hard_no: gotta drive another kid back in 10\
<2021-05-28T21:50:40.000Z> hard_no: I stg, as much frustration as that girl gives, I'ma beat that boy of mine with a fucking chair.
<2021-05-28T21:51:35.000Z> hard_no: No. Like in my fucking kitchen. 
<2021-05-28T21:52:29.000Z> hard_no: I know what you mean tho, and yeah. But with a wooden one. Big, heavy...
<2021-05-28T21:53:41.000Z> hard_no: 5'4 on a tall day
<2021-05-28T21:55:00.000Z> hard_no: I'm not what you'd call intimidating in stature. Kid's  like 6ft now
<2021-05-28T21:55:18.000Z> hard_no: Nice comment to witzke
<2021-05-28T21:56:48.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. I have to have help to reach things. It's irritating
<2021-05-28T21:57:45.000Z> hard_no: No. He's smarter than that. But the Mr will occasionally lift *me* up to reach something rather than just get something for me. 
<2021-05-28T21:57:49.000Z> hard_no: Cheeky fucker
<2021-05-28T21:58:24.000Z> hard_no: Conversely, um, no.
<2021-05-28T21:59:01.000Z> hard_no: I'm sure you would find it hysterically funny.
<2021-05-28T21:59:46.000Z> hard_no: stupid boys
<2021-05-28T22:00:48.000Z> hard_no: Icky
<2021-05-28T22:00:54.000Z> hard_no: Probably
<2021-05-28T22:01:47.000Z> hard_no: Why? Why dp they have to ruin everthing
<2021-05-28T22:01:53.000Z> hard_no: do
<2021-05-28T22:05:14.000Z> hard_no: Nah, you're good. It's entertaining. 
<2021-05-28T22:05:43.000Z> hard_no: You're kind of a fast talking irl, huh
<2021-05-28T22:07:17.000Z> hard_no: interesting. 
<2021-05-28T22:07:21.000Z> hard_no: Stupid girls
<2021-05-28T22:07:38.000Z> hard_no: kinda
<2021-05-28T22:07:53.000Z> hard_no: I know. Stupid girls
<2021-05-28T22:08:29.000Z> hard_no: lol
<2021-05-28T22:08:55.000Z> hard_no: I gotta go get ready for the kid's lax game. back later
<2021-05-28T22:09:08.000Z> hard_no: or periodically during the lulls of the game
<2021-05-28T22:09:20.000Z> hard_no: it should be, it's like hockey but with a ball
<2021-05-28T22:35:02.000Z> hard_no: Oh lord no not blonde
<2021-05-28T22:35:12.000Z> hard_no: Brunette with red
<2021-05-28T22:35:35.000Z> hard_no: Fuck it's cold out here 
<2021-05-28T22:37:07.000Z> hard_no: Tell me about it 
<2021-05-28T22:37:54.000Z> hard_no: Fucking windy too
<2021-05-28T22:44:18.000Z> hard_no: Freezing my ass off waiting for the game to start
<2021-05-28T22:47:02.000Z> hard_no: We started. We scored. 
<2021-05-28T22:57:17.000Z> hard_no: End of the first. Wicked head wind. We beat this team 16-1last time. 
<2021-05-28T23:05:25.000Z> hard_no: Lol. You should totally be doing other things rn. 
<2021-05-28T23:18:12.000Z> hard_no: Yes. He agreed I would be awesome at that. 
<2021-05-28T23:38:49.000Z> hard_no: We just scored on ourselves. Goalie is so pissed! Lol poor kid looks like he's gonna beat someone bloody. 
<2021-05-29T00:08:57.000Z> hard_no: No, pretty fucking rare.
<2021-05-29T00:09:06.000Z> hard_no: game over, 11-1
<2021-05-29T00:09:43.000Z> hard_no: we lost one game this season, and it was to a team that was basically varsity
<2021-05-29T00:10:47.000Z> hard_no: That school has only had a team for 2 years, and you don't build a varsity team for 2 years, so it was mostly jrs and srs playing our fr and soph kids.
<2021-05-29T00:11:03.000Z> hard_no: Nah, I'm cooler than that
<2021-05-29T00:11:11.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. It sucked
<2021-05-29T00:11:42.000Z> hard_no: So i'm not counting that one. I'm calling it undefeated this year. I don't care
<2021-05-29T00:14:47.000Z> hard_no: The school that beat us is only in the second year of their lax program, and in WI, they don't have to build out Varsity and JV; it's all JV for those 2 years. So our legit JV team was playing what amounted to their Varsity team. 
<2021-05-29T00:14:52.000Z> hard_no: Does that make sense?
<2021-05-29T00:24:36.000Z> hard_no: You're fine. Had to throw some food together, I'm starving.
<2021-05-29T00:24:45.000Z> hard_no: You're funny when you're high
<2021-05-29T00:24:54.000Z> hard_no: I'm jealous, ngl
<2021-05-29T00:25:27.000Z> hard_no: No. It's just one team with a fuckload of players. It's completely retaded
<2021-05-29T00:25:37.000Z> hard_no: All together, one team
<2021-05-29T00:25:39.000Z> hard_no: Right??
<2021-05-29T00:26:11.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha!
<2021-05-29T00:27:05.000Z> hard_no: Right, city and then the burbs
<2021-05-29T00:29:54.000Z> hard_no: Just an oddball, huh?
<2021-05-29T00:34:19.000Z> hard_no: Right? Damn Sean
<2021-05-29T00:34:55.000Z> hard_no: I'll be needing that Doc Marten story later btw
<2021-05-29T00:35:16.000Z> hard_no: My  girl wears mine
<2021-05-29T00:35:41.000Z> hard_no: Mr wore wingtip Docs to get married in
<2021-05-29T00:36:16.000Z> hard_no: I'll just take them back from the girl
<2021-05-29T00:36:36.000Z> hard_no: It's not like I actually *gave* them to her
<2021-05-29T00:36:39.000Z> hard_no: daughter
<2021-05-29T00:36:52.000Z> hard_no: it's "the girl" and "the boy"
<2021-05-29T00:36:52.000Z> hard_no: "
<2021-05-29T00:36:56.000Z> hard_no: or forms there or
<2021-05-29T00:37:00.000Z> hard_no: of
<2021-05-29T00:37:13.000Z> hard_no: She really is. It's bizarre
<2021-05-29T00:37:54.000Z> hard_no: Otoh, it is proof positive of how intensely awesome I really am. Like, third person pov
<2021-05-29T00:38:01.000Z> hard_no: No
<2021-05-29T00:38:54.000Z> hard_no: I've always been of the mind that if and when it's applicable, it will be divulged. 
<2021-05-29T00:39:48.000Z> hard_no: Like, she knows I got into some drugs and alcohol and stuff, just not how intense it all was.
<2021-05-29T00:40:49.000Z> hard_no: Oh the boy stufff, yeah, we talk about that shit all the time. I have a small tattoo that covers a scar that's from that same boy and so that came up pretty early. 
<2021-05-29T00:41:15.000Z> hard_no: It was applicable. I divulged
<2021-05-29T00:43:02.000Z> hard_no: A lot of her friends do that with me. 
<2021-05-29T00:43:40.000Z> hard_no: They can't or won't talk to their parents, so they come to my house, call me mom, and talk to me. It's pretty cool actually
<2021-05-29T00:44:27.000Z> hard_no: I always end up telling them, after we talk or whatever, that they nee to try to talk to their parents. I don't know if they ever do
<2021-05-29T00:45:26.000Z> hard_no: I don't know a lot of their parents. They're like little refugees that she brings home. lol
<2021-05-29T00:45:54.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, I hear you on that.
<2021-05-29T00:48:59.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha! Always!
<2021-05-29T00:51:55.000Z> hard_no: You are an intense nerd. You know that?
<2021-05-29T00:54:29.000Z> hard_no: noooooo!
<2021-05-29T00:56:15.000Z> hard_no: You do good lulz
<2021-05-29T00:57:56.000Z> hard_no: You are def more than one dimension. Closer to maybe 12 or so, minimum
<2021-05-29T00:59:27.000Z> hard_no: Yeah
<2021-05-29T01:00:39.000Z> hard_no: You're just special
<2021-05-29T01:02:59.000Z> hard_no: That's pretty funny though.
<2021-05-29T01:03:25.000Z> hard_no: You pissed people off really, really well. you're just a rabble rouser.
<2021-05-29T01:04:22.000Z> hard_no: Yeah
<2021-05-29T01:05:53.000Z> hard_no: Oof.
<2021-05-29T01:06:44.000Z> hard_no: Sexual harassment!
<2021-05-29T01:07:36.000Z> hard_no: lol
<2021-05-29T01:08:03.000Z> hard_no: lmao!
<2021-05-29T01:08:07.000Z> hard_no: Effective though
<2021-05-29T01:08:36.000Z> hard_no: Just run for your life
<2021-05-29T01:09:49.000Z> hard_no: You really are one of my people. 
<2021-05-29T01:10:25.000Z> hard_no: Have you had *any* sanity in your life? Like, at all? Ever?
<2021-05-29T01:10:52.000Z> hard_no: Before crazy ex went crazy?
<2021-05-29T01:11:46.000Z> hard_no: Dude, you married her. It was kind of a big deal.
<2021-05-29T01:12:48.000Z> hard_no: You were a disaster
<2021-05-29T01:13:33.000Z> hard_no: Story of your entire fucking life, my friend
<2021-05-29T01:15:56.000Z> hard_no: I'm sorry. 
<2021-05-29T01:16:25.000Z> hard_no: Yeah, but...
<2021-05-29T01:17:12.000Z> hard_no: You're my friend, and I'm allowed to have feelings about shitty things that happen to people I care about. That's just how things work.
<2021-05-29T01:17:44.000Z> hard_no: So I get to be sad that you had to deal with all that. Suck it up.
<2021-05-29T01:19:12.000Z> hard_no: Just... outside pov here, I'm amazed at your life is all.Mostly that you survived it, tbh.
<2021-05-29T01:19:40.000Z> hard_no: oh get over it
<2021-05-29T01:20:17.000Z> hard_no: I'm a mom. I want to fix and love all the broken children
<2021-05-29T01:20:35.000Z> hard_no: I know
<2021-05-29T01:20:38.000Z> hard_no: it's awful
<2021-05-29T01:21:57.000Z> hard_no: I think I have some idea, just from the stories you've told me and how you wrote about it there.
<2021-05-29T01:24:28.000Z> hard_no: No. You're fine.
<2021-05-29T01:24:39.000Z> hard_no: Don't be stupid
<2021-05-29T01:25:37.000Z> hard_no: Alright. later, dork
<2021-05-29T01:25:49.000Z> hard_no: such an asshole
<2021-05-29T01:26:34.000Z> hard_no: YES
<2021-05-29T01:26:37.000Z> hard_no: and YES
<2021-05-29T01:28:29.000Z> hard_no: tldr
<2021-05-29T01:30:01.000Z> hard_no: as always
<2021-05-29T01:36:01.000Z> hard_no: No, I'm here. my browser froze
<2021-05-29T01:36:16.000Z> hard_no: So those responses I gave made no sense. sry
<2021-05-29T01:36:27.000Z> hard_no: Keep going. This is great
<2021-05-29T01:36:34.000Z> hard_no: No, I'm good not
<2021-05-29T01:36:36.000Z> hard_no: now
<2021-05-29T01:38:34.000Z> hard_no: Oh noo!
<2021-05-29T01:38:47.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha!
<2021-05-29T01:39:03.000Z> hard_no: Oh shit!
<2021-05-29T01:39:11.000Z> hard_no: Lmfao
<2021-05-29T01:40:06.000Z> hard_no: Hahahaha!
<2021-05-29T01:42:59.000Z> hard_no: super
<2021-05-29T01:43:23.000Z> hard_no: Hahahah!
<2021-05-29T01:44:17.000Z> hard_no: Boo... go get smokes. I'll wait. 
<2021-05-29T01:44:39.000Z> hard_no: Double boo
<2021-05-29T01:45:56.000Z> hard_no: I am very nice to him.
<2021-05-29T01:46:07.000Z> hard_no: He's very much a kid
<2021-05-29T01:47:41.000Z> hard_no: trad girl
<2021-05-29T01:47:44.000Z> hard_no: GO!
<2021-05-29T01:56:28.000Z> hard_no: Boo. It was awful at the game!
<2021-05-29T02:08:46.000Z> hard_no: cigarettes
<2021-05-29T02:09:12.000Z> hard_no: I'm not gay
<2021-05-29T02:10:03.000Z> hard_no: I just finished one
<2021-05-29T02:10:24.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-29T02:10:36.000Z> hard_no: I was going to yell at you again for texting and driving
<2021-05-29T02:11:05.000Z> hard_no: You can't say that anymore. 
<2021-05-29T02:11:46.000Z> hard_no: I used to, with the physical keyboard. I would die now if I did
<2021-05-29T02:13:27.000Z> hard_no: I have no love for transplants to my state. They come and destroy it
<2021-05-29T02:13:48.000Z> hard_no: I have a slight WI one at the moment, but MT is pretty non-accented.
<2021-05-29T02:14:06.000Z> hard_no: How thick is your Philly accent?
<2021-05-29T02:15:33.000Z> hard_no: Hahaha!
<2021-05-29T02:15:42.000Z> hard_no: That's a good thing
<2021-05-29T02:16:01.000Z> hard_no: I've only ever met one person from PA
<2021-05-29T02:23:27.000Z> hard_no: yep
<2021-05-29T02:24:22.000Z> hard_no: Just tell the story, I'll use the googlemachine for context later
<2021-05-29T02:24:59.000Z> hard_no: hahahiah!
<2021-05-29T02:26:49.000Z> hard_no: you were the bad influence friend
<2021-05-29T02:28:28.000Z> hard_no: Yes
<2021-05-29T02:28:41.000Z> hard_no: yeah yeah
<2021-05-29T02:29:25.000Z> hard_no: You're good. Keep going, I have to go get socks.
<2021-05-29T02:32:14.000Z> hard_no: here
<2021-05-29T02:32:33.000Z> hard_no: yeah
<2021-05-29T02:32:55.000Z> hard_no: omg. You're awful
<2021-05-29T02:33:14.000Z> hard_no: lololol
<2021-05-29T02:33:52.000Z> hard_no: Oh Christ
<2021-05-29T02:34:20.000Z> hard_no: Oh, that's hilarious
<2021-05-29T02:35:24.000Z> hard_no: Oh man
<2021-05-29T02:36:23.000Z> hard_no: oh shit
<2021-05-29T02:36:36.000Z> hard_no: fucking Catholic school kids
<2021-05-29T02:36:37.000Z> hard_no: yeah
<2021-05-29T02:36:43.000Z> hard_no: yep
<2021-05-29T02:36:57.000Z> hard_no: Jesus
<2021-05-29T02:37:22.000Z> hard_no: Damn Sean
<2021-05-29T02:38:06.000Z> hard_no: nice
<2021-05-29T02:40:02.000Z> hard_no: hahahha!
<2021-05-29T02:40:31.000Z> hard_no: That's pretty impressive
<2021-05-29T02:40:56.000Z> hard_no: hahaha!
<2021-05-29T02:41:18.000Z> hard_no: Yeah it is .
<2021-05-29T02:41:23.000Z> hard_no: sad I mean
<2021-05-29T02:41:36.000Z> hard_no: At least you have those memories, right?
<2021-05-29T02:42:08.000Z> hard_no: So if you could go anywhere, where would you go?
<2021-05-29T02:42:30.000Z> hard_no: Hahahahaha!
<2021-05-29T02:42:40.000Z> hard_no: stupid question. What was I thinking
<2021-05-29T02:42:52.000Z> hard_no: spiders in the basement
<2021-05-29T02:43:26.000Z> hard_no: hahaha
<2021-05-29T02:44:50.000Z> hard_no: Yeah. 
<2021-05-29T02:46:08.000Z> hard_no: You're not a dick. Well, I mean, you are, but, no. Probably 30's. I'm going with mid 30's.
<2021-05-29T02:46:13.000Z> hard_no: Yeah territory.
<2021-05-29T02:46:44.000Z> hard_no: Not necessarily, but like, where would you *choose* to go
<2021-05-29T02:47:03.000Z> hard_no: My sister lives down there
<2021-05-29T02:48:26.000Z> hard_no: Wyoming is pretty desolate, lots of place to hide.
<2021-05-29T02:48:50.000Z> hard_no: Well, shit. Go to Hungary. How is that even a choice?
<2021-05-29T02:49:20.000Z> hard_no: You're a genius. learn that shit
<2021-05-29T02:49:55.000Z> hard_no: Good answer, tbh
<2021-05-29T02:50:09.000Z> hard_no: Well, you're doing the latter already, so...
<2021-05-29T02:50:34.000Z> hard_no: Sorry, misread that.
<2021-05-29T02:51:17.000Z> hard_no: Yes you are. I'm smoking with my head half out the door
<2021-05-29T02:52:29.000Z> hard_no: German, Dutch, French Canadian, and a little Cherokee that no one admits to: There was a great great great etc grandmother who passed as white. I'm tainted
<2021-05-29T02:53:49.000Z> hard_no: Basically. The German is a great grandfather from the old country
<2021-05-29T02:53:56.000Z> hard_no: and grandmother
<2021-05-29T02:54:03.000Z> hard_no: great granmother, sorry
<2021-05-29T02:55:10.000Z> hard_no: lol