<2021-03-18T22:13:04.000Z> crisp: did you delete and remake your account
<2021-03-18T22:13:34.000Z> metokurist: i tried to delete it last night i think when drunk
<2021-03-18T22:13:47.000Z> metokurist: but it didnt delete cos i could still see it and people were interacting
<2021-03-18T22:13:55.000Z> metokurist: so i just logged back in
<2021-03-18T22:15:21.000Z> crisp: sounds like a bug
<2021-03-18T22:15:33.000Z> crisp: maybe it deleted some bits but not all
<2021-03-18T22:16:30.000Z> crisp: it's just odd, thanks for info I'll pass it along
<2021-03-18T22:16:54.000Z> metokurist: elle reeve asked me about the fediverse so i said i was on the groyper instance
<2021-03-18T22:17:09.000Z> crisp: I think that's offline now
<2021-03-18T22:17:19.000Z> metokurist: oh rip
<2021-03-18T22:17:34.000Z> metokurist: i told her to sign up on spinster
<2021-03-19T11:22:08.000Z> metokurist: she was actually more interested in qanon and seemed not to know anything about the guardian article about luke smith 
<2021-03-20T15:51:57.000Z> crisp: I confirmed the account deleting bug by also trying to delete mine drunk
<2021-03-20T15:52:19.000Z> metokurist: its a cool feature
<2021-03-20T15:52:32.000Z> crisp: doesn't bother me tbh
<2021-03-20T15:52:50.000Z> metokurist: yeah other people were like "omg what happened , rip your clout"
<2021-03-20T15:53:11.000Z> metokurist: doesnt really seem to matter on this platform anyway
<2021-03-20T15:53:12.000Z> crisp: I'm going to take a social media break anyway 
<2021-03-20T15:53:49.000Z> metokurist: yeah probably for the best, elle reeve seemed sort of clueless
<2021-03-20T15:54:03.000Z> metokurist: "did you hear about nick fuentes having hired a documentary team to follow him?"
<2021-03-20T15:54:08.000Z> metokurist: she asked me
<2021-03-20T15:54:25.000Z> crisp: weren't you the person who spotted theroux
<2021-03-20T15:54:30.000Z> metokurist: i dont know why she wanted to talk to me, I think she is just sort of fascinated like women who are into serial killers
<2021-03-20T15:54:48.000Z> metokurist: i dunno, I spotted it but maybe others did also
<2021-03-20T15:54:52.000Z> metokurist: he is pretty well known
<2021-03-20T15:55:00.000Z> metokurist: i spotted him outside of cpac
<2021-03-20T15:55:04.000Z> metokurist: in the mask
<2021-03-20T15:55:08.000Z> crisp: yeah I used to watch all his docs
<2021-03-20T15:55:11.000Z> crisp: I was into that kind of stuff
<2021-03-20T15:55:41.000Z> metokurist: is it normal for a journalist to talk to you regularly for hours at a time 
<2021-03-20T15:56:04.000Z> metokurist: i think she might actually be sort of interested in me 
<2021-03-20T15:56:06.000Z> metokurist: lmao
<2021-03-20T15:56:07.000Z> crisp: no, unless you are providing some useful info to them, or they are just fucking bored and have some weird interest
<2021-03-20T15:56:18.000Z> crisp: I suspect someone like her is prob bored all the time
<2021-03-20T15:56:30.000Z> crisp: but journalists also use that as a trick to see if you can give up info
<2021-03-20T15:56:33.000Z> metokurist: i dont tell her anything useful, she is fascinated by internet stories i tell her
<2021-03-20T15:56:46.000Z> metokurist: like how we convinced a guy he was trapped in the matrix
<2021-03-20T15:56:48.000Z> metokurist: stuff like that
<2021-03-20T15:56:50.000Z> crisp: that's still info that could be useful
<2021-03-20T15:57:10.000Z> metokurist: i think its like me when I watch documentaries about chimps
<2021-03-20T15:57:14.000Z> metokurist: same sort of interest
<2021-03-20T15:57:56.000Z> crisp: I wonder if we are someone else's chimps, like a higher life form observing all our stupid shit like trannies existing or people going crazy from the internet
<2021-03-20T15:58:07.000Z> metokurist: yeah its like playing sim cities for them
<2021-03-20T15:58:18.000Z> crisp: "another one got addicted to porn and cut their dick off" 
<2021-03-20T15:58:19.000Z> metokurist: "ok release the trannies"
<2021-03-20T15:58:55.000Z> metokurist: Oh i found a cool site 
<2021-03-20T15:58:56.000Z> metokurist: hexameter.co/
<2021-03-20T15:59:07.000Z> metokurist: im gonna look into this
<2021-03-20T15:59:10.000Z> metokurist: but seems cool
<2021-03-20T15:59:11.000Z> crisp: "wow it only took 7 years to turn this normal person into a schizophrenic nazi with no friends"
<2021-03-20T15:59:43.000Z> metokurist: I have actually been speaking her for almost 5 years lmao
<2021-03-20T16:00:22.000Z> metokurist: she asks me how i got into it and I think I said I started by watching 4chan ytmnd gif compilations on youtube in like 2012
<2021-03-20T16:00:54.000Z> crisp: yeah similar for me but more around 2007-08
<2021-03-20T16:00:58.000Z> metokurist: then I found encyclopedia dramatica at school cos other kids would show you the offended page 
<2021-03-20T16:01:07.000Z> metokurist: and then I hung around the ed forums
<2021-03-20T16:01:17.000Z> metokurist: and sort of learnt how to behave to fit in
<2021-03-20T16:01:27.000Z> crisp: none of that shit existed when I was in high school
<2021-03-20T16:01:33.000Z> metokurist: she cant grasp how Im not offended by shit
<2021-03-20T16:01:49.000Z> metokurist: she asked if i think i have autism
<2021-03-20T16:02:01.000Z> crisp: when I was a kid in the 90s we used to call each other the n-word
<2021-03-20T16:02:15.000Z> crisp: so I dunno, nothing offended me
<2021-03-20T16:02:23.000Z> crisp: the only thing I don't like is gore
<2021-03-20T16:02:58.000Z> crisp: I remember they showed us an antiracist film in class and I thought the racists seemed cool in it
<2021-03-20T16:03:41.000Z> metokurist: I think i responded something about how I can't be autistic because I am good at manipulating people's emotions 
<2021-03-20T16:03:50.000Z> metokurist: which I dont know if that follows
<2021-03-20T16:04:01.000Z> metokurist: but isnt autism when you cant understand emotions and how others feel
<2021-03-20T16:08:11.000Z> crisp: yeah I mean it's a continuum 
<2021-03-20T16:08:39.000Z> crisp: I mean sociopaths are good at manipulating people but might have blunted emotional response as well
<2021-03-20T16:08:51.000Z> crisp: so it's possible to have both those aspects
<2021-03-20T16:09:33.000Z> crisp: although I think the defining aspect of a sociopath is a lack of guilt
<2021-03-20T16:11:06.000Z> crisp: and also empathy
<2021-03-20T16:11:42.000Z> crisp: autistics also have the empathy part but not neccesarily the other parts
<2021-03-20T16:12:05.000Z> crisp: and it's a continuum, most autists might have blunted empathy not so much a total lack of it 
<2021-03-20T16:13:23.000Z> crisp: or it could be like, abnormal, like caring about animals more than people
<2021-03-20T16:15:18.000Z> metokurist: I dont think I am autistic, I just think my ability to socialise has been heavily affected by bullying when I was younger
<2021-03-20T16:15:52.000Z> metokurist: like I have patterns of avoidance and deception that I have adopted to avoid people being able to bully me
<2021-03-20T16:15:52.000Z> crisp: yeah it's possible you learned to be manipulative as a defense mechanism 
<2021-03-20T16:17:13.000Z> crisp: I basically had people so scared of me they wouldn't bully me, which is def a manipulation... Although I did hurt a couple of people to make a point as well. 
<2021-03-20T16:19:33.000Z> crisp: but I think some people shouldn't be in public or private school I would have been better off learning myself
<2021-03-20T16:20:30.000Z> crisp: and teachers and staff who enable bullying are the most guilty of all in my opinion, and I don't mean the gay shit now like no tolerance for violence crap because sending someone to the hospital really makes a point lol
<2021-03-20T16:21:17.000Z> metokurist: I think school should just be for learning and kids should socialise outside of that if they want
<2021-03-20T16:21:24.000Z> metokurist: its the forcing kids together thats the problem
<2021-03-20T16:21:28.000Z> metokurist: i think i have said before
<2021-03-20T16:21:45.000Z> metokurist: its like having apes and forcing the ape that is rejected to stay in the same enclosure
<2021-03-20T16:29:10.000Z> crisp: yeah very apt metaphor.. I need to burn the energy this coffee gave me now doing something. later 
<2021-03-20T16:29:19.000Z> metokurist: cya
<2021-03-29T23:45:39.000Z> metokurist: winding wyatt up
<2021-03-30T00:09:13.000Z> crisp: okay we have enough drama going on rn lol
<2021-04-01T00:13:29.000Z> metokurist: trying to think of a good april fools
<2021-04-01T00:13:52.000Z> metokurist: you should make a fake elle reeve account and say all the mods have verified its her and then just post stuff like
<2021-04-01T00:14:36.000Z> metokurist: "so how do you guys think loli intersects with far right politics?"
<2021-04-01T02:41:09.000Z> crisp: my suggestion was to change all the swastika avis to star of davids but I don't think anyone wants to do that 
<2021-06-23T13:48:00.000Z> crisp: I got a 110gb archive of the great courses lectures recently, lots of good stuff in it 
<2021-06-23T14:27:33.000Z> metokurist: fuck
<2021-06-23T14:27:39.000Z> metokurist: how can you even download that
<2021-06-23T14:28:05.000Z> metokurist: send i will see if i can just torrent the parts i am interested in
<2021-06-23T14:28:11.000Z> crisp: it's on pirate bay, I turn on vpn and it look like 4 hours to dload
<2021-06-23T14:28:43.000Z> crisp: I have like 20tb + of storage I even backed it up on another drive after
<2021-06-23T14:30:03.000Z> metokurist: can you link me the one you used? I will see if it will let me just get the files i am interested in
<2021-06-23T14:30:06.000Z> metokurist: pls
<2021-06-23T14:30:14.000Z> crisp: thepiratebay.org/description.php?id=10375085 
<2021-06-23T14:30:26.000Z> crisp: yeah it's all in folders so you could check off the ones you wanted
<2021-06-23T14:30:58.000Z> crisp: just make sure you use a vpn or something
<2021-06-23T14:31:01.000Z> metokurist: thanking you
<2021-06-23T14:31:10.000Z> crisp: I use mullvad
<2021-06-23T14:31:16.000Z> metokurist: i have to use a vpn anyway cos pirate bay is ip blocked in uk
<2021-06-23T14:31:46.000Z> metokurist: wait actually i need to use a torrent for whole internet not just browser
<2021-06-23T14:31:54.000Z> metokurist: actually no i dont cos i think bittorrent is in browser
<2021-06-23T14:31:56.000Z> metokurist: not sure
<2021-06-23T14:32:12.000Z> crisp: the only thing I dont like is most of them are m4b files which is m4a with chapter markers, I prefer stuff that's seperate files for chapters
<2021-06-23T14:32:37.000Z> metokurist: it depends sometimes i download files and it fucks up the chapter order
<2021-06-23T14:32:44.000Z> metokurist: so if m4a avoids that i prefer it
<2021-06-23T14:32:57.000Z> crisp: brave has a built in torrent part but yeah you want good vpn also that allows p2p
<2021-06-23T14:33:16.000Z> crisp: when I need to dload stuff I just pay 5 euro for a month of mullvad
<2021-06-23T14:33:39.000Z> metokurist: I have pirated so much stuff and noone has ever come after me
<2021-06-23T14:33:48.000Z> metokurist: i am only weary of new stuff
<2021-06-23T14:34:00.000Z> crisp: if there's just some specific ones you want I could always use a filesharing site
<2021-06-23T14:33:54.000Z> metokurist: and stuff from huge companies
<2021-06-23T14:33:56.000Z> metokurist: like disnet
<2021-06-23T14:35:01.000Z> crisp: yeah a lot of these are from the tape era.. the collection is from 2014 so it's only stuff up to then
<2021-06-23T14:36:16.000Z> metokurist: yeah i think most of the shit is before they changed their name
<2021-06-23T14:36:22.000Z> metokurist: from the teaching company
<2021-06-23T14:36:26.000Z> metokurist: to the great courses
<2021-06-23T14:36:34.000Z> metokurist: you can find alot of the old torrents under that name
<2021-06-23T14:37:18.000Z> metokurist: im gonna download all the classics related ones thanks
<2021-06-23T14:40:34.000Z> metokurist: yoooo these have the pdf accompanying them as well
<2021-06-23T14:40:43.000Z> metokurist: this is all long distance tape course stuff
<2021-06-23T14:40:44.000Z> metokurist: nice
<2021-06-23T14:40:52.000Z> metokurist: people used to send off for these in the ail
<2021-06-23T14:40:53.000Z> metokurist: mail
<2021-06-23T14:42:14.000Z> metokurist: might relistne to the socrates ones
<2021-06-23T14:42:16.000Z> metokurist: they are really good
<2021-06-23T14:43:28.000Z> crisp: I started one on alexander the great
<2021-06-23T14:43:34.000Z> crisp: but I haven't even gone over all of them yet
<2021-06-23T14:43:48.000Z> crisp: oh yeah need to bring this to my irl friend today also
<2021-06-23T14:44:11.000Z> crisp: m4b files can play in vlc and so on, I'm using mobile vlc on android
<2021-06-23T14:44:19.000Z> metokurist: im just going through looking at classics related ones, the socratic dialogues ones and the grecoroman morals ones are both the ones that had the biggest impact on me
<2021-06-23T14:44:28.000Z> metokurist: i might just convert them all 
<2021-06-23T14:44:32.000Z> crisp: there are some video ones but not many, and they are like 240p avi
<2021-06-23T14:45:24.000Z> crisp: yeah those tapes used to be like, 300$ or some shit and it might come in a case or big folder
<2021-06-23T14:45:30.000Z> metokurist: notice how much of it is on christianity
<2021-06-23T14:45:38.000Z> metokurist: they must have had a huge market for that
<2021-06-23T14:45:38.000Z> crisp: because I think it would be 1 tape per chapter probably
<2021-06-23T14:45:55.000Z> crisp: prob americans
<2021-06-23T14:46:04.000Z> metokurist: yeah lots on american stuff too
<2021-06-23T14:46:12.000Z> metokurist: like "history of the supreme court"
<2021-06-23T14:46:13.000Z> metokurist: and stuff
<2021-06-23T14:46:15.000Z> crisp: their market back then was rich educated people
<2021-06-23T14:46:53.000Z> metokurist: no wonder the quality is so good tho
<2021-06-23T14:47:00.000Z> metokurist: it had to be to get people spending 300 dollars
<2021-06-23T14:47:02.000Z> crisp: they've come much more downmarket now but you see typical complaints about them that they don't teach any intersectional shit lol
<2021-06-23T14:47:56.000Z> crisp: another friend who's a fan of this stuff said "they are the most right wing company by default" just because they teach so much classics stuff
<2021-06-23T14:47:57.000Z> metokurist: thats probably only cos their material is over 15 years old
<2021-06-23T14:48:25.000Z> crisp: I watched some newer stuff.. I did the entire steppe history one
<2021-06-23T14:48:40.000Z> crisp: 36 chapters
<2021-06-23T14:48:55.000Z> crisp: it was good
<2021-06-23T14:49:20.000Z> metokurist: it will probably go to shit
<2021-06-23T14:49:41.000Z> crisp: also a good foundation because it spans from china to europe, including middle east, so I was able to kind of orient (no pun indended) to what history I was interested in
<2021-06-23T14:49:49.000Z> metokurist: oh nice it has grecoroman moralists
<2021-06-23T14:49:52.000Z> crisp: even if it does they made so much good material it's like priceless
<2021-06-23T14:49:54.000Z> metokurist: thats a good one
<2021-06-23T14:50:35.000Z> crisp: even india cause the kushan empire
<2021-06-23T14:50:50.000Z> crisp: the steppe history is crazy
<2021-06-23T14:51:03.000Z> metokurist: all that history of the east is the equivalent of fantasy lore to me
<2021-06-23T14:51:12.000Z> metokurist: its just so alien 
<2021-06-23T14:51:30.000Z> metokurist: its like the dwarf fortress legends history of the world you generate
<2021-06-23T14:51:46.000Z> crisp: yeah but the steppe one is good because it rached the west so it's like orcs invading shit, that's how people saw the huns, like literal monsters invading
<2021-06-23T14:52:33.000Z> crisp: so it's like weird fantasy history mixing with more familiar history
<2021-06-23T14:53:07.000Z> metokurist: if people literally just were assigned some of these courses they would be alot more well educated than if they attended college
<2021-06-23T14:53:22.000Z> metokurist: oh they have toqueville
<2021-06-23T14:53:28.000Z> metokurist: nice
<2021-06-23T14:53:36.000Z> crisp: and like the end of it is the establishment of russia, the rus literally took over that area to eliminate the various steppe empires that were sacking them
<2021-06-23T14:53:42.000Z> metokurist: you might find that one interesting
<2021-06-23T14:53:57.000Z> metokurist: tocqueville and the american experiment
<2021-06-23T14:54:20.000Z> metokurist: he is like a french guy who shat on america in the 1800s i think from the general stuff i remember
<2021-06-23T14:55:25.000Z> crisp: and the europeans developed advanced weapons from the mongols introducing gunpowder to them, but europe was full of bell makers because of the widespread use with churches and so on, and a cannon is basically an elongated bell, made a similar way. 
<2021-06-23T14:55:59.000Z> metokurist: thats cool i think i have heard the bell foundry shit somewhere before
<2021-06-23T14:56:00.000Z> crisp: so europe became the dominant world power because of bells
<2021-06-23T14:56:29.000Z> crisp: it's weird but also makes so much sense
<2021-06-23T14:56:34.000Z> metokurist: oh lmao every fantasy novel that introduces gunpowder has a bell foundry involved
<2021-06-23T14:56:41.000Z> metokurist: thats where i am remembering it from
<2021-06-23T14:58:09.000Z> metokurist: oh its literally directly in the wheel of time
<2021-06-23T14:58:10.000Z> metokurist: "You tell me what use I may have for a bellfounder, and I will tell you all of my secrets" WH (pg. 333)
<2021-06-23T14:58:49.000Z> crisp: yeah
<2021-06-23T15:02:02.000Z> crisp: let me know any you think I should check out in this pack, the stuff you sent me last summer I enjoyed.. (grecoman, think I did a dialog one)
<2021-06-23T15:02:34.000Z> crisp: I did a few myself, history of japan, the steppe one (which is insanely long one) 
<2021-06-23T15:05:42.000Z> crisp: it's funny I filtered he words jew, jewish, jews from the site and 1/3 if all posts are gone (I got tired of people's blackpill rants)
<2021-06-23T16:22:39.000Z> metokurist: i might try that
<2021-06-23T16:23:00.000Z> metokurist: yeah i thought i had already recommended those two, i bet the famous greeka and romans one will be interesting
<2021-06-23T16:23:08.000Z> metokurist: they will be based on the lives of plutarch
<2021-06-23T16:23:28.000Z> metokurist: where plutarch just does biographies of all the great men of greece and rome
<2021-06-23T16:23:33.000Z> crisp: nice
<2021-06-23T16:24:18.000Z> metokurist: where abouts is the filter word thing
<2021-06-23T16:24:25.000Z> metokurist: im going to filter loli and jew 
<2021-06-23T16:24:31.000Z> metokurist: wipe out half my timeline
<2021-06-23T16:24:39.000Z> crisp: poa.st/filters
<2021-06-23T16:25:30.000Z> metokurist: does it filter the entire poast or just the word
<2021-06-23T16:25:36.000Z> crisp: entire post
<2021-06-23T16:25:41.000Z> metokurist: should i drop instead of hide or is it ok without
<2021-06-23T16:26:09.000Z> crisp: I did hide
<2021-06-23T16:26:20.000Z> crisp: it just replaces it with "filtered post" 
<2021-06-23T16:26:29.000Z> metokurist: lets see if it improves the quality
<2021-06-23T16:28:45.000Z> metokurist: lmao
<2021-06-23T16:28:57.000Z> metokurist: literally got the same message 17h ago
<2021-06-23T16:29:14.000Z> metokurist attached file https://img.poast.org/711e2f6d8b9a7e988d7e7e7787f9957b112b1fe706a46dd4440a0afd18f9f4dd.png
<2021-06-23T16:44:01.000Z> metokurist attached file https://img.poast.org/fe9b99baf3d73de0170ff620213da759f6aea1f9fd9675308c2d2bca25b70cea.png
<2021-06-23T16:44:16.000Z> metokurist: "NEVER SPEAK TO ME OR MY LARPER SON EVER AGAIN"
<2021-06-23T17:16:40.000Z> crisp: the thing is they bore me, that's the saddest thing, they made nazism boring
<2021-07-12T19:13:16.000Z> metokurist: what is the drama about fedposting? I was afk?
<2021-07-12T19:14:05.000Z> crisp: shadowman months ago posted a pdf that was like some boogaloo manual on how to make a revolution or something, with tons of shitty synthwave style imagery
<2021-07-12T19:14:28.000Z> crisp: and the MET sent an email complaining he was hosting terrorist material. 
<2021-07-12T19:14:51.000Z> crisp: the post/pdf was deleteted cause we would have done that anyway if it was reported
<2021-07-12T19:14:54.000Z> metokurist: watch me get a visit for posting a  photo of mr popo footballers
<2021-07-12T19:15:16.000Z> metokurist: they are going after people hard for bullying the 3 lions
<2021-07-12T19:15:17.000Z> crisp: he posted it to make fun of it
<2021-07-12T19:15:37.000Z> crisp: but in any case it wasn't a good idea to host that kind of shit so whatever 
<2021-07-12T19:16:24.000Z> crisp: it's literally glowies complaining about glowies
<2021-07-12T19:16:47.000Z> metokurist: yeah its whatever, its not essential to be able to post larper pdfs
<2021-07-12T19:16:53.000Z> metokurist: poa.st/@metokurist/posts/A9Dp9YZRlGHenweyki
<2021-07-12T19:17:44.000Z> metokurist: might ask graf to manually purge my posts 
<2021-07-12T19:17:49.000Z> metokurist: D:
<2021-07-12T19:18:10.000Z> crisp: the hting could be linked off site also
<2021-07-12T19:18:40.000Z> crisp: apparently account deletion works now I deleted an alt, but it will actually delete the account now 
<2021-07-12T19:19:06.000Z> metokurist: might do that, im spooked by the idea of uk police actively engaging with the website
<2021-07-12T19:19:17.000Z> metokurist: the americans probably outsource to them
<2021-07-12T19:19:24.000Z> crisp: they do that's a known thing
<2021-07-12T19:20:00.000Z> crisp: might be a good idea to lay low after niggergedon happened last night