<2021-06-16T13:53:36.000Z> tengumatingpress: Finally got around to reading that story you linked earlier
<2021-06-16T13:53:38.000Z> tengumatingpress: pretty good tbh
<2021-06-16T14:13:24.000Z> cqi: thank you, that's nice of you to say
<2021-06-16T14:14:56.000Z> tengumatingpress: haven't really checked /monster/ in a while, might have to start again
<2021-06-16T14:15:39.000Z> cqi: I'm checking in on it less often these days
<2021-06-16T14:18:53.000Z> tengumatingpress: yeah, same with many other former 8chan boards
<2021-06-16T14:19:08.000Z> tengumatingpress: I'm sure the majority of users are still there, but it seems like the boards never really recovered, outside of /animu/ 
<2021-06-16T14:20:35.000Z> cqi: Imageboards in general continue a long decline
<2021-06-16T14:21:10.000Z> cqi: Fond as I am of them
<2021-06-16T14:23:55.000Z> tengumatingpress: I'm sure this is a problem that's been happening for a while, but especially the bigger ones are just unpleasant these days
<2021-06-16T14:24:09.000Z> tengumatingpress: many anons seem constantly angry and bitter, moreso than when I was most active
<2021-06-16T14:25:59.000Z> cqi: It's a general problem arising in long-lived Internet communities; 8chan's diaspora are merely the latest
<2021-06-16T14:26:50.000Z> tengumatingpress: probably has something to do with how the guys who spend so much time online are probably the ones hardest hit by current events
<2021-06-16T14:28:27.000Z> cqi: That's also a factor. Also, being hit by multiple unpredictable, uncontrollable, total deplatformings has induced a kind of snappish learned helplessness.
<2021-06-16T14:28:55.000Z> tengumatingpress: anons are truly the internet jews
<2021-06-16T14:29:13.000Z> cqi: 109 and still doing fine!
<2021-06-16T14:29:53.000Z> cqi: That said, I won't be abandoning the bitter lonely fucks on /monster/; I have to finish my CYOA, however long that takes
<2021-06-16T14:30:16.000Z> tengumatingpress: to be fair the anons on bunkers seem to be doing fine, but the big ones, especially 4chan, are wrapped in so many layers of irony it's just unhealthy
<2021-06-16T14:30:18.000Z> tengumatingpress: which CYOA is yours?
<2021-06-16T14:30:43.000Z> cqi: I write Tablelands.
<2021-06-16T14:30:59.000Z> tengumatingpress: I'll check it out
<2021-06-16T14:31:54.000Z> cqi: It might be to your tastes, or it might not be. It didn't really gain what I'd think of as popularity, but I like it.
<2021-06-16T14:32:32.000Z> tengumatingpress: the life of a writefag is an exercise in self-mortification 
<2021-06-16T14:32:40.000Z> tengumatingpress: never wrote much on the board besides a few bad greentexts tbh
<2021-06-16T14:33:23.000Z> cqi: bad greentexts are what good greentexts are what bad prose are what good prose is made of
<2021-06-16T14:33:40.000Z> cqi: it's a form of its own
<2021-06-16T14:34:41.000Z> tengumatingpress: fair enough
<2021-06-16T14:38:19.000Z> cqi: fuck oath, that danuki story jumped 100 views in a day after I linked it to you; how the fuck did some reply buried in the arse-end of the fediverse drive that
<2021-06-16T14:38:36.000Z> tengumatingpress: I linked it to some guys I knew from the board
<2021-06-16T14:38:59.000Z> tengumatingpress: though some of those could also be bots on the fediverse
<2021-06-16T14:39:37.000Z> cqi: oh that'd be it then; hope they forgave you
<2021-06-16T14:39:45.000Z> tengumatingpress: :^)
<2021-06-16T14:46:35.000Z> tengumatingpress: my greatest contribution to the board was always pushing Day of the Rape early on
<2021-06-16T14:48:35.000Z> cqi: that's a memetic fixture, that is
<2021-06-16T15:00:47.000Z> tengumatingpress: >check some of your favorite /mgg/ era stories>Pastebin deleted>never archived
<2021-06-16T15:00:54.000Z> tengumatingpress: I hate the internet sometimes
<2021-06-16T15:03:07.000Z> cqi: cold entropy's coming for us all
<2021-06-16T15:03:41.000Z> tengumatingpress: pastebin lowkey run by bodhisattvas reminding anons of the transience of all compounded phenomena
<2021-06-16T15:47:32.000Z> cqi: seriously though it's worth archiving anything you like these days; even if it doesn't disappear it's so easy to lose it in the low-SEO ocean
<2021-06-16T15:50:40.000Z> tengumatingpress: yeah
<2021-06-16T15:50:57.000Z> tengumatingpress: as soon as I have a job again I think I'm going to invest in some HDDs and start saving everything I like, even webpages
<2021-06-16T15:52:10.000Z> cqi: then you can enjoy furiously digging through your own virtual ratheap instead of everyone else's!
<2021-06-16T15:59:31.000Z> tengumatingpress: I can't wait for AI to really take off so I can finally disconnect from the greater internet and have legions of demons meeting my exact specifications to interact with and draw art in my own private network
<2021-06-16T16:02:11.000Z> cqi: syke, your AI must need be crippled for personal use, since it's an assault infoweapon, only the experts of Googazonbook are allowed unrestricted use
<2021-06-16T16:05:18.000Z> tengumatingpress: I'm still waiting to be arrested for looking up material on insurgent tactics because I was researching something for a story I've been kicking around
<2021-06-16T16:07:44.000Z> tengumatingpress: not that I think it's illegal, but I hang around enough fedposters it probably looks super suspicious
<2021-06-16T16:37:07.000Z> tengumatingpress: actually the more I read about warfare, the more I suspect the "internet", or at least the "corporate internet", is a huge psyop meant to replicate low-intensity warfare
<2021-06-17T01:27:48.000Z> cqi: all crowded conditions create constant low-intensity conflict; the difference is scale, I think
<2021-06-17T01:28:30.000Z> tengumatingpress: yeah, and virtually every large social media website was backed by feds
<2021-06-17T01:28:51.000Z> tengumatingpress: not sure if the transition from small forums & chatrooms to social media was engineered though
<2021-06-17T01:30:45.000Z> cqi: Why engineer it when ordinary economic incentives do the job for you? When you're in position, open eyes and quick wits count for more than elaborate plans.
<2021-06-17T01:31:00.000Z> tengumatingpress: good point
<2021-06-17T01:31:11.000Z> tengumatingpress: probably overestimate their actual competence 
<2021-06-17T01:31:42.000Z> cqi: In the long run, multiple actors independently sniffing the wind looks a lot like conspiracy.
<2021-06-29T16:48:43.000Z> cqi: Exception: child molestation rings.
<2021-06-29T16:49:01.000Z> tengumatingpress: I assume they're responsible for many things at this point
<2021-06-29T16:49:32.000Z> tengumatingpress: I'm sure there are many independent cases where the perp was just a predator close to a family, but there's too much evidence they exist in high places
<2021-06-29T16:51:10.000Z> cqi: Predators seek prey. I recall that in one investigation it was commented that the only worse place to hunt paedophiles than the Catholic church was the Anglican church, because the predators in the latter found each other and worked together.
<2021-06-29T16:53:13.000Z> cqi: You may bet your bottom dollar that an infestation of paedophiles exists wherever access to children + social immune system control functions intersect.
<2021-06-29T17:24:43.000Z> tengumatingpress: I'm sure you're woke on how the US public school system has roughly the same child molestation rates as the catholic church
<2021-06-29T17:24:51.000Z> tengumatingpress: it's possible those types might be a constant in any organization
<2021-06-30T03:22:03.000Z> cqi: Anywhere there's regular access to groups of children from a position of authority, there will be pedos.
<2021-06-30T17:31:00.000Z> tengumatingpress: out of curiosity, what is your religious view?
<2021-06-30T17:31:10.000Z> tengumatingpress: this might be overly personal, but I can't get a read on it
<2021-07-01T08:43:27.000Z> cqi: one of my main areas of interest is the mechanisms by which gestalt activity forms and coordinates
<2021-07-01T08:44:59.000Z> cqi: skipping through the substantial middle, this means I end up doing a lot of looking at human firmware
<2021-07-01T08:48:33.000Z> cqi: I guess I'd probably say my personal views skew animist and my practice ends up looking syncreatic
<2021-07-01T08:49:33.000Z> cqi: "Practice" in this case enclosed within disparaging double quotes
<2021-07-01T10:55:19.000Z> tengumatingpress: ah
<2021-07-01T11:03:57.000Z> cqi: It's not really the sort of thing I can trot out by rote; I discover my own views as I experience them.
<2021-07-01T11:04:40.000Z> cqi: Apologies that I can't provide something more transferable.
<2021-07-01T11:05:04.000Z> tengumatingpress: nah, don't worry
<2021-07-01T11:08:29.000Z> cqi: Why do you ask?
<2021-07-01T11:08:39.000Z> tengumatingpress: curiosity after the thread
<2021-07-01T11:08:45.000Z> tengumatingpress: from yesterday, I mean
<2021-07-01T11:09:53.000Z> cqi: oh, right. That was good fun.
<2021-07-01T11:10:25.000Z> cqi: It's not often one gets to have a non-retarded discussion about it
<2021-07-01T11:59:28.000Z> tengumatingpress: pleased that it went pretty well and jumping in didn't lead to my mentions getting flooded with dumb stuff
<2021-07-01T11:59:45.000Z> tengumatingpress: though I think I may have already blocked/mute or been blocked/muted by the guys that would get annoying about it
<2021-07-01T12:35:16.000Z> cqi: I got flooded by one of the instigators hopping in on the end of my subthread; perfect muting case
<2021-07-01T12:36:08.000Z> cqi: I try not to block or mute, but sometimes you've just gotta shut the hatch
<2021-07-01T12:36:59.000Z> cqi: I'm probably already on a couple of mutelists anyway, so it all balances out
<2021-07-01T12:37:32.000Z> tengumatingpress: I treat it like some crazed homeless guy screeching at you on the streets
<2021-07-01T12:37:57.000Z> tengumatingpress: you don't interact or argue with him, you ignore him until he goes away or you leave
<2021-07-01T12:38:15.000Z> tengumatingpress: no sense spiking your cortisol on the internet
<2021-07-01T12:40:00.000Z> tengumatingpress: who was the guy who jumped in at the end btw?
<2021-07-01T12:42:55.000Z> cqi: andreas@neckbeard.xyz - seemed like a fake larpagan
<2021-07-01T12:43:13.000Z> tengumatingpress: ah, of course
<2021-07-01T12:43:39.000Z> tengumatingpress: as someone who follows a tibetan buddhist school I feel like I can't mock these guys too much without being hypocritical, but at tibetan buddhism has intact lineages 
<2021-07-01T12:43:55.000Z> tengumatingpress: the majority of these guys seem like they're rebelling against their parents or want to create a white judaism
<2021-07-01T12:45:08.000Z> cqi: I don't mind the pagans who're sincere about rediscovering their folk rituals, but these fake guys are just out to have screeching fits without any grounding
<2021-07-01T12:47:13.000Z> cqi: and yeah, I'm here to have fun not get my brain fried up on aggro
<2021-07-01T12:49:46.000Z> cqi: though with this instance's mix one never knows how one's brand of fun will be received
<2021-07-01T13:10:20.000Z> tengumatingpress: tbh I have no faith in this place staying up longterm with some of the guys on here
<2021-07-01T13:10:33.000Z> tengumatingpress: as soon as I'm employed again I plan on making an instance for me and some friends
<2021-07-01T13:14:34.000Z> cqi: that's a smart move
<2021-07-01T13:19:36.000Z> tengumatingpress: also considering making a a chat server for friends to minimize Discord use, getting real tired of it
<2021-07-01T13:19:51.000Z> tengumatingpress: though I doubt I'd get friends to switch to Mumble or XMPP
<2021-07-01T13:27:10.000Z> tengumatingpress: hard learned lessons on the Fediverse: if you want your poast to get any attraction you must attach an anime girl
<2021-07-01T13:40:36.000Z> cqi: apparently Matrix is a decent substitute; XMPP's very long in the tooth now
<2021-07-01T13:40:54.000Z> tengumatingpress: it seems expensive to run a server without using Matrix's infrastructure
<2021-07-01T13:41:11.000Z> tengumatingpress: meanwhile XMPP runs well on cheap VPSes for a surprising amount of active users
<2021-07-01T13:41:18.000Z> cqi: not really a chat server per se; previous generation messenger-like rather than the new IRC
<2021-07-01T13:42:15.000Z> tengumatingpress: enough of what I read about matrix sets off red flags to me tbh
<2021-07-01T13:42:30.000Z> cqi: I hear Mattermost scales quite well if you don't mind hanging out in a Slack-like
<2021-07-01T13:43:52.000Z> cqi: anime girls are the powdered graphite of digital communication: reliable lubricant but use too much and you look like a nigger
<2021-07-01T13:46:47.000Z> tengumatingpress: unfortunately it's my brand now
<2021-07-01T13:47:18.000Z> cqi: MY BRAND
<2021-07-01T13:47:30.000Z> cqi: ain't nothing wrong with animu tits
<2021-07-01T13:47:49.000Z> cqi: what, you wish you'd smeared yourself with a little less of the BESM?
<2021-07-01T13:51:32.000Z> tengumatingpress: nah
<2021-07-01T13:51:54.000Z> tengumatingpress: I don't regret it, but if I want anyone to care about important things I poast there must be a moderately lewd anime girl
<2021-07-01T13:57:17.000Z> cqi: frequency of conceptual carrier wave determined by thigh width
<2021-07-01T14:11:15.000Z> tengumatingpress: quantum anime titty
<2021-07-01T14:16:20.000Z> cqi: entangled with my heart
<2021-07-01T15:50:09.000Z> cqi: how'd you end up getting into Tibetan Buddhism anyway
<2021-07-01T15:50:33.000Z> cqi: They're rocking some serious spiritual hardware, them
<2021-07-01T15:50:45.000Z> tengumatingpress: I always thought Tibetan aesthetics were cool, and I was going through a very rough patch in my life and took up "secular mindfulness" to cope
<2021-07-01T15:51:41.000Z> tengumatingpress: things escalated from there, I got autistic and started researching meditative practices in general, learned there were deeper techniques mostly extant in Tibetan schools, and then I learned I lived relatively close to a sangha established by a very well-respected lama
<2021-07-01T15:52:00.000Z> cqi: oh, that's lucky!
<2021-07-01T15:52:28.000Z> tengumatingpress: the Mahayana/Vajrayana outlook is more broadly appealing to me than the Theravada outlook, I'm sure Theravada isn't as nihilistic as it appears but their conception of awakening does look mighty dull
<2021-07-01T15:52:55.000Z> tengumatingpress: also saw some guys bring up studies on /pol/ regarding reincarnation and was convinced by those
<2021-07-01T15:53:17.000Z> tengumatingpress: I spent probably an unhealthy amount of time on 8chan
<2021-07-01T15:54:33.000Z> cqi: good thing it died, so now you can spend an unhealthy amount of time on poast
<2021-07-01T15:54:51.000Z> tengumatingpress: lol
<2021-07-01T15:55:11.000Z> tengumatingpress: I did try going Catholic and later Orthodox for a bit, but ultimately I couldn't make myself believe and still had an unhealthy preoccupation with Hell
<2021-07-01T15:55:14.000Z> tengumatingpress: not a good fit for me
<2021-07-01T15:56:21.000Z> cqi: goddamn, looking into those school names even a little is like trying to drink from a firehose
<2021-07-01T15:56:32.000Z> tengumatingpress: of the Tibetan schools?
<2021-07-01T15:56:56.000Z> cqi: yes; now I know why most Buddhists I've met are scholars of one kind or another
<2021-07-01T15:57:27.000Z> tengumatingpress: it's also very broad, so to even make a decision of which group to join you have to do a lot of reading
<2021-07-01T15:57:38.000Z> tengumatingpress: assuming you're a sperg that doesn't just hang out with the group nearest to him
<2021-07-01T15:58:09.000Z> tengumatingpress: pronouncing Tibetan words still makes my throat hurt a little
<2021-07-01T15:58:15.000Z> cqi: doing that might land you in a Sokka Gakkai-style mire, reading is probably the wiser path
<2021-07-01T15:59:00.000Z> tengumatingpress: I don't really like to diss other sects because I do think association with it at least plants karmic seeds for later accomplishment, but I genuinely don't understand Nichiren types
<2021-07-01T15:59:15.000Z> tengumatingpress: reciting a mantra praising a text as your only practice is very bizarre to me
<2021-07-01T15:59:30.000Z> tengumatingpress: at least Pure Land has more scriptural backing and virtually every Mahayana tradition agrees that Amitabha is very important
<2021-07-01T15:59:55.000Z> cqi: they're Scientology with a Buddhist gloss, no need to extend sect recognition
<2021-07-01T16:00:30.000Z> tengumatingpress: it's really a shame the other, more interesting sects peculiar to Japan don't have many translations or western teachers
<2021-07-01T16:00:34.000Z> tengumatingpress: Shingon is especially of interest to me
<2021-07-01T16:00:51.000Z> tengumatingpress: might just be the otaku part of me speaking
<2021-07-01T16:02:05.000Z> tengumatingpress: still need to formally start ngondro & take refuge vows
<2021-07-01T16:03:11.000Z> cqi: the Japanese are apparently the wild-eyed renegades of that world, but I'm told the non-culty ones are quite legit
<2021-07-01T16:03:33.000Z> tengumatingpress: yeah, Japan has a bizarre amount of syncretic cults, but that might be part of the Asian character
<2021-07-01T16:03:51.000Z> tengumatingpress: you could write many books on the East Asian cults centered around someone claiming to be Maitreya
<2021-07-01T16:04:27.000Z> cqi: oh no no, the syncreatic cults are fine: I mean the money-draining, all-powerful-leader, female-members-groomed-as-concubines cults
<2021-07-01T16:05:17.000Z> cqi: same mechanism as any messianic cult I imagine
<2021-07-01T16:08:01.000Z> tengumatingpress: yeah
<2021-07-01T16:08:02.000Z> cqi: that's some serious effort you've put into this, guess secular mindfulness can act as a step in
<2021-07-01T16:08:12.000Z> tengumatingpress: not really, I just read a lot
<2021-07-01T16:10:47.000Z> cqi: just reading a lot doesn't get you taking refuge vows, though I do know what you mean
<2021-07-01T16:11:05.000Z> tengumatingpress: I do think getting into it was ultimately good for me
<2021-07-01T16:11:19.000Z> tengumatingpress: I still focus my mind on many useless things, but at least it convinced me to stop fixating on burgerpolitik
<2021-07-01T16:12:01.000Z> cqi: that's worth the price of admission alone
<2021-07-01T16:14:01.000Z> tengumatingpress: there's a layer of Naraka where you're forced to sit through american political arguments for trillions of kalpas
<2021-07-01T16:14:20.000Z> tengumatingpress: a hell so unimaginably awful they didn't even write it down
<2021-07-01T16:15:54.000Z> cqi: lol
<2021-07-01T16:16:19.000Z> tengumatingpress: the true Vajra Hell\
<2021-07-01T16:16:39.000Z> cqi: that or burning sulfur, hmmm....
<2021-07-07T13:51:19.000Z> tengumatingpress: I just realized your avatar was /cuckquean/'s cuck deer mascot
<2021-07-07T13:51:28.000Z> tengumatingpress: so that explains why most things you write involve some girl getting cucked
<2021-07-08T07:44:29.000Z> cqi: No no, my avatar is just an antlered girl whose design I liked--/cuckquean/-tan has her own (loose) design.
<2021-07-08T07:46:23.000Z> cqi: My stories that include that stuff are less about some girl getting cucked and more about her actively sharing; not much of a distinction to most but critically important to me.
<2021-07-08T11:41:53.000Z> tengumatingpress: ah, guess I was wrong
<2021-07-08T12:10:28.000Z> cqi: I mean, I still consider it cuckqueaning, just not what your average Internet dweller thinks of when they hear anything prefixed by 'cuck'
<2021-07-08T12:11:12.000Z> cqi: I probably belabor that point too much
<2021-07-08T12:14:16.000Z> tengumatingpress: yeah, it was the meme cuck
<2021-07-08T13:04:15.000Z> cqi: any meme that disempowers male cuckolds and cuckolders of men is a-OK by me
<2021-07-08T13:11:07.000Z> tengumatingpress: based
<2021-07-09T18:45:39.000Z> cqi: apologies for flooding your mentions like that
<2021-07-09T18:54:56.000Z> tengumatingpress: I was about to complain, but thought better of it
<2021-07-09T18:55:32.000Z> cqi: A special miniature pocket hellthread, just for you
<2021-07-09T18:55:56.000Z> tengumatingpress: worst case scenario I would've just muted the thread
<2021-07-09T18:58:02.000Z> cqi: tag-detag etiquette's one of those emerging areas, but having now been guilty of it, I'm leaning towards aggressive pruning
<2021-07-10T18:48:44.000Z> tengumatingpress: gotta alternate between lowkey Buddhist talking points/philosophy and repoasting hentai to confuse the Maras
<2021-07-11T11:55:44.000Z> cqi: Disinformation is a key part of any warfare, including spiritual
<2021-07-11T12:00:39.000Z> tengumatingpress: based