<2022-06-09T07:56:06.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: hello
<2022-06-09T08:04:29.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: why do you keep doin that?
<2022-06-09T08:04:33.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: and sure!
<2022-06-09T08:08:14.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I am in the same boat in that social media, particularly too much poast is an ongoing vice
<2022-06-09T08:09:32.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: To answer your question, I think your perspective is a bit influenced by the false prosperity gospel, even if that's not something you subscribe to sometimes that can always creep up on Christians now and then
<2022-06-09T08:10:07.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: For example, you have yet to see the good fruits in your life and you fear Christ is not helping you, in actuality he is always there whether we are excelling or not
<2022-06-09T08:10:36.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I'd say you should still be intentional in your life choices and discerning, but if you are keen on sinless hobbies don't be afraid to pursue those more either
<2022-06-09T08:10:38.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: sure 
<2022-06-09T08:12:04.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: my goodness, your childhood actually unironically sounds
<2022-06-09T08:12:07.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: very similar to mine
<2022-06-09T08:13:11.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I can understand that years of trying your best to be good and not seeing any reward is incredibly tiresome
<2022-06-09T08:14:20.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: but the lack of reward is not resulting from you being a good person, it's from the shitty zog world we find ourselves that more often than not punishes the good nature in people, the key of course is then to keep that good nature despite the way the world treats you, and to hold on to it, good for the sake of it and not for the fruit it brings, although I know that is easier said than done
<2022-06-09T08:14:31.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: as for cars and kayaking, absolutely pursue those hobbies
<2022-06-09T08:15:31.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: not all hobbies have to be about your faith, I'd argue kayaking and being out in nature naturally brings you closer to God anyhow because you're experiencing the world he has created
<2022-06-09T08:15:37.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: what do you think hedonism is?
<2022-06-09T08:15:47.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Pursuing things you find fun isn't necessarily hedonistic
<2022-06-09T08:16:00.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: it's when you prioritise pleasure-seeking over what is right
<2022-06-09T08:16:21.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I don't think there is anything faggy or hedonistic about liking cars and kayaking tbh
<2022-06-09T08:17:39.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I don't think you should worry too much about that
<2022-06-09T08:18:06.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Christianity is not about being against any sort of fun, in fact there are things in life that are fun because they are good
<2022-06-09T08:18:33.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: It is about rejecting short-term degenerate/worldly ideas of 'fun', stuff like promiscuous sex, immodesty, substance abuse
<2022-06-09T08:20:26.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: i think you are being too hard on yourself
<2022-06-09T08:21:23.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: well you are, you seem to associate any sort of enjoyment as hedonistic or a moral failing
<2022-06-09T08:21:41.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: that's only the case if you derive enjyment from a sinful activity
<2022-06-09T08:21:55.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: it's all about context
<2022-06-09T08:21:59.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: lets say you enjoy cars right
<2022-06-09T08:22:05.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: nothin inherently wrong with that
<2022-06-09T08:22:23.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: but lets say you enjoy cars to a materialist end, and think having an expensive car makes you superior to others
<2022-06-09T08:22:27.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: thats when it becomes hedonism 
<2022-06-09T08:22:40.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: but I don't think you're pursuing the latter, only the former 
<2022-06-09T08:31:05.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I can understand the guilt of spending money on your own life when there are so many problems in the world, but you have to realise that all the systematic issues are not really a thing one man can bring down, or that one man is solely responsible
<2022-06-09T08:31:41.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: In a way, enjoying life now and then, pursuing hobbies and being as mentally stable and well adjusted as you can is helping things a bit, because the system wants everyone to be miserable docile husks who hate life and depend on them
<2022-06-09T08:42:31.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I don't necessarily think thats God's doing
<2022-06-09T08:50:56.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I feel like people tend to attribute a lot of things from the fallen world to God
<2022-06-09T08:51:19.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: when in actuality God loves you and wants the best for you, that being fulfillment in sobriety 