<2021-07-31T03:43:10.000Z> amnesiac: hi em!
<2021-07-31T03:49:21.000Z> em: Oh haii
<2021-07-31T03:49:26.000Z> em: How's it going
<2021-07-31T03:50:44.000Z> amnesiac: im not terrible, how about you? 
<2021-07-31T04:02:24.000Z> em: Honestly I'm pretty upset but got to keep coping 
<2021-07-31T04:30:24.000Z> amnesiac: what is wrong? 
<2021-07-31T05:09:23.000Z> em: Computer was crashing on all my games. Giving me "artifacts" or something with a name like that. I'm derping now ... Black screen through everything, finally took it apart and removed the card thingy and it worked as basic but not with the 1000 piece that actually makes it worth it 
<2021-07-31T05:09:35.000Z> em: And I just bought it a week ago to find the seller does no returns 
<2021-07-31T05:12:35.000Z> amnesiac: hope you manage to fix it and get it all running again! i'm not much of a gamer so i can't relate with that aspect, but tech difficulties can definitely be a nightmare
<2021-07-31T05:13:43.000Z> em: It make me very angry
<2021-07-31T05:13:54.000Z> em: I'll figure it out though
<2021-07-31T05:13:56.000Z> amnesiac: what country are you from Emma?
<2021-07-31T05:14:04.000Z> em: I live in California
<2021-07-31T05:14:08.000Z> em: So us
<2021-07-31T05:14:11.000Z> em: Hbu ? 
<2021-07-31T05:14:20.000Z> amnesiac: me too i hate it here (California)
<2021-07-31T05:14:24.000Z> amnesiac: im in the Bay Area
<2021-07-31T05:14:29.000Z> em: 😳 how did you catch on to the "Emma" Did I tell you ? 
<2021-07-31T05:14:38.000Z> em: Oh really ? Neat lol and awful. Yeah it sucks here. 
<2021-07-31T05:14:42.000Z> amnesiac: it was an educated guess!
<2021-07-31T05:14:47.000Z> em: I live in Los Angeles. 
<2021-07-31T05:14:58.000Z> amnesiac: my friend is moving there soon i might join him
<2021-07-31T05:15:07.000Z> em: Technically maybe even east los
<2021-07-31T05:15:09.000Z> em: Don't lol
<2021-07-31T05:15:14.000Z> em: But if you do come say hi 
<2021-07-31T05:15:21.000Z> amnesiac: it would just temporary 
<2021-07-31T05:15:28.000Z> amnesiac: i am a stranger but i would want to
<2021-07-31T05:15:30.000Z> em: 😆 smart 
<2021-07-31T05:15:39.000Z> em: Everyone is a stranger 
<2021-07-31T05:15:45.000Z> em: Just don't be a killer rapist 
<2021-07-31T05:15:59.000Z> amnesiac: im not, im a good intended guy
<2021-07-31T05:16:21.000Z> em: 😂 that's what a killer rapist would sayBut I believe you 
<2021-07-31T05:16:30.000Z> em: Did you come from twitter ? 
<2021-07-31T05:17:14.000Z> amnesiac: yeah
<2021-07-31T05:17:21.000Z> amnesiac: twitter.com/amnesiac_x
<2021-07-31T05:17:31.000Z> em: One of grafs original ? 
<2021-07-31T05:17:33.000Z> em: Or 
<2021-07-31T05:17:38.000Z> em: Oh ok one sec
<2021-07-31T05:18:01.000Z> em: 4 frens
<2021-07-31T05:18:08.000Z> em: Neat you're safe xD
<2021-07-31T05:18:08.000Z> amnesiac: i like graf but we are not close he kind of thinks im weird
<2021-07-31T05:18:25.000Z> em: Hahahah he probably thinks everyone here is after the posts we see 
<2021-07-31T05:18:38.000Z> em: Twitter.com/laflacagreca
<2021-07-31T05:18:48.000Z> em: Man 
<2021-07-31T05:18:50.000Z> em: Wait 
<2021-07-31T05:19:35.000Z> em: Oh it did work ? 
<2021-07-31T05:19:40.000Z> amnesiac: yeah
<2021-07-31T05:19:42.000Z> amnesiac: hmm 
<2021-07-31T05:19:45.000Z> em: Ha that's my total priv but have at it 
<2021-07-31T05:19:48.000Z> em: 😂
<2021-07-31T05:22:10.000Z> amnesiac: i am, you look pretty tall?
<2021-07-31T05:22:53.000Z> amnesiac: and just pretty too of course
<2021-07-31T05:22:55.000Z> em: About 6ft a cm or so off 😂
<2021-07-31T05:23:02.000Z> em: Thank you ☺️
<2021-07-31T05:23:39.000Z> amnesiac: see this is why i wish i was 6'7" 
<2021-07-31T05:23:44.000Z> amnesiac: god i wish i was peter steele
<2021-07-31T05:24:12.000Z> em: 😂 I don't like tall guys
<2021-07-31T05:24:19.000Z> em: But I'll have to Google that 
<2021-07-31T05:24:22.000Z> em: Him
<2021-07-31T05:24:36.000Z> amnesiac: i'm 6'0" 
<2021-07-31T05:24:37.000Z> em: Curious tho, you a manlet or normal ? (Average) 
<2021-07-31T05:25:05.000Z> em: So what would be average in the 60s or something. Got it :p 
<2021-07-31T05:32:49.000Z> amnesiac: i was going to tell you about my peen enlargement research but i think i'm over that now, it's weird
<2021-07-31T05:33:10.000Z> amnesiac: my friend is moving to LA to pursue music, he wants to start a band heavily influenced by The Mars Volta
<2021-07-31T05:34:14.000Z> em: LOL why what. I feel like I've heard that name but I really am not that into music or movies or anything that has to do with social situations much anymore, I enjoy them when I'm dragged out by my friends but I don't actually do my own research or care personally 😂
<2021-07-31T05:34:24.000Z> em: Quarantine didn't affect me at all because depression hit me before 😂😂😂
<2021-07-31T05:34:38.000Z> em: Are my replies double posting for you too ?
<2021-07-31T05:35:07.000Z> em: Also how old are you ? 
<2021-07-31T05:37:08.000Z> amnesiac: because i might do it ive researched it a lot lately. and no your messages arent double sending. thats kind of weird, but i dont blame you, ive gradually lost interest in art too. quarantine similarly didnt effect me, i was already kinda a shut in anyway. the mars volta is one of my favorite bands though, their stuff is incredibly creative. im 28 (grandpa) 
<2021-07-31T05:37:34.000Z> em: Don't do it 
<2021-07-31T05:37:55.000Z> em: We're the same age lol 
<2021-07-31T05:38:36.000Z> amnesiac: nice. and i might use a water pump  
<2021-07-31T05:38:37.000Z> amnesiac: youtube.com/watch?v=qTK-wWm69Mc
<2021-07-31T05:38:47.000Z> em: Nice to meet ya gramps But no don't mess with your body, girls don't care
<2021-07-31T05:39:38.000Z> em: I mean and if you're really small , there's women into that too 
<2021-07-31T05:39:39.000Z> amnesiac: ok. ntmu2. thats what i keep hearing but i wanna for confidence. so its a maybe 
<2021-07-31T05:40:06.000Z> em: I'd like tits lol, but I found confidence without them
<2021-07-31T05:40:23.000Z> em: 😆 trust Me growing up the only white girl in a school who didn't hit puberty at 10 years old and have D's by the age of 12 
<2021-07-31T05:40:26.000Z> em: But 
<2021-07-31T05:40:36.000Z> amnesiac: a little more than 5" but good girth (fat) 
<2021-07-31T05:40:37.000Z> em: You don't mess with your body cuz somebody will love you perfectly the Way you are 
<2021-07-31T05:40:52.000Z> em: Lol fats better than long anyway
<2021-07-31T05:41:04.000Z> amnesiac: thats a good perspective idk i think ive just been watching too much more plates more dates
<2021-07-31T05:41:04.000Z> em: You should follow Mira
<2021-07-31T05:41:13.000Z> em: Lmfao she was just posting about all this stuff 
<2021-07-31T05:41:18.000Z> amnesiac: booba dont have function though 
<2021-07-31T05:41:35.000Z> em: ... besides making you look like a girl 😂😂😂😂
<2021-07-31T05:41:42.000Z> em: But I'm good 
<2021-07-31T05:41:50.000Z> amnesiac: @Mira ?
<2021-07-31T05:41:53.000Z> em: So yeah , love yourself
<2021-07-31T05:41:55.000Z> amnesiac: or is she on twitter
<2021-07-31T05:41:59.000Z> em: Twitter 
<2021-07-31T05:42:09.000Z> amnesiac: youre clearly a girl lol
<2021-07-31T05:42:10.000Z> em: But that's her too
<2021-07-31T05:42:18.000Z> em: 😂😂😂😂
<2021-07-31T05:42:37.000Z> em: Ty 😊 assholes like to throw the trap thing at me 
<2021-07-31T05:43:12.000Z> em: Twats just mad they got rejected tho ...smh twitter...
<2021-07-31T05:43:40.000Z> amnesiac: yeah internet people are retards 
<2021-07-31T05:43:55.000Z> em: That's why it's fun here
<2021-07-31T05:44:00.000Z> em: 😋
<2021-07-31T05:44:16.000Z> amnesiac: trying to find Mira on twitter
<2021-07-31T05:44:28.000Z> em: Can you see the people that follow me ? 
<2021-07-31T05:44:42.000Z> amnesiac: it gets tiring, supportive people are a lot cooler. plus im too old for a lot of the weirder memes zoomers contruct 
<2021-07-31T05:44:43.000Z> amnesiac: yeah
<2021-07-31T05:44:48.000Z> em: @clubhornt
<2021-07-31T05:45:02.000Z> em: Voluptuous Puerto Rican woman 😂
<2021-07-31T05:45:11.000Z> amnesiac: awesome'
<2021-07-31T05:45:12.000Z> em: You're sure to catch her Avi
<2021-07-31T05:45:23.000Z> em: But anyway she's a hoot to follow 
<2021-07-31T05:45:42.000Z> amnesiac: so is craig
<2021-07-31T05:45:46.000Z> amnesiac: now that he's facedoxxed
<2021-07-31T05:45:52.000Z> em: Right ?? 
<2021-07-31T05:46:00.000Z> em: I'm surprised that your friends with Craig then you don't know who I am
<2021-07-31T05:46:05.000Z> em: Or maybe you followed me as Chloe 
<2021-07-31T05:46:08.000Z> em: 😂
<2021-07-31T05:46:25.000Z> em: And *** not then I swear voice to text thinks I have an accent
<2021-07-31T05:46:57.000Z> amnesiac: haha. i dont know craig too well but i envy his job. 
<2021-07-31T05:47:12.000Z> em: Yeah he's pretty set 
<2021-07-31T05:47:24.000Z> em: Wish he would quit complaining 
<2021-07-31T05:47:31.000Z> em: Hell be fiiiiine
<2021-07-31T05:47:40.000Z> amnesiac: he should just lose weight
<2021-07-31T05:48:52.000Z> amnesiac: my favorite "incel" account is Luka, he is one of the few people ive gotten close to on twitter. he's a 16 year old brazillian so its kinda weird, but it happened on accident i guess. he's hilarious and relatable a lot of the time, but incredibly negative. 
<2021-07-31T05:48:53.000Z> amnesiac: twitter.com/RifleHeadShot
<2021-07-31T05:50:15.000Z> em: Followed 😆
<2021-07-31T05:50:50.000Z> em: Honestly I'm going to be one of those weird people that doesn't think it's weird, like when I was young I had many many adult friends online and I'm sure that they hid that and I don't think there is any weird pedo thing it's natural to want to like talk to younger people and help them with things it's supportive and people have turned it into pedophilic b*******
<2021-07-31T05:51:07.000Z> em: And trust me I hate pedos more than anyone else but ...
<2021-07-31T05:51:52.000Z> amnesiac: yeah same with me. its just a weird dynamic sometimes with the way we interact, and i dont feel like i'm ever giving him the best advice or whatever
<2021-07-31T05:52:00.000Z> em: As for Craig. Yeah he should 
<2021-07-31T05:52:04.000Z> em: Easy fix
<2021-07-31T05:52:11.000Z> em: And to stop posting about toilet problems and his balls and stuff 
<2021-07-31T05:52:14.000Z> em: 😆
<2021-07-31T05:52:36.000Z> em: Nothing is wrong or dirty about interacting with young people unless you're interacting with them in a sexual manner 
<2021-07-31T05:53:15.000Z> em: YEAAA anyway lol
<2021-07-31T05:53:44.000Z> amnesiac: yeah true. most of the time he's talking about one girl he's having trouble pursuing and just hating brazil and wanting to escape to Canada (easiest place for him to immigrate)
<2021-07-31T05:54:08.000Z> em: I kind of want to escape to Canada too 
<2021-07-31T05:54:11.000Z> amnesiac: but he's not doing good in school recently and im concerned about that. his grandpa owns a farm and wants him to inherent it 
<2021-07-31T05:54:11.000Z> em: 😂
<2021-07-31T05:54:18.000Z> em: Awww
<2021-07-31T05:54:25.000Z> amnesiac: i can understand that but Canada is worse than the USA in a lot of ways
<2021-07-31T05:54:44.000Z> amnesiac: i wanna buy a mobile home in a small town and work remotely from there
<2021-07-31T05:54:48.000Z> em: Everywhere is bad, whats important is the people you want to be around 
<2021-07-31T05:54:58.000Z> amnesiac: you know people in Canada?
<2021-07-31T05:55:14.000Z> amnesiac: Burney, CA is gorgeous but id getting out of California entirely would be good too ofc
<2021-07-31T05:55:16.000Z> em: I like the mobile home small town idea 
<2021-07-31T05:55:25.000Z> em: But I can't do something like that
<2021-07-31T05:55:41.000Z> em: And the things I want to do, all the things I truly care about don't matter as much because I'm the woman 
<2021-07-31T05:55:47.000Z> em: If that makes sense ? 
<2021-07-31T05:56:03.000Z> amnesiac: no i dont understand
<2021-07-31T05:56:49.000Z> em: My ideal goal is to get married, have more children, help them grow and once they're old enough I'd like to open up my own business and enjoy the rest of my time with my family. 
<2021-07-31T05:57:06.000Z> em: If those weren't my goals, and I didn't already have a start ... My daughter
<2021-07-31T05:57:19.000Z> em: I probably would have taken a more nomad route myself
<2021-07-31T05:57:32.000Z> em: But that's unfair to pull on a young child 
<2021-07-31T05:57:39.000Z> em: Lonely
<2021-07-31T05:59:07.000Z> em: And what I was saying before, about not really having to care anymore because you follow your husband's rule basically, luckily finding a man with your political ideals morals and everything else seem to fall right into place. I'd have no problem dropping politics and leaving everything to him as it kind of should be. 
<2021-07-31T06:07:44.000Z> amnesiac: oh, when i say a mobile home i just mean one of those small ones that are only like 20k, not a van or an RV. i see what you mean, what kind of business do you want to run? ive disaffected from politics over the past couple years but its something you cant run away from entirely, its just that a lot of the activist stuff seems futile and a demoralizing time sink. 
<2021-07-31T06:08:07.000Z> amnesiac: i kind of want noodles but the ones i have here in the house suck so ill just wait to eat some turkey sausages tomorrow morning or whatever
<2021-07-31T06:08:41.000Z> em: I want mac and cheese lmfao 
<2021-07-31T06:08:58.000Z> em: But I feel you on what you said  about politics
<2021-07-31T06:09:00.000Z> em: You're right 
<2021-07-31T06:09:04.000Z> amnesiac: lol same 
<2021-07-31T06:09:14.000Z> em: As for the business
<2021-07-31T06:09:19.000Z> amnesiac: i dont have any though..
<2021-07-31T06:10:41.000Z> em: I miss how Greece feels and I wanna create a spot for adults to be able to go , besides like bars there's nothing.  Busy. Busy. Ick. Loud. I hate it. So a coffee shop, but like , you can smoke and talk and not be a busy faggot and after hours beer and wine with mood vibes idk. Why not add hookah if I can get the licenses/money 
<2021-07-31T06:11:04.000Z> em: Maybe not everyone's cup of tea but I like being home and lazy but I also like friends 
<2021-07-31T06:11:14.000Z> em: Why not create comfy outside lol
<2021-07-31T06:16:58.000Z> amnesiac: that sounds like a good idea, definitely more european than american. what's your current work? im planning on quitting my job i just work the supply chain (please dont doxx that i dont like to share it) and i hate it
<2021-07-31T06:17:48.000Z> em: You're worried about me doxing you ? 😂
<2021-07-31T06:17:50.000Z> em: How 
<2021-07-31T06:18:00.000Z> em: But yeah it's definitely more European and I might as well give it a shot 
<2021-07-31T06:18:08.000Z> em: I don't really feel like I belong in America at all 
<2021-07-31T06:18:18.000Z> amnesiac: i dont like telling people what my job is 
<2021-07-31T06:18:34.000Z> amnesiac: yeah fuck this place, but have you been outside of LA / Cali enough to know that other states arent nicer?
<2021-07-31T06:18:53.000Z> em: I'm not even sure what the supply chain is 
<2021-07-31T06:19:06.000Z> amnesiac: dummy..
<2021-07-31T06:19:15.000Z> em: I've been to most of the states and honestly I prefer them because of the people ...
<2021-07-31T06:19:20.000Z> em: Cali is 
<2021-07-31T06:19:24.000Z> em: Trashed 
<2021-07-31T06:19:31.000Z> em: With trashy people
<2021-07-31T06:19:43.000Z> amnesiac: yeah it's hell lol. you've been to most states? nice. ive only been here and in Alaska
<2021-07-31T06:20:00.000Z> em: I'd like to go to Alaska 
<2021-07-31T06:20:03.000Z> em: For the hell of it
<2021-07-31T06:20:11.000Z> em: I traveled a lot when I was a child
<2021-07-31T06:20:23.000Z> em: And I've been a couple places as an adult but that's usually thanks to others xD 
<2021-07-31T06:20:36.000Z> em: But yeah you should definitely get out of California 
<2021-07-31T06:20:44.000Z> em: Even if it's for visiting
<2021-07-31T06:20:54.000Z> em: I spent nearly 7 years in Arizona and that was awesome if you can stand the heat
<2021-07-31T06:21:07.000Z> em: Actually I think it was more than 7 years 😂
<2021-07-31T06:21:54.000Z> amnesiac: no i'm definitely looking to go north and be in a cooler climate with a good amount of forestry
<2021-07-31T06:22:18.000Z> amnesiac: yeah i should have been doing stuff like that through my 20s but i was a NEET until 24 basically LMAO
<2021-07-31T06:22:37.000Z> amnesiac: hmm 
<2021-07-31T06:23:32.000Z> amnesiac: oh right, the supply chain is just moving inventory. like the people who work in offices and keep track of where products are moving via trucks, boats, etc. 
<2021-07-31T06:23:46.000Z> amnesiac: it's increasingly becoming automated, obviously.
<2021-07-31T06:24:04.000Z> em: Ooooooooh
<2021-07-31T06:24:07.000Z> em: I knew that
<2021-07-31T06:24:20.000Z> em: I did I swear
<2021-07-31T06:24:48.000Z> amnesiac: :)
<2021-07-31T06:24:50.000Z> em: I think a lot of people are talking about Montana
<2021-07-31T06:24:56.000Z> em: I'm headed to Iowa 
<2021-07-31T06:25:05.000Z> em: I want to do some growing 
<2021-07-31T06:25:08.000Z> em: Lolol
<2021-07-31T06:25:31.000Z> amnesiac: movin' to Montana, gonna raise me some lonely dental floss 
<2021-07-31T06:25:32.000Z> em: Fresh veggies n fruits n trees and flowers 
<2021-07-31T06:25:52.000Z> em: Mmmm dental floss?
<2021-07-31T06:26:03.000Z> amnesiac: Frank Zappa song (Montana)
<2021-07-31T06:26:07.000Z> amnesiac: I've been thinking Idaho too myself
<2021-07-31T06:26:24.000Z> em: Idaho is nice🙂
<2021-07-31T06:26:33.000Z> em: That was on the list too 
<2021-07-31T06:26:50.000Z> amnesiac: don't hear many people moving to Idaho. that's cool. Vasta on here, an absolute guitar god, told me i was welcome to hang with him if i wanted to go to St Louis. 
<2021-07-31T06:26:53.000Z> amnesiac: he was drunk though so idk
<2021-07-31T06:27:28.000Z> em: Man take that lol
<2021-07-31T06:27:35.000Z> em: Drunk is honest
<2021-07-31T06:27:45.000Z> amnesiac: no not always
<2021-07-31T06:27:49.000Z> amnesiac: and idk 
<2021-07-31T06:28:18.000Z> amnesiac: ill have to look into it more
<2021-07-31T06:28:53.000Z> em: Hmmmm
<2021-07-31T06:29:00.000Z> em: Guess I can only speak from my own experiences lol
<2021-07-31T06:29:11.000Z> em: All I can say is why not what do you have to lose
<2021-07-31T06:29:29.000Z> amnesiac: true, inaction is the worst route for me to take honestly
<2021-07-31T06:29:41.000Z> em: Facts
<2021-07-31T06:29:43.000Z> amnesiac: but im still with this job for 1-5 more months
<2021-07-31T06:29:53.000Z> em: Be a yes man 
<2021-07-31T06:30:03.000Z> em: Well then you know it's coming after your freedom 😂
<2021-07-31T06:30:04.000Z> amnesiac: wat mean
<2021-07-31T06:30:20.000Z> em: Means any opportunity that comes to you you jump on it
<2021-07-31T06:30:32.000Z> em: Kind of go over the wind takes you and make life work
<2021-07-31T06:30:32.000Z> amnesiac: maybe a good idea yeah
<2021-07-31T06:30:48.000Z> em: Worth it 
<2021-07-31T06:31:11.000Z> em: Fears the most powerful emotion and you got to conquer it 
<2021-07-31T06:36:59.000Z> amnesiac: tru, i havent been too good at that tbh
<2021-07-31T06:38:17.000Z> em: That's normal lol I have to constantly remind myself not to be a pussy 😂
<2021-07-31T06:41:12.000Z> amnesiac: when are you moving to ID?
<2021-07-31T08:12:28.000Z> amnesiac: wasnt expecting such a good convo tbh, goodnight!
<2021-07-31T15:22:52.000Z> em: Well the house is on the market now, so who really knows 😂
<2021-07-31T15:23:08.000Z> em: Thanks , btw
<2021-07-31T15:23:25.000Z> em: I'll take that as a compliment 😂
<2021-07-31T17:47:58.000Z> em: Lol Luca requested to follow 
<2021-07-31T17:48:29.000Z> em: Truth be told youre the first person I legit didn't "trust" that I accepted, I mean I more or less do now but lord knows. 
<2021-07-31T17:49:05.000Z> em: I mean obviously it's a normie twitter , my fb is practically a click away.  Would you say he's safe den? 
<2021-07-31T20:06:53.000Z> em: Nvm hes cool
<2021-08-01T00:16:20.000Z> amnesiac: i'm kinda weird but no more than the usual people you probably see on twitter, you know craig so yeah. Luca's awesome yeah 
<2021-08-01T00:17:04.000Z> amnesiac: every day he talks about how troubled he is. he wanted to call but my power was out and now everything's working pretty slow
<2021-08-01T17:01:55.000Z> em: Awww
<2021-08-01T17:02:06.000Z> em: Well I hope he feels free to talk to me too. 
<2021-08-01T17:02:24.000Z> em: Anyways. Hope you're well today ^_^
<2021-08-01T20:56:29.000Z> amnesiac: yeah you should talk to him, you could give him perspectives i probably couldnt and itd probably be good for him. he really just hates being in brazil though. i watched Pig with him and Jon via discord last night and it was pretty nice. they want to start a podcast lmao, its going to be an absolute mess. 
<2021-08-01T20:56:57.000Z> amnesiac: thanks im doing okay, hope you're well too. mainly just gonna lay low for the day i think, maybe watch more nicolas cage movies because he's one of my favorites. 
<2021-08-01T20:58:18.000Z> em: He knows pig eh? 
<2021-08-01T20:58:44.000Z> em: I used to be cool with her. Her friends are cunts though 
<2021-08-01T20:59:00.000Z> em: Most people on Twitter are tbh 😂 
<2021-08-01T20:59:09.000Z> em: Women * 
<2021-08-01T20:59:21.000Z> amnesiac: no not yandere pig or w/e (i dont really know her), pig is the new nicolas cage film
<2021-08-01T20:59:36.000Z> amnesiac attached file https://img.poast.org/4e89723dd3346df5a5fab50654b0f8b698f67b49540abccf59501595e3271427.torrent
<2021-08-01T20:59:43.000Z> em: Oh , no not her, another PiG 
<2021-08-01T20:59:54.000Z> em: Bahah weird is good 
<2021-08-01T21:00:01.000Z> em: The doxing assholes aren't 
<2021-08-01T21:00:49.000Z> em: Meh my days shitty and I feel lost as fuck. I'm still in bed
<2021-08-01T21:03:03.000Z> em: I hate feeling sad so much. I replaced it with anger so long ago but fuck idk what's happening lmao. I don't like it. Sad drags out... 😩 I got woken up with good news tooooooo. Sooo gaaayyy
<2021-08-01T21:07:31.000Z> amnesiac: what's the good news? yeah i was really sad, then angry, and now im just trying to relax as much as possible, so ive gradually been getting better the past couple years. sorry that you're in a slump though 
<2021-08-01T21:10:46.000Z> em: My slumps been years , the good news is we're getting out 10 days Bad news.Holy fuck my life's changing in ten days and I'm crying in bed like a fucking depressed loser Leaving my childhood home & my new friends 
<2021-08-01T21:11:02.000Z> em: I lost my dad in the room next to mine ... Like... It's just  Weird.   This house holds every good and bad memory 
<2021-08-01T21:11:20.000Z> em: And I have a condition where I can't picture things in my head so when they're gone they're gone out of sight out of mind I mean .... 
<2021-08-01T21:11:29.000Z> em: Idk I'm sick. 
<2021-08-01T21:14:24.000Z> amnesiac: going to Idaho in 10 days? nice. i think that's called aphantasia. i dont have it. sorry to hear about your dad passing, and yeah being stuck at home does feel pretty bad, it feels like life lacks a type of progress which should be fundamental. 
<2021-08-01T21:14:38.000Z> amnesiac: you'll be alright, sounds like a big change. hugs 
<2021-08-01T21:16:50.000Z> em: I hope so , and Iowa ... Long drive ... Many many trips 
<2021-08-01T21:16:54.000Z> em: My crazy family 
<2021-08-01T21:17:00.000Z> em: 😭
<2021-08-01T21:17:30.000Z> amnesiac: sounds like it'll be fun :D
<2021-08-01T21:17:53.000Z> em: You do it for me I'll pay you lol 
<2021-08-01T21:18:03.000Z> em: Fuck that reminds me we gotta find movers 
<2021-08-01T21:18:13.000Z> em: Ahhhhh ok back to sleep I go 
<2021-08-01T21:18:37.000Z> amnesiac: rest well
<2021-08-01T21:19:37.000Z> em: Thank you 
<2021-08-04T04:18:51.000Z> amnesiac: i finally got around to making some white cheddar mac n cheese, but it didnt really satisfy any craving like i had hoped. i really enjoy milk though. do you plan to take any interesting spots on the way to Iowa or do you plan to just get there as quickly as possible?
<2021-08-04T04:19:08.000Z> amnesiac: hit any interesting*
<2021-08-04T07:50:38.000Z> em: I still want some, ughh jealouss 
<2021-08-04T07:51:32.000Z> em: I really wanna take my time but i dont wanna go alone...an do that'
<2021-08-04T07:52:08.000Z> em: so idk whats going on lol
<2021-08-04T14:58:46.000Z> amnesiac: i know it can be depressing to do that alone (ive travelled nor cal four times alone over the past few years). you wont be completely alone though, i was under the impression you'd be escaping with your mother & daughter. i guess the bigger concern would be moving costs, ive seen that uhaul charges inordinate rates for people who are fleeing cali
<2021-08-04T14:59:17.000Z> amnesiac: i'm back in the office today and i really hate this environment, its nothing like id imagined going in and ive been stuck with it for about a year. 
<2021-08-04T16:28:56.000Z> em: Yes my mom my daughter and my uncle and my grandma. 
<2021-08-04T16:29:23.000Z> em: Unfortunately we have so much stuff we all have to go alone my mom has to fly with the baby because my daughter hates being in the car.  
<2021-08-04T16:29:39.000Z> em: Or I have to but either way in the end I've got to drive alone for 2 days 
<2021-08-04T16:30:02.000Z> em: And I want to take my time and enjoy it but it's not really that safe xD I attract the worst kind
<2021-08-04T16:30:28.000Z> em: I'm sorry work is so awful, but I'm here to chat xD
<2021-08-04T16:32:16.000Z> em: Also do you know what the hell this matrix thing everyone is talking about? 
<2021-08-04T18:51:23.000Z> amnesiac: oh, so you're moving with a lot of family. that's nice, to one property? my mom and dad's side of the family both live pretty dispersed all over California,.. no multigenerational living really. 
<2021-08-04T18:53:16.000Z> amnesiac: my uncle is a gay who owns his own pharmaceutical company, so he's amassed a good fortune and is now retiring in palm springs in a 5 acre multi-million dollar house which was pretty nice when i visited earlier this year, but it sucked.. my younger brother is working for him now remotely out of LA. hes kind of like the opposite of me despite being my brother
<2021-08-04T18:53:35.000Z> em: It's a 6000 square foot home with my mom and uncle and daughter .... So basically .. huge change from the 1200 one I'm in now lol
<2021-08-04T18:53:48.000Z> em: To be poor here and normal there is insane 
<2021-08-04T18:53:49.000Z> amnesiac: matrix is basically just an alternative to discord which is more private and secure 
<2021-08-04T18:53:58.000Z> em: But 
<2021-08-04T18:54:17.000Z> em: To be fair we're the only family members left, everybody else is dead or estranged 
<2021-08-04T18:54:18.000Z> amnesiac: i downloaded it for one server and never followed up using it after a few days
<2021-08-04T18:54:32.000Z> em: My father's whole side is in Greece so ... This is the best option
<2021-08-04T18:54:53.000Z> em: Palm springs is quite a great place to live, but that sounds pretty damn neat 
<2021-08-04T18:55:20.000Z> em: I really really wanted to get into the pharmaceutical world ...
<2021-08-04T18:55:31.000Z> em: But I chose not to go to college ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
<2021-08-04T18:55:48.000Z> em: Thought I'd be married by now lmfao 
<2021-08-04T18:56:20.000Z> em: Oh 😣 no need for that. Lmao. Graf hates me again and I don't wanna bother him anymore 
<2021-08-04T19:33:45.000Z> amnesiac: why does graf hate you?
<2021-08-04T19:34:52.000Z> amnesiac: i didnt go to college but i was afraid of debt and my degree being useless - also just too hard of a time getting into a good one with my lame high school performance. im either stuck in this industry( hopefully not) or i'll just learn or trade or learn to code from home, which sounds nice.
<2021-08-04T19:35:06.000Z> em: learn a trade
<2021-08-04T19:35:10.000Z> em: key!!
<2021-08-04T19:35:15.000Z> em: i wanna be a mechanic lolool
<2021-08-04T19:35:26.000Z> em: coding is great
<2021-08-04T19:35:34.000Z> em: but the people who have the mind for it... 
<2021-08-04T19:35:40.000Z> em: not everyone has that 
<2021-08-04T19:35:45.000Z> amnesiac: a couple guys on here like me and are willing to help me out. 
<2021-08-04T19:36:05.000Z> em: go for it ! but.. also be aware its
<2021-08-04T19:36:10.000Z> em: ... not what it seems
<2021-08-04T19:36:12.000Z> em: lol
<2021-08-04T19:36:19.000Z> amnesiac: as far as coding goes, maybe even for jobs - and being able to work remotely from whereever sounds appealing 
<2021-08-04T19:36:26.000Z> amnesiac: im already enrolled in a class so i'll see if i really want to do it thru that
<2021-08-04T19:36:34.000Z> em: =) i wish you the very best 
<2021-08-04T19:36:44.000Z> em: as for Graf... its a long story 
<2021-08-04T19:36:57.000Z> em: but 
<2021-08-04T19:37:37.000Z> em: basically, i am actually diagnosed with autism.. and  a lot of socialthings ... like joking/irony etc
<2021-08-04T19:37:42.000Z> em: i dont often catch 
<2021-08-04T19:38:04.000Z> em: so he doesnt feel like he can talk to me anymore, I make him so mad when im confused or he hurts my feelings...
<2021-08-04T19:39:35.000Z> amnesiac: that's cool i was never officially diagnosed but ive always had trouble with eye contact and what not. dont know if its necessarily autism but i was never normal. 
<2021-08-04T19:40:45.000Z> em: i have no problem with eye contact usually 
<2021-08-04T19:41:13.000Z> em: I have high confidence, and lovetalking to people 
<2021-08-04T19:41:16.000Z> em: I just miss things
<2021-08-04T19:41:43.000Z> em: i miss a lot of 'unsaid' but normal people catch on type things
<2021-08-04T19:41:51.000Z> em: im too direct and when someone isnt... .pooooof
<2021-08-04T19:42:05.000Z> em: being normal an unweird is lame so dw 
<2021-08-04T20:03:18.000Z> amnesiac: i dont have high confidence at all. being weird is cooler than being normal but the issue is that weird people dont get along with normal people too well, typically
<2021-08-04T20:07:19.000Z> em: fuck normsl
<2021-08-04T20:07:30.000Z> em: dont want them as friends anyway 
<2021-08-04T20:07:32.000Z> em: lmaooo
<2021-08-04T20:08:02.000Z> em: why no confidence? 
<2021-08-04T20:11:30.000Z> amnesiac: but always coming off as awkward to co-workers has been an ongoing problem thru my 20s
<2021-08-04T20:11:44.000Z> amnesiac: i dont feel safe in saying anything lol, i guess its largely in part due to internet poisoning 
<2021-08-04T20:20:19.000Z> em: i do too 
<2021-08-04T20:20:21.000Z> em: i get that 
<2021-08-04T20:20:33.000Z> em: but idk, I fucking hate everyone
<2021-08-04T20:21:01.000Z> em: which makes me better thenn em 
<2021-08-04T20:21:05.000Z> em: and poooof
<2021-08-04T20:21:08.000Z> em: confidence 
<2021-08-04T20:21:11.000Z> em: try it ;)
<2021-08-04T20:30:13.000Z> amnesiac: i  guess that would work but it seems like a tactic that would go against my nature 
<2021-08-04T20:30:58.000Z> em: Lmfao 
<2021-08-04T20:31:10.000Z> em: You're a better person 😜💞
<2021-08-04T20:31:34.000Z> em: I was bullied outcasted an alienated my whole life 
<2021-08-04T20:31:47.000Z> em: And then I grew up to have them pretty much looking the soles of my feet because they think I'm hot now so lol 
<2021-08-04T20:31:56.000Z> em: Licking* 
<2021-08-04T20:32:22.000Z> em: Was pretty easy for me to realize I had no confidence when I was young for no reason
<2021-08-04T20:45:55.000Z> amnesiac: oh a lot of girls get to go through that, it's almost always seems to be the case. 
<2021-08-04T20:46:36.000Z> amnesiac: i don't like making people uncomfortable or unintentionally instigating things, sometimes people get grudges against me and it's hard to deal with people who are cunning - that's an entirely different story though.. again work related.
<2021-08-04T20:46:51.000Z> em: Lol sounds like you gotta leave this job
<2021-08-04T20:46:59.000Z> em: As for women, yeah I suppose so 
<2021-08-04T20:52:31.000Z> amnesiac: i only say that because boys are usually mean to girls and then when puberty hits things change, so it's a common thing that happens when you're growing up with other kids
<2021-08-04T20:52:48.000Z> amnesiac: yeah ive been saying that for months, and as im pretty sure i mentioned to you before ive already notified them about my intent to leave
<2021-08-04T20:55:04.000Z> em: Not a child, in my high school early adult years before I moved out of California to Arizona and then in Arizona I have met white people and they helped me become less of a tomboy cringe, and then when my old high school friends discovered they were like holy s*** you're a girl 😂😂😂😂 
<2021-08-04T20:55:28.000Z> em: You'll be fine, I'm sure you'll find a job much better and be a lot happier down the line, we're all going to make it, right? 
<2021-08-04T21:15:42.000Z> amnesiac: getting mistaken for a guy in your teens is a whole other story - is your voice low? well i guess a lot of guys have high pitched voices too. and thanks, i hope so too but the transition phase can be frightening and stressful.. in hindsight its usually the best, though.
<2021-08-04T21:15:55.000Z> em: No I was never mistaken for a guy
<2021-08-04T21:16:08.000Z> em: I was mistaken for a lesbian lolI was tomboy to the max 
<2021-08-04T21:16:40.000Z> em: So when I came back as a fem, it was like news that spread though the two cities I lived in 
<2021-08-04T21:16:49.000Z> em: Emmas a model now blah blah blah 
<2021-08-04T21:16:53.000Z> em: Weird shit lol 
<2021-08-04T21:32:43.000Z> amnesiac: i can understand why tomboys get picked on, they can be out of place. i don't really get the tomboy pill and i half-jokingly mock it. girly girls are cooler because they're different but in a cute way. 
<2021-08-04T21:32:55.000Z> amnesiac: less than 30 minutes until relative freedom for 6 days zzz
<2021-08-05T01:43:50.000Z> em: I find both extremes 2 be utterly annoying nowadays 
<2021-08-05T01:43:59.000Z> em: But that's because I've hit a good balance of both 
<2021-08-05T01:44:09.000Z> em: Happy freedom !!!
<2021-08-05T04:54:18.000Z> amnesiac: yeah a balance is good, as is with anything in life. there's a great novelty about a girly girl who seems foreign with how feminine her interests and beauty obsessions are, but it would get tiring quick especially if that was all that was really to her. 
<2021-08-05T04:55:51.000Z> amnesiac: thank you, so far i am not using it too wisely but ill figure it out. finally got a new kitten with my mom, i wanted a black one but she insisted that they were all demons, and then melted down crying while picking this grey one she liked for taking it away from its friends. 
<2021-08-05T22:08:15.000Z> em: Lmao black are my favorite cats 
<2021-08-05T22:08:26.000Z> em: I've got three , and life got better with em heheheh
<2021-08-05T22:08:46.000Z> em: But I'm always happy to hear a cats adopted. Grey sounds pretty 🦋. The only color I haven't had is orange 
<2021-08-05T23:28:41.000Z> amnesiac: are all three black? ive wanted a dog all my life, but my wanted to go for a cat again. it's grey but multi-colored - not purely grey. also having a very hard time adapting to this house as well as me, but he loves my mom already. 
<2021-08-06T01:11:32.000Z> em: Yeah all three of them are black, and one is a Siamese
<2021-08-06T01:11:44.000Z> em: I love kitties allllll kitties
<2021-08-06T01:12:00.000Z> em: However I want to get a dog 
<2021-08-06T01:12:08.000Z> em: Such good energy
<2021-08-06T01:12:33.000Z> em: I'm sure he'll come around for you soon but it's good he likes your mum
<2021-08-06T01:29:21.000Z> amnesiac: yeah, cats are very relaxed, but dogs have more utility and will also force you to exercise with them.. im going to try to have the kitty (at 3 months hes already pretty big) sleep in my room tonight but if hes too uncomfortable ill let him out. hes warming up to me though
<2021-08-06T05:11:50.000Z> em: Thats why cats are good for women
<2021-08-06T05:11:57.000Z> em: and dogs are a mans best frienddd
<2021-08-06T05:12:04.000Z> em: :p
<2021-08-06T05:12:16.000Z> em: anyways, men who like cats are top tier 
<2021-08-06T05:12:19.000Z> em: imho
<2021-08-06T12:37:41.000Z> amnesiac: i think cats are cuter and cooler but id love to have a dog to rough house and do outdoors stuff with 
<2021-08-06T12:38:15.000Z> amnesiac: have you ever had those hangovers that make everything seem wrong and alarming? i had one of those yesterday morning and soon i'll find out if i'm getting another today
<2021-08-06T19:16:06.000Z> em: Ive never had a hangover
<2021-08-06T19:16:17.000Z> em: ONCE I got something close..
<2021-08-06T19:16:41.000Z> em: but lol , my metabolism was/is v  v high
<2021-08-06T19:17:04.000Z> em: I used to have big ass dogs, and yes thats the best thing about em 
<2021-08-06T19:17:21.000Z> em: :P then they chew your snake skin cowboy boots.....
<2021-08-06T19:50:59.000Z> amnesiac: really? that just means you're smart enough not to binge i think.. i have a high metabolism too. dogs are pretty retarded and wreckless which is another reason they're mans best friend. 
<2021-08-06T19:51:32.000Z> amnesiac: you wear boots? so you like to be 6'2"? you probably even would make a 6'2" man feel like a manlet tbh 
<2021-08-06T19:51:32.000Z> em: men + dog = retard perfect match
<2021-08-06T19:51:35.000Z> em: yes I agee
<2021-08-06T19:51:37.000Z> em: agreeee
<2021-08-06T19:51:48.000Z> em: BUAHAHAH.  the spinster ladies got to me already 
<2021-08-06T19:52:11.000Z> amnesiac: TERFs are cool i wont get into why i think though 
<2021-08-06T19:52:47.000Z> em: I wonder actually if my height stops me from finding men... my height only really short guys with fetishes try to bag me lolol
<2021-08-06T19:53:06.000Z> em: as for alcohol, maybe...
<2021-08-06T19:53:17.000Z> em: idk i had ten drinks one night with my gfs
<2021-08-06T19:53:22.000Z> em: and they were druunk af 
<2021-08-06T19:53:29.000Z> em: and I drove us home loool
<2021-08-06T19:53:42.000Z> amnesiac: thats an incredible amount, you must also have a higher tolerance too though. 
<2021-08-06T19:53:56.000Z> em: the only time i was ever drunk, like the feeling people talk about is when i was roofied 
<2021-08-06T19:54:03.000Z> em: lol
<2021-08-06T19:54:25.000Z> amnesiac: oops i meant to say that's NOT an incredible amount
<2021-08-06T19:54:31.000Z> em: i have very good control even when I shouldnt tbh 
<2021-08-06T19:54:42.000Z> em: heh not ? 
<2021-08-06T19:54:55.000Z> em: 10s more than id ever wanna drink again
<2021-08-06T19:55:03.000Z> em: my tummmy made wooosh noises lol
<2021-08-06T19:55:13.000Z> em: love gin n tonic though 
<2021-08-06T19:55:14.000Z> em: :)
<2021-08-06T19:56:45.000Z> amnesiac: yeah it's smart not to be a drunk, i'm an alcoholic so 10 drinks isnt a lot for me. 
<2021-08-06T19:57:54.000Z> amnesiac: yeah that could be part of it but probably not entirely it. i know luka always talks about how much he prefers short women, i think it has more to do with control than anything else. ive had 2 gfs, 5'2" and 5'6", and the 5'2" one felt a lot more awkward to be around for me 
<2021-08-06T19:58:26.000Z> amnesiac: in the end i think this sort of stuff is pretty superficial for the most part and people just get brainwashed into very strange world views thanks to echo chambers 
<2021-08-06T20:01:20.000Z> em: true
<2021-08-06T20:01:24.000Z> em: haha control.
<2021-08-06T20:01:45.000Z> em: Idk,  I dont have any cares apart from what my heart thinks about em 
<2021-08-06T20:02:18.000Z> em: bs
<2021-08-06T20:02:18.000Z> em: ive been "made fun" of by my choices because of leagues and
<2021-08-06T20:02:36.000Z> em: =)
<2021-08-06T20:02:34.000Z> em: i hope u can quit alcohol 
<2021-08-06T20:05:41.000Z> amnesiac: because of leagues? thanks, i will be able to again, i was sober for 114 days before this so that's not bad.. just need to start getting busy with other things again
<2021-08-06T20:06:11.000Z> em: Ill pray for yuo
<2021-08-06T20:06:21.000Z> em: annnd yea, like I could do better
<2021-08-06T20:06:26.000Z> em: its always about looks lol
<2021-08-06T20:11:27.000Z> amnesiac: im too asocial to understand that. with the 5'2" it was akward because she couldn't walk as fast and we'd walk everywhere, it was a very different time for me. 
<2021-08-06T20:11:59.000Z> amnesiac: thanks, ill be out of it again soon, i have too much shit coming up and i cant afford to be a drunk retard for it. 
<2021-08-06T22:08:05.000Z> em: Yeah, I'd be annoyed at that too, being a fast walker, lol 
<2021-08-06T22:08:37.000Z> em: Hey keeping busy is besttt , but I know that feeling.. too broke lol
<2021-08-06T22:08:47.000Z> em: this is why I cant let myself smoke 
<2021-08-06T23:01:22.000Z> amnesiac: you would make me feel short for sure
<2021-08-06T23:01:52.000Z> amnesiac: smoking looks cool and feels cool but that's truly it's only benefit honestly, doesnt even make you feel that much better. but i only smoke when im already drunk
<2021-08-06T23:09:22.000Z> em: I don't think so I have men who are 5'8 telling me you're not that much taller while I see the top of their heads lol 
<2021-08-06T23:10:02.000Z> em: Yeah smoking with liquor/beer is amazing
<2021-08-07T00:11:09.000Z> amnesiac: i perceive people somewhat shorter than me as taller, i think it has something to do with our eyes being placed a few inches below our max height
<2021-08-07T00:11:11.000Z> amnesiac: goodnight
<2021-08-07T02:00:55.000Z> em: Hmmmm 
<2021-08-07T02:01:14.000Z> em: Interesting to think about
<2021-08-07T02:01:21.000Z> em: Goodnight though ☺️
<2021-08-07T23:32:18.000Z> amnesiac: safe travels!
<2021-08-07T23:57:00.000Z> em: hmm?
<2021-08-07T23:57:02.000Z> em: =)
<2021-08-08T00:07:02.000Z> amnesiac: oh, i was under the impression you were headed out to IA by now
<2021-08-08T00:36:34.000Z> em: Oh still way way more to pack 
<2021-08-08T00:37:01.000Z> em: Just cleared the carport from my dad's business the other day.. we got at least 20 more days of work lol 
<2021-08-08T00:37:16.000Z> em: Gonna be worth it though. 
<2021-08-08T02:29:29.000Z> amnesiac: aah that's good, higher than the original 10 day estimation then
<2021-08-08T02:30:32.000Z> amnesiac: my parents are getting into a seperated living situation, coincidentally started as soon as we got the pet kitten. my dads with his mom rn but if he has to get his own place the financial situation is going to be ridiculous. i have a godmother is Wisconsin so i may just head there and that's what i told me my mom too. zzzz...
<2021-08-08T05:10:12.000Z> em: lol family drama like that is exhausting lol but  you seem rather comfortable with it? 
<2021-08-08T05:11:06.000Z> em: oh yeah, ha the first one he backed out so we went with the second offer and that was at full...time or something? idk im starting not to care about all the details.. they change too fast 
<2021-08-08T05:20:26.000Z> amnesiac: yeah i guess there's just always been a lot of family drama in my life so i accept it as standard whether i consciouslly acknowledge that or not
<2021-08-08T05:21:12.000Z> amnesiac: but a lots been happening recently and im not sure how to cope i just know none of it can last because having things continue to exist in an uncomfortable state is probably the worst thing that could ever happen
<2021-08-09T03:50:37.000Z> em: oddly..
<2021-08-09T03:50:41.000Z> em: I get that 
<2021-08-09T03:51:03.000Z> em: You're -- I cant think of the word 
<2021-08-09T03:51:10.000Z> em: starts with an r 
<2021-08-09T03:51:11.000Z> em: mm
<2021-08-09T04:18:49.000Z> amnesiac: retarded 
<2021-08-09T04:58:05.000Z> em: nooo
<2021-08-09T04:58:25.000Z> em: resilient 
<2021-08-09T04:58:30.000Z> em: thats it
<2021-08-09T04:58:31.000Z> em: heh
<2021-08-09T05:19:27.000Z> amnesiac: i beg to differ
<2021-08-09T05:39:31.000Z> amnesiac: well i mean i could be a lot better at it
<2021-08-09T05:52:10.000Z> em: believe in yourself then friend 
<2021-08-09T05:52:13.000Z> em: =)
<2021-08-09T05:59:47.000Z> amnesiac: thanks
<2021-08-09T06:01:31.000Z> amnesiac: i will try, 
<2021-08-09T06:04:54.000Z> amnesiac: i guess the one good thing that's come out of this mess is that i'm probably going to start doing ASMR and hopefully i can make a nice little secondary income off of that
<2021-08-09T06:04:59.000Z> amnesiac: and i think i'd enjoy it too
<2021-08-09T16:21:19.000Z> em: Looking at the plus sides is all you can do 
<2021-08-09T16:21:35.000Z> em: lord knows, life suckin fucks 
<2021-08-09T16:21:41.000Z> em: its hard
<2021-08-09T16:21:46.000Z> em: everything seems backwards
<2021-08-09T16:21:54.000Z> em: but like, whats more enjoyable?
<2021-08-09T16:21:58.000Z> em: =)
<2021-08-09T18:05:48.000Z> amnesiac: sleep and sex 
<2021-08-09T18:05:52.000Z> amnesiac: i get neither
<2021-08-09T18:06:32.000Z> amnesiac: lol i dont mean to be a cynical drag i should stop 
<2021-08-10T03:09:15.000Z> em: Lmao 
<2021-08-10T03:09:38.000Z> em: To be fair, me neither , but I don't wanna sleep with any California queers 
<2021-08-10T03:09:45.000Z> em: And also I want a husband
<2021-08-10T03:10:02.000Z> em: LmaoBut don't worry, I'm a cynic at heart but I'm like the most optimistic cynic you'll ever meet. 
<2021-08-10T03:23:44.000Z> amnesiac: yeah casual sex is retarded 
<2021-08-10T03:24:24.000Z> amnesiac: that’s good i’m just a lot more cynical than i’d like to be 
<2021-08-10T04:30:45.000Z> em: Yeah , so ya work on it ! 
<2021-08-10T04:30:54.000Z> em: Sinple as that my friend 
<2021-08-10T04:31:10.000Z> em: We can try rn, lol, how was your day? 
<2021-08-10T14:44:58.000Z> amnesiac: yesterday was.. not terrible, cant really remember.
<2021-08-10T14:45:29.000Z> amnesiac: today i’m getting my shit together a little more so it should be a little more interesting even if only that 
<2021-08-11T19:16:40.000Z> em: hopefully it seems looking up
<2021-08-11T19:16:42.000Z> em: =)
<2021-08-11T19:16:50.000Z> em: im having a terrible day lol
<2021-08-11T19:38:14.000Z> amnesiac: no to be honest im still fucked up, i need to stop doing this. why is it a terrible day for you? 
<2021-08-11T21:51:49.000Z> em: eBay just fucked me 
<2021-08-11T21:52:08.000Z> em: Bought a computer. It was fucked.  Asked to return it. eBay accpeded because he wouldn't. 
<2021-08-11T21:52:50.000Z> em: Finally got the label. (7th) given to the 20th to send it back. Sent it back the 9th and kn the 10 ebay sent me an email saying that I'm not getting a refund ???????? 
<2021-08-11T21:53:49.000Z> em: So now the guy gets his computer and my money that I can't afford to lose , not lije anyone can but I saved for a while go buy a computer it's not exactly like I should have but fuck dude I need something to stress relief ahhhh I'm so mad I could drive to this guy's address in Illinois and beat the s*** out of him 
<2021-08-11T21:54:05.000Z> em: What fucking nigger shit is that. I got scammed and they settled with the scammer 
<2021-08-12T01:23:55.000Z> amnesiac: that really sucks, send them more emails regarding it
<2021-08-12T01:24:29.000Z> amnesiac: if you press them enough you can and will get the money back, so if you really need it it’s definitely worth the effort
<2021-08-12T02:53:30.000Z> em: Ive been trying but the case says closed so I hope they respond.. 
<2021-08-13T04:01:33.000Z> amnesiac: you'll probably have to find another means of contacting them, idk they always make it very difficult. sorry that does sound very upsetting. i was supposed to buy a gaming computer from one of my old high school friends for only like 350$, i should get around to that. this piece of shit cant run many games
<2021-08-13T06:09:44.000Z> amnesiac: i want mac n cheese again... not much comfort food here in this house atm
<2021-08-14T18:54:12.000Z> em: Comfort food is much needed
<2021-08-14T18:54:27.000Z> em: I should add that to my groceries list lol 
<2021-08-14T18:55:03.000Z> em: I'm so pissed.  Got flaked on 
<2021-08-14T18:55:28.000Z> em: Moving 2000 miles away in your 20-year best friends both have anxiety attacks on your going away party day that they threw and canceled lol 
<2021-08-14T18:55:39.000Z> em: And your ** 
<2021-08-14T23:52:30.000Z> amnesiac: that really sucks :( but the good news is you're finally gettting out of hell! and i'm sure that you'll get to see them again down the line :)
<2021-08-15T00:14:36.000Z> em: Yeah I suppose
<2021-08-15T00:14:44.000Z> em: God I'm impatient
<2021-08-15T00:18:17.000Z> amnesiac: it's easier than ever to be impatient :) 