<2023-02-11T13:09:47.000Z> silence@sneed.social: hello
<2023-02-11T13:18:59.000Z> _Trollcow_: Hey
<2023-02-11T13:19:13.000Z> _Trollcow_: Who might this be
<2023-02-11T13:22:02.000Z> _Trollcow_: 🪐
<2023-02-11T13:37:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: Is it you
<2023-02-11T14:50:26.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Is it who?
<2023-02-11T14:50:54.000Z> _Trollcow_: Shaitan?
<2023-02-11T14:50:59.000Z> _Trollcow_: Hexi
<2023-02-11T14:53:04.000Z> silence@sneed.social attached file https://sneed.social/media/fa22626419275969c035ff7302a1d97eecf9943bf6e02723f7d9343e10a6abee.png
<2023-02-11T14:53:15.000Z> silence@sneed.social attached file https://sneed.social/media/40aca3be59d7b97770c43eaf2a30725602821e3f39fa054e85ac1cdcedfb7dd0.png
<2023-02-11T14:53:28.000Z> _Trollcow_: Hahaha what 
<2023-02-11T14:53:30.000Z> silence@sneed.social: follow every new person or am I special?
<2023-02-11T14:53:39.000Z> _Trollcow_: Maybe you’re special…
<2023-02-11T14:54:11.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm really not.
<2023-02-11T14:54:26.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why do you say that?
<2023-02-11T14:54:34.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And I feel special. You don't follow many people and you followed me right away.
<2023-02-11T14:54:43.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I don't know.
<2023-02-11T14:54:53.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Is anyone really special? 
<2023-02-11T14:55:28.000Z> _Trollcow_: Some people are. Most are disposable, some irreplaceable.
<2023-02-11T14:56:29.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I've been feeling really disposable lately. 
<2023-02-11T14:56:36.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why is that?
<2023-02-11T14:58:11.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I don't know.
<2023-02-11T14:58:33.000Z> silence@sneed.social: @glow_in_the_dark_cia_agent you?
<2023-02-11T14:58:46.000Z> _Trollcow_: No. 
<2023-02-11T14:58:51.000Z> _Trollcow_: Is that disappointing?
<2023-02-11T14:59:28.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Know him or did am I just lucky?
<2023-02-11T14:59:37.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Is what disappointing?
<2023-02-11T14:59:52.000Z> _Trollcow_: Know him or did? What ?
<2023-02-11T15:00:08.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Feeling disposable? not really. Feels the same.
<2023-02-11T15:00:08.000Z> _Trollcow_: Is it disappointing that I’m not him, the CIA agent account lol
<2023-02-11T15:00:27.000Z> _Trollcow_: And why would someone like you ever feel disposable?
<2023-02-11T15:00:32.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Oh I meant do you know him or did I luck out and get two big follows?
<2023-02-11T15:00:54.000Z> silence@sneed.social: No, it's not. Just thought timing was funny.
<2023-02-11T15:00:59.000Z> _Trollcow_: You got two big follows. He also follows everyone 
<2023-02-11T15:01:16.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Well now it's less cool.
<2023-02-11T15:01:26.000Z> _Trollcow_: Aw sorry did your feelings get hurt
<2023-02-11T15:01:38.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 😔 
<2023-02-11T15:02:00.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Not really no.
<2023-02-11T15:02:10.000Z> _Trollcow_: You seem depressed 
<2023-02-11T15:02:26.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Yeah. That's probably fair.
<2023-02-11T15:02:35.000Z> _Trollcow_: Always been that way?
<2023-02-11T15:02:36.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Probably more than just that even.
<2023-02-11T15:02:55.000Z> _Trollcow_: What do you mean more than just that? 
<2023-02-11T15:03:02.000Z> silence@sneed.social: No, I used to be angry. 
<2023-02-11T15:03:20.000Z> _Trollcow_: Ah. That’s one I’m very familiar with 
<2023-02-11T15:03:23.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Now I'm just tired and bored with it. And how people are.
<2023-02-11T15:03:35.000Z> _Trollcow_: How are people? 
<2023-02-11T15:03:59.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Disappointing? 
<2023-02-11T15:04:04.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why.
<2023-02-11T15:04:47.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Seeing how great they can be. 
<2023-02-11T15:05:07.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Loyal, bold, creative, fun, caring.
<2023-02-11T15:05:19.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Always aligned elsewhere though.
<2023-02-11T15:05:27.000Z> _Trollcow_: “Aligned” 
<2023-02-11T15:05:29.000Z> _Trollcow_: ?
<2023-02-11T15:05:39.000Z> silence@sneed.social: lol but then it gets less disappointing. 
<2023-02-11T15:05:43.000Z> _Trollcow_: Did you get incel rejected or something 
<2023-02-11T15:05:53.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why does it get less disappointing?
<2023-02-11T15:06:28.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Actually no. Women like me. I'm not sure why tbf but they do.
<2023-02-11T15:06:48.000Z> _Trollcow_: What type of women do you usually attract? 
<2023-02-11T15:06:58.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Oh, because when you get used to it it just becomes the norm. Can't be down about the sun rising right?
<2023-02-11T15:07:23.000Z> _Trollcow_: You’re beginning to sound like me
<2023-02-11T15:07:30.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And Aligned as in, Have you ever noticed people are at their best when doing things you don't want?
<2023-02-11T15:08:11.000Z> _Trollcow_: No. Usually I believe they are at their worst when going against my weird internal cosmic guidelines for them. 
<2023-02-11T15:08:15.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Interesting ones at least.
<2023-02-11T15:08:29.000Z> _Trollcow_: What was your last girl like? 
<2023-02-11T15:08:33.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Then again, I find all people interesting at least for a time.
<2023-02-11T15:08:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: Don’t we all
<2023-02-11T15:08:57.000Z> silence@sneed.social: By "best" I mean
<2023-02-11T15:09:03.000Z> silence@sneed.social: how should I put it?
<2023-02-11T15:09:14.000Z> silence@sneed.social: They are on top of their game
<2023-02-11T15:09:35.000Z> _Trollcow_: Yeah I don’t agree. I see greater potential than what everyone’s at now
<2023-02-11T15:09:36.000Z> silence@sneed.social: How do I sound like you lol?
<2023-02-11T15:09:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: you sound cynical and exhausted. 
<2023-02-11T15:10:02.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And the last one? She was like fire. 
<2023-02-11T15:10:20.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Warm, light, exciting. Burning, destruction.
<2023-02-11T15:10:23.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Great.
<2023-02-11T15:10:33.000Z> _Trollcow_: Did she have any flaws?
<2023-02-11T15:11:00.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Greater potential how? Am I cynical for seeing people how they are and accepting them as that?
<2023-02-11T15:11:08.000Z> silence@sneed.social: What was your last like?
<2023-02-11T15:11:24.000Z> _Trollcow_: He was like black smoke
<2023-02-11T15:11:42.000Z> silence@sneed.social: She was very much a fighter, which I liked. 
<2023-02-11T15:11:47.000Z> _Trollcow_: cold, yet with depth, interesting, extremely intelligent and extremely strong. 
<2023-02-11T15:11:49.000Z> silence@sneed.social: But she always wanted to best me.
<2023-02-11T15:11:53.000Z> _Trollcow_: Yet damaged 
<2023-02-11T15:11:55.000Z> silence@sneed.social: To put me under her.
<2023-02-11T15:12:09.000Z> _Trollcow_: Funny that. How people can be both damaged yet strong. 
<2023-02-11T15:12:32.000Z> _Trollcow_: Maybe she just wanted to be on your level
<2023-02-11T15:12:38.000Z> _Trollcow_: So that she was good enough
<2023-02-11T15:12:54.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Lololololololol
<2023-02-11T15:13:13.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I always tried to treat her like she was better than the rest.
<2023-02-11T15:13:39.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’m sure she admired you very much.
<2023-02-11T15:13:42.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Maybe I held her to too high standards? But it's because I wanted her to know I thought she was better.
<2023-02-11T15:14:19.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Maybe. 
<2023-02-11T15:14:41.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’m usually right 
<2023-02-11T15:15:04.000Z> silence@sneed.social: She'd probably think I was broken right now. But that's because she didn't like me being this honest imo
<2023-02-11T15:15:22.000Z> _Trollcow_: What do you mean? 
<2023-02-11T15:15:27.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm just stating how I felt, not thowing in the towel on things.
<2023-02-11T15:16:28.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Like explaining I feel tired or even possibly depressed.
<2023-02-11T15:16:47.000Z> silence@sneed.social: It's not bad to be self aware. So long as you don't stew in it.
<2023-02-11T15:16:54.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why didn’t you tell her?
<2023-02-11T15:16:56.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And are you usually right?
<2023-02-11T15:17:21.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’m usually right 
<2023-02-11T15:17:33.000Z> _Trollcow_ attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/844ad6c6ac03448a8611ed8eb2f3db3c28ad795c692e954460900541240af6e5.jpeg
<2023-02-11T15:17:41.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Explain? 
<2023-02-11T15:17:56.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And she didn't like hearing it.
<2023-02-11T15:18:00.000Z> _Trollcow_: Explain what
<2023-02-11T15:18:05.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Also it hasn't been cruel. 
<2023-02-11T15:18:11.000Z> silence@sneed.social: How you are usually right
<2023-02-11T15:18:15.000Z> _Trollcow_: Of course it’s been cruel 
<2023-02-11T15:18:28.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’m usually right about things but it’s rather tedious to go into 
<2023-02-11T15:18:34.000Z> _Trollcow_: anyway 
<2023-02-11T15:18:58.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’m hiding on Poast
<2023-02-11T15:19:01.000Z> _Trollcow_: Not Poasting
<2023-02-11T15:19:19.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Not at all. it's
<2023-02-11T15:19:21.000Z> silence@sneed.social: well
<2023-02-11T15:19:31.000Z> silence@sneed.social: do you know the grand rule of hell?
<2023-02-11T15:19:38.000Z> _Trollcow_: No
<2023-02-11T15:19:46.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You can leave whenever you want.
<2023-02-11T15:19:56.000Z> _Trollcow_: Can you?
<2023-02-11T15:20:01.000Z> silence@sneed.social: It's your own drives that keep you there.
<2023-02-11T15:20:04.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Sure.
<2023-02-11T15:20:09.000Z> _Trollcow_: Then why don’t you 
<2023-02-11T15:21:19.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I do, from time to time.
<2023-02-11T15:21:29.000Z> silence@sneed.social: People are the same everywhere though.
<2023-02-11T15:21:34.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Irl, online.
<2023-02-11T15:21:43.000Z> silence@sneed.social: just a difference in sample size.
<2023-02-11T15:21:48.000Z> _Trollcow_: Am I? 
<2023-02-11T15:22:02.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Why are you hiding here btw?
<2023-02-11T15:22:10.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Are you the same online as irl?
<2023-02-11T15:22:20.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Are you just you or an act i guess
<2023-02-11T15:23:01.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'll say you stand out in both.
<2023-02-11T15:23:20.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And that's a good thing. Fire amongst shadows I'd guess.
<2023-02-11T15:23:34.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why do I stand out? 
<2023-02-11T15:24:53.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Well, you are talking to a complete stranger trying to analyze and I (hope) help them for no reason
<2023-02-11T15:25:09.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Why are you hiding out on poast?
<2023-02-11T15:25:31.000Z> _Trollcow_: You need my help?
<2023-02-11T15:27:15.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’m hiding because I prefer lurking 
<2023-02-11T15:27:19.000Z> _Trollcow_: To posting 
<2023-02-11T15:27:21.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'll make you a deal, I'll tell you what has me feeling so glum if you tell me how you are doing?
<2023-02-11T15:27:21.000Z> _Trollcow_: Anywhere 
<2023-02-11T15:27:35.000Z> _Trollcow_: Ok.
<2023-02-11T15:28:19.000Z> _Trollcow_: im a little bit calmer since I stopped posting. I feel less watched. Less paranoid. Yet I’m broken. Maybe more than I was a year ago, over someone I’ve never met who probably lied to me. I miss that person, although I shouldn’t. 
<2023-02-11T15:28:28.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Do I need your help?
<2023-02-11T15:28:34.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I just like talking.
<2023-02-11T15:29:07.000Z> _Trollcow_: Your turn. 
<2023-02-11T15:29:17.000Z> _Trollcow_: What has you feeling so glum 
<2023-02-11T15:30:59.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You'll think I'm bragging
<2023-02-11T15:31:19.000Z> silence@sneed.social: But I've won so many fights in a row, so many people trying to do me wrong
<2023-02-11T15:31:24.000Z> silence@sneed.social: beat me down
<2023-02-11T15:31:27.000Z> silence@sneed.social: run me off
<2023-02-11T15:31:34.000Z> silence@sneed.social: and I've won.
<2023-02-11T15:32:06.000Z> _Trollcow_: But yet you don’t feel like you have 
<2023-02-11T15:32:06.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And now I'm just tired. I don't miss the excitement. I just miss the fun I used to have with people before it all.
<2023-02-11T15:32:19.000Z> silence@sneed.social: What did I really win?
<2023-02-11T15:32:24.000Z> _Trollcow_: What year was it? “Before it all”
<2023-02-11T15:32:38.000Z> silence@sneed.social: This is a trend in my life.
<2023-02-11T15:33:15.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I do this in every new sphere, I try and be nobody and have fun. I just can't have someone try and push me under
<2023-02-11T15:33:22.000Z> _Trollcow_: Are you stubborn? 
<2023-02-11T15:33:37.000Z> silence@sneed.social: "What year was it? “Before it all”10:3" im sure you could guess.
<2023-02-11T15:33:42.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Very,
<2023-02-11T15:33:46.000Z> _Trollcow_: What was the first sphere 
<2023-02-11T15:33:49.000Z> _Trollcow_: Your first sphere 
<2023-02-11T15:33:53.000Z> _Trollcow_: Roughly 
<2023-02-11T15:34:18.000Z> silence@sneed.social: why?
<2023-02-11T15:34:32.000Z> _Trollcow_: Curiosity 
<2023-02-11T15:34:54.000Z> silence@sneed.social attached file https://sneed.social/media/923e26c8d4eb45ca802f21b638b57dcd7a5d225fb3abc319075d8404b2077780.png
<2023-02-11T15:35:23.000Z> silence@sneed.social: no where important really i guess.
<2023-02-11T15:35:59.000Z> _Trollcow_: What is your sphere 
<2023-02-11T15:36:07.000Z> silence@sneed.social: you seem like you like math.
<2023-02-11T15:36:34.000Z> silence@sneed.social: figured you'd like the hexadecimal multiplication tables. 
<2023-02-11T15:37:05.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 👋 
<2023-02-11T15:37:10.000Z> _Trollcow_: Hexi 
<2023-02-11T15:37:16.000Z> _Trollcow_: Stay.
<2023-02-11T15:37:40.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Am I a dog now?
<2023-02-11T15:37:46.000Z> _Trollcow_: No
<2023-02-11T15:37:48.000Z> silence@sneed.social: "stay boy"
<2023-02-11T15:38:01.000Z> _Trollcow_: Shoulda just gone with the long paragraph 
<2023-02-11T15:38:05.000Z> _Trollcow_: But didn’t wanna be cringe 
<2023-02-11T15:38:45.000Z> silence@sneed.social: lol
<2023-02-11T15:39:26.000Z> silence@sneed.social: It's ok, you don't have to be cringe for me lol
<2023-02-11T15:39:44.000Z> _Trollcow_: Did you fix anything , I tried to
<2023-02-11T15:39:59.000Z> silence@sneed.social: tried to how?
<2023-02-11T15:40:23.000Z> _Trollcow_: Onion thread merged, no longer as visible. 
<2023-02-11T15:40:36.000Z> silence@sneed.social: What?
<2023-02-11T15:40:41.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm lost.
<2023-02-11T15:40:51.000Z> _Trollcow_: Nevermind 
<2023-02-11T15:41:01.000Z> _Trollcow_: Send me a song 
<2023-02-11T15:41:24.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You merged the onion thread you made? 
<2023-02-11T15:41:39.000Z> _Trollcow_: They merged it into the big one
<2023-02-11T15:42:45.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Pick a mood. I'll send a song to match it
<2023-02-11T15:43:28.000Z> _Trollcow_: Yours. 
<2023-02-11T15:43:32.000Z> _Trollcow_: Whatever you’re feeling 
<2023-02-11T15:45:29.000Z> silence@sneed.social: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gjQRbSajSYQ
<2023-02-11T15:45:40.000Z> silence@sneed.social: not exactly right.
<2023-02-11T15:45:45.000Z> silence@sneed.social: let me pick again
<2023-02-11T15:45:59.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And how and why did you do that?
<2023-02-11T15:46:28.000Z> _Trollcow_: Also. Maybe no one else will tell you this but, dropping something because it’s no longer fun, and because it causes you stress isn’t giving in, or giving up. It doesn’t make you any less defiant, stubborn or determined. It makes you smart. What makes you stupid would be continuing to do something out of spite that has past its expiry date. 
<2023-02-11T15:47:54.000Z> _Trollcow_: And nice song.
<2023-02-11T15:48:46.000Z> _Trollcow_: Did it for you.
<2023-02-11T15:48:57.000Z> silence@sneed.social: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2XxwoYhguY
<2023-02-11T15:49:14.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Closer. found it by suggestion.
<2023-02-11T15:49:35.000Z> silence@sneed.social: not exactly there yet. You post one.
<2023-02-11T15:49:46.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And Why do it for me?
<2023-02-11T15:50:18.000Z> _Trollcow_: Have 3 
<2023-02-11T15:50:37.000Z> _Trollcow_: youtu.be/Jk1dkG8IK10
<2023-02-11T15:50:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: youtu.be/tcWW5ZfXrxs
<2023-02-11T15:51:04.000Z> silence@sneed.social: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cEcLxqHcQFU
<2023-02-11T15:51:06.000Z> silence@sneed.social: there
<2023-02-11T15:51:12.000Z> _Trollcow_: youtu.be/9dobJDxPEzM
<2023-02-11T15:51:59.000Z> _Trollcow_: Funnily enough, that’s like the only K flay song I’ve heard and like 
<2023-02-11T15:52:19.000Z> silence@sneed.social: it's a good one.
<2023-02-11T15:52:25.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm a fan though.
<2023-02-11T15:52:56.000Z> _Trollcow_: See? It’s in my massive Spotify playlist  https://i.poastcdn.org/e3e8e971c38e32549de45c8ded62158fd4eaec448da45af8a5b14d30c859cc24.png
<2023-02-11T15:53:08.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm not staying to be defiant to anyone if I'm honest by the way.
<2023-02-11T15:53:23.000Z> _Trollcow_: So why do you stay?
<2023-02-11T15:53:24.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm just looking for something I lost I guess.
<2023-02-11T15:53:27.000Z> silence@sneed.social: My fun.
<2023-02-11T15:53:32.000Z> _Trollcow_: what did you lose? 
<2023-02-11T15:53:40.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I could leave and be bored somewhere else.
<2023-02-11T15:53:50.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And just be stuck in my own head.
<2023-02-11T15:54:07.000Z> _Trollcow_: What did you lose
<2023-02-11T15:54:37.000Z> _Trollcow_: You’re already stuck in your own head. 
<2023-02-11T15:54:42.000Z> silence@sneed.social: my fun, i told you.
<2023-02-11T15:54:48.000Z> _Trollcow_: I don’t think I’ve ever spoken to anyone more paranoid and complicated 
<2023-02-11T15:54:58.000Z> _Trollcow_: What you really fear is a lack of outlet.
<2023-02-11T15:54:58.000Z> silence@sneed.social: lol
<2023-02-11T15:55:04.000Z> silence@sneed.social: no
<2023-02-11T15:55:38.000Z> _Trollcow_: I used to write cringe Internet stories 
<2023-02-11T15:55:48.000Z> _Trollcow_: About this kind of shit
<2023-02-11T15:56:15.000Z> silence@sneed.social: It's not so much fear. but I'm resigned to always being runner up where ever I go I guess. 
<2023-02-11T15:56:23.000Z> _Trollcow_: Smart people must always be aware that the biggest threat to them are quite literally their own minds 
<2023-02-11T15:56:35.000Z> _Trollcow_: I thought you said you always win?
<2023-02-11T15:56:35.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Like I will never be the top pick for someone
<2023-02-11T15:56:38.000Z> silence@sneed.social: and that's fine
<2023-02-11T15:56:42.000Z> silence@sneed.social: i do.
<2023-02-11T15:56:53.000Z> _Trollcow_: Top pick for who? Jobs? Partners? Family? 
<2023-02-11T15:56:59.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm not always picked though, there's inevitably a struggle
<2023-02-11T15:57:10.000Z> silence@sneed.social: and then when that happens i get shuffled under
<2023-02-11T15:57:22.000Z> silence@sneed.social: so i have to win against everyone
<2023-02-11T15:57:28.000Z> _Trollcow_: Aw you’re a pick me
<2023-02-11T15:57:29.000Z> silence@sneed.social: and they hate me for it
<2023-02-11T15:57:33.000Z> _Trollcow_: How ironic 
<2023-02-11T15:58:07.000Z> _Trollcow_: And what about the times where you do get picked? 
<2023-02-11T15:58:31.000Z> silence@sneed.social: nah, it would be nice to be that simple
<2023-02-11T15:58:41.000Z> silence@sneed.social: but i think i like being pushed aside.
<2023-02-11T15:58:50.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Because that's where I shine you see.
<2023-02-11T15:58:55.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why?
<2023-02-11T15:59:05.000Z> silence@sneed.social: When I get to go at everyone
<2023-02-11T15:59:11.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I don't have to worry
<2023-02-11T15:59:28.000Z> silence@sneed.social: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JVl4rL5C24I
<2023-02-11T16:00:10.000Z> silence@sneed.social: because i can be the awful vicious person I really try to tell people I am and they never believe me. 
<2023-02-11T16:00:27.000Z> _Trollcow_: “Get them before they get me”
<2023-02-11T16:00:44.000Z> _Trollcow_: You’ve understood being feared is more powerful than being loved. 
<2023-02-11T16:00:55.000Z> silence@sneed.social: no never that
<2023-02-11T16:01:10.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I never attack first.
<2023-02-11T16:01:20.000Z> _Trollcow_: Unless it’s me
<2023-02-11T16:01:22.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And is it?
<2023-02-11T16:01:26.000Z> _Trollcow_: And then you attack first 
<2023-02-11T16:01:28.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Are you afraid of me?
<2023-02-11T16:01:44.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Nope. I take their best shot
<2023-02-11T16:02:18.000Z> silence@sneed.social: do you think I'm afraid of you?
<2023-02-11T16:02:23.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Who do you think 
<2023-02-11T16:02:25.000Z> silence@sneed.social: i 
<2023-02-11T16:02:31.000Z> silence@sneed.social: am? just wondering?
<2023-02-11T16:03:11.000Z> _Trollcow_: Am I afraid of you? Hm. I’m too intrigued by you to fear you. I fear the stupid, the brainwashed and the herd.  https://i.poastcdn.org/b452ebcaa9ed3461d1e93db802033763c82395cb1adc399c4781e3cfc7ee7032.jpeg
<2023-02-11T16:03:15.000Z> silence@sneed.social: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pCDPpHLOw6A
<2023-02-11T16:03:30.000Z> silence@sneed.social: i saw this one.
<2023-02-11T16:03:33.000Z> silence@sneed.social: i like it too.
<2023-02-11T16:03:55.000Z> silence@sneed.social: So tell me about your adventure that brought you to hiding out here?
<2023-02-11T16:04:00.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Please.
<2023-02-11T16:04:11.000Z> silence@sneed.social: might cheer me up.
<2023-02-11T16:04:35.000Z> _Trollcow_: Am I the only person you really talk to? Like about actual stuff 
<2023-02-11T16:04:40.000Z> _Trollcow_: Non retarded stuff 
<2023-02-11T16:05:18.000Z> _Trollcow_: I make playlists for everything. 
<2023-02-11T16:05:23.000Z> _Trollcow_: Maybe you have one 
<2023-02-11T16:05:25.000Z> silence@sneed.social: hmmmmmmm, I could tell you yes
<2023-02-11T16:05:29.000Z> silence@sneed.social: and you'd like that.
<2023-02-11T16:05:39.000Z> silence@sneed.social: but no, I talk to other people/
<2023-02-11T16:05:48.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I like talking to you so far though.
<2023-02-11T16:06:20.000Z> _Trollcow_: Give me three of your favorite quotes 
<2023-02-11T16:06:23.000Z> _Trollcow_: I like quotes 
<2023-02-11T16:07:01.000Z> silence@sneed.social: So tell me, what happened that has you hiding out? and do you talk about things to people?
<2023-02-11T16:07:32.000Z> _Trollcow_: Hexi, you know I only ever talked to you. 
<2023-02-11T16:07:50.000Z> _Trollcow_: Nothing happened, I just felt like quitting being self destructive 
<2023-02-11T16:08:08.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Not going to tell me?
<2023-02-11T16:08:19.000Z> silence@sneed.social: ok then, I'll just read your timeline. lol
<2023-02-11T16:08:26.000Z> silence@sneed.social: make some guesses.
<2023-02-11T16:08:42.000Z> _Trollcow_: My pinned Poast is easiest 
<2023-02-11T16:08:49.000Z> _Trollcow_: It explains everything I guess 
<2023-02-11T16:10:13.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 4 fights at once?
<2023-02-11T16:10:24.000Z> silence@sneed.social: you sure know how to make a splash.
<2023-02-11T16:10:25.000Z> _Trollcow_: What do you mean 
<2023-02-11T16:10:57.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Lolcows on Kiwi Farms don’t even get to choose their own usernames or pfps, Lolcows on Lolcow.farm get blamed for spams orchestrated by pedophiles that no one even knows, Lolcows around Plate Gang are subjected to consistent swatting, sexual harassment and degradation, and lolcows on Onion Farms have no chance unless they’re friends with one of the staff members.
<2023-02-11T16:11:05.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 4 fights all at once.
<2023-02-11T16:11:20.000Z> silence@sneed.social: you must have really wanted to self destruct.
<2023-02-11T16:11:38.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Always sucks when you aim for it and bounce though when hitting the ground.
<2023-02-11T16:11:48.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Gotta keep it going then.
<2023-02-11T16:12:48.000Z> silence@sneed.social: by the by. I don't believe you only talk to me for a second lol
<2023-02-11T16:13:13.000Z> silence@sneed.social: testing me is really tirsome
<2023-02-11T16:13:34.000Z> _Trollcow_: I only want to talk to you.
<2023-02-11T16:13:39.000Z> _Trollcow_: Put it that way. 
<2023-02-11T16:13:47.000Z> _Trollcow_: You’re the only person it doesn’t feel exhausting to type to.
<2023-02-11T16:14:06.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You don't even know me/
<2023-02-11T16:14:29.000Z> _Trollcow_: Maybe I do
<2023-02-11T16:14:32.000Z> silence@sneed.social: We literally could have just met. and I am fucking with you.
<2023-02-11T16:14:33.000Z> _Trollcow_: Maybe I’m magic 
<2023-02-11T16:14:48.000Z> silence@sneed.social: How do you know I'm someone you want to talk to?
<2023-02-11T16:15:10.000Z> _Trollcow_: I find the testing tiresome too 
<2023-02-11T16:15:44.000Z> silence@sneed.social: then who am I?
<2023-02-11T16:15:54.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Then stop doing it.
<2023-02-11T16:16:14.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Magic? 
<2023-02-11T16:16:22.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'd like to see that.
<2023-02-11T16:17:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: I like you. 
<2023-02-11T16:18:11.000Z> _Trollcow_: And much to your dismay sorry but I’m not gonna push you aside so I guess you won’t have the glory of some big ass fight 
<2023-02-11T16:18:32.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I don't ever want to fight
<2023-02-11T16:18:36.000Z> silence@sneed.social: stupid
<2023-02-11T16:18:52.000Z> _Trollcow_: I know, I meant, hmm. I’m shit at wording
<2023-02-11T16:19:03.000Z> _Trollcow_: i meant you won’t get your version of a secured W
<2023-02-11T16:19:05.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I want to have fun and enjoy myself with people who i like again.
<2023-02-11T16:19:22.000Z> _Trollcow_: Well, that’s very possible 
<2023-02-11T16:19:24.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I don't want some "w"
<2023-02-11T16:19:31.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I just want
<2023-02-11T16:19:31.000Z> _Trollcow_: I believe I am naturally a problem solver 
<2023-02-11T16:19:34.000Z> _Trollcow_: it’s kind of my skill
<2023-02-11T16:19:40.000Z> _Trollcow_: probably because I cause so many. 
<2023-02-11T16:19:55.000Z> _Trollcow_: I know. You want it to be like 2016 again
<2023-02-11T16:20:06.000Z> _Trollcow_: First question is, what’s stopping you?
<2023-02-11T16:20:17.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I think you can't decide if you hate me or like me, and that fascinates you. 
<2023-02-11T16:20:36.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I think you jump around of who you suspect I am. And not pinning me down
<2023-02-11T16:20:43.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Bothers you/
<2023-02-11T16:20:52.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Can't hold smoke
<2023-02-11T16:21:07.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 2016? lol
<2023-02-11T16:21:51.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Well, the first block is most of the people I liked all hate each other.
<2023-02-11T16:22:08.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And me, or just don't bother with me.
<2023-02-11T16:22:11.000Z> _Trollcow_: I despise your actions but I like you. I believe I’m right in who I think you are, but I’m socially weak and susceptible to being gaslit. I believe everyone else is stupid enough to not realize I’m right. 
<2023-02-11T16:22:35.000Z> silence@sneed.social: so say it, name the guess?
<2023-02-11T16:22:52.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’ll make a few. 
<2023-02-11T16:23:28.000Z> silence@sneed.social: "I despise your actions but I like you."
<2023-02-11T16:23:30.000Z> silence@sneed.social: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=511HV5Vb5vI
<2023-02-11T16:23:33.000Z> _Trollcow_: Name *
<2023-02-11T16:23:57.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm waiting.
<2023-02-11T16:24:07.000Z> _Trollcow_: I mean, you seem like Null but you also could just be someone who stalks him so much that you’ve become similar to him
<2023-02-11T16:25:26.000Z> silence@sneed.social: lol
<2023-02-11T16:25:35.000Z> silence@sneed.social: wrong on both counts.
<2023-02-11T16:26:15.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why am I wrong? 
<2023-02-11T16:26:44.000Z> _Trollcow_: I mean, I’ve suspected you of being Zombo or Spooky Bones
<2023-02-11T16:26:52.000Z> _Trollcow_: but Josh seemed the closest fit
<2023-02-11T16:27:00.000Z> silence@sneed.social: lol no.
<2023-02-11T16:27:12.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And why those three?
<2023-02-11T16:27:31.000Z> _Trollcow_: I believe you’d never state who you are because you believe it would shatter the convo 
<2023-02-11T16:27:39.000Z> _Trollcow_: Or make it shallow or meaningless 
<2023-02-11T16:27:57.000Z> _Trollcow_: zombo because he’s similar, he likes to talk about things and music
<2023-02-11T16:28:23.000Z> _Trollcow_: spooky because they’re smart socially and know enough about josh to catfish properly, and would have motive 
<2023-02-11T16:28:33.000Z> _Trollcow_: josh because a lot of what you say and do reminds me of him 
<2023-02-11T16:28:36.000Z> _Trollcow_: Or what I know 
<2023-02-11T16:28:38.000Z> _Trollcow_: about him
<2023-02-11T16:29:46.000Z> silence@sneed.social: So I'm either
<2023-02-11T16:30:07.000Z> silence@sneed.social: A. An adrift self destructive maniac 
<2023-02-11T16:30:21.000Z> silence@sneed.social: B. A cold cruel manipulator 
<2023-02-11T16:31:20.000Z> silence@sneed.social: C. An control freak who can't get out of his own way and the inability drives me down worse.
<2023-02-11T16:31:26.000Z> _Trollcow_: I never simped for josh because he owned KF. I found him interesting in the same way I find you interesting 
<2023-02-11T16:31:38.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm not done.
<2023-02-11T16:31:50.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ C. A control freak who can't get out of his own way and the inability drives me down worse.”
<2023-02-11T16:31:52.000Z> _Trollcow_: You slipped 
<2023-02-11T16:32:11.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 2 of which you publicly say you hate and have tried to attack. 
<2023-02-11T16:32:19.000Z> silence@sneed.social: who would be catfishes 
<2023-02-11T16:32:34.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And the last basically the same but with an extra step.
<2023-02-11T16:32:52.000Z> _Trollcow_: And what’s your point
<2023-02-11T16:33:00.000Z> silence@sneed.social: "C. A control freak who can't get out of his own way and the inability drives me down worse.”I'm high give me a break
<2023-02-11T16:33:11.000Z> silence@sneed.social: lol
<2023-02-11T16:33:21.000Z> silence@sneed.social: my point is those options are terrible.
<2023-02-11T16:33:26.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You must hate me.
<2023-02-11T16:33:28.000Z> _Trollcow_: Real slick Null 
<2023-02-11T16:33:34.000Z> silence@sneed.social: lolololololol
<2023-02-11T16:34:05.000Z> _Trollcow_: I don’t hate you. 
<2023-02-11T16:34:08.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm not null.
<2023-02-11T16:34:16.000Z> silence@sneed.social: God, so tedious. 
<2023-02-11T16:34:20.000Z> _Trollcow_: I hate what you do and the lies you tell 
<2023-02-11T16:34:38.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Now, what do all three of them have in common I wonder though?
<2023-02-11T16:34:42.000Z> _Trollcow_: So why don’t you tell me? Who are you 
<2023-02-11T16:34:45.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You picked them for a reason.
<2023-02-11T16:34:56.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm not null.
<2023-02-11T16:35:03.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm not lying 
<2023-02-11T16:35:13.000Z> _Trollcow_: That’s not an identity 
<2023-02-11T16:35:18.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’m not asking who you’re not 
<2023-02-11T16:35:23.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’m asking who you are 
<2023-02-11T16:35:34.000Z> silence@sneed.social: no, this is more fun. see how the tide shifted?
<2023-02-11T16:35:46.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Because I want to understand you first.
<2023-02-11T16:35:51.000Z> silence@sneed.social: As equals of course.
<2023-02-11T16:36:14.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Now, my turn to ask questions? fair?
<2023-02-11T16:36:20.000Z> _Trollcow_: Sure.
<2023-02-11T16:36:29.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Why those three?
<2023-02-11T16:36:41.000Z> _Trollcow_: - lore
<2023-02-11T16:36:42.000Z> silence@sneed.social: What is the overlap they share in your mind.
<2023-02-11T16:36:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: - motive
<2023-02-11T16:36:49.000Z> _Trollcow_: - deceptive 
<2023-02-11T16:36:52.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Not lore, to you.
<2023-02-11T16:36:55.000Z> _Trollcow_: - smart 
<2023-02-11T16:37:00.000Z> _Trollcow_: they have the lore
<2023-02-11T16:37:06.000Z> _Trollcow_: to be able to pull it off
<2023-02-11T16:37:21.000Z> silence@sneed.social: go on.
<2023-02-11T16:37:26.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Motive?
<2023-02-11T16:37:33.000Z> _Trollcow_: Do you see null and josh as the same person? 
<2023-02-11T16:38:01.000Z> silence@sneed.social: do you see me as either? and it's still my turn.
<2023-02-11T16:38:07.000Z> silence@sneed.social: motive
<2023-02-11T16:39:06.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Lots of people know things, lets shrink this pool down, Motive? lets see what you got. Because I have a theory on something.
<2023-02-11T16:39:20.000Z> _Trollcow_: Zombo is a bit psycho, I could see him doing some shit like that out of boredom , or because he saw an opportunity. Spooky hated me a lot for a long time and would be able to use their knowledge from KF as a weapon 
<2023-02-11T16:39:27.000Z> silence@sneed.social: why they'd occupy the same space as me. I'm your head.
<2023-02-11T16:40:06.000Z> _Trollcow_: There’s one more
<2023-02-11T16:40:10.000Z> _Trollcow_: Admin of LCF 
<2023-02-11T16:40:23.000Z> _Trollcow_: Wdym you’re my head? 
<2023-02-11T16:41:11.000Z> silence@sneed.social: well you picked those three people. and said they could be me.
<2023-02-11T16:41:28.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Meaning there's overlap on all of us to you. follow?
<2023-02-11T16:41:56.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Also gross. no. not a fan.
<2023-02-11T16:42:14.000Z> _Trollcow_: Kind of? Dude I’m looking for a catfish here I can’t really do it any other way 
<2023-02-11T16:42:27.000Z> silence@sneed.social: where were we?
<2023-02-11T16:42:40.000Z> silence@sneed.social: deceptive. Lets hear it.
<2023-02-11T16:42:56.000Z> _Trollcow_: What do you mean not a fan?
<2023-02-11T16:43:02.000Z> _Trollcow_: Where were we? Huh?
<2023-02-11T16:43:05.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Then "smart". Because frankly all three of them are morons in their own right.
<2023-02-11T16:43:49.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You said lcf admin. Not a fan. so no. but that really doesn't narrow anything down.
<2023-02-11T16:44:21.000Z> _Trollcow_: I think you’re just josh gaslighting me 
<2023-02-11T16:44:58.000Z> silence@sneed.social: answer the last two points and I'll tell you something about yourself.
<2023-02-11T16:45:02.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Deceptive
<2023-02-11T16:45:07.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Smart.
<2023-02-11T16:45:14.000Z> silence@sneed.social: This should be good.
<2023-02-11T16:45:31.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Also, no you are gaslighting yourself. 
<2023-02-11T16:46:15.000Z> _Trollcow_: Ask me again? 
<2023-02-11T16:46:22.000Z> _Trollcow_: The two 
<2023-02-11T16:46:25.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Deceptive. 
<2023-02-11T16:46:27.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Smart.
<2023-02-11T16:46:55.000Z> _Trollcow_: If you were gaslighting me, telling me I’m gaslighting myself could be gaslighting in itself…
<2023-02-11T16:46:58.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Explain how those points fit your suspects and I'll tell you why you really picked them when you think of me.
<2023-02-11T16:47:25.000Z> silence@sneed.social: "If you were gaslighting me, telling me I’m gaslighting myself could be gaslighting in itself…"
<2023-02-11T16:47:38.000Z> silence@sneed.social: God you're just being difficult now. 
<2023-02-11T16:48:35.000Z> _Trollcow_: Well my point is, zombo and spooky are capable of lying to me and others around them 
<2023-02-11T16:48:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: If they could, they’d hold their spaghetti to save their own skin
<2023-02-11T16:49:15.000Z> _Trollcow_: It’s not that they’re smart necessarily, but they’re far better at social engineering than I am, and they know enough lore to be able to impersonate accurately 
<2023-02-11T16:50:06.000Z> silence@sneed.social: but why? lol.
<2023-02-11T16:50:37.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why what?
<2023-02-11T16:50:55.000Z> silence@sneed.social: why do it?
<2023-02-11T16:51:20.000Z> _Trollcow_: Maybe to avenge a friend of theirs, or fuck with both me and josh . Maybe just an obsession 
<2023-02-11T16:51:47.000Z> _Trollcow_: You could be Odili too I suppose 
<2023-02-11T16:51:58.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Also, one is married to a man who fucks hookers and showed his dick online, the other is too unmotivated to do anything of note.
<2023-02-11T16:52:32.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Avenge a friend? Do either of them have actual friends?
<2023-02-11T16:52:39.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You're reaching now.
<2023-02-11T16:53:15.000Z> _Trollcow_: So why don’t you tell me?
<2023-02-11T16:53:46.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Ready to hear my theory now? Even if it makes you mad at first? Really give it a good think?
<2023-02-11T16:54:19.000Z> _Trollcow_: Ok.
<2023-02-11T16:54:28.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Promise.
<2023-02-11T16:54:38.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You'll really consider it.
<2023-02-11T16:54:54.000Z> _Trollcow_: Yes. 
<2023-02-11T16:55:24.000Z> _Trollcow_: I promise 
<2023-02-11T16:58:27.000Z> silence@sneed.social: All three of them are people you looked up to or felt some strong affinity towards. They each tried to look after you and showed some level of care you suspect wouldn't have otherwise been shown. When you weren't able to communicate something to each of them it lead to compounding issues. You went on the tried to be heard or seen or understood so fucking bad. You hated them for not getting it. Then you made trouble for each one. You wanted them to know how you felt, and one after the other they smacked you back down.
<2023-02-11T16:58:55.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And instead of continuing the fight, they just left you alone. Again. 
<2023-02-11T16:59:01.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And you hate being alone.
<2023-02-11T16:59:24.000Z> _Trollcow_: I want to know who you are. 
<2023-02-11T16:59:32.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And you hate that you are incapable of making them come back, they do as they please.
<2023-02-11T16:59:38.000Z> _Trollcow_: Because I want to see if you have the courage to be honest. 
<2023-02-11T17:00:03.000Z> _Trollcow_: You’re wrong, but I understand where you’re coming from, you’ve just applied it to the wrong people 
<2023-02-11T17:00:08.000Z> silence@sneed.social: am I close? is that the shape of who you think I am?
<2023-02-11T17:00:10.000Z> silence@sneed.social: lol
<2023-02-11T17:00:22.000Z> silence@sneed.social: see the similarities? 
<2023-02-11T17:00:56.000Z> _Trollcow_: No lol you’re far off, but I want you to tell me. I want to see if you have the guts too. 
<2023-02-11T17:01:07.000Z> _Trollcow_: To*
<2023-02-11T17:01:29.000Z> _Trollcow_: I care too much to snake at this point 
<2023-02-11T17:01:49.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I don't think so.
<2023-02-11T17:01:57.000Z> _Trollcow_: But if you love me like you say you do, the first step to fixing anything is this 
<2023-02-11T17:02:02.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I don't think I'm that far off.
<2023-02-11T17:02:28.000Z> _Trollcow_: You’re far off on so many levels 
<2023-02-11T17:02:37.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’ll tell you why if you tell me what I want to know. 
<2023-02-11T17:02:47.000Z> silence@sneed.social: so correct me.
<2023-02-11T17:02:57.000Z> _Trollcow_: After you answer my question 
<2023-02-11T17:03:09.000Z> _Trollcow_: Who are you? Or at least, an indication. 
<2023-02-11T17:03:11.000Z> silence@sneed.social: nope.
<2023-02-11T17:03:19.000Z> _Trollcow_: Hint. 
<2023-02-11T17:03:22.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Why not ask the suspects?
<2023-02-11T17:03:28.000Z> _Trollcow_: They don’t know
<2023-02-11T17:03:39.000Z> _Trollcow_: why are you hesitant to tell me
<2023-02-11T17:03:42.000Z> _Trollcow_: if you claim to love me
<2023-02-11T17:03:59.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm not hesitant, i'm willfully doing this.
<2023-02-11T17:04:05.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why
<2023-02-11T17:04:14.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And if they don't know why guess them?
<2023-02-11T17:04:31.000Z> _Trollcow_: ill correct you 
<2023-02-11T17:04:47.000Z> _Trollcow_: but first, the thing I want to know is how you found me
<2023-02-11T17:04:52.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'll give you a hint.
<2023-02-11T17:05:01.000Z> _Trollcow_: Ok. 
<2023-02-11T17:05:06.000Z> silence@sneed.social: That way I have to come back.
<2023-02-11T17:05:08.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Fair?
<2023-02-11T17:05:20.000Z> _Trollcow_: Yes. But hint first. 
<2023-02-11T17:05:54.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Fair enough.
<2023-02-11T17:06:13.000Z> _Trollcow_: 👍
<2023-02-11T17:06:14.000Z> silence@sneed.social: hmmmmmmmm.
<2023-02-11T17:06:35.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You've never actually gotten me angry.
<2023-02-11T17:06:50.000Z> _Trollcow_: What does that mean 
<2023-02-11T17:07:54.000Z> silence@sneed.social: oh, we've met otherwise of course.
<2023-02-11T17:08:04.000Z> _Trollcow_: In real life? 
<2023-02-11T17:08:12.000Z> silence@sneed.social: briefly though tbf. 
<2023-02-11T17:08:14.000Z> silence@sneed.social: No.
<2023-02-11T17:08:28.000Z> _Trollcow_: That’s strange
<2023-02-11T17:08:40.000Z> silence@sneed.social: i know.
<2023-02-11T17:08:43.000Z> _Trollcow_: where did we meet
<2023-02-11T17:08:45.000Z> silence@sneed.social: considering im lying.
<2023-02-11T17:08:55.000Z> silence@sneed.social: it really doesn't add up.
<2023-02-11T17:09:26.000Z> _Trollcow_: Right okay so can I have a true and honest hint
<2023-02-11T17:10:12.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You're acting different today.
<2023-02-11T17:10:31.000Z> _Trollcow_: We made a deal
<2023-02-11T17:10:39.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Don't love me anymore now that you feel like I'm close?
<2023-02-11T17:10:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: alright I’m just gonna go with josh until proven otherwise 
<2023-02-11T17:11:22.000Z> _Trollcow_: That wouldn’t make me not love you
<2023-02-11T17:11:26.000Z> _Trollcow_: it just confuses me
<2023-02-11T17:11:33.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Fine, someone gave me your add and I thought you sounded interesting.
<2023-02-11T17:11:50.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Im not josh.
<2023-02-11T17:11:56.000Z> _Trollcow_: ok but how do you know all that shit about josh 
<2023-02-11T17:11:59.000Z> _Trollcow_: shit that’s not public 
<2023-02-11T17:12:28.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You'd claw my throat out in a second given the chance lol.
<2023-02-11T17:12:36.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why?
<2023-02-11T17:12:49.000Z> _Trollcow_: Why would I 
<2023-02-11T17:13:03.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Because like I said, you must hate me.
<2023-02-11T17:13:27.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And to answer the other questions, Idk I'm smart?
<2023-02-11T17:13:31.000Z> _Trollcow_: You did kind of catfish me
<2023-02-11T17:13:35.000Z> _Trollcow_: and try to ruin my lofe
<2023-02-11T17:13:38.000Z> silence@sneed.social: now correct me like you said.
<2023-02-11T17:13:38.000Z> _Trollcow_: Life
<2023-02-11T17:13:40.000Z> silence@sneed.social: No.
<2023-02-11T17:13:48.000Z> silence@sneed.social: no i didn't.
<2023-02-11T17:13:52.000Z> _Trollcow_: i love you but put it this way, you have a lot of fixing to do.
<2023-02-11T17:14:12.000Z> silence@sneed.social: So you admit you'd try and get me if you could?
<2023-02-11T17:14:52.000Z> _Trollcow_: No. I’d try to date you lol
<2023-02-11T17:14:53.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Now correct me like you said.
<2023-02-11T17:15:07.000Z> _Trollcow_: Ok.
<2023-02-11T17:15:10.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Lol, even scarier. 
<2023-02-11T17:15:13.000Z> _Trollcow_: this will be a long one
<2023-02-11T17:15:14.000Z> _Trollcow_: hang on
<2023-02-11T17:15:28.000Z> silence@sneed.social: ok, I've got time.
<2023-02-11T17:15:54.000Z> _Trollcow_: Can you resend it because it’s not letting me scroll up lol
<2023-02-11T17:16:09.000Z> _Trollcow_: And I need to see it to reply accordingly 
<2023-02-11T17:16:33.000Z> silence@sneed.social: All three of them are people you looked up to or felt some strong affinity towards. They each tried to look after you and showed some level of care you suspect wouldn't have otherwise been shown. When you weren't able to communicate something to each of them it lead to compounding issues. You went on the tried to be heard or seen or understood so fucking bad. You hated them for not getting it. Then you made trouble for each one. You wanted them to know how you felt, and one after the other they smacked you back down.11:58And instead of continuing the fight, they just left you alone. Again. 11:58And you hate being alone.11:59And you hate that you are incapable of making them come back, they do as they please.
<2023-02-11T17:16:55.000Z> silence@sneed.social: why can't you scroll up?
<2023-02-11T17:17:25.000Z> _Trollcow_: Idk a glitch? 
<2023-02-11T17:17:28.000Z> _Trollcow_: Ok let me reply 
<2023-02-11T17:18:55.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I don't believe you but ok.
<2023-02-11T17:19:35.000Z> _Trollcow_: Part 1 I actually don’t really look up to anyone. I see aspects in people that I think are positive and I strive to obtain them. Rather than being jealous or admirable, I see these qualities as things to improve in myself. I didn’t have a particularly strong affinity to either, apart from simply friendship. 
<2023-02-11T17:19:43.000Z> _Trollcow_: Part 2 
<2023-02-11T17:19:47.000Z> _Trollcow_: hang on
<2023-02-11T17:20:12.000Z> silence@sneed.social: friendship isn't a strong affinity? 
<2023-02-11T17:21:44.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And what you described is a way of saying "looked up" to. God you are so insecure. The need to never admit someone else is a better at something. 
<2023-02-11T17:21:55.000Z> _Trollcow_: Part 2 . They may have tried to look after me when I was useful to them, when I placated them or when they saw a use for me. I believe their efforts were mostly entirely shallow. This isn’t paranoia or insecurity, it’s going off of actions. They may have shown care at first, but I believe this came with conditions, however flattering it may have been. 
<2023-02-11T17:22:00.000Z> _Trollcow_: Part 3.
<2023-02-11T17:22:10.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Also, you said you were never any of their friend.
<2023-02-11T17:22:50.000Z> silence@sneed.social: "when I placated them or when they saw a use for me. I believe their efforts were mostly entirely shallow. This isn’t paranoia or insecurity, it’s going off of actions."
<2023-02-11T17:22:54.000Z> silence@sneed.social: explain.
<2023-02-11T17:23:11.000Z> _Trollcow_: It is true that I struggle with communication, but this is with everybody. I believe the issues with spooky and zombo were the same as they mostly are with people, herd mentality. I didn’t hate them for not getting it, I hated them for not even trying. 
<2023-02-11T17:23:13.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Now I'm starting to understand you. I like.
<2023-02-11T17:23:18.000Z> _Trollcow_: Part 4
<2023-02-11T17:25:25.000Z> _Trollcow_: Part 4 you’re forgetting that I made trouble for them after each of them did something vile. Spooky, for no reason, branded me as a faildoxer, bought a URL with my name and redirected it to my LCF thread, and spread constant lies about me in an attempt to suck up to the LCF owner. Zombo hung out with people who quite literally sexually harassed me constantly, and would fail to stand up for me in a meaningful way. He falsely accused multiple of my friends of being pedophiles with Plate Gang out of just purely disliking them, and he made jokes about revenge porn of me. 
<2023-02-11T17:25:31.000Z> _Trollcow_: Part 5
<2023-02-11T17:26:14.000Z> silence@sneed.social: and what had you ever done to earn their loyalty elaine? 
<2023-02-11T17:27:27.000Z> silence@sneed.social: why did spooky buy that? why did he attack your friends and not stand up for you? why did josh not cut you free sooner and let you twist in the wind?
<2023-02-11T17:27:43.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Why can't you even be honest with me I guess.
<2023-02-11T17:28:07.000Z> _Trollcow_: I would never ever cause someone trouble just cos “ouch they don’t understand me”. I’m not a faggot and I don’t run off of emotions. I run off of principals. 3 things matter in friendship. Loyalty (standing up for me, not chilling with people who do disgusting things to me, not playing to crowds who hate me), Consistency (not switching up 24/7, flying off the handle about minuscule things, having BPD meltdowns or literally creating issues out of thin air just for an excuse to sperg), Fair Trade (personal army request for personal army request. But also, if the request is small and low risk, not expecting something in return.)
<2023-02-11T17:28:20.000Z> _Trollcow_: These principals were violated. That’s why I acted. 
<2023-02-11T17:28:23.000Z> _Trollcow_: Part 6
<2023-02-11T17:28:41.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I mean, if anyone would understand doing something that hurt someone you cared about, it would be me, justified or no.
<2023-02-11T17:29:35.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Come on, be honest with me at least. You were a bit shit to them.
<2023-02-11T17:30:20.000Z> _Trollcow_: I wanted them to know how I felt only because I believe they’d understand the situation better and behave less retarded. LOL. They barely smacked me down. I doxed Zombo and leaked Spooky’s dick pics, phone number and old drug website profile. That’s my other issue with these people and herd mentality. They will literally try to paint it like they smacked me down and I took an L when they quite literally got felted and can’t handle it. I don’t even want credit, I just don’t want delusion.  
<2023-02-11T17:30:20.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You treated me well, and I came back for you. When you finally get me and have your turn, I'll still be around for you.
<2023-02-11T17:30:25.000Z> _Trollcow_: Part 7
<2023-02-11T17:31:00.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You know I have both their doxes right? well mostly.
<2023-02-11T17:31:06.000Z> _Trollcow_: They continued the fight until they got scared off. They only stopped because they realized they had flown too close to the sun. They were relentless until their shit started getting leaked. 
<2023-02-11T17:31:12.000Z> _Trollcow_: Part 8
<2023-02-11T17:31:15.000Z> silence@sneed.social: No you didn't. and no you didn't.
<2023-02-11T17:31:27.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Lol
<2023-02-11T17:31:57.000Z> silence@sneed.social: you know im still impressed by you right?
<2023-02-11T17:32:05.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I don't think less of you.
<2023-02-11T17:32:15.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You know that right?
<2023-02-11T17:33:02.000Z> _Trollcow_: I don’t like being alone but I’d take being alone over being with the wrong people. I’m not desperate. I don’t actually hate the fact they can’t come back because I don’t know if I’d want them to. They were bad friends and snakes. I don’t want to control them or placate them to come back, if people don’t want to be at my table, then they aren’t the types I’d invite to it anyway. Im serious. That’s not a “they rejected me but I hated them anyway” that’s a “the types of people that I want to be around, are people who wouldn’t fuck off or people I’d have to grovel to.”
<2023-02-11T17:33:08.000Z> _Trollcow_: Part 9
<2023-02-11T17:33:52.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You know that right?
<2023-02-11T17:34:38.000Z> _Trollcow_: I don’t like losing people much, but some losses are beneficial. I rarely fight people leaving. I don’t fear abandonment in general. There’s very few people I hold close to my heart and I don’t see most of them leaving anyway. Hence why I chose them. 
<2023-02-11T17:34:42.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’m done. 
<2023-02-11T17:35:57.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I'm going to say three things.
<2023-02-11T17:36:12.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 1. cope. I hit a nerve. 
<2023-02-11T17:37:02.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 2. you are raging right now, a real wildfire ❤️ 
<2023-02-11T17:37:36.000Z> _Trollcow_: No I’m genuinely calm , I just feel like you’ve got me so wrong and that’s kinda disappointing 
<2023-02-11T17:37:48.000Z> _Trollcow_: I thought you were smart. And understood me :/
<2023-02-11T17:38:13.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 3. You miss your friends like I miss mine. It's ok.
<2023-02-11T17:38:48.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I do understand. I'm also having fun.
<2023-02-11T17:38:57.000Z> _Trollcow_: So who’s dick pic was that 
<2023-02-11T17:39:13.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Don't know.
<2023-02-11T17:39:19.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Who's was it?
<2023-02-11T17:39:43.000Z> _Trollcow_: Let me reply to each thing you said
<2023-02-11T17:39:55.000Z> silence@sneed.social: No.
<2023-02-11T17:40:12.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ friendship isn't a strong affinity? ” it is but not what came to mind? I thought you meant more like family 
<2023-02-11T17:40:26.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I do have to thank you though.
<2023-02-11T17:40:42.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Oh, i'll wait. Please continue. 
<2023-02-11T17:40:48.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ And what you described is a way of saying "looked up" to. God you are so insecure. The need to never admit someone else is a better at something. ” admiring aspects of people doesn’t mean I look up to them as a whole. Don’t be a tard lol 
<2023-02-11T17:41:09.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ Also, you said you were never any of their friend.” I was until I realized it wasn’t reciprocated.
<2023-02-11T17:41:59.000Z> silence@sneed.social: you are looking up to them in that dimension of themselves. You are in a fighting mood today.
<2023-02-11T17:43:07.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ "when I placated them or when they saw a use for me. I believe their efforts were mostly entirely shallow. This isn’t paranoia or insecurity, it’s going off of actions. Explain.” I was used as a personal army, or for connections. Sometimes just because im cute. Them and others i felt only really saw me when I was doxing people or releasing info. That’s when I was most popular. Each time I dunk info, hack or dox.  For two minutes I’m the most popular girl alive, then it all goes back to normal and they go back to making herd mentality piss jokes at me.
<2023-02-11T17:43:53.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Lol
<2023-02-11T17:44:07.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ and what had you ever done to earn their loyalty elaine? ” I doxed SevenEightNine for fucking with spookys friend Shannon. Seven posted revenge porn of her so I doxed Seven. I had multiple people shout out onion farms because I knew it would make zombo happy. 
<2023-02-11T17:44:15.000Z> silence@sneed.social: you hate ever having to admit you are a shit friend or selfish.
<2023-02-11T17:44:25.000Z> silence@sneed.social: But i love it about you.
<2023-02-11T17:44:40.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ Come on, be honest with me at least. You were a bit shit to them.” I never start the fight either. 
<2023-02-11T17:44:39.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You save it all for me.
<2023-02-11T17:45:29.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Do you speak about me to other people the way you do other people to me?
<2023-02-11T17:45:50.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ You treated me well, and I came back for you. When you finally get me and have your turn, I'll still be around for you.” what do you mean? Did I really? Honestly. You were the first person I truly tried with. First person I felt empathy for. You made me feel like I didn’t have ASPD. That’s why I felt so mad at myself for anything getting out, because I tried so hard. But what do you mean when I get you and have your turn?
<2023-02-11T17:46:05.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ You know I have both their doxes right? well mostly.” I have zombo but only a lil bit on spooky
<2023-02-11T17:46:19.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Also, you got ralph to read off the revenge thread to throw salt in the wound. It was brutal and tactical, and i respect it.
<2023-02-11T17:46:20.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ you know im still impressed by you right?” why?
<2023-02-11T17:46:53.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ I do have to thank you though.” why?
<2023-02-11T17:47:11.000Z> silence@sneed.social: what do you mean? Did I really? Honestly. You were the first person I truly tried with. First person I felt empathy for. You made me feel like I didn’t have ASPD. That’s why I felt so mad at myself for anything getting out, because I tried so hard. But what do you mean when I get you and have your turn I don't believe you won't try and hurt me. to feel even.
<2023-02-11T17:47:30.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And even when you do, you'll still be mine.
<2023-02-11T17:47:41.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And i'll stay around.
<2023-02-11T17:47:43.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ Do you speak about me to other people the way you do other people to me?” how would I if I don’t know who you are
<2023-02-11T17:47:59.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ Also, you got ralph to read off the revenge thread to throw salt in the wound. It was brutal and tactical, and i respect it.” did it hurt? 
<2023-02-11T17:48:24.000Z> silence@sneed.social: "“ you know im still impressed by you right?” why?" because even if you can't win you'd fight the world.
<2023-02-11T17:48:55.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ And even when you do, you'll still be mine.” why
<2023-02-11T17:49:01.000Z> _Trollcow_: “ And i'll stay around.” why
<2023-02-11T17:49:22.000Z> silence@sneed.social: “ You know I have both their doxes right? well mostly.” I have zombo but only a lil bit on spooky" Tell me Gage's last name and I'll give you a spooky suprise. 
<2023-02-11T17:49:38.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 👽 
<2023-02-11T17:49:51.000Z> _Trollcow_: Gage???
<2023-02-11T17:50:03.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Do you speak about me to other people the way you do other people to me?” how would I if I don’t know who you are so you do?
<2023-02-11T17:50:18.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Also, you got ralph to read off the revenge thread to throw salt in the wound. It was brutal and tactical, and i respect it.” did it hurt? not even a bit
<2023-02-11T17:50:18.000Z> _Trollcow_: I speak about josh 
<2023-02-11T17:51:07.000Z> silence@sneed.social: "“ And even when you do, you'll still be mine.” why" If it told you even through all your lies and cover I love the fire would you get it?
<2023-02-11T17:51:31.000Z> _Trollcow_: I love you. 
<2023-02-11T17:51:35.000Z> silence@sneed.social: "Gage???" Oh I thought you had his dox? my mistake.
<2023-02-11T17:52:02.000Z> silence@sneed.social: “ And i'll stay around.” why idk
<2023-02-11T17:52:03.000Z> _Trollcow_: Whether Josh or not, you’re kinda perfect. 
<2023-02-11T17:52:07.000Z> silence@sneed.social: because i will.
<2023-02-11T17:52:40.000Z> _Trollcow_: Damn bruh imagine explaining our relationship to people..? 
<2023-02-11T17:52:44.000Z> _Trollcow_: LMAO
<2023-02-11T17:53:13.000Z> _Trollcow_: “So uhh he catfished me so I ruined several people’s lives and then cried in his DMs and he analysed my personality”
<2023-02-11T17:54:43.000Z> _Trollcow_: Plz add my discord. If you’re planning to stay anyway 
<2023-02-11T17:54:54.000Z> _Trollcow_: Enkryption#8498
<2023-02-11T17:57:36.000Z> _Trollcow_: And don’t disappear again 
<2023-02-11T17:58:13.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Lol you love me unless I'm one of the three you think I am
<2023-02-11T17:58:21.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Then you hate me
<2023-02-11T17:58:40.000Z> silence@sneed.social: But you think I'm like them enough I could be them
<2023-02-11T17:59:03.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 🤖 
<2023-02-11T17:59:17.000Z> _Trollcow_: Even if you are one of them, I’ll still love you.
<2023-02-11T17:59:38.000Z> _Trollcow_: But I wanna know now. If you’re serious 
<2023-02-11T17:59:46.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Lol I'm not 
<2023-02-11T17:59:53.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Not one of them 
<2023-02-11T18:00:25.000Z> _Trollcow_: Are you someone I’ve heard of
<2023-02-11T18:00:38.000Z> _Trollcow_: Is Odili correct 
<2023-02-11T18:00:00.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Serious about what 
<2023-02-11T18:01:09.000Z> silence@sneed.social: This is my little trollcow, I bullied and broke and saw her 
<2023-02-11T18:01:18.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Her milks pure venom
<2023-02-11T18:01:37.000Z> _Trollcow_: I hate that I’m obsessed with you 
<2023-02-11T18:01:40.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Thinks she can fixe
<2023-02-11T18:01:56.000Z> silence@sneed.social: *me
<2023-02-11T18:02:14.000Z> _Trollcow_: I can fix you >.<
<2023-02-11T18:02:40.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I can ruin you 
<2023-02-11T18:03:09.000Z> _Trollcow_: Would it be hot
<2023-02-11T18:03:42.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Also is encryption the account you use?
<2023-02-11T18:03:52.000Z> _Trollcow_: Yes
<2023-02-11T18:03:52.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Not the new trollcow one
<2023-02-11T18:04:15.000Z> _Trollcow_: That’s just a public one 
<2023-02-11T18:04:25.000Z> _Trollcow_: For the general public 
<2023-02-11T18:04:31.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Wondering how I knew that?
<2023-02-11T18:04:42.000Z> _Trollcow_: Yes
<2023-02-11T18:04:58.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Also. "Hot"? You're asexual 
<2023-02-11T18:05:21.000Z> silence@sneed.social: You have what 8 now?
<2023-02-11T18:05:27.000Z> _Trollcow_: Not 4 u
<2023-02-11T18:06:11.000Z> silence@sneed.social: "public one" lol
<2023-02-11T18:06:13.000Z> _Trollcow_: Gage what 
<2023-02-11T18:06:58.000Z> silence@sneed.social: But sex isn't based
<2023-02-11T18:07:13.000Z> silence@sneed.social: What do you mean gage what?
<2023-02-11T18:07:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: Spooky gage 
<2023-02-11T18:07:59.000Z> silence@sneed.social: That's not spooky 
<2023-02-11T18:08:03.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Moron 
<2023-02-11T18:08:17.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I need to teach you so much
<2023-02-11T18:08:19.000Z> _Trollcow_: Who’s gage 
<2023-02-11T18:08:39.000Z> _Trollcow_: Teach me then. Add me
<2023-02-11T18:08:43.000Z> silence@sneed.social: 👽 
<2023-02-11T18:08:52.000Z> silence@sneed.social: There were two options 
<2023-02-11T18:08:59.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I said it's not one.
<2023-02-11T18:09:08.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Do the math 
<2023-02-11T18:09:12.000Z> _Trollcow_: What ? 
<2023-02-11T18:09:23.000Z> _Trollcow_: What do you mean 
<2023-02-11T18:09:39.000Z> _Trollcow_: Be clear 
<2023-02-11T18:11:13.000Z> _Trollcow_: Add either 
<2023-02-11T18:13:06.000Z> _Trollcow_: So I can fix u
<2023-02-11T18:13:09.000Z> _Trollcow_: UwU
<2023-02-11T18:14:56.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I mean if there were that's not spookys name. The other one dear.
<2023-02-11T18:15:18.000Z> silence@sneed.social: And what one should I add?
<2023-02-11T18:18:56.000Z> _Trollcow_: Encryption 
<2023-02-11T18:19:08.000Z> _Trollcow_: Add encryption  
<2023-02-11T18:19:12.000Z> silence@sneed.social: I want both
<2023-02-11T18:19:27.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Please?
<2023-02-11T18:19:31.000Z> _Trollcow_: Then add both
<2023-02-11T18:19:43.000Z> _Trollcow_: Yes you can 
<2023-02-11T18:19:48.000Z> silence@sneed.social: Really I just wanted to see if you'd say yes
<2023-02-11T18:20:19.000Z> _Trollcow_: Psycho 