<2022-09-05T21:51:31.000Z> Leo_: Heya, I really appreciated your response to my post. I will admit there are parts of me that read some parts of your story and thought "This doesnt sound right" but I concede in that I am biased towards liking the site, I think it gets ttacked for bullshit from so many angles that my default is "this is a lie" but considering I have never heard of you, youre not some e-celeb and I got a weird gut feeling, while I have my skepticism, I am curious if you would be willing to point me in the direction to your thread or further evidence?
<2022-09-05T21:52:01.000Z> Leo_: Please dont take this as me trying to pry or press, you have every right to no respond to me and I dont mean to sound like I am at all trying to "own" you
<2022-09-05T21:53:21.000Z> Leo_: Its a genuine curiosity I guess,  also I wanted to ask here because it felt like asking publicly would be a bit much. 
<2022-09-05T21:53:57.000Z> _Trollcow_: I haven’t slept for a while, so I will certainly respond in a few hours, when you say “gut feeling” do elaborate. Those are important.
<2022-09-05T21:55:32.000Z> Leo_: Honestly? its weird. I have a hard time articulating myself sometimes without using too many words. Maybe its because with all the blitz right now, your story would of been dug out and brought up alot by detractors of the forum? I fixate on things alot. 
<2022-09-05T21:56:42.000Z> _Trollcow_: Actually, it wasn’t. I made sure it didn’t get out 
<2022-09-05T21:57:05.000Z> Leo_: Maybe I am just a fool I will admit. but something tells me you are being real.
<2022-09-05T21:57:44.000Z> Leo_: Im trying to find words to articulate it better but I really cant, sorry if its not satisfactory.
<2022-09-05T21:59:48.000Z> Leo_: I like how you format your posts alot. even if its "weekly sperging" its something I enjoy reading, I know I have done it before myself anyway. Something about it comes off as genuine to me.
<2022-09-05T21:59:57.000Z> Leo_: Ill let you rest for now, but thank you for your time.
<2022-09-06T18:52:39.000Z> _Trollcow_: Hello 
<2022-09-06T18:54:41.000Z> _Trollcow_: Before I explain anything, I’d like you to read my thread.
<2022-09-06T22:40:36.000Z> _Trollcow_: Actually, if you want I can explain now, but waiting for you to be online. 
<2022-09-06T22:53:26.000Z> Leo_: Just to be sure, Im assuming your thread is Elaine April Gertler-Miller ?
<2022-09-06T22:53:49.000Z> Leo_: Because like I said (or if I failed to I apologize) I have never heard of you.
<2022-09-06T23:29:40.000Z> _Trollcow_: Yes that’s the one!
<2022-09-06T23:30:02.000Z> _Trollcow_: Also, let me direct you to my most recent post, then I will explain my story. poa.st/notice/ANIq3nt5jywwojvqvQ
<2022-09-06T23:37:16.000Z> Leo_: The site takes forever to load but I am slowly reading through it. Ill let you know when I am done for sure. 
<2022-09-06T23:40:25.000Z> _Trollcow_: Perf, pages 63 to 139 most important 
<2022-09-06T23:41:11.000Z> Leo_: I wont make any comments till I am done though, its alot to go through
<2022-09-07T00:28:34.000Z> _Trollcow_: Perfect 
<2022-09-07T01:20:16.000Z> Leo_: Il be 100%, I had to step away to deal with an issue and I am just now getting to the video and such
<2022-09-07T01:20:20.000Z> Leo_: + Tor keeps timing out
<2022-09-07T01:20:26.000Z> Leo_: Im still reserving comments
<2022-09-07T01:22:17.000Z> _Trollcow_: Coolio, lmk when done 
<2022-09-07T01:54:45.000Z> Leo_: Ok so I read the thread
<2022-09-07T01:54:54.000Z> Leo_: And I am going to be frank
<2022-09-07T01:55:09.000Z> Leo_: Part of me regrets reaching out
<2022-09-07T01:55:20.000Z> Leo_: Because if I had known the history I would of stayed away
<2022-09-07T01:55:50.000Z> Leo_: BUT I admit, you seem like an articulate person in your points against the forum. 
<2022-09-07T01:57:03.000Z> Leo_: I dont know the whole deep lore of the different cow groups, I dont engage with that shit because last time I even tried to get "into" all of this, I let it eat up way more time than any of its worth
<2022-09-07T01:57:39.000Z> Leo_: You dont *seem* openly malicious, I think my gut was telling me there are some interesting points of view you could have.
<2022-09-07T02:01:05.000Z> Leo_: Youll have a hard time convincing me of the shops and the video, but thats not even that big a deal to me.
<2022-09-07T02:01:29.000Z> Leo_: I mean, I know they are to you, and I dont mean to put you down.
<2022-09-07T02:02:01.000Z> Leo_: But this just seems like a case where you had multiple points to stop and you just didnt
<2022-09-07T02:02:14.000Z> _Trollcow_: So, what would you like to know? Reputation is so deceiving. It’s a shame we’ve let it control us so much. 
<2022-09-07T02:02:42.000Z> Leo_: I guess the best thing I could start with would be this
<2022-09-07T02:02:52.000Z> Leo_: Are you still in these groups?
<2022-09-07T02:02:58.000Z> Leo_: like these discords and shit?
<2022-09-07T02:03:05.000Z> Leo_: It seems like more trouble than its worth
<2022-09-07T02:05:06.000Z> _Trollcow_: Well. I lied to protect someone. I’m pretty sure I know who was responsible, and it wasn’t anyone from my servers. 
<2022-09-07T02:05:59.000Z> Leo_: Thing is, being as objective as possible. I know the truth isnt something Im gonna get.
<2022-09-07T02:06:04.000Z> Leo_: Like
<2022-09-07T02:06:22.000Z> Leo_: What I mean is I cant tell if youre lieing or not, and assuming you are not, its in your best interest to not tell me
<2022-09-07T02:06:41.000Z> Leo_: So assuming you arnt lieing, what urges you to keep the names?
<2022-09-07T02:07:05.000Z> Leo_: Nothing stops you from burning all of your names online, going dark for awhile, and just starting again
<2022-09-07T02:07:22.000Z> Leo_: But just staying as far away from this sector as possible
<2022-09-07T02:12:47.000Z> Leo_: For what its worth, Ill take it on good faith you arnt mad over the ban what have you, mostly because wether or not you are, while relevant to your perspective, is largely irrelevant to me.
<2022-09-07T02:24:50.000Z> _Trollcow_: What urges me to keep the names is the fact that the person responsible is extremely mentally unwell, the other thing is, revealing this person’s name would draw such huge attention to us that it would make everything much worse.
<2022-09-07T02:25:34.000Z> _Trollcow_: I worry they’d kill themselves over this
<2022-09-07T02:54:21.000Z> Leo_: Why not just, silently go dark then
<2022-09-07T02:54:29.000Z> Leo_: Leave your accounts up but just
<2022-09-07T02:54:33.000Z> Leo_: slowly back away from it all
<2022-09-07T02:54:46.000Z> Leo_: Or do you think that would just delay the inevitable?
<2022-09-07T03:30:06.000Z> _Trollcow_: I believe that that is complete submission. I won’t give up my liberty that fast. 
<2022-09-07T03:45:19.000Z> Leo_: Well, while I will admit I am still skeptical
<2022-09-07T03:45:38.000Z> Leo_: And I dont really know what I could ask or what you could show me that could majorly sway me
<2022-09-07T03:45:59.000Z> Leo_: I will at least say that, I admire your principles and respect you for upholding them.
<2022-09-07T03:46:45.000Z> Leo_: I know personally how hard that is at times.
<2022-09-07T03:47:55.000Z> _Trollcow_: I’m surprised no one figured it out yet. What happened to me.
<2022-09-07T03:48:35.000Z> Leo_: I mean, as a complete outsider there is alot of shit to wade through
<2022-09-07T03:48:56.000Z> Leo_: Alot of shit that admittedly, isnt particularly easy to follow
<2022-09-07T03:49:23.000Z> Leo_: So that leaves a minority of people who follow the situation
<2022-09-07T03:49:59.000Z> Leo_: And if most of them get their information from the forum, and they read those posts, its not a good look.
<2022-09-07T03:50:26.000Z> Leo_: Ill commend you for at leas acknowledging you could of handled alot of it better
<2022-09-07T03:52:44.000Z> Leo_: Sorry if my conclusion isnt satisfactory but I get the feeling that you dont care if one rando is convinced 100% or not, not so much in a hostile way but in a way that it ultimately doesnt matter.
<2022-09-07T03:53:21.000Z> Leo_: I wish you well