<2022-09-16T06:19:04.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I know this is out of the clear blue sky but you're clearly intelligent and have experience with them so I wanted to ask does this drama between kiwifarms and the old guard of poast surprise you at all or did you expect it based on what you know of how they operate. I don't really care, I just have an insatiable curiosity and I like talking to interesting people. It's one of my quirks. Nice to meet you by the way. 
<2022-09-16T06:45:13.000Z> _Trollcow_: Thank you aha,
<2022-09-16T06:45:19.000Z> _Trollcow_: alright one moment 
<2022-09-16T06:45:35.000Z> _Trollcow_: Does it surprise me?
<2022-09-16T06:45:40.000Z> _Trollcow_: yes and no. 
<2022-09-16T06:46:06.000Z> _Trollcow_: on the one hand, Josh & KF hate anime, degeneracy and all the shit Poast stands for
<2022-09-16T06:46:38.000Z> _Trollcow_: but, with Josh, all that flies out the window if the anime degenerate site allows him to exist without being banned 
<2022-09-16T06:46:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: and if the popular people follow him
<2022-09-16T06:48:05.000Z> _Trollcow_: Josh is pretty nihilistic, his morals are a public front, if you observe him in situations where the so called morally degenerate or reprehensible people give him what he wants, like a platform or services, he’ll drop the act. 
<2022-09-16T15:40:19.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Fascinating.  Let me switch to my pc to articulate this properly while avoiding typos.
<2022-09-16T15:56:54.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: So if I am understanding this correctly He is a nihilist who created kiwifarms as some sort of nihilistic paradise that he would own and somehow also not be responsible for. 
<2022-09-16T15:57:44.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: "I want my cake and to eat it to, what could go wrong"
<2022-09-16T15:58:33.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Occam's Razor, Josh. You give people that much freedom and the outcome is obvious.
<2022-09-16T15:59:11.000Z> _Trollcow_: Exactly. josh only wants absolute freedom if he’s the owner of it
<2022-09-16T15:59:48.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: How's that working for him LOL
<2022-09-16T16:00:13.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: He's the new Daily Stormer
<2022-09-16T16:00:45.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Persona Non Grata.
<2022-09-16T16:03:21.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: That was enlightening. It's fun talking to you. Thank you.
<2022-09-16T16:13:36.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: If you ever want to talk about anything at all feel free to shoot me a message. I'll be in touch.
<2022-09-16T23:56:29.000Z> _Trollcow_: The thing with Josh, is he despises not being in control. When a narrative, a community or a person slips his fingers, suddenly, his opinions on leadership, morals and freedom change. I’m not sure if he’s desperate for power, or just, obsessed with control. 
<2022-09-16T23:56:37.000Z> _Trollcow_: And sure! Talk to me any time you want 
<2022-09-16T23:56:43.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Thank you!
<2022-09-16T23:57:15.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Being a control freak must be truly stressful. I can't imagine living like that.
<2022-09-16T23:57:44.000Z> _Trollcow_: That’s the least of his issues
<2022-09-16T23:57:53.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Yikes
<2022-09-16T23:58:04.000Z> _Trollcow_: try extreme paranoia, psychosis, ptsd, depression and anxiety, and you’ll probably get a better read on him
<2022-09-16T23:58:47.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: That makes a lot of sense when you consider he constantly seems on the run from everyone and everything
<2022-09-16T23:59:20.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: like some invisible demonic construct of his own psyche is chasing him
<2022-09-17T00:01:15.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: It actually sort of reminds me of weev
<2022-09-17T00:01:59.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: except weev's pursuers were very  real
<2022-09-17T00:02:05.000Z> _Trollcow_: The thing with Null, is he is the demon he’s running from
<2022-09-17T00:02:14.000Z> _Trollcow_: hes very much trapped in his own psyche 
<2022-09-17T00:02:50.000Z> _Trollcow_: He’s closed himself inside his own brain, and detached himself from reality 
<2022-09-17T00:03:24.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I wonder if that's a symptom or the cause.
<2022-09-17T00:03:42.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Chicken and Egg situation
<2022-09-17T00:03:42.000Z> _Trollcow_: He tells himself it’s just opsec, it’s just privacy, because it makes him feel more normal. Without KF, he loses all attachment to human life, his site is everything to him.
<2022-09-17T00:04:20.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: So he thinks he can curate his own reality. 
<2022-09-17T00:04:43.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: entirely separate from actual reality
<2022-09-17T00:05:41.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: extreme solipsism 
<2022-09-17T00:06:30.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I'm surprised it took this long to blow up in his face
<2022-09-17T00:07:07.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: The man fancies himself a God whether he knows it or not.
<2022-09-17T00:09:10.000Z> _Trollcow_: He indeed views himself that way, but he’s very well aware of how broken he is, but I suppose, he does have a certain power. Josh must not be mistaken for a fool, he is a tortured genius.
<2022-09-17T00:09:49.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I would never call him a fool. He has just flown too close to the sun.
<2022-09-17T00:10:16.000Z> _Trollcow_: Null’s intelligence is often thwarted by his defiance, and his belief that he will be untouchable if he wills it
<2022-09-17T00:10:56.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Some have to learn the hard way.
<2022-09-17T00:10:59.000Z> _Trollcow_: He’s extremely stubborn, reserved and defiant. He’d destroy himself for free speech, or whatever he believes he’s doing 
<2022-09-17T00:11:16.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Not that I think he won't try again
<2022-09-17T00:11:25.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: He seems like the type that will never stop
<2022-09-17T00:11:48.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I guess that would make him technically insane by definition
<2022-09-17T00:12:50.000Z> _Trollcow_: He’s manic and extremely sick 
<2022-09-17T00:14:13.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Extremely
<2022-09-17T00:14:27.000Z> _Trollcow_: The drug use also doesn’t help I guess 
<2022-09-17T00:14:51.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Oh that's something I haven't heard
<2022-09-17T00:15:02.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: How hard are we talking?
<2022-09-17T00:15:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: Adderall everyday for 10 years, occasionally meth/cole
<2022-09-17T00:16:02.000Z> _Trollcow_: Coke*
<2022-09-17T00:16:26.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: How old is he?
<2022-09-17T00:16:34.000Z> _Trollcow_: 29
<2022-09-17T00:17:20.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: so when his brain was still developing
<2022-09-17T00:17:39.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: and he still is
<2022-09-17T00:17:45.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: yeah that's bad
<2022-09-17T00:18:15.000Z> _Trollcow_: Yeah, when he snorts the addy, that’s when shit gets real bad. Most of the cancelled MATIs were down to overdose 
<2022-09-17T00:19:35.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I was on percocets and dilauded as a teenager I can't imagine what my mental state would be if I had continued
<2022-09-17T00:20:08.000Z> _Trollcow_: He’s a very complicated person 
<2022-09-17T00:21:19.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I now realize that.
<2022-09-17T00:21:45.000Z> _Trollcow_: A true sorcerer ✨
<2022-09-17T00:24:22.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: hmmmmm
<2022-09-17T00:26:33.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: He may turn out more like hotwheels than m00t in the end. Only time will tell.
<2022-09-17T00:31:42.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: But at least he's doing something. I've been too blackpilled.
<2022-09-17T01:12:27.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: What is with all the tradcucks coming out of the woodwork. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be remembered.
<2022-09-17T02:07:07.000Z> _Trollcow_: The trad cucks are so fucking retarded lol. It’s like fedora tipping central up in here
<2022-09-17T02:07:26.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: It's all so tiresome.
<2022-09-17T02:07:59.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I want to be successful, not average
<2022-09-17T02:12:21.000Z> _Trollcow_: Yes. So do I.
<2022-09-17T02:18:57.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I'm glad someone else understands
<2022-09-18T00:10:27.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: and like clockwork here come the Christcucks
<2022-09-18T17:12:48.000Z> _Trollcow_: WHY DO I ATTRACT THEM ALL
<2022-09-20T00:26:52.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Well you can take solace in the fact that I am not one of them.
<2022-09-20T00:27:12.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I'm just another mentally fucked terminally online incel
<2022-09-20T00:28:16.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I'm rooting for you
<2022-09-21T01:56:52.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I never understand the obsession some people have with making things up about already terrible people. As if it changes anything 
<2022-09-21T02:34:22.000Z> _Trollcow_: I despise people who spread misinformation 
<2022-09-21T02:35:07.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: They are the worst sort. Compulsive liars 
<2022-09-21T03:40:05.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: The more I learn about Josh the more torn I am about KF in general
<2022-09-21T05:59:11.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: By that I mean as a 100% free speech advocate I fully support their right to exist but at the same time, I find it hard to feel bad for what is happening to Josh.
<2022-09-21T07:16:11.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Sorry if I ramble, I tend to keep thinking about the same thing for hours on end so I have this bad habit of send multiple messages building on the same topic as new thoughts enter my brain 
<2022-09-22T06:54:09.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Bored are we?
<2022-09-22T07:04:22.000Z> _Trollcow_: YESS
<2022-09-22T07:04:40.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: It's been rather boring of late 
<2022-09-22T07:05:56.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: But then again I believe poast was down 
<2022-09-22T07:09:30.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I made a longpost about the tranny situation. Can't remember if I pinned it or not.
<2022-09-22T07:43:59.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Some days I actually wonder if I hate the internet, but I've gone past the event horizon into the void and it's too late now.
<2022-09-22T14:41:18.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: >you're the retard for posting about laughing at retards
<2022-09-22T14:42:13.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Holier than thou attitude when they are sitting in the same shithole as the rest of us.
<2022-09-22T21:43:53.000Z> _Trollcow_: Hahahahaa 
<2022-09-22T21:44:06.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Love it. Hope you get some simps
<2022-09-23T03:50:42.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Glad you got out of that cult alive. A lot of people in those situations don't...
<2022-09-23T08:33:29.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: goodnight
<2022-09-23T10:39:46.000Z> _Trollcow_: I can’t resist a logging this lolcow 
<2022-09-23T10:39:52.000Z> _Trollcow_: help me I am a terrible person 
<2022-09-23T10:39:52.000Z> _Trollcow_: lol
<2022-09-23T10:39:58.000Z> _Trollcow_: and thanks for cult comment above 
<2022-09-23T12:29:48.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: You're welcome and I am equally terrible.  So idk if I can help you.
<2022-09-23T12:31:53.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: But I can at least stare into the void with you and laugh 
<2022-09-23T12:37:30.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Here's my matrix. Code if you want to reach out.https://matrix.to/#/@goalkeeper:chat.nicecrew.digital
<2022-09-23T12:38:17.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I fucked up the spacing FUCK
<2022-09-23T12:41:06.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: https://matrix.to/#/@goalkeeper:chat.nicecrew.digital
<2022-09-23T12:41:14.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: There
<2022-09-23T14:22:04.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: And maybe stop you from falling into the aforementioned void 
<2022-09-24T14:41:04.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: fucking kiwis i stg
<2022-09-24T22:15:14.000Z> _Trollcow_: Go on 
<2022-09-24T22:17:21.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: i have a master's degree in cyber ops and intelligence and the amount of times people ask me to do shit is just ugh...
<2022-09-24T22:18:42.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: i helped hack a police station, ONCE
<2022-09-24T22:18:51.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: and we had a team of people doing it
<2022-09-24T22:19:01.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: 3 people on log management alone
<2022-09-24T22:20:19.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: the amount of processing power it takes to do anything significant nowadays isn't feasible is you aren't a legit APT.
<2022-09-24T22:34:48.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: And keep in mind my instructors were military and ambassadors that have seen what actual large organizations and states can pull off 
<2022-09-24T22:54:04.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: the spooky basement hacker is all but myth at this point
<2022-09-24T23:21:53.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: Oh yeah and the police station thing. A friend of a friend did something dumb and I owed him a favor. He needed people he could trust.
<2022-09-27T23:01:11.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: did you get any of that or is cross instance chat still fubar
<2022-10-01T22:11:51.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: I feel the weight gain struggle, people don't get it. 
<2022-10-01T22:14:04.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: >Just eat more
<2022-10-01T22:14:09.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: yeah i try
<2022-10-05T15:56:08.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: At least you tried
<2022-10-05T16:11:03.000Z> Goalkeeper@nicecrew.digital: That's more than most people would do