<2023-01-31T09:21:24.000Z> Wormwood: sorry to hear about your situation, I've just had to deal with something very similar. Christmas was tough and it doesn't seem to get better
<2023-01-31T09:28:23.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Thanks..
<2023-01-31T09:51:31.000Z> Wormwood: hope you're not a fed
<2023-01-31T09:53:24.000Z> Wormwood: anyway I think the best way to get over it is to just get out and do something different. meet new people. I'm trying to do that right now by getting a job, but the economy here is in shambles, and I've been told I'm too white to work in some places. Just have to keep tying and praying
<2023-02-01T15:11:48.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh, sorry I didn't notice you had messaged me.But yeah.. my problem is I'm very introverted, socially inept and rarely leave home. Been like that for a long time. Which is why it's so impacting, because I know it's almost impossible to for me to find a new one.
<2023-02-02T03:55:21.000Z> Wormwood: Ah I see, that's got to be especially hard, I know this sort of thing from my own experience- being trapped inside makes it worse. Being alone with my thoughts just causes a cycle of pain. Is there a part time job you could get? maybe that would help. Getting out and getting fresh air and meeting new friends will help you feel better. I don't know if your job market is as bad as it is here.
<2023-02-02T04:05:54.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well I'm kinda trying to find something small to do outside home. I have never been in a proper job, just couple small places, because I wasn't born as healthy individual.
<2023-02-02T04:15:03.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Also didn't think I would ever end up talking to you like this. Seen your comics here and there throught out couple years.
<2023-02-02T06:44:02.000Z> Wormwood: yea I like to be accessible to people who read my stuff. Not too much I usually respond to people who message me if they're not retarded. I saw what you posted and it reminded me of my own situation. I was lucky to internet friends comfort me. Life is hard for us internet weirdos.
<2023-02-02T06:44:30.000Z> Wormwood: you do art?
<2023-02-02T06:46:24.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeah, some. Haven't properly drawn for few years, so my level has stagnated. I can show some when I get to my computer.
<2023-02-02T06:50:41.000Z> Wormwood: that's cool. I feel like I'm kinda locked into doing comic stuff, but that's ok I like doing it
<2023-02-02T07:00:33.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Colourful dog creatures have stayed with me since childhood. Those are my favorite to do. https://chudbuds.lol/media/d5e56598-a9e9-4da6-9051-da45e425d2ad/maalaus-02-10.06.2021-pieni.jpg
<2023-02-02T07:02:54.000Z> Wormwood: I love it
<2023-02-02T07:03:22.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Thanks
<2023-02-02T07:03:26.000Z> Wormwood: and it's real paint too. Hardly anyone does that anymore
<2023-02-02T07:04:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: This was a prompt of two unrelated things combined into one. Bananacat. https://chudbuds.lol/media/a67f67fd-b929-4b4b-be28-55035a1f88e3/bananacat-1.jpg
<2023-02-02T07:04:53.000Z> Wormwood: lol hey that's really good
<2023-02-02T07:05:16.000Z> Wormwood: did you take painting classes or learn on your own?
<2023-02-02T07:05:25.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Just my own.
<2023-02-02T07:06:01.000Z> Wormwood: It looks great. I took classes and I wish I didn't, it was a waste of time
<2023-02-02T07:06:15.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw
<2023-02-02T07:06:40.000Z> Wormwood: I think learning on your own, especially these days is the way to go
<2023-02-02T07:07:38.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hm, pretty much. 
<2023-02-02T07:10:03.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I think I'm more of a crafter than artist. Have tried lot of different mediums while home. ...which is why my home looks like an art/craft store.
<2023-02-02T07:11:54.000Z> Wormwood: cool, what kind of stuff do you do?
<2023-02-02T07:13:28.000Z> Wormwood: I think my brain is too retarded to make 3d stuff
<2023-02-02T07:15:46.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I have done felt works, little resin jewellery, clay items, sewing, cards, journaling and restoring old toys.
<2023-02-02T07:21:19.000Z> Wormwood: very cute. needle felting seems to be the hot thing right now. I wish I had a cool hobby like that. Literally everything I do is on the computer, so in the real world it doesn't look like I do anything artistic at all. Been really focused on this kids book right now. I can't wait for it to be over, it's been over 6 months
<2023-02-02T07:25:00.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well majority of my time is spent at the computer, even when I do something else. Not healthy behaviour.Hope the book turns out good~
<2023-02-02T07:26:46.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Italian Cotton Candy cleaned and restored. https://chudbuds.lol/media/feeab4bb-a6af-4dc1-a644-fbb7e77a69f2/lkpony-1.jpg
<2023-02-02T07:30:38.000Z> Wormwood: woah, what a make over
<2023-02-02T07:31:09.000Z> Wormwood: thanks! I hope so too. It'll be nice to do something that earns some money for a change
<2023-02-02T07:42:36.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Our parliament just passed a new faggy troon law, so this painting I made in 2021 is even more relevant now. https://chudbuds.lol/media/213a6a81-f48b-471e-83b0-1580ace07679/sateenkaari-1.jpg
<2023-02-02T07:44:09.000Z> Wormwood: Hey that's really good. I love the eye too
<2023-02-02T07:44:33.000Z> Wormwood: do you post these online?
<2023-02-02T07:44:47.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: No, I have not.
<2023-02-02T07:45:23.000Z> Wormwood: I like this one a lot, it's very iconic
<2023-02-02T07:45:50.000Z> Wormwood: I understand, it's dangerous to do that sort of thing publicly
<2023-02-02T07:49:16.000Z> Wormwood: sometimes I wish I never got involved with this sort of thing. It's very draining. It isolates me from any real art job. I think I'd be happy to just be a normie sometimes
<2023-02-02T07:50:31.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeah. Kinda wanted to express my grievances and frustation by painting.
<2023-02-02T07:57:08.000Z> Wormwood: yea it definitely feels good to get it out. That's how I started, I was so angry with the way everything is. juji ito draws some twisted shit, but they say he's really nice in real life. It's probably healthy to draw all this stuff out, so there's an outlet you know?
<2023-02-02T07:59:19.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, true.
<2023-02-02T08:24:46.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Here's my fed junior. Her name is Momo. https://chudbuds.lol/media/a9afac72-7390-416b-903b-5f0e161d588d/bunnyfed.png
<2023-02-02T08:25:37.000Z> Wormwood: What a cutie
<2023-02-02T08:25:51.000Z> Wormwood: How old is she?
<2023-02-02T08:26:09.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Over 5 I think she was.
<2023-02-02T08:26:58.000Z> Wormwood: What are rabbits like? I've never had one as a pet
<2023-02-02T08:28:58.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well you have to bunny proof your home, that's for sure. They all have different personalities. Momo is more brave one, doesn't hide and likes to be pet.
<2023-02-02T08:29:40.000Z> Wormwood: Do they pee and poo everywhere?
<2023-02-02T08:31:57.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Depends. Males like to throw their piss around a bit, but yeh, there's always a little droppings somewhere if they can move freely, don't have their own room. They do use litter boxes.
<2023-02-02T08:33:38.000Z> Wormwood: Wow just like me. I have a cat so it's pretty straight forward. I wish I had a dog though. If I can get a place with a lot of room I'd get a big dog
<2023-02-02T08:34:21.000Z> Wormwood: I'm off to bed, I'll talk to you later
<2023-02-02T08:34:29.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Okay, night.
<2023-02-02T17:38:12.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Been working on this today. Nothing special about it. Just inhibits sadness. Though I have been feeling pretty good for a bit. Feels nice to not feel depressed for once. https://chudbuds.lol/media/1749eba1-a6c5-4809-af7a-c2cb7804b3a2/sad-1.png
<2023-02-02T19:27:45.000Z> Wormwood: I like this one a lot. It's sad but still cute
<2023-02-02T20:58:03.000Z> Wormwood: I'd show you my personal work but you wouldn't like it, it's just all female nudes lmao. I don't mind doing comic stuff, but the truth is, I really want to do longer stories. I hate that I'm limited by 3-4 panels. I'd rather do a full adventure. Soon I'll give up on doing these short jokes, I'm getting tired of them and I feel like I've already said all I can say about the current state of things
<2023-02-03T03:56:36.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Are those anatomy studies or somekind of fap material? Hehe~  I have followed Marko Raassina on twitter. He makes both short and long comics, if you are interested to see.
<2023-02-03T06:18:50.000Z> Wormwood: lol I think the female form is just the best. I did a lot of life study in school, so I just carry it on but I'm free to do whatever I want now. yea I like his work. I'm trying to get back on twitter, hopefully soon
<2023-02-03T06:36:42.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I have done little bit of comics, as a child and teen, with various characters. I have one character, or species that carried over to recent times, called Hippiäinen.
<2023-02-03T06:37:34.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Very Garfield esque comic. https://chudbuds.lol/media/e3273567-e8bc-45fd-8c46-384aba86ab8f/sarjis-3-1.png
<2023-02-03T09:00:14.000Z> Wormwood: very cute I like it
<2023-02-03T09:00:39.000Z> Wormwood: what does Hippiäinen mean?
<2023-02-03T11:48:03.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It's the species name, though a real life bird with same name exists. Doesn't mean anything in particular.
<2023-02-03T17:41:34.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: "Hello" https://chudbuds.lol/media/13e93cc3-e3da-4e66-9d20-9c1f2d9c06ab/foxford-1.png
<2023-02-03T18:24:43.000Z> Wormwood: I love it! Thanks this is great!
<2023-02-03T19:08:28.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yay~ I like giving gifts to people who help me.
<2023-02-03T19:09:05.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Or are nice in general.
<2023-02-03T19:20:15.000Z> Wormwood: I love getting art of my character its really fun to see someone else's version. I don't get a lot of it, but I always save it
<2023-02-03T19:29:11.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Have I bothered you too much? I'm always paranoid about that, lacking in social skills and all that. Or is this how friends are made?
<2023-02-03T19:31:55.000Z> Wormwood: Lol no you're fine. If I don't reply right away I'm just busy with other things, I don't mind messages at all
<2023-02-03T19:33:28.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh sure, I expect you have other things, no hurry.
<2023-02-03T19:34:14.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Mm, had nice sauna today. You ever been in sauna?
<2023-02-03T19:38:50.000Z> Wormwood: Lol never. You guys really do that? I thought I was a meme. No sauna here, I just take long showers
<2023-02-03T19:39:20.000Z> Wormwood: How do you know English so well btw?
<2023-02-03T19:41:19.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Movies and games, unless they are for really young kids, are in their original language. Movies and shows have subtitles. Schools also teach it, but I learned mostly from media.
<2023-02-03T19:44:27.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: That is so bizarre you thought sauna stuff in Finland was a meme. Every apartment building very least has a sauna you can use once a week.
<2023-02-03T20:53:09.000Z> Wormwood: Lmao that's so cool. I don't think I've ever been to one. They sound nice
<2023-02-03T20:54:18.000Z> Wormwood: Isn't it kind of weird a foreign language is so pervasive?
<2023-02-03T20:55:00.000Z> Wormwood: Do people speak in English to each other there or is it mostly Finnish?
<2023-02-03T23:36:30.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff, it's Finnish, though English nowadays is starting to get invasive and young people use lot of English words mixed in while speaking. Globalism is a destructive thing.
<2023-02-03T23:38:32.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: You are weirdly naive when it comes to foreign countries. Very American behaviour, if you are one, heh.
<2023-02-03T23:49:31.000Z> Wormwood: lmao perhaps. All I know from finland is "my summer car" and levan polka. oh yea, simo hayha. I really hate that english is so pervasive though it's kinda gross
<2023-02-03T23:50:30.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Haa, nice, the most known things. How about Moomins?
<2023-02-03T23:51:16.000Z> Wormwood: oh yea I've seen a lot of Moomin. I've never watched the show, but I see it everywhere
<2023-02-03T23:53:08.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yaas, Moomin is very Finnish thing. It's everywhere here, lot of products with Moomins on them. Tried to eat any salmiakki?
<2023-02-03T23:55:58.000Z> Wormwood: lol I had to google that. Never even heard of it. Salty licorice? I'd give it a shot. I love trying out different foods
<2023-02-03T23:56:19.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Lol, okay.
<2023-02-03T23:56:57.000Z> Wormwood: Are you the ones that have that fermented shark meat?
<2023-02-03T23:57:58.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: ...what? No.
<2023-02-03T23:58:23.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: That's Swedish
<2023-02-03T23:58:31.000Z> Wormwood: oh ok, maybe I'm thinking of somewhere else
<2023-02-03T23:58:38.000Z> Wormwood: yea sweden or iceland maybe
<2023-02-03T23:59:08.000Z> Wormwood: sounds yummy though
<2023-02-03T23:59:18.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff
<2023-02-03T23:59:28.000Z> Wormwood: lol
<2023-02-04T00:00:20.000Z> Wormwood: I'd eat any of that shit over the weird goy slop they have here. At least I know it's not full of hormones and plastics
<2023-02-04T00:05:11.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw, yeah. Our food seems to be better when I compared what American ones contained. My.. feels weird to say it now, ex-bf really liked our chicken when he visited last summer. It's higher quality than American chicken.
<2023-02-04T00:07:10.000Z> Wormwood: yea, I don't know what it is. Richest nation on earther, don't let their people have a decent meal. Tragic really
<2023-02-04T00:08:26.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well you can probably blame jews for that.
<2023-02-04T00:10:16.000Z> Wormwood: This is very true. Traditional food in America is actually really good if you can get it
<2023-02-04T00:12:56.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, yeah.
<2023-02-04T00:19:35.000Z> Wormwood: idk if I'd ever get a chance to see Finland, but if I did I'd definitely want to try out all the traditional food, the more obscure the better.
<2023-02-04T00:21:42.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw nice. I made siskonmakkarakeitto when he visited, that's a bit unusual. 
<2023-02-04T00:22:50.000Z> Wormwood: I had to look it up. woah, it looks like some kind of hot dog soup lol
<2023-02-04T00:23:08.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff, yeah.
<2023-02-04T00:30:00.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Mh, woke up at night again, it's 2:30. Though I did this a lot with my bf, messaging at night time.
<2023-02-04T00:35:26.000Z> Wormwood: many such cases. Yea my sleep schedule is fucked too. I'm hoping to fix it once I start this job, if that ever happens. This HR bitch is dragging on my paper work. It's incredible how hard it is to just work around here
<2023-02-04T00:41:46.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I got really bad depression relapse on January, which made go to sleep at 19 already. Today I went at 21. It's especially shitty he left me when I was having really bad time...
<2023-02-04T00:49:00.000Z> Wormwood: yea, it's never easy. Same here, it was right before Christmas time, the worst time. I had just been through a string of tragedies, financial problems, death etc.
<2023-02-04T00:49:33.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw
<2023-02-04T00:49:54.000Z> Wormwood: I'm lucky to have at least a few good friends, even though I'm kind of a weird internet person. Stonetoss showed up to cheer me up, so that was cool
<2023-02-04T00:50:24.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh, that's cool.
<2023-02-04T00:51:10.000Z> Wormwood: yea he's nice in real life, and he's been good about checking up on me to make sure I'm not just laying in bed all the time.
<2023-02-04T00:51:56.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: That's so nice. I don't have any friends, which is why I was in distress.
<2023-02-04T00:53:25.000Z> Wormwood: I see, yea I hope chatting with you like this helps. It helped me I think
<2023-02-04T00:55:17.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It's been nice. I have also talked a little bit with other Finnish Poast user.
<2023-02-04T00:55:53.000Z> Wormwood: lol it's funny, I didn't think poast would be popular in Finland
<2023-02-04T00:56:43.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yea, dunno why. I came from... Kiwi Farms.
<2023-02-04T00:59:15.000Z> Wormwood: lol what got you interested in kiwifarms?
<2023-02-04T01:02:06.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It was in 2016, was reading critic about Dobson's crappy art and looked him up. First read encylopedia dramatica forums and someone mentioned KF. So yeah.
<2023-02-04T01:04:50.000Z> Wormwood: lmao oh yea I remember that guy. funny stuff. I like KF but I'm always uneasy about it bc I know my dox might end up there. Maybe, maybe not. I don't think I'm that interesting or lulzy. but I do check from time to time if I get paranoid
<2023-02-04T01:08:08.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw, well I don't think you need to worry about that.
<2023-02-04T01:13:27.000Z> Wormwood: yea I think so, I'm pretty careful anyway. I like to lie a lot about myself online it's really fun
<2023-02-04T01:14:58.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Smart. I'm too honest, but I barely write anywhere, so I'm mostly hidden.
<2023-02-04T01:22:24.000Z> Wormwood: yea I figured there was already some info about me online, so I the best way to go about was "security by obscurity" that is like, if you dropped a key to a lock somewhere and can't pick it up so you drop 10,000 keys in the same place, no one will know which one is right. Something I learned when I worked for U.S. Navy's OPSEC Support Team when I lived in Bethesda Maryland after graduation
<2023-02-04T01:23:29.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ahh, okay.
<2023-02-04T01:25:16.000Z> Wormwood: yea, it's never too late to start doing it. So even if you feel like you've let too many things slip online you can always just flood contradictory things about yourself. For instance, I've never been in the Navy I just made that up
<2023-02-04T01:26:18.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Agh! lol
<2023-02-04T01:26:46.000Z> Wormwood: lmao
<2023-02-04T01:28:40.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: You have a chaotic personality, heh.
<2023-02-04T01:39:47.000Z> Wormwood: Maybe a little 
<2023-02-04T01:40:00.000Z> Wormwood: Going to get some food. Talk to ya later
<2023-02-04T02:02:57.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye, see ya. Imma sleep.
<2023-02-04T06:12:09.000Z> Wormwood: good night. I'm going to try to go to bed early too
<2023-02-04T08:29:21.000Z> Wormwood: do you like gondola?
<2023-02-04T08:29:36.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It's cute
<2023-02-04T08:29:52.000Z> Wormwood: I love him
<2023-02-04T08:30:27.000Z> Wormwood: I made this a while ago https://i.poastcdn.org/6c2fe4a4030ac83f082488d9c76f980e3e2ffda7ccc6dd8bf2f944bd8e0ed05e.gif
<2023-02-04T08:30:58.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ohh~ That's so nice.
<2023-02-04T08:31:47.000Z> Wormwood: I used to make these on patreon under a different account to get around being banned for my comics, but they caught on to me
<2023-02-04T08:32:08.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh. Well that sucks.
<2023-02-04T08:32:39.000Z> Wormwood: I liked making them though, they're fun and don't take too long to animate
<2023-02-04T08:33:02.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye, simple little things.
<2023-02-04T08:39:05.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: My little creation that shares face of Spurde/Gondola. His name is Plösö. https://chudbuds.lol/media/cf2dd7b8-09fc-4b96-a965-87ac3378b3d9/spode-6.png
<2023-02-04T08:40:30.000Z> Wormwood: Lmao that's great
<2023-02-04T08:41:32.000Z> Wormwood: lol It's my turn to sleep, I'll see ya
<2023-02-04T08:41:42.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Night!
<2023-02-04T13:52:07.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Got the painting done. https://chudbuds.lol/media/c9ac4eca-9e77-47ac-8583-f6ce26958929/sad-2.png
<2023-02-04T16:45:22.000Z> Wormwood: Looks great I love the little sparkles 
<2023-02-04T16:51:32.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Thanks~
<2023-02-04T17:06:18.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Momo is in bed with me again. After I got depressed I spent a lot of time in bed, so she started spending time with me in bed. Now she does it every night and morning.
<2023-02-04T17:12:53.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: She doesn't bother me when I'm sleeping, only when she notices I'm awake. Nice and smart lil bunny~
<2023-02-04T20:25:47.000Z> Wormwood: That's so cute. I couldn't do that with a pet, I toss and turn too much. Sometimes I wake up completely flipped around or falling out
<2023-02-05T02:02:12.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I mean she doesn't come in bed when I'm asleep, only when I'm awake. It's interesting behaviour.
<2023-02-05T15:08:47.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hm. Thought of making another painting. Maybe a Pepe?
<2023-02-05T15:32:07.000Z> Wormwood: that sounds like fun
<2023-02-05T15:32:21.000Z> Wormwood: do you use oil or acrylics?
<2023-02-05T15:32:29.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Acrylics
<2023-02-05T15:33:06.000Z> Wormwood: me too. when I did paint I mean
<2023-02-05T15:33:40.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I have gouache paints also, but haven't tried those yet.
<2023-02-05T15:42:09.000Z> Wormwood: I've been meaning to do some physical art. maybe after all this book stuff is done
<2023-02-05T15:44:12.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yaas~ Would like to see them eventually.
<2023-02-05T15:49:43.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Also managed to order Finnish version of Mein Kampf, been waiting for a new batch for a while. Only read 30 pages of English pdf version.
<2023-02-05T15:55:06.000Z> Wormwood: lmaoo nice
<2023-02-05T15:55:53.000Z> Wormwood: I've wanted an english copy, but I always see people arguing over the best translation, so I'm not sure which one to get
<2023-02-05T15:56:08.000Z> Wormwood: also I'm afraid it would put me on a watch list.
<2023-02-05T15:56:21.000Z> Wormwood: maybe I'll get it after I secure my government job
<2023-02-05T15:57:04.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff, yeah.
<2023-02-05T15:59:49.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I don't particularly care for reading books, but from what I read, it managed to keep my attention, so I think I can actually read it.
<2023-02-05T16:03:44.000Z> Wormwood: nice. yea I'm just really curious about it. I don't read much either, mostly fiction if anything
<2023-02-05T16:12:04.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: You done any traveling?
<2023-02-05T16:16:03.000Z> Wormwood: oh yea, lots. I seem to get everywhere. I don't even want to tbh. I wish I could just walk to everywhere I needed to be. It's too expensive
<2023-02-05T16:16:34.000Z> Wormwood: I have family everywhere and my ex was in europe so I'd usually be over there like twice a year
<2023-02-05T16:17:05.000Z> Wormwood: hbu?
<2023-02-05T16:18:07.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh. I have just done the usual that every Finn does, using cruise ship to go to Stockholm Sweden and Tallinn Estonia.
<2023-02-05T16:19:37.000Z> Wormwood: cool, that whole region must be beautiful
<2023-02-05T16:19:52.000Z> Wormwood: and super cold, but I imagine you're used to it
<2023-02-05T16:21:07.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Darkness is more of a problem than cold.
<2023-02-05T16:21:21.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It get so dark so early, uggh
<2023-02-05T16:23:07.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Got like 6 hours of light and then the sky is covered in cloud blanket. Fun times.
<2023-02-05T16:23:33.000Z> Wormwood: lol I'm so tired of the sun. where I am it's very hot all the time, It's a relief right now bc it's winter. The coldest it gets here is like 6c
<2023-02-05T16:24:37.000Z> Wormwood: lol I grew up in a place like that. yea the cloud blanket is very strange
<2023-02-05T16:25:01.000Z> Wormwood: I wouldn't mind it these days. I have the vitiligo now, so I avoid the sun anyway
<2023-02-05T16:26:48.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah. Currently it's -2.2C. Weather has been going back and forth between cold and warm this year.
<2023-02-05T16:30:57.000Z> Wormwood: speaking of traveling. I'm about to leave rn. I'm going to visit my brother and his family, they live pretty far
<2023-02-05T16:31:47.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Okay. See ya.
<2023-02-05T16:32:18.000Z> Wormwood: see yea, I'll have my phone but I'll probably be busy
<2023-02-05T16:34:08.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yes~
<2023-02-06T02:17:41.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Do you like yourself? I have always hated myself, which I suppose affects my relationship with other people. No idea how I could ever be happy with myself.
<2023-02-06T02:52:40.000Z> Wormwood: Hmm that's a good question. I'll have to think about it
<2023-02-06T02:53:05.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oke
<2023-02-06T02:56:24.000Z> Wormwood: I suppose there's things about myself which I don't like. I think I can always improve myself. I want to be more truthful and upfront about things.
<2023-02-06T02:58:19.000Z> Wormwood: There was a time when I hated myself but not anymore.  If God loves me, and he does, then I can't hate me
<2023-02-06T03:08:37.000Z> Wormwood: Never mind maybe I do hate myself. I'm always like "fuck that nigga, me"
<2023-02-06T03:09:35.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: lol
<2023-02-06T03:13:18.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I have a thing that cannot be cured or improved, which makes me hate myself and makes life hard in general. It's hard for me to accept myself.
<2023-02-06T03:19:23.000Z> Wormwood: What can't be cured? Bad decision making?
<2023-02-06T03:21:23.000Z> Wormwood: Oh like a medical issue
<2023-02-06T03:23:37.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: ...Autism. A high functioning, but a fucking retard nonetheless. You probably understand my whole situation now better.
<2023-02-06T03:25:33.000Z> Wormwood: Sorry, yea I think so. At least it's not uncommon I suppose. I don't understand it too well myself.
<2023-02-06T03:29:12.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I mostly lack in social department.
<2023-02-06T03:32:57.000Z> Wormwood: Well if it makes you feel any better, I didn't get the feeling you were autistic. You seem ok to me
<2023-02-06T03:33:55.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw, thanks.
<2023-02-06T03:36:06.000Z> Wormwood: Lol when I was a kid I got put into counseling and special classes. I have no idea what that was all about and at this point I'm too afraid to ask anyone
<2023-02-06T03:37:12.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe
<2023-02-06T03:39:03.000Z> Wormwood: I'm just going to pretend it didn't happen lmao 
<2023-02-06T03:46:01.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye
<2023-02-06T03:46:42.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Thank you for your understanding.
<2023-02-06T04:03:55.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: People keep memeing about tard wives, but I don't believe anyone genuinely would want or look for one. Funny meme nonetheless.
<2023-02-06T05:51:11.000Z> Wormwood: lol yea I think so too, They'll have a new fixation later on
<2023-02-07T04:46:53.000Z> Wormwood: hey I should get you in touch with my friend, hehe silly. She's an artist that's also kind of autistic. I think you guys would get along well
<2023-02-07T04:48:54.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh, that sounds nice.
<2023-02-07T04:50:41.000Z> Wormwood: she's nice. I've known her for a really long time
<2023-02-07T04:54:05.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Sounds good to me.
<2023-02-07T05:02:59.000Z> Wormwood: I sent her a message, but she's afk right now
<2023-02-07T05:03:31.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yus
<2023-02-07T07:35:32.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: 'Eyy, Pepee. He's drinking a hot cocoa. https://chudbuds.lol/media/5847cf2e-ce22-4c2a-b080-4f33dd8beafa/20230206_163731.png
<2023-02-07T07:44:05.000Z> Wormwood: he's so cute
<2023-02-07T07:44:09.000Z> Wormwood: I love it
<2023-02-07T07:44:48.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pepe is precious
<2023-02-07T07:45:46.000Z> Wormwood: I was just watching one of those pepe's journey videos
<2023-02-07T07:45:58.000Z> Wormwood: I got another idea for a comic, it's not fully baked yet but I want to go after trannies again
<2023-02-07T07:46:46.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh? Haven't seen those.Hehe, that sounds good.
<2023-02-07T07:47:19.000Z> Wormwood: yea they're just very relaxing
<2023-02-07T07:48:04.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Actually I have seen a compilation, duh.
<2023-02-07T07:49:06.000Z> Wormwood: yea Idk what it's officially called. My brother sent me one and I remembered I had seen it before too
<2023-02-07T07:49:54.000Z> Wormwood: makes me want to do more animating
<2023-02-07T07:50:24.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I have done very small and basic things.
<2023-02-07T07:50:30.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hm. Came to mind I ordered bootleg Pepe pins years ago, but those got lost. Shame.
<2023-02-07T07:50:49.000Z> Wormwood: damn
<2023-02-07T07:51:10.000Z> Wormwood: going to go to bed now see ya later
<2023-02-07T07:51:22.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye, hyvää yötä.
<2023-02-07T07:51:51.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: lol
<2023-02-07T07:52:07.000Z> Wormwood: lol I had to look it up
<2023-02-07T07:52:14.000Z> Wormwood: the language looks complicated
<2023-02-07T07:52:26.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well, it is.
<2023-02-07T07:52:28.000Z> Wormwood: but the accent marks look pretty
<2023-02-07T07:52:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe
<2023-02-07T15:50:19.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well then. That was quick. I talked a bit with Graf and he asked if I have the tisms because I play RimWorld, lol. I didn't know retards like playing that.
<2023-02-07T19:14:48.000Z> Wormwood: Lmao. I couldn't get into that. Someone gifted it too me. It's just not my thing 
<2023-02-07T22:33:54.000Z> Wormwood: So you like strategy games?
<2023-02-07T23:01:53.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Kinda yeah.
<2023-02-07T23:37:50.000Z> Wormwood: what else do you play besides Rimworld?
<2023-02-07T23:38:58.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Terraria and Stardew Valley.
<2023-02-07T23:40:21.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Beholder
<2023-02-07T23:40:32.000Z> Wormwood: cool, I've never played Terraria, but I played Stardew
<2023-02-07T23:40:44.000Z> Wormwood: who was your bf/gf?
<2023-02-07T23:41:28.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Shane, lol.
<2023-02-07T23:42:02.000Z> Wormwood: the alcoholic? lol
<2023-02-07T23:42:55.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: But I rescue him from miserable existence, it's cute.
<2023-02-07T23:43:17.000Z> Wormwood: I never beat the game. I kinda went super hard on it for a while (bad idea bc I always burn out on things quickly) so I haven't picked it up in months
<2023-02-07T23:44:24.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah
<2023-02-07T23:44:59.000Z> Wormwood: I couldn't decide on a gf. I liked Abigale, Penny and Leah but stopped playing before I picked one
<2023-02-07T23:45:48.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Go with penny, she's cute.
<2023-02-07T23:46:43.000Z> Wormwood: She's the cutest one. I'll probably pick it up again later
<2023-02-07T23:47:27.000Z> Wormwood: I've been playing a lot of sea of thieves lately bc it's something I can do with friends. They all live far away so I can never interact with them
<2023-02-07T23:47:46.000Z> Wormwood: Cheaters have gotten really bad lately though
<2023-02-07T23:47:56.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw
<2023-02-07T23:52:52.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Graf's been very persistent with his messaging, it's making me little uncomfortable.
<2023-02-07T23:54:03.000Z> Wormwood: strange
<2023-02-07T23:54:40.000Z> Wormwood: He told me he just broke up with his gf from Finland a few days ago
<2023-02-07T23:55:22.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh.
<2023-02-07T23:55:37.000Z> Wormwood: I'd just ignore him
<2023-02-07T23:55:46.000Z> Wormwood: It's a good thing you're not on poast anymore
<2023-02-07T23:56:11.000Z> Wormwood: I want to like him, but he keeps doing weird shit and starting fights with people I know
<2023-02-07T23:59:35.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I still haven't fully let go, it takes time for me to process my loss. I'm not ready for a new one yet.
<2023-02-08T00:04:07.000Z> Wormwood: yea, same here. It was right before Christmas time. feels like a deep wound.  I had to crawl through it, Christmas, new years. you're suppose to celebrate, but I couldn't even get out of bed, it was miserable, still is. A lot of tragedy happened all at once, I had never felt that depressed before
<2023-02-08T00:05:45.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw *pats head*
<2023-02-08T00:09:09.000Z> Wormwood: In November, I had a new baby nephew born but there was something wrong with him. He had a genetic defect, and he wasn't going to live very long. My sister asked me to be the godfather, so I said yes. I prayed for him every day of his life. We all had to watch as he slowly withered away. I had never seen a skinny baby before, it's so horrific. We all prayed for a miracle, but it never came. I can't forget it and it's so difficult to pray at all now because I just think of him
<2023-02-08T00:09:49.000Z> Wormwood: sorry to dump all that on you. I just have to offload it. it's so heavy
<2023-02-08T00:10:20.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh of course, that is a heavy burden.
<2023-02-08T00:11:21.000Z> Wormwood: All of these things put me into a death spiral, along with not finding any work. I just couldn't shake it
<2023-02-08T00:14:27.000Z> Wormwood: my brother in law is on antidepressants now, he's basically a zombie, completely unavailable. I can't really blame him, wasn't his father, but I still feel so depressed. They have other 3 kids though. Their dad's kind of a waste of space anyway tbh, he's just very weak even not on pills. It's my new goal to go up there and help my sister. I just need a job that will let me move closer
<2023-02-08T00:15:46.000Z> Wormwood: those kids need some kind of positive male roll model. not that I'm the best example, but anything's a step up
<2023-02-08T00:15:58.000Z> Wormwood: sorry I don't know why I'm telling you all this
<2023-02-08T00:16:46.000Z> Wormwood: it feels better to say it out loud though
<2023-02-08T00:17:48.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I have been on pills for a long time and yeah, they do that. I just kept a half year break from those, but that ended when I got hit with really bad depression on January. Now I'm only 1/3 of the ammount.
<2023-02-08T00:18:17.000Z> Wormwood: it can't be good for your brain
<2023-02-08T00:19:12.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: No, I don't think so. I'm just afraid I can't live without them anymore, which sucks.
<2023-02-08T00:20:15.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: But it's good to get things off your chest.
<2023-02-08T00:20:37.000Z> Wormwood: I'm taking a lot of pill for sleep recently because I can't stand to be alone with my thoughts anymore. It's all too sad. but I've realized I'm addicted to them now. I take a handful of melatonin gummies and another hand full of diphenhydramine.  Sleep is nearly impossible without them
<2023-02-08T00:23:36.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Have had same problems with thoughts, but never taken anything. Maybe try dropping the ammount slowly? Also going out and excercising helps with sleep.
<2023-02-08T00:27:24.000Z> Wormwood: yea I think so too. I have built myself a little gym downstairs. fuck. there was a time when I would work out, but would suddenly cry half way through and couldn't finish. I'm better now, but it was so rough
<2023-02-08T00:28:36.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: You can do it~ I'm here to cheer you on!
<2023-02-08T00:29:37.000Z> Wormwood: thank you
<2023-02-08T00:30:00.000Z> Wormwood: I'll cheer you on too
<2023-02-08T00:31:23.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It's time to move on, leave those miserable memories behind for a better future and take your sleepy time back too.
<2023-02-08T00:31:34.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe, thanks.
<2023-02-08T00:33:35.000Z> Wormwood: ye I think so. I want to be free from it
<2023-02-08T00:37:41.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hm, shouldn't have talked with Graf. I suppose I could slowly distance myself from him. 
<2023-02-08T00:38:23.000Z> Wormwood: lol I would just ignore him completely. You're not obligated to talk to anyone 
<2023-02-08T00:38:55.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Briefly liked the attention at start, but he started to get pushy.
<2023-02-08T00:39:10.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, well sure. I just feel bad.
<2023-02-08T00:39:11.000Z> Wormwood: what's he saying?
<2023-02-08T00:41:01.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Latest message is "I'm sorry I fell asleep but the good news is I'm fully rested at 17:30 (00:30 for you!) so I will probably be closer to your sleep schedule 😉"
<2023-02-08T00:41:32.000Z> Wormwood: lmao he wants a rebound relationship
<2023-02-08T00:41:55.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: What's that?
<2023-02-08T00:42:30.000Z> Wormwood: when you get out of a relationship and you are feeling lonely so you quickly find someone else
<2023-02-08T00:42:44.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah
<2023-02-08T00:44:26.000Z> Wormwood: you shouldn't feel bad. No one is entitled to your attention or time. You could stop talking to me as well, it's up to you. I used to feel like you too- always trying to be polite, but I'm getting better. You have to put more value on yourself, you're time and energy is just as important as other peoples.
<2023-02-08T00:46:23.000Z> Wormwood: I think I talked about this earlier, I want to improve myself this way. Being more honest and upfront to people, instead of making excuses to avoid sounding mean- I want to just tell people "No"
<2023-02-08T00:46:48.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, sure, true.
<2023-02-08T00:48:20.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I have too much time in my hand, but I expect people to tell me if they need space from me sometimes.
<2023-02-08T00:50:09.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Because, well, I'm a retard, I can't read social cues.
<2023-02-08T00:50:24.000Z> Wormwood: oh yea, that's right the autism
<2023-02-08T00:50:42.000Z> Wormwood: I wish I was autistic sometimes lol
<2023-02-08T00:51:28.000Z> Wormwood: I always thought it would be easier to tell people to fuck off without feeling bad, but I guess that's not true
<2023-02-08T00:51:28.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It's a nightmare to live in, you don't want that.
<2023-02-08T00:53:07.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh that's opposite, I feel super strong guilt about anything.
<2023-02-08T00:54:22.000Z> Wormwood: damn
<2023-02-08T00:56:51.000Z> Wormwood: maybe it can get better with practice
<2023-02-08T00:57:33.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Being overwhelmed by stimulai is not fun either. I can't look people in the eyes.
<2023-02-08T00:58:43.000Z> Wormwood: fuck, that sounds awful
<2023-02-08T00:59:47.000Z> Wormwood: is it possible to practice with pictures?
<2023-02-08T01:01:00.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh, those are not a problem, I also can look at animal's eyes. 
<2023-02-08T01:02:11.000Z> Wormwood: I think luckily it's not too uncommon, it seems a lot of people have social anxiety which sounds similar
<2023-02-08T01:03:15.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Mh, yeah.
<2023-02-08T01:04:18.000Z> Wormwood: staring at people in the eyes for too long is fucking weird anyway lol
<2023-02-08T01:04:30.000Z> Wormwood: going to eat some food. talk to you later
<2023-02-08T01:04:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oke
<2023-02-08T02:43:15.000Z> Wormwood: I'll need to get Finnish lesson from you if I need to escape here
<2023-02-08T06:25:33.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe, sure.
<2023-02-08T06:27:50.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: ...He said wakey, wakey, uugh, he's obsessed with me.
<2023-02-08T06:30:07.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Also said he's eating wedding soup. 
<2023-02-08T06:43:40.000Z> Wormwood: lol I had no idea he was this weird. you should block him lol
<2023-02-08T06:45:43.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: He seems very desperate. He is very lonely now, but that kind of behaviour is not acceptable.
<2023-02-08T06:48:08.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: He acts like we have been friends for a long time. With especially 'tism people you have to grow and earn our trust. He's doing it uttery wrong.
<2023-02-08T08:42:52.000Z> Wormwood: yea I that's most people too. Nobody likes to be constantly bothered
<2023-02-08T08:43:39.000Z> Wormwood: I got a new twitter account, but I wonder for how long
<2023-02-08T08:44:02.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh. I can follow you if you want.
<2023-02-08T08:44:20.000Z> Wormwood: you have a twitter?
<2023-02-08T08:44:44.000Z> Wormwood: I'm @FoxfordComics
<2023-02-08T08:44:47.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yea. Just using to follow and read stuff.
<2023-02-08T08:45:14.000Z> Wormwood: Idk if I'll say much over there, I don't want to get banned again
<2023-02-08T08:46:30.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye. Go with basic stuff.
<2023-02-08T08:46:35.000Z> Wormwood: lol I think I see you
<2023-02-08T08:47:12.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe, correct.
<2023-02-08T09:08:16.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ugh, here comes the guilt, because I'm ignoring him.But ye, you are probably sleeping, good night sir.
<2023-02-08T09:10:51.000Z> Wormwood: lol I will in bit
<2023-02-08T09:11:55.000Z> Wormwood: I wouldn't take things on the internet so seriously.  pretend we're all npcs
<2023-02-08T17:57:58.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: *Sigh* Feeling awful again, though I ate a bit more sugary things today, sugar tends to  make me anxious. I just don't feel hopeful, no one wants a retard as a friend, let alone a partner.
<2023-02-08T20:23:14.000Z> Wormwood: oh don't say that. There's lots of good people out there. It might be good for you to meet some people in real life. I'm going to try to do that myself. maybe if I can't get this job, I'll find somewhere to volunteer. Being alone for too long isn't good for me
<2023-02-08T20:23:56.000Z> Wormwood: yea, sugars poison. I've about completely removed it from my diet. I hate the taste of it now
<2023-02-09T02:00:05.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Mh, yeah. I just don't know what to do, to get out. I have a strong social anxiety.  I miss all the intimacy I experienced last summer, first time kissing and cuddling.
<2023-02-09T06:44:17.000Z> Wormwood: yea, I know how it feels. It's terrible
<2023-02-09T06:55:45.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh yeah, has your friend said anything? Though I can't blame her if she's not interested.
<2023-02-09T07:18:24.000Z> Wormwood: oh yea she said she was going to check out your profile. maybe she just got busy
<2023-02-09T07:28:54.000Z> Wormwood: I'm still job hunting. This place sucks
<2023-02-09T07:30:20.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw. Hope you find one someday.
<2023-02-09T07:30:58.000Z> Wormwood: Some police came by my place today, I thought they were here about a job I applied for but they were asking about a crime lmao
<2023-02-09T07:31:14.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff
<2023-02-09T07:32:15.000Z> Wormwood: I didn't know anything so they left
<2023-02-09T07:35:44.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hm, I should try finish that Pepe painting today. Do I make the sweater blue or gray?
<2023-02-09T07:44:14.000Z> Wormwood: I think he looks best in blue
<2023-02-09T07:44:25.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yus, thanks.
<2023-02-09T16:39:31.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Got sad Pepe done. He lost his girlfriend, so he drinking hot cocoa and be comfy. I'm projecting again, but I feel awful and want people to see my pain. https://chudbuds.lol/media/ba7fa0c3-fd78-45f6-a958-59a498310408/froggo-1.png
<2023-02-09T19:08:41.000Z> Wormwood: He's so cute. I love it
<2023-02-09T19:09:18.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw, thanks.
<2023-02-09T19:09:21.000Z> Wormwood: You're really good at this
<2023-02-09T19:09:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Heh, I suppose
<2023-02-09T19:10:15.000Z> Wormwood: Well they say suffering is good for art. Maybe it's true
<2023-02-09T19:11:04.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Seems like it.
<2023-02-09T19:12:26.000Z> Wormwood: Speaking of, I think I'm getting sick now, my throats feeling soar. Weird bc I hardly ever go out these days
<2023-02-09T19:13:17.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, sucks. Was sick last autumn.
<2023-02-09T19:15:41.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Would like to paint more, but not sure about subject.
<2023-02-09T19:18:06.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Remember to get some vitamin D. Drink some tea with honey.
<2023-02-09T19:19:03.000Z> Wormwood: Yea that's tough. I think the hardest part is coming up with the idea, doing the actual work comes easy. For me at least
<2023-02-09T19:19:13.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Drink plenty of water. ...sorry.
<2023-02-09T19:19:25.000Z> Wormwood: Lol I'll try 
<2023-02-09T19:22:16.000Z> Wormwood: Might get some soup in a bit
<2023-02-09T19:22:36.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, that's good.
<2023-02-09T23:08:08.000Z> Wormwood: youtube.com/watch?v=21w6J4UKLHE
<2023-02-09T23:08:17.000Z> Wormwood: Finland's in the news lol
<2023-02-09T23:10:26.000Z> Wormwood: I got such a fucking headache today
<2023-02-09T23:10:50.000Z> Wormwood: I tried to go to bed early, but all I ended up doing was sleeping more lol
<2023-02-10T04:34:26.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff, oh god, yeah, that man is an embarrasment. You can see how far troon ideology has spread here. We are around 5 years behind America, which is why now troons are starting to appear in media.
<2023-02-10T12:17:18.000Z> Wormwood: Can't sleep again. Totally fucked
<2023-02-10T12:18:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw man.
<2023-02-10T12:18:58.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Just in general or is it throat?
<2023-02-10T12:19:08.000Z> Wormwood: Both I guess
<2023-02-10T12:19:21.000Z> Wormwood: What time is it for you?
<2023-02-10T12:19:36.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: 14:19
<2023-02-10T12:20:51.000Z> Wormwood: Have you done any painting?
<2023-02-10T12:21:24.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Nah. Still haven't thought up anything yet. Just drawing a little thing currently.
<2023-02-10T12:22:19.000Z> Wormwood: Cool. I made a new comic. But it's on my computer, I'll have to show you later
<2023-02-10T12:22:32.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yaas~
<2023-02-10T12:22:32.000Z> Wormwood: Actually I'll post it when I wake up
<2023-02-10T12:22:41.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yus
<2023-02-10T12:26:35.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I have used Strepsils for throat pain, works fairly well. https://www.strepsils.fi/static/09f70d08d4d34073e66dbd98aaa30b92/46b03/ktgp4givacnovvtqjddv.webp
<2023-02-10T12:27:35.000Z> Wormwood: I don't think I have that here
<2023-02-10T12:27:46.000Z> Wormwood: There's probably an equivalent 
<2023-02-10T12:27:54.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, yeah.
<2023-02-10T12:28:37.000Z> Wormwood: I'm supposed to go to my brother's tomorrow to help him with computer stuff. Maybe I'll just do it next weekend
<2023-02-10T12:29:52.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye, not a good time to spread any sicknesses, heh.
<2023-02-10T13:53:30.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Plösö says "Hyvää huomenta!" https://chudbuds.lol/media/8482d764-e1fc-40e0-953a-72d149b73483/sporde-cute.png
<2023-02-10T13:54:32.000Z> Wormwood: Thank you Plösö
<2023-02-10T13:55:01.000Z> Wormwood: It's very cute I like it
<2023-02-10T13:55:15.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe~
<2023-02-12T09:32:17.000Z> Wormwood: Hello how are u?
<2023-02-12T09:34:46.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hello sir. Been decent, though today a bit not so good. Hm, seem to have a headache, didn't sleep so well.
<2023-02-12T09:35:53.000Z> Wormwood: Fugg. Make sure you're drinking water. I always get a headache when I forget to drink
<2023-02-12T09:36:31.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Nngh, I know. I keep forgetting.
<2023-02-12T09:37:21.000Z> Wormwood: I tend to drink a lot of coffee too and that doesn't help
<2023-02-12T09:37:47.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well, drinking tea. Which is... spiced water, lol.
<2023-02-12T09:38:30.000Z> Wormwood: Lol what kind of tea
<2023-02-12T09:39:01.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: This time vanilla tea.
<2023-02-12T09:39:38.000Z> Wormwood: Yum. I don't usually drink tea but u do when u have a soar throat
<2023-02-12T09:39:51.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Russian Earl grey is another one I like.
<2023-02-12T09:41:03.000Z> Wormwood: Yea I like that samovar stuff
<2023-02-12T09:42:33.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, it's called samovaari in Finnish, so we just took that word and Finnishfied it.
<2023-02-12T09:43:33.000Z> Wormwood: Lol cool. Do you have one of those tea maker things,
<2023-02-12T09:44:24.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Nah, just good old electric water kettle.
<2023-02-12T09:44:59.000Z> Wormwood: One day I want to get one. They're very expensive though
<2023-02-12T09:46:50.000Z> Wormwood: I'm going to try to sleep👀
<2023-02-12T09:47:00.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Okay, good night.
<2023-02-12T09:47:09.000Z> Wormwood: It's another one of those nights lol
<2023-02-12T09:47:15.000Z> Wormwood: Good night
<2023-02-12T09:47:15.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw
<2023-02-12T12:15:00.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh, look at this, very pretty one, I only knew about the metallic ones. https://asiakas.kotisivukone.com/files/astiataivas.tarjoaa.fi/Ulkomaiset_astiat/Venalaiset_astiat/aa477a.jpg
<2023-02-12T16:47:33.000Z> Wormwood: that one's nice. very cool
<2023-02-12T18:57:35.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It's almost Valentine's day. Äää, I don't wanna be reminded, but every store sells love crap. It's called friends day in Finnish, but idea is the same.
<2023-02-12T21:55:37.000Z> Wormwood: Fuggg. Same. Christmas and new years were a nightmare for me and now this
<2023-02-12T21:56:04.000Z> Wormwood: "Friends day"? That doesn't sound very romantic 
<2023-02-13T00:43:28.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: lol, well yeah, it kinda doesn't sound like that, but it's what it is.
<2023-02-13T01:43:40.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: You got somekind of super bowl going on? How long does that stuff last?
<2023-02-13T01:44:34.000Z> Wormwood: lol oh yea. I forgot that was even a thing. Nah. I'm not interested in it. It's really boring. tbh I don't even know anyone who still watches that stuff
<2023-02-13T01:45:00.000Z> Wormwood: do you guys watch sports over there
<2023-02-13T01:45:10.000Z> Wormwood: what's popular? hockey?
<2023-02-13T01:45:21.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hockey yes.
<2023-02-13T01:46:03.000Z> Wormwood: cool I like hockey a little better because they'll just throw down and fight in the middle of the game
<2023-02-13T01:46:13.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff
<2023-02-13T01:46:42.000Z> Wormwood: if people fight in american football it's basically career ending
<2023-02-13T01:47:05.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, okay.
<2023-02-13T01:47:47.000Z> Wormwood: I could get into hockey but idk, sports in general is just so boring to me. playing myself would be more fun
<2023-02-13T01:50:26.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeah, well me being woman, I don't naturally care about sports. Though I had to watch fair share of Formula 1 as a child because my sister liked it.
<2023-02-13T01:59:01.000Z> Wormwood: your sister liked formula 1? that's unusual
<2023-02-13T02:00:35.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well she likes Star Wars too and so forth.
<2023-02-13T02:03:53.000Z> Wormwood: what are your fixations?
<2023-02-13T02:04:51.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: ...she's a tard too, which explains things, though she functions better than I do. We can thank our father for spreading tardness into us.
<2023-02-13T02:05:50.000Z> Wormwood: lmao
<2023-02-13T02:08:11.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: He didn't know at the time and regrets getting children, because we suffer because of him. Just have to try to live with it.
<2023-02-13T02:09:12.000Z> Wormwood: he had autism?
<2023-02-13T02:09:33.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yes. It spreads genetically.
<2023-02-13T02:09:44.000Z> Wormwood: is it really hereditary? i don't know anything about it
<2023-02-13T02:10:30.000Z> Wormwood: you seem normal enough to me, but I guess typing is much different
<2023-02-13T02:10:31.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: He was a shitty farther because of it, you don't want an adult manchild as a farther.
<2023-02-13T02:11:26.000Z> Wormwood: ah I see
<2023-02-13T02:11:43.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well I have tried to improve my behavior, but you would notice small things if you would meet me.
<2023-02-13T02:12:43.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: ...did I write farther twice..? Ffff
<2023-02-13T02:13:01.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Father, damnit
<2023-02-13T02:13:08.000Z> Wormwood: lmao I didn't notice until you pointed it out
<2023-02-13T02:18:17.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Chris Chan is good example when no improvement or shame is applied to a retard. Though he seems a bit lower functioning than me, but still.
<2023-02-13T02:19:31.000Z> Wormwood: Yea, I predicted that he would be dead, but instead I guess he fucked his mom and went to jail.
<2023-02-13T02:19:51.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff
<2023-02-13T02:20:08.000Z> Wormwood: I never thought he'd still be relevant this far in the future
<2023-02-13T02:20:20.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeah
<2023-02-13T02:55:50.000Z> Wormwood: what are you into though, what's your hyperfixation?
<2023-02-13T07:01:00.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff, well yeah, I have had my share of hyperfixations throught out my life, but currently.. not quite sure. Pokemon was one as a child and teen. Suicune is my fav. 
<2023-02-13T07:10:00.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I suppose things regarding my home country and defending it. Been more into classical Finnish culture. I wanna go and see Gallen Kallela's works, but it's in Helsinki.. and I abhor that place, it's been invaded by niggers and ragheads in such a small ammount of time.
<2023-02-13T19:40:05.000Z> Wormwood: Fuck. I hate that shit. Ya basically every big city here is lousy with niggers. Even where I live it's semi rural and we got a lot of them plus the Arabs. 
<2023-02-13T19:43:48.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Our floodgates were opened in 1990, so I managed to live in the fragments of white society, it was so nice, but then 2015 disaster happened and nothing has been the same since.
<2023-02-13T22:13:44.000Z> Wormwood: my dream is to get a cabin far away from civilization
<2023-02-13T22:14:05.000Z> Wormwood: I just want to ride out the end, not even know what's happening anymore
<2023-02-13T22:14:13.000Z> Wormwood: or die in a war, idk
<2023-02-14T03:17:56.000Z> Wormwood: There's a black out here. I was just rendering my animation. I'm so upset
<2023-02-14T03:42:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well, it's friends day here. Thank you for being a fren. *hugs* Don't feel upset. https://chudbuds.lol/media/6d08bca3-c003-4a24-8ca9-708a119143ce/sporde-cute-1.png
<2023-02-14T04:00:52.000Z> Wormwood: Thanks you! It's very cute. Happy friends day 
<2023-02-14T07:32:17.000Z> Wormwood: Happy V day
<2023-02-14T07:32:41.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe, thank you.
<2023-02-14T07:33:13.000Z> Wormwood: Lol my power is still out. Probably won't be back till tomorrow
<2023-02-14T07:33:48.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Fff, well that sucks.
<2023-02-14T07:37:21.000Z> Wormwood: Yea this place is gay nigger aids and the power company is probably full of diversity hire retards, but I can't get a job anywhere. Oh well
<2023-02-14T07:37:53.000Z> Wormwood: I had some cool animation I did bit I guess I'll have to post it later
<2023-02-14T07:41:43.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw. Don't give up on life, ever, it will make me sad if you do.Yus, gonna look forward for that.
<2023-02-14T07:44:28.000Z> Wormwood: Thanks. I'm going to keep trying 
<2023-02-14T07:47:27.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tYzMYcUty6s
<2023-02-14T07:48:22.000Z> Wormwood: Lol thanks I needed that
<2023-02-14T07:48:27.000Z> Wormwood: Love that guy
<2023-02-14T07:48:47.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe~
<2023-02-14T08:06:16.000Z> Wormwood: Gn. Hopefully when I wake the power will be back
<2023-02-14T08:18:21.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Good night sir.
<2023-02-14T17:36:31.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Haa... I took Momo to vet because she has somekind of tumor on her lower stomach. The options were either surgery.. or put her down. Well, I went with surgery, but this vet didn't have have any appoinments, so we have to go bumfuck nowhere with busses on Thursday, since we don't have a car.
<2023-02-14T17:39:09.000Z> Wormwood: Oh no. Poor momo. That sounds awful 
<2023-02-14T17:44:04.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hope meds help a bit. It tastes good to her, so she takes it herself, don't need to force feed her.
<2023-02-14T17:45:32.000Z> Wormwood: That's nice. It's usually hard to give them medicine 
<2023-02-14T17:46:14.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: They said it would cost around 300€, but I'm gonna say it's probably 500€ in full total.
<2023-02-14T17:46:55.000Z> Wormwood: Oof
<2023-02-14T17:50:32.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Got power back on?
<2023-02-14T17:51:08.000Z> Wormwood: Lol yea looks like it's back finally. I think it came on around 3am
<2023-02-14T17:51:56.000Z> Wormwood: I got to stock up on more candles. I burned through the few I had
<2023-02-14T17:53:03.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye, I got a little pile of them too.
<2023-02-15T07:00:47.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It really is middle of nowhere.. there's one kebab pizzeria nearby. Need to wait around three hours for surgery to be perfomed. Tomorrow is gonna be oh so fun, first to Helsinki and from there to Kulloo.
<2023-02-15T07:04:48.000Z> Wormwood: cool. I've only ever heard of Helsinki
<2023-02-15T07:05:35.000Z> Wormwood: oh good news. Things are working now with that job. I just need to fill out this really long form though
<2023-02-15T07:06:12.000Z> Wormwood: It's a full background check, they want to know everything I've ever done, everywhere I've been and everyone I know
<2023-02-15T07:06:32.000Z> Wormwood: kinda gay bc it took so long to get here, so now I only have 3 days to finish it
<2023-02-15T07:16:15.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh yaas~ Things looking good for you.
<2023-02-15T07:26:10.000Z> Wormwood: I hope so. I just hope they don't find the foxford stuff and disqualify me
<2023-02-15T07:27:12.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw, yeah.
<2023-02-16T03:15:26.000Z> Wormwood: how's it going? are you on your journey?
<2023-02-16T03:18:42.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Lol, no, in bed. Things changed a bit. Sister's husband is gonna drive us there and then back home, so I'm only using train to go to Pasila. Haa, I'm so glad.
<2023-02-16T03:27:58.000Z> Wormwood: oh nice!
<2023-02-16T03:29:11.000Z> Wormwood: I've finished my paper work for that job, So now they'll begin an investigation on me
<2023-02-16T03:29:40.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yus, good luck.
<2023-02-16T03:32:31.000Z> Wormwood: thanks. there was a big section about "traveling outside the country" they want to know when and where and if I had any relationships with any foreign nationals. It was so awful to get through
<2023-02-16T03:33:24.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw, ye.
<2023-02-16T03:34:46.000Z> Wormwood: It's so exhausting. I feel like I was just in a fight or I got in a car accident
<2023-02-16T03:35:03.000Z> Wormwood: I'm just glad it's over. I hope I don't have to relive that again
<2023-02-16T03:37:45.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Mh, yeah. Hope so.
<2023-02-16T07:40:41.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: On the journey now, going to a train station.
<2023-02-16T07:41:24.000Z> Wormwood: Good luck! I hope Momo gets well soon
<2023-02-16T07:42:23.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yus, thank you.
<2023-02-16T13:41:46.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Surgery has been delayed because of other emergency surgeries. Pick up moved to 19-20.
<2023-02-16T16:25:01.000Z> Wormwood: Aaah
<2023-02-16T16:25:19.000Z> Wormwood: Sorry to hear it
<2023-02-16T16:46:06.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeah, also being bored while waiting, lol.
<2023-02-16T20:03:37.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: She's nomming on kale leaves. https://chudbuds.lol/media/16ef7c04-a32d-4179-82db-29d8594408b1/20230216_220021.jpg
<2023-02-16T22:36:09.000Z> Wormwood: such a cutie
<2023-02-18T22:02:10.000Z> Wormwood: the perfect job https://i.poastcdn.org/fd087ce55fea3fb16018a608358598d5b804b24ea3b45416e859d6cfca2a2d46.png
<2023-02-19T05:54:00.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: lol what
<2023-02-19T10:22:15.000Z> Wormwood: Lol for you
<2023-02-19T10:22:42.000Z> Wormwood: Idk where it's from I've just seen the screen shot passed around
<2023-02-19T10:24:06.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye I got that, it's funny, hehe
<2023-02-19T10:29:28.000Z> Wormwood: I cannot sleep again. It's lame
<2023-02-19T10:37:41.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw, I'm going for a liitle snow fair. I want to eat campfire sausages.
<2023-02-19T10:38:22.000Z> Wormwood: Cool, what's a snow fair?
<2023-02-19T10:41:05.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Some things to do, mostly families and children. 
<2023-02-19T10:41:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Riding down snowy hill, ice skating, food to eat
<2023-02-19T10:46:08.000Z> Wormwood: That sounds so nice
<2023-02-19T10:48:45.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Is snowy https://chudbuds.lol/media/e546c6b6-69b9-4f8e-8d8b-e1fa04f4dcca/20230219_124807.jpg
<2023-02-19T11:02:50.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh fff, lot of polital parties trying fish for votes. 
<2023-02-19T11:24:13.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: *political
<2023-02-19T21:09:00.000Z> Wormwood: Agh yea that's gay. People can't just enjoy the moment
<2023-02-19T21:09:20.000Z> Wormwood: It looks so pretty. I wish it snowed here
<2023-02-20T21:37:17.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I'm up for playing Stardew Valley if you ever wanna go back to it. Well, if you want to play multiplayer, heh.
<2023-02-20T22:43:24.000Z> Wormwood: ye that sound like fun! I haven't played it in a long time
<2023-02-21T06:11:56.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Momo has exposed crotch, lol. I feel bad. She needs pants. https://chudbuds.lol/media/a572eac9-2006-4f12-b08d-94234d1738ec/20230219_121557.jpg
<2023-02-21T06:40:10.000Z> Wormwood: She had the surgery then? how did it go?
<2023-02-21T07:10:24.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeah, it was delayed by few hours. Went well.
<2023-02-22T12:26:52.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yo, you done some lifting?
<2023-02-22T12:27:53.000Z> Wormwood: Hello. Yea a bit
<2023-02-22T12:28:13.000Z> Wormwood: I think u should do it earlier, maybe that's what keeps me up
<2023-02-22T12:28:23.000Z> Wormwood: How is momo?
<2023-02-22T12:30:29.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: She's good. Had a petting moment. Would have been nice to take Momo out, It's really sunny outside, but really cold and she's still exposed, new fur takes time.
<2023-02-22T12:32:05.000Z> Wormwood: Lol my cat's going to end up needing the vet he keeps getting into fights. I had to bring him in bc he's making too much noise outside
<2023-02-22T12:32:33.000Z> Wormwood: I don't mind it as long as he wins but I can hear him just screaming at other cats
<2023-02-22T12:32:43.000Z> Wormwood: Maybe he's getting too old idk
<2023-02-22T12:32:45.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: lol
<2023-02-22T12:33:13.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yea, I don't know about cats.
<2023-02-22T12:33:35.000Z> Wormwood: I think a pet sloth would be funny. He can just eat snacks abs watch TV with me
<2023-02-22T12:35:07.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff
<2023-02-22T12:35:19.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I like capybaras
<2023-02-22T12:35:33.000Z> Wormwood: Oh yea they look cute
<2023-02-22T12:35:53.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: We don't have any in Finland, so I haven't seen one live.
<2023-02-22T12:36:05.000Z> Wormwood: I'd want a pet monkey but they're ruthless killing machines
<2023-02-22T12:36:20.000Z> Wormwood: Maybe a tiny one would be cool like a capuchin 
<2023-02-22T12:38:13.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: They are cute. I watched Pippi Longstocking as a child, she had one.https://www.spunkymisfitgirl.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/04/pippi.jpg
<2023-02-22T12:38:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It had a little knitted shirt on.
<2023-02-22T12:40:17.000Z> Wormwood: That one's cute
<2023-02-22T12:42:03.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Watching older shows like that just make me sad, because they show how Northen countries used to be lovely, white and safe, had their own culture and now it's been replaced by zog culture, niggers and ragheads.
<2023-02-22T12:43:44.000Z> Wormwood: Yea it's awful. My goal is to get enough money so I can move far away from all that. I want to just ride it out
<2023-02-22T12:44:20.000Z> Wormwood: There must be some communities of whites with the same idea
<2023-02-22T12:44:38.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Sure no doubt.
<2023-02-22T12:45:37.000Z> Wormwood: I'll just have to get a lot of money quickly. I guess I'll have to commit crimes 
<2023-02-22T12:46:38.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I'm concentrating on supporting our Blueblacks movement. It's a shame I can't vote for them in my area, so I will just not bother voting.
<2023-02-22T12:47:04.000Z> Wormwood: What's blueblacks?
<2023-02-22T12:48:30.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: National socialist political party, though they do other things too, not just a party.
<2023-02-22T12:48:45.000Z> Wormwood: Oh nice
<2023-02-22T12:48:51.000Z> Wormwood: I hope they win
<2023-02-22T12:49:25.000Z> Wormwood: Our elections are so corrupt here, every party is gay. I wish we had something like that here
<2023-02-22T12:50:11.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: They are trying to get at least one person to parliament. Just have to wait and see. They are a very new party, so this is first time people can vote for them, so they are not that known yet.
<2023-02-22T12:59:09.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I marched in "Finland wakes up" march last independence day. I'm visible few times in this video about it. You can see me behind the woman with pink hat when she's interviewed.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vybz_X55IG0
<2023-02-22T21:01:30.000Z> Wormwood: That's so cool! I wish I could get involved in something like that. Everyone looks so good marching together like that
<2023-02-22T21:02:48.000Z> Wormwood: You're the hat and earmuffs? That's cool. You look much taller than I thought. Must be so cold there
<2023-02-22T21:12:46.000Z> Wormwood: Do you ever get worries about people recognizing you? I guess it's a little easier when everyone is bundled up from the cold
<2023-02-22T21:13:28.000Z> Wormwood: I'm always worried here bc having the wrong politics could end your career
<2023-02-23T01:01:34.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Heh, well I am 171 cm tall. Nah, currently not really worried, since well I don't do much now.
<2023-02-23T04:28:01.000Z> Wormwood: this is me on steam if you want to play sometime. idk when's a good time since our timezones are way off https://i.poastcdn.org/637a626ba62473c84683873314a27a5140a22bc715503f1dcd1b0cb693afb0a6.png
<2023-02-23T06:41:34.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yus, found you.
<2023-02-23T17:10:37.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I managed to finally dare to go my building's little gym. Yay~ I'm slowly trying to do little changes, after 10 years of doing nothing and just being autistic fuck. I still need irl friends, those are gonna be difficult. https://chudbuds.lol/media/540c5758-771f-465c-858a-f5f36be98de8/sali.png
<2023-02-23T17:25:11.000Z> Wormwood: Excellent! I'm rooting for you 
<2023-02-23T17:35:35.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Not been feeling good for three days now. Feeling of lonely desperation and I have this terrible need for attention, but I have tried not to bother you and other people with attention whoring.
<2023-02-23T18:31:29.000Z> Wormwood: You can always bother me, I don't mind at all. I'm feeling the same way too, so I could also use someone to talk to. I might night answer right away if I'm out doing things though, but I don't mind chatting at all
<2023-02-23T18:32:06.000Z> Wormwood: I'm growing mushrooms, now  https://i.poastcdn.org/364096c8b9deffbd6a26cff21ed57fd97aa92ccef39293076d6de77eb043f3dc.jpg
<2023-02-23T18:42:33.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw, well  that's good. Never seen shrooms like that, are those for eating?
<2023-02-23T18:44:56.000Z> Wormwood: Yea these are pink oyster mushrooms. Still too young to harvest, Maybe in a week or two they grow really fast. These were just little dots a day ago
<2023-02-23T18:45:42.000Z> Wormwood: This is my first time growing mushrooms, I really want to try out different types and do my own cloning 
<2023-02-23T18:46:31.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, interesting.
<2023-02-23T18:47:58.000Z> Wormwood: They don't need much attention, just a little spritz of water (it's very dry here) I keep these guys near the shower so there's more humidity 
<2023-02-23T18:49:43.000Z> Wormwood: I just love mushrooms, they're like plants but they're completely different. They're in their own category and they play such an important roll in everything
<2023-02-23T18:51:02.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeh, they are very different plant things. I planted parsley seeds and grass for Momo.
<2023-02-23T18:52:02.000Z> Wormwood: I just realized the words "their, there and they're" must be confusing for new English speakers. Even natice speakers constantly mix them up. 
<2023-02-23T18:52:30.000Z> Wormwood: Do you have a garden where you are?
<2023-02-23T18:54:07.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I live in apartment, but it's possible to rent a little plot to grow stuff in nearby field. I'm trying to grow stuff in balcony next summer.
<2023-02-23T19:07:44.000Z> Wormwood: that's so cool. one of these days I want to set up a little herb garden here so I can always have fresh ingredients for cooking. little balcony gardens always look good
<2023-02-23T19:08:36.000Z> Wormwood: how does that work with the weather you have? are they going to be ok in the winter?
<2023-02-23T19:09:16.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: No, it gets cold, it's full glass balcony.
<2023-02-23T19:09:44.000Z> Wormwood: oh nice. like a little greenhouse
<2023-02-23T19:10:19.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Kinda yeah.
<2023-02-23T19:15:10.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Mh, sucks I sometimes see bf's comments or posts here and there. He's Doc Scranton in Fedi.
<2023-02-23T19:17:08.000Z> Wormwood: just block him. I blocked my ex on every account I'm on
<2023-02-23T19:24:59.000Z> Wormwood: I still catch myself thinking about her, and it's not unusual. It was a big part of my life that is now gone, but it's ok because I wouldn't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with me. I can't let myself live in someone else's shadow, I need to break free from it and I've found that the only way to do that is to let go and throw everything away. Block everything, delete everything. I can't let my past define me, I'm much bigger than that.
<2023-02-23T19:38:31.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeah.. It's just hard to let go.
<2023-02-23T19:48:49.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Momo has now hopped on my bed three times. Wants pets.
<2023-02-23T19:50:27.000Z> Wormwood: lol my cat's like this too, we woke me up crying and scratching at my door
<2023-02-23T19:55:34.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pets https://chudbuds.lol/media/ed792609-d174-4430-9453-d3e08e6729cf/20230223_215426.jpg
<2023-02-23T19:56:35.000Z> Wormwood: cutie
<2023-02-24T00:42:37.000Z> Wormwood: he https://i.poastcdn.org/475500e7355709ac66aa510df04907e1539ff74517543bd47175a826254dba13.mp4
<2023-02-24T05:16:28.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff
<2023-02-24T14:09:35.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Found these fluffy ball hair ties couple weeks ago been using one at a time, but thought could I use multiple at once. Is it too much? https://chudbuds.lol/media/1d2c4f85-3aed-455c-8c97-e02b7eb1fb6a/hiuspallot-1.png
<2023-02-24T18:24:30.000Z> Wormwood: Lol no I think its fine
<2023-02-24T18:29:09.000Z> Wormwood: I'm going to try not to take the pills anymore. It think it's giving me brain damage 
<2023-02-24T18:50:10.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Sleepy pills? Sure, that's good.
<2023-02-24T18:51:02.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Was just in sauna again.
<2023-02-24T20:37:28.000Z> Wormwood: damn I wish I had a sauna, it sounds so relaxing
<2023-02-24T20:38:10.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It's nice
<2023-02-24T20:38:32.000Z> Wormwood: I just have my hot shower with mushrooms growing lol
<2023-02-24T20:38:49.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Heheh
<2023-02-24T20:39:58.000Z> Wormwood: I'm thinking about joining gumroad or something like that
<2023-02-24T20:40:20.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I did comment on the mushroom post, but I don't think you noticed.
<2023-02-24T20:40:29.000Z> Wormwood: oh I didn't
<2023-02-24T20:40:34.000Z> Wormwood: lemmie check
<2023-02-24T20:41:19.000Z> Wormwood: lmao
<2023-02-24T20:42:04.000Z> Wormwood: oh yea, I think the servers were being updated around that time, so I couldn't see the image. I meant to check later but I forgot
<2023-02-24T20:42:46.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe, made a man laugh. I know women aren't funny.
<2023-02-24T20:43:15.000Z> Wormwood: lmao, that's just a meme
<2023-02-24T20:44:01.000Z> Wormwood: I think professional female comedians don't make me laugh, but regular girls do
<2023-02-24T20:44:33.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, yeah.
<2023-02-24T20:45:35.000Z> Wormwood: the mushrooms are growing so fast!
<2023-02-24T20:46:04.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oijoi
<2023-02-24T20:46:26.000Z> Wormwood attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/22be964a02725a9d7411d6f5935ac02870d0ec8a148131e7506b8016d00e429a.jpg
<2023-02-24T20:47:00.000Z> Wormwood: every time I look it's a little bigger
<2023-02-24T20:47:05.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh, they have.
<2023-02-24T20:47:28.000Z> Wormwood: I sent a picture with my phone idk if you can see it, I can't
<2023-02-24T20:48:16.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye, I see dem red shrooms.
<2023-02-24T20:50:19.000Z> Wormwood: oh cool, yea it just took forever for it to load for me
<2023-02-24T20:51:13.000Z> Wormwood: I wanna try all different kinds after this, its so easy
<2023-02-24T20:54:16.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Lil shroom hobby
<2023-02-24T20:57:00.000Z> Wormwood: ye I'll have my own little lab eventually
<2023-02-24T21:01:11.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe, yus.
<2023-02-24T21:07:43.000Z> Wormwood: how do you like this? I'm trying out a new brush for the line work, I'm hoping it gives the art a more painterly feel. I haven't done any dialog yet, so this might not make sense https://i.poastcdn.org/91f09d77602e25c10e938c82909cd5d30d82a937153db64ef8caec5e1dd7b540.png
<2023-02-24T21:09:46.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hm, seems good to me. I need to check previous works and compare 
<2023-02-24T21:11:17.000Z> Wormwood: it has a rougher, more chunky quality to it https://i.poastcdn.org/130ccbd766b8309210a3a9d0d8e09f0298b57e92adc73d146248268bbe33ea70.png
<2023-02-24T21:11:48.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah
<2023-02-24T21:12:46.000Z> Wormwood: I usually just use a round standard brush for everything, but I kinda wanted to mix it up a bit
<2023-02-24T21:14:25.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye, looks like brush marker.
<2023-02-24T21:15:58.000Z> Wormwood: I think most people probably wont notice the difference, but I like it. feels more hand-drawn
<2023-02-24T21:18:31.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Sure, it's good to try new things.
<2023-02-24T21:23:29.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Been feeling a bit better today. Cried few times this week since I felt so awful.
<2023-02-24T21:25:08.000Z> Wormwood: that's good, as long as you're getting better. You don't have to be 100% right away, it's always going to take time
<2023-02-24T21:27:54.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeah..
<2023-02-24T21:27:59.000Z> Wormwood: I took like 2 hours to get out of bed this morning tbh. I had half a mind to just not get up at all
<2023-02-24T21:29:22.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw
<2023-02-24T21:30:52.000Z> Wormwood: what's been helping me so far is just reminding myself that this person wasn't perfect. She had problems, and it's better to not be with someone who isn't 100% committed anyway. Better that they leave and make room for someone better
<2023-02-24T21:32:35.000Z> Wormwood: maybe that would help you too to think like this, you don't want to be with someone who would cut and run when things are inconvenient or tough
<2023-02-24T21:34:04.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Mh, yeah.
<2023-02-24T21:53:49.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pippy!
<2023-02-24T21:55:38.000Z> Wormwood: lmao
<2023-02-24T21:55:48.000Z> Wormwood: yea it sounded like a good name
<2023-02-24T21:56:06.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Is cute
<2023-02-25T06:44:02.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Would you like to play, or is it too late?
<2023-02-25T06:46:37.000Z> Wormwood: hey yea I'm down to play!
<2023-02-25T06:46:46.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yaas
<2023-02-25T06:47:01.000Z> Wormwood: I'll start it up right now
<2023-02-25T06:49:05.000Z> Wormwood: what kind of farm should we have?
<2023-02-25T06:49:19.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, I have to reinstall my game, forgot I hadn't played after my computer shit the bed year ago.
<2023-02-25T06:49:27.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hm
<2023-02-25T06:49:41.000Z> Wormwood: lmao that's ok It'll take me a minute to set it up
<2023-02-25T06:50:24.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well that was quick, but yeh.
<2023-02-25T06:51:20.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I have tried the standard, forest and four corners.
<2023-02-25T06:51:50.000Z> Wormwood: which iis best?
<2023-02-25T06:52:43.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: My favourite has been forest, but standard of course has most space. Riverland is good if you love fishing.
<2023-02-25T06:53:30.000Z> Wormwood: I haven't tried forest yet
<2023-02-25T06:53:53.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Sure, if you want to.
<2023-02-25T06:55:18.000Z> Wormwood: lol idk how to invite you
<2023-02-25T06:55:41.000Z> Wormwood: FE5ZP7W193E
<2023-02-25T08:37:34.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I'm AngstyNerd#7816 at Discord.
<2023-02-25T08:51:44.000Z> Wormwood: thanks I'll add u
<2023-02-25T09:07:59.000Z> Wormwood: It's been so long since I've played, that was fun
<2023-02-25T09:08:18.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Aw, yeah, was fun~
<2023-02-25T09:08:26.000Z> Wormwood: I'm just now remembering all the weird shit I should have done
<2023-02-25T09:09:05.000Z> Wormwood: I think playing like that takes the fun out though
<2023-02-25T09:09:24.000Z> Wormwood: makes it more into a chore. I like just playing around
<2023-02-25T09:10:15.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeah, probably shouldn't stress around, even I feel like that sometimes.
<2023-02-25T09:10:33.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: When was the last time you played?
<2023-02-25T09:10:48.000Z> Wormwood: maybe a year ago
<2023-02-25T09:12:00.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It has lot of new neat stuff, if you haven't seen any yet, oh boy oh boy.
<2023-02-25T09:19:50.000Z> Wormwood: oh cool!
<2023-02-25T09:19:59.000Z> Wormwood: and I haven't even beat it either
<2023-02-26T05:23:31.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Nnnnnigger, you up to play? lol
<2023-02-26T05:44:23.000Z> Wormwood: hell yea nigga!
<2023-02-26T05:44:31.000Z> Wormwood: gimmie like 15 mins
<2023-02-27T00:33:54.000Z> Wormwood attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/09f9dc7c6f9c2baf39f111e9a46d6e3c05a212caa951b4fcd3b6704e9cc243e1.png
<2023-02-27T00:34:43.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, saw that. It really has been 7 years already.
<2023-02-27T00:37:06.000Z> Wormwood: hard to believe
<2023-02-27T00:37:47.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye
<2023-02-27T02:03:04.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah~ Perkele is a Finnish god of thunder, but since Christians didn't like him, they dubbed him as a devil. That's shitty.
<2023-02-27T03:28:40.000Z> Wormwood: lol yea, I guess kinda like Saturn
<2023-02-27T05:18:19.000Z> Wormwood: hey you down for some stardew?
<2023-02-27T05:27:03.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yaas
<2023-02-27T05:27:22.000Z> Wormwood: ye I'll start it up
<2023-02-27T05:27:43.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye
<2023-02-27T05:29:08.000Z> Wormwood: FE7ZHES97AL
<2023-02-27T13:40:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: That was nice. Did my first little workout routine at the lil gym. It was another Poast user who recommended me one. Aa, my stomach hurts a bit.
<2023-02-27T19:16:58.000Z> Wormwood: Nice!
<2023-02-27T20:20:54.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Psh, now I don't feel so sleepy.
<2023-02-27T20:46:49.000Z> Wormwood: lol yea that happens. I've been trying to work out earlier lately to fight it
<2023-02-27T20:55:48.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, yeh.
<2023-02-28T05:32:55.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Henlo, you busy?
<2023-02-28T08:31:07.000Z> Wormwood: hello
<2023-02-28T08:31:14.000Z> Wormwood: not anymore
<2023-02-28T08:31:22.000Z> Wormwood: didn't see your message till now
<2023-02-28T08:31:36.000Z> Wormwood: how's it going?
<2023-02-28T08:36:42.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Decent. Head hurts a bit. I'm checking my little sticker order that arrived. Can slap more stickers into my journal.
<2023-02-28T08:37:11.000Z> Wormwood: kewl. what kind of stickers you get?
<2023-02-28T08:43:54.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It's disgustingly girly stuff. Little boxes were random, they contain loose flake stickers. https://chudbuds.lol/media/f90929d2-11c3-4044-b9b0-77f5f46dc0a0/20230228_104123.jpg
<2023-02-28T08:45:30.000Z> Wormwood: lol that's awesome! very cute
<2023-02-28T08:45:41.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: That one box really just has stickers of diffrent road signs, lol.
<2023-02-28T08:46:33.000Z> Wormwood: are they from japan?
<2023-02-28T08:47:15.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: These are Chinese stuff. Like you can get from Aliexpress, though these are from Finnish store.
<2023-02-28T08:48:12.000Z> Wormwood: they look nice
<2023-02-28T08:48:48.000Z> Wormwood: sorry, I got to go to bed. It's super late for me
<2023-02-28T08:48:58.000Z> Wormwood: talk to you later
<2023-02-28T08:49:04.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yes. Good night sir~
<2023-02-28T10:19:28.000Z> Wormwood: lol can't sleep again
<2023-02-28T11:14:09.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Pfff
<2023-02-28T11:21:27.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Sorry had a visitor from my retard services checking on me.
<2023-02-28T11:21:54.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hope you managed to fall asleep again.
<2023-02-28T18:49:26.000Z> Wormwood: Lol yea. I had something similar here. They called me but I missed it bc I was asleep
<2023-02-28T19:14:06.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, lol.
<2023-02-28T19:17:46.000Z> Wormwood: They're so cryptic, they never say when they'll call
<2023-02-28T19:21:51.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Huh, well that sucks
<2023-03-01T05:20:19.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: 'ello~
<2023-03-01T05:20:57.000Z> Wormwood: Any how's it going?
<2023-03-01T05:21:58.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh, seems to be freezing again, it was warm yesterday. Gonna be icy everywhere, hmf.
<2023-03-01T05:22:42.000Z> Wormwood: Ah yea here too. They made gas expensive too. No reason for it
<2023-03-01T05:23:32.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye, here too, though for a while.
<2023-03-01T05:24:15.000Z> Wormwood: I'm going to invest in a good wood burning stove when I finally make it
<2023-03-01T05:24:42.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Good~
<2023-03-01T05:25:19.000Z> Wormwood: They can't stop me from chopping my own wood
<2023-03-01T05:25:28.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe
<2023-03-01T05:28:01.000Z> Wormwood: I'm down for SV tonight. I just need to finish my work out. Maybe 30-45 mins
<2023-03-01T05:28:22.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Okay. I adjusted my mic settings, hope it works.
<2023-03-01T05:29:06.000Z> Wormwood: Nice
<2023-03-01T06:24:03.000Z> Wormwood: ok I'm starting it up
<2023-03-01T06:24:38.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yus
<2023-03-01T06:25:15.000Z> Wormwood: FEA2X2ZZ4IR
<2023-03-01T11:43:49.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Sir, up again?
<2023-03-01T11:46:23.000Z> Wormwood: Lol yea
<2023-03-01T11:46:45.000Z> Wormwood: I think I need ti cut back on caffeine 
<2023-03-01T11:46:55.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yea
<2023-03-01T11:47:32.000Z> Wormwood: How's your flee market?
<2023-03-01T11:48:30.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Currently 114,70€ from six days. Tomorrow need to pick up stuff back from there.
<2023-03-01T11:50:02.000Z> Wormwood: Cool
<2023-03-01T11:50:27.000Z> Wormwood: So you're selling stuff there?
<2023-03-01T11:51:44.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ye. We have table/shelf things in flea markets you can rent for a week or more.
<2023-03-01T11:52:59.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: This one is 30€ week and I share with mom so it's 15€.
<2023-03-01T11:54:28.000Z> Wormwood: Nice
<2023-03-02T04:42:45.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Buh, still in bed, but awake.
<2023-03-02T06:30:38.000Z> Wormwood: you down to play some?
<2023-03-02T06:31:21.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yes!
<2023-03-02T06:41:40.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Does this chat work, or is it being shit again.
<2023-03-02T06:41:42.000Z> Wormwood: cool!
<2023-03-02T06:41:59.000Z> Wormwood: idk why but I'm not getting alerts when there's a new message
<2023-03-02T06:42:11.000Z> Wormwood: maybe my settings are fucked
<2023-03-02T06:42:30.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It sometimes does that, I refresh the site sometimes.
<2023-03-02T06:44:42.000Z> Wormwood: FEB4EH6B41R
<2023-03-02T12:31:47.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Fuck! I'm placing a plate on the floor and Momo comes and slices my finger open.  https://chudbuds.lol/media/c4236114-09c5-4f5e-a969-d5671935d93a/20230302_142559.jpg
<2023-03-02T17:55:09.000Z> Wormwood: Damn. How did that happen? I didn't think rabbits had very sharp claws
<2023-03-02T17:55:38.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Teeth, they have sharp teeth.
<2023-03-02T17:56:20.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: But they can have sharp nails if they use them, like digging.
<2023-03-02T17:56:45.000Z> Wormwood: She bit you?
<2023-03-02T17:56:54.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeah
<2023-03-02T17:57:09.000Z> Wormwood: Ouch
<2023-03-02T17:57:19.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: She thought I had food in hand.
<2023-03-02T17:58:02.000Z> Wormwood: Lol she thinks you're yummy
<2023-03-02T17:59:01.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Hehe
<2023-03-02T18:00:34.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Well, I picked my stuff from fleamarket, drag it back and thinking why the handle feels sticky. lol https://chudbuds.lol/media/fc829c39-847c-453f-8684-0cbcd7c4c99f/20230302_170546.jpg
<2023-03-02T18:01:05.000Z> Wormwood: Lmao fuck 
<2023-03-02T18:02:02.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: It's such a small cut, but lot of blood.
<2023-03-03T06:41:30.000Z> Wormwood: you down to play? 
<2023-03-03T06:44:07.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Sure
<2023-03-03T06:44:34.000Z> Wormwood: ok I'll start it up
<2023-03-03T06:46:35.000Z> Wormwood: FEC5GFDVLHZ
<2023-03-03T19:39:16.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: lol, found some of my human practice sketches.  https://chudbuds.lol/media/186f959d-b6f0-40ba-8a8e-cfbf10be4a2f/20230212_171622.jpg
<2023-03-03T20:05:11.000Z> Wormwood: Cool! Those are good
<2023-03-04T10:51:36.000Z> Wormwood: Cannot sleep again
<2023-03-04T10:56:33.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Do I need to tell a man sleepy time story? lol
<2023-03-04T11:01:24.000Z> Wormwood: Lol yea
<2023-03-04T11:06:37.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yaas~ Going out to eat today. Nearby Prisma market had it's restaurant section revamped.
<2023-03-04T11:07:04.000Z> Wormwood: Oh nice!
<2023-03-04T11:12:05.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: The big red straw in Plösö drinking drawing is a reference to Chris Chan.
<2023-03-04T11:13:20.000Z> Wormwood: Lol yea I got that. It looks good
<2023-03-04T11:13:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oke good.
<2023-03-04T11:14:00.000Z> Wormwood: I've finished the cover. I hope that's all I have to do. I'm so tired of bees now 
<2023-03-04T11:22:54.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh yay. Good job~
<2023-03-04T12:05:34.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Got my art piece back I made in 2019. Is cool, I like it a lot. https://chudbuds.lol/media/6092efac-b080-408f-a04c-7bb8bff7677a/art-9.png
<2023-03-04T12:15:17.000Z> Wormwood: that's cool!
<2023-03-04T12:15:21.000Z> Wormwood: what's it made of?
<2023-03-04T12:16:24.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Resin
<2023-03-04T12:16:51.000Z> Wormwood: It's very pretty
<2023-03-04T12:17:07.000Z> Wormwood: it reminds me of the fox fire you were telling me about
<2023-03-04T12:17:17.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh yeah
<2023-03-04T12:21:56.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: This is how Aurora is shown to form, or it comes from the tip of the tail. https://chudbuds.lol/media/aed26cf8-fff1-4fb8-b7ab-5a5838332c34/revontulikettu.jpg
<2023-03-04T12:30:47.000Z> Wormwood: lol it reminds me of foxford
<2023-03-04T12:31:01.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Heheh
<2023-03-04T17:27:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: *Sigh* I don't feel optimistic at all about finding a new partner. No one wants a retarted loser, who's basically a child in adult's body. I can't even do the most important thing every living being is supposed to do, to have offspring because I'm genetically so sick. I'm just a genetic deadend and a femcel.
<2023-03-04T20:47:56.000Z> Wormwood: Genetically sick? What do you mean, is it because of the autism?
<2023-03-04T22:04:33.000Z> Wormwood: I feel the same way. I'm beginning to realize it just may not be in the cards for me. Maybe it's my destiny to be like a monk or a hermit. Maybe making the art is just my purpose. I'm becoming more resigned to it now. Things could be much worse for us I think, it's probably better than being trapped in a loveless marriage.
<2023-03-04T22:04:47.000Z> Wormwood: but who knows, anything could happen in the future
<2023-03-05T04:24:17.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yeah, because of the autism and what ever else sicknesses.
<2023-03-05T04:33:28.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I have been talking a bit with another Finnish Poast user and I noticed my brains have been reacting to him. I seem to have taken a liking to him, thought he's some kind of alpha male, I don't have any chance with people like him. 
<2023-03-05T04:37:04.000Z> Wormwood: Lol that's good I guess. I think you should still try getting out and meeting people in your area. You don't want to isolate and spend too much attention on one person
<2023-03-05T04:42:06.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Out? What am I supposed to do? All this is so foreign to me.
<2023-03-05T04:52:12.000Z> Wormwood: Idk. I think if there were some place locally that would incorporate your hobbies in a social environment. I'm trying to do something like that here. There's an archery club I'm thinking of joining. I'm hoping to meet some people there
<2023-03-05T04:58:05.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ah, yeah. I just keep avoiding things like that, because I'm scared of people.
<2023-03-05T05:00:29.000Z> Wormwood: Lol yea same here a bit. The first step is always awkward 
<2023-03-05T05:01:17.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: With crafting and stuff, problem is those are more or less exlusively female spaces, males aren't interested in that stuff.
<2023-03-05T05:03:27.000Z> Wormwood: Yea that's true, but I think it doesn't hurt to have more female friends as well. They can always help set you up with someone in the future
<2023-03-05T05:05:02.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Forgot about that, I'm an idiot.
<2023-03-05T05:09:00.000Z> Wormwood: Lol
<2023-03-05T05:10:16.000Z> Wormwood: I think you could use some female friends. It's not healthy to be alone and only engage with men. A lot of us are unsound
<2023-03-05T05:11:26.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I know, I have wanted friends for a long time.
<2023-03-05T05:12:49.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I just have been hurt so much, when people kept abandoning me.
<2023-03-05T05:22:16.000Z> Wormwood: ye I know the feeling
<2023-03-05T05:39:43.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I did ask retard services to hook me up on some small job, so there's that. It feels humiliating I have to use retard services, but I can't be fully independent, I need little help. There are other people who are fully independent, like my sister.
<2023-03-05T05:43:25.000Z> Wormwood: lol that's ok, use whatever you can get. I'm using my own retard services to try to get a job. Unfortunately, they seen to be more retarded than I am, so it's not going anywhere. but it's better than nothing 
<2023-03-05T05:48:37.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: lol, oke.
<2023-03-05T05:59:33.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Wanna plaaa?
<2023-03-05T06:03:56.000Z> Wormwood: hell yea. gimmie a few mins
<2023-03-05T06:19:14.000Z> Wormwood: ok I'm starting it
<2023-03-05T06:19:21.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yus
<2023-03-05T08:23:16.000Z> Wormwood: It's a little cluttered right now, but you can see it's a really simple desk, I didn't even need to make legs. There's a hole in the back for cables  https://i.poastcdn.org/9db04b5cde54be2cedd6fc8a52812dc661b953075e2e90d23cd8afba304e0ba9.jpg
<2023-03-05T08:24:04.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Oh yaas, lil painting corner. That's nice.
<2023-03-05T08:25:20.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: I have same little colour bottles, Citadel and Model color.
<2023-03-05T08:30:54.000Z> Wormwood: Oh nice. Do you do miniatures too?
<2023-03-05T08:31:51.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Not really, but would be interesting. It's been more for fixing paints on some old toys and figures I have fixed.
<2023-03-05T08:33:24.000Z> Wormwood: Oh I see yea it comes in handy
<2023-03-05T08:35:29.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Here's before https://chudbuds.lol/media/08fc32b4-b4f7-44b3-a959-dc88a2906944/minotaurus-pics.jpg
<2023-03-05T08:35:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: And after https://chudbuds.lol/media/0fb10ed1-8a7f-4d9e-898b-28039342f958/minotaurus-pics-1.jpg
<2023-03-05T08:59:29.000Z> Wormwood: that's so cool!
<2023-03-05T09:00:39.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Thanks
<2023-03-05T15:55:05.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: This one is one of my favourites, it's a bootleg mold copy of a knock off from He-Man's Battle Cat made by Chap Mei. https://chudbuds.lol/media/60160005-efc9-439e-885b-7b210b10ae13/huolto-5.png
<2023-03-05T15:55:11.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol attached file https://chudbuds.lol/media/be6543ba-10a0-47ad-a03d-1c2763c74ad5/huolto-6.png
<2023-03-05T15:57:48.000Z> Wormwood: Lmao yea it does look like the he-man cat thing
<2023-03-05T15:58:57.000Z> Wormwood: I'll have to show you some of my models when I get home. I've been repainting them, but it gets overwhelming sometimes 
<2023-03-05T16:00:17.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Yes, that would be nice.
<2023-03-05T18:36:00.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Look how cute she is! She's using a lil pillow. https://chudbuds.lol/media/ba3e7efa-0de4-44aa-9040-8e8c2cc88024/bunbuns12.png
<2023-03-05T23:44:41.000Z> Wormwood: Lol she's a cutie
<2023-03-06T03:06:01.000Z> Fiinikiivi@chudbuds.lol: Ngh, I'm awake
<2023-03-06T04:02:59.000Z> Wormwood: ay good morning
<2023-03-06T04:03:08.000Z> Wormwood: I took a big ass nap earlier lol