<2022-12-12T19:25:50.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: Hey godcast.  I need to talk to someone of your ilk.  I'm having a very tough time and someone with your theological knowledge could help me
<2022-12-12T19:32:42.000Z> Godcast: Sure thing, what's up?
<2022-12-12T20:09:17.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: So I have a problem.  My mother.  She hasn't passed away just yet.  She's on home hospice.
<2022-12-12T20:09:35.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: I'm so broken up.  I no longer want to carry on, even though she's still "alive"
<2022-12-12T20:09:42.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: like, literally.
<2022-12-12T20:10:00.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: she is the only family i have and has done things for me that most mothers would not do in my childhood
<2022-12-12T20:10:10.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: and i just want to know if there's anything worth living for.
<2022-12-12T20:10:13.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: i guess.
<2022-12-12T20:10:24.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: i can't stop crying.  and she's all I ever really had
<2022-12-12T20:10:57.000Z> Godcast: Well your mother certainly would want you to keep living on after her
<2022-12-12T20:11:38.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: i know that, but she's not actually here to tell me that, nor would she even know if I didn't keep on living.
<2022-12-12T20:11:50.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: she's "here" but you know what I mean
<2022-12-12T20:16:35.000Z> Godcast: Considering she's been with you this long, I think it's safe to say her last words to you wouldn't be to jump off a bridge. It's difficult dealing with loss, especially of a parent, and especially when they're reduced to being bedridden. The Bible tells us to honor our mother and father. I think the best way to do that is to take care of her while she's still here, and to live a life she'd be proud of when she's gone.
<2022-12-12T20:18:09.000Z> Godcast: I don't know where you fall on the spectrum of beliefs, but I recommend praying to God, out loud, for peace of mind and strength to face what you're going through. I'll be praying for both you and your mother as well
<2022-12-12T20:18:11.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: Godcast, the only thing that keeps me holding on is the 100% truth in the statement that I've done everything I can.  I haven't slept in 72 hours because I am her medical care and I've done everything by the book.
<2022-12-12T20:18:32.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: I've done more than even her nurses at the hospital
<2022-12-12T20:18:59.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: and it has given my life purpose.  for that, i'm carrying on.
<2022-12-12T20:20:00.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: i've had to have a drink or two to get me through it, but i'm doing more than anyone could reasonably be asked.
<2022-12-12T20:23:25.000Z> Godcast: Thats good. I think you deserve to give yourself some credit
<2022-12-12T20:29:54.000Z> Godcast: And if you need to blow off some steam, feel free. I'm here to help as best I can
<2022-12-12T20:35:20.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: thank you sir
<2022-12-12T20:35:23.000Z> WhiteDissidentRadio: i appreciate that
<2022-12-12T20:47:34.000Z> Godcast: Absolutely 