<2023-01-19T10:04:02.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: yo
<2023-01-19T10:04:05.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: i rly have noone to talk to
<2023-01-19T10:04:10.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: can you tell me a little bit
<2023-01-19T10:04:20.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: about how god has helped you in ur life please
<2023-01-19T10:04:22.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: significantly 
<2023-01-19T10:06:16.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Well there is a lot God helps with. Firstly the fact that he cleanses us from our sins and forgives us does help us find healing from past blunders and mistakes that we carry shame for. The cross helps us let go of that shame and allow ourselves to become better people through constant self discipline and reflection as well as grace for when we fall short 
<2023-01-19T10:06:35.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: idgaf about sins
<2023-01-19T10:06:36.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: can you tell him 
<2023-01-19T10:06:45.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: what he did in your life specifically that caused you to devote your life to him
<2023-01-19T10:06:57.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: tell me*
<2023-01-19T10:07:48.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: That is what he did though. He died for me so that I could have salvation. And this fact gives me hope throughout hardship 
<2023-01-19T10:08:00.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: cool thanks
<2023-01-19T10:08:36.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I'm sorry if that's not the answer you were looking for 
<2023-01-19T10:08:49.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: testimony 
<2023-01-19T10:08:50.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: not gospel
<2023-01-19T10:08:55.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: can you tell me testimony
<2023-01-19T10:09:02.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: of how in your life and the life of your husband
<2023-01-19T10:09:04.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: god did something
<2023-01-19T10:09:07.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: not what's written in the book
<2023-01-19T10:09:10.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: i already know that
<2023-01-19T10:09:17.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: can u tell me examples of it occurring in reality 
<2023-01-19T10:09:28.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Sure 
<2023-01-19T10:09:51.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: God gave me my husband at my lowest point in life 
<2023-01-19T10:10:07.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: At a time where I had given up on marriage and was planning to end it all 
<2023-01-19T10:10:29.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: can you explain this a bit please
<2023-01-19T10:10:46.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I was at a point where I didn't think godly men existed and was losing faith and the Lord sort of timed it all perfectly for me I suppose 
<2023-01-19T10:11:22.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Well. I was at the train tracks considering you know 
<2023-01-19T10:12:11.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: And then I ran into this man who starts rambling on about birds and his favourite trees and who is basically everything I ever wanted 
<2023-01-19T10:12:28.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: what same day?
<2023-01-19T10:12:46.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I do not think that to be a coincidence. That I was stopped at my lowest point from giving up and ending it all and then received all the blessings I ever wanted 
<2023-01-19T10:12:52.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Yes 
<2023-01-19T10:14:02.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: that sounds like it would be nice
<2023-01-19T10:14:08.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: And the odds that this person had my shared values and had even spoken to me in a few Christian communities online. That we were the same denomination, had the same political views and we just met by chance on the day I had given up 
<2023-01-19T10:14:37.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: It was a miracle really 
<2023-01-19T10:14:55.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I also do receive signs from God here and there which are nice too 
<2023-01-19T10:15:04.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: The most recent one was 
<2023-01-19T10:16:13.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Well I was struggling with ppd and getting upset at a lot of hardships I had, I had a complicated birth and lots of trauma and it didn't feel fair. And I prayed to God saying I am really struggling it's not fair and he basically told me to submit to Him even when life gets unfair 
<2023-01-19T10:16:39.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: And then later while I was reading a book, out of nowhere pops up the line submit to God even when it's unfair 
<2023-01-19T10:17:22.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I receive little things like that a lot and it reminds me to stay faithful 
<2023-01-19T10:17:45.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: i have never been unwilling to co-operate 
<2023-01-19T10:17:51.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: and yet it has always been unfair
<2023-01-19T10:17:58.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: as if im like some kind of experiment or something
<2023-01-19T10:18:16.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: then there's this torture of ahving faith and you can have it in the face of everything and he still never does fucking anything
<2023-01-19T10:18:18.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: just the usual 
<2023-01-19T10:18:47.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I understand, my life used to be like that 
<2023-01-19T10:19:19.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: One bad thing after the next. To the point where I wondered what I had done to have such a shit life 
<2023-01-19T10:19:38.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Until one day, so completely randomly, it became not shit. Everything just fell into place 
<2023-01-19T10:21:06.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: You aren't an experiment the world is just needlessly cruel sometimes 
<2023-01-19T10:21:43.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: And God doesn't sit back idly, he weeps for you and feels your pain 
<2023-01-19T10:24:11.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: >weeps for me
<2023-01-19T10:24:13.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I'm sorry for originally responding in more broad terms, but the gospel has really saved me in a lot of the way and I don't just mean the literal after life sense, but my sanity after some of the things I've experienced 
<2023-01-19T10:24:13.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: na he doesnt
<2023-01-19T10:24:22.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: ye i get it
<2023-01-19T10:24:27.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: but christians took a lot about how good god is
<2023-01-19T10:24:36.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: and when u ask for an example
<2023-01-19T10:24:48.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: 'oh something something jesus, you wouldnt udnerstand buddy, bible college'
<2023-01-19T10:26:07.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: It seems like you might be getting into the problem of suffering 
<2023-01-19T10:26:23.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Would you like a modern example or a biblical example of what God does? 
<2023-01-19T10:29:45.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: a real life example that actually occurred in my life after he was done making this kid who only wanted to do the right thing suffer since he was small please
<2023-01-19T10:35:38.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I'm sorry my brother in Christ, I can see you are hurting and I see your spiritual struggle 
<2023-01-19T10:35:55.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: God doesn't love you any less because your life has been hard and full of pain 
<2023-01-19T10:39:22.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: yeeeeees but this is the way it always ends isnt it
<2023-01-19T10:39:24.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: i dont want more from you
<2023-01-19T10:39:31.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: but it's literally like 'my life is Hell, not my problem'
<2023-01-19T10:39:42.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: you have some aids pregnancy and thus no time for someone else's suffering
<2023-01-19T10:39:44.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: and god made it like this
<2023-01-19T10:39:47.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: what a bunch of dogshit
<2023-01-19T10:39:50.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: id rather not live this life 
<2023-01-19T10:40:08.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: 'hehe aspire to all this shit' it's actually impossible
<2023-01-19T10:40:09.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: nty
<2023-01-19T10:40:15.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I'm not trying to offend you 
<2023-01-19T10:40:38.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I'm sorry I'm not very good at this 
<2023-01-19T10:40:42.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: ik thats what i said! 
<2023-01-19T10:40:46.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: you cant deal with this
<2023-01-19T10:40:48.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: bc ur life is aids
<2023-01-19T10:40:51.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: and my life is aids
<2023-01-19T10:41:01.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: and a bunch of the bible is about coming together and holding church and blah blah blah
<2023-01-19T10:41:02.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: but we can't!
<2023-01-19T10:41:07.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: because it's hellish dogshit!
<2023-01-19T10:41:09.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: meme!
<2023-01-19T10:41:47.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: The bible is clear it will be hellish dogshit though, because of the fall and because Satan rules this world 
<2023-01-19T10:42:46.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: right
<2023-01-19T10:42:48.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: so why participate 
<2023-01-19T10:43:04.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: why proclaim loudly the glory of god if you just lose anyway
<2023-01-19T10:43:10.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: infinite love, infinite creativity 
<2023-01-19T10:43:17.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: a lifetime of torture other people can't understand
<2023-01-19T10:43:19.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: epic, based
<2023-01-19T10:43:24.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Because you need to be salt and light in a word of darkness
<2023-01-19T10:43:28.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: nty
<2023-01-19T10:43:42.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: A lifetime of torture followed by an eternity of bliss if we endure 
<2023-01-19T10:44:12.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: just endure lol
<2023-01-19T10:44:22.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I recommend you write to the godcast about this spiritual warfare, those guys are very good 
<2023-01-19T10:44:32.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: ah of course
<2023-01-19T10:44:47.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: the most serious and intimate problems, a world of torture peopel can't understand
<2023-01-19T10:44:56.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: and in a world where Jesus is present
<2023-01-19T10:45:02.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: the solution is to appeal to ecelebs
<2023-01-19T10:45:07.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: like uh 
<2023-01-19T10:45:13.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: that's the type of advice i expect from a woman
<2023-01-19T10:45:16.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: but god damn fuck me for trying 
<2023-01-19T10:45:47.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Well one of those is a qualified pastor who is trained in these matters 
<2023-01-19T10:46:00.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: don't bother
<2023-01-19T10:46:30.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I'm sorry I didn't tell you what you need to hear today. I am going through spiritual battles of my own 
<2023-01-19T10:46:52.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/f01f6bb68079e9006086607fc922182d294723e10c3dc30c6763d83e8c0751ea.png
<2023-01-19T10:47:02.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: But you are strong and you are loved by Jesus, and if you need prayers please ask 
<2023-01-19T10:47:52.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I have really bad social anxiety and I don't handle these kinds of interactions well. It's not that I don't care I do
<2023-01-19T10:48:35.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: You are in my prayers 
<2023-01-19T10:48:44.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: ^_>
<2023-01-19T10:49:05.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: You don't need to be so mean 
<2023-01-19T10:49:31.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: I know it's normal to be bitter when this world is hard but Christians are on your side here
<2023-01-19T10:50:30.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: And I know laymen aren't always qualified for these discussions, like myself but we mean well. No use being antagonistic
<2023-01-19T10:50:47.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: na just holding you to your own values
<2023-01-19T10:50:50.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: niggas don't like that
<2023-01-19T10:51:16.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: What is it you want help with? 
<2023-01-19T10:52:31.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: >why proclaim loudly the glory of god if you just lose anyway
<2023-01-19T10:52:37.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: We don't lose the glory of God 
<2023-01-19T10:52:56.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: We have it forever, we will lose rhis temporary earthly life for something better one day 
<2023-01-19T10:55:30.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: Alright, my apologies 
<2023-01-19T11:01:50.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: ain't no thing shwaty
<2023-01-19T11:01:55.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: go off king
<2023-01-19T14:01:41.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: ye look thanks for bothering
<2023-01-19T14:01:51.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: i wasn't trying to be erratic i just hadn't come to terms with some things
<2023-01-19T14:01:57.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: you didn't do or say anything wrong
<2023-01-20T04:24:23.000Z> TheVeryLutheranHousewife: That's alright 
<2023-01-20T04:31:02.000Z> thinkinghmmmmmmm: <3