<2022-11-28T01:20:16.000Z> RMIV: i am never at ease when my parents are around. there is a constant sense of heightened threat that, since childhood, has never faded. my nervous system reflexively recognizes them as threats.the older i have become and, more importantly, grown in the Love of Christ do i see what their lives were composed of before i even existed. i increasingly understand the Time they came from and what notions they were saturated by. i thank God i have a (for my family anyway) mutant high-IQ and internet access where it has been possible to congregate with others like us and on places like fedi. i hold less & less against them but the sensation of threat when they are nearby doesn't really change. forgiveness may obviate debts but it does not erase scar tissue.this may be an awful thing to say but i will be glad... no, i will be relieved when they are dead. some part knowing they can never wound ever again will allow me to finally relax. or perhaps that is simply wishful and it will never really go away. i can't be sure until it comes about. but i do pray for them to turn to Christ, to know our Heavenly Father and repent before it is too late for they are old.anyway i lurked your chat with CQI and thought hey Jon gets it. didn't mean this is as an emotional dumping on you but only to say, hey man, i think i get it and i'm struggling with something that seems a lot like what you got. maybe you understand and i hope it helps.i pray for them to know God because praying for the pain or relationship to change was never effective. and they suck but if anyone can fix that it's God and He probly wouldn't be down wit me desiring my own Father & Mother's damnation, whatever their crimes & shortcomings. there but for the grace of God go i.yeah this was more than i meant to say and thanks for reading. i decided to drop it here instead of seeming to rudely insert myself into a conversation between you and CQI (he's a great fella). wasn't trying to derail that into a pity party that's all about me bro.
<2022-11-28T01:43:46.000Z> Insomnolant@wolfgirl.bar: Damn man, I'm sorry to hear that your parents are trapped in this hellscape of evil ideas the likes of which make them unable to connect with. I wish I had more advice to give you, but it does make me appreciate the fact that I can at least talk to my parents about what's going on and global jewry and Satanism, even if they're inculcated into Boomer tier secular nonsense. My grandpa being a nigger-loving, family-hating piece of crap is nowhere near as impactful to me as your own parents being that misguided, so I really don't have any sort of relevant advice.But I will pray for your parents. Pray for them to be shown things in the world around them that will let them open their eyes, and pray that you are given the words that are needed to break through the fog that has been spun around their awareness. I don't believe that anyone is beyond the Grace of God, and I also don't believe that none of us are irrelevant for the racial battle for our souls that God intends us to fight against the Enemy. So I'll pray that you are given the ammunition to fight that battle, both in words to use and the energy to use them.
<2022-11-28T01:47:18.000Z> RMIV: oh that's cool bro i wasn't seeking advice or a solution so much as just trying to connect with what seemed like something you too understood.the prayers are of course necessary and appreciated. i will pray for you and for nigger-loving grandpa this night too bro. we're going to make it and we're going to win.
<2022-11-28T01:53:33.000Z> Insomnolant@wolfgirl.bar: Man I gotta admit... What I'm going through is nowhere near what you're going through. My grandpa's case breaks my heart because my Dad is a good man who deserves a father who even cares that he's alive.You're dealing with parents you can't trust because they're devoted to a regime of evil. That's way more immediate and pressing. I'm sorry that you're going through that, I really am. But I'll pray for you, if not for the ability to save your parents, than at least for your own sanity in the meantime. 🙏
<2022-11-28T02:00:21.000Z> RMIV: oh i have a church fam now. it's not so bad as it was.thanks bro for the prayers. i'm not implying i don't need them or that they are unappreciated when i say that i'm not depressed or anything. i'd hate for you to think i am big big sad all the time. bless you dude & thank you.