<2023-02-23T06:21:12.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: sorry for giving you shit earlier. i hope you have a good night, ocean.
<2023-02-23T06:22:02.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: tbh ibs these days gives me indigestion. so anyway, goodnight.
<2023-02-24T17:53:49.000Z> OceanRedux: ive been feeling like shit recently so I really havent paid much attention 
<2023-02-24T17:53:53.000Z> OceanRedux: its fine lol
<2023-02-26T22:10:02.000Z> OceanRedux: btw does poast dm ever start glitching out on you and just start shaking uncontrollably up and down and if so is there anything I can do about it? lol
<2023-02-26T22:10:27.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: i don't have poast :u
<2023-02-26T22:10:30.000Z> OceanRedux: Like its messed up for me
<2023-02-26T22:10:39.000Z> OceanRedux: until the text reaches the top of the page
<2023-02-26T22:10:48.000Z> OceanRedux: and even then it nevr really fixes it
<2023-02-26T22:10:54.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: are you on mobile?
<2023-02-26T22:10:55.000Z> OceanRedux: its always glitched
<2023-02-26T22:12:30.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: close out the browser and start it back up.
<2023-02-26T22:22:23.000Z> OceanRedux: Like its fine right now because the chats reached the top
<2023-02-26T22:22:38.000Z> OceanRedux: but until I typed "and even then it never really fixes" it was shaking up and down and was hard to read
<2023-02-26T22:23:05.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: might be a poast thing. did you update it?
<2023-02-26T23:04:12.000Z> OceanRedux: I dont have any update options.
<2023-02-26T23:04:31.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: i dunno, try the window thing.
<2023-02-26T23:05:12.000Z> OceanRedux: yeah that actually fixed it
<2023-02-26T23:05:44.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: that's good! i think i might need a nap. .~.
<2023-02-26T23:06:09.000Z> OceanRedux: kidney / liver / stomach problems?
<2023-02-26T23:06:52.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: eh, i have kidney issues every now and then from now being hydrated.
<2023-02-26T23:06:57.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: not*
<2023-02-26T23:07:44.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: but it's mostly because it's warm in my room and the warmth makes me sleepy. wbu?
<2023-02-26T23:11:04.000Z> OceanRedux: what do u mean
<2023-02-26T23:11:15.000Z> OceanRedux: me needing 2 take naps?
<2023-02-26T23:11:49.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: no i mean do you have any of those issues?
<2023-02-26T23:12:17.000Z> OceanRedux: Oh for sure i have kidney contractions / kidney disease and stomach ulcers due to bad genetics mostly
<2023-02-26T23:12:26.000Z> OceanRedux: Plus when im on my period it all becomes way worse
<2023-02-26T23:12:46.000Z> OceanRedux: it only happens once like every 3-4 months tho but Im JUST NOW getting over being sick
<2023-02-26T23:12:53.000Z> OceanRedux: Ive had a nephrectomy before actually
<2023-02-26T23:13:12.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: i get kidney stones. 
<2023-02-26T23:14:03.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: you're very forward about this. that's horrible, how do you deal with it?
<2023-02-26T23:14:06.000Z> OceanRedux: kidney contracts are like that, except x100
<2023-02-26T23:14:17.000Z> OceanRedux: contractions*
<2023-02-26T23:14:24.000Z> OceanRedux: uh yeah lol its in my profile btw
<2023-02-26T23:14:35.000Z> OceanRedux: "I get sick often, like to drink a bit too much"
<2023-02-26T23:15:27.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: i know but you kinda just laid on me like cards. CHRIST ALIVE, how do you deal with that?
<2023-02-26T23:15:46.000Z> OceanRedux: Uh, mostly just not drinking, stay hydrated, take prescription medication for the stomach ulcers, flush my kidneys out with vitamin B and a saline drip, and pray to god it doesnt happen during those days of the month
<2023-02-26T23:15:52.000Z> OceanRedux: and make sure to never sleep on my sides
<2023-02-26T23:16:27.000Z> OceanRedux: also, when you have a combination like kidney contractions / issues flushing toxins AND you're losing blood due to internal stomach ulcers, you end up going flush, so I need cold air on me sometimes
<2023-02-26T23:16:55.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: sounds like a lot of work. i hope you're doing better with staying sober.
<2023-02-26T23:17:10.000Z> OceanRedux: oh, yeah Im ok now, Im pretty much past the worst of it lol
<2023-02-26T23:17:32.000Z> OceanRedux: I used to be a bartender so that didnt help my fucking situation
<2023-02-26T23:17:36.000Z> OceanRedux: lol
<2023-02-26T23:18:00.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: yeesh, what are you going to do with your stomach ulcers?
<2023-02-26T23:18:18.000Z> OceanRedux: The fucked up part is I had a nephrectomy BEFORE i started working as a bartender so I knew one of my kidneys was kind of tilted
<2023-02-26T23:18:27.000Z> OceanRedux: wait until they heal? wtf else can I do?
<2023-02-26T23:18:28.000Z> OceanRedux: lol
<2023-02-26T23:18:45.000Z> OceanRedux: just not eat any shit like sauces or pizza or things that can add acidity to my diet
<2023-02-26T23:19:41.000Z> OceanRedux: at least for a few days
<2023-02-26T23:20:14.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: idk, i had a friend that had ulcers before and she had to have surgeries a lot. what do you eat instead?
<2023-02-26T23:20:27.000Z> OceanRedux: for the most part im usually ok, I usually can wait a week and I just sweat most of it out and the contractions die down and the ulcers either heal or scab over and then I need to just watch what I drink
<2023-02-26T23:20:37.000Z> OceanRedux: but sometimes I get out of control and just go full tilt like an idiot
<2023-02-26T23:20:54.000Z> OceanRedux: and this is the result, me being fucked up for like 3-4 days lol
<2023-02-26T23:21:08.000Z> OceanRedux: thank god I dont have 2 work or else I'd be fired from every goddamn job ever LOL
<2023-02-26T23:21:27.000Z> OceanRedux: Ive had more than just a nephrectomy but im not sharing that lol
<2023-02-26T23:21:28.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: you're definitely tougher than most dealing with all of that.
<2023-02-26T23:22:16.000Z> OceanRedux: HMPH! 😤 :googlemuscleR: damn right
<2023-02-26T23:23:04.000Z> OceanRedux: my body is sensitive so lol
<2023-02-26T23:23:44.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: still pretty tough imo. now i understand the backpack bit.
<2023-02-26T23:24:23.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: cept i'm pretty sure in that instance you forgot.
<2023-02-26T23:24:57.000Z> OceanRedux: Like I said this doesnt happen often but when it does even talking from my diaphragm can hurt and theres a splitting acidic pain in my left side that makes me lurch to the right, and then I end up p000pin blood, no pee tho, thank god lol.  The last time this happened I was on my period at the same time and I just went ghost mode on the entire fucking internet
<2023-02-26T23:25:21.000Z> OceanRedux: I could only eat soup and drink water and essentially just scroll tiktok in bed while just shifting positions once every 30 minutes
<2023-02-26T23:26:50.000Z> OceanRedux: Having a messed up kidney (left one) AND having ulcers form in your GI tract around the same area is a 2 for 1 misery package
<2023-02-26T23:26:59.000Z> OceanRedux: add cramps onto that and trust me you're going to cry like a bitch
<2023-02-26T23:27:14.000Z> OceanRedux: and add blood loss to that even further and you'd pass out on the toilet
<2023-02-26T23:27:59.000Z> OceanRedux: lol and i'd rather not talk about the backpack thing
<2023-02-26T23:28:03.000Z> OceanRedux: if you dont mind
<2023-02-26T23:28:32.000Z> OceanRedux: u mentioning that makes me want to just fucking ignore you and this entire convo tbh m8
<2023-02-26T23:28:48.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: no worries, i don't want to talk about it either.
<2023-02-26T23:31:34.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: sorry for mentioning it. i was just saying i understand why you'd need one now. lot to carry around and it's pretty admirable that you can still do stuff, given all you're going through.
<2023-02-26T23:32:02.000Z> OceanRedux: what? No this wasnt happening when I was in college m8
<2023-02-26T23:32:16.000Z> OceanRedux: I started developing kidney issues by the end of college
<2023-02-26T23:32:26.000Z> OceanRedux: what fucking version of the story did you even get?
<2023-02-26T23:32:34.000Z> OceanRedux: retard lmao wtf
<2023-02-26T23:32:41.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: excuse me?
<2023-02-26T23:32:46.000Z> OceanRedux: let me guess, retards on discord or matrix?
<2023-02-26T23:32:49.000Z> OceanRedux: R
<2023-02-26T23:32:50.000Z> OceanRedux: e
<2023-02-26T23:32:51.000Z> OceanRedux: t
<2023-02-26T23:32:52.000Z> OceanRedux: a
<2023-02-26T23:32:53.000Z> OceanRedux: r
<2023-02-26T23:32:54.000Z> OceanRedux: d
<2023-02-26T23:33:16.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: i don't think that was warranted.
<2023-02-26T23:33:19.000Z> OceanRedux: You know before you apologized, that was the first time we'd ever interacted
<2023-02-26T23:33:32.000Z> OceanRedux: which means you knew about the backpack story through others
<2023-02-26T23:33:41.000Z> OceanRedux: because I certainly didnt tell you or see you in the threads
<2023-02-26T23:33:49.000Z> OceanRedux: where it was discussed
<2023-02-26T23:33:55.000Z> OceanRedux: and theres no kiwithread on it
<2023-02-26T23:34:20.000Z> OceanRedux: but no I didnt carry around a fucking backpack because I had kidney or stomach ulcers
<2023-02-26T23:35:29.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: who cares about the story? everyone has an embarrassing story, i'm not here to poke at you. just talking to you like a normal human being excuse me for not focusing on every other detail and not really understanding, not really cause for calling someone a retard.
<2023-02-26T23:35:30.000Z> OceanRedux: we just didnt have a communal trashcan, you had to supply your own and I didnt want the room and/or bathroom smelling foul so I stuffed the tampons I used into a ziplock bag and put them in a backpack, I fucking hate you people
<2023-02-26T23:35:32.000Z> OceanRedux: god men are so foul
<2023-02-26T23:36:10.000Z> OceanRedux: share one funny story and it spreads, i mean ofc it will, its the internet, but then you have people making up fanfiction about it
<2023-02-26T23:37:07.000Z> OceanRedux: anyway im gonna go lay down and read some manga jfc
<2023-02-26T23:37:34.000Z> OceanRedux: oh, and btw, this will obviously be shared with people
<2023-02-26T23:37:43.000Z> OceanRedux: so when you show them, make sure to include this
<2023-02-26T23:37:52.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: foul? everybody shits and everybody acts like a dumbass at some point. maybe if you stop acting like a cornered animal, maybe just, maybe someone would be nice to you and actually talk. 
<2023-02-26T23:37:56.000Z> OceanRedux: 🖕 
<2023-02-26T23:37:59.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: i'm not sharing shit, dude.
<2023-02-26T23:38:08.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: because i actually respect you.
<2023-02-26T23:38:10.000Z> OceanRedux: ok, "dude"
<2023-02-26T23:38:14.000Z> OceanRedux: uh huh
<2023-02-26T23:38:53.000Z> OceanRedux: The only reason I shared this is because its public knowledge. Sharing nudes or other private stories was a mistake.
<2023-02-26T23:39:08.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: i wouldn't do that to another person.
<2023-02-26T23:39:17.000Z> OceanRedux: If I started shit with you in public and started roasting every single thing you said I'm sure you'd be like most of the faggots on here and release DM's.
<2023-02-26T23:39:30.000Z> OceanRedux: Im the kind of person that will just take an L no matter how bad it is but I will never share DM's.
<2023-02-26T23:39:42.000Z> OceanRedux: I cant say the same for men, so I dont ever share things anymore.
<2023-02-26T23:40:10.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: no, i wouldn't release dms because i had that shit happen and it fucking SUCKS.
<2023-02-26T23:40:16.000Z> OceanRedux: especially fucking tit pics
<2023-02-26T23:40:39.000Z> OceanRedux: thats literally, what you just said - the same thing someone else said before they dropped DM's.
<2023-02-26T23:40:56.000Z> OceanRedux: Even the fucking owner graf told people I sent him tit pics unwarranted
<2023-02-26T23:40:56.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: and i'm not doing it.
<2023-02-26T23:41:10.000Z> OceanRedux: Not even the owner of poast can be fucking trusted.
<2023-02-26T23:42:13.000Z> OceanRedux: Anyway, im out, thanks for bringing up the backpack, you got the story wrong tho It had nothing to do with me being sick, it started happening b4 I moved here and I got a nephrectomy AFTER i moved here because my dad was concerned
<2023-02-26T23:42:43.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: ok, i got the story wrong. i don't care about the story.
<2023-02-26T23:46:40.000Z> littlev@chudbuds.lol: you can worry yourself or at least have some glimmer of hope in this shitty world that someone would actually keep to what he said. maybe i just wanted to talk to you. there's no Ls or Ws. i hope you have a good read and a mostly painless rest. i promise, nothing is uttered.