<2023-03-09T12:31:46.000Z> Nou: 😕
<2023-03-30T15:04:30.000Z> Nou: Please just respond.
<2023-03-30T15:04:34.000Z> Nou: Please.
<2023-03-30T16:35:44.000Z> Nou: Please just hear me out.
<2023-03-30T16:35:52.000Z> Nou: I'm begging you.
<2023-03-30T17:00:46.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: What's the point? 
<2023-03-30T17:03:00.000Z> Nou: Because I said something stupid.
<2023-03-30T17:03:12.000Z> Nou: I obviously didn't mean it.
<2023-03-30T17:03:32.000Z> Nou: You have said things you didn't mean when you were angry.
<2023-03-30T17:03:52.000Z> Nou: I know you wouldn't want that held against you forever.
<2023-03-30T17:04:22.000Z> Nou: Please don't throw everything away for a stupid slip of the tongue I didn't even mean.
<2023-03-30T17:05:50.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It's just a compounding never ending problem. It's not much different than ppl on here. They don't say something exactly right and you twist it into something else.  
<2023-03-30T17:06:00.000Z> Nou: These past few days I was scared. Scared of losing you. And everytime I reached out for you to tell me it was OK you just got mad.
<2023-03-30T17:06:43.000Z> Nou: I keep telling you. I'm not twisting anything.
<2023-03-30T17:06:48.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Because you couldn't act like a normal person and talk. You literally PUSHED me away with that shit. 
<2023-03-30T17:06:57.000Z> Nou: Yes.
<2023-03-30T17:07:01.000Z> Nou: I know.
<2023-03-30T17:07:05.000Z> Nou: Exactly.
<2023-03-30T17:08:02.000Z> Nou: I was scared, and I asked repeatedly for you to say we were good.
<2023-03-30T17:08:21.000Z> Nou: You never even told me you decided to stay together.
<2023-03-30T17:08:29.000Z> Nou: So I was confused.
<2023-03-30T17:09:22.000Z> Nou: I promise, if you give me another chance, with that clarity, it won't be like that.
<2023-03-30T17:09:44.000Z> Nou: Do you really nor see why I was confused?
<2023-03-30T17:09:52.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I was trying to see if it was possible. You immediately did the exact stuff you promised not to do. 
<2023-03-30T17:10:37.000Z> Nou: No. I promised not stew and get mad. And to come to you with my problems.
<2023-03-30T17:10:47.000Z> Nou: Which I did. Repeatedly.
<2023-03-30T17:11:12.000Z> Nou: I kept saying "I don't know where we stand, and I'm anxious."
<2023-03-30T17:11:37.000Z> Nou: When I wished you a good day, I was never mad.
<2023-03-30T17:12:04.000Z> Nou: And it wasn't blowing up or being angry.
<2023-03-30T17:12:22.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I saw it as snide. 
<2023-03-30T17:12:31.000Z> Nou: I know.
<2023-03-30T17:12:41.000Z> Nou: And I completely see why you did.
<2023-03-30T17:12:51.000Z> Nou: But I promise it wasn't.
<2023-03-30T17:13:20.000Z> Nou: Remember when I said why it was?
<2023-03-30T17:14:15.000Z> Nou attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/7963e6f6066d99927bda79b31bdfaaa739363562e9f207dd4685852711498b83.jpg
<2023-03-30T17:14:36.000Z> Nou: That's all this was.
<2023-03-30T17:15:01.000Z> Nou: I felt anxious because you weren't being open about how you felt.
<2023-03-30T17:15:11.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: That doesn't make it less passive-aggressive. 
<2023-03-30T17:15:22.000Z> Nou: Ok.
<2023-03-30T17:15:32.000Z> Nou: I still don't think it was.
<2023-03-30T17:15:44.000Z> Nou: But it is not that important to me.
<2023-03-30T17:15:49.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I didn't know. You gave me a bunch of malarkey about change...just to do it again. 
<2023-03-30T17:16:01.000Z> Nou: I didn't!
<2023-03-30T17:16:12.000Z> Nou: This is an entirely different thing.
<2023-03-30T17:16:24.000Z> Nou: The two are completely unrelated.
<2023-03-30T17:17:06.000Z> Nou: I changed the thing I said I would. You are blaming me for something you never even told me was a problem.
<2023-03-30T17:17:17.000Z> Nou: Now that I know, it's done.
<2023-03-30T17:17:39.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I have told you this repeatedly. At nauseum 
<2023-03-30T17:18:27.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Passive-aggressive shit drives me fucking insane. I can literally not relax. 
<2023-03-30T17:18:53.000Z> Nou: Ok. Now I know. I didn't know this is what you meant.
<2023-03-30T17:19:11.000Z> Nou: Because I don't see this as passive aggressive.
<2023-03-30T17:19:26.000Z> Nou: I didn't not change. I just didn't know.
<2023-03-30T17:20:18.000Z> Nou: Can I ask you a question?
<2023-03-30T17:20:18.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It is. Very much so. I cannot tell you how much  I fucking hate it. It makes my blood boil. 
<2023-03-30T17:20:30.000Z> Nou: Ok. I completely get it.
<2023-03-30T17:20:53.000Z> Nou: Doing that is not important to me. So if it hurts you, it's gone.
<2023-03-30T17:20:57.000Z> Nou: 100%.
<2023-03-30T17:21:06.000Z> Nou: I just didn't know.
<2023-03-30T17:21:36.000Z> Nou: I was never trying to hurt you with that. I just didn't know what you meant.
<2023-03-30T17:21:55.000Z> Nou: But now that I know? It's gone.
<2023-03-30T17:22:02.000Z> Nou: Absolutely. 100%.
<2023-03-30T17:22:54.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It's too much. Too long. 
<2023-03-30T17:23:53.000Z> Nou: Please, don't.
<2023-03-30T17:24:13.000Z> Nou: You're hurting me over something I didn't even know.
<2023-03-30T17:24:52.000Z> Nou: The exact thing you got mad at me for.
<2023-03-30T17:26:03.000Z> Nou: This isn't even something I need to work on like the being open.
<2023-03-30T17:26:24.000Z> Nou: It's just specific words. I can get rid of them no problem.
<2023-03-30T17:26:31.000Z> Nou: I just didn't know.
<2023-03-30T17:27:14.000Z> Nou: Can I ask you this?
<2023-03-30T17:27:48.000Z> Nou: When I was feeling neglected or like you were disinterested, what should I have done?
<2023-03-30T17:28:08.000Z> Nou: What was the right way to act? The right thing to say?
<2023-03-30T17:30:59.000Z> Nou: Because I did exactly what you asked.
<2023-03-30T17:32:15.000Z> Nou: So you're punishing me for doing what you asked...
<2023-03-30T17:35:17.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It wasn't that shit that pissed me of. It was the constant passive aggressive shit. Emotions are one thing. Poking me constant is. 
<2023-03-30T17:35:49.000Z> Nou: Hope... I was not trying to be passive aggressive.
<2023-03-30T17:36:27.000Z> Nou: I do not think wishing you a good day is passive aggressive. I still don't. Even after you said that.
<2023-03-30T17:36:50.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: The fuck you were. The snide shit was constant
<2023-03-30T17:36:52.000Z> Nou: But I will stop doing it if it bothers you. That is a very easy fix.
<2023-03-30T17:37:12.000Z> Nou: Hope... wishing you a good day was not snide.
<2023-03-30T17:37:28.000Z> Nou: In fact, I wanted you to wish me a good day.
<2023-03-30T17:37:38.000Z> Nou: I asked you to this morning.
<2023-03-30T17:38:00.000Z> Nou: It was not passive aggressive. It was not snide.
<2023-03-30T17:38:10.000Z> Nou: It was trying to be polite.
<2023-03-30T17:38:32.000Z> Nou: Like when I mentioned the "night" or "morning."
<2023-03-30T17:39:13.000Z> Nou: I was never snide about those. I just always said good morning or good night because I feel they are more polite.
<2023-03-30T17:39:34.000Z> Nou: All of this is because of tone being missed over text.
<2023-03-30T17:39:35.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: No you fucking weren't. It was a tantrum. I would literally be talking to you normal. About life. Responding to you. Look away for 2 seconds come back to...
<2023-03-30T17:39:43.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom attached file https://blockedur.mom/media/6b73f002f0d46c6f05ed3901ad3754fffa3017da9c1112c957f8888e19bd36cb.jpg
<2023-03-30T17:40:11.000Z> Nou: Yes. Do you remember why I said that?
<2023-03-30T17:40:11.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: That's a tantrum. Everytime I talked to you. 
<2023-03-30T17:40:25.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It was fucking everytime. 
<2023-03-30T17:40:41.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I literally couldn't relax and talk to you. 
<2023-03-30T17:40:59.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I never did everything right 
<2023-03-30T17:41:03.000Z> Nou: It was not a tantrum.
<2023-03-30T17:41:09.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Tantrum. 
<2023-03-30T17:41:36.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You kept doing it. Over and over until I explode
<2023-03-30T17:41:46.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: This is me exploding. 
<2023-03-30T17:41:55.000Z> Nou: I understand.
<2023-03-30T17:42:03.000Z> Nou: I get why you are upset.
<2023-03-30T17:42:31.000Z> Nou: But you have decided I was doing something I wasn't and are mad at me for it.
<2023-03-30T17:42:40.000Z> Nou: I don't think that is fair.
<2023-03-30T17:43:07.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It was everytime. Not one convo has happened without it. 
<2023-03-30T17:43:56.000Z> Nou: Hope, do you think I had any reason to think you were mad at me this week?
<2023-03-30T17:44:54.000Z> Nou: If so, when I asked you, probably 10 times, if you were upset or ok, did you ever answer me?
<2023-03-30T17:45:04.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Do you think it should be possible to have even one conversation with you without following a manbaby script?
<2023-03-30T17:45:12.000Z> Nou: Yes.
<2023-03-30T17:45:19.000Z> Nou: And I think it is.
<2023-03-30T17:45:36.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Apparently it wasn't. Because here we are. 
<2023-03-30T17:45:48.000Z> Nou: Asking you to tell me how you are feeling has nothing to do with a script.
<2023-03-30T17:46:15.000Z> Nou: And you refusing to tell me has nothing to do with a script.
<2023-03-30T17:46:42.000Z> Nou: I asked, and asked, and asked. You wouldn't tell me, so I didn't know.
<2023-03-30T17:46:55.000Z> Nou: There is nothing snide about that.
<2023-03-30T17:47:03.000Z> Nou: I am not a mind reader.
<2023-03-30T17:47:23.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I was seeing how things went. Easing back in to see if anything changed. Literally nothing. You got worse. 
<2023-03-30T17:48:38.000Z> Nou: I asked nearly 50 times if you wanted to talk. You refused to tell me. Now you are saying I was "snide" for not knowing what you would not tell me.
<2023-03-30T17:49:14.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Because dumbass. I just talk to you. I don't schedule texts. 
<2023-03-30T17:49:34.000Z> Nou: Ok. I understand that.
<2023-03-30T17:49:48.000Z> Nou: But I was not asking for a schedule.
<2023-03-30T17:50:04.000Z> Nou: I was asking "am I bothering you."
<2023-03-30T17:50:04.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You made it as fucking weird as humanly possible. 
<2023-03-30T17:50:20.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: And then were surprised that I was awkward. 
<2023-03-30T17:50:31.000Z> Nou: No, not at all.
<2023-03-30T17:50:41.000Z> Nou: This is what I keep saying.
<2023-03-30T17:50:59.000Z> Nou: I wasn't surprised. Or angry. Or being snide.
<2023-03-30T17:51:07.000Z> Nou: That's the disconnect.
<2023-03-30T17:51:20.000Z> Nou: That's why you think I was being an ass.
<2023-03-30T17:51:30.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: If I am actively fucking responding and talking to you. You are not bothering me. Saying that mid conversation is a fucking attack. 
<2023-03-30T17:51:31.000Z> Nou: But I promise I wasn't.
<2023-03-30T17:51:40.000Z> Nou: !?
<2023-03-30T17:51:48.000Z> Nou: It was not an attack.
<2023-03-30T17:51:53.000Z> Nou: Weird? Sure.
<2023-03-30T17:52:06.000Z> Nou: I don't have the best social skills.
<2023-03-30T17:52:24.000Z> Nou: I'm an online type of guy. Very left brained.
<2023-03-30T17:52:34.000Z> Nou: It is hard. Especially over text.
<2023-03-30T17:52:58.000Z> Nou: So I knew you were already mad.
<2023-03-30T17:53:16.000Z> Nou: And then you were being terse and cold.
<2023-03-30T17:53:31.000Z> Nou: Or at least what I thought was terse and cold.
<2023-03-30T17:53:38.000Z> Nou: And I was confused.
<2023-03-30T17:53:57.000Z> Nou: And then rather than give me feedback you got angrier.
<2023-03-30T17:54:09.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It was. You put me on defensive everytime..and got quiet. It makes me feel like I am not saying the right stuff or using the wrong words. It makes me feel inadequate. It makes it so I cannot converse with you relaxed. I am always on edge
<2023-03-30T17:54:38.000Z> Nou: Hope. It was not an attack.
<2023-03-30T17:55:00.000Z> Nou: Do not tell me why I say the things I do. That is unreasonable.
<2023-03-30T17:55:14.000Z> Nou: But I understand why it bothers you now.
<2023-03-30T17:55:21.000Z> Nou: I did not before.
<2023-03-30T17:55:49.000Z> Nou: It had nothing to do with you saying the wrong things.
<2023-03-30T17:56:04.000Z> Nou: It was entirely me being scared and anxious.
<2023-03-30T17:57:04.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I have not changed. I have explained this to you multiple times. 
<2023-03-30T17:58:16.000Z> Nou: Hope. You told me not to be passive aggressive. What I thought I was doing was taking a step back to calm myself, and give you space.
<2023-03-30T17:58:27.000Z> Nou: I did not connect the two at all.
<2023-03-30T17:58:42.000Z> Nou: That's all this is. A miscommunication.
<2023-03-30T17:59:13.000Z> Nou: If I had told you to stop being cold and terse, what would you have said?
<2023-03-30T17:59:23.000Z> Nou: Probably "I'm not."
<2023-03-30T17:59:37.000Z> Nou: Well... that's how I feel right now.
<2023-03-30T18:00:19.000Z> Nou: I didn't stop this because I didn't know it was a problem.
<2023-03-30T18:00:57.000Z> Nou: I didn't think wishing people a nice day or trying not to bother them came off as passive aggressive.
<2023-03-30T18:01:27.000Z> Nou: I still don't connect the two mentally.
<2023-03-30T18:01:42.000Z> Nou: But if it is a problem for you, I will stop 
<2023-03-30T18:02:21.000Z> Nou: I just didn't know. I genuinely had no idea.
<2023-03-30T18:02:24.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You know exactly what you were doing. Stop gaslighting. Emotional manipulation only pisses me off. 
<2023-03-30T18:02:51.000Z> Nou: I am not gaslighting. I am not trying to piss you off.
<2023-03-30T18:03:04.000Z> Nou: I am trying really hard to stay calm.
<2023-03-30T18:03:20.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Im over being pissed off K*****. 
<2023-03-30T18:03:42.000Z> Nou: Why would you do that to my name...
<2023-03-30T18:04:02.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Because this place is not safe. 
<2023-03-30T18:04:02.000Z> Nou: But yes. I know you are pissed.
<2023-03-30T18:04:33.000Z> Nou: You are pissed at me because I was trying to give you space and to calm my anxiety.
<2023-03-30T18:04:41.000Z> Nou: It was not being snide.
<2023-03-30T18:05:29.000Z> Nou: It was seeing a problem, even if I was wrong, and trying to give us both time to sort ourselves.
<2023-03-30T18:05:46.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I'm mad because your means of doing it was to intentionally make me feel like shit everytime I talked to you. 
<2023-03-30T18:05:57.000Z> Nou: It wasn't!
<2023-03-30T18:06:06.000Z> Nou: Wtf would I do that!?
<2023-03-30T18:06:36.000Z> Nou: What possible good would trying to make you feel like shit accomplish?
<2023-03-30T18:07:00.000Z> Nou: The accusation doesn't even make sense.
<2023-03-30T18:07:35.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Google something for me. "Using guilt as a weapon" do some reading. 
<2023-03-30T18:07:44.000Z> Nou: Ok
<2023-03-30T18:08:34.000Z> Nou: What does this have to do with anything?
<2023-03-30T18:09:02.000Z> Nou: Where does guilt come into this?
<2023-03-30T18:09:33.000Z> Nou: I know what a guilt trip is.
<2023-03-30T18:10:00.000Z> Nou: But what does that have to do with thinking you're annoyed with me.
<2023-03-30T18:10:31.000Z> Nou: Are you saying I thought you would be guilty for being annoyed with me?
<2023-03-30T18:10:46.000Z> Nou: Lol. Wtf?
<2023-03-30T18:10:47.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: What exactly do you think you are doing everytime you try and make me feel like shit...every time I talk to you. 
<2023-03-30T18:11:26.000Z> Nou: THAT'S WHAT I'M SAYING! I HAVE NEVER ONCE TRIED TO MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT!
<2023-03-30T18:11:49.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Sorry to bother you. 
<2023-03-30T18:11:53.000Z> Nou: Stepping away when you are angry at me makes no sense as a guilt trip
<2023-03-30T18:11:55.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Have a good day. 
<2023-03-30T18:12:13.000Z> Nou: THOSE ARE BEING POLITE
<2023-03-30T18:12:47.000Z> Nou: What should I have said when I thought I was bothering you.
<2023-03-30T18:12:58.000Z> Nou: Genuine question.
<2023-03-30T18:13:07.000Z> Nou: Because you say don't ask.
<2023-03-30T18:13:16.000Z> Nou: You say don't apologize.
<2023-03-30T18:13:30.000Z> Nou: Genuinely wtf was I supposed to say.
<2023-03-30T18:15:07.000Z> Nou: You say I want a script.
<2023-03-30T18:15:45.000Z> Nou: But you are the one who is mad at me for saying what I thought was polite and can't even tell me why.
<2023-03-30T18:18:23.000Z> Nou: Can you please answer that?
<2023-03-30T18:18:23.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I am literally talking to you when you say it. It's fucking insulting. 
<2023-03-30T18:18:31.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I am at work. 
<2023-03-30T18:19:04.000Z> Nou: Have you ever talked to someone you were annoyed with?
<2023-03-30T18:19:50.000Z> Nou: Because "I am talking to you" does not automatically mean "I am not annoyed with you."
<2023-03-30T18:20:00.000Z> Nou: That's not an insult.
<2023-03-30T18:20:02.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Not normally. I was trying to have normal conversations with you. 
<2023-03-30T18:20:16.000Z> Nou: It's certainly not intended as such.
<2023-03-30T18:20:23.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You couldn't even pull that off
<2023-03-30T18:20:41.000Z> Nou: I can!
<2023-03-30T18:20:56.000Z> Nou: I just needed to know that's what you wanted.
<2023-03-30T18:21:00.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I couldn't tell you how my day was going without an attack. 
<2023-03-30T18:21:17.000Z> Nou: I DIDN'T ATTACK YOU ONCE!
<2023-03-30T18:21:22.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It makes it fucking impossible
<2023-03-30T18:22:28.000Z> Nou: I understand why that would be impossible.
<2023-03-30T18:22:50.000Z> Nou: Do you understand why it would be hard on my end?
<2023-03-30T18:23:30.000Z> Nou: Getting nothing but cold, one word answers.
<2023-03-30T18:23:54.000Z> Nou: Four or five messages left on read and completely ignored.
<2023-03-30T18:24:35.000Z> Nou: No kinds of questions in return. No "How about you?" When I ask how you're doing.
<2023-03-30T18:24:39.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I am at work. You want to know how I know it's manipulation?
<2023-03-30T18:24:47.000Z> Nou: How.
<2023-03-30T18:29:13.000Z> Nou: Because honestly it is nerve wracking being accused of thinking things I never thought.
<2023-03-30T18:29:17.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Because object one is guilt. And is always followed a few minutes later by object 2 when it didn't work. In this case I was simply making my daughter a protein shake and came back literally in the time it took to make it...you had escalated.   https://blockedur.mom/media/c44cb201b034d6c5478624b51ca5875d18b7c0476a912fc1ed81a25113d5f2c6.jpg
<2023-03-30T18:29:50.000Z> Nou: What?
<2023-03-30T18:30:34.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Similar events have happened literally everyday. 
<2023-03-30T18:30:35.000Z> Nou: Do you really not see where I thought you were mad there?
<2023-03-30T18:31:00.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You read shit into things. 
<2023-03-30T18:31:30.000Z> Nou: Hope, I wished you a good day, and instead of "thanks" or "you too" I got you wishing yourself a good day.
<2023-03-30T18:31:38.000Z> Nou: 0 gratitude.
<2023-03-30T18:31:45.000Z> Nou: 0 concern for me.
<2023-03-30T18:31:56.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You do that guilt me into response...you had done that directly before that display. 
<2023-03-30T18:32:04.000Z> Nou: THAT makes it sound like you are mad.
<2023-03-30T18:32:13.000Z> Nou: Wtf is the guilt!?
<2023-03-30T18:32:20.000Z> Nou: It makes no sense.
<2023-03-30T18:33:35.000Z> Nou: If you were talking to someone, and they refused to give you any pleasantries, would you think they were happy with you?
<2023-03-30T18:34:40.000Z> Nou: You claim I read too much into things.
<2023-03-30T18:34:50.000Z> Nou: But that is what you are doing.
<2023-03-30T18:35:05.000Z> Nou: You see an attempt to guilt where there was none.
<2023-03-30T18:35:20.000Z> Nou: And where it doesn't even make sense to be.
<2023-03-30T18:35:35.000Z> Nou: Because there is nothing to feel guilty about.
<2023-03-30T18:35:41.000Z> Nou: It makes no sense.
<2023-03-30T18:36:55.000Z> Nou: You are mad at me for something I didn't even do!
<2023-03-30T18:39:22.000Z> Nou: How am I supposed to show you I wasn't doing something that you claim I was with zero evidence.
<2023-03-30T18:39:37.000Z> Nou: And can't even explain why you think I was.
<2023-03-30T18:39:52.000Z> Nou: Wt actual fuck!?
<2023-03-30T18:43:12.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I was talking to you. You read shit into it. Is talking to me now possible?
<2023-03-30T18:43:17.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Not*
<2023-03-30T18:43:51.000Z> Nou: Of course it is possible.
<2023-03-30T18:44:00.000Z> Nou: I misread your tone.
<2023-03-30T18:44:25.000Z> Nou: The same thing you are doing to me right now.
<2023-03-30T18:44:57.000Z> Nou: Just because you are talking doesn't mean you aren't mad.
<2023-03-30T18:45:10.000Z> Nou: We're talking right now and you are mad.
<2023-03-30T18:45:20.000Z> Nou: So it is obviously possible.
<2023-03-30T18:45:42.000Z> Nou: And then when I ask if you are mad, or ok, you get more mad.
<2023-03-30T18:46:00.000Z> Nou: Because you say it's weird.
<2023-03-30T18:46:05.000Z> Nou: Which it is.
<2023-03-30T18:46:21.000Z> Nou: But you won't give me anything else to go off of.
<2023-03-30T18:47:57.000Z> Nou: Serious question. When we are talking, and you seem mad, what am I supposed to do?
<2023-03-30T18:48:12.000Z> Nou: Because everything I try makes it worse.
<2023-03-30T18:48:29.000Z> Nou: Including the thing you flat out told me to do.
<2023-03-30T18:49:33.000Z> Nou: So what? What was the right thing to do?
<2023-03-30T18:53:48.000Z> Nou: Tell me, and I will do it.
<2023-03-30T18:54:01.000Z> Nou: I just want to make you happy.
<2023-03-30T18:54:23.000Z> Nou: That's why it's so frustrating when you accuse me of attacks.
<2023-03-30T18:54:32.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I am very very rarely upset. You poke abd poke and poke until I explode. 
<2023-03-30T18:54:57.000Z> Nou: Ok
<2023-03-30T18:55:14.000Z> Nou: Do you understand why it might not look that way?
<2023-03-30T18:55:33.000Z> Nou: But I mean it.
<2023-03-30T18:56:14.000Z> Nou: We're talking. You say something that seems cold. Or you ignore a question or me trying to be polite/flirty.
<2023-03-30T18:56:30.000Z> Nou: What am I supposed to do in that situation?
<2023-03-30T18:57:39.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: No. Quite frankly K. You twist everything I say to negative. You take everything tge worst possible way. 
<2023-03-30T18:57:51.000Z> Nou: No what?
<2023-03-30T18:58:22.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: >do you understand why it might look that way?
<2023-03-30T18:58:29.000Z> Nou: Oh. Ok.
<2023-03-30T18:58:56.000Z> Nou: But what am I supposed to do when it does seem that way?
<2023-03-30T18:59:04.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I fucking tired. 
<2023-03-30T18:59:23.000Z> Nou: What?
<2023-03-30T19:00:23.000Z> Nou: You tried? Or you're tired?
<2023-03-30T19:01:56.000Z> Nou: Because I did exactly what you told me.
<2023-03-30T19:02:20.000Z> Nou: And you ignored me or flipped out.
<2023-03-30T19:05:08.000Z> Nou: Please.
<2023-03-30T19:05:18.000Z> Nou: Just give me another shot.
<2023-03-30T19:05:30.000Z> Nou: I understand what the issue is now.
<2023-03-30T19:05:38.000Z> Nou: I didn't before.
<2023-03-30T19:08:11.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Tired this same conversation over and over. 
<2023-03-30T19:11:36.000Z> Nou: But it's not.
<2023-03-30T19:12:06.000Z> Nou: You told me a hundred different times the problem was me getting mad and blowing up at you.
<2023-03-30T19:12:20.000Z> Nou: And not coming to you when I had an issue.
<2023-03-30T19:12:40.000Z> Nou: I came to you every single time I had a problem this week.
<2023-03-30T19:12:59.000Z> Nou: I was open and upfront everytime. Without fail.
<2023-03-30T19:13:49.000Z> Nou: Now you after I made positive change, you claim it is me being "passive-aggressive". Something I didn't even do.
<2023-03-30T19:14:05.000Z> Nou: It is not the same conversation.
<2023-03-30T19:14:12.000Z> Nou: Not even a little.
<2023-03-30T19:14:34.000Z> Nou: I worked my ass off to change, and you moved the goalposts.
<2023-03-30T19:14:54.000Z> Nou: And even after you moved them, I am willing to accomodate.
<2023-03-30T19:15:03.000Z> Nou: Because I care about you.
<2023-03-30T19:16:59.000Z> Nou: I have not blown up at you once all week.
<2023-03-30T19:17:28.000Z> Nou: But you act like this new problem is something I can't/won't change.
<2023-03-30T19:18:55.000Z> Nou: Please Hope.
<2023-03-30T19:26:41.000Z> Nou: This was all just a misunderstanding.
<2023-03-30T19:31:44.000Z> Nou: Wait a second.
<2023-03-30T19:32:18.000Z> Nou: You said earlier you were evading my questions because you weren't sure where we stood.
<2023-03-30T19:32:26.000Z> Nou: So something was up.
<2023-03-30T19:32:38.000Z> Nou: I didn't misread anything.
<2023-03-30T19:33:29.000Z> Nou: So you are mad at me for accurately reading that you were upset, and trying to deal with it in a mature way without blowing up.
<2023-03-30T19:34:05.000Z> Nou: This is not the "same conversation."
<2023-03-30T19:34:21.000Z> Nou: This is you looking for a reason to be mad at me.
<2023-03-30T19:36:37.000Z> Nou: You wouldn't even wish me a good night or ask how I was doing, but you pretend it was unreasonable to think you were upset.
<2023-03-30T19:37:05.000Z> Nou: Even though you admit you were avoiding my questions because you were upset.
<2023-03-30T19:37:12.000Z> Nou: What the hell!?
<2023-03-30T19:39:47.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Creating narratives again I see. 
<2023-03-30T19:40:07.000Z> Nou: Do you want the screencap?
<2023-03-30T19:40:29.000Z> Nou: Did you say you were ignoring my questions?
<2023-03-30T19:40:34.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Just had to install a headset and I come back to a whole new thing. 
<2023-03-30T19:40:47.000Z> Nou: Sorry.
<2023-03-30T19:40:53.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I said I was trying to ease back in. 
<2023-03-30T19:41:01.000Z> Nou: Yes. Right.
<2023-03-30T19:41:22.000Z> Nou: Do you get why that unease might come off as disinterest?
<2023-03-30T19:41:47.000Z> Nou: I admit that I read it wrong. Fine.
<2023-03-30T19:42:02.000Z> Nou: But you are mad at me for a misunderstanding.
<2023-03-30T19:42:03.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Everytime I tried to relax and talk with you. You started stuff. 
<2023-03-30T19:42:14.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I feel like a broken record. 
<2023-03-30T19:42:16.000Z> Nou: That's the thing.
<2023-03-30T19:42:30.000Z> Nou: I didn't think I was starting anything.
<2023-03-30T19:42:50.000Z> Nou: "Here, have some space" doesn't seem like starting anything.
<2023-03-30T19:42:57.000Z> Nou: The exact opposite.
<2023-03-30T19:43:03.000Z> Nou: To me, anyway.
<2023-03-30T19:43:31.000Z> Nou: Please Hope.
<2023-03-30T19:43:45.000Z> Nou: Don't kill this over a misunderstanding.
<2023-03-30T19:44:15.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: The point of text message is getting to things when you can. I step away for a sec to deal with rl responsibilities and I comeback to you having had a entire conversation inside your head. It's never once positive. 
<2023-03-30T19:44:44.000Z> Nou: I don't look at text messages that way.
<2023-03-30T19:44:53.000Z> Nou: But, it makes sense.
<2023-03-30T19:45:01.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It's not a chat room. 
<2023-03-30T19:45:15.000Z> Nou: I tend to think of it that way.
<2023-03-30T19:45:32.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I am not available to stare at my phone at every moment. 
<2023-03-30T19:45:44.000Z> Nou: No, of course not.
<2023-03-30T19:45:44.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Expecting that of me is ridiculous 
<2023-03-30T19:45:59.000Z> Nou: That's not what I expected.
<2023-03-30T19:46:10.000Z> Nou: Ok. Can I explain?
<2023-03-30T19:46:28.000Z> Nou: So, we don't really talk on the phone.
<2023-03-30T19:46:37.000Z> Nou: Once a week, maybe.
<2023-03-30T19:47:31.000Z> Nou: So in my mind I was just treating texts as phone conversations. Or what would be in person conversations if we were together physically.
<2023-03-30T19:47:34.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You do realize that was because you told me you are available like one day a week. 
<2023-03-30T19:47:53.000Z> Nou: No. Actually I didn't realize that.
<2023-03-30T19:48:14.000Z> Nou: I thought that was all you wanted.
<2023-03-30T19:48:34.000Z> Nou: But, fine. I'll take the blame on that.
<2023-03-30T19:48:44.000Z> Nou: My point is, you are right.
<2023-03-30T19:48:56.000Z> Nou: I was thinking about texting all wrong.
<2023-03-30T19:49:08.000Z> Nou: I agree.
<2023-03-30T19:49:45.000Z> Nou: A lot of this makes a lot more sense now.
<2023-03-30T19:50:14.000Z> Nou: If we were to try again, would you be open to me calling you?
<2023-03-30T19:50:20.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Texts are 💯 percent of the time access. I can't tether myself to my phone. 
<2023-03-30T19:50:36.000Z> Nou: No. Absolutely.
<2023-03-30T19:50:44.000Z> Nou: You are 100% right.
<2023-03-30T19:50:54.000Z> Nou: I was wrong.
<2023-03-30T19:51:11.000Z> Nou: I can't believe I never thought of it like that.
<2023-03-30T19:51:20.000Z> Nou: You are absolutely right.
<2023-03-30T19:51:49.000Z> Nou: That is a very good point.
<2023-03-30T19:52:37.000Z> Nou: If you were to give me another chance, would you be open to me calling you?
<2023-03-30T19:53:16.000Z> Nou: It would alleviate a lot of the anxiety.
<2023-03-30T19:54:05.000Z> Nou: I genuinely thought you preffered all communication be through text.
<2023-03-30T19:55:08.000Z> Nou: I thought if we didn't text regularly we'd just never talk.
<2023-03-30T19:58:47.000Z> Nou: That changes a lot...
<2023-03-30T19:58:50.000Z> Nou: 😕
<2023-03-30T20:02:14.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I genuinely don't think I can do this anymore. We spend half the week fighting. I never seem to do anything right. We never hang out because you create reasons to fight every morning of they day we are supposed to. So what I am left with is someone I can't talk to...who hates everything I say...who I am never good enough on my own...All I do is stress you out without even meaning. I went to take my child to a class and you had started and ended a fight with me by the time I was available to say good night you had all ready determined I was ignoring you and being mean. I am never intentionally mean. I never get an opportunity to answer before you take insult. 
<2023-03-30T20:03:05.000Z> Nou: I understand all that.
<2023-03-30T20:03:16.000Z> Nou: But what you just said was huge.
<2023-03-30T20:03:28.000Z> Nou: Think about it this way.
<2023-03-30T20:04:05.000Z> Nou: I thought you were intentionally blowing me off over our only means of communication.
<2023-03-30T20:04:37.000Z> Nou: All of our problems come from me thinking you wanted to cut off the only way we had to talk.
<2023-03-30T20:05:16.000Z> Nou: And you thinking I was demanding you answer every "when I get to it" text.
<2023-03-30T20:05:51.000Z> Nou: That is a huge deal, on both sides.
<2023-03-30T20:06:27.000Z> Nou: I mean, how many of our problems were because I was hurt I thought you were cutting off communication.
<2023-03-30T20:06:34.000Z> Nou: 90%? 99%?
<2023-03-30T20:07:15.000Z> Nou: But like... this gets rid of that problem.
<2023-03-30T20:07:39.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: There is no way you don't understand text messages. 
<2023-03-30T20:08:09.000Z> Nou: I told you my last major girlfriend was Canadian?
<2023-03-30T20:08:44.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You did not. 
<2023-03-30T20:09:02.000Z> Nou: Yeah. The one who made me watch Avatar.
<2023-03-30T20:09:42.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Okay
<2023-03-30T20:09:54.000Z> Nou: Anyway, she ended up having to move back up there for a bit. And the international calling was a nightmare.
<2023-03-30T20:10:07.000Z> Nou: So everything was over text.
<2023-03-30T20:10:17.000Z> Nou: Well... telegram.
<2023-03-30T20:10:30.000Z> Nou: But, a text medium.
<2023-03-30T20:11:09.000Z> Nou: Calls were for big events.
<2023-03-30T20:11:47.000Z> Nou: So that is very much the mindset I have been in.
<2023-03-30T20:12:39.000Z> Nou: We would text through out the week. Call on birthdays and holidays, and then kind of alternate driving to see each other.
<2023-03-30T20:13:05.000Z> Nou: But doing anything over voice was a big production.
<2023-03-30T20:13:27.000Z> Nou: I just assumed you were the same way.
<2023-03-30T20:15:19.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: That doesn't explain why you are desperate to give me anxiety over stepping away from my phone. 
<2023-03-30T20:15:43.000Z> Nou: So, it kind of does.
<2023-03-30T20:16:20.000Z> Nou: When you step away, you think you're leaving a text for a few minutes.
<2023-03-30T20:16:53.000Z> Nou: But it feels, to me, like you are cutting off the only way of talking.
<2023-03-30T20:17:20.000Z> Nou: Much like when my ex would disappear for days or weeks at a time.
<2023-03-30T20:17:55.000Z> Nou: Because I have been thinking of it as my connection to you.
<2023-03-30T20:18:04.000Z> Nou: As in, the only one.
<2023-03-30T20:18:11.000Z> Nou: Not one of several.
<2023-03-30T20:18:39.000Z> Nou: So, to me, it feels like you disappearing.
<2023-03-30T20:19:05.000Z> Nou: To you, it doesn't feel like anything. Because why would it.
<2023-03-30T20:19:06.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I 💯 do not understand. You have been having me in panics. Everytime I work I know I am going to be walking into a fight. 
<2023-03-30T20:19:32.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You get how looney tunes that is? 
<2023-03-30T20:19:38.000Z> Nou: Yes.
<2023-03-30T20:20:19.000Z> Nou: I'm trying to think of a way to explain it...
<2023-03-30T20:20:52.000Z> Nou: How would you feel if I just completely disappeared from your life?
<2023-03-30T20:23:01.000Z> Nou: I don't know. Probably not worth examining.
<2023-03-30T20:23:04.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I would be excited for my day. I would go to work. Get busy. And come back to a fight. I dread it. Not because I don't want to talk...but because me existing and having responsibilities in rl causes a fight. It is fucking stressful. It's like performance anxiety and losing by living. 
<2023-03-30T20:23:43.000Z> Nou: Right, I understand that now.
<2023-03-30T20:24:18.000Z> Nou: But with Zoey and then online dating between her and you, everything has been over text.
<2023-03-30T20:24:56.000Z> Nou: So when I don't get an answer, I don't think "Oh, she'll get it when she gets it."
<2023-03-30T20:25:09.000Z> Nou: I think "Oh. She's gone."
<2023-03-30T20:25:42.000Z> Nou: Because if you're online dating or whatever and a girl stops texting... she is gone.
<2023-03-30T20:25:59.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Did she flip out like this too? Because holy shit it is like 5 pounds of extra stress. 
<2023-03-30T20:26:21.000Z> Nou: No.
<2023-03-30T20:26:32.000Z> Nou: Actually, kind of the opposite.
<2023-03-30T20:26:35.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Hey ding dong. While I am at work...3 hours of silence means the lady is busy af. 
<2023-03-30T20:26:43.000Z> Nou: Yes.
<2023-03-30T20:26:58.000Z> Nou: You are right. I have been a complete ding dong.
<2023-03-30T20:27:17.000Z> Nou: I... am honestly very embarrassed I never thought of this.
<2023-03-30T20:27:32.000Z> Nou: It's not a great feeling.
<2023-03-30T20:27:49.000Z> Nou: And no. She did not have the same issue.
<2023-03-30T20:28:09.000Z> Nou: Quite the reverse.
<2023-03-30T20:28:28.000Z> Nou: She would get on my case for not answering quick enough.
<2023-03-30T20:29:02.000Z> Nou: Which... now that I say it is probably contributing to the problem.
<2023-03-30T20:29:05.000Z> Nou: 😕
<2023-03-30T20:29:36.000Z> Nou: But I really do think this is a huge breakthrough.
<2023-03-30T20:29:55.000Z> Nou: I think this resolves most if not all of our issues.
<2023-03-30T20:31:31.000Z> Nou: Oh, and you said you don't believe I don't understand text messages.
<2023-03-30T20:32:10.000Z> Nou: Dating apps now actually have a place to fill out whether you talk over text or phone calls.
<2023-03-30T20:32:48.000Z> Nou: Treating text messages as the only form of communication is way more common than you think.
<2023-03-30T20:36:51.000Z> Nou: Plus, I'm new to the long distance thing.
<2023-03-30T20:37:11.000Z> Nou: I feel like if we don't talk everyday, something is wrong.
<2023-03-30T20:38:19.000Z> Nou: But it sounds like this solves the anxiety both of us have been feeling.
<2023-03-30T20:42:04.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It was my last straw. I told you I didn't need more stress. You gave me stress tenfold and gave me no outlet to talk to you. I have too much stress as is. I'm exhausted. 
<2023-03-30T20:42:37.000Z> Nou: Hope... I absolutely gave you an outlet to talk to me.
<2023-03-30T20:42:45.000Z> Nou: That's all I wanted.
<2023-03-30T20:43:14.000Z> Nou: I begged you over and over to talk to me.
<2023-03-30T20:43:58.000Z> Nou: That's still all I want.
<2023-03-30T20:44:16.000Z> Nou: Your entire problem is I want you to talk to me.
<2023-03-30T20:44:25.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: But everytime I did..you made it worse. 
<2023-03-30T20:44:56.000Z> Nou: I don't understand.
<2023-03-30T20:45:03.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I was no longer me. I was a dancing monkey. 
<2023-03-30T20:45:17.000Z> Nou: What do you mean?
<2023-03-30T20:45:46.000Z> Nou: I never once asked you not to be you.
<2023-03-30T20:46:52.000Z> Nou: "I'm anxious because you're not answering me" isn't really turning you into a dancing monkey.
<2023-03-30T20:47:32.000Z> Nou: And that was only the really problem I've ever had.
<2023-03-30T20:47:55.000Z> Nou: And it sounds like we worked that out.
<2023-03-30T20:49:48.000Z> Nou: I don't get it.
<2023-03-30T20:49:55.000Z> Nou: This is fixed.
<2023-03-30T20:50:32.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: We've played this game before. I am literally saying the same things I have always said. 
<2023-03-30T20:50:33.000Z> Nou: It was such a huge breakthrough and now you're moving the goalposts again.
<2023-03-30T20:51:18.000Z> Nou: How is "I'm anxious because you're not answering me" making you a dancing monkey?
<2023-03-30T20:51:27.000Z> Nou: And no you're not.
<2023-03-30T20:51:55.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I'm not moving the goal post Kevin. I said I was done. You spammed me with calls and begged me to respond. I again said the same shit I have said in every other conversation. 
<2023-03-30T20:52:10.000Z> Nou: First the problem was me stewing and getting angry rather than coming to you.
<2023-03-30T20:52:24.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Because if I didn't get to the texts right away or say the right words, you were mad at me. 
<2023-03-30T20:52:37.000Z> Nou: Then when I didn't do that, you claimed I was being passive aggressive.
<2023-03-30T20:53:02.000Z> Nou: Now that we figured that out, it's that I was making you not you.
<2023-03-30T20:53:20.000Z> Nou: Those are three very different and unrelated things.
<2023-03-30T20:53:21.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Passive-aggressive is how you deal with everything. It's like death by 1000 cuts. You keep slicing until I break. 
<2023-03-30T20:53:50.000Z> Nou: But it's not!
<2023-03-30T20:54:25.000Z> Nou: You have just decided that obviously not passive-aggressive things are me being passive-aggressive.
<2023-03-30T20:54:32.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Kevin...you clearly created other answers because everything we are talking about right now has been said a million times.  
<2023-03-30T20:55:12.000Z> Nou: No. You made three entirely different claims about what the problem was.
<2023-03-30T20:55:29.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It is 💯 passive aggressive. You said curt things to illicit a response. They aren't genuine. They are stewing. 
<2023-03-30T20:55:42.000Z> Nou: I literally cannot be both blowing up at you and passive aggressive at the same time.
<2023-03-30T20:55:50.000Z> Nou: They are opposites.
<2023-03-30T20:55:55.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I am saying the same shit I said last week. 
<2023-03-30T20:56:06.000Z> Nou: That's not true.
<2023-03-30T20:56:28.000Z> Nou: You didn't say anything about being passive aggressive last week.
<2023-03-30T20:56:44.000Z> Nou: It was all about me getting angry and blowing up.
<2023-03-30T20:56:56.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Then you didn't read what I said. Because in my mind you started the same shit tlI talked about a dau later
<2023-03-30T20:57:07.000Z> Nou: Because I wasn't being passive aggressive then.
<2023-03-30T20:57:18.000Z> Nou: And I wasn't today.
<2023-03-30T20:57:59.000Z> Nou: Ok. Maybe I did misread 
<2023-03-30T20:58:16.000Z> Nou: Either way, I didn't know what the problem was.
<2023-03-30T20:58:18.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You would say that. Then throw a tantrum if I didn't respond. That is 💯 emotional manipulation 
<2023-03-30T20:58:35.000Z> Nou: So I couldn't fix it.
<2023-03-30T20:58:42.000Z> Nou: Now I do.
<2023-03-30T20:59:48.000Z> Nou: I got upset when it seemed like you were ghosting me. Yes.
<2023-03-30T21:00:03.000Z> Nou: But that is not the same as emotional manipulation.
<2023-03-30T21:00:11.000Z> Nou: It's just not.
<2023-03-30T21:00:39.000Z> Nou: Why do you think I tried so hard to fix the blowing up at you.
<2023-03-30T21:01:00.000Z> Nou: I have been coming to you with how I am feeling all week, right?
<2023-03-30T21:01:13.000Z> Nou: Why would I fix one but not the other?
<2023-03-30T21:01:37.000Z> Nou: I just didn't understand what you were telling me.
<2023-03-30T21:01:55.000Z> Nou: Now that I do, at least give me a chance to fix it?
<2023-03-30T21:03:01.000Z> Nou: Do you acknowledge that I have been better about/working on the coming to you with how I'm feeling?
<2023-03-30T21:05:32.000Z> Nou: Because that proves I want to fix the issues you are having.
<2023-03-30T21:06:19.000Z> Nou: Why would this one be different? If I had known this was your problem why would I not have changed this too?
<2023-03-30T21:06:39.000Z> Nou: I even sent you what I told the therapist.
<2023-03-30T21:06:48.000Z> Nou: It was all about blowing up.
<2023-03-30T21:07:06.000Z> Nou: Because that is what you told me the problem was.
<2023-03-30T21:07:19.000Z> Nou: Not passive aggressiveness.
<2023-03-30T21:08:56.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Are you saying you like bypassed that because it has been the overarching theme in every disagreement. 
<2023-03-30T21:09:13.000Z> Nou: No.
<2023-03-30T21:09:29.000Z> Nou: Do you remember our first fight about this?
<2023-03-30T21:09:40.000Z> Nou: It was about the drugs thing.
<2023-03-30T21:09:57.000Z> Nou: I blew up at you. I was aggressive aggressive.
<2023-03-30T21:10:08.000Z> Nou: You said that was the problem.
<2023-03-30T21:10:23.000Z> Nou: Why would I think it was something else?
<2023-03-30T21:11:38.000Z> Nou: But if the problem was something else, I was trying to fix the wrong thing.
<2023-03-30T21:11:56.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: So today is the first time you have every heard the words passive-aggressive? 
<2023-03-30T21:12:18.000Z> Nou: Obviously I had heard about it before I met you.
<2023-03-30T21:12:30.000Z> Nou: Hold on, one second.
<2023-03-30T21:13:53.000Z> Nou: You have said it 26 times over text. Most of which were today.
<2023-03-30T21:14:32.000Z> Nou: The other times, looking at them, are not in the context of a fight. And we're one off comments.
<2023-03-30T21:15:03.000Z> Nou: So, while yes I knew that you disliked it, I did not think it was a major problem.
<2023-03-30T21:15:17.000Z> Nou: Much less *the* major problem.
<2023-03-30T21:15:31.000Z> Nou: Oh, some of the 26 is me saying it.
<2023-03-30T21:15:32.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Most humans don't. It's why you upset people on fedi too. 
<2023-03-30T21:15:40.000Z> Nou: About half.
<2023-03-30T21:15:46.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: How has no one ever told you this? 
<2023-03-30T21:16:15.000Z> Nou: Because being plain aggressive is what I'm usually told.
<2023-03-30T21:17:01.000Z> Nou: But look, if that is the problem for you, I will fix it.
<2023-03-30T21:17:08.000Z> Nou: I just didn't know.
<2023-03-30T21:17:18.000Z> Nou: I will do whatever it takes.
<2023-03-30T21:18:55.000Z> Nou attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/42e159390299e03e71f24015235b8f4c1b76f8610b8ea2b6a7812b78f1660645.jpg
<2023-03-30T21:19:09.000Z> Nou: But I've been doing the opposite.
<2023-03-30T21:19:27.000Z> Nou: I have been coming to you with every problem I had.
<2023-03-30T21:19:47.000Z> Nou: And wtf have I ever done this on Fedi?
<2023-03-30T21:20:54.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Your little jabs are passive aggressive. You are a smart dude. You are avoiding it. 
<2023-03-30T21:21:19.000Z> Nou: How could I have been more direct about my feelings this week?
<2023-03-30T21:21:40.000Z> Nou: I told you in clear terms every time I had a problem?
<2023-03-30T21:22:22.000Z> Nou: Look, I guess definitions aren't super important.
<2023-03-30T21:22:47.000Z> Nou: Whatever the problem is, whatever is hurting you, I'll fix it.
<2023-03-30T21:23:19.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It isn't about that. Its they using every single quiet to insert "sorry for bothering you" or "have a good night". None of that is because you are genuine. You are just trying to illicit a response. 
<2023-03-30T21:23:58.000Z> Nou: It's not.
<2023-03-30T21:24:08.000Z> Nou: At least I don't think so.
<2023-03-30T21:24:18.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Then why are they always followed up with a tantrum?
<2023-03-30T21:24:36.000Z> Nou: That's my point.
<2023-03-30T21:24:47.000Z> Nou: I'm not throwing tantrums.
<2023-03-30T21:24:58.000Z> Nou: I say sorry when I feel uncomfortable.
<2023-03-30T21:25:32.000Z> Nou: It's to fill an uncomfortable silence. Not to get a response.
<2023-03-30T21:26:23.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You have some weird coping mechanism that relies on passive aggressive communication. It's what women do. My mother pulls that shit too. It's annoying and aggravating. 
<2023-03-30T21:26:33.000Z> Nou: I say something stupid. You go all weird and quiet. I feel I have to say something to move the conversation along so it doesn't hang there.
<2023-03-30T21:27:35.000Z> Nou: Ok, Hope, I will talk to the therapist about this. Maybe you are right.
<2023-03-30T21:27:54.000Z> Nou: I never thought saying sorry too often was passive aggressive.
<2023-03-30T21:28:06.000Z> Nou: I thought that was a Midwestern thing.
<2023-03-30T21:28:37.000Z> Nou: But have you really not seen me coming to you with my issues all week,
<2023-03-30T21:28:54.000Z> Nou: Every time I felt hurt I said it to you.
<2023-03-30T21:28:58.000Z> Nou: Directly.
<2023-03-30T21:29:03.000Z> Nou: And verbatim.
<2023-03-30T21:30:00.000Z> Nou: That is the opposite of passive aggressive.
<2023-03-30T21:30:19.000Z> Nou: It is being as direct with an issue as I can.
<2023-03-30T21:31:13.000Z> Nou: But maybe you're right. Maybe I missed something.
<2023-03-30T21:31:44.000Z> Nou: Now that I know what you are talking about, can you at least give me a chance to fix it?
<2023-03-30T21:37:29.000Z> Nou: We apparently have very different understandings of that phrase.
<2023-03-30T21:38:28.000Z> Nou: So I did not know what it was you had a problem with the few times you did bring it up.
<2023-03-30T21:38:46.000Z> Nou: But that is different now. Now I know what to avoid.
<2023-03-30T21:41:28.000Z> Nou: You saw I was willing to change one thing.
<2023-03-30T21:41:32.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: But you don't truly understand. 
<2023-03-30T21:41:46.000Z> Nou: I think that's true.
<2023-03-30T21:41:57.000Z> Nou: But it doesn't matter.
<2023-03-30T21:42:04.000Z> Nou: Whatever it is.
<2023-03-30T21:42:09.000Z> Nou: I will fix it.
<2023-03-30T21:42:31.000Z> Nou: I showed that. You saw the change this week.
<2023-03-30T21:42:40.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You can't fix something you can't see. 
<2023-03-30T21:43:07.000Z> Nou: Sure I can.
<2023-03-30T21:43:30.000Z> Nou: But this won't be a problem now anyway.
<2023-03-30T21:44:10.000Z> Nou: All of the issues over me thinking you were ignoring me or bothered were related to the miscommunication about texting.
<2023-03-30T21:44:25.000Z> Nou: I get that now. We see eye to eye on that.
<2023-03-30T21:45:01.000Z> Nou: So my reactions to it won't be a problem anymore because there will be nothing to react to.
<2023-03-30T21:49:27.000Z> Nou: The problem is you feel like things I am saying are trying to goad a reaction out of you.
<2023-03-30T21:49:32.000Z> Nou: Correct?
<2023-03-30T21:52:14.000Z> Nou: So I will fix that.
<2023-03-30T21:53:36.000Z> Nou: Please
<2023-03-30T21:54:01.000Z> Nou: Just give me a chance.
<2023-03-30T21:57:16.000Z> Nou: I was trying to fix the wrong thing, but I did fix it.
<2023-03-30T21:57:40.000Z> Nou: Doesn't that show that I'm willing and able to change these things?
<2023-03-30T22:00:19.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I am at work. 
<2023-03-30T22:01:06.000Z> Nou: I know.
<2023-03-30T22:01:17.000Z> Nou: But I'm terrified.
<2023-03-30T22:01:57.000Z> Nou: And I'm afraid you won't answer me after you are off work.
<2023-03-30T22:04:08.000Z> Nou: I can make this better.
<2023-03-30T22:04:13.000Z> Nou: I can fix it.
<2023-03-30T22:15:23.000Z> Nou: Whatever it takes.
<2023-03-30T22:18:57.000Z> Nou: Just let me try to make it right.
<2023-03-30T22:19:02.000Z> Nou: Please.
<2023-03-30T22:19:56.000Z> Nou: Have you ever thought I was being passive aggressive over voice?
<2023-03-30T22:20:11.000Z> Nou: When we talked on the phone or over Steam?
<2023-03-30T22:23:02.000Z> Nou: If not, don't you think it's possible this really just is tone being hard to read over text?
<2023-03-30T22:47:06.000Z> Nou: It will be better.
<2023-03-30T22:47:19.000Z> Nou: This won't be a problem again.
<2023-03-30T22:47:24.000Z> Nou: Just, please.
<2023-03-30T22:58:06.000Z> Nou: You just really hate me, don't you?
<2023-03-30T22:58:43.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I don't hate you. I'm just tired. 
<2023-03-30T22:59:29.000Z> Nou: But we figured so much out today.
<2023-03-30T22:59:44.000Z> Nou: I just don't get it.
<2023-03-30T23:00:25.000Z> Nou: You say it's the same conversation. But it's not at all.
<2023-03-30T23:00:56.000Z> Nou: You clearly don't *want* it to work.
<2023-03-30T23:01:34.000Z> Nou: You claim you don't hate me but act exactly like you would if you did.
<2023-03-30T23:01:37.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It is to me. It's the same shit. 
<2023-03-30T23:02:03.000Z> Nou: Ok. I get that.
<2023-03-30T23:02:27.000Z> Nou: But it isn't to me. And my behavior is what needs fixing.
<2023-03-30T23:02:58.000Z> Nou: So that it is new to me gives me an entirely new view on how to fix things.
<2023-03-30T23:03:39.000Z> Nou: Does that not make sense?
<2023-03-30T23:04:02.000Z> Nou: Please, just give me another chance.
<2023-03-30T23:04:14.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: But you literally don't even see it. 
<2023-03-30T23:04:52.000Z> Nou: That's true. I don't think I am being passive aggressive.
<2023-03-30T23:05:06.000Z> Nou: But I do see the thing you are talking about.
<2023-03-30T23:05:23.000Z> Nou: Does it matter if we call it different things?
<2023-03-30T23:06:09.000Z> Nou: And I texted the therapist already.
<2023-03-30T23:06:30.000Z> Nou: He may be able to explain it in a way I get it.
<2023-03-30T23:07:29.000Z> Nou: But the biggest point is you told me which behaviors are the problem.
<2023-03-30T23:07:54.000Z> Nou: Hope, do you think I want to change this?
<2023-03-30T23:08:01.000Z> Nou: For you?
<2023-03-30T23:08:59.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I am not sure you can. I see you do it here too. It's ingrained in your communication style. 
<2023-03-30T23:10:37.000Z> Nou: You never answered. Have I ever been passive aggressive over voice?
<2023-03-30T23:12:33.000Z> Nou: Hope, I will talk with you before every meeting with the therapist so I know I'm explaining the problem correctly.
<2023-03-30T23:12:59.000Z> Nou: And I'll tell you what he says. So you can call me out if I'm slacking.
<2023-03-30T23:13:10.000Z> Nou: I will do whatever it takes.
<2023-03-30T23:13:17.000Z> Nou: I will make it work.
<2023-03-30T23:13:55.000Z> Nou: Please. Just give me another chance 
<2023-03-30T23:14:30.000Z> Nou: You already saw change on the coming to you with my problems.
<2023-03-30T23:18:53.000Z> Nou: Just give me a chance and whatever you need, I will make it happen.
<2023-03-30T23:20:41.000Z> Nou: I won't stop until it is fixed.
<2023-03-30T23:20:46.000Z> Nou: For you.
<2023-03-30T23:20:57.000Z> Nou: Because you mean that much to me.
<2023-03-30T23:21:51.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I didn't sign up for all this. It's a lot. 
<2023-03-30T23:22:09.000Z> Nou: I know. I agree.
<2023-03-30T23:23:07.000Z> Nou: But I told you from day one this was an interview process for marriage for me.
<2023-03-30T23:24:05.000Z> Nou: So that's the image I've been building in my head for the last six months.
<2023-03-30T23:24:58.000Z> Nou: So I don't mind changing, because I have been picturing and imagining what it would be like to spend my life with you.
<2023-03-30T23:25:40.000Z> Nou: And why this relationship is so important to me.
<2023-03-30T23:25:59.000Z> Nou: And why you know I will do everything in my power to fix this.
<2023-03-30T23:26:34.000Z> Nou: Please Hope.
<2023-03-30T23:28:40.000Z> Nou: Let me make things right.
<2023-03-30T23:30:16.000Z> Nou: I swear on everything I hold dear I'll make it right.
<2023-03-30T23:32:11.000Z> Nou: Just give me the opportunity.
<2023-03-30T23:34:31.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I have never dealt with so much so early on. I am about the most laid back person in the world. This should be easy. I shouldn't be walking on eggshell or stressed out just by seeing missed texts while I work. 
<2023-03-30T23:36:36.000Z> Nou: Yes. You're right.
<2023-03-30T23:36:49.000Z> Nou: And you won't be again.
<2023-03-30T23:37:20.000Z> Nou: Because I get it now.
<2023-03-30T23:37:27.000Z> Nou: I didn't before.
<2023-03-30T23:40:19.000Z> Nou: I get it now.
<2023-03-30T23:41:41.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I shouldn't have to change you to make it work. Sometimes ppl just don't work. 
<2023-03-30T23:42:59.000Z> Nou: You shouldn't have to change who you are as a person.
<2023-03-30T23:43:25.000Z> Nou: But getting rid of bad habits?
<2023-03-30T23:43:29.000Z> Nou: Absolutely.
<2023-03-30T23:44:03.000Z> Nou: Even if we don't work out, being more honest and open about relationship problems is obviously a good thing.
<2023-03-30T23:44:13.000Z> Nou: But it doesn't make me less me.
<2023-03-30T23:47:26.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It's not a bad habit. This is clearly part of your communication style. 
<2023-03-30T23:48:29.000Z> Nou: You just said earlier no one likes it...?
<2023-03-30T23:50:23.000Z> Nou: And you're overstating that anyway.
<2023-03-30T23:50:25.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You don't seem to have a problem with ppl on here being upset at you though. 
<2023-03-30T23:52:49.000Z> Nou: Ok.
<2023-03-30T23:53:08.000Z> Nou: A. Obviously. Who cares about internet retards?
<2023-03-30T23:53:53.000Z> Nou: B. They dislike me because they dislike having their horseshit claims challenged/corrected.
<2023-03-30T23:54:26.000Z> Nou: I do care about you hitting me.
<2023-03-30T23:55:07.000Z> Nou: And I'm never just trying to score rhetorical points on you.
<2023-03-30T23:56:15.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: What if I told you it's not your claims that they are infuriated with but how you say it. 
<2023-03-30T23:59:27.000Z> Nou: I wouldn't believe you, and would point to numerous examples of them saying so. But I would want to know what you meant, and would of course listen and consider.
<2023-03-30T23:59:36.000Z> Nou: Do you have any examples?
<2023-03-31T00:03:42.000Z> Nou: But if it were how I said it, with them I wouldn't care. I only get in fights on here with scumbags who slander my people or my faith.
<2023-03-31T00:03:55.000Z> Nou: I don't care what scum think about me.
<2023-03-31T00:04:10.000Z> Nou: I do care what my girlfriend thinks about me.
<2023-03-31T00:05:14.000Z> Nou: Haven't you said that to me a hundred times to me?
<2023-03-31T00:05:53.000Z> Nou: You joke about sex with guys on here because they mean nothing to you, but you won't with me because you care about me?
<2023-03-31T00:05:58.000Z> Nou: Same thing.
<2023-03-31T00:34:24.000Z> Nou: But regardless of whatever I think about slanderous internet retards, you are the exact girl I want.
<2023-03-31T00:34:56.000Z> Nou: So even if you give up on us, the next girl I try and find will likely dislike it too.
<2023-03-31T00:35:10.000Z> Nou: So it is by definition a bad habit.
<2023-03-31T00:46:36.000Z> Nou: But I think how I say things will be less relevant now that I get how you feel about texting anyway.
<2023-03-31T00:57:10.000Z> Nou: I promise it will be better.
<2023-03-31T00:58:02.000Z> Nou: Even if I only improve a little on handling things, there will be a lot less to handle.
<2023-03-31T00:58:42.000Z> Nou: Since I understand how you deal with texting better 
<2023-03-31T00:59:53.000Z> Nou: It's been what virtually all of our fights are about.
<2023-03-31T00:59:59.000Z> Nou: And I get it now.
<2023-03-31T01:00:09.000Z> Nou: I didn't before.
<2023-03-31T01:03:38.000Z> Nou: Hope, please.
<2023-03-31T01:03:42.000Z> Nou: 😢
<2023-03-31T01:15:41.000Z> Nou: Please
<2023-03-31T01:26:17.000Z> Nou: On everything I hold dear I swear I will make this right.
<2023-03-31T01:26:25.000Z> Nou: Just, please.
<2023-03-31T01:26:33.000Z> Nou: Give me a shot.
<2023-03-31T01:30:25.000Z> Nou: I'll do whatever it takes to make it right.
<2023-03-31T01:30:53.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Ive given you shots. 
<2023-03-31T01:31:34.000Z> Nou: I genuinely didn't understand until now.
<2023-03-31T01:32:01.000Z> Nou: See this is why it looks like you hate me...
<2023-03-31T01:33:14.000Z> Nou: It feels like there is nothing but callousness from you. It feels like you couldn't be happier about this.
<2023-03-31T01:33:44.000Z> Nou: And it definitely seems like you couldn't care less about the pain it's causing me.
<2023-03-31T01:33:50.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I gave you 500 chances. Pretend all you want about how mean and hateful I am. 
<2023-03-31T01:34:14.000Z> Nou: There is no pretending here.
<2023-03-31T01:34:37.000Z> Nou: Are you actually claiming you care about ending this?
<2023-03-31T01:34:45.000Z> Nou: About hurting me?
<2023-03-31T01:34:49.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I am tired. 
<2023-03-31T01:35:03.000Z> Nou: Not what I asked.
<2023-03-31T01:35:17.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Fuck off. I wouldn't be sitting here all fucking day if I hated you. 
<2023-03-31T01:35:42.000Z> Nou: I get that you're tired.
<2023-03-31T01:35:48.000Z> Nou: I know.
<2023-03-31T01:36:06.000Z> Nou: And if you say you don't hate me, I believe you.
<2023-03-31T01:36:17.000Z> Nou: It just really feels that way.
<2023-03-31T01:36:36.000Z> Nou: And yes, you gave me multiple chances.
<2023-03-31T01:36:44.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You expect a lot of me. 
<2023-03-31T01:36:47.000Z> Nou: But it was not the same.
<2023-03-31T01:36:57.000Z> Nou: I do.
<2023-03-31T01:37:01.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: In my mind it was. 
<2023-03-31T01:37:25.000Z> Nou: Right, but you weren't the one who needed to change.
<2023-03-31T01:38:02.000Z> Nou: Every shot you gave I improved. But it was the wrong things.
<2023-03-31T01:38:13.000Z> Nou: That's why this is different.
<2023-03-31T01:39:26.000Z> Nou: Does how hard I'm fighting for this not show how badly I want to make it right?
<2023-03-31T01:40:35.000Z> Nou: Yes, I expect a lot. But I expect it because I know own you are the most amazing woman I have ever met.
<2023-03-31T01:41:55.000Z> Nou: Please Hope.
<2023-03-31T01:42:05.000Z> Nou: Don't give up on this.
<2023-03-31T01:42:14.000Z> Nou: I know you are tired.
<2023-03-31T01:42:29.000Z> Nou: I know you don't deserve this.
<2023-03-31T01:42:44.000Z> Nou: And that's why I want to make it right.
<2023-03-31T01:42:55.000Z> Nou: Please let me make it right 
<2023-03-31T01:44:12.000Z> Nou: But it won't go on like this.
<2023-03-31T01:44:20.000Z> Nou: It will be better.
<2023-03-31T01:46:20.000Z> Nou: Hope, please 
<2023-03-31T01:46:52.000Z> Nou: I'm begging you.
<2023-03-31T01:48:05.000Z> Nou: Please
<2023-03-31T01:51:57.000Z> Nou: I don't get why you're so eager to throw this away.
<2023-03-31T01:52:13.000Z> Nou: Did the last six months mean nothing to you?
<2023-03-31T01:53:26.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Really?
<2023-03-31T01:53:55.000Z> Nou: Yes
<2023-03-31T01:53:59.000Z> Nou: Really.
<2023-03-31T01:54:07.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I'm not eager...O kept giving you shots. I'm tired. 
<2023-03-31T01:55:04.000Z> Nou: I know. I know you're tired.
<2023-03-31T01:55:25.000Z> Nou: That is why I am asking you to let me put in the work.
<2023-03-31T01:55:54.000Z> Nou: I know I can be the good boyfriend who makes you less tired, not more.
<2023-03-31T01:56:01.000Z> Nou: I did before.
<2023-03-31T01:56:19.000Z> Nou: And now that I understand the problem I can again.
<2023-03-31T01:57:06.000Z> Nou: You saw I changed what I thought you were looking for me to change.
<2023-03-31T01:57:17.000Z> Nou: You know I can do it.
<2023-03-31T01:57:28.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You have made me so fucking stressed it is unreal. I have been in knots for a week
<2023-03-31T01:57:46.000Z> Nou: I know. I know I have.
<2023-03-31T01:58:04.000Z> Nou: Which is why I want to fix it.
<2023-03-31T01:58:16.000Z> Nou: Please just give me a chance.
<2023-03-31T01:58:32.000Z> Nou: I swear you won't regret it.
<2023-03-31T01:59:21.000Z> Nou: It's important to me to fix this *because* I hurt you.
<2023-03-31T01:59:30.000Z> Nou: I swear it will be better.
<2023-03-31T02:00:28.000Z> Nou: If you had just explained how you look at texting sooner I could have changed this earlier.
<2023-03-31T02:00:47.000Z> Nou: But I can and will fix it now. If you let me.
<2023-03-31T02:00:56.000Z> Nou: Please, let me fix it.
<2023-03-31T02:03:22.000Z> Nou: Give me tomorrow? Give me tomorrow and the weekend to prove I can stop making you anxious about the texts?
<2023-03-31T02:03:55.000Z> Nou: It's a win/win. Worst case scenario, I'm not begging all day like I was today.
<2023-03-31T02:04:12.000Z> Nou: Best case, we can salvage this.
<2023-03-31T02:04:58.000Z> Nou: Either way, it's gotta be better than today.
<2023-03-31T02:05:04.000Z> Nou: Right?
<2023-03-31T02:06:45.000Z> Nou: Let me show you I can make it through the weekend. No making you anxious about not answering. No wishing you a good day and apologizing for bothering you.
<2023-03-31T02:07:15.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It's not the wishing me a good day. 
<2023-03-31T02:07:29.000Z> Nou: Right. I understand.
<2023-03-31T02:07:50.000Z> Nou: I didn't know how to phrase it.
<2023-03-31T02:08:10.000Z> Nou: Wishing you a good day *because* you didn't answer.
<2023-03-31T02:08:20.000Z> Nou: That. I won't do it.
<2023-03-31T02:09:02.000Z> Nou: I'll check periodically and answer texts as I see them. But no stressing about getting back immediately.
<2023-03-31T02:09:27.000Z> Nou: I'll probably even send some cat pics.
<2023-03-31T02:09:53.000Z> Nou: But if I can make it through three days, will you take me back?
<2023-03-31T02:11:15.000Z> Nou: It's short term, quick to tell if I mean it, and if I screw this up I have no excuses and you wouldn't have to feel a bit of guilt cutting me off completely.
<2023-03-31T02:12:15.000Z> Nou: And, again, you know it means I won't be begging all day like today. It's a guaranteed three day minimum of peace.
<2023-03-31T02:12:46.000Z> Nou: With the chance to salvage a once good relationship at the end.
<2023-03-31T02:14:32.000Z> Nou: I think it is fairly reasonable with minimal risk to you.
<2023-03-31T02:14:35.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I gave you an extra week trial already...and it ended up the same way. You've gotten way more chances than I normally give ppl. I am telling you...you actually effect my health this week. I couldn't even get my heartrate below 87 today. My stomach hurts... like really hurts. 
<2023-03-31T02:15:18.000Z> Nou: I know. But I didn't understand any of this over the last week.
<2023-03-31T02:15:31.000Z> Nou: I was trying to fix the wrong thing.
<2023-03-31T02:15:40.000Z> Nou: This time I won't.
<2023-03-31T02:15:56.000Z> Nou: This time I am telling you what I will fix.
<2023-03-31T02:16:11.000Z> Nou: What exactly. So there's no confussion.
<2023-03-31T02:16:18.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You don't even understand what I am talking about. You require a 3rd party just to hear me. 
<2023-03-31T02:16:26.000Z> Nou: No.
<2023-03-31T02:17:45.000Z> Nou: You feel when I wish you good day as if I were leaving in the middle of the day, or when I apologize for bothering you, that I am trying to make you feel guilty.
<2023-03-31T02:18:28.000Z> Nou: I heard you. I know what you meant. It is just you are telling me my motives were something other than what they were.
<2023-03-31T02:18:49.000Z> Nou: But I just won't do it. Regardless of the motive.
<2023-03-31T02:19:11.000Z> Nou: It makes you feel bad. Whether I meant it to or not.
<2023-03-31T02:19:19.000Z> Nou: And that's not ok.
<2023-03-31T02:20:07.000Z> Nou: No third party needed. I will not make any assumption about a delay in response.
<2023-03-31T02:20:35.000Z> Nou: I will just watch for texts, and if they come, they come.
<2023-03-31T02:20:52.000Z> Nou: No expectation of a sustained conversation.
<2023-03-31T02:21:29.000Z> Nou: And no attempts to make it clear I am stepping away if it doesn't happen.
<2023-03-31T02:21:49.000Z> Nou: Just "when I get to it." Like you said.
<2023-03-31T02:22:03.000Z> Nou: Does it sound like I understand?
<2023-03-31T02:23:50.000Z> Nou: If that sounds right, then just three days to prove I can do it.
<2023-03-31T02:24:11.000Z> Nou: All I'm asking.
<2023-03-31T02:24:47.000Z> Nou: And again, no brokenhearted begging in your DM's.
<2023-03-31T02:25:37.000Z> Nou: It sounds like win/win to me.
<2023-03-31T02:27:47.000Z> Nou: It's three days guaranteed less stress than the last week, especially today.
<2023-03-31T02:28:29.000Z> Nou: And if I fuck it up at any point, I'm completely out of your hair ant then end of it.
<2023-03-31T02:28:58.000Z> Nou: If I don't we're back on track towards a working relationship.
<2023-03-31T02:29:48.000Z> Nou: If we don't do it we both spend the next however long hurt and angry and despising each other.
<2023-03-31T02:30:19.000Z> Nou: It seems like the first option is less stressful.
<2023-03-31T02:31:39.000Z> Nou: And me keeping on trying. Because it hurts too much to give up so easily.
<2023-03-31T02:32:34.000Z> Nou: Is the first option not better?
<2023-03-31T02:32:42.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: So easily? Are you for real? And 💯 you will be the one running around despising. That's not how I do anything
<2023-03-31T02:33:46.000Z> Nou: Neither of those was meant as an attack...
<2023-03-31T02:34:24.000Z> Nou: I just meant trying this seems like it would be less stressful for both of us.
<2023-03-31T02:36:09.000Z> Nou: Does it not seem like it would?
<2023-03-31T02:36:46.000Z> Nou: At a minimum it's three days of me not begging or raging.
<2023-03-31T02:37:39.000Z> Nou: So even if you say no at the end and I end up hating you you got three days of me not stressing you out.
<2023-03-31T02:39:16.000Z> Nou: It feels like you are saying no to this because you want the break-up for the break-up's sake.
<2023-03-31T02:39:34.000Z> Nou: Even though it will stress us both out more.
<2023-03-31T02:42:00.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Honestly we have had enough trouble for me to assume this is simply delaying the inevitable. I was this worked up last week and here we are again. 
<2023-03-31T02:43:26.000Z> Nou: Then why even bother with all the shit you said earlier.
<2023-03-31T02:43:49.000Z> Nou: Why not just say you wanted out because you want out?
<2023-03-31T02:43:55.000Z> Nou: Why lie.
<2023-03-31T02:44:14.000Z> Nou: All that did was make us both miserable all day.
<2023-03-31T02:44:18.000Z> Nou: Wtf?
<2023-03-31T02:45:28.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I didn't. I told you. Then stopped talking. You called me about 195 times and begged me to talk. I did. 
<2023-03-31T02:45:56.000Z> Nou: And you lied and said it was x, y, and z reasons.
<2023-03-31T02:46:20.000Z> Nou: Why not say it was because you don't want to be with me?
<2023-03-31T02:47:03.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Because it was fucking xyz. 
<2023-03-31T02:47:08.000Z> Nou: I wouldn't have bothered trying to prove I could change any of it if I knew you didn't give a shit.
<2023-03-31T02:47:33.000Z> Nou: But if xyz change and you don't care, then it isn't.
<2023-03-31T02:47:50.000Z> Nou: It's you want out no matter what.
<2023-03-31T02:48:12.000Z> Nou: Xyz don't effect your decision at all.
<2023-03-31T02:48:20.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I told you I gave you chances. 
<2023-03-31T02:48:38.000Z> Nou: Ok. But why fucking lie?
<2023-03-31T02:48:47.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I didn't fucking lie
<2023-03-31T02:49:07.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: This is just you creating your ground to hate me. 
<2023-03-31T02:49:33.000Z> Nou: If xyz and don't influence the decision, it's a lie to say it is because of them.
<2023-03-31T02:50:04.000Z> Nou: No, it's not. I am offering to prove the problem is gone.
<2023-03-31T02:50:20.000Z> Nou: And you want out even if it is.
<2023-03-31T02:50:33.000Z> Nou: Which means it is not the reason.
<2023-03-31T02:51:17.000Z> Nou: If xyz is true, you want out. If xyz is not true, you want out.
<2023-03-31T02:51:37.000Z> Nou: That means it is not xyz.
<2023-03-31T02:51:56.000Z> Nou: So yeah, you did lie.
<2023-03-31T02:53:00.000Z> Nou: "I hate Kevin because he does this one thing. But I also hate him when he doesn't do it."
<2023-03-31T02:53:36.000Z> Nou: If you hate me even when I don't do it, your hate has nothing to do with that thing.
<2023-03-31T02:54:26.000Z> Nou: So you dragged on this shitty day forever by not telling the truth, just to twist the knife.
<2023-03-31T02:55:05.000Z> Nou: Why?
<2023-03-31T02:55:19.000Z> Nou: Can you at least tell me that?
<2023-03-31T02:55:47.000Z> Nou: Why tell me it was something I could fix when you knew it wasn't?
<2023-03-31T02:57:06.000Z> Nou: You really are spiteful.
<2023-03-31T02:57:36.000Z> Nou: You are a mean, spiteful person.
<2023-03-31T02:58:14.000Z> Nou: Wtf... I did not expect this from you.
<2023-03-31T02:59:33.000Z> Nou: You really set this up to hurt as much as you possibly could.
<2023-03-31T03:01:18.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Lol look at you go. That's a speed run. I do not think you can change. 
<2023-03-31T03:01:42.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I don't think you even take me seriously. 
<2023-03-31T03:01:54.000Z> Nou: You just said you wouldn't care if I did 
<2023-03-31T03:02:48.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I do not believe you can. 
<2023-03-31T03:02:48.000Z> Nou: I proposed a chance to prove I can, and you said no.
<2023-03-31T03:03:23.000Z> Nou: You would rather deal with the stress of today than risk being together.
<2023-03-31T03:03:42.000Z> Nou: If I changed, you would still want out.
<2023-03-31T03:03:51.000Z> Nou: *You* said that.
<2023-03-31T03:04:14.000Z> Nou: Don't change and pretend you think I can't.
<2023-03-31T03:04:31.000Z> Nou: What I proposed would prove I can.
<2023-03-31T03:05:00.000Z> Nou: You don't want to do it because you know I'm right and just want out.
<2023-03-31T03:05:01.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Mother fucker I have been stressed for a whole week. My stomach has been in a ball.
<2023-03-31T03:05:34.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I don't believe men over 30 can change. I think it's baked in. 
<2023-03-31T03:05:58.000Z> Nou: And how is me chilling and letting you be for at least 3 days less stressful than this?
<2023-03-31T03:06:05.000Z> Nou: You changed.
<2023-03-31T03:06:45.000Z> Nou: But of course you conveniently don't believe in it when you need an excuse for something 
<2023-03-31T03:06:47.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Because we are just going to end up back here. We can't even make it a week. 
<2023-03-31T03:07:02.000Z> Nou: We can!
<2023-03-31T03:07:16.000Z> Nou: I was fixing the wrong thing!
<2023-03-31T03:07:23.000Z> Nou: Now I know 
<2023-03-31T03:07:42.000Z> Nou: I told you exactly what I am going to fix this time.
<2023-03-31T03:07:51.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Just fucking hate me.. like you do everything else. Get that spiteful attitude trucking because you will end up there anyway. Nothing you love more. 
<2023-03-31T03:08:04.000Z> Nou: Did I describe it wrong?
<2023-03-31T03:08:20.000Z> Nou: Oh, lmao.
<2023-03-31T03:08:32.000Z> Nou: I "hate everything else"?
<2023-03-31T03:09:03.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You're going there anyway. 
<2023-03-31T03:09:06.000Z> Nou: Look. If I could change, would it change things?
<2023-03-31T03:09:21.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I don't think you can. 
<2023-03-31T03:09:34.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: This isn't a new thing. 
<2023-03-31T03:09:42.000Z> Nou: Please answer what I actually asked.
<2023-03-31T03:09:48.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Every fight has beenthe same thing
<2023-03-31T03:10:00.000Z> Nou: No.
<2023-03-31T03:10:23.000Z> Nou: Most fights were about me being too aggressive.
<2023-03-31T03:10:53.000Z> Nou: Now it's about being "passive aggressive." Which is the literal opposite.
<2023-03-31T03:11:07.000Z> Nou: Can you please answer the question.
<2023-03-31T03:11:42.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: The question is irrelevant because I don't believe it is possible. 
<2023-03-31T03:11:45.000Z> Nou: If I did. Not whether you think I can.
<2023-03-31T03:11:58.000Z> Nou: See? So you did lie.
<2023-03-31T03:12:21.000Z> Nou: If I proved I changed right now you would still hate me.
<2023-03-31T03:12:28.000Z> Nou: Just be honest.
<2023-03-31T03:12:48.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I do not fucking hate you. 
<2023-03-31T03:13:25.000Z> Nou: Oh. You just lied to drag me into a day of misery because we're best buds.
<2023-03-31T03:13:40.000Z> Nou: After repeatedly telling me to kill myself.
<2023-03-31T03:13:59.000Z> Nou: And broke my heart in the most cruel way possible.
<2023-03-31T03:14:00.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I have not change what I have said all day. 
<2023-03-31T03:14:27.000Z> Nou: All things you do to people you don't hate.
<2023-03-31T03:14:58.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: See. Emotional manipulation. Fascinating 
<2023-03-31T03:15:16.000Z> Nou: Lmao. You are such a hypocrite 
<2023-03-31T03:15:30.000Z> Nou: There was no manipulation there.
<2023-03-31T03:15:45.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Yeah there was. 
<2023-03-31T03:15:50.000Z> Nou: Pointing out a lie is not manipulation.
<2023-03-31T03:16:13.000Z> Nou: Manipulate you into what? By doing what?
<2023-03-31T03:16:15.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I have not changed what I said all fucking day. 
<2023-03-31T03:16:41.000Z> Nou: You use these buzzwords, I don't think you even know what they mean.
<2023-03-31T03:17:03.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: It's the same shit I said before I gave you a chance one week ago. When you said one more chance 
<2023-03-31T03:17:21.000Z> Nou: THAT IS A FUCKING LIE
<2023-03-31T03:17:42.000Z> Nou: You did not mention "passive aggressiveness once last week.
<2023-03-31T03:17:55.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Yes I fucking did
<2023-03-31T03:17:57.000Z> Nou: That has all been the last three days.
<2023-03-31T03:18:37.000Z> Nou: Of the 26 times it was said over text, 20 were since Tuesday.
<2023-03-31T03:18:44.000Z> Nou: Not once last week.
<2023-03-31T03:18:50.000Z> Nou: Not. Once.
<2023-03-31T03:19:48.000Z> Nou: The problem you always said you had was me getting angry and not bringing things to you.
<2023-03-31T03:20:09.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: I said to cut that shit out
<2023-03-31T03:20:15.000Z> Nou: I changed (proof that I can) and you moved the goalposts.
<2023-03-31T03:20:21.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Like 100 billion times. 
<2023-03-31T03:20:37.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You are a fucking liar. 
<2023-03-31T03:20:43.000Z> Nou: So you know for a fact I can change, and still want out.
<2023-03-31T03:21:03.000Z> Nou: Lol. You calling anyone else a liar.
<2023-03-31T03:21:07.000Z> Nou: 🙄
<2023-03-31T03:21:08.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Fine fucking go hate me somewhere fucking else. 
<2023-03-31T03:21:19.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Never talk to me again. 
<2023-03-31T03:21:47.000Z> Nou: Why do you claim you don't think I can change when you saw it all this week?
<2023-03-31T03:22:02.000Z> Nou: That's obviously a lie.
<2023-03-31T03:22:40.000Z> Nou: So why claim it is about something it isn't? Other than to be hurtful?
<2023-03-31T03:22:51.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: You're an angry mean little man. It's not a lie. You fucking never listen to me because you are a bullheaded jerk. 
<2023-03-31T03:22:56.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Fuck off
<2023-03-31T03:23:01.000Z> IgnorantHussy@blockedur.mom: Get away from me
<2023-03-31T03:23:08.000Z> Nou: Oh, I'm mean?
<2023-03-31T03:23:13.000Z> Nou: You dare?