<2022-09-02T10:12:59.000Z> TinyFern: Hey I hear you're having some struggles. What are five things you're looking forward to? 
<2022-09-02T10:17:36.000Z> Nirty_Digger: 1) being able to deadlift at 450
<2022-09-02T10:18:03.000Z> Nirty_Digger: 2)my work evaluation which will give me a slight raise in pay
<2022-09-02T10:18:45.000Z> Nirty_Digger: 3)there's a week long camping trip I have planned with some guys next spring
<2022-09-02T10:19:12.000Z> Nirty_Digger: 4) finally getting the ac to the car fixed 
<2022-09-02T10:21:39.000Z> TinyFern: That's awesome 
<2022-09-02T10:21:48.000Z> TinyFern: Have you considered getting a cat? 
<2022-09-02T10:23:10.000Z> TinyFern: You might also have more social opportunities if you join a gun club or hiking group if you're into the outdoors 
<2022-09-02T10:24:00.000Z> Nirty_Digger: Nothing much else comes to mind
<2022-09-02T10:24:14.000Z> TinyFern: Volunteering at someplace like an animal shelter or a support place for people with disabilities is also a great way to meet a girl who is kind 
<2022-09-02T10:24:34.000Z> TinyFern: Those are four really cool things though
<2022-09-02T10:25:09.000Z> TinyFern: Next spring is a while away, maybe plan an autumn adventure for the next few months? Even an overnight hike would be cool
<2022-09-02T10:25:41.000Z> Nirty_Digger: Wait actually it's completing my current AR-15 build 
<2022-09-02T10:25:55.000Z> TinyFern: Nice
<2022-09-02T10:29:07.000Z> TinyFern: If in doubt, plan a steak and beer night for Sunday. 
<2022-09-02T10:31:52.000Z> Nirty_Digger: Thanks, this depressive episode has been going on much longer then the others I been having for the past 2 or so years
<2022-09-02T10:34:56.000Z> TinyFern: I mean, it sounds like you're doing all the low hanging anti-depression stuff 
<2022-09-02T10:35:08.000Z> TinyFern: You're employed, working out, making social plans, pursuing Hobbes 
<2022-09-02T10:35:11.000Z> TinyFern: Hobbies*
<2022-09-02T10:35:29.000Z> TinyFern: You're kind of at the next level 
<2022-09-02T10:36:51.000Z> TinyFern: This is where you start considering whether you feel part of something bigger than yourself, whether you feel purposeful and like your days have meaning
<2022-09-02T10:37:07.000Z> TinyFern: What's your family situation like?
<2022-09-02T10:40:14.000Z> Nirty_Digger: I think whatever this is its probably some sort of genetic thing. Because I'm not in an economicly precarious situation, I have some family letting me stay. I don't have any traumatic experiences or anything like that.
<2022-09-02T10:41:14.000Z> Nirty_Digger: Also my ethnicity has a much higher than average risk of developing some mental condition
<2022-09-02T10:56:39.000Z> TinyFern: Depression isn't usually due to economic factors 
<2022-09-02T10:56:56.000Z> TinyFern: It's usually more social, spiritual, physical
<2022-09-02T11:00:48.000Z> Nirty_Digger: Right
<2022-09-02T11:02:21.000Z> TinyFern: Do you feel like you have a vision for your life, or you are participating in somebody else's vision? 
<2022-09-02T11:02:43.000Z> TinyFern: Or do you feel kind of like you're just wandering around doing stuff without a greater sense of purpose? 
<2022-09-02T11:03:17.000Z> Nirty_Digger: That second one 
<2022-09-02T11:03:27.000Z> TinyFern: That's the problem 
<2022-09-02T11:03:35.000Z> TinyFern: That's the depressing thing
<2022-09-02T11:03:51.000Z> TinyFern: All the economic security in the world doesn't help when you don't know what to do with your life
<2022-09-02T11:07:17.000Z> TinyFern: Read the book of Ecclesiastes and see if you vibe
<2022-09-02T11:07:28.000Z> Nirty_Digger: Alright thanks 
<2022-09-02T14:06:16.000Z> Nirty_Digger: Well thanks for reaching out and tell whoever told you I said thanks 
<2022-09-02T20:48:47.000Z> TinyFern: Happy to have more of a chat if it helps 
<2022-09-02T20:49:12.000Z> TinyFern: I'm just not sure how deep into the weeds you want to get about existential thinking 