<2023-03-25T02:13:55.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: Hey, wanna talk about the bible?
<2023-03-25T02:15:29.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: Yeah, sure, man.
<2023-03-25T02:18:10.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: Cool. What do you think about heaven and hell? 
<2023-03-25T02:19:03.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: That one has to go out of their way to go to hell but we all seem to try for it anyway.
<2023-03-25T02:19:07.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: You?
<2023-03-25T02:23:07.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: Based on this verse Matthew 7:13-14King James Version13 Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat:14 Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.I think that most people are on a highway to hell. That's the default for all adults you got to take a detour from this highway to make it into heaven, the bible also says this Ephesians 2:2Wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience:People who are saved now were walking in the course of this world before they got saved so yeah. This game of life is kind of rigged in that sense. 
<2023-03-25T02:24:02.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: I've heard this saying that goes "better to rule in hell than to serve in heaven" have you heard that saying before? 
<2023-03-25T02:26:46.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: Yeah, can't say I agree with it though 
<2023-03-25T02:27:48.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: why?
<2023-03-25T02:27:55.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: I haven't really looked at the path to heaven as much as I should. I've focused on it more as this short blink of life as we know it is a proving ground 
<2023-03-25T02:29:50.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: But the the whole consept of that that quote makes no sense, to me at least. Ownership holds no weight in hell and service isn't what I'd call something done in heaven. Just like one can't languish in heaven nor lounge in hell
<2023-03-25T02:30:33.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: Well, contrary to popular belief going to heaven is as easy as accepting a gift. It's free, you don't have to work for it and it can't be taken from you Ephesians 2:8-9King James Version8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:9 Not of works, lest any man should boast.Most people just get distracted and never really seek God so they never even realize that going to heaven is that easy. 
<2023-03-25T02:31:32.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: Yeah that saying is nonsense. People who say that think that the devil is the one ruling in hell and that they'll be rewarded for being evil 
<2023-03-25T02:34:28.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: Yeah, I figured that. God loves us more that the word love can describe. Again, I see this life as blink in the eternity on his side. Something we'll look back on for the good times, not the bad. Helps me understand the wrenches thrown in our lifes gears. My pal with parkinson's isn't gonna think of the disease in eternity. 
<2023-03-25T02:35:06.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: But I also worry that that makes me lazy and apathetic. Like I'm taking advantage of God's love
<2023-03-25T02:35:31.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: You ever feel that?
<2023-03-25T02:37:53.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: Looking at the big picture yeah. That's why the bible says Romans 8:18For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.Life is way too short. Well I am lazy and apathetic, but reading the bible kindles a bit of a fire in me. 
<2023-03-25T02:41:07.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: I know what you mean. I never read the bible. Faith came to me later in life, but it's no excuse. I got that fire in me from going to a local church but somewhere along the way I fealt less and less worthy of that light until I fealt just that I was squandering it selfishly with no more fire to show for it. Been over a year since I went.
<2023-03-25T02:46:31.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: I even have multiple Bibles all with steps of me. An Orthodox Study Bibles, a couple king james, a pocket Bible. It isn't that I don't have time. 
<2023-03-25T02:47:38.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: I think I'm afraid to confront why I'm so unworthy so I piss away time on easy distractions until "I'll do it later" is too late
<2023-03-25T02:47:52.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: Like, no one is worthy of that gift of salvation. God is good and in his great mercies he made it possible for people like us to become part of the family. This life has many distractions and that's the main issue
<2023-03-25T02:49:01.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: Don't give yourself a hard time about the past though, the bible says Lamentations 3:22-23King James Version22 It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.23 They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.
<2023-03-25T02:49:33.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: it also says Philippians 3:13-14King James Version13 Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.
<2023-03-25T02:49:50.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: so the past is the past brother. Look forward to a brighter future 
<2023-03-25T02:55:12.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: You're right, but that's what makes it worse. Unconditional love hurts when if even one condition were present you'd fail. I'm sure I could push past it but I always have an excuse. Got diagnosed with a kind of ocd years back. Not the flickling lights 3 times kind but more that every little thing that ever went wrong never was relieved and it's been adding up my whole life. If I stop drowning myself in distractions for a moment I'm overwhelmed. It's all an excuse though. People with so much many more problems and so much less opportunities have done so much better. Most of humans fall into that camp. 
<2023-03-25T02:56:04.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: I'm sorry for dumping shit at you. You're a good person, reaching out to people about God's words. God bless you. Seriously.
<2023-03-25T02:59:03.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: You aren't dumping anything on me brother. We all struggle through this life and have our own battles to fight. It's important to encourage and cheer each other up though because it's easy to be demoralized by this shitty world. 
<2023-03-25T02:59:56.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: I briefly mention heaven and stuff but I would like to make sure you know what it takes to actually make it into heaven. Like, if you were to die today are you sure you would be going to heaven and not to hell? 
<2023-03-25T03:08:12.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: I'm not sure, no. It's something I never realized how much I try not to think about. I had a near death experience few years back. Got tboned and spun into a family's suv. I should have been paste but I got out only with a little bash to the head and no more car. But in the moment before the crash time reall did go slow and after the obligatory "Well, shit that's it" I looked back on my life and I hated it and myself so fucking much.
<2023-03-25T03:11:52.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: I can't shake that unworthyness because I KNEW I was gonna die and that was the truth in my final moments. I was wrong on the death part, but if you asked me in that instant where I was headed not only would I say hell but I'd argue against my going to heaven. I don't feel like me. It's some depersonalization shit and I hate the guy with my name and body more than anything. Going to church helped me realize that I had no right to that hate, but I always come back to it
<2023-03-25T03:13:05.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: Damn, you could have died in that car crash. Why did you hate looking back on your life? Each and every day could be your last day alive on earth you know... That's why it's super important to make sure you're going to heaven if you were to die today. This pastor gives a good gospel presentation video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IXEeMWCxyrQ&ab_channel=TruthInGenesis
<2023-03-25T03:13:48.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: I could explain it to you through text but the most effective way to get the message is by listening to it.. so yeah please give that a listen and I'll answer whatever questions you might have
<2023-03-25T03:35:02.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: Thanks, man. That was helpful. There's as ever that schizo depersonalized part of me but when it comes down to it it's just an excuse. I'm no raving madman. I'm not a drooling mongoloid. If I can put it into words I can get past it. But I never did and I can't fully bring myself to believe I ever will. 
<2023-03-25T03:38:55.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: Only time will tell whether or not you'll be able to overcome your struggle or not brother. I've talked to some really crazy people in the past and yeah those people are far gone. You might have a bit of Schizo in you but it's just the right amount haha
<2023-03-25T03:39:05.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: Did you watch the video? Do you have any questions? 
<2023-03-25T03:41:33.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: Yeah, man. I know of the gift and what was suffered to give it, but can't say that if I looked death in the eyes again right now that I'd feel any different this time. So the ony question that comes to mind how do I stop rejecting God's gift?
<2023-03-25T03:42:32.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: Rough one, I know. Sorry. It's something I've had more than enough time to figure out but never have. I gotta work on it.
<2023-03-25T03:44:53.000Z> Preacher@freespeechextremist.com: You stop rejecting it by believing on the Lord, it's that simple brother. 
<2023-03-25T03:48:48.000Z> Moist_Ratstein: God Bless you, bro.