<2022-11-28T05:26:41.000Z> MisterLister: Do you by any chance have anything to read on when it comes to the description of sirens/succubi?
<2022-11-28T05:30:34.000Z> scalar: Have unfortunately had enough IRL dealings that never sought out anything to read. All the "succubi" material I've ever seen all seemed "booby trapped", tainted with shit to actually draw one to you - so am at a bit of a loss as to what I could send to you. :ablobcry:
<2022-11-28T05:35:07.000Z> scalar: lmao, did my answer even go through? all i see is blank screen.
<2022-11-28T05:40:55.000Z> MisterLister: I read I read and yea
<2022-11-28T05:41:02.000Z> MisterLister: its all good
<2022-11-28T05:42:48.000Z> MisterLister: Like the thing is I got with a girl after things didn't work out with the mother of my little one.what I'm really praying on is while the mom had her faults the bitch after was actually the agent of satan
<2022-11-28T05:43:30.000Z> MisterLister: The issue is the mother of my little one does have bloodline to witches
<2022-11-28T05:43:35.000Z> MisterLister: but I still love her
<2022-11-28T05:43:45.000Z> MisterLister: I can't stay mad at her
<2022-11-28T05:46:05.000Z> scalar: do she tend to re-appear, or make her presence in your life known when you are feeling satisfied, good, successful?
<2022-11-28T05:46:21.000Z> scalar: does*
<2022-11-28T05:47:05.000Z> scalar: by re-appear... i mean more than baseline (considering she's the mother, you're likely always in contact/connection of some sort)
<2022-11-28T05:49:05.000Z> MisterLister: The Siren, yesLast time I saw her was shortly after baby momma and her now ex broke upwhen I was supposed to see her last night I am now in my peak of physical condition
<2022-11-28T05:50:23.000Z> scalar: From my experieince, when they sense being spiritually disconnected or BTFO'd by *something* in regards to negative hooks/cords in you that they immediately start texting/calling.
<2022-11-28T05:51:32.000Z> MisterLister: Baby momma its a bit harder to answer that question.  tbh the only reason we're planned to spend all day on the thursday and pull little one out of school is cause her grandpa just died and like, her family like me alot more than the guy she got with after, and I was there for the wake, and just. idk man theres the little things thats so hard to describe
<2022-11-28T05:52:55.000Z> scalar: i know what you're talking about. it's a feeling you can shake, but in hindsight you find yourself throwing yourself into what seems like hellfire, quicksand constantly... despite the feeling?
<2022-11-28T05:56:48.000Z> MisterLister: Yea, she's burned me before since she's broken up with the guy but I just can't help itShe is the only woman I've done it withshe is also the most attractive woman I've ever talked to in personits such a stupid and strange situationSHe defininately knows I still have feelings for herI'm really hoping that this thursday we can talk about that. If we don't I'm just going to have my brain run in circles at 500km/h and I really don't want that to happen again
<2022-11-28T05:56:50.000Z> MisterLister: also
<2022-11-28T05:56:52.000Z> MisterLister: bub
<2022-11-28T05:56:55.000Z> MisterLister: creatiune
<2022-11-28T05:57:02.000Z> MisterLister: im making fat gains
<2022-11-28T05:57:09.000Z> MisterLister: cause of the creatine
<2022-11-28T05:58:26.000Z> MisterLister: Like for the first time in 4 years im starting to be happy with my weight and figurew and while yea its my workout routine and diet but I really do think the creatine is doing its work
<2022-11-28T05:58:32.000Z> scalar: just so I have my narrative correct - ExGF is the Siren, baby-momma is where your instincts are leaning succubi, bloodline sort ot think?
<2022-11-28T05:59:01.000Z> scalar: Creatine is commonly used as a anti-depressant nootropic now, outside of gains-facilitating.
<2022-11-28T06:00:50.000Z> MisterLister: ExGF is the siren, baby momma just has blood related to witches, I wouldn't call her a succubi that's more suited to exgf
<2022-11-28T06:01:05.000Z> MisterLister: exgf has cheated on everyguy she's been with lol
<2022-11-28T06:01:34.000Z> MisterLister: baby momma has not
<2022-11-28T06:01:44.000Z> scalar: Oh ok ok. Didn't mean insult, just wanted to make sure I got it right. There's a qualitative difference I've found in individuals who either fit the archetype or are literal sirens, succubi. Sirens tend to unwaveringly seek to get you to lead yourself towards destuction via mental/energy/sprititual games - they need you to do it to yourself. Succubi, it tends to be more about keeping you "boxed" whereby your vitality in life, how you feel, positivity, lack of conflict/drama never reaches a certain threshold to where you "can't be put back in the box".
<2022-11-28T06:03:26.000Z> scalar: It seems like the positivity well-spring that comes from you achieving your goals, or things you always wanted for a long time - tends to bleed into all other areas of your life. If your instincts scream Siren/Succubi, and cheats constantly - might be best to block on all levels just so there's no siphoning of all that goodness you're generating for yourself.
<2022-11-28T06:05:07.000Z> scalar: All this, in despite of the emotional/internal turmoil over the situation with your ex, that can generate within.
<2022-11-28T06:06:21.000Z> MisterLister: Siren sent me a picture of her ass( I am an ass man thanks to baby momma) after I pushed her and knew I was going to spend the day with baby momma and like I forget where I was going with this BUT
<2022-11-28T06:06:22.000Z> MisterLister: BUT
<2022-11-28T06:06:27.000Z> MisterLister: thank you
<2022-11-28T06:06:33.000Z> MisterLister: is what I can say
<2022-11-28T06:06:56.000Z> MisterLister: I read your messages and I can get them but I can't express how I get them right now
<2022-11-28T06:07:00.000Z> MisterLister: but what I can say
<2022-11-28T06:07:02.000Z> MisterLister: is that 
<2022-11-28T06:07:11.000Z> MisterLister: I'm not fucking crazy
<2022-11-28T06:07:57.000Z> scalar: always here to help my friend. you're not fucking crazy. it's real. i've been through it several times. there are no "magic" fixes other than staying focused on what is objectively most beneficial to your world, short-term and long term.
<2022-11-28T06:08:10.000Z> MisterLister: I'm not the only one that had some "wacky" ideas. I really do appreciate the time you've spent responding
<2022-11-28T06:09:27.000Z> MisterLister: I think Luna is trying to say "Hi" lol have a good night brother
<2022-11-28T06:09:38.000Z> scalar: out of curiosity - the suspected siren/Ex... after little/no communication sends you snaps of herself the night before you're going to meet with your child and his mother... when you had plans to try to shore things up with her?
<2022-11-28T06:10:19.000Z> scalar: By plans, I mean "very fucking loud mental thoughts/deliberations"
<2022-11-28T06:11:30.000Z> scalar: No need to thank. You're an awesome dude with a great heart, no matter what siren/succubi gets send your way. Always here if you need me.
<2022-11-28T06:13:39.000Z> scalar: If you frame the timeline like that with a frame of "it's all real, bro" then yeah, lol, unfortunately your instincts are very sharp. Many of my own woes in life are from not listening to them, so I will encourage you to do what I failed to so many times - "listen to yourself".
<2022-11-28T06:24:56.000Z> scalar: Lmao, if you logged off before seeing the final "listen to yourself" message. Have a good night, and great day tomorrow my friend.
<2022-12-02T05:30:49.000Z> scalar: Always here if you need someone to just vent or bounce ideas off sir. Hope everything is going well.
<2022-12-02T05:46:14.000Z> MisterLister: This morning I went out to breakfast with baby mommaIt was a lil weird cause like she was insinuating that we shouldn't get back together but overall I think it was a good time and like I just didn't want to have that conversation while the little one was thereFast forward to later in the day, I have the little oneI take him to the parkHe sort of tricked me into making sure it was a short stay tho. Like he's pretty good when it comes to going potty and today for whatever reason the park was short cause he had to go potty right? But then he insisted we go to this indoor playgroundand I brought him thereAnd there was the cutie I've noticed that works thereScalar. She is a cutie to define all cuties. She looks alot like someone I used to work with but cuter and SHE DOES HER HAIR IN THE WAY THAT HITS ALL MY FUCKING BUTTONS (Ponytail/bun but with bangs if that makes sense)and after I put our coats away I walked past her and im pretty sure she said "how's it going" with the BIGGEST smile but I'm autistic so I just said helloAnd then later I'm just sitting watching the little one play and she goes to press a button on the thermostat and not even 30s after we make eye contact and smile THE SIREN TEXTED MEwhat I'm saying with this whole shpeel is that I notice too many "coincidences" and it hurts sometimes
<2022-12-02T05:48:25.000Z> MisterLister: That wasn't my only interaction with cutie but like I do think I have a shot and its just nuts that today on my one day off I'm realizing this and just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
<2022-12-02T05:52:57.000Z> scalar: Let me be "universe" tranlsator here for you. BLOCK the siren. Literally. Then shoot your shot the next time you see the girl.
<2022-12-02T05:53:52.000Z> scalar: As stated before, she and whatever is in/around her is trying to "box" you and your life-outcomes, desires - block your way forward. Block her and in a week watch your Ex's demeanor change towards you.
<2022-12-02T06:01:52.000Z> MisterLister: "Block the siren"Scalar this is fucking genius in so many ways, I've been meaning that contact with siren wouldn't last long I just didn't know when or how to end itPRetty sure cutie works the sundays as well and I plan to go there thenAlso ex was trying to say(she knows I'm talking to her) "oh you just fuck her and have fun" when that may be what my penis wants that's not what my heart wants I want to make love not fuck some bitchI block her I might just finally push myself to ask cutie outI block her and I'm going to break my ex's brain if she asks about it
<2022-12-02T06:01:55.000Z> MisterLister: SCALAR
<2022-12-02T06:01:57.000Z> MisterLister: I LOVE YOU
<2022-12-02T06:03:38.000Z> MisterLister: blocked and deleted her contact :)
<2022-12-02T06:03:52.000Z> scalar: Welcome to the next level, my friend.
<2022-12-02T06:05:01.000Z> scalar: Of note - you'll probably get some psychic bullshit trying to induce regret, doubt, "what if she needs help" - tell it to shut the fuck up in your mind and watch it quiet. It'll pass, but wanted to let you know just in case someone decides to turn up the heat.
<2022-12-02T06:09:30.000Z> MisterLister: Will keep in mind but the fucking shit she put me through she deserves what she getsidc how she told me tonight that she "wants to see the world with me" bitch you were still talking to  AND BLOWING ME OFF TO SEE your ex that you were "completely over" no you get what you fucking deserve
<2022-12-02T06:10:38.000Z> MisterLister: this ex that I know she's cheated on while they were living together mind you lmao
<2022-12-02T06:13:55.000Z> scalar: If the energy harvesting, "boxing you in", siren/succubus intuitions you've had - you'll likely have some doubts when she/whatever-is-behind-her realizes you'
<2022-12-02T06:14:39.000Z> scalar: ve closed all communications - you'll have bouts of "doubt", "regret", "shouldn't have", "look none of this turned out like it should have once you blocked her" as if it's coming internally from you.
<2022-12-02T06:14:56.000Z> scalar: Just reminding again - it's nothing more than a psychic attack. Tell it to fuck right off.
<2022-12-02T06:25:05.000Z> MisterLister: I will keep this in mind. Thank you so much friend for reaching out. gunna play the bass for a lil bit(that I haven't played in months) and go to bed I really do feel better already
<2022-12-02T06:27:41.000Z> scalar: Am very glad. You would be surprised just how much the intentional, physical act of "cutting connection", "closing the door", "blocking" reverberates out. Have a great evening!
<2022-12-02T22:57:17.000Z> MisterLister: >Last night I blocked the Siren>this morning a coworker that quit in march came back to work with us (we missed him and he's coming back at the perfect time we have so many jobs lined up and we needed him)
<2022-12-02T22:57:20.000Z> MisterLister attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/3fe0cd000cbf74212dd97fc80593a7b1a8891275eecf0c4ae9552a6919a582c2.png
<2022-12-02T22:57:32.000Z> MisterLister: What did God mean by this?
<2022-12-03T04:07:23.000Z> scalar: "Everything works when you just take the wrench (the siren) out of the machinery"
<2022-12-03T08:28:06.000Z> scalar: On an aside, saw this and thought of you in the context the "reverberation" msg I sent you, regardless of your religious persuasion it is interesting - "Truly, I say to you, whatever you bind on earth shall be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven. Matthew 18:18"
<2022-12-03T08:28:38.000Z> scalar: Blocking/"Binding" in the real world as... *big fucking wink wink here*
<2022-12-14T06:41:35.000Z> scalar: Here if you just need someone to back and forth with, my friend.
<2022-12-24T04:51:14.000Z> scalar: Still here, if you just need someone to be on the other end, my friend.
<2022-12-24T04:51:54.000Z> MisterLister: I was going through withdrawls
<2022-12-24T04:52:00.000Z> MisterLister: when me mom told me
<2022-12-24T04:52:16.000Z> MisterLister: that uncle invited us for christmas dinner
<2022-12-24T04:52:23.000Z> MisterLister: but she said no
<2022-12-24T04:52:31.000Z> MisterLister: and because I was not in the mood for it
<2022-12-24T04:52:39.000Z> MisterLister: I didn't fight her on it
<2022-12-24T04:52:45.000Z> MisterLister: and im in pain man
<2022-12-24T04:53:36.000Z> MisterLister: i miss those big dinners
<2022-12-24T04:53:58.000Z> MisterLister: I don't get what the fuck her problem is. but at the same time whatver
<2022-12-24T04:54:12.000Z> MisterLister: whatever in the sense that I need to growe
<2022-12-24T04:54:17.000Z> MisterLister: grow
<2022-12-24T04:54:29.000Z> scalar: Is it just alcohol withdrawals?
<2022-12-24T04:55:18.000Z> MisterLister: At the time yea, more than likely, I was scared of a fight going wrong and relapsing
<2022-12-24T04:55:46.000Z> MisterLister: I've faught with her before
<2022-12-24T04:56:03.000Z> MisterLister: but that was over "her"
<2022-12-24T04:56:09.000Z> MisterLister: and I'm over her now
<2022-12-24T04:57:20.000Z> scalar: Am also assuming the usual stuff you might go to, to distract a brain that won't shut the fuck up, lol, are inert - not cutting it?
<2022-12-24T04:58:05.000Z> MisterLister: but I'm over "her" now cause I'm sober.  I don't want to get back with her. I just don't like how we broke up literally the same year that m mom caused a spat and killed the "big" family dinners
<2022-12-24T04:58:50.000Z> MisterLister: vidya is cutting it
<2022-12-24T04:58:56.000Z> MisterLister: workig out is cutting it
<2022-12-24T04:59:14.000Z> MisterLister: but I only have so much energy
<2022-12-24T04:59:42.000Z> scalar: lmao. that was what was going to suggest, to just give the brain something to do. something RPG-y. 
<2022-12-24T05:00:13.000Z> scalar: On aside, sometimes the way things get "re-arranged" in our lives suck, and we hate the process but down the road - you'll see "oh shit, if that didn't happen like that I would have been seriously FAFO'd"
<2022-12-24T05:00:32.000Z> MisterLister: im in the best shape of my life scalar sir. I can mire myself in the mirror all I want but deep down
<2022-12-24T05:00:35.000Z> scalar: However telling you that now is no consolation, just someone telling you that it gets better
<2022-12-24T05:00:41.000Z> MisterLister: deep downthere is something missing
<2022-12-24T05:01:42.000Z> scalar: do you know what is missing or is it knowledge of an absence that should not be there?
<2022-12-24T05:06:06.000Z> MisterLister: I want cuddles scalar. I want to watch a24 movies with a girl that might not get them but is happy because I can provide x and y and because at the end of the day we're going to cuddle and fall asleep and nothing else is going to matter."absence that should not be there?" is a fucked up way to put it cause I know what I'm like. I know how hard it is for me to make that kind of connection, But I yearn for it so much, I'm just down bad so fucking hard cause at one point I thought I had it. and all this time, when it slipped away
<2022-12-24T05:06:22.000Z> MisterLister: when it slipped away I tohught it was my fault
<2022-12-24T05:06:41.000Z> MisterLister: and now I'm coming to terms that it wasnt my fault
<2022-12-24T05:06:49.000Z> MisterLister: but that hurts just as much
<2022-12-24T05:09:30.000Z> scalar: Apologies, assumed it was that but sometimes there's a hole where there shouldn't be that isn't characterized.
<2022-12-24T05:10:29.000Z> scalar: TBH, as you go through your own grieving process that it wasn't you - it can sometimes be harder because you have a good heart, and good hearts tend to take on the World if they are not able to "fix it"
<2022-12-24T05:12:12.000Z> scalar: Being presented with a "there's nothing you could have done differently or better" situation is one of the hardest. Emotionally, it's like your workout plan says "Go to Failure + 2 reps" for every exercise, everyday on the whole chart, lol.
<2022-12-24T05:13:26.000Z> scalar: The cheat code to get out from that is taking the difficult road of  "forgiving yourself", not others - but yourself - whatever that may mean to you, in it's exploration. It can sometimes be harder, but is generally a shortcut over "waiting until it doesn't hurt anymore"
<2022-12-24T05:20:37.000Z> MisterLister: "forgiving yourself"without a doubt the hardest thing for me. I can pin point every single stupid thing I do and critique it like its nobodies business. This is my worst fault. I'm too hard on myself. No matter how good I do I always find a way to beat myself up
<2022-12-24T05:20:56.000Z> MisterLister: whether I find it in me to forgive myself is up to me i guess
<2022-12-24T05:21:01.000Z> MisterLister: but ill try
<2022-12-24T05:21:56.000Z> MisterLister: I will fucking try. Thanks for listening man, Merry Christmas
<2022-12-24T05:22:07.000Z> MisterLister: means alot that you reached out
<2022-12-24T05:23:45.000Z> scalar: Sir, always here. You're not alone in "can pin point every single stupid thing I do and critique it like its nobodies business".
<2022-12-24T05:25:38.000Z> scalar: Something to think about is when your internal narrative flips into those negative critiques, within that mindstream internally - say "(insert your name here), I forgive you". It sounds simple, dumb, but notice the subtle interruption in the "critique" and see if the critique suddenly becomes louder - to which you interject saying the same thing again. Might be a process worth exploring. Simple, yet might yield profound outcomes.
<2022-12-24T05:27:55.000Z> scalar: Noticing the sensations in your body, feeling as you go through the process, even simply just saying that to yourself.
<2022-12-30T07:27:06.000Z> scalar: Time is short my friend. Thanks for being a real one on here.
<2022-12-30T15:50:12.000Z> MisterLister: I'll miss you bud