<2023-01-05T23:28:37.000Z> Dan_Hulson: hyperbeam.com/i/vvUwjHpu
<2023-01-05T23:29:01.000Z> MisterLister: lol ty I just died in binding of isaac and checked
<2023-01-06T02:34:59.000Z> Dan_Hulson: file-upload.com/aly49felxosl
<2023-01-06T06:53:29.000Z> MisterLister: As silly as this sounds the streams have been helping me through a difficult time. Thanks for hosting them brother I'm having a great time in them. Goodnight and see you in the next one
<2023-01-06T06:56:01.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Anytime, and if you need to talk just dm me and we can chat about stuff if you neeed
<2023-01-06T21:12:05.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Streaming in 40mins
<2023-01-06T22:00:23.000Z> Dan_Hulson: hyperbeam.com/i/gaiUrMPb
<2023-01-06T22:01:13.000Z> MisterLister: Ty for invite but a buddy of mine is having a Lil get together tonight and I gotta shower eat and nap before that 
<2023-01-06T22:02:12.000Z> Dan_Hulson: ok friend
<2023-01-07T04:17:03.000Z> Dan_Hulson: I was supposed to tell everybody at the end of the stream but Powah as left Fedi. She wanted me to tell everybody
<2023-01-07T13:44:13.000Z> MisterLister: Damn.... Whyd she leave?
<2023-01-07T13:48:49.000Z> MisterLister: That is a fat F she was a cool cat
<2023-01-07T18:48:39.000Z> Dan_Hulson: It's for personal IRL reasons but I can't say too much but she is fine I have a feeling she will return sooner or later
<2023-01-07T18:58:11.000Z> MisterLister: Fair enough, just curious is all. But that's good, hopefully it stays good for her and we'll see her soon
<2023-01-07T19:00:54.000Z> Dan_Hulson: I know mate it's no issue I trust you but I don't know how much I am supposed to say so just keeping it private
<2023-01-10T21:32:15.000Z> Dan_Hulson: I'm putting a movie stream on in an hour if you are bored
<2023-01-10T21:40:39.000Z> MisterLister: I am bored I am procrastinating on chores. I will get to them as now I have something to look forward to thanks brother 
<2023-01-10T21:44:43.000Z> Dan_Hulson: anytime mate
<2023-01-10T22:19:42.000Z> Dan_Hulson: hyperbeam.com/i/uX52sdHg
<2023-01-11T00:52:52.000Z> MisterLister: Shoot me a Dm when Ocean leaves im not in the mood for her sorry bud
<2023-01-11T00:54:24.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Shes gone lol
<2023-01-11T00:55:07.000Z> MisterLister: what the fuck is her problem
<2023-01-11T00:55:13.000Z> MisterLister: like actually
<2023-01-11T00:55:19.000Z> MisterLister: I was having a good time
<2023-01-11T00:56:42.000Z> Dan_Hulson: she is like this at times
<2023-01-11T00:57:59.000Z> MisterLister: You're right and any other night I probably could of handled it but tonight was not a night for me to handle it
<2023-01-11T00:59:28.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Well she gone I tryed to calm her down several times and she was upset I wouldn't take her side
<2023-01-11T01:04:50.000Z> MisterLister: bros before hoes I appreciate it man
<2023-01-11T01:05:30.000Z> MisterLister: but at the same time she was just doing the thing of "I don't want to watch movie im going to make up bullshit so I have an excuse to leave"
<2023-01-11T01:05:35.000Z> MisterLister: Ive seen her do it
<2023-01-11T01:05:43.000Z> MisterLister: not suprised she did it to me
<2023-01-11T01:05:45.000Z> Dan_Hulson: yes 
<2023-01-11T01:05:50.000Z> Dan_Hulson: she does that
<2023-01-11T03:33:22.000Z> MisterLister: I left cause I knew that I'm in a place that I would of poasted her titty pic in retaliation for pissing me off in a bad mood. And it would of been fine for me cause I know I can easily fuck off to ncd if graf actually gave a shit. What I'm saying is Dan, I left not because of the stream I left because I'm not at a point where I can handle some stupid fucking e girl be a cunt to me. IT was fun, and if I was in a better place mentaly I would still be there but alas I need to walk away and not m
<2023-01-11T03:33:34.000Z> MisterLister: and not make any more stupid decisions tonight
<2023-01-11T03:37:58.000Z> MisterLister: and I hope that DM doesn't come off as "ME ME ME ME ME" I left cause I need to walk away from this cause I might actually do something retarded
<2023-01-19T05:35:07.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Ocean is streaming you want visit
<2023-01-19T05:35:09.000Z> Dan_Hulson: hyperbeam.com/i/pcX9a27G
<2023-01-19T20:16:00.000Z> MisterLister: I was either asleep at the time or heading off to it 
<2023-01-19T20:16:04.000Z> MisterLister: Maybe tonight?
<2023-01-20T05:15:49.000Z> MisterLister: Thank you
<2023-01-20T05:16:12.000Z> MisterLister: I really do appreciate it
<2023-01-20T05:16:19.000Z> MisterLister: That was what I needed
<2023-01-20T05:16:54.000Z> Dan_Hulson: anytime friend. If you need to vent or talk about stuff you can talk to me
<2023-01-20T05:19:24.000Z> MisterLister: I'm just down bad rn. I have a huge crush on a girl and I've been a pussy when it comes to approaching her. and tonight was supposed to be the night that I asked her out. but she wasnt at work. and Im just like fuck. maybe its for the better
<2023-01-20T05:19:30.000Z> MisterLister: cause in a sense
<2023-01-20T05:19:44.000Z> MisterLister: I'm not ready for a girl as pretty as her
<2023-01-20T05:20:34.000Z> MisterLister: I am a handsome man, but she's better than me. If that makes any sense, so tonight, having this kind of night really does help me take a step back and take a breath
<2023-01-20T05:20:41.000Z> MisterLister: so that the next time I see her
<2023-01-20T05:20:46.000Z> MisterLister: shes mine
<2023-01-20T05:20:58.000Z> MisterLister: and if I am delusional
<2023-01-20T05:21:06.000Z> MisterLister: then ill get over it
<2023-01-20T05:21:14.000Z> Dan_Hulson: I get it I really do just take a shot and ask her out and go from there
<2023-01-20T05:21:32.000Z> MisterLister: THATS WHAT I WANTED TO DO TONIGHT MAN
<2023-01-20T05:21:34.000Z> MisterLister: I FUCKEN
<2023-01-20T05:21:54.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Well a day won't change nothing, mate
<2023-01-20T05:22:00.000Z> MisterLister: ALMOST HAD A 24 FOOT STEEL IBEAM DROP ON ME THE MONDAY
<2023-01-20T05:22:02.000Z> MisterLister: AND I WAS LIKE
<2023-01-20T05:22:04.000Z> MisterLister: WTF
<2023-01-20T05:22:12.000Z> MisterLister: IM SCARED OF TALKING TO A GIRL
<2023-01-20T05:22:24.000Z> MisterLister: AND IM DOING SHIT LIKE THAT TO GET BY
<2023-01-20T05:22:25.000Z> MisterLister: WTF
<2023-01-20T05:22:28.000Z> MisterLister: but yea
<2023-01-20T05:22:37.000Z> Dan_Hulson: it's funny isn't it I get mate
<2023-01-20T05:22:38.000Z> MisterLister: im asking her out next time I see her
<2023-01-20T05:22:48.000Z> MisterLister: its hilarous
<2023-01-20T05:22:49.000Z> MisterLister: cause
<2023-01-20T05:22:54.000Z> MisterLister: baby moma
<2023-01-20T05:23:01.000Z> MisterLister: is half lebanese
<2023-01-20T05:23:06.000Z> MisterLister: but this girl
<2023-01-20T05:23:22.000Z> MisterLister: that I have the biggest crush I've ever fucken had
<2023-01-20T05:23:34.000Z> MisterLister: is probably full lebanese
<2023-01-20T05:23:39.000Z> MisterLister: but bro
<2023-01-20T05:23:44.000Z> MisterLister: shes so fucken cute
<2023-01-20T05:23:47.000Z> MisterLister: like
<2023-01-20T05:23:48.000Z> MisterLister: bor
<2023-01-20T05:23:51.000Z> MisterLister: bro
<2023-01-20T05:23:52.000Z> MisterLister: bro
<2023-01-20T05:24:14.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Does she look White or like an arab
<2023-01-20T05:24:56.000Z> Dan_Hulson: cuz there are a few differant kinds like Sryians can be White it's strange
<2023-01-20T05:24:57.000Z> MisterLister: She looks mediteranian
<2023-01-20T05:25:04.000Z> MisterLister: if that makes any sense
<2023-01-20T05:25:11.000Z> Dan_Hulson: right that makes sense
<2023-01-20T05:25:13.000Z> MisterLister: Like I've seen arabs
<2023-01-20T05:25:20.000Z> MisterLister: and I've seens "whites"
<2023-01-20T05:25:32.000Z> MisterLister: and she is "whites"
<2023-01-20T05:25:36.000Z> MisterLister: but bro
<2023-01-20T05:25:50.000Z> MisterLister: SHE HAS THE CROSS AROUND HER NECK
<2023-01-20T05:26:06.000Z> MisterLister: IM PRETTY SURE SHE WANTS ME EVEN THOUGH IM A SINGLE DAD
<2023-01-20T05:26:09.000Z> MisterLister: LIKE WTF
<2023-01-20T05:26:15.000Z> MisterLister: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
<2023-01-20T05:26:30.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Give it a shot mate. go for it
<2023-01-20T05:26:37.000Z> MisterLister: I will
<2023-01-20T05:26:38.000Z> MisterLister: I will
<2023-01-20T05:26:49.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Get it done, Brother
<2023-01-20T05:27:25.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Get some rest and I will speak soon. I shall pray all goes well
<2023-01-20T05:29:33.000Z> MisterLister: I have x y and zed before it can be perfect. And me being able to scream to you does help. Thank you Brother, or Friendo as I like to say. I know what I need to do. Thank you for the prayers and I hope all goes well with the infection and anything that comes after that
<2023-01-20T05:31:46.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Thank you Brother. It's sometimes good to get stuff out. I will pray for you and let me know how you go on. Go steady mate and see you soon
<2023-01-28T16:06:39.000Z> Dan_Hulson: hyperbeam.com/i/K8bHOHdU
<2023-01-28T16:40:45.000Z> MisterLister: Got my kid this weekend, no daytime streams for me, thanks tho
<2023-01-29T16:16:50.000Z> Dan_Hulson: hyperbeam.com/i/2cw-FJWB
<2023-02-05T00:04:17.000Z> MisterLister: art thou streaming rn?
<2023-02-05T04:12:42.000Z> Dan_Hulson: I only streamed for about 4 hours tonight, Brother. Will stream again tomorrow and will send u a link in case u r about
<2023-02-05T18:06:21.000Z> Dan_Hulson: You wanna watch a movie in 30/40mins
<2023-02-05T18:46:48.000Z> Dan_Hulson: hyperbeam.com/i/wDvb05hI
<2023-02-05T18:56:03.000Z> MisterLister: I'm at work Rn, probably won't be home for another 3 hours gotta run to the garage after I finish here to grab tools for tomorrow.
<2023-02-05T19:57:23.000Z> Dan_Hulson: all good mate#
<2023-02-06T02:58:44.000Z> MisterLister: Thanks again for hosting a stream brother, I really needed that 
<2023-02-06T03:28:52.000Z> Dan_Hulson: It was great see u mate and I'm glad u r ok
<2023-02-06T03:46:54.000Z> MisterLister: I am far from okay lol I got kicked in the balls (metaphoric) and when I thought I was up from it I got kicked in the balls even harder. But I'm still up. That's all that matters at the 3nd of the day
<2023-02-06T03:48:09.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Is this over that woman at work?
<2023-02-06T17:50:48.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Watching Indiana Jones 3 shortly if u would like to watch I will send u a link soon
<2023-02-06T18:11:44.000Z> Dan_Hulson: hyperbeam.com/i/JprKiyQv
<2023-02-06T19:25:39.000Z> MisterLister: I don't work with her lol I just go there often with my kid. But I got over that the next night, after my workout I truly accepted the mantra of "better to be rejected than to regret not asking her out in the first place "
<2023-02-06T19:27:05.000Z> MisterLister: It's just work has been really stressful lately. Two of my coworkers have had every excuse to show up late and leave early and the job is taking much more time than it should have and I've been working since last Sunday and probably won't have a day off until the weekend 
<2023-02-06T19:27:42.000Z> MisterLister: I'd join but I am at work, then after that I gotta go to a funeral visitation.
<2023-02-09T03:03:30.000Z> Dan_Hulson: So you are being plagued with bad luck fr 
<2023-02-09T03:04:28.000Z> MisterLister: Yes, The job was going "okay" right until after I asked the girl out
<2023-02-09T03:05:43.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Negative emotions can bring bad luck but as Christians we aren't spose to think like this but it is real
<2023-02-09T03:06:05.000Z> Dan_Hulson: I can help you to the best of my abillity if you like
<2023-02-09T03:07:45.000Z> MisterLister: And as a Christian I do think that demons are out there and can influence things
<2023-02-09T03:07:46.000Z> MisterLister: Bro
<2023-02-09T03:07:52.000Z> MisterLister: I made a beer run today
<2023-02-09T03:07:56.000Z> MisterLister: errr tonight
<2023-02-09T03:08:02.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Any strange stuff happening the house (Creepy) ?
<2023-02-09T03:08:25.000Z> Dan_Hulson: go on sorry
<2023-02-09T03:08:30.000Z> MisterLister: and when I got home a pigeon was just vibin in front of my house
<2023-02-09T03:09:24.000Z> Dan_Hulson: right
<2023-02-09T03:09:45.000Z> MisterLister: today was the day that I realized that Siren could of possibly hexed me. The bad luck we've had this job is insane, I've been working for my company two years now we have NEVER had so many things go wrong 
<2023-02-09T03:10:07.000Z> MisterLister: from people getting sick to just shit going wrong on site its nuts
<2023-02-09T03:11:43.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Right first thing you need to do is order some sage smudge sticks
<2023-02-09T03:11:56.000Z> Dan_Hulson attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/b23f43351908613cec7f3d19cc8d4fb7778537aa24af46a5c6f1cbf003686c56.png
<2023-02-09T03:12:01.000Z> Dan_Hulson: like that
<2023-02-09T03:12:10.000Z> Dan_Hulson: they are cheap
<2023-02-09T03:12:29.000Z> MisterLister: There is a store not too far from me that should sell that kinda stuff
<2023-02-09T03:12:40.000Z> Dan_Hulson: good get them asap 
<2023-02-09T03:13:28.000Z> MisterLister: Will do
<2023-02-09T03:14:22.000Z> Dan_Hulson: You light them and walk around the house and make sure to get the smoke in cupboards and even in the loft and you demend that anything unclean or evil leave the home
<2023-02-09T03:14:47.000Z> Dan_Hulson: It really does work
<2023-02-09T03:15:03.000Z> Dan_Hulson: I will always pray for you tonight
<2023-02-09T03:15:11.000Z> Dan_Hulson: We will get this sorted
<2023-02-09T03:17:04.000Z> Dan_Hulson: if you have holy water you can also sprinkle some around and put abit on windows and doors in the home while praying. Either method will help
<2023-02-09T03:20:11.000Z> Dan_Hulson: So lets get this sorted and we shall pray on it aswell
<2023-02-09T03:20:37.000Z> MisterLister: Okay I will try that tomorrow.I appreciate the prayersAnd yea I do have holy water lol my ex(that I had a kid with) brought it over like literally a day after I sent her a video of what looked like our little one playing with a ghost while he was in his high chair after dinner. That was like a year ago but still yea I have holy water and will make use of it after the sage burning
<2023-02-09T03:23:34.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Ok lets get this done I think you could have some weird attachment to you (Spirits) or something running you down
<2023-05-16T02:19:06.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Are you ok, friend?
<2023-05-16T02:20:30.000Z> MisterLister: No
<2023-05-16T02:20:53.000Z> MisterLister: I don't even know how to describe what's wrong
<2023-05-16T02:21:06.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Go on tell me
<2023-05-16T02:21:18.000Z> MisterLister: Cause If I were to take a step back, I'm doing alot better than I was a week ago
<2023-05-16T02:21:20.000Z> Dan_Hulson: you might feel better after you vent
<2023-05-16T02:21:20.000Z> MisterLister: House is clean
<2023-05-16T02:21:29.000Z> MisterLister: work is going well for the most part
<2023-05-16T02:21:32.000Z> MisterLister: fucking we
<2023-05-16T02:21:43.000Z> MisterLister: fucking we're about to fire a guy that noone likes
<2023-05-16T02:22:02.000Z> MisterLister: But I guess I just don't get how I got here
<2023-05-16T02:22:10.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Don't push yourself and expect to much of yourself if things are going well
<2023-05-16T02:22:17.000Z> MisterLister: Part of me feels like I don't deserve this
<2023-05-16T02:22:50.000Z> Dan_Hulson: That's not true friend God provides and you are a good man and a Father
<2023-05-16T02:23:04.000Z> Dan_Hulson: You deserve THIS
<2023-05-16T02:23:25.000Z> Dan_Hulson: I think you are a good bloke doing his best
<2023-05-16T02:23:47.000Z> MisterLister: Fucking the ex and her boyfriend helped me clean up the house the other day. And it was very nice cause I wanted to do all that shit that they helped with but I wasn't feeling well so I couldn't. The worst part
<2023-05-16T02:23:51.000Z> MisterLister: the worst part
<2023-05-16T02:24:00.000Z> MisterLister: was they thought I was just sick
<2023-05-16T02:24:10.000Z> MisterLister: and brushed it off and were being nice
<2023-05-16T02:24:24.000Z> MisterLister: and they know I work 6 days a week don't have the energy to
<2023-05-16T02:24:29.000Z> MisterLister: the reason why I was sick
<2023-05-16T02:24:45.000Z> MisterLister: was cause my drinking 6 tall boys a night is catching up to me
<2023-05-16T02:24:51.000Z> MisterLister: they think I'm clean
<2023-05-16T02:25:12.000Z> MisterLister: my boss and secretary think I've been sober since january
<2023-05-16T02:25:16.000Z> MisterLister: but I haven't
<2023-05-16T02:25:19.000Z> MisterLister: in fact
<2023-05-16T02:26:12.000Z> MisterLister: I've gotten worse than I was, and that's why I don't feel like I deserve this. I was given all the support I needed to live a nice and clean sober life and then under the scenes I continued drinking my nights away
<2023-05-16T02:26:51.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Drinking is no good it's a depressant and you should try stop again. I was a drug addict on Morphine for years so I understand and I promise you can get through it and I often felt shame but you can get over it I swear
<2023-05-16T02:28:46.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Look I'm going start praying for you again and I'm always here for a chat but there are many on us on Fedi who were addicts so we understand but you can do it
<2023-05-16T02:30:03.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Don't be so hard on yourself just take one day at a time and maybe you should book a weeks holiday from work while you get better
<2023-05-16T02:39:22.000Z> MisterLister: I do feel alot calmer now, thank you for DM'ing meI really do appreciate the kind words and I do appreciate you keeping me in your prayers.Being hard on myself is just who I am, you can ask my coworkers they call me out on it sometimes. While the week off is a bit much you do make a point. I think, not this weekend cause I got the kid, but the weekend after I'll go on that solo camping trip I've always wanted to go on. The last time I had three days off in a row I wanted to shoot myself(it wasn't my choice just work slowed down) and I am in a sense a workaholic. But you're right, you're saying something I've really only expressed to myself but just never got any confirmation:I need a fucking vacation
<2023-05-16T02:42:20.000Z> Dan_Hulson: We all need a break at times, Brother, and I'm really here night and day and if you need VC about stuff I always have time for you, friend, but try get away from work and take a trip and try and relax a bit
<2023-05-16T02:43:51.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Everything we talk about stays Private so you can always vent or just shoot the shit. I'm here for you anytime, Brother
<2023-05-16T02:53:09.000Z> MisterLister: I got approved the time off in minutes within asking for it and I made the reso for the camping ground the second I got the confoI will keep that in mind brother but I think it's time for me to take another break from da fedi. If I really want the solo camp trip to hit I should definitely log off for a fat minute before I go on it. I will see you when I get back
<2023-05-16T02:54:36.000Z> Dan_Hulson: That's great news, mate, but at least check back in at let me know you doing ok. Please rest and get away from things for a bit
<2023-05-16T02:55:05.000Z> MisterLister: I will brother, I will
<2023-05-16T02:57:01.000Z> Dan_Hulson: Godspeed friend you will get through this