<2022-09-05T17:49:26.000Z> Jello: Send more pupper pics 
<2022-09-05T17:49:32.000Z> Jello: Also hello
<2022-09-05T17:50:04.000Z> Jello: I hope you're having a good day and feeling good and happy 
<2022-09-06T15:30:11.000Z> Jim: Thanks, hope you're doing well also.
<2022-09-06T17:33:07.000Z> Jello: "I am" 
<2022-09-06T17:33:14.000Z> Jello: What? God? 
<2022-09-06T17:33:24.000Z> Jello: Psh, unreal...
<2022-09-06T17:34:25.000Z> Jello: You sound like you could be. Like you should have played the black guy in bruce almighty with jim carrey 
<2022-09-06T17:34:36.000Z> Jello: Psh, unreal... 
<2022-09-06T17:37:26.000Z> Jello: Oh sorry, "yes I am" 
<2022-09-06T17:37:31.000Z> Jello: Sam I am 
<2022-09-06T17:38:53.000Z> Jello: Whoisyourdaddyandwhatdoeshedo
<2022-09-06T17:39:00.000Z> Jello: Man I cant help myself lol
<2022-09-06T17:41:39.000Z> Jello: Did you really get caught driving on coke. That's just silly 
<2022-09-09T19:01:44.000Z> Jello: You should be the guy that does the "woo hoo" that you hear on most songs on the radio lately
<2022-09-09T19:06:28.000Z> Jello: Like in the "hold me closer" song by britney spears and elton john, you're going to tell me that's not you? 
<2022-09-28T23:28:31.000Z> Jello: Wtf do you even do bro 
<2022-09-28T23:29:35.000Z> Jello: Do you literally just watch anime and go on twitter all day or do you have some secret underground lab like dexters laboratory
<2022-09-28T23:30:20.000Z> Jello: Idk Ive had enough of this nonsense
<2022-09-29T01:09:33.000Z> Jello: Nigga I'm talking to you 
<2022-09-29T01:09:55.000Z> Jello: As if you have anything better to do 
<2022-09-29T01:10:12.000Z> Jello: It's all an illusion 
<2022-09-29T01:10:41.000Z> Jello: Step away from the screen then step back again and message me... dot dot dot 
<2022-09-29T01:12:16.000Z> Jello: It's satanic panic, the simulation gods are trying to decieve you. The demons the demons... that poast post isn't important, trust me, love is forever
<2022-09-29T01:13:30.000Z> Jello: I hope jade put up a live laugh love sign in your home so that you remember to live laugh love, especially love
<2022-09-29T01:13:37.000Z> Jello: It's important
<2022-09-29T17:38:30.000Z> Jello: I want nothing in the world but for you to talk to me 
<2022-09-29T17:40:36.000Z> Jello: God speaks to me. And he says, spam Jim, until he talks to you. Ill send you cute pics if you want in my cute outfits. If Jade is real though I don't really want to interupt whatever you guys have going on though
<2022-09-29T17:43:42.000Z> Jello: You see Jim, James, I think we're meant to be together, and the divine is pulling us together, all the strings are connecting or whatever
<2022-09-29T17:44:16.000Z> Jello: If we come near eachother that might be very dangerous. Or it will bring total balance to the world 
<2022-09-29T17:44:48.000Z> Jello: In other words, stop being a bitch
<2022-09-29T17:46:32.000Z> Jello: I'm just waiting for you baby... Lmao 
<2022-09-29T17:46:41.000Z> Jello: lmao**
<2022-09-29T17:46:57.000Z> Jello: Baby james
<2022-09-29T17:50:59.000Z> Jello: I just found out sweet baby james is a song, by james taylor, so that's your song now 
<2022-09-29T19:03:26.000Z> Jello: Honestly if you don't talk to me now it's over 
<2022-10-02T01:33:19.000Z> Jello attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/bfe647a9e0cacdcb18d9032b2623dd495923cabaf2086aa65c59b40c77978c6b.jpg
<2022-10-02T17:48:21.000Z> Jello: Look if you want a hospital partner or personal nurse just say it. This simulation ass clown world wacky reality God nigga is obsessed with you. And they're dragging me along with it, I have no choice, it's everything. And I'm not even schizo. This is like some fake schizo shit. The synchronicity never ends and I'm trapped with 2d niggas trapped in a 2d reality and frequency. I'm just here like, I wish I was being gangstalked, that's just stage 1. No these are regular people but they are truly like bots and chess pieces man. 
<2022-10-02T17:49:26.000Z> Jello: I just want to know why god is so obsessed with you. He wants me to love you man, that weird nigga won't leave me alone. The tv screen puts the annoying women voices on so I message you being well aware that I'm spamming you
<2022-10-02T17:49:56.000Z> Jello: Its like some universal mk ultra but some love quest bullshit and it's pissing me off now. 
<2022-10-02T17:50:19.000Z> Jello: I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!! GOD DO YOU HEAR ME??? 
<2022-10-02T17:51:09.000Z> Jello: Anyways I bought your hat which quote is relatable given my circumstances. And I put it on my dog. I hope you like the picture. 
<2022-10-02T17:51:59.000Z> Jello: You know I saw that cute picture of your dogs and that cute dog on the right with the silly grass stuck on his/her face is too cute. Reminds me exactly of my dogs
<2022-10-02T17:52:15.000Z> Jello: Been thinking of that dang dog and that grass 
<2022-10-02T17:53:32.000Z> Jello: You know I guess I'll keep spamming until you block me or tell me to stop because you don't know me or want anything to do with me. But I'm literally just following gods plan. All is love and shit
<2022-10-02T17:55:00.000Z> Jello: And I really wish you would do one or the other or be real with me so I can move on with my life and stop being deceived by this weird simulated reality. Its not even scary, it just is, like fuck off. Im a hot young smart super sweet girl too. Shit is pissing me off. 
<2022-10-02T17:57:32.000Z> Jello: I feel like Alex in a clockwork orange with his eyes being peeled open being mk ultrad or whatever the hell. Except it's me being forced to look at a tv screen that synchronizes and fucks with me all day, because its my only source of entertainment
<2022-10-02T17:59:34.000Z> Jello: I just hear your voice now and it's like someone who is a part of my family and that I have a close connection with. In some spiritual way. Where we are related or connect in some way. Just your voice and personality work in a way to do that. 
<2022-10-02T18:00:11.000Z> Jello: I don't even care anymore, Ill say the gay shit. Its not even gay, you could just entirely be some stranger on the internet with their own lives doing their own thing
<2022-10-02T18:03:07.000Z> Jello: I wish I didn't sound schizo because I'm really not. Too normal and grounded for this world. Being aware of some weird mechanics of it but just being an observer. Feels wrong to talk about too but it's like I don't have a choice anymore. I literally cannot stand watching my life pass me by like this while I'm still 29, so close to 30, it's sad to see the leaves change color, and start to fall, when it's so beautiful, and I could be out doing things, but there just isn't much to do or that I can do
<2022-10-02T18:03:17.000Z> Jello: It's like I'm just waiting waiting waiting
<2022-10-02T18:10:41.000Z> Jello: And god is obsessed with playing ken and barbie with me with this weird nigga who sounds like he could be my dad in some spiritual sense. But not really dad because that's gross. 
<2022-10-02T18:10:47.000Z> Jello: lul
<2022-10-02T18:11:49.000Z> Jello: I'm just so tired of it all. I can't take anymore. I wish it would end. Could you tell me to fuck off or tell me you're open and interested in something. 
<2022-10-02T18:11:55.000Z> Jello: Sigh
<2022-10-02T18:15:53.000Z> Jello: This is real pain and hardship lmao the likes the average person could not possinly fathom or understand
<2022-10-02T18:17:23.000Z> Jello: At least Im not some trauma victim though lime molested or some shit. I just want to clear that up because you never know. That shit fucks up brains 
<2022-10-02T18:19:38.000Z> Jello: Sigh. Just message me back. I cant take it anymore. It's like being trapped in this duality prison between two possibilities of reality. I just need to know and understand for sure. 
<2022-10-02T18:20:42.000Z> Jello: Did I forget to mention I'm a hot young sweet girl... sigh, lol
<2022-10-02T18:22:13.000Z> Jello: Young-ish. Life has me all fucked up. 30 is a big year but I'm going to be all alone for it. Because god says you need to kill off everything from your past and be entirely alone. But I can't take it anymore lmao
<2022-10-02T18:22:23.000Z> Jello: This shit is boring as hell 
<2022-10-02T18:28:37.000Z> Jello: Pls answer I have a lot of soul to spill and I'm still holding back on deeper things : '(
<2022-10-03T15:47:41.000Z> Jello: Bruh I need clarity now 
<2022-10-07T23:42:03.000Z> Jello: Ok I got my license. Now what do. You should message me before I finally give up on the divine and let some chad pick me up in their jeep wrangler. 
<2022-10-07T23:43:09.000Z> Jello attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/1c384dd90551d215cdb7bc8b65074a6a76dee7b1e05e5bf87cf9b6750896404e.jpg
<2022-10-07T23:43:19.000Z> Jello: Me fixed  https://i.poastcdn.org/64c497762afb9173491f56061ae98d43c73794e9385259430c092017aa1c93a0.jpg
<2022-10-07T23:46:17.000Z> Jello: Im so bored all I can do is smoke cigs now. Knowing they're bad and the buzz makes me anxious. I don't want another anxiety cancer stick. But I got like 4 Litres of 0mg nicotine vape juice base 
<2022-10-07T23:47:18.000Z> Jello: I just like to wake up and bike to this corner and watch cars go by. And they make me anxious while im smoking half of a morning cig. Because they're loud and make vroom vroom sound at same time as my vroom vroom thought
<2022-10-07T23:47:39.000Z> Jello: No one understands me
<2022-10-07T23:48:50.000Z> Jello: But I like it anyway as it provides some form of visual sensory which I enjoy 
<2022-10-07T23:49:04.000Z> Jello: Win lose situation. What can you do
<2022-10-07T23:49:49.000Z> Jello: I don't know what sounds more schizo, me or these poasts I read just the big picture of it all. Absolute nonsense
<2022-10-07T23:51:22.000Z> Jello: Ralph's kid is cute though. You know now that kid is going to maybe have mental issues because his dad gets too caught up in these stupid online dramas. At this point I think its just to keep money coming in and stay relevant
<2022-10-07T23:51:28.000Z> Jello: The kid suffers... 
<2022-10-07T23:52:17.000Z> Jello: Just like me... for no reason... sniff 
<2022-10-08T20:42:57.000Z> Jello: Message me or eternal curse. Trust me you don't want that I don't even know how this reality works. You never know. 
<2022-10-08T20:43:13.000Z> Jello: When the simulation turns on you
<2022-10-08T20:46:17.000Z> Jello: Why aren't you allowing balance and equilibrium in your life and in this world? Why are you denying peace and hormony? Especially in others? You are bringing in and harbouring chaos and negativity in your life
<2022-10-08T20:46:43.000Z> Jello: Let me help you harmonize baby... dot dot dot
<2022-10-08T20:47:05.000Z> Jello: I swear to god I shouldn't be wasting my time with this shit 
<2022-10-08T20:51:24.000Z> Jello: Imagine Jade is real and I'm like a homewrecker. In which case I'm sorry as love is love and I certainly don't want to mess with that... but hasn't it been quite a while now and isn't she getting older and aging naturally in relevance to being a regular 2d functioning member of society? 
<2022-10-08T20:52:51.000Z> Jello: I mean things get old and boring right. And she's like asian. Bruh I remember her totally non deepfaked fashion sense and it's pretty 2d basic asian archetype. Most asians share this archetype I've noticed. 
<2022-10-08T20:53:02.000Z> Jello: Normie women fashion sense lol
<2022-10-08T20:53:32.000Z> Jello: Is she reaching that stage of ohhh I wanna look like a ladyyy but I'm still like 30 or something so why would you do that
<2022-10-08T20:54:49.000Z> Jello: But back to my point about asian women archetypes. I've noticed they are literally all the same especially in north america western asian women. They're like omg so quirky and cute but it's weird because they're like autistic or something and missing that true genuine spark of soul or spirit
<2022-10-08T20:56:22.000Z> Jello: Every time I see these kinds of asian women on tv they're like a bit overweight with the same face and look like buttsniffers. Like theyre so weird and autistic that in their secret secluded time they literally sniff their butth
<2022-10-08T20:56:27.000Z> Jello: Buttholes 
<2022-10-08T20:56:58.000Z> Jello: Sorry she seems like a nice lady 
<2022-10-08T20:57:21.000Z> Jello: 😆
<2022-10-08T20:57:41.000Z> Jello: Sigh
<2022-10-08T21:00:28.000Z> Jello: I'm lonely but so perfect. And I'm not even real narcassist. I just know it
<2022-10-10T13:18:27.000Z> Jello: Now would be a good time. I mean seriously have you looked out and seen the leaves. I look out and see the same shit but im trapped in hell
<2022-10-10T13:19:06.000Z> Jello: How is that fair lmao I didn't do anything. Would be nice to know I have someone to talk to 
<2022-10-10T13:19:41.000Z> Jello: I cant even fathom how a fake reality more important than real people living and wanting a little support
<2022-10-10T13:20:40.000Z> Jello: How is talking about some fat man more important than me. I can't fathom this lol 
<2022-10-10T13:21:22.000Z> Jello: These messages make me sound psychotic or schizo, imagine that. I don't deserve this shit lul or to even live with that thought anymore
<2022-10-10T13:22:18.000Z> Jello: How do you still remain anonymous, like no one has seen you or snapped a pic literally even knowing where you live. Makes no sense. Especially with the type of people on the internet and your type of community. How is that even possible
<2022-10-10T13:24:05.000Z> Jello: Idk if it's real though you're really crossing a line that makes no reasonable sense and I can't deal with a person like that 
<2022-10-10T13:25:32.000Z> Jello: I sure type a lot to just try and say cmon I'm such a sweetie don't be scared 
<2022-10-10T13:25:36.000Z> Jello: Be not afraid... 
<2022-10-10T13:26:33.000Z> Jello: I'm a blessing sent to earth, a true godly creation, a real angel, cmon, is this how you treat angels? 
<2022-10-10T13:27:01.000Z> Jello: Wasn't there something in the bible or something where they sent angels to earth and the men just wanted to rape them or something lmao 
<2022-10-10T13:28:22.000Z> Jello: Don't be a rapist, you should wake up every day and think, Im going to be the best I can be today, and do whatever is right. And not degenerate to such low 2d levels such as 4chan and taking part in the fucking clown world stage nonsense
<2022-10-10T13:28:40.000Z> Jello: Who cares about the fake wars that shot is so cringe and gay boring 
<2022-10-10T13:28:44.000Z> Jello: Angels are real 
<2022-10-10T13:29:50.000Z> Jello: Let us transverse to the dimension of pure soul essence together. We would balance ourselves out well and vibe at a good frequency out there
<2022-10-10T13:30:08.000Z> Jello: Lmao these prison planet niggas putting ideas in my head 
<2022-10-10T13:31:16.000Z> Jello: So are you not the yin to my yang or whats going on? Whats so important out there in your reality? 
<2022-10-10T13:31:52.000Z> Jello: Or yang to my yin, whatever it is 
<2022-10-10T13:32:17.000Z> Jello: Yang is one letter short of wang so that makes more sense
<2022-10-10T13:32:31.000Z> Jello: I can't believe english language is real 
<2022-10-10T13:33:26.000Z> Jello: Really though can you just talk to me. Fuck this platform also. Look at how much bullshit I have to say, Im so bored. I can keep going and going I have no one to express myself to you know. 
<2022-10-10T14:25:57.000Z> Jello: Like you had your little game, but Im a normal person you know. Im literally just laying here every day like wtf why wont they talk to me and why is my life so restricted. Im just a regular person and want a regular life now 
<2022-10-10T14:26:23.000Z> Jello: This is the only power or control I have you know. And I just get ignored like Im nothing 
<2022-10-10T14:27:02.000Z> Jello: I don't know how else to word things on this stupid platform. 
<2022-10-10T14:28:30.000Z> Jello: This is one of those things where if you don't respond and I mean today, it's like end all be all. What else is there
<2022-10-10T14:28:55.000Z> Jello: I don't want to type schizo sounding shit anymore
<2022-10-17T18:43:04.000Z> Jello: What kind of retarded world do I live in where I have to do some social development program to get gas money 
<2022-10-17T18:43:12.000Z> Jello: Bruh 
<2022-10-17T18:43:36.000Z> Jello: In french probably... LMFAO... are you kidding 
<2022-10-17T18:44:35.000Z> Jello: Get me the hell out of here, I literally just need coffee and gas money, Im not interested in some french cringe sit down with 2d nigger for maybe hours having them tell me about social skills as if Im not at the peak of understanding in them
<2022-10-17T18:44:43.000Z> Jello: Most retarded shit I can imagine 
<2022-10-17T18:45:51.000Z> Jello: You know Im just upset that Im living in this world as Im made to understand it but still have the idea in my mind that I have to partake in these stupid fucking roleplay-type experiences just to make some chump change, like $20 here and there to get from point a to b 
<2022-10-17T18:46:56.000Z> Jello: This world is literally mk-ultra'ing me and you want me to go on like everything is grounded and normal otherwise. This shit is retarded I cant do it anymore 
<2022-10-17T18:47:13.000Z> Jello: Im asking for a small investment to enrich my life and give me peace of mind 
<2022-10-17T18:47:36.000Z> Jello: All my time Ive put in to this nonsense 
<2022-10-17T18:48:38.000Z> Jello: If you don't put an end to this now I dont know what else to do, just mentally even it's too much work for me for something that has the possibility to be nothing 
<2022-10-17T18:49:04.000Z> Jello: The amount of mental work and energy I put in to simply existing... 
<2022-10-17T18:49:46.000Z> Jello: Like you care more about these internet people and degenerate fans or whats happening? 
<2022-10-17T18:49:51.000Z> Jello: Lmao
<2022-10-17T18:50:55.000Z> Jello: Imagine a reality where its possible this is real and you have this guy waking up every day like "yeah theyre suffering but nah im not going to message them"
<2022-10-17T18:53:30.000Z> Jello: I dont even care anymore this shit is lretarded. And still the possibility that Im absolutely nothing to this fucking guy and none of this shit makes sense. In fact I could just be another "fan" in their inbox that they don't even check notifications for, just lost in the sea of actual retards
<2022-10-17T18:54:30.000Z> Jello: Just be nice and normal why is that so hard. Do whats right. Just for clarity and peace of mind. Are you kidding 
<2022-10-17T18:55:08.000Z> Jello: You wouldn't want to spend a day in my shoes not to mention still holding on to any spirit and spark I have left as a young lady 
<2022-10-17T18:56:14.000Z> Jello: Im just existing not even wanting to exist. Or exist in a different way but no one is really reaching out to help change the direction of my life and thoughts. Its all the same shit just trapped trapped trapped
<2022-10-17T18:57:16.000Z> Jello: I just dont get it, there is no rhyme or reason to not doing what is right or normal or fair and reasonable 
<2022-10-17T18:58:02.000Z> Jello: Like can I just move on with my life then 
<2022-10-17T18:58:11.000Z> Jello: Why should I wait for anything smh 
<2022-10-18T19:35:13.000Z> Jello: I dont know what to do or how to mentally cope with this anymore. I don't want anything to do with doctors or welfare when its based on bullshit and Im trapped between living in baseline reality while experiencing another aspect of reality that nobody understands or can relate to. How do you go to a doctor and lie about having anxiety or depression and lie about being fucked up about a friends death to get some welfare benefit. It just doesn't feel right and the whole energy and aura of that is toxic
<2022-10-18T19:36:56.000Z> Jello: Its like nobody knows or undestands the truth about how I feel. Even if I do have a form of anxiety and depression its entirely based on my circumstances and reality I deal with and not me personally. How do you juggle that and what kind of shit youre supposed to say in baseline reality where these people are living normal average lives completely disconnected from my reality and experience
<2022-10-18T19:37:51.000Z> Jello: Its like every day just suffering with not knowing and stressed about money when all I need is like a few dollars here and there to get by, hypothetically
<2022-10-18T19:38:28.000Z> Jello: Dealing with hypotheticals instead of what is true or not true just based on how real my experience feels and how possible it is 
<2022-10-18T19:39:09.000Z> Jello: Its just very confusing and stressful and overall very unenjoyable to live this way, like no quality of life, when im otherwise perfect and happy and there is absolutely nothing wrong with me 
<2022-10-18T19:39:20.000Z> Jello: Its so fucking sad 
<2022-10-18T19:39:52.000Z> Jello: And I just spend every day laying down looking at the wall because Im tired of watching tv and all this nonsense
<2022-10-18T19:40:45.000Z> Jello: On top of that missed my driving appointment when I know I should hqve known better, I hate shit like that when the consequence is literally $90 for a missed appointment for their time... or lack thereof... 
<2022-10-18T19:44:34.000Z> Jello: YWhen you have like 400 maybe 500 left that is a big chunk to just continue on like it doesn't matter or let it not get to you. I hate the duality of this reality where there are 2 possibilities of moving forward. Everything that feels right and what aligns with what Ive been made to believe just wastes my time for no good reason. And I suffer during this time like its so fucking hard to go through a day not having my future settled or moving in a right direction. 
<2022-10-18T19:47:52.000Z> Jello: Its disturbing and weird to even think about sitting in some doctors office telling them some bullshit and avoiding everything that I feel and experience to get some bullshit government money to continue to sit around doing nothing and avoiding everything that is important. And go to fucking program's with people with real disabilities and shit like that I imagine like some freakshow or on the other more positive side of me and hand see it as an opportunity to get the jist of people like this, but that sort of thinking is like fucking demonic to me now, self improvement and bettering yourself and all this nonsense bullshit to continue to waste my time 
<2022-10-18T19:49:49.000Z> Jello: I already imagine just being in that room and sub urban freak is playing in my head looking at these damn people, hypothetically youtu.be/zNrKoWG7Cj0
<2022-10-18T19:50:06.000Z> Jello: Idk this isnt the reality im interested in nor do I want to partake in 
<2022-10-18T19:50:40.000Z> Jello: But then you open yourself up to the torture of having something be possibly real but the time to find out is your time being wasted day by day, your life and your youth
<2022-10-18T19:53:24.000Z> Jello: I dont like feeling like my soul and spirit is being stolen from me every day. I used to be so much happier and just willing to partake and exist. Now it's just torture. And I don't want to do things I don't feel is right or healthy. I just want to know the truth and move forward from there. Not be stuck in mental loops and be so bored i just want to sleep or not exist. 
<2022-10-18T19:53:41.000Z> Jello: Me... are you kidding... so sad
<2022-10-18T19:54:26.000Z> Jello: I should be like out having fun with friends or dating and having a boyfriend but Im stuck here waiting for something that may or may not be real in grounded reality
<2022-10-18T19:55:03.000Z> Jello: While having to partake in these fucking retarded soul draining activities so I feel like I can buy the coffee I want or have gas money 
<2022-10-18T19:56:47.000Z> Jello: I know im always right so I don't understand. I know whats right and should happen but it never happens. And this reality is unbelievably confusing and deceptive. While im just like durrr can i go now or is so and so so important I have to deal with it for no reason? 
<2022-10-18T19:56:52.000Z> Jello: Ridiculous... 
<2022-10-18T19:57:44.000Z> Jello: Like all I can think is why haven't they messaged me or sent me money. Even anonymously lmao imagine like 20 dollaroos in the mail as a gift card. I just don't understand this reality 
<2022-10-18T20:01:04.000Z> Jello: GIt has me typing like a schizo to some stranger on the internet. If that were true this reality is deceptive to everyone else too. And it all works together to deceive. Qnd I cant live in a reality like that anymore lmao, that takes everything from you and tortures you for an absurd amount of time and leaves you still feeling crazy or rather that it could be possible especially from the perspective of others. 
<2022-10-18T20:08:31.000Z> Jello: I get this feeling sometimes where you imagine sitting at a doctor talking to them about bullshit anxiety or depression or something, but its just this schizo feeling where grounded reality in thought just smacks you hard in the face and the feeling is disgusting and downright disrespectful considering what I've experienced. That damn schizo feeling its like everything ive experienced doesn't matter and you live in this evil deceitful reality that just wants to abuse and take advantage of you. Thats real and I dont like it and shouldn't have to feel that way even for a moment. Idk point is I dont like that feeling and just want to avoid anything and everything in that direction and just know the truth and move on. Because even if its not real its like, ok I know for certain and really thats all I need. Then ill get a fucking job and do all this bullshit. Despite what I experience or have experienced. And just move on. But to go on teeter tottering between two realities and feeling like you need to do things for someone when they dont feel right and just straight out arent right or necessary or meaningful is ridiculous. 
<2022-10-18T20:10:09.000Z> Jello: To think these messages just go unread or read but not responded to is sad too. If not the worst of all. In the case that its real of course, not if its not, then youre just some person who owes me nothing and im sorry for this schizo sounding nonsense. You just have to do what feels right at this point, as ridiculous as it is sending who could be a stranger paragraphs, this is the only power I have 
<2022-10-18T20:10:23.000Z> Jello: I dont like or enjoy doing it 
<2022-10-18T20:11:55.000Z> Jello: I need you to give me peace of mind in any case. Because I don't know. This isn't going anywhere. I feel trapped like a slave. Very mentally imprisoning
<2022-10-18T20:12:03.000Z> Jello: Its not fair 
<2022-10-18T20:18:29.000Z> Jello: Ok basically going on welfare and all this bullshit doesn't align with my reality. So either you know or dont know just come out with it. And stop wasting my time and putting me through all this unnecessary turmoil its pissing me off
<2022-10-18T20:19:20.000Z> Jello: Do you know really how confusing it is to deal with this. It makes no sense. And I have an understanding of baseline reality and all Ive ever known before any of this bullshit 
<2022-10-18T20:20:14.000Z> Jello: How do you deal with all these big conceptual understandings of things but only have evidence for one aspect of it being true which leaves you completely out of it in a way as a real physical being 
<2022-10-18T20:20:19.000Z> Jello: It makes no sense 
<2022-10-18T20:20:54.000Z> Jello: If I have to go another day just not knowing or having any peace its just really not right
<2022-10-18T20:22:06.000Z> Jello: Even joking around just really doesnt align with my reality and my living experience at this point. Like how do you just go on about your day and laugh it off or even laugh at the little things anymore. There is so much unresolved nonsense and its torture to do so 
<2022-10-18T20:23:09.000Z> Jello: I really hate typing like this it doesn't even do me any good. I just dont want to go on doing dumb shit like applying for welfare knowing its not right. All these little things that just arent right and all the stupid stress I deal with could be put to an emd so easily 
<2022-10-18T20:24:14.000Z> Jello: Its like how do you go on after typing all this directly to this person with no response or anything. What just to do it again? It's not right and makes no sense 
<2022-10-18T20:24:52.000Z> Jello: Im really just trying to be normal, at this point just want my life back to feel and be normal again. Thats the only way that would help me. 
<2022-10-18T20:25:31.000Z> Jello: How do you continue to exist when you simply dont even want to go on existing like this anymore 
<2022-10-18T20:25:56.000Z> Jello: And for what... I just want it to end 
<2022-10-18T21:05:18.000Z> Jello: If you dont respond what am I supposed to do : '( I have like 400 to my name with no idea when it will end, which basically means I have 0 because I dont want to spend it 
<2022-10-25T23:38:10.000Z> Jello: Really lol
<2022-10-27T23:35:53.000Z> Jello: 😡
<2022-10-28T22:10:35.000Z> Jello: Send selfie in skull mask 😡
<2022-10-28T22:10:48.000Z> Jello: Any mask will do
<2022-10-28T22:10:57.000Z> Jello: Angiryface
<2022-10-28T22:12:23.000Z> Jello: Jk just skull mask
<2022-10-28T22:23:34.000Z> Jello: That's cool you have a wife, Im looking for a boyfriend 
<2022-10-28T22:24:17.000Z> Jello: Love is always good you know, makes people feel good
<2022-10-30T04:05:27.000Z> Jello attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/76553af3594f4c8e117bdca71e8a106fb6e229ed334bbc2b70631ed2c6b51a00.mp4
<2022-11-03T17:32:06.000Z> Jello: I got my license now im depressed. 10 million years waiting for this thing. Longest month of my life. And now what. 
<2022-11-04T04:26:54.000Z> Jello: 3 strikes and you're out
<2022-11-09T01:58:42.000Z> Jello: Streaming till youre bored but Im bored every day : '( 
<2022-11-09T01:58:54.000Z> Jello: I can't turn it off 
<2022-11-12T06:03:25.000Z> Jello: WIND IT UP
<2022-11-18T00:58:26.000Z> Jello: Never to be heard from again 
<2022-11-18T16:13:10.000Z> Jello attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/b70e95a967f73f8f8c4cce8c82693325fe27f1bf7dc61565359f52a9e41ad632.jpg
<2022-12-20T07:12:58.000Z> Jello: One Christmas and birthday wish, just a message 
<2023-01-14T17:43:55.000Z> Jello: Well anyways, if you're ever looking for a new gf I got you. No tinder or anything, I'm here. And I don't care that you're sick. I wish good people came to me that easy. So there you go 
<2023-01-14T17:44:06.000Z> Jello: On god 
<2023-01-17T18:08:09.000Z> Jello: Hey, buy some sex dolls, dress them up, especially put one in a trenchcoat and hat - leave them around your room and dont sleep for 3 days
<2023-01-17T18:10:18.000Z> Jello: Its important to turn the lights off 
<2023-01-17T18:11:03.000Z> Jello: I bet you take a bunch of benadryl anyway, maybe no need to stay awake so long 
<2023-01-17T18:12:59.000Z> Jello: Im reccommending it as a nice time with some interdimenshional shapeshifters who happen to be cute girls. However you will likely experience them all handing you phantom cigarettes all the time
<2023-01-17T18:13:39.000Z> Jello: And you smoking phantom cigarettes. Good riddance, get a vape you dummy, cigarettes are only good on drugs 
<2023-01-17T18:13:53.000Z> Jello: Alright IS BE DONE WIT YOU 
<2023-01-17T19:33:32.000Z> Jello: Me expecting a response from this, every time 
<2023-01-17T19:33:50.000Z> Jello: Hope you're not actually like seeing doctors and doing serious shit 
<2023-01-17T19:34:41.000Z> Jello: I just assumed for the longest time you werent actually sick or to the extent you say, especially lately 
<2023-01-17T19:39:02.000Z> Jello: I hate this chat platform. Of course you wouldn't talk to a girl off this platform when you have a (totally) real wife at home who loves you. Mmmmhm
<2023-01-17T23:18:29.000Z> Jello attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/edc54daf2c38f9bbff4d2829d27e4012652b82f9b0336f694cfe4d7fc4d765f7.jpg
<2023-01-17T23:20:22.000Z> Jello: Look! You smoke, I smoke sometimes. Look! Vaping better and next level though, if you have oral fixation like me 
<2023-01-17T23:21:54.000Z> Jello: Fake jade niggas be like - JIM STOP SMOKING IN THE BASEMENT. JIM IM SAD YOURE DYING AND YOU DONT CARE JUST QUIT PLEASE JIM! 
<2023-01-17T23:24:57.000Z> Jello: I have a sneaking funtime schizo theory based on god given synchronicity that you actually created all the cute dorky nerdy giiiiirl art 
<2023-01-17T23:25:40.000Z> Jello: I remember that thing with your anime list, lmfao, yeah you didn't watch sailor moon. Actually me btw 
<2023-01-17T23:28:27.000Z> Jello: Block and delete if you feel nothing and god given direction and guidance has led me astray, In other words, the powers that be that programned this absurd AI bing bong funnyland is a big meanie
<2023-01-17T23:29:48.000Z> Jello: Sorry you only had that one code from your dream that time that you googled. Hope that wasnt your only god spiritual experience
<2023-01-17T23:30:52.000Z> Jello: I think you share much less than you actually experience or know anyways
<2023-01-17T23:32:58.000Z> Jello: Im like that guy with the board connecting all the conspiracies (in the pic its pepe lol meme world is real). Except god is like, jim this, jim that 
<2023-01-17T23:36:23.000Z> Jello: Im like please god, ai, aliens, simulation scientists, just leave me alone, im not looking for this, but I see it. 24/7 jim in my reality. Non stop patterns dating back to god damn beginning of history. Jimony Crickey, really? 
<2023-01-17T23:38:21.000Z> Jello: And Ive never really been a fan in that way, just liked watching you for you, and was only youtuber I could watch at one point when I first found. Literal laughing non stop at the dumbest shit. No obsessive crush. More of something that developed from the universe bombarding me with you, god dammit! That and fear and loathing in las vegas lmao
<2023-01-17T23:38:52.000Z> Jello: Your voice is literally in the movie I shit you not. 
<2023-01-17T23:41:00.000Z> Jello: Truman show life. But reality is probably much stranger. No way some guy on the moon... right? Chin ass niggas
<2023-01-17T23:41:07.000Z> Jello: Funny if actually true
<2023-01-17T23:42:41.000Z> Jello: Typing like this is gay working with the duality of the possibility you understand, know, or have no fucking clue what kind of schizo shit this is, which is understandable 
<2023-01-17T23:50:54.000Z> Jello: So tired zzz Ive typed dumb shit at you forever. The universe has just been working with me 24 goddamn 7 every day for so long. Im so tired of this absurd shit lol. It's just a real powerful connected sort of interaction with the universe, that I can convince any open minded person of being true, or at least seeing the patterns and synchronicities I do 
<2023-01-17T23:52:13.000Z> Jello: Now can you get me to stop typing dumb schizo sounding shit at you. God literally mk ultrad me to clean and organize better like preparing to wife me. Using literal annoying sounds lol, especially women on tv my parents blare all day long
<2023-01-17T23:55:12.000Z> Jello: God I hate this typing. It feels so retarded and wrong but this is my life and it needs to end lmao. Over time I've just built this connection like I know you, or try to, based on little to nothing. 
<2023-01-17T23:56:03.000Z> Jello: Now the tv playing in background making people sound like theyre ughhh feddd up. Classic god bullying
<2023-01-17T23:58:15.000Z> Jello: Like nigga im over this. I just turned 30 on the 6th of january. Had one bf for 10 years, thats it, my first one was named james lol, lasted a month at like 14. They come to mr, I dont look, but at this age should
<2023-01-18T00:00:06.000Z> Jello: Stupid simulation wasting my life with this nonsense. Im forced to look at a screen all day lol. Just constant bombardment about me, my personal life... so in essense a 3 year god damn spiritual awakening and journey that was actually more about me, my life, reflection, behavioral changing
<2023-01-18T00:00:18.000Z> Jello: And you just being the like, thing, thats there 
<2023-01-18T00:02:23.000Z> Jello: Please, end this for me lmao. Idk add me on telegram, dont use but idk, jellojello. Facebook. 438 989 0521. I dont care about doxing such seemingly schizo nonsense anymore lol
<2023-01-18T00:03:07.000Z> Jello: I just need like, yeah sorry dont know you dont care, or on the other hand that at the very least you feel and can understand some aspects Im talking about
<2023-01-18T00:05:10.000Z> Jello: Im not like a crazy stalker, and in this fantasy simulation sort of seeming existence and life... man I forgot my point. I just grew a connection over time and was made to believe something is possible based on some crazy personal understanding of how I perceive the universe and how it works with me 
<2023-01-18T00:06:02.000Z> Jello: So cringe, esp in retrospect. But I need this out there and not just here and there dumb messages that try to stay away from the point, or whatever that term is, tired 
<2023-01-18T00:08:07.000Z> Jello: Inb4 he never reads this lol. Or kind of sees or knows and never responds. It's just so sad to feel the world and (supposedly) god could be deceiving you personally in some way relating to your life and worst of all love! 
<2023-01-18T00:09:02.000Z> Jello: Let the darkness grow while I wait for some finalizing response that ends this shit for me lol 
<2023-01-18T00:10:19.000Z> Jello: God loves trolling me but its too much now lol. Im not even christian or any of that. Its like... man this kind of sharing of personal experience I HATE too on this whateven platform
<2023-01-18T00:12:22.000Z> Jello: Well do you kind of look like or have hunter s thompson vibe too or what? I can imagine it. But point was johnny depp in movie is basically me lol. My name is even on the wall in a scene. 
<2023-01-18T00:16:20.000Z> Jello: Sigh Im sorry for all these got damn messages. I mean I dont care, I love typing, so much to share, but yeah lol, I just see it from outside perspective of this older guy with supposed wife (lol, suspended disabelief with reason). Or is it suspended belief. If one thing so out of this world technologically advanced is possible then small things like that are easy to brush away. But god trolls me with the name jade and asians too lol
<2023-01-18T00:19:02.000Z> Jello: I hate hate hate this. Like cant be real or you truly have no conceptual knowing. And I have to take the past 3 years of my life, where at least I had a lot of fun and laughs, and move forward with that, the positive ways ive become best version of myself through... Supposedly god, right. Idk. Tv screens and wind and birds go heehee chirpchirp at certain times
<2023-01-18T00:20:52.000Z> Jello: Like really, sharing stuff like this here. Please dont dox lol. Its a deeper more spiritual thing and Im sure you get that. Im ready to move forward and god having your life on internet is just the worst thing imaginable
<2023-01-18T00:21:08.000Z> Jello: How you stay anonymous god knows, good choice 
<2023-01-18T00:22:03.000Z> Jello: Hope you got my lucky loonie in the mail at least in that cringe pink butterfly envelope. Lol. I just had to. Every option, platform
<2023-01-18T00:23:03.000Z> Jello: Well thats it I feel better. I mean it is or it isn't. I just need to know for sure. 
<2023-01-18T00:23:16.000Z> Jello: "Glad to help" lol help with what? 
<2023-01-18T00:24:32.000Z> Jello: Andddd part of me doesn't want to return here for response for a thousand years. Just cringe and seemingly sad on my part. But ill check every day anyway because woohoo 
<2023-01-18T00:27:04.000Z> Jello: Lol this image from 2 years ago when god influenced me to go through the clothing phase making me look like a daddy issues bitch https://i.poastcdn.org/e4168883a71cc8ad817093c3a1c82baecd48724ca1f2b5986d72d19ca013d1f0.jpg
<2023-01-18T00:27:29.000Z> Jello: I look sort of ugly ye. God damn pizza satanic ugly ass thelema niggas 
<2023-01-18T00:29:08.000Z> Jello: Lmao I just hate satanic things just because of how aware I seem to be of it all. Pedo shit especially. But like that boston statue... LMFAO peak satanism to me 
<2023-01-18T00:30:53.000Z> Jello: Im sorry man. I really dont care at this point though. At least im entertaining. Hope this all comes off more funny because basically every aspect is
<2023-01-18T00:32:48.000Z> Jello: 3 years of pure torture and psychological torment, Im telling you. While also literally going months where I would laugh all day every day, loud as fuck, with your vids playinf out loud lmao 
<2023-01-18T00:34:24.000Z> Jello: Yeah weird times too lol. I took a bill in ibizza... jk I took shrooms and watched your justice for jamar stream I think it was, and it was so trippy and synchronized with these deformed crowds of people LMAOOO
<2023-01-18T00:34:42.000Z> Jello: And you were just like, "check out this guy"
<2023-01-18T00:34:50.000Z> Jello: Perfection lol 
<2023-01-18T00:36:03.000Z> Jello: Maybe TLDR technology is evil. youtu.be/4JkIs37a2JE
<2023-01-18T00:36:31.000Z> Jello: Lmao the hat. Hatman, true raoul duke/hunter s thompson
<2023-01-18T00:37:12.000Z> Jello: Alright im done here, I go overboard easily for uh very, very reasonable reasons. This is my life. 
<2023-01-18T00:38:03.000Z> Jello: So drained lol oh gee how embarrassing 
<2023-01-18T00:38:10.000Z> Jello: Howww embarrassing
<2023-01-18T01:30:11.000Z> Jello: Im not even truly schizo and while typing all this (missed a nights sleep tho lol) look out my window and there are what look like just static people entity niggas out there all of a sudden putting on a show for me. Like I know its not real but holy shit the detail and fluidity. Focus on it for a couple of seconds and my peripherals and everything became this smooth looking dmt looking room. With these entities out there, alien niggas but mostly just humans because I straight up just
<2023-01-18T01:30:23.000Z> Jello: Wanna see attractive people and guys 
<2023-01-18T01:31:15.000Z> Jello: But they put on these women and emotional concepts like people crying. Always trying to get you to interact like reaching out their hands or offering you things. This nigga created a static energy ball dude
<2023-01-18T01:31:27.000Z> Jello: And sent it forward through my window to me
<2023-01-18T01:32:01.000Z> Jello: And its like a joke to me lol. Experience with drugs and sleep deprivation mainly. Its always similar 
<2023-01-18T01:32:54.000Z> Jello: Its more an idea as if its aware I dont care, more its just showing me. But point is other people see this shit and god knows what real schizos see
<2023-01-18T01:33:21.000Z> Jello: These beings from far away look real as life. Interacting and talking. Groups of people in detailed clothes just like that
<2023-01-18T01:33:46.000Z> Jello: Like my brain isnt that creative, it aint me LMAO, Im not certain of anything but near certain of that
<2023-01-18T01:34:30.000Z> Jello: Like I just look away like k fuck this and turn back and just right there one of the big long stick looking trees is fucking some other entity
<2023-01-18T01:34:39.000Z> Jello: Like wtf is this shit lol
<2023-01-18T01:34:50.000Z> Jello: Its always like that LMAO
<2023-01-18T01:36:07.000Z> Jello: I dont share this with anyone btw, just ex, who loathes when I overtype like this. He just doesn't get it. But its fun using people as platform to share. And god chose you for me to do it to 
<2023-01-18T01:36:17.000Z> Jello: So regardless hope you find this interesting
<2023-01-18T01:36:40.000Z> Jello: And yes other aspect of me obviously watches your vids and bits and pieces are sus
<2023-01-18T01:37:21.000Z> Jello: So I don't know why Im typing this lmao. The evil duality of two possibilities and realities in my mind. One to the average person seemingly impossible
<2023-01-18T01:37:59.000Z> Jello: Ewww what is this platform. Dont know if its secure. Just schizo typing anyways lol
<2023-01-18T01:38:44.000Z> Jello: So this shit is turned on if i focus on walls or outside or whatever, but im like, fuck that Im typing to jim lmao, this is the thing with all this 
<2023-01-18T01:39:20.000Z> Jello: Like that shit is crazy and reality is all woohoo wee absurd but its not helping me lol
<2023-01-18T01:39:56.000Z> Jello: Its the duality of maybe the world is just evil then. Lmao. Deceptive. But, its so nice, and understands! 
<2023-01-18T01:40:03.000Z> Jello: 😡
<2023-01-18T01:40:28.000Z> Jello: Niggas be in hospital with sunken stroke eye while im typing this 
<2023-01-18T01:41:09.000Z> Jello: Why travel to new york just for a hospital. I just catch on to these little things you say over time and literally forget the majority of things lol
<2023-01-18T01:41:48.000Z> Jello: First stream i watched that seemingly opened on its own on my phone was the uganda or wtv guy that invented quote unquote these crazy things
<2023-01-18T01:41:55.000Z> Jello: Now im mad 
<2023-01-18T01:42:12.000Z> Jello: Just the whole concept of that vid in relation to this looool
<2023-01-18T01:43:09.000Z> Jello: Yo I hope you and jade are in big loves. Im happy she makes soup for you 
<2023-01-18T01:43:39.000Z> Jello: And she liked that one show with the uhhhh the guy with the uhhh just one eye yellow guy? 
<2023-01-18T01:48:46.000Z> Jello: What a terrible chat platform for these messages lol. Probably not real. Help me move on. I dont even want a relationship now smh my heart belongs to god. I was FORCED (but went along curiously lol) to form a bond and connection with you via just your voice and videos
<2023-01-18T01:49:13.000Z> Jello: And me going hmmm yes god his opinions are retarded but he must be playing devils advocate
<2023-01-18T01:49:47.000Z> Jello: Or ohhh he acts like an asshole but is a total sweetheart, lol that one stuck with me cus same 
<2023-01-18T01:50:24.000Z> Jello: Youre never really mean though which I find funny. Just find things that trigger people harmlessly 
<2023-01-18T01:51:23.000Z> Jello: Nigga im out of here with this gay shit. God said you would at least wish me a happy 30th birthday after 3 long years of just... WORLDVIEW REALITY CHANGING NONSENSE. Love quest 
<2023-01-18T01:52:37.000Z> Jello: Pls dont read or save now Im mad. All yall niggas, even these fake dmt entity interdimensional images sent to my pineal gland, all T R I C K S T E R S 
<2023-01-18T01:55:07.000Z> Jello: I love burying myself deeper lol. It never ends. Theres too much. But you have better things to do right. Niggas be like *cough... "im sick... " (mean girls) 
<2023-01-18T01:58:53.000Z> Jello: Alright there was more to that. But I dont really know you or what youre going through lol. Its just like, wtf do you mean mystery disease. I dont trust like that, open that button *harrys car shop (eric andremem) 
<2023-01-18T01:59:01.000Z> Jello: Goodbye friend 
<2023-01-18T02:00:49.000Z> Jello: youtu.be/qVmmsQns9oQ
<2023-01-18T02:00:52.000Z> Jello: Lmao 
<2023-01-18T02:01:11.000Z> Jello: Same
<2023-01-18T02:06:02.000Z> Jello: Everything, always, effortlessly, makes sense, and relates. And on your own like this realizing this. What do you even do with that. 
<2023-01-18T02:06:25.000Z> Jello: Either you know or you dont. SHAMEFUL for me to type like this lol 
<2023-01-26T21:08:56.000Z> Jello: Tfw random youtube internet guy god forced in to your life and in your spiritual "enlightenment" butthole awakening won't message you back to confirm the universe is just playing tricks on me and havin a goof n a gaff 
<2023-01-26T21:14:52.000Z> Jello: The shit I experience just objectively lol, I need confirmation, conclusion, to move on from this potential nonsense. Basically tell me Im retarded and you have no idea what I'm talking about. God I hate how I have to type this it makes me cringe. Makes no sense. Like just block me if that's possible lol if you have no interest in me or have no idea what I'm on about in the slightest. 
<2023-01-26T21:19:28.000Z> Jello: I just turned 30 man this world taking me on a ride for far too long. Lol 3 years. Oh look haha funny freemason number. Wish I could just be funny and say my retarded wacky shit lol but yeah this is too long with this. I need it to end. Btw god is obsessed with you, man, you're a big part. It's like I'm the real true totally real main character (lol) observing your existence being meaningful in this weird reality. But all the fake schizo fun Ive had, it just needs to end
<2023-01-26T21:24:51.000Z> Jello: Really wish I didn't have to type all this knowing there will be no response lol. But man Im desperate I need conclusion. Like if this guy actually has a wife and stable life he's committed to, this shit is just weird lmao. Ive experienced and understand weird things about our reality so based on that, it's easy for me to imagine and see other aspects of our reality just being possible. Look Im tired of being a normal sane rational girl and having this potential delusion that 
<2023-01-26T21:24:58.000Z> Jello: I just want to put to rest 
<2023-01-26T21:27:54.000Z> Jello: It's just disappointing at this point to feel you believe something is possible which is such a fantasy thing, fantasy thinking, which is unlike me lol, but in real grounded reality that your average person lives in and understands, it's not even comprehensible 
<2023-01-26T21:34:00.000Z> Jello: Im just here feeling like I live in a bing bing bop world. And like Ive grown to like this guy but in my reality it is something more deeper and spiritual so if you're truly just some regular guy who doesn't even have some idea about the ideas Im expressing then lol again, block, but tell me like, Im retarded, and to stop messaging you because you have a wife, and she wouldn't like this very much! Right lol
<2023-01-26T21:35:16.000Z> Jello: Lol I trust when god gets me to save a pic earlier today that would be later be sent to you  https://i.poastcdn.org/e0f4bb81ae5291996a3a33c36118951b64ffff2488151ddfbb143308c97f692a.jpg
<2023-01-26T21:36:03.000Z> Jello: Probably the real story of albert Hoffmanns bike ride
<2023-01-26T21:36:11.000Z> Jello: They don't want to tell you 
<2023-01-26T21:43:42.000Z> Jello: She reminds me of your dogs, from what I've seen lol. Little dogs the best. Poodles best. They just got that personality https://i.poastcdn.org/97bf6fd8302fef21bc83b49404fda5249753f22cbc245e8402e45efbc6279eb7.jpg
<2023-01-26T21:45:13.000Z> Jello: Man I take speed to have a fun day and night 1 time, and end up messaging all of this, every time lol. I just want you to block me, tell me Im being retarded, you don't care to know me, dont know me, etc. Then I could like... be freed from this mental prison of duality and possibility
<2023-01-26T21:46:29.000Z> Jello: Imagine some stranger just having some like godly spiritual experience but its all super troll and retarded lol and it has a connection to this random guy in his 40's that made youtube videos 
<2023-01-26T21:47:48.000Z> Jello: Like why. Anyways Its just so embarrassing esp in retrospect typing all this. Seriously if you read this, just do it, tell me to stfu, block me, so I get the message, the real world message lol 
<2023-01-26T21:51:06.000Z> Jello: This reality is so retarded lol, all funny and haha absurd wacky, but this is too long and too far. If you block me make your final message to me "happy to help" LMAO 
<2023-01-26T21:51:33.000Z> Jello: Finally everything in life restored, all balanced once again
<2023-02-01T20:10:45.000Z> Jello: Block me dammit, god why have you forsaken me! They're playing matchmaker up there, potentially unrealistic matchmaker
<2023-02-01T20:30:50.000Z> Jello: Im like a real angel sent from the heavens, Jim. I have the word angel in my last name too, no joke. My first memory and dream I can remember was my crib floating up in to heaven, with clouds, and baby angels, shooting arrows around me 
<2023-02-01T20:31:37.000Z> Jello: In the crib jim, how in the world does a baby understand the concept of heaven and angel babies lol 
<2023-02-01T20:35:08.000Z> Jello: Yeah I won't stop until you block me, or at least tell me to stfu. I get bored and stumble upon here and want to keep typing. Knowing damn well I sound like a schizo. I just live in a world of possibilities, you find one truth about reality that no one else is in tune with or aware of, and it opens you up to what else can be possible. Law of attraction also. Doesn't seem to be working much for me though lmao 
<2023-02-01T20:36:37.000Z> Jello: I turn on the tv, youtube - its all jim this jim that. Jimmy. Papa johns (my dads name is John lol). JIMMY JOHNS! 
<2023-02-01T20:36:48.000Z> Jello: Like this is real shit. 
<2023-02-10T03:33:23.000Z> Jello: Uhhhhh maam, this is a wendy's 
<2023-02-10T03:33:34.000Z> Jello: 🥺
<2023-02-16T03:19:24.000Z> Jello: *Sees ring video with jade talking 
<2023-02-16T03:19:29.000Z> Jello: Just forget it...
<2023-02-16T03:19:34.000Z> Jello: Lmao 
<2023-02-16T03:20:57.000Z> Jello: God lied to and betrayed me. Must be the demiurge or something, lmao. Little rascal. God really loves you, I'll tell you that much though. 
<2023-02-16T03:24:08.000Z> Jello: youtu.be/ufKSevWuiI4 YEARS OF ACADEMY TRAINING WASTED! 
<2023-02-16T03:26:31.000Z> Jello: Lmao and I realized when sending that I got this pillow case today. God's plan, as they say https://i.poastcdn.org/e97395832b9fcb16417bc1da88de9cb49c98b911a0a4969dc0a84f950af48b51.jpg
<2023-02-16T03:27:49.000Z> Jello: Farewell cancerman, I guess. It will all be okay. I still like the way your voice sounds though. 
<2023-05-13T00:58:23.000Z> Jello: Let me love you! 
<2023-05-13T00:58:58.000Z> Jello: Come on! Let me tell you I love you 
<2023-05-13T01:24:22.000Z> Jello: Open your heart up and you will be very happy. For the rest of your life! The time is always now, at least in my world. What are you doing? 
<2023-05-13T01:25:51.000Z> Jello: Did you have a good day today? What did you do? 
<2023-05-13T01:35:00.000Z> Jello: I simply can't do it anymore, lol. God gives me this platform like it's the only platform I have to communicate this to you. You know, I experience what I do, come here to send these messages, and there will be no response, just more ralph posts. Or the gay kid. It's just so sad and not right. What else can I do but type here
<2023-05-13T01:38:36.000Z> Jello: You know I type this knowing this could all be nonsense to this guy, hypothetically. It's sad. I live so hopeful and optimistic every day but it never leads to anything. I am filled with love and my heart is very open 
<2023-05-13T01:42:08.000Z> Jello: I really wish you or this guy would either respond to me or tell me to stop messaging you know. Stuck in the duality of two realities, it's very confusing and keeps me trapped in one spot. It hurts, this isn't living. If they tell me I'm crazy or whatever, you know, great, lol, I'll move on then. I really need human compassion and understanding at this point in life. I need a physical being you know
<2023-05-13T01:42:20.000Z> Jello: Dot dot dot 
<2023-05-13T01:45:11.000Z> Jello: It's like if nothing comes from me doing the only thing I can by reaching out and opening my heart then I don't know what to do. It's a very powerless thing. And it's not fair, especially to me. It's one of those things that I should really take as a sign and move on. I don't know, I want to be cuddling someone right now, at least looking at a screen together
<2023-05-13T03:23:26.000Z> Jello: So you're not going to message me right? 
<2023-05-15T22:15:38.000Z> Jello: : '(