<2022-02-02T16:15:59.000Z> RoyalJohnny242 attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/67cabda9305d3a211eae26434a4027444b208472e6141d6004d9f80b7d241b19.docx
<2022-02-02T16:16:08.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Here’s the rough draft of the story
<2022-02-02T16:16:16.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I hope you like it!
<2022-02-02T18:06:09.000Z> JSDorn: Holy shit bro, 12k words. That's almost a novella nice. Alright I'm dig into this
<2022-02-02T18:18:19.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: And it’s not finished yet
<2022-02-02T19:30:04.000Z> JSDorn: Okay, I breezed through it on my lunch break. Some thoughts.Very cool when those thugs get eaten and you realize the kind of story it's going to be. Feel like it could use a little foreshadowing though
<2022-02-02T19:30:36.000Z> JSDorn: Like the visit to the pizza place, if it happened before the  monster alligators would be good foreshadowing.
<2022-02-02T19:31:55.000Z> JSDorn: Also, and this is something I can tell is dear to you, but I would recommend you tone down the very specific narrative descriptions of weaponry. The narrator tells the reader things that are not always relevant about the weapons and sometimes that breaks tension. 
<2022-02-02T19:32:43.000Z> JSDorn: As an alternative, if you wish to preserve some of this, make Sahin a gun nut who makes a habit of commenting on weaponry in his vicinity, so you still get some detail but it fits into the narrative.
<2022-02-02T19:34:45.000Z> JSDorn: While the story becomes very gory and over the top, that's the style you are clearly going for. Keep your reader in mind though. They will find it repulsive yet darkly fascinating and you can mirror this by having one of the characters experience the same feelings. Like a straight man in a comedy. I think Junkos character would be good for that role. She's the one who could take the role of the spectator and remind us how batshit crazy everything is from time to time.
<2022-02-02T19:35:44.000Z> JSDorn: I also lost my shit when the narrative switched to the cat. I think you may be should try and set that up a little more because some readers might get confused. Hilarious and terrifying at the same time though.
<2022-02-02T19:37:18.000Z> JSDorn: And your setting is like a normal NYC but brutal, heartless, violent and insane. It might make it more immersive if you add details about the world itself that reflect this.
<2022-02-02T20:22:54.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: These are all great pieces of feedback
<2022-02-02T20:23:24.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: What did you think of my portrayal of the more melanated denizens of nyc?
<2022-02-02T23:15:41.000Z> JSDorn: Love it
<2022-02-02T23:16:26.000Z> JSDorn: You have a really sordid setting. it reminds me of Gotham city a bit, but less romanticized. Cops don't care about anything but just getting through the day, everything is shitty
<2022-02-02T23:22:42.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Yeah, I was going for a mix of Abel Ferrara and Yoshiaki Kawajiri 
<2022-02-03T02:11:27.000Z> JSDorn: I'm not familiar with either of those, but I can definitely say that you have a unique aesthetic as far as any other fiction I've encountered in our circles
<2022-02-03T02:13:14.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Kawajiri did a lot of well regarded ultraviolent retro anime (Ninja Scroll, Wicked City, Demon City Shinjuko, Goku Midnight Eye, Vampire Hunter D Bloodlust, Cyber City Oedo 808 etc.)
<2022-02-03T02:14:04.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Ferrara did a lot of gritty grimy NYC films like the original Bad Lieutenant, Fear City, Ms.45, Driller Killer, China Girl etc.
<2022-02-03T02:16:03.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Also thanks, my style is heavily influenced by ultraviolent retro anime, horror/pulp/men’s fiction  paperbacks of the 60s- 90s, and of course tokusatsu 
<2022-02-03T02:17:09.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Except my works don’t coddle nonwhites, I made sure to not pull any punches to how kikes blacks and spice are portrayed 
<2022-02-03T02:23:09.000Z> JSDorn: It feels really raw because of that. Feels like a world totally gone to darkness with no heroes to save us from the whims of incomprehensibly evil beings
<2022-02-03T02:23:46.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Incomprehensible evil beings aka Jews 
<2022-02-03T02:48:06.000Z> JSDorn: Yes
<2022-02-17T04:05:33.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Just remember never to give up dear friend
<2022-02-17T04:06:29.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Look at me, a diagnosed retard, even though I’ll die alone I’ll never give up. No matter how sad I get. I wish you the best too
<2022-02-17T04:18:06.000Z> JSDorn: Thank you brother. You are a very good friend. I won't give up. 
<2022-04-19T14:36:05.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Tfw every time I see that comic I’m reminded of my potential sibling I could’ve had 
<2022-04-19T14:36:34.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I guess that means the comic dies it’s job but it’s a real gut punch in the morning
<2022-04-19T15:07:51.000Z> JSDorn: Yeah it is. Haunted womb isn't just a meme friend
<2022-04-19T15:09:40.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Tfw I could’ve had a little sister or brother but because I was a retarded beast problem child my sibling was sentenced to death
<2022-04-19T15:10:11.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I always had a feeling it would’ve been a little sister. 
<2022-04-19T15:11:00.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Her name would’ve been Layla or Leila, I hope she’s in heaven with my grandparents and my dog so she can have the family she deserved
<2022-04-19T15:13:29.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Sorry for being a downer friend, it’s just every time I see that comic I get upset
<2022-04-19T15:47:35.000Z> JSDorn: Sorry bro. Don't blame yourself. Not even for one second
<2022-04-19T15:48:10.000Z> JSDorn: She is with the Lord/Allah now for sure. 
<2022-04-19T15:48:37.000Z> JSDorn: I'll always be here for you. So don't ever feel bad about telling me your feelings.
<2022-05-14T00:11:50.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: What was up with that KiwiFarms/Josh thread about TRS?
<2022-05-14T01:43:39.000Z> JSDorn: Honestly? I have no idea. I barged into that hell thread like a drunk retard and just started belligerantly swinging
<2022-05-14T01:44:03.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Tyfys 
<2022-05-14T01:44:13.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I was taking a break from that tonight
<2022-05-14T01:49:50.000Z> JSDorn: It's easy to get burned out if you don't take care of yourself
<2022-05-14T01:51:20.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I know that all too well tbh
<2022-05-14T02:07:49.000Z> JSDorn: Struggle is real brother
<2022-05-14T02:43:31.000Z> JSDorn: Lol now he is my friend again 
<2022-05-14T02:43:39.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Who?
<2022-05-14T02:44:19.000Z> JSDorn: Your jamahiria bro
<2022-05-14T02:45:07.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: We’re mutuals but I’m neutral on him tbh
<2022-05-14T02:48:36.000Z> JSDorn: He follows me but I don't follow him lol
<2022-05-14T02:48:48.000Z> JSDorn: Yeah he needs to schizopoast more
<2022-05-14T02:49:05.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I hope I’m the better Jamahiriya chad 😢😢
<2022-05-14T03:04:33.000Z> JSDorn: Duh
<2022-05-14T03:04:36.000Z> JSDorn: Not even a contest
<2022-05-14T03:10:26.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Truly I am…the richest man on all of the fediverse 😭😭😭😭
<2022-05-14T03:13:20.000Z> JSDorn: 🥹🥹🥹
<2022-08-03T01:40:39.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Wait what’s going on with those threads?
<2022-08-03T02:07:47.000Z> JSDorn: Mongoose being an incel on the Internet 
<2022-08-03T02:08:12.000Z> JSDorn: Too many guys looking to permission to give up, so I played big brother for a bit. 
<2022-08-03T02:08:34.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Honestly I’m tired of that kind of shit as well as mutuals snipping at each other
<2022-08-03T02:08:36.000Z> JSDorn: Hope it helps. It's absolutely terrible out there right now though.
<2022-08-03T02:09:30.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Giving up is gay, I could’ve given up and done something really retarded and horrible as a high schooler just like that Buffalo retard but I kept on fighting 
<2022-08-03T02:09:59.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: If a clinically depressed literal sperg like me can improve himself others can too
<2022-08-03T02:11:01.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I like mongoose but it’s exhausting to deal with that kind of shit. When I’m pissed I take it out on Zionists, not my mutuals/friends 
<2022-08-03T02:12:04.000Z> JSDorn: Yes. I like mongoose too, but he's a bit too spergy sometimes. It's shit like this that makes me want to bash my head against the wall
<2022-08-03T02:12:24.000Z> JSDorn: I spared him invectives. I will do my best to avoid a hellthread with him.
<2022-08-03T02:12:47.000Z> JSDorn: And you? Your the kind of guy that's gonna make it.
<2022-08-03T02:12:56.000Z> JSDorn: I don't worry about you.
<2022-08-03T02:14:17.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I remember one time a while back I tried to be supportive but he got mad at me for “giving platitudes” and since I was off my meds at the time I considered putting a link to a cheap AR listing and saying, “Ok then, if you’re so depressed take out some high ranking kike elites before painting the walls or having some nigger cop turn your brains and face into headcheese.” 
<2022-08-03T02:15:06.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I decided not to post that since I probably would’ve gotten booted from poast for “fedposting”
<2022-08-03T02:17:01.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: For what it’s worth I’m glad you were blessed with a family
<2022-08-03T02:17:28.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Since I’m in a unique position race wise I’m not entirely sure what the best path is in regards to women
<2022-08-03T02:18:45.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I view myself as White but I’m not sure if it would count as “race mixing” to go with a euro/American White girl. I could find me an Iranian or MENA chick but the diaspora/first gen are all Zionist pigs 
<2022-08-03T02:20:03.000Z> JSDorn: That would have been a very Johnny fedpoast
<2022-08-03T02:21:03.000Z> JSDorn: I personally would not consider it race-mixing if you got a euro girl but I think you might have less frustration with one of the other Muslim white groups. Maybe a chechan woman? 
<2022-08-03T02:21:03.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’ve told similar mannered friends in high school that if they were so miserable they should kill their families and then themselves and spare everyone else the pain of dealing with them 
<2022-08-03T02:21:59.000Z> JSDorn: It's a good riposte. If things are really as bad as you've convinced yourself they are in the name of making yourself feel better about giving up, why not go do violence?
<2022-08-03T02:22:24.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Chechen baddie: Johnny why your family Zionist? Why do they constantly apologize yehudi? Why they are not masculine and wise like you?
<2022-08-03T02:23:35.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Again, I’ve been on the brink of wanting to do that back in high school. Like legit delusions of needing to do revolutionary propaganda of the deed style stuff without regard for my life 
<2022-08-03T02:24:09.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I don’t have patience for depressed feminine types
<2022-08-03T02:26:08.000Z> JSDorn: My patience is wearing thin. I think my final answer to Bones was more enough to make my point clear.
<2022-08-03T02:27:39.000Z> JSDorn: I could post all the time about how sweet and beautiful and adorable my daughter is, how magical it is being a father, how she's suffused very mundane moment of my life with meaning and joy, but I don't because I don't want to give details that could get me doxxed and also, frankly, I don't want to make people resentful.
<2022-08-03T02:30:11.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: For what it’s worth I wouldn’t be resentful, I would say, “Praise God for blessing my friend and the world with a beautiful daughter.” 
<2022-08-03T02:32:44.000Z> JSDorn: Well I know you wouldn't.
<2022-08-03T02:33:25.000Z> JSDorn: Your barely restrained itch for violent catharsis just means you are a normal healthy guy
<2022-08-03T02:33:55.000Z> JSDorn: This world is mad, and those who would not destroy it should they have the chance are mad as well
<2022-08-03T02:38:48.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I nearly made my dad cry semi recently by saying death to America 
<2022-08-03T02:39:36.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I have very little respect for the Iranian diaspora pigs, I’d rule over them like Idi Amin did over the niggers and Pajeets  of Uganda 
<2022-08-03T02:44:59.000Z> JSDorn: That's gotta be tough. And yeah, probably makes it hard to find an Iranian girl in the west.
<2022-08-03T02:46:30.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: My cousin, a darker skinned shitlib nigger lover but still a good guy and my family, was engaged but the bitch got cold feet/called it off 
<2022-08-03T02:47:35.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Honestly that’s one of the main blocks between me pursuing a woman, I do have a fear that I’d be violent. 
<2022-08-03T02:57:49.000Z> JSDorn: Self control is important. You must save that violence for our enemies, for the right time. You will feel even more anger once you have a family, but also less willingness to sell your life cheaply. Everything gets harder but you do too.
<2022-08-03T03:00:37.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I remember getting into an argument with my parents over getting a girlfriend a bit back and I flat out said, “If she was as draining as you are to dad I’d probably punch her face into the back of her skull.”
<2022-08-03T03:00:57.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: JustIranianDinnerConvoThings
<2022-08-03T03:16:44.000Z> JSDorn: LOL
<2022-08-03T03:17:04.000Z> JSDorn: Oh God they do talk SO much. Like all the time. You get used to it though
<2022-08-06T13:00:46.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Is it bad that at this point if I saw some White schizo snap and machete a pregnant sheboon to bits I’d pretend I never saw anything/give false eyewitness info?
<2022-08-06T13:01:08.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Nigger fatigue is now over peak levels
<2022-08-06T16:09:13.000Z> JSDorn: This system can't judge us fairly, so I'd probably do the same.
<2022-08-06T16:09:42.000Z> JSDorn: I don't think it's our nature to pop off like that though, we have to be groomed to do violence that way. 
<2022-08-06T16:10:36.000Z> JSDorn: We are as Kipling says, slow to anger, willing to weigh the full account. But when we decide to settle all the open accounts before us, the reckoning will be long remembered.
<2022-08-06T18:12:19.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: What’s that nibba bunny saying
<2022-08-06T18:12:33.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: He blocked me again after unblocking me for a while
<2022-08-06T20:29:47.000Z> JSDorn: Lol
<2022-08-06T20:30:43.000Z> JSDorn: He's scared of you. I still have been civil, but condescending. He knows you'll bring down the full weight of White Jamahiria on him
<2022-08-10T19:38:55.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I just saw this message now. Is he actually scared of me?
<2022-08-10T20:50:09.000Z> JSDorn: Lol maybe. You are not as nice as me, and everyone likes to dogpile with you.
<2022-08-10T20:50:30.000Z> JSDorn: I'm still disappointed in him. Some people are ngmi
<2022-08-11T00:41:11.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Bro I'm probably one of the nicest people on poast
<2022-08-11T00:41:48.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I just have a highly tuned friend enemy distinction
<2022-08-11T02:19:42.000Z> JSDorn: I think you do. 
<2022-08-12T03:04:53.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: People are too fucking miserable and it’s draining to deal with 
<2022-08-12T03:08:49.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’ll say this as someone who is so stressed and anxious on a daily basis that I’ll probably end up keeling over at a way too early age. People need to stop spiritually killing themselves
<2022-08-12T03:22:07.000Z> JSDorn: Yes
<2022-08-12T03:22:16.000Z> JSDorn: I hate autism so much
<2022-08-12T03:22:30.000Z> JSDorn: Even though I'm a sperg
<2022-08-12T03:22:46.000Z> JSDorn: I am so fucking tired of it
<2022-08-12T03:22:54.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Me too man
<2022-08-12T03:23:41.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: What’s the point of risking getting fucked by Antifa and bad actors on here?
<2022-08-12T03:24:43.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I like my mutuals, and I like posting stuff I like. But graf doesn’t care about dealing with bad actors other than defedding which does nothing 
<2022-08-12T03:25:26.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m tired of constantly having to choose between isolation, and social interaction with fear of doxxing
<2022-08-12T03:26:35.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: And for what? To see spergs whine and moan because they don’t have the T to an hero?
<2022-08-12T03:27:36.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m sorry if I’m coming off heated but I nearly had a nervous episode earlier today which became a major depressive spell
<2022-08-12T03:34:40.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I wasn’t lying when I said the only reason do t leave is that it would worry my friends here
<2022-08-12T03:52:26.000Z> JSDorn: No no it's fine. I feel the same way. It's very frustrating 
<2022-08-12T03:52:53.000Z> JSDorn: I think it's inevitable that within a movement like ours you will have a lot of tension within the ranks
<2022-08-12T03:53:12.000Z> JSDorn: We can't do anything productive so we micromanage ourselves.
<2022-08-12T03:53:19.000Z> JSDorn: And yes you would be very very missed
<2022-08-12T03:54:16.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Honestly I’m done sticking my neck out in threads defending poast/TRS etc. I like them but I’m not gonna risk getting doxxed for nothing 
<2022-08-12T03:55:59.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m sorry if I sound like a bitch or a sell out
<2022-08-12T04:17:49.000Z> JSDorn: At this point I don't blame you
<2022-08-12T04:18:06.000Z> JSDorn: It's very black pilling to see the state of the movement
<2022-08-12T04:18:24.000Z> JSDorn: But we are all retards too in a way
<2022-08-12T04:18:33.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m more talking about poast 
<2022-08-12T04:19:02.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Movement I have faith in. I’m paranoid of being doxxed at a bad time
<2022-08-12T04:19:42.000Z> JSDorn: Humility is the only way to stay sane
<2022-08-12T04:20:09.000Z> JSDorn: You don't like how graf manages the troublemakers?
<2022-08-12T04:20:39.000Z> JSDorn: I feel like he used to ban more people, get personally involved in more beefs
<2022-08-12T04:20:56.000Z> JSDorn: He got a reputation for having a thin skin, which I think bothers him
<2022-08-12T04:21:02.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Multiple people got doxxed by Antifa 
<2022-08-12T04:21:11.000Z> JSDorn: Yes
<2022-08-12T04:21:26.000Z> JSDorn: I saw that, and to be frank, they only got people who made it very easy 
<2022-08-12T04:21:43.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: And the beefyboys stirring up shit. 
<2022-08-12T04:21:48.000Z> JSDorn: They made a big to do, but could only get three people, at least two of whom made it very easy 
<2022-08-12T04:21:54.000Z> JSDorn: Yeah
<2022-08-12T04:22:16.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: One of which was a SO 
<2022-08-12T04:22:43.000Z> JSDorn: SO?
<2022-08-12T04:22:52.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Sex offender
<2022-08-12T04:22:56.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Glitch 
<2022-08-12T04:23:24.000Z> JSDorn: Yes
<2022-08-12T04:23:38.000Z> JSDorn: That guy. 
<2022-08-12T04:23:56.000Z> JSDorn: He was face fagging and used the same username multiple places 
<2022-08-12T04:24:34.000Z> JSDorn: I think it was some sex offense with a minor, so I don't miss gim
<2022-08-12T04:25:20.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I never knew him or talked to him but it’s used as a cudgel but bad faith faggots to smear us all
<2022-08-12T04:29:26.000Z> JSDorn: Yes, well they will just make shit up if there's nothing real. He wasn't here long anyway
<2022-08-12T04:29:40.000Z> JSDorn: Registrations are open. Impossible to keep all bad people out. 
<2022-08-12T04:30:10.000Z> JSDorn: So I'm not worried about being doxxed. My opsec is good enough that they won't be able to figure who I am based off my posts.
<2022-08-12T04:30:35.000Z> JSDorn: You on the other hand might be in trouble. We all know you are actually JonTron on youtube
<2022-08-12T04:32:15.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Lmao
<2022-08-12T04:32:27.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I cracked a smile 
<2022-08-12T04:32:50.000Z> JSDorn: Good. I can make one friend smile today.
<2022-08-12T04:33:26.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: My saving Grace is that I never had a Twitter. Facebook is long nuked. I have two burner emails and I switch up handles here, on YouTube and odysee every so often 
<2022-08-12T04:34:09.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: So there really isn’t “real life normie” material to gather and connect to here 
<2022-08-12T04:35:02.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m extremely paranoid though, diagnosed with the severe anxiety 
<2022-08-12T04:37:34.000Z> JSDorn: I think you will be good then. Just don't ever post a video of your house or anything and they have nothing
<2022-08-12T04:38:06.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I haven’t 
<2022-08-12T04:38:20.000Z> JSDorn: Nobody knows what state I live in, what I do for a living, what I drive, nothing.
<2022-08-12T04:38:37.000Z> JSDorn: And I have no idea where you live, or what you do.
<2022-08-12T04:38:46.000Z> JSDorn: And I am a close and long term follower
<2022-08-12T04:44:23.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I wish I had your guys’ mental fortitude 
<2022-08-12T04:44:59.000Z> JSDorn: That's why you have us brother
<2022-08-12T04:47:13.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m too afraid of bringing shame and stress to my relatives. But I can’t just give up on my brothers
<2022-08-12T04:48:03.000Z> JSDorn: It's a terrible tension.
<2022-08-12T04:48:15.000Z> JSDorn: You are allowed to take breaks
<2022-08-12T04:48:34.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Because I’ve had cops come to my house over Facebook drama by kike classmates 
<2022-08-12T04:48:48.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: And be alone? 
<2022-08-12T04:49:24.000Z> JSDorn: Jesus
<2022-08-12T04:49:27.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m not as cool as you guys think I am I don’t have anyone on the outside except for some relatives 
<2022-08-12T04:49:29.000Z> JSDorn: Fucking kikes
<2022-08-12T04:49:37.000Z> JSDorn: Then stay brother
<2022-08-12T04:49:46.000Z> JSDorn: I would miss you anyway
<2022-08-12T04:50:33.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m grateful you view a literal retard like me as an equal
<2022-08-12T12:07:04.000Z> JSDorn: I assure you friend, I am first among retards
<2022-08-12T12:53:05.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Tfw I actually have diagnosed autism-PDD 
<2022-08-12T13:11:43.000Z> JSDorn: Me too. I've been diagnosed with Asperger's before. ADD and OCD too 
<2022-08-14T01:40:17.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I am no sooner dear friend
<2022-08-14T01:40:24.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Doomer*
<2022-08-14T01:40:55.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m just more mask off. I’m usually a huge downer irl
<2022-08-14T01:52:33.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: One day I’ll achieve my dream of avenging myself
<2022-08-14T16:37:59.000Z> JSDorn: I've got to work on overcoming myself.
<2022-08-15T21:40:51.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I'm here if you want to talk about anything, ok?
<2022-08-15T21:42:18.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I know I've been kind of a downer the past few days but I'm still here for my bros
<2022-08-15T22:43:25.000Z> JSDorn: You do so much already brother. Your presence reassures me. You bear the Hoplon that protects my right side.
<2022-08-19T02:09:56.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Tfw I go for a walk earlier and end up making myself anxious because of fears of getting doxxed/vanned
<2022-08-19T02:10:52.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I feel like sooner or later I’m gonna have a paranoid breakdown over everything 
<2022-08-19T02:25:42.000Z> JSDorn: 😢 sorry bro
<2022-08-19T02:25:57.000Z> JSDorn: I would tell you, that in the end it'll be alright.
<2022-08-19T02:31:01.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I think mentally I’m fucked up by having cops harass me 3-4 times over pissing off kike classmates. Ptsd shit, sorry if I sound like a wimp 
<2022-08-19T02:35:35.000Z> JSDorn: You're not a wimp, you've just been fucked up by the Zionist devil machine 
<2022-08-19T02:36:02.000Z> JSDorn: You have earned the right to watch it die friend, so please hold onto your sanity until then
<2022-08-19T02:37:08.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: One of those times cops came to the school because I posted something that was essentially saying “Why did (girl I liked a lot) die so young from an infection after seemingly beating leukemia while scumbags like (people I hated who hated me) are still around? It’s not fair.”
<2022-08-19T02:41:02.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: She could’ve been a beautiful, kind mother if she lived. She was a tall red headed long haired tomboy type
<2022-08-19T02:45:30.000Z> JSDorn: Fuck
<2022-08-19T02:46:26.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Her older sister was a beautiful blonde but a total shitlib and we only tolerated each other out of respect for her(redhead)
<2022-08-19T02:47:39.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: After she died things soured fast and I grew tired of her Zionist bullshit to the point I told her that I wish she or I had died instead because it’s a crime against humanity that her Angel of a sister passed but we’re still here to ruin everyone’s lives 
<2022-08-19T02:48:53.000Z> JSDorn: The very last refuge, the last position, for the souls sanity, is in the knowledge and understanding that God will balance the ledgers 
<2022-08-19T02:49:58.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: You know what hurt? The last time I saw her in person was when she visited school one last time, thinner, beautiful long read hair reduced to short fuzz. But her spirit never wavered. And she was happy to see me.
<2022-08-19T02:51:09.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I was too afraid to tell her I liked her, I didn’t want to burden her. I messaged her after she passed because a part of me, the childlike part of my brain thought she would message back
<2022-08-19T02:54:00.000Z> JSDorn: Im so sorry bro
<2022-08-19T02:54:12.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Diamonds and Rust my friend, like that song goes
<2022-08-19T02:54:21.000Z> JSDorn: But clearly, you made her happy. You gave her joy.
<2022-08-19T02:56:23.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I hope I did
<2022-08-19T03:02:05.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I hope I make people happy y’know 
<2022-08-19T03:02:38.000Z> JSDorn: You do
<2022-08-19T03:03:13.000Z> JSDorn: You make me happy
<2022-08-19T03:04:34.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Thank you for treating me like a human, an equal. And not an animal
<2022-08-19T03:04:55.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: It's something I can never repay
<2022-08-19T03:08:40.000Z> JSDorn: You have earned your place at the table
<2022-08-19T03:09:26.000Z> JSDorn: You have a humble and a contrite heart, the kind that God loves.
<2022-08-21T21:38:34.000Z> RoyalJohnny242 attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/bc1c42d4f46dcaed57a04a973f817471eb519febac4c92bffb3e77e5ebaed54f.png
<2022-08-21T21:38:57.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: When Sapphire inevitably gets fucked for having weed and guns I’m gonna laugh
<2022-08-21T21:58:00.000Z> JSDorn: Lol
<2022-08-21T21:58:36.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Hikari talked shit to me about this passive aggressively 
<2022-08-21T21:58:47.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: On a post which I called him out on
<2022-08-21T21:59:04.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Then he tried to do the “oh I wasn’t talking about you” 
<2022-08-21T22:01:09.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: He’s a legit creep, losing his wife fucked his brain and he tried to panic the shit out of my on that weekend of hellthreads that if I defend poast/TRS people will come at me from behind the defed barrier
<2022-08-21T22:02:48.000Z> JSDorn: Sapphire?
<2022-08-21T22:02:58.000Z> JSDorn: I guess I'm not caught up on his lore.
<2022-08-21T22:02:58.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: That was one of the reasons I was so upset on that weekend
<2022-08-21T22:03:05.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Hikari/Frosche
<2022-08-21T22:03:18.000Z> JSDorn: He's always talked a bigger game than he can back up.
<2022-08-21T22:03:30.000Z> JSDorn: Hikari is frosche?
<2022-08-21T22:03:42.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Between you and me, yes
<2022-08-21T22:04:06.000Z> JSDorn: Didn't realize that. Yeah he was being a big sperg . Seemed like he has calmed down a bit though
<2022-08-21T22:04:26.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Nah he’s still fucked in the head. 
<2022-08-21T22:04:27.000Z> JSDorn: Yes I like sapphire but I worry about him. His big mouth is gonna get him in trouble one day
<2022-08-21T22:05:08.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: He’s ok when he’s shitting on people I don’t like but he’s one of those guys who’ll get their teeth broken by life one day
<2022-08-21T22:05:11.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: poa.st/@hikari@shortstackran.ch/posts/AMlHBfSDnQpzhsRIO0
<2022-08-21T22:05:25.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: All hikari did was FUDpost
<2022-08-21T22:06:01.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: According to him because borzoi and sven are on friendly terms with me I’d be a big target for feds to bring down the NJP 
<2022-08-21T22:06:51.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: One of the main reasons I’ve been stressed and depressed lately was his FUD/doom posting wearing me out
<2022-08-21T22:09:45.000Z> JSDorn: I missed that thread. 
<2022-08-21T22:09:53.000Z> JSDorn: You aquitted yourself perfectly though
<2022-08-21T22:10:06.000Z> JSDorn: And we're absolutely right. He's been buck broken
<2022-08-21T22:10:40.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I feel shitty saying this but he should either log out or an hero before he hurts other people
<2022-08-21T22:11:05.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: He was legit very manipulative and creepy in how he tried to induce severe panic in me
<2022-08-21T22:46:25.000Z> JSDorn: People will make any excuse to not be better. But yeah, don't let him doompill you.
<2022-08-21T22:46:30.000Z> JSDorn: You handled it very well.
<2022-08-21T23:24:18.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I fucking hate these people 
<2022-08-21T23:24:58.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I respect Christianity dearly but these slave minded pigs are really getting me to question things in a way I don’t want to
<2022-08-21T23:26:10.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Whenever I see some of those “Do nothing and keep your head down types” I just think about how even the maga tier prayer groups and churches are infiltrated 
<2022-08-21T23:30:16.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: RANDY WEAVER DID NOT HAVE HIS FAMILY MURDERED JUST SO THESE BASTARDS CPULD PROFANE CHRIST AND COWER
<2022-08-21T23:31:49.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: My two relatives, while they served the Zionist Devil Machine, died for their cause
<2022-08-21T23:32:43.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: When I was a kid I saw a photo of my mom’s uncle after they shot him dead in the street. He broke his leg escaping from a top story of a safe house but he refused to surrender.
<2022-08-21T23:33:39.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: His wife refused to stop being a dissident even after being arrested, threatened and surveilled. They hung her with six other people together.
<2022-08-21T23:34:03.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: WHO ARE THESE FUCKING COUNTERREVOLUTIONARY COWARDS HUH?!
<2022-08-21T23:35:41.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: “Oh boo hoo a podcast we liked parted ways with a network amicabley oh shucks guys better hide and wait to die.”
<2022-08-21T23:36:05.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Fuck these people. 
<2022-08-21T23:52:48.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m sorry for exploding. I’m fucking furious
<2022-08-21T23:54:03.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: All this because some retard couldn’t just shut up and quietly get a gook gf 
<2022-08-22T00:22:08.000Z> JSDorn: You know what? You are absolutely right 
<2022-08-22T00:22:53.000Z> JSDorn: It's very tiresome. The right has to self immolate every time their enemies start to falter. We are so allergic to winning.
<2022-08-22T00:24:03.000Z> JSDorn: I'm not gonna fedpoast here either, but if a certain low percentage of our people decided to become very violent over this stuff, it would end it all very quickly.
<2022-08-22T00:24:09.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: You’re gonna hate me for this but at this point I’m starting to lose my respect for the Christian first White second types
<2022-08-22T00:24:27.000Z> JSDorn: Not advocating anything of course. Just that Eric Rudolph probably sleeps really well.
<2022-08-22T00:24:42.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Without fedposting, high school past me idolized the Japanese kamikaze
<2022-08-22T00:25:07.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Even as an elementary school kid I said in class they were braver and the American soldiers
<2022-08-22T00:25:08.000Z> JSDorn: No offense but that's a flawed way of looking at it.
<2022-08-22T00:25:33.000Z> JSDorn: The kamikaze were brave and we're not stupid. It was a very effective tactic
<2022-08-22T00:25:58.000Z> JSDorn: But what Im saying about the whole Christian and White thing, is that they are two overlapping identities, not conflicting.
<2022-08-22T00:26:20.000Z> JSDorn: Being Christian doesn't make me less white. You can make a nation just out of Christians. A faith isn't a nation.
<2022-08-22T00:26:32.000Z> JSDorn: But we have to have transcendent values to fight.
<2022-08-22T00:27:06.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: That’s why I’ll never throw Palestinians and Iranians and “good” Muslims under the bus
<2022-08-22T00:27:14.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Martyrdom is inherent in Shia
<2022-08-22T00:27:15.000Z> JSDorn: Just like the kamikaze pilot, or your relatives who fought on till the bitter end. If you don't have a belief in any transcendent moral order, one bigger than races and nations, you won't be able to fight when the time comes
<2022-08-22T00:27:40.000Z> JSDorn: Me neither, even though as a Christian, some might expect me too
<2022-08-22T00:29:48.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Imagine those Iranian child soldiers who blew themselves up to destroy Iraqi tanks. They were afraid sure but in their minds they thought, “My mom and grandma…my grandpa and my little siblings. They cannot fight if our land is invaded. I will become the sword that shall slay them. Then I will see Imam Hossein. And one day we shall return to the Earth to purge the wicked with our swords.”
<2022-08-22T00:30:11.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: youtu.be/-KOYvo2IE5w
<2022-08-22T00:30:55.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Whites, our people, need to learn from the MENA Muslim freedom fighters along with the Christian warriors
<2022-08-22T00:31:17.000Z> JSDorn: Yeah that whole ethos has become impossible for Americans to even conceive.
<2022-08-22T00:31:35.000Z> JSDorn: It's literally One Struggle time brother. It always has been
<2022-08-22T00:33:10.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I used to be like that in high school. Ready to die to achieve what I now know is White Jamahiriya. Like Mishima I would tell Big Nigger Obama and the Yehudi rulers that I would not kneel. And even if I were to die, others like me. Instead of killing themselves, would take their weapons and turn them against the enemy 
<2022-08-22T00:34:19.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: One day I’ll have the power to punish all the bad people. That was my dream since as long as I can remember
<2022-08-22T00:41:39.000Z> JSDorn: One day we will brother 
<2022-08-22T00:42:17.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Everyone, everyone who ever fucked with me no matter how minor
<2022-08-22T00:43:03.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m tired of being nice, always being afraid that I’ll step on toes. Even in these circles
<2022-08-22T01:45:50.000Z> JSDorn: Me too
<2022-08-23T00:39:05.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: poa.st/@RoyalJohnny242/posts/AMnjVYFVTq00BWgJl2
<2022-08-23T00:39:18.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I couldn’t help myself
<2022-08-23T02:45:13.000Z> JSDorn: Lol he felt called out
<2022-08-23T02:45:31.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Sapphire or Hikari?
<2022-08-23T02:54:42.000Z> JSDorn: Sapphire
<2022-08-23T02:54:57.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: He’s a punk
<2022-08-23T02:55:19.000Z> JSDorn: He's something alright 
<2022-08-23T02:55:29.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’ve known faggots like him who think they’re fucking Scarface and they all get fucked sooner or later 
<2022-08-23T02:55:51.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I love how hikari/frosche kept fellating him like an abused wife
<2022-08-23T03:01:20.000Z> JSDorn: Yeah they are way too online. Think their eclout makes them cool irl
<2022-08-23T03:01:59.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Frosch is just a grieving broken creature who doesn’t have the common courtesy to off himself
<2022-08-23T03:02:26.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: What eclout does Sapphire have? Running an instance with 6 active users?
<2022-08-23T03:06:06.000Z> JSDorn: In his mind yes 
<2022-08-23T03:06:10.000Z> JSDorn: Exactly that 
<2022-08-23T03:06:44.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Lmao
<2022-08-23T03:07:29.000Z> JSDorn: He and gear used to swing their dicks around all the time like they were big shots. Gear is defedded now. Couldn't stop something out at graf.
<2022-08-23T03:08:05.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Wait hear got defedded? I blocked him ever since he reportfagged at me
<2022-08-23T03:08:26.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Gear*
<2022-08-23T03:09:43.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: poa.st/@RoyalJohnny242/posts/AMo3aVKdkgGnfVioV6
<2022-08-23T03:10:27.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: He hasn’t responded but I doubt that pussy will
<2022-08-23T03:14:13.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: He responded 
<2022-08-23T03:16:13.000Z> JSDorn: Yeah a while ago. Couldn't stop himself.
<2022-08-23T03:16:49.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Now he’s going full irony
<2022-08-23T03:16:58.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Feel free to join if you’re up to it
<2022-08-23T03:17:07.000Z> JSDorn: Big tony has a podcast?
<2022-08-23T03:17:13.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Weebcast
<2022-08-23T03:18:12.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I listened to a few episodes a while back, it’s…ok I guess? Nothing really unique in a saturated market except it’s kind of edgy in an irony way
<2022-08-23T03:19:09.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: He’s assblasted he didn’t make it, that’s the vibe I get
<2022-08-23T03:24:34.000Z> JSDorn: Yeah he's just a stupid loser. I can't even parody him.
<2022-08-23T03:25:00.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I guarantee you I could bully the shit out of him irl
<2022-08-23T03:27:11.000Z> JSDorn: And it would be a kindness
<2022-08-23T03:27:20.000Z> JSDorn: He obviously wasn't bullied enough
<2022-08-23T03:28:38.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I got bullied plenty which is why I’m the way I am
<2022-08-23T03:31:17.000Z> JSDorn: Me too
<2022-08-23T14:11:00.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m thinking of posting a meme but I’m worried it might be too spicy
<2022-08-23T15:39:54.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I'm listening to the most recent episode of Weebcast about BHA and man, I forgot how much like an even worse Jimmy Fallon BigTony is
<2022-08-23T15:40:14.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: As in he laughs at everything he says, he might be high 24/7. All the hosts are
<2022-08-23T17:49:03.000Z> JSDorn: Well, nobody will get it unless they listen and I don't think many dop
<2022-08-23T17:50:05.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I mean there are some chuckle worthy moments but unlike Weebnats which is both funny and insightful and coherent this is like you're the one sober guy with 3-4 absolutely baked plus drunk retards
<2022-08-26T03:10:08.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: poa.st/@hikari@shortstackran.ch/posts/AMuCFd8RbpwUKBtkHo
<2022-08-26T03:10:22.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: How long until he stalks and kills me in a fanatical rage
<2022-08-26T03:18:24.000Z> JSDorn: I don't know, but paying attention to reacts on other people's posts is gay
<2022-08-26T13:02:04.000Z> JSDorn: Maybe we can finally move on front this fued between DK and SL but I'll never trust him as I did before
<2022-08-26T13:18:02.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m just tired of hikari acting like a yandere ex gf to me
<2022-08-26T13:18:38.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I know Myles did talk a lot of shit to the red guys via comments on the sites 
<2022-08-26T13:24:09.000Z> JSDorn: Red guys?
<2022-08-26T13:25:32.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: TRS guys*
<2022-08-26T13:25:40.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Fuck my autocorrect 
<2022-08-26T13:27:37.000Z> JSDorn: There's obviously been some tension between Myles and certain TRS people, but I think a lot of his frustration is merited, though I don't know the full story. From my casual listening to TDS I've heard snarky comments made at Christians expense and just a general lack of understanding and a desire not to understand. 
<2022-08-26T13:28:33.000Z> JSDorn: Why DK decided to make a big public to do over YEC and go after SL though makes it seem like hes only blaming bad blood with Myles in retrospect.
<2022-08-26T13:29:29.000Z> JSDorn: Some christians definitely feel talked down to by the TRS people. I don't, but I can understand why they would.
<2022-08-26T13:30:08.000Z> JSDorn: But many existing griefmongers will make hay out of it and use it to stir up division where I've worked hard to maintain unity. It's very frustrating to me.
<2022-08-26T13:30:50.000Z> JSDorn: I don't know if Hikari is grief mongering or is genuine. I'm leaning towards the former.
<2022-08-26T13:31:40.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: He’s fucking insane is what he is
<2022-08-26T13:32:08.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: He’s broken from his wife dying and found a perfect target to vent his mental illness on
<2022-08-26T13:32:57.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: My issue is that they feel that the corrupt institutions and their religion are the same
<2022-08-26T13:33:46.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Like I have relatives and family friends who are big into Iran regime change stuff. People I love and cherish. I don’t get assblasted when the TRS people criticize that movement 
<2022-08-26T13:37:38.000Z> JSDorn: Same. I myself am vocal about when Christians do stupid stuff. Institutional critiques are necessary and just
<2022-08-26T13:39:06.000Z> JSDorn: But when DK or McNabb refer to the bible as a "Jewish fairy tale" they are implying not that the Christian institutions are bad, but that the Christian faith itself is both false and jewish.
<2022-08-26T13:39:52.000Z> JSDorn: And I've heard both of them say that. It's not conjecture or hearsay.
<2022-08-26T13:40:18.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I wish they’d shut up with that stuff too
<2022-08-26T13:40:39.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Too many retards all around
<2022-08-26T13:41:52.000Z> JSDorn: Yeah, but once said, if never explicitly recanted, it makes me feel at least that they will turn on me, as a Christian, when they no longer need me. That I'm only tolerated within the "movement" I'm not saying that's true, but that's how it makes me feel and there are enough Christians with more beef with TRS who will also feel that way and justify their existing grievances. 
<2022-08-26T13:43:00.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m not even sure how involved DK and McNabb are with NJP proper 
<2022-08-26T13:49:40.000Z> JSDorn: There's a deep fault line in American White Nationalism over religion. It's older than TRS, and will persist after they are gone. We all have to do our part not to exacerbate it and allow bad actors to exploit it. On that count, maybe Myles was a gossiper, but DKs attack wasn't about that, and caused much more damage than was warranted. Maybe somebody talked to him. If they did, he hasn't shown any contrition.
<2022-08-26T13:51:37.000Z> JSDorn: The responsible thing for NJP and TRS would be to clamp down on this. To their credit, when I heard McNabb start to talk about "Jewish fairly tales" Mike tried to shush him, to push him away from that topic.
<2022-08-26T13:52:38.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I wish I had the clout to be able to message them about that but it wouldn’t do any good
<2022-08-26T13:52:40.000Z> JSDorn: Accordingly I have not gone after McNabb publicly on poast, or otherwise tried to start shit over it. And in previous hellthreads have tried to put his comments in perspective.
<2022-08-26T13:52:47.000Z> JSDorn: No, me neither
<2022-08-26T13:54:54.000Z> JSDorn: It was all manageable until DK decided to force out the Godcast.
<2022-08-26T13:56:08.000Z> RoyalJohnny242 attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/d4811ad8778a055465c8e02c038adfd6e7ef28284d722ad51359e97ca7ad7ee6.jpeg
<2022-08-26T13:56:36.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: According to DK this and other similar posts were a regular occurrence 
<2022-08-26T13:59:28.000Z> JSDorn: I mean, Myles isn't exactly wrong here. I don't recall this post of his but he did delete one that was more inflammatory.
<2022-08-26T14:00:39.000Z> JSDorn: I'm sure there is worse drama behind the scenes we don't know about. Myles can be very frustrating and bellicose, but he'd hardly be alone in that
<2022-08-26T14:01:10.000Z> JSDorn: If DK had only confined himself to publicly attacking Myles over these posts, I probably would have supported him. 
<2022-08-26T14:02:31.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: He probably got frustrated 
<2022-08-26T14:05:06.000Z> JSDorn: Well he showed his true feelings, which turned out to be very spiteful and egotistical. He said a lot of stupid things.
<2022-08-26T14:06:51.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Yup
<2022-08-26T14:23:16.000Z> JSDorn: Hoping he got a talking to. I'm gonna let sleeping dogs lie for now.
<2022-08-26T14:28:10.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: All I know is that right now I’m uplifting a fellow depressed king with workout advice
<2022-08-26T14:28:59.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m no Gigachad looking guy, I look like skinny JonTron with some muscle tone/definition, but I know enough to help him get started lifting the sads away
<2022-08-26T14:31:56.000Z> JSDorn: Every rep is a rep against ZOG brother
<2022-08-26T14:42:53.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Yup
<2022-09-05T04:43:40.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I’m worried that the newfags will destroy poast
<2022-09-05T05:03:34.000Z> JSDorn: Me too
<2022-09-05T05:03:39.000Z> JSDorn: I'm doing my best
<2022-09-05T05:03:53.000Z> JSDorn: To implement aggressive assimilation 
<2022-09-05T05:04:19.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I don’t have the energy anymore to hellthread at these freaks
<2022-09-05T11:55:28.000Z> JSDorn: I was drinking and it was fun. Now I'm just tired.
<2022-09-08T23:33:32.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: The virgin negative peer pressure from old friends to go back to smoking weed vs the chad positive peer pressure from my poast friends to not relapse into potheadedness
<2022-09-09T02:56:43.000Z> JSDorn: Don't do it brother
<2022-09-09T02:57:39.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I shouldn't and I won't but there's the lizard brain temptation/craving
<2022-09-09T03:00:47.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: When you have kids make sure they don't get into pot young like I did (junior year of high school 2012 and smoked heavy for 5 years)
<2022-09-09T03:01:27.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: If they give sass I'll give the talk like a cool schizo racist uncle
<2022-09-09T10:08:58.000Z> JSDorn: I am going to do homeschooling so hopefully there won't be many avenues for temptation
<2022-10-03T12:30:49.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: poa.st/@RoyalJohnny242/posts/AOAjrF84zAXzebULVA
<2022-10-03T12:30:57.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: Let me know what you think
<2022-10-04T02:58:45.000Z> JSDorn: You know, I think I understand your frustration, and I want to opine a bit on an anecdote. Somebody in another thread pointed out how the Imperial Japanese Navy kept making the same mistakes in terms of making their carriers more fireproof. Ive read a few books on the Pacific war and came away with the impression that this was not due to technical reasons. The Japanese relied very strongly on the personal valour of their men. They knew and took for granted that their men would be willing to die at the drop of a hat. They didn't care about safety. The irony is of course that they lost ships they couldn't afford to lose and lost experienced and battle hardened crews with them. The Japanese soldier/sailor never had the encouragement and motivation to develop better doctrines. 
<2022-10-04T02:59:18.000Z> JSDorn: It's a long-winded way of saying that, there's great admiration in waging your own jihad. But that's not how we win.
<2022-10-04T03:08:37.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: The reason people have become broken, disgusting vermin or die from despair is that they are denied the chance to fight and die for what they believe in 
<2022-10-04T03:14:53.000Z> JSDorn: This is true. It's also true that we can't win through individual acts committed out of the best of intentions and desires. 
<2022-10-04T03:16:46.000Z> RoyalJohnny242: I shouldn’t have been born in this time, it would’ve been better if I was born to die as a proud Fedayeen warrior in the Iran Iraq war
<2022-10-04T11:02:32.000Z> JSDorn: I'm sorry brother.