<2021-08-10T05:18:25.000Z> MisterLister: Idk if you saw my poast but I decided to take a break from poast because I started to smoke the ganja again (I was smoking pretty much every night for the past two months) but after roughly a week of of thoughts manifesting into reality I threw it out because it was too much and I felt like I was loosing my grip on reality. It's a shame that that's what caused me to throw it out because my overall mood has drastically improved even though its only been a few days and like I get that I was abusing it.The point of this message is that the other day I went back to a restaurant I used to work at just to hang out and one of the QT hostesses was probably checking me out (which I found out before I left is way to young for me PLUS she's the daughter of the boss and I don't want to fuck with that) BUT I talked to one of the servers (I did work with her) more than I usually do when I visit and then tonight I looked up the lyrics (this feeds back to how I started the message) to this song I've really been digging and it hits WAYYYYYYYYY too hard  "Oh, helloDo I know you?(Don't mind me, I'm just a stranger)What caught your attention?What are your intentions?You got way too closeDrew me from my hideout(You broke down all of my barricades)The light in your eyesReconnects me to a real lifeI've had my head in the clouds for too longI've had enough, shed my doubtsCause I'm back in control againI'm so tired of this self destructionOf this endless fight against myselfAll will fall into placeOnce we lift this curse"
<2021-08-10T05:18:30.000Z> MisterLister: MY question is, I'
<2021-08-10T05:23:15.000Z> MisterLister: MY question is am I being too autistic looking into this like this? How dangerous of a game am I playing if I take this as a sign that I am that close to getting my shit together to get her? or not even that QT server in particular but HER. Like, on the one hand, I know I need to be happy with myself before I can find someone else to be happy with, but on the other hand it does help to have something that could be possibly real to motivate myself to take care of the shit I've been putting off for too long now.  
<2021-08-10T12:39:17.000Z> JSDorn: Hey bro, thanks for reaching out. I hear you. I've been trying to pull myself out of my own rut recently. Was drinking a bit too much. Not in a dangerous way but in a way that was affecting me during the waking hours. My wife helped me get it under control and I'm much better for it.Truth is, you won't be able to all your shit in order before you meet the right person. Man and woman are meant to be partners and support each other. If she is worth being a better man for, you'll work at it and get there. I know you will.Good luck brother, love you
<2021-08-12T15:15:12.000Z> MisterLister: Thanks man that's exactly what I needed to hear. Love you too man, I do miss you guys but its for the better that I take a break from poast, the weed really did a number to my head and I wouldn't be healing as fast as I am if it wasn't for the break, should be back soon tho 
<2021-08-12T18:30:34.000Z> JSDorn: That's good. A break is very healthy and don't feel bad about doing what's right for you. 