<2021-02-06T12:51:44.000Z> Ghostie: Yeah, steam sucks. I know nothing about poast though. Guessing its something like megalodon though, but lookin' better
<2021-02-06T12:53:17.000Z> Ghostie: good shit
<2021-02-06T12:53:24.000Z> Ghostie: graf's name sounds familiar
<2021-02-06T12:54:39.000Z> Ghostie: yeah ok i member
<2021-02-06T12:54:41.000Z> Ghostie: how u been fam
<2021-02-06T13:15:20.000Z> Ghostie: this is neat. i can even see dick's mastodon thing, paypig
<2021-02-06T13:16:09.000Z> Ghostie: neat. don't know much about how it works
<2021-02-06T13:16:19.000Z> Ghostie: coasting ina  comfy way or nah?
<2021-02-06T13:18:47.000Z> Ghostie: yeah i can imagine. did the lockdown situation get worse in az or something?
<2021-02-06T13:19:38.000Z> Ghostie: that's almost worse x.x
<2021-02-06T13:19:40.000Z> Ghostie: fuckin gay
<2021-02-06T13:20:34.000Z> Ghostie: how about your gf? still coming over @ least?
<2021-02-06T13:21:13.000Z> Ghostie: Fuuuuuuuuuuck. 
<2021-02-06T13:21:35.000Z> Ghostie: Sorry to hear. Refusal to communicate is the worst
<2021-02-06T13:22:38.000Z> Ghostie: hug emoji spam etc. 
<2021-02-06T13:23:35.000Z> Ghostie: Dude like you wont stay single lo--
<2021-02-06T13:23:41.000Z> Ghostie: yeeee man go sleep
<2021-02-06T13:24:01.000Z> Ghostie: have a good night triumph emoji
<2021-02-06T13:24:09.000Z> Ghostie: (yeah im just gonna type out emojis now)
<2021-02-06T13:25:08.000Z> Ghostie: thicc n chonky
<2021-02-06T13:25:11.000Z> Ghostie: perf
<2021-02-06T13:25:20.000Z> Ghostie: love the lil spot on her belly. what'd you name her?
<2021-02-06T13:27:14.000Z> Ghostie: just one letter off from being named after the world's greatest girl power leader
<2021-02-06T13:27:34.000Z> Ghostie: and nice lmao. been a while since ive seen my dog but he gets similar treatment
<2021-02-22T07:33:26.000Z> sapphire: if youâre ever back in the states man 
<2021-02-22T07:33:32.000Z> sapphire: hit me up 
<2021-02-22T08:04:42.000Z> Ghostie: Sure man Probs summerUnsure of my travel situation tho but ð¤ð¤
<2021-02-22T09:27:12.000Z> sapphire: this was a good day 
<2021-02-22T09:35:35.000Z> Ghostie: I'm glad :)What made it good 
<2021-02-22T09:35:49.000Z> sapphire: a bottle of $8 flavored vodka 
<2021-02-22T09:35:58.000Z> sapphire: spiked with $150 of acid 
<2021-02-22T09:38:42.000Z> Ghostie: That's pretty based 
<2021-02-22T09:38:49.000Z> Ghostie: Lmfao
<2021-02-22T09:38:55.000Z> Ghostie: Just saw your poast
<2021-02-22T09:38:58.000Z> Ghostie: Sounds like a good trip
<2021-02-22T09:39:19.000Z> sapphire: for the fact that I did just over a shot of it and itâs been a very long day/month/woah it was worth what I paid for it 
<2021-02-22T09:44:09.000Z> Ghostie: Lmfao hell yeah 
<2021-02-22T09:44:34.000Z> Ghostie: Always wanted to try lsd or shrooms but when I'm in a bit of a better place mentallyAnd when someone volunteers to babysit me lmao 
<2021-02-22T09:44:44.000Z> Ghostie: Experience anything interesting?
<2021-02-22T09:45:16.000Z> sapphire: I had a very profound experience with a record that I wish I could bottle and give to my friend who also loves music 
<2021-02-22T09:45:33.000Z> sapphire: we climbed one of the small hills around here and it was pretty woah 
<2021-02-22T09:46:04.000Z> sapphire: a couple of things that you had to intersect the trip to get
<2021-02-22T09:46:21.000Z> sapphire: Walmart is a very vivid beige and is mundane even in the throes of acid 
<2021-02-22T09:46:51.000Z> sapphire: oh and the second to third gear throw in my car is what Iâve been investing money to perfect 
<2021-02-22T09:47:52.000Z> sapphire: my bathroom is like 40 years of painted over mediocrity, it might be haunted by the soul of a mid 40s spinster 
<2021-02-22T09:48:03.000Z> Ghostie: I don't understand the last bit but sounds fun 
<2021-02-22T09:48:10.000Z> Ghostie: Brave to go on a walk high haha
<2021-02-22T09:48:13.000Z> sapphire: sheâs not dead she just shows up there whenever her cats wonât give her attention
<2021-02-22T09:48:18.000Z> sapphire: oh we drove 
<2021-02-22T09:48:18.000Z> Ghostie: Is she hot?
<2021-02-22T09:48:30.000Z> sapphire: itâs been a few days today all of them good 
<2021-02-22T09:48:37.000Z> Ghostie: The spinster 
<2021-02-22T09:48:43.000Z> Ghostie: I'm glad man 
<2021-02-22T09:48:51.000Z> sapphire: my boi grant had a very sad start to his trip but it was a very malevolent shit 
<2021-02-22T09:49:23.000Z> sapphire: he thought he was having a stroke but it really was just a terrible dump 
<2021-02-22T09:50:06.000Z> sapphire: whatever it was it awoke the spinster and she just left an hour or so ago 
<2021-02-22T09:51:19.000Z> sapphire: the main takeaway from this is probably that thereâs a lot of worlds in that cheap bottle of blue raspberry svekda and Iâd really like to share the opportunity to experience those worlds with a few of my close friends and youâre one of them 
<2021-02-22T09:52:20.000Z> sapphire: itâs a surreal experience with someone though because my buddy was on about as much as me but with more body weight and experience, my friend Teddi did a little bit but she weighs like 20 pounds, and grants girl was zeroed 
<2021-02-22T09:53:13.000Z> sapphire: and all 4 of us were on very different trips that intersected a lot, there were entire worlds where I was doing my own thing and it was really wild because both of them were within arms reach
<2021-02-22T09:54:47.000Z> sapphire: but like obviously we all intersected quite a bit and there were some great shared moments.... but we werenât on the same trip. it was just a locus of our worlds intersecting for a moment or two 
<2021-02-22T09:56:28.000Z> sapphire: also we didnât get involved but cops are far from woah, red and blue are both very good colors if you keep them separate. some dude in my apartment complex flagged down the cops for something but we were not interested in being a part of that trip so we exited 
<2021-02-22T09:58:53.000Z> sapphire: also re:the spinster sheâs too many colors all at once to be hot if she just got rid of the blue I think sheâd be alright. purple and red are good colors and she seems like sheâd at least wait til you were ready for the red knowledge 
<2021-02-22T10:01:27.000Z> Ghostie: I enjoy the wording "we were not interested in being part of that trip so we exited"My go to excuse for dipping out of situations now
<2021-02-22T10:01:50.000Z> Ghostie: Youre still a bit high aintcha lmao
<2021-02-22T10:01:58.000Z> sapphire: âI donât want to be part of that tripâ was a good phrase that came out of this 
<2021-02-22T10:02:14.000Z> sapphire: and yeah man itâs been like 18 hours 
<2021-02-22T10:02:25.000Z> Ghostie: Goddamn
<2021-02-22T10:02:37.000Z> Ghostie: Fun fun 
<2021-02-22T10:02:47.000Z> sapphire: worth every penny man 
<2021-02-22T10:02:57.000Z> sapphire: this is like $7 of trip 
<2021-02-22T10:03:19.000Z> Ghostie: I definitely wouldn't wanna risk cops or a bad trip upturning my life this summer tbh but I'm still down for drinks ð
<2021-02-22T10:03:29.000Z> Ghostie: Didn't you say $150
<2021-02-22T10:05:55.000Z> sapphire: yeah thatâs 25 hits lmao 
<2021-02-22T10:07:38.000Z> sapphire: I shit you not I have a fifth of trips and Iâm on 60ml of that fifth 
<2021-02-22T10:34:39.000Z> sapphire: there are a LOT of worlds still in that bottle man and a few of them are yours if youâre in town 
<2021-02-22T10:57:40.000Z> Ghostie: sorry class got hectic
<2021-02-22T10:58:06.000Z> sapphire: no worries me too 
<2021-02-22T10:58:14.000Z> Ghostie: oh gotcha, cool shit :)
<2021-02-22T10:58:35.000Z> Ghostie: deffo ppreciate it, but even if im able to make it that far out east id abstain. maybe the time after that though hehe
<2021-02-22T10:58:46.000Z> Ghostie: you also got class? or sth else?
<2021-02-22T10:59:00.000Z> sapphire: itâs 4 AM all I got is time 
<2021-02-22T10:59:06.000Z> Ghostie: based
<2021-02-22T10:59:15.000Z> Ghostie: feeling good at 4 am is one of the best things out there
<2021-02-22T10:59:23.000Z> Ghostie: cuz its rare af
<2021-02-22T11:00:17.000Z> sapphire: true 
<2021-03-07T11:07:40.000Z> Ghostie: Check out this goblin I got commissioned
<2021-03-07T11:08:23.000Z> Ghostie attached file https://poa.st/media/5e330b8ae6b0f01de48c7cf210444c6892b7381dcbea1717de52a33740a71b11.png
<2021-03-08T21:07:00.000Z> sapphire: that's cute pixel art
<2021-03-08T21:15:49.000Z> Ghostie: Right!!!
<2021-03-08T21:15:56.000Z> Ghostie: I love her 
<2021-03-13T04:55:20.000Z> Ghostie: "Man that phone advice thread sure seems intere--oh god"
<2021-03-13T05:21:25.000Z> sapphire: he he
<2021-03-13T05:34:31.000Z> Ghostie: I'm gonna be looking for a new phone soon since my op5's battery is busted but that thread was No Help 😂😂
<2021-03-13T06:14:02.000Z> sapphire: I mean, do you care all that much about 1. using your phone and 2. degoogling your phone?
<2021-03-13T06:19:00.000Z> Ghostie: 1. I'm assuming that means using for more than games, calls, email, soc media, etc? Then no2. .... conceptually but not practically. Seems like a pain in the ass lmao
<2021-03-13T06:24:02.000Z> sapphire: honestly any phone will work if you're not worried about 2 and you still wanna play games, I really like my LG V60 but they were $800 new in the US, not sure how they'd go in eastern europe
<2021-03-13T06:24:20.000Z> sapphire: my suggestion if you didn't care about phone games was gonna be the Jelly 2, it'll probably be my eventual move 
<2021-03-13T06:53:48.000Z> Ghostie: The jelly 2 looks positively adorable, but also looks like it would be a bitch to type on 
<2021-03-13T06:54:25.000Z> Ghostie: I'd be getting a phone from the us anyway so who cares what shit costs here 🎉🎉Lg v60 seems neat though, I'll look more into it
<2021-03-13T06:55:03.000Z> Ghostie: I only have a op5 because I got frustrated researching and just went with what I knew (had a op1 prior)
<2021-03-14T07:19:51.000Z> sapphire: hooooo
<2021-03-14T07:19:51.000Z> sapphire: shit
<2021-03-14T07:19:57.000Z> sapphire: let me tell you friend
<2021-03-14T07:20:07.000Z> sapphire: about my friends psychadelics
<2021-03-14T07:20:34.000Z> sapphire: actually let me not, because they make me not want to be online
<2021-03-14T07:20:42.000Z> sapphire: and that's probably the best I can sell them at this moment
<2021-03-14T07:37:18.000Z> sapphire: I'm going to see the elves and they better have big titties
<2021-03-14T09:05:44.000Z> Ghostie: lmao didn't see this til just now
<2021-03-14T09:05:59.000Z> Ghostie: based i hope theyve got thicc thighs too
<2021-03-14T09:06:12.000Z> sapphire: highly disappointing as all elves are
<2021-03-14T09:06:16.000Z> sapphire: but my cat is fuckin
<2021-03-14T09:06:17.000Z> sapphire: soft
<2021-03-14T09:21:57.000Z> Ghostie: It fuckin better be 
<2021-03-14T09:21:59.000Z> Ghostie: Soft best 
<2021-03-14T09:22:23.000Z> sapphire: You know what? You actually convinced me to drop fediverse entirely. I was on the fence and willing to give it a couple of weeks to see if I could find people worth following him and for the signal among all the noise. Thinking it through there is no signal, there’s only noise and it’s not worth the effort. I would unironically be better off on reddit despite the heavy censorship. I can’t stand the wokeness and I can’t stand tranny childrens thinking it’s funny to spam nigger. Hopefully we’ll get a better alternative where adults can talk about things without children shitting on the floor. I doubt it and those children will be responsible when things continue to get worse and their stupid antics crippled any attempt to create alternative options.  Get fucked Fediverse. You’re a bunch of dumb cunts. 
<2021-03-14T09:25:24.000Z> sapphire: lol
<2021-03-14T09:25:27.000Z> sapphire: did my mobile client
<2021-03-14T09:25:32.000Z> sapphire: just fail to send that huge ass copypasta
<2021-03-14T09:25:36.000Z> sapphire: because it was too much text
<2021-03-14T09:25:41.000Z> sapphire: god fedi for iOS is garbage
<2021-03-14T09:26:23.000Z> Ghostie: Nah I think that's the whole thing 
<2021-03-14T09:26:26.000Z> Ghostie: Start and end are the same anyway 
<2021-03-14T09:26:32.000Z> Ghostie: And it's no better for Android 
<2021-03-14T09:26:33.000Z> Ghostie: Look 
<2021-03-14T09:26:45.000Z> sapphire: lmao it just doesnt show that it sent on poast for desktop
<2021-03-14T09:26:47.000Z> Ghostie attached file https://poa.st/media/7e59285ce7da4114884d1a7240745cdd1299a379ca8e726c222fdef57ff297ff.jpg
<2021-03-14T09:26:57.000Z> Ghostie: This is what my dm section looks like 
<2021-03-14T09:27:00.000Z> sapphire: that's awful, actually worse
<2021-03-14T09:27:50.000Z> Ghostie: yes 
<2021-03-14T09:27:51.000Z> sapphire: even if it can't properly render one at least fedi for ios manages to keep them together
<2021-03-14T09:27:58.000Z> Ghostie: all of them are tappable and they all just open this dm properly lmao
<2021-03-14T09:28:09.000Z> sapphire: lmfao
<2021-03-14T09:56:18.000Z> sapphire: the weirdest thing about psychedelics is how it melds the curiosity and basal instincts of a child with the cynicism and cunning of adulthood 
<2021-03-14T09:56:32.000Z> Ghostie: that sounds unpleasant
<2021-03-14T09:56:39.000Z> sapphire: oh no it’s great 
<2021-03-14T09:57:02.000Z> sapphire: imagine for the next 12 hours your greatest desires in life were “laugh” and “feel soft” 
<2021-03-14T09:57:02.000Z> Ghostie: "wonder if birds dream. fuckit, its probably just bullshit bird garbage anyway"
<2021-03-14T09:57:14.000Z> Ghostie: nvm that sounds dope
<2021-03-14T09:57:28.000Z> sapphire: but you’re a grown ass man and can just make those things happen by virtue of being a responsible adult 6 days a week 
<2021-03-14T09:58:07.000Z> Ghostie: hella based
<2021-03-14T09:58:19.000Z> sapphire: do I know at some base level I’m a grown ass man taking a bath at 3 AM on a Sunday 
<2021-03-14T09:58:36.000Z> sapphire: yes. I really could not give a shit less because water warm 
<2021-03-14T09:58:51.000Z> Ghostie: god its been nearly 2 decades since ive had a bath
<2021-03-14T09:58:53.000Z> Ghostie: im so jealous 
<2021-03-14T09:59:08.000Z> sapphire: don’t be, my bathroom is still haunted 
<2021-03-14T09:59:15.000Z> Ghostie: did she lose the red at least
<2021-03-14T09:59:17.000Z> Ghostie: or was it blue 
<2021-03-14T09:59:32.000Z> sapphire: both actually I think I threw out that blue towel 
<2021-03-14T09:59:48.000Z> Ghostie: lmao
<2021-03-14T09:59:51.000Z> sapphire: and I know where the red one is 
<2021-03-14T10:00:00.000Z> Ghostie: i did not know the spinsters colors were towel based
<2021-03-14T10:00:19.000Z> sapphire: I didn’t until just now but it makes sense
<2021-03-14T10:00:29.000Z> Ghostie: man you'd hate my towels
<2021-03-14T10:00:51.000Z> Ghostie: ive got a navy blue towel with aligators on it. theyre big stacked one on top of the other
<2021-03-14T10:00:55.000Z> sapphire: and again I understand at a base level that I’m doing a HUGE amount of drugs and I’m talking about my towels being haunted 
<2021-03-14T10:00:55.000Z> Ghostie: and theyre all different colors
<2021-03-14T10:01:13.000Z> sapphire: that actually sounds cool, are the gators orange by any chance 
<2021-03-14T10:01:17.000Z> Ghostie: one is
<2021-03-14T10:01:35.000Z> sapphire: oh they’re rainbowed then I think I can visualize that 
<2021-03-14T10:02:35.000Z> sapphire: I only ask because if you had florida gator themed towels I was going to rip on you even harder for being an African cuz iirc they’ve been on the downtrend lately 
<2021-03-14T10:02:37.000Z> Ghostie: yeah im not sure its in rainbow order but its all the colors
<2021-03-14T10:02:50.000Z> Ghostie: lmaoo
<2021-03-14T10:02:59.000Z> Ghostie: actualyl one end of the towel has a blue one, and the other red
<2021-03-14T10:03:06.000Z> Ghostie: i use the blue for my nuts and the red for my feet
<2021-03-14T10:03:36.000Z> sapphire: that’s a good system, I feel like my nuts and my feet deserve to be treated as equals and also I don’t have 99 towels 
<2021-03-14T10:03:58.000Z> Ghostie: get a lil merkin towel
<2021-03-14T10:05:08.000Z> sapphire: I think any effort spent on a ball towel would be better spent trying to get them dirty enough for toweling 
<2021-03-14T10:05:23.000Z> Ghostie: lmao
<2021-03-14T10:05:34.000Z> Ghostie: mr clean nuts over here
<2021-03-14T10:05:50.000Z> sapphire: but I’m also retarded when I said I knew where that red towel was I was wrong I brought it with me 
<2021-03-14T10:06:08.000Z> Ghostie: so you do know where it is tho
<2021-03-14T10:06:26.000Z> sapphire: I do now yes because I just dried my hands on it to tell you about it 
<2021-03-14T10:06:59.000Z> Ghostie: lmfao
<2021-03-14T10:07:17.000Z> sapphire: oh cool now my Fedi chats are starting to multiply lmao 
<2021-03-14T10:07:24.000Z> sapphire: this app is awful 
<2021-03-14T10:07:57.000Z> Ghostie: based
<2021-03-14T10:08:05.000Z> Ghostie: ik theres like a dozen of them, at least for android
<2021-03-14T10:08:12.000Z> Ghostie: but i havent gotten around to trying any but husky yet
<2021-03-14T10:08:20.000Z> sapphire: ok so it seems to be a server-client desync issue which is probably why you get it so much and why I’m getting it in the bathroom 
<2021-03-14T10:08:37.000Z> sapphire: at least for mine restarting the app fixed it 
<2021-03-14T10:08:40.000Z> Ghostie: i mean mine dont even update
<2021-03-14T10:08:44.000Z> Ghostie: and ive restarted phone etc too
<2021-03-14T10:08:51.000Z> Ghostie: its just been like that since i joined haha
<2021-03-14T10:08:53.000Z> sapphire: oh try fedi for Android 
<2021-03-14T10:09:02.000Z> Ghostie: i may
<2021-03-14T10:09:02.000Z> sapphire: it’s the most polished turd 
<2021-03-14T10:09:05.000Z> Ghostie: lmao]
<2021-03-14T10:10:02.000Z> Ghostie: husky's shit at loading media, too
<2021-03-14T10:10:03.000Z> sapphire: yeah whenever i blip internet connection it doubles my chats lol, I assume it’s grabbing a desynced chat from the server side and keeping my client side one as well 
<2021-03-14T10:10:11.000Z> Ghostie: so i deffo will switch but later, lazy
<2021-03-14T10:10:30.000Z> Ghostie: idk shid about that niggie
<2021-03-14T10:10:57.000Z> sapphire: I could be speaking complete nonsense 
<2021-03-14T10:11:16.000Z> sapphire: that’s just a decade of doing this for a living plus 4 hits of acid spit out 
<2021-03-14T10:11:21.000Z> Ghostie: you and dick masterson are the only people ive seen communicate on lsd ever
<2021-03-14T10:11:25.000Z> Ghostie: and both of u stay coherent
<2021-03-14T10:11:39.000Z> sapphire: it’s so weird ok 
<2021-03-14T10:12:02.000Z> sapphire: there’s NO body effects of LSD. it’s not a stimulant, it’s not a depressant, it’s 100% mental 
<2021-03-14T10:12:46.000Z> Ghostie: i wish normal every day stimulants worked on me
<2021-03-14T10:12:52.000Z> Ghostie: fuckin
<2021-03-14T10:13:00.000Z> Ghostie: eeeee drink coffee drink energy drinks theyll get u fired up
<2021-03-14T10:13:02.000Z> Ghostie: no the fuck they wont
<2021-03-14T10:13:03.000Z> Ghostie: ugh
<2021-03-14T10:13:07.000Z> sapphire: so I’m completely in control of my body, to the extent the trip allows me to communicate with my limbs. in most cases that’s limited so I can have fun, but right now I’m trying to have a conversation and it’s wild, there’s me and there’s my fingers and they work just fine 
<2021-03-14T10:13:24.000Z> Ghostie: thats kinda lewd
<2021-03-14T10:13:52.000Z> sapphire: if you’ve ever been impacted by any drug you know there’s a systemic impact 
<2021-03-14T10:14:10.000Z> sapphire: your body changes and you feel symptoms from it 
<2021-03-14T10:14:27.000Z> sapphire: LSD is so pure and so tuned into what it does that there’s none of that 
<2021-03-14T10:14:44.000Z> Ghostie: only "drug" ive ever used is weed a few times and it also never had an effect
<2021-03-14T10:15:01.000Z> sapphire: you’ve had alcohol though 
<2021-03-14T10:15:10.000Z> Ghostie: oh, yeah
<2021-03-14T10:15:29.000Z> sapphire: yeah, drug in the medical sense not in the legal sense 
<2021-03-14T10:15:29.000Z> Ghostie: god alcohol would be so much better without the Dizzy
<2021-03-14T10:15:56.000Z> sapphire: but yeah it’s really weird. don’t get me wrong, I’m FEELING a lot of ways 
<2021-03-14T10:16:54.000Z> sapphire: but it’s all in my mind. physiologically I’m sober right now and that’s the wild part to me, is I’ve always kinda tried to step away from the downsides of drugs and for me that was always the physical effects 
<2021-03-14T10:18:13.000Z> sapphire: and it’s so surreal man, like if I concentrate and push away the little diethlamides in my brain for a little bit and get that moment of clarity, it’s not tinged by being hungry or sad or in danger or liver failure 
<2021-03-14T10:19:42.000Z> sapphire: I think you’d like it and I guarantee you with how potent it is you’d be hard pressed to find a dose you can’t get a damn good trip from, even if you’re a mule immune to tranquilizers 
<2021-03-14T10:20:19.000Z> sapphire: ok downside to fedi is I didn't get any of your replies through that lol
<2021-03-14T10:20:25.000Z> Ghostie: ive always been hella interested in psychedelics but im also always concerned theyll cause a mental break. i'm not exactly the most mentally fortified individual 
<2021-03-14T10:20:34.000Z> Ghostie: wasnt replying, was reading haha
<2021-03-14T10:20:44.000Z> Ghostie: glad youre enjoying yourself tho it deffo sounds fun
<2021-03-14T10:20:45.000Z> sapphire: haha no worries, I saw them when I came back to my PC
<2021-03-14T10:20:46.000Z> Ghostie: brb food got here
<2021-03-14T10:20:51.000Z> Ghostie: oo ok haha
<2021-03-14T10:20:53.000Z> Ghostie: quick bath
<2021-03-14T10:21:22.000Z> sapphire: as far as mental stuff, I have my own issues but set and setting really helps, if you have some place really comforting you can't have a bad trip in my eyes
<2021-03-14T10:22:41.000Z> sapphire: I've been through about one of my minor bipolar cycles since I started and I can't say its done anything but helped, there's definitely a mood elevation that comes from it for a few days after, that's really well documented
<2021-03-14T10:23:20.000Z> sapphire: but off that mood elevation I was able to make some minor lifestyle changes that have stuck around, and I just kinda build on that each time and its helping me dig out of the pit that my depressive cycles have dug over the last decade
<2021-03-14T10:23:43.000Z> sapphire: we'll see how I weather the major seasonal depression in October but I have high hopes
<2021-03-14T10:27:41.000Z> Ghostie: that's great to hear :D
<2021-03-14T10:27:45.000Z> Ghostie: again, jealous
<2021-03-14T10:27:51.000Z> Ghostie: niggie out here taking baths and bettering himself
<2021-03-14T10:28:03.000Z> sapphire: yeah damn these drugs ruining my life
<2021-03-14T10:30:16.000Z> Ghostie: lmfao
<2021-03-14T10:30:48.000Z> sapphire: sober me tried to keep me away from need for speed
<2021-03-14T10:30:51.000Z> sapphire: sober me failed
<2021-03-14T10:31:05.000Z> Ghostie: i was just about to ask what nfsu was
<2021-03-14T10:31:12.000Z> Ghostie: why were you trying tokeep it away
<2021-03-14T10:32:19.000Z> sapphire: I mean honestly because there are better things I could be doing with my trip but at this point its either this or go drive for real
<2021-03-14T10:32:34.000Z> Ghostie: lmfao this is definitely better
<2021-03-14T10:32:51.000Z> Ghostie: hey does inebriated you have any tips on how to get over like
<2021-03-14T10:32:53.000Z> Ghostie: writers paralysis 
<2021-03-14T10:33:13.000Z> sapphire: writer's block is what we call it in English ya fuckin darkie
<2021-03-14T10:33:21.000Z> sapphire: and change of perpective
<2021-03-14T10:33:21.000Z> Ghostie: like when you sit down to write, get in a flow, then an awk sentence makes you stumble and stop
<2021-03-14T10:33:32.000Z> Ghostie: no i know but its not writers block cuz thats like you can barely even start
<2021-03-14T10:33:33.000Z> Ghostie: lmao
<2021-03-14T10:33:39.000Z> Ghostie: change of perspective? 
<2021-03-14T10:33:51.000Z> sapphire: yeah no that was my suggestion for actual writers block this is different
<2021-03-14T10:34:18.000Z> sapphire: I mean my solution for when things stop flowing is to just do them a different way, don't try to barrel through an obstruction
<2021-03-14T10:34:44.000Z> sapphire: like I assume you get like me when you write, you get in a good flow and something doesn't quite flow right and then it just blocks up
<2021-03-14T10:34:53.000Z> Ghostie: yes exactly
<2021-03-14T10:34:56.000Z> sapphire: I usually just take it back to the point where it was last flowing and rework it completely
<2021-03-14T10:35:11.000Z> Ghostie: oooh
<2021-03-14T10:35:40.000Z> Ghostie: that could work 
<2021-03-14T10:35:57.000Z> sapphire: I do want to point out though the entirety of my writing career is my little pony erotic roleplay so 1. the standards were far lower and 2. my writing style is developed exclusively for getting things to paper as well as I can as quick as I can
<2021-03-14T10:36:31.000Z> Ghostie: ive actually written mlp smut before
<2021-03-14T10:36:53.000Z> Ghostie: i had a brony friend who was writing some fuckin medieval au and i thought hat was gay as fuck, so i wrote yaoi fanfic of his characters
<2021-03-14T10:37:02.000Z> sapphire: I kept myself pretty well sequestered lmao 
<2021-03-14T10:37:03.000Z> Ghostie: that*
<2021-03-14T10:37:22.000Z> Ghostie: sequestered... s equestered... s equest ered... equestria 
<2021-03-14T10:37:23.000Z> sapphire: also yeah if you wrote stallion stuff I wasn't interested, I was off doing the exact opposite gay things
<2021-03-14T10:37:35.000Z> Ghostie: i never published it it was exclusively to make him mad
<2021-03-14T10:37:36.000Z> Ghostie: it worked
<2021-03-14T10:37:56.000Z> Ghostie: the only stuff ive ""published"" were like
<2021-03-14T10:38:00.000Z> Ghostie: Slenderblogs and the like
<2021-03-14T10:38:04.000Z> Ghostie: unfiction blogs, you know
<2021-03-14T10:38:11.000Z> Ghostie: but i was also like 15 so they sucked
<2021-03-14T10:38:31.000Z> sapphire: I think my favorite public work of fiction was the sph greentext I got swindled into writing while BELLIGERENTLY drunk 
<2021-03-14T10:38:33.000Z> sapphire: but like
<2021-03-14T10:38:39.000Z> sapphire: I sobered up halfway through the thread
<2021-03-14T10:38:43.000Z> Ghostie: sph greentext? 
<2021-03-14T10:38:44.000Z> sapphire: and it just got sequentially more self aware
<2021-03-14T10:38:49.000Z> Ghostie: hhahahaha
<2021-03-14T10:39:14.000Z> sapphire: small penis humiliation, it was an interesting thread. Dudes jacked off to me pretending to be a female horse telling them they had small dicks and how that got me wet
<2021-03-14T10:39:26.000Z> Ghostie: lMAO
<2021-03-14T10:39:28.000Z> Ghostie: LMAOOO
<2021-03-14T10:39:31.000Z> sapphire: like I said
<2021-03-14T10:39:35.000Z> sapphire: belligerently drunk
<2021-03-14T10:39:42.000Z> Ghostie: beautiful 
<2021-03-14T10:39:53.000Z> sapphire: now imagine being at the helm of this general thread
<2021-03-14T10:40:06.000Z> sapphire: that is ONLY YOU writing for
<2021-03-14T10:40:13.000Z> sapphire: as you sober up
<2021-03-14T10:40:29.000Z> Ghostie: my favorite thing ive done is loli with an oc i made for a superhero discord rp server. i never published it anywhere tho, but i did show a random pervert from another server and he kept telling me how it made him cum so i stopped
<2021-03-14T10:41:44.000Z> sapphire: my arc with longplay was a really good one until I had to remind him very forcefully that I was not my character
<2021-03-14T10:43:49.000Z> Ghostie: aaaaaaaaaAAAA I HATE THAT
<2021-03-14T10:44:35.000Z> Ghostie: i wish loli stuff was more acceptable 
<2021-03-14T10:44:39.000Z> Ghostie: its so much easier to write
<2021-03-14T10:44:45.000Z> Ghostie: but loli writing is even more illegal than art 
<2021-03-14T10:44:54.000Z> Ghostie: so i don't bother 
<2021-03-14T10:45:18.000Z> Ghostie: theres sites u can get it published but i keep thinking about that guy that went to jail for running a text only site like that and eghhhhh
<2021-03-14T10:45:19.000Z> sapphire: I mean my entire drug experience right now is the equivalent of that, just being broken down into something very easy to write
<2021-03-14T10:45:44.000Z> Ghostie: wait what? what r u refering to
<2021-03-14T10:46:05.000Z> sapphire: "i wish loli stuff was more acceptable its so much easier to write"
<2021-03-14T10:46:24.000Z> sapphire: I guess I was empathizing
<2021-03-14T10:46:24.000Z> sapphire: but
<2021-03-14T10:46:25.000Z> sapphire: drugs
<2021-03-14T10:46:34.000Z> Ghostie: drug stuff was more acceptable? 
<2021-03-14T10:47:20.000Z> sapphire: I can't think of the polite way to say this so you get the sarcastic internet way and I'm sorry
<2021-03-14T10:47:23.000Z> sapphire: its not that deep
<2021-03-14T10:47:43.000Z> sapphire: you said thing and I agreed through layers of autism and psychadelic drugs 
<2021-03-14T10:48:39.000Z> Ghostie: based and redblotted
<2021-03-14T10:49:27.000Z> sapphire: its definitely something
<2021-03-14T10:49:42.000Z> sapphire: red is a good color I like red
<2021-03-14T10:49:59.000Z> Ghostie: what about green
<2021-03-14T10:50:01.000Z> Ghostie: green's better
<2021-03-14T10:50:05.000Z> Ghostie: red is what you shoot at in vidja
<2021-03-14T10:50:15.000Z> sapphire: dude I literally just changed my lights back to green lol
<2021-03-14T10:50:33.000Z> sapphire: btw addressable LEDs, best toy to have when you're gonked
<2021-03-14T10:51:13.000Z> Ghostie: nice nice nice
<2021-03-14T10:51:18.000Z> Ghostie: i fucking hate the lighting @ my place
<2021-03-14T10:52:42.000Z> sapphire: the only thing I wish I could do is change my kitchen lighting, its these weird proprietary florescent shits 
<2021-03-14T10:53:02.000Z> sapphire: its also in the bathroom but I shit there and also its haunted
<2021-03-14T10:53:34.000Z> sapphire: but like the kitchen is a place of creation it deserves better
<2021-03-14T10:53:35.000Z> Ghostie: fuck florescents 
<2021-03-14T10:54:04.000Z> Ghostie: my bedroom has bright white LEDs they suck so much cock
<2021-03-14T10:54:06.000Z> Ghostie: horrible
<2021-03-14T10:54:34.000Z> sapphire: I was an early adopter of phillips hue
<2021-03-14T10:54:57.000Z> sapphire: so I've got their like very first generation weird flood lamp lookin bulbs, a couple of white ones, and the LED strip for my living room
<2021-03-14T10:55:46.000Z> Ghostie: comf af
<2021-03-14T10:56:24.000Z> sapphire: I might replace the downlamps at some point but I almost don't even care to, they don't do light great for any other time but theyre cool when I'm high and there's enough light for me to do what I need to do
<2021-03-14T10:58:55.000Z> sapphire: I just want to point out that I took these drugs almost 4 hours ago
<2021-03-14T10:58:58.000Z> sapphire: and I'm still on my way up
<2021-03-14T11:14:19.000Z> sapphire: ok problem number 1 with psychadelics
<2021-03-14T11:14:35.000Z> sapphire: I forgot I was still naked from my bath and almost walked outside
<2021-03-14T11:14:41.000Z> sapphire: problem solved, I got dressed
<2021-03-14T11:14:47.000Z> sapphire: problem 2 with psychadelics:
<2021-03-14T11:15:12.000Z> sapphire: I spent the entire time outside mad that I should have to wear clothes on my own damn balcony, its bullshit and I deserve better
<2021-03-14T11:15:41.000Z> sapphire: problem hasn't been solved, its still bullshit and I should be able to wave my cock out at the stray cats if I'm going to get accused of feeding them anyway
<2021-03-14T11:22:40.000Z> Ghostie: Sorry was walking home
<2021-03-14T11:22:48.000Z> Ghostie: Lmao relatable tbh clothes are bullshit 
<2021-03-14T11:23:03.000Z> Ghostie: At least as a man you can get away with a speedo
<2021-03-14T11:27:42.000Z> sapphire: I live in the desert and have a LOT of psychadelics
<2021-03-14T11:27:53.000Z> sapphire: I could get away with wearing far less, for an exceedingly short amount of time
<2021-03-14T11:34:09.000Z> Ghostie: 😂😂😂😂
<2021-03-14T11:34:42.000Z> sapphire: the biggest impediment right now is its cold and I'm comfortable and also police really ruin a trip
<2021-03-14T11:35:58.000Z> Ghostie: get a bathrobe but only tie it loosely
<2021-03-14T11:36:21.000Z> sapphire: thats a good idea strategically, I'll shelf that for a later date
<2021-03-14T11:36:51.000Z> sapphire: problems tactically: I don't have a bathrobe and I'm sure tying a towel around me loosely with paracord would give the exact wrong impression 
<2021-03-14T11:37:15.000Z> Ghostie: not if you have a second towel as a cape
<2021-03-14T11:38:13.000Z> sapphire: I think I have a total of 4 and I'm fairly certain we could strategically arrange them so that zero have any chance of covering my cock and balls
<2021-03-14T11:43:57.000Z> Ghostie: perfect
<2021-03-14T11:53:47.000Z> sapphire: meanwhile remember what I said about no physiological effects
<2021-03-14T11:54:00.000Z> sapphire: like normally with THC you get really bad cotton mouth, no matter how you take it
<2021-03-14T11:54:22.000Z> sapphire: I started to feel that just now but like... nigga I've just been tripping balls for 4 hours I'm just thirsty
<2021-03-14T11:54:30.000Z> Ghostie: LOL
<2021-03-14T11:55:22.000Z> sapphire: that said I have a lot of heightened senses right now
<2021-03-14T11:55:25.000Z> sapphire: taste is not one of them
<2021-03-14T11:55:32.000Z> sapphire: I ordered a 2 liter of orange soda with my pizza
<2021-03-14T11:55:35.000Z> sapphire: tastes awful
<2021-03-14T11:55:58.000Z> sapphire: like trying to swallow syrup because it is, since I've got like no sense of taste its just the worst
<2021-03-14T12:09:19.000Z> Ghostie: that sounds hella fucking nasty bro
<2021-03-14T12:09:45.000Z> sapphire: damn these drugs, last week I went grocery shopping and bought healthy stuff, this week I'm drinking water instead of soda
<2021-03-14T12:09:49.000Z> sapphire: gonna ruin my life bro
<2021-03-14T12:14:49.000Z> Ghostie: lmfao
<2021-03-16T22:51:59.000Z> sapphire: this tripp kid is peak schizophrenic
<2021-03-17T04:05:32.000Z> Ghostie: Oh?