<2021-03-04T16:44:23.000Z> Astolfo: hey bro how are things
<2021-03-04T17:32:19.000Z> FajitaVolcel: going alright, just sorta doin my thing
<2021-03-04T17:32:19.000Z> FajitaVolcel: how bout u?
<2021-03-04T18:02:54.000Z> Astolfo: i dont think my life is going to get better anytime soon
<2021-03-04T18:03:02.000Z> Astolfo: hope ur thing works out tho
<2021-03-05T05:01:26.000Z> FajitaVolcel: whats goin on big guy?
<2021-03-05T07:02:22.000Z> Astolfo: just dont enjoy anything and i alienate anyone i meet which is a rare occurrence 
<2021-03-05T07:02:55.000Z> Astolfo: i'll never find anyone just like me and dont like living with stomach and mental pain
<2021-03-05T22:39:58.000Z> FajitaVolcel: do you think you'd only be happy with someone just like you?
<2021-03-05T22:53:22.000Z> Astolfo: yesh
<2021-03-05T22:53:46.000Z> Astolfo: dont see a reason of why i would live for myself
<2021-03-05T23:20:47.000Z> FajitaVolcel: that's a fair enough point of view, but i dont think you should give up hope. you're still young with time to make positive changes
<2021-03-05T23:21:05.000Z> Astolfo: maybe
<2021-03-05T23:24:31.000Z> FajitaVolcel: i mean i might not be in the same boat, but ive been struggling with stomach pain for a year. i've been single even longer. No new friends. But I keep making moves to secure a future for myself because i refuse to be abused by this sick world.
<2021-03-05T23:25:05.000Z> Astolfo: ive suffered stomach pain my entire life'
<2021-03-05T23:25:14.000Z> Astolfo: i just dont see a reason to secure a future for myself
<2021-03-05T23:25:41.000Z> FajitaVolcel: if you don't, they win
<2021-03-05T23:31:47.000Z> FajitaVolcel: those who have contributed to the perversion of this earth, and the sacred nature of life itself. 
<2021-03-05T23:32:14.000Z> FajitaVolcel: i see it as my duty to try and make this life better for those who come after me
<2021-03-05T23:32:15.000Z> Astolfo: i know who you mean by they
<2021-03-05T23:32:27.000Z> Astolfo: people dont want help
<2021-03-05T23:34:06.000Z> FajitaVolcel: they might not want it, and much less deserve it, but you don't think that's the right thing to do?
<2021-03-05T23:34:29.000Z> Astolfo: of course its the right thing to do 
<2021-03-05T23:34:34.000Z> Astolfo: but they do not want to listen
<2021-03-05T23:34:44.000Z> Astolfo: they also want to contribute to the perversion of the earth
<2021-03-05T23:34:50.000Z> Astolfo: crabs in a bucket.
<2021-03-05T23:35:21.000Z> Astolfo: so youre going to have like 14 white kids then?
<2021-03-05T23:36:23.000Z> FajitaVolcel: i dont know
<2021-03-05T23:37:13.000Z> Astolfo: im not trying to blackpill you
<2021-03-05T23:39:42.000Z> FajitaVolcel: having a realistic view of the world isn't blackpilling
<2021-03-05T23:40:30.000Z> FajitaVolcel: but convincing yourself that it always has to be this way is
<2021-03-05T23:41:05.000Z> Astolfo: looking for things that dont exist in the real world
<2021-03-05T23:58:48.000Z> FajitaVolcel: all i know is you can only do what's right, whatever that means to you
<2021-03-06T00:03:42.000Z> Astolfo: people despise the morally superior
<2021-03-06T00:08:08.000Z> FajitaVolcel: John 15:18
<2021-03-06T00:08:25.000Z> FajitaVolcel: If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.
<2021-03-06T00:08:40.000Z> Astolfo: im reading it now
<2021-03-06T00:08:46.000Z> Astolfo: thank you
<2021-03-06T00:09:54.000Z> Astolfo: but 'i really dont see this as uplifting
<2021-03-06T00:14:10.000Z> FajitaVolcel: It means you're doing something right, even if it feels the exact opposite
<2021-03-06T00:14:30.000Z> Astolfo: but i already know im doing the right thing
<2021-03-06T00:14:53.000Z> FajitaVolcel: that doesnt motivate you to keep moving forward?
<2021-03-06T00:15:01.000Z> Astolfo: move forward towards what
<2021-03-06T00:15:09.000Z> FajitaVolcel: your goals
<2021-03-06T00:15:21.000Z> FajitaVolcel: finding someone 
<2021-03-06T00:15:24.000Z> Astolfo: theyre not realistic 
<2021-03-06T00:15:39.000Z> Astolfo: idk even where to look anymore
<2021-03-06T00:16:02.000Z> FajitaVolcel: look for what?
<2021-03-06T00:17:24.000Z> Astolfo: someone
<2021-03-06T00:17:39.000Z> Astolfo: lol the thing you just said
<2021-03-06T00:18:18.000Z> FajitaVolcel: sorry i do be a lil tarded up doe
<2021-03-06T00:19:01.000Z> FajitaVolcel: but honestly i can't help you in that department, i dont know what your life is like and i dont want to give you useless speculations
<2021-03-06T00:19:23.000Z> Astolfo: speculate for fun
<2021-03-06T00:19:44.000Z> Astolfo: im not expecting you to hold my burdens or take interest in my troubles
<2021-03-06T00:23:36.000Z> FajitaVolcel: i would say start at somewhere focused on something you enjoy. enjoy legos? maybe your local mall has a lego store you can hang out at. enjoy, i dont know, coffee? hang out at a coffee shop. at the end of the day, a relationship that forms naturally is going to do better, but you can put yourself in situations where that's more likely. 
<2021-03-06T08:39:32.000Z> Astolfo: and thats been speculation
<2021-03-07T08:39:39.000Z> FajitaVolcel: ?
<2021-03-12T03:27:25.000Z> Astolfo: you were right the first time but i enjoyed the heart behind the speculation
<2021-04-29T02:27:28.000Z> FajitaVolcel: i try