<2023-01-11T18:34:23.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: just wanted to say you're not as bad of a guy as your best friend. he's a piece of shit.
<2023-01-11T19:06:13.000Z> AWIVR: he's alright
<2023-01-11T19:06:20.000Z> AWIVR: I'm okay with being the bad guy
<2023-01-11T19:07:16.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he's far worse then you
<2023-01-11T19:07:48.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I didn't want to kill myself because of you
<2023-01-11T19:10:56.000Z> AWIVR: it's bizarre to want to kill yourself over any boy/girl 
<2023-01-11T19:11:07.000Z> AWIVR: there are far better reasons than that
<2023-01-11T19:12:04.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you never been in love?
<2023-01-11T19:13:11.000Z> AWIVR: I'm too autistic for that 
<2023-01-11T19:15:28.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: then you won't understand
<2023-01-11T19:15:41.000Z> AWIVR: probably not
<2023-01-11T19:15:56.000Z> AWIVR: but surely there are better things to kill yourself over 
<2023-01-11T19:15:57.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you know who this new girl of his is?
<2023-01-11T19:16:02.000Z> AWIVR: of course 
<2023-01-11T19:16:20.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: is she pretty?
<2023-01-11T19:16:25.000Z> AWIVR: yes
<2023-01-11T19:16:41.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: does she love him?
<2023-01-11T19:17:07.000Z> AWIVR: they're two peas in a pod gayely going about their time together 
<2023-01-11T19:17:47.000Z> AWIVR: I'm still waiting for the honeymoon to be over with so I can doomer post and watch chinese cartoons again 
<2023-01-11T19:18:30.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: i hope he's happy with her. and I hope he stays away from you
<2023-01-11T19:18:42.000Z> AWIVR: everybody is happy 
<2023-01-11T19:18:46.000Z> AWIVR: you should be too 
<2023-01-11T19:19:25.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I lost the man I love. I won't be happy for a long while
<2023-01-11T19:19:37.000Z> AWIVR: you'll just have to find something else to make you happy 
<2023-01-11T19:20:10.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I wish I never met either of you
<2023-01-11T19:20:20.000Z> AWIVR: why not?
<2023-01-11T19:20:36.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: because you both hurt me
<2023-01-11T19:20:45.000Z> AWIVR: to be fair you're easily hurt 
<2023-01-11T19:20:59.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: and you take advantage of it
<2023-01-11T19:21:07.000Z> AWIVR: I don't think I do
<2023-01-11T19:21:24.000Z> AWIVR: or at least I don't see it
<2023-01-11T19:21:29.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: then we have to agree to disagree
<2023-01-11T19:21:33.000Z> AWIVR: maybe.
<2023-01-11T19:21:59.000Z> AWIVR: it's not like I get enjoyment out of seeing you miserable 
<2023-01-11T19:23:31.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I sincerely doubt that
<2023-01-11T19:23:43.000Z> AWIVR: I barely feel anything anymore lol
<2023-01-11T19:23:51.000Z> AWIVR: it's great you should try it
<2023-01-11T19:24:19.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: do you know if they fucked?
<2023-01-11T19:24:40.000Z> AWIVR: what good would that information do for you 
<2023-01-11T19:24:52.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: so that's a yes
<2023-01-11T19:25:09.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: well I can't compete with that
<2023-01-11T19:25:10.000Z> AWIVR: they're in a committed relationship so I would assume so 
<2023-01-11T19:25:18.000Z> AWIVR: and I never asked because why would I
<2023-01-11T19:26:01.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: this time last month he was telling me he wants to be in touch with me again
<2023-01-11T19:26:19.000Z> AWIVR: this whole thing all happened pretty fast 
<2023-01-11T19:26:35.000Z> AWIVR: it's only been about a week or so
<2023-01-11T19:26:38.000Z> AWIVR: maybe two
<2023-01-11T19:26:55.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: throw away two years for two weekd
<2023-01-11T19:26:59.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: weeks
<2023-01-11T19:27:07.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: w/o a word
<2023-01-11T19:27:21.000Z> AWIVR: you know how his policy is with women
<2023-01-11T19:27:24.000Z> AWIVR: one at a time
<2023-01-11T19:27:38.000Z> AWIVR: he breaks it off with priors any time he starts seeing or talking to a new one
<2023-01-11T19:27:43.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: then he should've end things with me first
<2023-01-11T19:27:58.000Z> AWIVR: I was under the impression that he did
<2023-01-11T19:28:08.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he didn't
<2023-01-11T19:28:11.000Z> AWIVR: he was talking to a different girl a few weeks ago
<2023-01-11T19:28:23.000Z> AWIVR: and as far as I was tracking he told you about her
<2023-01-11T19:28:33.000Z> AWIVR: he said you got upset 
<2023-01-11T19:28:56.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he said your gf was going to set him up with someone
<2023-01-11T19:29:11.000Z> AWIVR: and guess who he is dating now
<2023-01-11T19:29:18.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: ur gf
<2023-01-11T19:29:21.000Z> AWIVR: yes lol
<2023-01-11T19:29:32.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: of course
<2023-01-11T19:29:38.000Z> AWIVR: the someone never panned out 
<2023-01-11T19:29:57.000Z> AWIVR: the two of them hit it off and decided to just go with it
<2023-01-11T19:30:09.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: fucking bastard
<2023-01-11T19:30:14.000Z> AWIVR: eh
<2023-01-11T19:30:34.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: it's not gonna work out
<2023-01-11T19:30:38.000Z> AWIVR: they're sort of perfect for each other
<2023-01-11T19:30:41.000Z> AWIVR: it probably will
<2023-01-11T19:30:56.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: how are they perfect for each other?
<2023-01-11T19:31:07.000Z> AWIVR: they get along really well 
<2023-01-11T19:31:07.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: why didn't they do it before?
<2023-01-11T19:31:11.000Z> AWIVR: she laughs at all his stupid jokes
<2023-01-11T19:31:13.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: so did we
<2023-01-11T19:31:17.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: so did i
<2023-01-11T19:31:24.000Z> AWIVR: I'm not saying you didn't
<2023-01-11T19:32:09.000Z> AWIVR: I am happy for them 
<2023-01-11T19:32:19.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: of course you are
<2023-01-11T19:32:39.000Z> AWIVR: I want my friends to be happy 
<2023-01-11T19:35:26.000Z> AWIVR: I don't think that's a strange thing to want 
<2023-01-11T19:39:52.000Z> AWIVR: also why am I bad I didn't even do anything
<2023-01-11T19:41:37.000Z> AWIVR: I made you pierogi 
<2023-01-11T19:42:55.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I thought I was your friend
<2023-01-11T19:43:07.000Z> AWIVR: you are my friend
<2023-01-11T19:43:25.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: Kevin told me you hate me
<2023-01-11T19:43:43.000Z> AWIVR: he told you a lot of things 
<2023-01-11T19:44:11.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he said you called me a slut
<2023-01-11T19:44:18.000Z> AWIVR: are you a slut though 
<2023-01-11T19:44:26.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: no
<2023-01-11T19:44:32.000Z> AWIVR: you flirt with a lot of men on fedi 
<2023-01-11T19:44:50.000Z> AWIVR: I don't find that part particularly endearing about you 
<2023-01-11T19:45:06.000Z> AWIVR: but I don't know if that qualifies as slut behavior 
<2023-01-11T19:45:35.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: but you still called me that
<2023-01-11T19:45:45.000Z> AWIVR: you're probably right though 
<2023-01-11T19:46:06.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: about what?
<2023-01-11T19:46:21.000Z> AWIVR: I told him whatever he wanted to hear so he wouldn't kill himself 
<2023-01-11T19:46:31.000Z> AWIVR: and it worked 
<2023-01-11T19:46:47.000Z> AWIVR: so I probably did say that to him about you 
<2023-01-11T19:47:20.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he was never suicidal
<2023-01-11T19:47:30.000Z> AWIVR: not that you know of 
<2023-01-11T19:47:51.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I've been dealing with this for 15 years
<2023-01-11T19:48:05.000Z> AWIVR: he was ready to do a murder suicide after you told him we were talking 
<2023-01-11T19:48:06.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: people who are really suicidal don't leave others
<2023-01-11T19:48:30.000Z> AWIVR: I wouldn't leave him alone because I knew he has nobody else 
<2023-01-11T19:48:43.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he had me
<2023-01-11T19:48:48.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he always had ma
<2023-01-11T19:48:49.000Z> AWIVR: no he didn't
<2023-01-11T19:48:50.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: me
<2023-01-11T19:48:54.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: yes he did
<2023-01-11T19:48:59.000Z> AWIVR: he was convinced he lost you to me 
<2023-01-11T19:49:07.000Z> AWIVR: and he hated me for months because of it 
<2023-01-11T19:49:10.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: but he wouldn't swallow his pride
<2023-01-11T19:49:39.000Z> AWIVR: he was going to do it
<2023-01-11T19:49:41.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: and yet you're still his best friend and I'm out with the garbage
<2023-01-11T19:49:53.000Z> AWIVR: well not for no reason 
<2023-01-11T19:50:03.000Z> AWIVR: you know he can't talk to you while he's dating someone
<2023-01-11T19:50:33.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he could've said that to me
<2023-01-11T19:50:39.000Z> AWIVR: he did say that to you
<2023-01-11T19:50:41.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: instead of disapearing
<2023-01-11T19:50:45.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: no
<2023-01-11T19:51:07.000Z> AWIVR: you and I are having this conversation right now because he is worried about you
<2023-01-11T19:51:20.000Z> AWIVR: otherwise he wouldn't have told me where to find you 
<2023-01-11T19:51:29.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: what
<2023-01-11T19:51:33.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I messaged you
<2023-01-11T19:51:42.000Z> AWIVR: yeah after he slipped me your fedi 
<2023-01-11T19:51:46.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: stop lying ffs
<2023-01-11T19:51:49.000Z> AWIVR: I'm not lol
<2023-01-11T19:52:04.000Z> AWIVR: he didn't tell me to come interact with you 
<2023-01-11T19:52:08.000Z> AWIVR: I did it on my own
<2023-01-11T19:52:26.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: why
<2023-01-11T19:52:34.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: so wait
<2023-01-11T19:52:38.000Z> AWIVR: because you are my friend 
<2023-01-11T19:52:48.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he told you to spy on my fedi to check if im still alive?
<2023-01-11T19:52:52.000Z> AWIVR: no
<2023-01-11T19:53:06.000Z> AWIVR: he slipped your new fedi into the group chat
<2023-01-11T19:53:17.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I am not your friend
<2023-01-11T19:53:28.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I TRIED TO BE YOUR FRIEND
<2023-01-11T19:53:34.000Z> AWIVR: well you hate me so I don't expect you to be
<2023-01-11T19:53:35.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I WANTED TO BE YOUR FRIEND
<2023-01-11T19:53:49.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: but you treated me like shit
<2023-01-11T19:53:53.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: lied to me
<2023-01-11T19:53:55.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: used me
<2023-01-11T19:54:05.000Z> AWIVR: I don't think I did any of those things 
<2023-01-11T19:54:18.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: of course you don't
<2023-01-11T19:54:27.000Z> AWIVR: but I did what I had to do when he started going ballistic and suicidal 
<2023-01-11T19:54:36.000Z> AWIVR: which was cut ties with you
<2023-01-11T19:55:19.000Z> AWIVR: the entire situation was very dramatic 
<2023-01-11T19:55:51.000Z> AWIVR: so sorry you feel that way and I understand why you're upset at me but I did what I did for a reason 
<2023-01-11T19:57:04.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: right
<2023-01-11T19:57:09.000Z> AWIVR: mhm
<2023-01-11T19:57:45.000Z> AWIVR: I did not expect him to freak out like he did when he found out you and I were talking 
<2023-01-11T19:58:23.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: why did you even talk to me in the first place?
<2023-01-11T19:58:35.000Z> AWIVR: idk that was months ago 
<2023-01-11T19:58:44.000Z> AWIVR: I haven't put much thought into it since then 
<2023-01-11T19:58:58.000Z> AWIVR: my focus was making sure he was going to get over his shit 
<2023-01-11T19:59:16.000Z> AWIVR: and he eventually did 
<2023-01-11T19:59:39.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: then he shouldn't have messaged me
<2023-01-11T20:00:05.000Z> AWIVR: he was trying to get back with you like all of last year 
<2023-01-11T20:00:37.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: yeah. and the moment I wanted to too he told me to fuck off
<2023-01-11T20:00:41.000Z> AWIVR: he said you would talk a lot for a day or two and then you would disappear for 3 or 4 days 
<2023-01-11T20:00:53.000Z> AWIVR: he got tired of it lol.
<2023-01-11T20:01:21.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: HE SAID HE WANTED TIME TO DEAL WITH SCHOOL
<2023-01-11T20:01:31.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: HE WAS SUPPOSED TO MESSAGE ME
<2023-01-11T20:02:06.000Z> AWIVR: he got tired of it
<2023-01-11T20:02:15.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: of what?
<2023-01-11T20:02:31.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you don't know what you're talking about
<2023-01-11T20:02:35.000Z> AWIVR: he saw you flirting with guys on twitter and liking social media posts instead of talking to him
<2023-01-11T20:02:45.000Z> AWIVR: I know what I'm talking about lol. him and I never stopped talking 
<2023-01-11T20:02:52.000Z> AWIVR: even though he told you we did
<2023-01-11T20:03:15.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I responded to every message he ever send me
<2023-01-11T20:03:29.000Z> AWIVR: he said you were uninterested 
<2023-01-11T20:03:30.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: when he said he wanted some time I waited for him
<2023-01-11T20:03:46.000Z> AWIVR: I mean we're talking over the span of what 10 months
<2023-01-11T20:03:50.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: i was trying not to push him
<2023-01-11T20:03:53.000Z> AWIVR: this isn't just one occasion 
<2023-01-11T20:04:09.000Z> AWIVR: I am just telling you a broad overview of what the last 10 months have been 
<2023-01-11T20:04:45.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: well I'm telling you that this time last month we were in a good place
<2023-01-11T20:04:54.000Z> AWIVR: you're still in the same place 
<2023-01-11T20:05:00.000Z> AWIVR: he just has to cut ties with you
<2023-01-11T20:05:13.000Z> AWIVR: especially when you tell him about self harm and stuff 
<2023-01-11T20:05:29.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: spare me
<2023-01-11T20:05:32.000Z> AWIVR: I promise you he would rather not have things be this way 
<2023-01-11T20:05:37.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he doesn't give a shit
<2023-01-11T20:05:43.000Z> AWIVR: of course he does
<2023-01-11T20:05:47.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he made them this way
<2023-01-11T20:06:00.000Z> AWIVR: he was in love with you
<2023-01-11T20:06:04.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he gave me hope
<2023-01-11T20:06:12.000Z> AWIVR: it took him 10 months to fall out of love with you 
<2023-01-11T20:06:33.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: then last month he shouldn't have want to get back in touch
<2023-01-11T20:06:50.000Z> AWIVR: he always kept trying to make it work with you
<2023-01-11T20:06:57.000Z> AWIVR: even though I was the one who told him not to 
<2023-01-11T20:07:15.000Z> AWIVR: he eventually stopped telling me about messaging you because he knew I would disapprove 
<2023-01-11T20:07:35.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: and when i tried to make it work last month he just disapeared
<2023-01-11T20:07:49.000Z> AWIVR: well these last few weeks have been interesting to say the least lol
<2023-01-11T20:07:58.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: why are you talking to me
<2023-01-11T20:08:05.000Z> AWIVR: because you want to talk
<2023-01-11T20:08:05.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: what do you want
<2023-01-11T20:08:16.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I want to talk to Kevin
<2023-01-11T20:08:25.000Z> AWIVR: he can't talk to you
<2023-01-11T20:08:35.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: yes he can
<2023-01-11T20:08:45.000Z> AWIVR: he's in a relationship 
<2023-01-11T20:08:50.000Z> AWIVR: so that means he can't
<2023-01-11T20:09:06.000Z> AWIVR: can't, doesn't want to, however you want to phrase it 
<2023-01-11T20:09:20.000Z> AWIVR: it's his policy you know that
<2023-01-11T20:09:31.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: what do you want from me?
<2023-01-11T20:09:37.000Z> AWIVR: nothing in particular 
<2023-01-11T20:10:12.000Z> AWIVR: I am just here existing in the world as a person with nothing to gain or lose in this situation 
<2023-01-11T20:10:49.000Z> AWIVR: the least I can do is offer you some closure 
<2023-01-11T20:11:02.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: it's not from you I need closure
<2023-01-11T20:11:22.000Z> AWIVR: I haven't been able to offer it until just now because of reasons we already discussed 
<2023-01-11T20:11:37.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you don't care
<2023-01-11T20:11:59.000Z> AWIVR: I don't particularly feel one way or another to be honest 
<2023-01-11T20:12:00.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you're just here to mess with me
<2023-01-11T20:12:04.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: like you always did
<2023-01-11T20:12:07.000Z> AWIVR: I'm not messing with you lol
<2023-01-11T20:12:17.000Z> AWIVR: you're asking me questions and I am telling you answers 
<2023-01-11T20:12:25.000Z> AWIVR: I have no reason to sugar coat anything or lie to you 
<2023-01-11T20:12:43.000Z> AWIVR: I don't gain or lose anything 
<2023-01-11T20:13:22.000Z> AWIVR: I am offering you my presence to do with what you please 
<2023-01-11T20:13:26.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: go away, Chris. I don't want you, I never did. I want Kevin. I always did. only him. I love him.
<2023-01-11T20:14:11.000Z> AWIVR: well that's not going to happen for the foreseeable future 
<2023-01-11T20:15:07.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: foreseeable future?
<2023-01-11T20:15:20.000Z> AWIVR: these two are very gay for each other and they are having no trouble getting along 
<2023-01-11T20:15:52.000Z> AWIVR: I can't even peel him away to watch our stupid shows 
<2023-01-11T20:16:15.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: god you're a bastard
<2023-01-11T20:16:19.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: fuck off
<2023-01-11T20:16:23.000Z> AWIVR: why
<2023-01-11T20:16:33.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: why what?
<2023-01-11T20:16:39.000Z> AWIVR: why am I a bastard
<2023-01-11T20:16:50.000Z> AWIVR: if your plan is to wait for him then you're going to be waiting for awhile 
<2023-01-11T20:17:16.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: fine
<2023-01-11T20:17:21.000Z> AWIVR: if your plan is to hang around until he comes around I'm letting you know he isn't going to succumb to a weakness 
<2023-01-11T20:17:50.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I'm not a weakness
<2023-01-11T20:18:06.000Z> AWIVR: he is in a committed relationship 
<2023-01-11T20:18:31.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: yes you've said that
<2023-01-11T20:18:37.000Z> AWIVR: speaking with another woman, especially one with romantic feelings is verbotten to him
<2023-01-11T20:19:06.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: it might work out between them, it might not
<2023-01-11T20:19:16.000Z> AWIVR: it's true 
<2023-01-11T20:19:27.000Z> AWIVR: but in the meantime you can't be trying to crawl up his leg
<2023-01-11T20:20:21.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I've already been rejected enough
<2023-01-11T20:20:44.000Z> AWIVR: you'll just have to take one more rejection 
<2023-01-11T20:20:55.000Z> AWIVR: you can handle it 
<2023-01-11T20:21:09.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: what are you talking about?
<2023-01-11T20:21:48.000Z> AWIVR: this is his rejection to you 
<2023-01-11T20:22:14.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: yes I already know he rejected me, you idiot
<2023-01-11T20:22:22.000Z> AWIVR: then what are you on about
<2023-01-11T20:22:35.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: what are you on about
<2023-01-11T20:22:54.000Z> AWIVR: he doesn't want to have to be mean to you about it
<2023-01-11T20:23:03.000Z> AWIVR: I don't think he even could unless you keep pushing him
<2023-01-11T20:23:08.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: so he's using you
<2023-01-11T20:23:21.000Z> AWIVR: I'm doing this on my own 
<2023-01-11T20:23:26.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he's been mean today
<2023-01-11T20:23:31.000Z> AWIVR: he has to be 
<2023-01-11T20:23:47.000Z> AWIVR: he's not keeping it secret from her either 
<2023-01-11T20:23:59.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: no. he had to explain. not disapear. and all this would've been avoided
<2023-01-11T20:24:18.000Z> AWIVR: well I am offering you an explanation 
<2023-01-11T20:24:23.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: i dont give a fuck what he keeps from her
<2023-01-11T20:24:40.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: it's not you who was meant to do it
<2023-01-11T20:24:41.000Z> AWIVR: I don't want my friends to be unhappy 
<2023-01-11T20:24:50.000Z> AWIVR: he can't do it anymore 
<2023-01-11T20:24:53.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: they're apparently not
<2023-01-11T20:25:11.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: then he should've done it before
<2023-01-11T20:25:17.000Z> AWIVR: but he didn't
<2023-01-11T20:25:17.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: before he comitted
<2023-01-11T20:25:37.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: that's why this is all on him
<2023-01-11T20:25:45.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: his fault i cut myself
<2023-01-11T20:25:46.000Z> AWIVR: so you'll just have to take my explanation instead 
<2023-01-11T20:25:52.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: his fault im suicidal
<2023-01-11T20:26:03.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: shove it up your ass
<2023-01-11T20:26:10.000Z> AWIVR: there are better reasons to kill yourself than over a boy 
<2023-01-11T20:26:21.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: there aren't
<2023-01-11T20:26:37.000Z> AWIVR: I can think of plenty of reasons to kill myself and none of them involve women 
<2023-01-11T20:26:38.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: not when ur in love
<2023-01-11T20:26:56.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you've never been in love
<2023-01-11T20:27:05.000Z> AWIVR: I'll bet I have 
<2023-01-11T20:27:22.000Z> AWIVR: I loved that mormon girl 
<2023-01-11T20:27:27.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you just said above you haven't
<2023-01-11T20:27:33.000Z> AWIVR: she broke my heart and my wiener 
<2023-01-11T20:27:37.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: Kevin claims you didn't
<2023-01-11T20:27:39.000Z> AWIVR: I got over it
<2023-01-11T20:28:07.000Z> AWIVR: I think she was the closest thing that I ever got to love 
<2023-01-11T20:28:46.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: that's not very close then
<2023-01-11T20:28:55.000Z> AWIVR: at the time I thought it was
<2023-01-11T20:29:00.000Z> AWIVR: I don't think much about her anymore
<2023-01-11T20:29:41.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: yes you do
<2023-01-11T20:29:43.000Z> AWIVR: I moved a girl across the country to be with me last year 
<2023-01-11T20:29:52.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I heard
<2023-01-11T20:29:58.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: moron
<2023-01-11T20:30:00.000Z> AWIVR: after 6 months I realize I felt nothing for her and now she's gone
<2023-01-11T20:30:17.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: good
<2023-01-11T20:30:18.000Z> AWIVR: I don't think I feel much of anything anymore lol. 
<2023-01-11T20:30:25.000Z> AWIVR: it's a weird way to be
<2023-01-11T20:30:38.000Z> AWIVR: but I accept it
<2023-01-11T20:31:24.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: well you were just dumped for your best friend
<2023-01-11T20:32:35.000Z> AWIVR: things don't always work out
<2023-01-11T20:32:43.000Z> AWIVR: in fact most of the time it doesn't work out 
<2023-01-11T20:32:47.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: clearly
<2023-01-11T20:33:15.000Z> AWIVR: it's okay though.
<2023-01-11T20:33:28.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you know what's funny
<2023-01-11T20:33:37.000Z> AWIVR: clowns are kind of funny 
<2023-01-11T20:33:44.000Z> AWIVR: chupi looks funny 
<2023-01-11T20:33:58.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: i was ready to buy a ticket to the states today
<2023-01-11T20:34:06.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: spend all my savings
<2023-01-11T20:34:13.000Z> AWIVR: that would've been funny 
<2023-01-11T20:34:19.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: yeah
<2023-01-11T20:34:28.000Z> AWIVR: do you know he was freaking out for months 
<2023-01-11T20:34:37.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: only to have the door shut in my face
<2023-01-11T20:34:39.000Z> AWIVR: that if you ever came here there would be nothing to show you
<2023-01-11T20:34:59.000Z> AWIVR: remember how we walked around VR polan
<2023-01-11T20:35:10.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: yes
<2023-01-11T20:35:12.000Z> AWIVR: saw all the cool things
<2023-01-11T20:35:18.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: yeah
<2023-01-11T20:35:27.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: are you gonna come to poland
<2023-01-11T20:35:37.000Z> AWIVR: he was freaking out because if you walked around VR america you would just see pod storage next to a mc donalds next to another pod storage
<2023-01-11T20:35:55.000Z> AWIVR: next to a bail bonds place next to a taco bell next to a pod storage 
<2023-01-11T20:36:15.000Z> AWIVR: he was freaking out that when you came here he would have nothing cool to show you
<2023-01-11T20:36:17.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: i wish i had come
<2023-01-11T20:36:29.000Z> AWIVR: it would've been sad if you did
<2023-01-11T20:36:33.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: i regret not doing it
<2023-01-11T20:36:42.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: why
<2023-01-11T20:36:52.000Z> AWIVR: because you would've had the door closed in your face
<2023-01-11T20:37:20.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: i meant before
<2023-01-11T20:37:29.000Z> AWIVR: it still would've been sad
<2023-01-11T20:37:36.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: why
<2023-01-11T20:37:38.000Z> AWIVR: all we have is mcdonalds and pod storage 
<2023-01-11T20:37:43.000Z> AWIVR: and infinity niggers 
<2023-01-11T20:37:50.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: that's fine
<2023-01-11T20:38:07.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: would you do me a favor?
<2023-01-11T20:38:09.000Z> AWIVR: this is the worst country on earth 
<2023-01-11T20:38:16.000Z> AWIVR: sure if I can
<2023-01-11T20:38:55.000Z> AWIVR: I'm using my poland money to go to japan in a couple of months 
<2023-01-11T20:39:19.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: can you just tell Kevin I'm really sorry I hurt him
<2023-01-11T20:39:33.000Z> AWIVR: he knows you don't mean him harm
<2023-01-11T20:39:54.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: can you just fucking tell him that ffs
<2023-01-11T20:40:02.000Z> AWIVR: I can't
<2023-01-11T20:40:06.000Z> AWIVR: but he knows 
<2023-01-11T20:40:24.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: fuck you too then
<2023-01-11T20:41:03.000Z> AWIVR: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
<2023-01-11T20:41:20.000Z> AWIVR: you know why I can't 
<2023-01-11T20:41:56.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: no
<2023-01-11T20:41:58.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: i dont
<2023-01-11T20:42:11.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: im not asking you to tell him i love him
<2023-01-11T20:42:15.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: or want him back
<2023-01-11T20:42:19.000Z> AWIVR: you cannot exist in the same reality as his gf 
<2023-01-11T20:42:22.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: im admiting wrongdoing
<2023-01-11T20:42:28.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: asking for forgivness
<2023-01-11T20:42:42.000Z> AWIVR: you are a ghost now 
<2023-01-11T20:42:57.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: fuck you
<2023-01-11T20:43:09.000Z> AWIVR: it's not my policy 
<2023-01-11T20:43:15.000Z> AWIVR: don't shoot the messenger 
<2023-01-11T20:43:23.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: oh no
<2023-01-11T20:43:25.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: i will
<2023-01-11T20:43:34.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: if i cant tell him that
<2023-01-11T20:43:37.000Z> AWIVR: I imagine you are not a very good shot anyways 
<2023-01-11T20:43:38.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: i will tell you
<2023-01-11T20:43:41.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: fuck you
<2023-01-11T20:43:46.000Z> AWIVR: you can tell me 
<2023-01-11T20:43:52.000Z> AWIVR: it doesn't bother me lol
<2023-01-11T20:43:53.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: fuck you
<2023-01-11T20:43:58.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: fuck Kevin
<2023-01-11T20:44:05.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: and fuck your whore friend
<2023-01-11T20:44:09.000Z> AWIVR: she's a nice lady 
<2023-01-11T20:44:22.000Z> AWIVR: so are you 
<2023-01-11T20:44:35.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: she's a whore who hoped to fuck you
<2023-01-11T20:44:36.000Z> AWIVR: well, at least you can be
<2023-01-11T20:44:49.000Z> AWIVR: yeah but I was unavailable 
<2023-01-11T20:45:11.000Z> AWIVR: I do not want to fuck anybody anymore lol.
<2023-01-11T20:45:15.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: and the moment you change your mind and feel lonely you'll ask her to come back and she will
<2023-01-11T20:45:22.000Z> AWIVR: his gf?
<2023-01-11T20:45:22.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: and you'll hurt Kevin again
<2023-01-11T20:45:29.000Z> AWIVR: no I wouldn't do that to him
<2023-01-11T20:45:39.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: YOU DID THAT TO HIM ALREADY
<2023-01-11T20:45:49.000Z> AWIVR: and I regret it 
<2023-01-11T20:45:54.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you're the most toxic friend ever
<2023-01-11T20:46:01.000Z> AWIVR: I did not expect him to fly off the rails like he did
<2023-01-11T20:46:14.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: the only reason he talks to you is because he has no one eles
<2023-01-11T20:46:23.000Z> AWIVR: we are better friends now because of it
<2023-01-11T20:46:50.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you'll just hurt him again
<2023-01-11T20:46:54.000Z> AWIVR: nah
<2023-01-11T20:46:57.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: the first chance you have
<2023-01-11T20:47:10.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you won' t be able to help yourself
<2023-01-11T20:47:17.000Z> AWIVR: he and I talked more in the last year than I've talked to any of my other so called best friends in years 
<2023-01-11T20:47:19.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: cause you're a sociopath
<2023-01-11T20:47:34.000Z> AWIVR: I had some character growth since then lol.
<2023-01-11T20:47:47.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: it doesn't show
<2023-01-11T20:48:00.000Z> AWIVR: well this is the first time you and I are talking since then
<2023-01-11T20:48:16.000Z> AWIVR: to my credit did I ever try to slide into your DMs after that 
<2023-01-11T20:48:41.000Z> AWIVR: I'm not as slimey as you think I am
<2023-01-11T20:49:06.000Z> AWIVR: I did not expect him to implode the way he did and I worked really hard to build him back up again 
<2023-01-11T20:49:39.000Z> AWIVR: and now he can finally have a happy committed relationship again and I am very happy for him 
<2023-01-11T20:51:00.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I still don't understand what you want from me
<2023-01-11T20:51:16.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: what you want to be friends with me?
<2023-01-11T20:51:24.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: date me?
<2023-01-11T20:51:26.000Z> AWIVR: I am offering you closure that you're not going to get from him 
<2023-01-11T20:51:28.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: what
<2023-01-11T20:51:42.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: right
<2023-01-11T20:51:45.000Z> AWIVR: I consider you a friend 
<2023-01-11T20:51:54.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: well that's not how closure works
<2023-01-11T20:51:58.000Z> AWIVR: you didn't do anything to make me stop wanting to be friends with you
<2023-01-11T20:52:16.000Z> AWIVR: it's the best closure you're going to get for now
<2023-01-11T20:52:33.000Z> AWIVR: if you don't want it I'm not going to force it on you, I'm just offering 
<2023-01-11T20:52:34.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: so are you going to keep talking to me?
<2023-01-11T20:53:04.000Z> AWIVR: I will continue to make myself available for you
<2023-01-11T20:53:27.000Z> AWIVR: you can tell me to fuck off as much as you need to 
<2023-01-11T20:53:41.000Z> AWIVR: it's not going to hurt my feelings 
<2023-01-11T20:53:45.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: yeah, that's not friendship
<2023-01-11T20:53:59.000Z> AWIVR: you don't have to be friends with me 
<2023-01-11T20:54:13.000Z> AWIVR: it's an offering 
<2023-01-11T20:54:18.000Z> AWIVR: I see you're going through a lot 
<2023-01-11T20:54:29.000Z> AWIVR: and I want my friends to be happy 
<2023-01-11T20:55:09.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you have three friends here. only two can be happy
<2023-01-11T20:55:17.000Z> AWIVR: all three can be happy 
<2023-01-11T20:55:21.000Z> AWIVR: it might take some time 
<2023-01-11T20:55:36.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: no
<2023-01-11T20:55:48.000Z> AWIVR: I disagree 
<2023-01-11T20:55:49.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I was happy with Kevin
<2023-01-11T20:55:59.000Z> AWIVR: you will find something else to make you happy
<2023-01-11T20:56:14.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: hopefully a gun
<2023-01-11T20:56:22.000Z> AWIVR: guns are hard to come by in polan
<2023-01-11T20:58:10.000Z> AWIVR: you don't have to be happy 
<2023-01-11T20:58:14.000Z> AWIVR: you can just be 
<2023-01-11T20:58:22.000Z> AWIVR: that's what I do
<2023-01-12T12:46:56.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: https://chudbuds.lol/@AWIVR@poa.st/posts/ARZ9GqF1q3MutzKIl6
<2023-01-12T12:47:04.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: what a friend you are indeed
<2023-01-12T12:47:34.000Z> AWIVR attached file https://i.poastcdn.org/0b4a8ce3b1536e07b443616392768cc32284347df6ec070c7728c7bf8aad699c.png
<2023-01-12T12:48:17.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: kick me while I'm down?
<2023-01-12T12:48:45.000Z> AWIVR: you seem to be doing a lot better today
<2023-01-12T12:49:02.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: am I
<2023-01-12T12:49:08.000Z> AWIVR: it seems like it
<2023-01-12T12:49:12.000Z> AWIVR: I'm glad
<2023-01-12T12:49:18.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: how can you tell
<2023-01-12T12:49:28.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: no you're not
<2023-01-12T12:49:33.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: you don't give a shit
<2023-01-12T12:49:34.000Z> AWIVR: well the tl isn't all doomjacks 
<2023-01-12T12:49:46.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: just sad songs
<2023-01-12T12:50:53.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I'm not doing better
<2023-01-12T12:51:00.000Z> AWIVR: you always listen to sad songs
<2023-01-12T12:51:21.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I had to beg a friend to come over to keep me company so I don't cut myself again
<2023-01-12T12:51:32.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: and tomorrow I'm going to the hospital
<2023-01-12T12:52:21.000Z> AWIVR: good
<2023-01-12T12:52:56.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: it's good I'm seeking help. it's not good it's Kevin who caused this
<2023-01-12T12:53:19.000Z> AWIVR: you will get better
<2023-01-12T12:53:47.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: I know I will
<2023-01-12T12:53:57.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: but Kevin won't
<2023-01-12T12:55:26.000Z> AWIVR: he's doing fine
<2023-01-12T12:55:35.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: for now
<2023-01-12T12:55:41.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: but this won't last
<2023-01-12T12:55:52.000Z> AWIVR: I guess we'll see
<2023-01-12T12:55:59.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: he's dating your sloppy seconds after all
<2023-01-12T12:56:52.000Z> AWIVR: she's not that sloppy 
<2023-01-12T12:57:04.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: she liked you
<2023-01-12T12:57:45.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: it's not like they're gonna have kids
<2023-01-12T12:58:00.000Z> AWIVR: she wants kids
<2023-01-12T12:58:04.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: so it's a waste of time
<2023-01-12T12:58:40.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: when's the wedding then
<2023-01-12T13:01:50.000Z> AWIVR: she's still moving back to the states so some time after that probably 
<2023-01-12T13:02:33.000Z> meetra_surik@chudbuds.lol: thanks
<2023-01-12T13:04:30.000Z> AWIVR: for what